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00:00All right, I can't tell if anyone's watching this yet. Oh, there we go. Hi! Hello, first people. Hi! Sorry, I haven't done this in a long time, so I'm kind of like, I wish I could tell you guys how hot my face is, because I get really nervous about, like, talking to people after, I don't talk to people often.
00:28Hi! Anyway, I missed you guys. Hi! Hi! It probably doesn't help that I'm wearing a sweater. I'm sweating a gross amount right now. Anyway, I've missed you guys. Hi! Lady Survival Wow. Hi! I know you. I know you. And I miss you. And I want to take another picture together someday.
00:46Okay. How are you guys doing? I don't even know what day it is. Nope. Can't check the day, because I'm on my phone right now. Oh, yeah, it's the 26th. Anyway. Hi! Hi, hi, hi, hi! In Brooklyn. Hi!
01:01Hi! Um, so, how are you guys doing? Good? Good? Amazing? I'm doing okay. Actually, I had a bit of a mental breakdown, um, on the car ride back from Subway earlier today, because, um, I mean, I'm sure a lot of you know that, um, the second book in my series is coming out tomorrow.
01:24Look at me shaking. Um, the second book in my series is coming out tomorrow, and it didn't really hit me that that was happening until I had my Subway salad in my lap, and I practically threw it. It was just so, it's crazy.
01:40You're cold? Well, I should be cold, but, um, I'm so nervous and hyped up right now that my body temperature just shot up by, like, 20 degrees.
01:52That's, that's, that's actually would kill me. But, anyway. I know, it's tomorrow, right? It's crazy. Hmm? Yeah, so, you live 15 minutes from Evermore? Dude! Oh, I'm so jealous. I'm going back in summertime. Um, sorry, someone was asking another question, and I was thinking about that.
02:15Anyway, Evermore. So good. I'm going back in summertime for their, like, uh, summer event with the dragons, um, which is coincidentally called Mythos, which is where the second book of my series starts, except it's called Mythos.
02:32Anyway, um, okay, so, another person. Look at this. Like, this is the most anime hair thing I've ever seen in my life. I can't even control it.
02:44Go away. Anyway, so, I'm saying anyway a lot. Um, this is a version of, first off, my series, if you don't know already, is called Mooncallers.
02:56Um, but, this is a version of the book that will probably never be available to anybody but me and one person that I sent it to.
03:06Look! It says not for resale on it. Um, the first time around, I was able to get a proof copy that didn't have this band on it, but I kind of switched, um, publishing companies this time because, uh, they actually combined,
03:21because I used to be on CreateSpace for Amazon and now I'm on KDP, which is another branch of Amazon.
03:27Anyway, so, they require all proofs to have this big, ugly thingy on it.
03:32So, that's why I haven't posted any pictures of the paperback one, but, um, people were wondering if there was going to be a paperback version.
03:39But, unlike the first one, which is, this is the first one, by the way, which my copy is, like, so old and disgusting,
03:46and this is probably all makeup, because I love to get makeup on everything, apparently.
03:53Look it! Hardcover! Yay!
03:56So, um, this is coming out tomorrow, too, and I'm so happy about it.
04:00Look how shiny it is! Woo! Yay!
04:04Anyway, so, um, sort of on but off topic of how manga is it?
04:11Not as manga as I was like. Um, dude, a manga of red colors? Can you imagine? That would be so, damn.
04:21Okay, anyway, you're giving me ideas I shouldn't have. Um, but, uh, I already forgot.
04:29Anyway, oh, how much is it going to be? Um, the first book was $13.99 for paperback.
04:36The second one is $15.60, because it's, um, uh, quite a bit longer.
04:44It's about math. Almost 20,000 words longer than the first book.
04:50And it also has five more chapters, which means five more chapter headers.
04:55Um, so, like, let's see, this one, for example.
04:59What do I mean by chapter headers?
05:01So, there's 35 images, not including the maps in the beginning.
05:06Um, so that's a lot of ink cost, so therefore it costs more to print.
05:12And so my minimum was $15.52, um, but that would drive me crazy if it was $15.52, so I made it $15.60.
05:23Yeah, anyway, so, second book, $15.60.
05:27This one, hardcover, is unfortunately about $30.
05:31I think, I haven't really checked the, well, I actually said the price, but I can't remember it.
05:38Um, but this one's about $30 because the production is just, like, insane.
05:43Um, and it's, you could probably kill someone with this, honestly.
05:47Just scratch that, never mind.
05:50Don't, don't kill someone with my book.
05:52I would be very sad just knowing that my hardcover is a murder weapon.
05:59Actually, would it be so bad?
06:01Yes, it would.
06:01Don't listen to me.
06:03Okay.
06:04Um, but someone asked a second ago if I would ever make an art book.
06:11Yeah.
06:11Um, I have all of the, uh, line art for all of the chapter headers, which is, in total, between the first and second books, um, 65.
06:24So, I could make a pretty, pretty, pretty, pretty cool art book, I think.
06:30I could make several because the third one is already 40 chapters so far, and it's, um, 95,000 words.
06:39So, we're on a roll here.
06:41And I love Brazil.
06:43Thanks for loving me.
06:45What's the series called?
06:46Um, it's called Moon Collars.
06:48Um, so, this is the first one.
06:51Right here.
06:51Oops.
06:53This is the first one.
06:54Pretty clever.
06:55Uh, I'll tell you a fun fact about this afterwards.
06:58And this is the second one that's coming out tomorrow.
07:01Holy shit.
07:02Uh, so, yeah.
07:04It's, like, dark fantasy, um, but also kind of sci-fi, and also, um, like,
07:11it's, it's turning into, like, kind of a psychological thriller, actually.
07:15But, um, fun fact about this, uh, this cover.
07:19My friend Ted did it, and I thought that he did it with an Apple Pencil on his iPad, which is impressive enough.
07:25But he told me that he didn't have, um, an Apple Pencil when he did this one.
07:31So, he actually drew this whole cover with his finger.
07:34God, I need to sit down.
07:37I'm already sitting down.
07:39That's just absurd.
07:40Anyway.
07:42Um, hey from Australia.
07:44You got any gigantic spiders over there?
07:47Yeah.
07:47I already know.
07:48That's why I'm not going to Australia.
07:50But, maybe someday.
07:52Because you guys got a lot of other cool stuff.
07:54I just always hone in on the spiders, because that's my worst nightmare.
07:59Would I see if somebody did fan art for you?
08:01Yeah, me.
08:02Um, yes.
08:03Uh, I don't check often, because social media does kind of make me nervous, to be totally honest.
08:10Um, most of the time I just, like, either post nothing, or post a picture, exit out right away.
08:18But, um, Twitter is different.
08:20Um, Twitter I can actually sit there and do.
08:24I just, I don't know, I can't really justify why I get nervous, but I do.
08:29Anyway.
08:31Um, book signing and events.
08:32Bro, when I get to that point, you bet I will do some book signing.
08:37First off, it'll be really good for me to get out of the house.
08:40Um, because currently I'm living in the middle of the Nevada desert, and don't have much to do.
08:46Uh, secondly.
08:49It would be freaking awesome.
08:50Um, so, yes.
08:53Um, I don't really know how to go about that yet.
08:56I'm really just kind of teaching myself how to do everything.
09:01Um, like, luckily I have help with the art aspect, but, like, I'm teaching myself how to format, how to write.
09:07Um, because, you know, at first my writing style was, like, very literal, and it was just kind of not grammatically pleasing.
09:15Um, but now it's, like, kind of really picking up speed.
09:18Uh, but yeah, I have to do the formatting myself, all the math to calculate, like, the cover size, um, the spine width, headers, everything.
09:27And it's just really, it can be a lot.
09:30But, um, yeah.
09:32Someday I'll learn enough to actually do book signings.
09:36Um, am I going to have one signed by me?
09:39I actually really want to do that.
09:41And I'm kind of thinking about doing that.
09:43The only thing is that I can't, um, this is the sad part.
09:47I literally cannot order, like, a copy of this without this ugly band on it yet.
09:53Like, even as the author, I can't request a copy without that until the book itself is out.
09:58So I might buy, like, 20, 30 copies or something once it's actually out, sign them all, or do, like, a raffle or something, and then, um, sign them all personally for you guys.
10:10So, that'd be fun.
10:12Yee-hee!
10:13It'll be a lot of, what's it called, mailing, but I have to handle it.
10:19Did the 27th come really quick?
10:20Yeah!
10:21Well, it felt really slow for me because I was doing, like, all those horoscopes every day on Twitter.
10:25Um, which, hello?
10:29Okay, sorry.
10:30My internet is dying.
10:33Um, if you don't follow my Twitter, I've been doing, like, horoscopes every single day for all 12 months.
10:40That was quite an undertaking.
10:43Um, and I was doing it for 30 days, so that's, like, I don't know how many.
10:46I don't want to do math.
10:47But, um, anyway.
10:49So, yeah.
10:52It felt really slow to me.
10:54But, um, I'm focused.
10:56Oh, tomorrow's your birthday?
10:58Happy birthday, Lisa!
10:59Hi!
11:00Um, also, Tanya, I said I would say hello.
11:04So, hi!
11:05Um, do I still play WoW?
11:08Fun, fun, fun story.
11:10Um, I didn't for, like, two years.
11:14And then I had this weird gotta-play-wow-right-now feeling a couple months ago.
11:21Played, like, all hours of the day for a whole month.
11:25And hardly got anything done aside from, um, a couple of 120s.
11:32But, like, ugh.
11:34And I do want to play.
11:36Like, I think about it at least once a day.
11:37Um, WoW, like, it never gets old to me.
11:43And especially the mounts.
11:45How do I feel about Sylvanas currently?
11:47Well, I haven't played any new patch, but, um, from Battle of Azeroth, from what I've played, uh, I mean, I can understand her standpoint.
12:01But I don't exactly approve it.
12:05Um, I think she's kind of going off the rails a bit.
12:10Which, I mean, is totally- it fits her character completely.
12:14I mean, she's been screwed over more than enough times.
12:18It's time for her to screw over someone else.
12:21Again.
12:22But, anyway.
12:22Okay.
12:23Enough of El Sylvanas.
12:24Sorry.
12:24Or else I'll just keep going and then there'll be, like, conspiracy theories and we don't want that.
12:29So, I'm just gonna have it.
12:32Take a- take a drink.
12:32Take a breath.
12:33My friend got me this cup.
12:35Her name's Bree.
12:36She also sent me this septum ring, which, I don't know if you guys remember, but I used to have this septum ring, like, years ago.
12:41But I lost it.
12:42Or, like, it broke.
12:43The threading broke.
12:44And then I couldn't buy it anymore.
12:45And she sent me one.
12:46I'm so happy.
12:47Anyway.
12:47Um.
12:50Where can you purchase my books?
12:52Um.
12:53Also, thank you for being a fan of my YouTube videos.
12:55I'm going to talk about that.
12:57Um.
12:57But.
12:58You can purchase the books, um, on Amazon.
13:01If you just search, uh, Nooncallers.
13:06It's just one word.
13:07M-O-O-N-C-A-L-L-E-R-S.
13:10Uh.
13:10It'll pop up.
13:11First things.
13:12Um.
13:13The first one is blue.
13:14The second one is purple.
13:16So.
13:16That's it.
13:17Um.
13:18Do I feel better in myself now that I don't do YouTube?
13:21This is a perfect place to start this topic.
13:25Um.
13:26Yes.
13:27Uh.
13:28I feel like YouTube, um.
13:32When I was younger, it was a good medium for me.
13:37Um.
13:38And I still think that I could do it.
13:40Just not at all in the same way.
13:42I cannot keep up this bubbly personality, um, that I used to use in YouTube videos all the time.
13:49Because that really was, for the most part, um, like a, not an act per se, but it was, it was a persona that I would put on.
14:03Um.
14:04Um.
14:04Because, typically, I mean, my voice isn't as high as it was in most of the videos that I made, um, first off.
14:12And I'm also, I very, very, very enjoy being alone and, um, quiet.
14:19I don't usually talk.
14:21Like, unless spoken to, I do not speak most of the time.
14:25And it's always been that way.
14:27Um.
14:27So, doing YouTube videos, I think, after a while just got to be way too much for me.
14:33I mean, as was probably obvious when I left YouTube, um, and deleted everything.
14:39Um, I don't think that's necessary.
14:41This time, I'm in a much better place now.
14:43However, I think I need to do, um, focus on YouTube only in very careful moderation.
14:52Um.
14:53Because it's, it's, it's really not what makes me happy.
14:56It isn't.
14:57I prefer talking, talking in indirect ways, which is why I write.
15:02Um, because, like, there's more about my life in what I'm writing than I've ever put into a single YouTube video.
15:10Or all of my YouTube videos combined.
15:12And, um, I would much rather have something in writing form, um, than, you know, make a couple videos about makeup.
15:22Or hair.
15:23Or just talking.
15:26You know, uh, because that just doesn't really interest me.
15:30I, I mean, I hardly wear makeup, like, really.
15:32This is a, this, in the past couple days, has been the first time I've actually worn makeup for more than one, like, one or two hours.
15:41In, like, a couple months.
15:43So, um, yeah, that's, that's mainly why I, oh, no, no, you don't have to be sorry for asking.
15:50I mean, I haven't really addressed it, so I think it would be a good time for me to address it.
15:55Uh, I do plan on making, um, some videos at some point.
16:00Like, my YouTube channel's not, you know, six feet under.
16:04Um, well, it probably is in terms of views, but I really don't care.
16:08Uh, but, um, sometime I might just make some videos to talk about what I love to do.
16:15So, um, if I were to make videos again, it would probably be about, um, what I do each day, which is writing and what I've learned from it.
16:25Because I learn more than just, you know, the academic, um, aspects of it.
16:31Like, I've learned so much about myself and other people.
16:34How other people think, how I think.
16:36Um, so, yeah.
16:40That's, that's what it would be about.
16:41But, um, don't lose hope that I'll never, ever, you know, show up on video again.
16:45That's probably not the case, because I do think about it every single day.
16:49Sometimes it's not good things, but sometimes it's like, oh, that would be, that would be a cool idea.
16:54Um, what inspired me to create my own little world for my stories?
16:58Like, did I just think of it, or how did I come up with it and stuff?
17:00Okay, uh, long story.
17:02Long, long, long, long.
17:03Uh, like, my whole life long.
17:05Um, I have, by some means, had this, like, the Mooncallers universe in my head since, um, probably before I can remember.
17:19Because, um, there's even, like, this book that I wrote for a school project when I was in fourth grade that I completely forgot about until I started writing Mooncallers.
17:29And it has, there are so many themes from that fourth grade project book that, um, are in Mooncallers without me even realizing.
17:40So, it's been, it's been in my head for, you know, fourth grade, so I was nine.
17:48Um, and I'm 24 now.
17:50So, it's, it's, it's been incubating, um, uh, for a really long time.
17:57Um, and thank you for thinking I'm pretty.
18:00You don't have to be sorry for saying that.
18:01Um, but, uh, then, in 2012, I was at my friend Lassa's house, uh, and I just got this idea that I thought was new, but really it was in there the whole time, um, for a goddess named Aseran.
18:20Um, which, if you haven't read the first book, that's Aseran.
18:24And no, I'm not a Gemini, I'm a Leo.
18:27Um, but I got this idea for a name of Aseran.
18:32And made a Skyrim character named Aseran first.
18:36And then I started outlining a world called Amnibun.
18:39Um, and the, the outline itself, like, I didn't even have a story in place.
18:44It was just the outline was, oh god, it was, it had to have been maybe 20, 30 pages of just history of the world.
18:55Um, and then I started writing a book based on that, which was about 20 pages long.
19:05It didn't go anywhere.
19:07Stopped until 2016, September 29th.
19:1019th, September 19th.
19:12Um, which is when Mooncaller started, just as a way for me to cope with being really, really sad.
19:19So, Mooncaller's pretty much my idea of creating friends when I couldn't have any.
19:24Um, and then I got, I fell in love with it so much that I decided I wanted to share it with people.
19:31And now it's a six series book.
19:33Uh, or six book series.
19:35Uh, when it was supposed to be one.
19:39Uh, yeah.
19:40So, it started like that.
19:43Uh, and someone also asked about ways to stop writer's block, or if I've ever experienced it.
19:51Um, I've experienced it mildly, I would say.
19:54Uh, I've never had, like, a big, I can't do this, I can't think, I can't find a way around it sort of thing.
20:03Um, which I feel like is a, it's, it's pretty good for having been doing this for, like, two and a half years, almost.
20:08Um, but, uh, no, my, my method of getting past it right away.
20:17Uh, yes, there will be six books.
20:19Um, my method of getting past it right away is, I notice that I'm focusing way too much on one particular part of the story.
20:26Um, and the best thing to do with that, put it on hold, go to the next chapter, or start writing the end of the book.
20:34Or, you know, like, start in the middle.
20:37Something like that.
20:38Um, just jump around.
20:40It really doesn't matter when it comes to really first starting the story.
20:45It doesn't matter where you start, uh, in my opinion.
20:49Um, you could, like, with the third book, I started chapter 13.
20:54I already had a general idea of what was going to be in the first part, but I haven't even written the first part of the book yet.
21:01So, and that's, that's because I had a little thing of writer's block where I was like, I can't figure this out.
21:06And, frankly, I didn't want to waste weeks and weeks and weeks trying to figure it out.
21:10So I just moved on.
21:11So that's my, that's my, um, my advice for, uh, writer's block.
21:17How long does it take me to finish a chapter?
21:20On a good day, I can finish four chapters in a day.
21:24And each chapter is about 4,000, 5,000 words.
21:27Uh, because usually my, my minimum for writing, um, daily is 4,000.
21:34But I have gone up to, like, 12,000 plus per day.
21:39Um, you should, Braille and Avari?
21:42Oh, yeah.
21:43They, they, they started out, they were supposed to be a couple, like, right away.
21:48But there have been some changes that I'm not gonna, not gonna get into, uh, for a couple years.
21:57You hate reading, but you think you'll buy moon collars?
21:59Dude!
22:01Dude.
22:02Dude.
22:03That would be cool.
22:05That would be, that would be really cool.
22:06It would make me really happy.
22:07Um, because this, this is my life, actually.
22:12Um, why, did I work, rework the why a lot?
22:18Um, I didn't get to read that whole question.
22:21Uh, I'm sorry.
22:24So if you want to ask it again, I'll read it.
22:26Um, does my mind race a lot when I'm writing, like I can't stop?
22:29Yes.
22:30Um, but it's not that it's racing, because I feel like racing suggests that it's going too fast for me to keep up with.
22:36Um, that's just my opinion.
22:39But, um, I, I would say it, it just flows.
22:46It, it, it rushes.
22:49Yeah, it kinda, it kinda just gushes out, you know?
22:52Um, and it goes, it, it happens in intervals.
22:54Um, but, typically when it comes to the first right, it just spills the hell out of my face.
23:05Fingers.
23:06Brain.
23:06Something.
23:07Um, do it, does it ship worldwide?
23:11Yes.
23:12Um, it, I mean, there are some countries and some regions that just, um, wait.
23:20The why was a main character was needed or why the plot happened?
23:22Oh, gotcha.
23:24Um, I think it doesn't ship to, not sure.
23:33Some places, but, um, ebook is available pretty much everywhere.
23:38Uh, I know that the paperback and the hardcover are available in, like, Europe, uh, South America, um, Japan, I believe, uh, Canada, um, Spain.
23:49I mean, lots of other places.
23:52Um, will there ever be audio by Made for Men Colors?
23:57Uh, I want to do that.
24:00Uh, the only problem is that I have a very bad habit of laughing while I'm reading.
24:09Yeah, so, uh, it would probably take a lot of cuts for me to do an audiobook, but, um, I'm already working on, like, translations and things like that.
24:23Um, and audio is one thing I really want to do because, uh, I also want to put it in the Braille Institute, uh, which is a suggestion of my friend.
24:34Um, so, um, how do I get it published?
24:37Wouldn't even know how to go about it.
24:39Um, I do self-publishing, but I find it's actually a very, very good way to get started, um, in my opinion.
24:50I publish through KDP, which is, um, Kindle Direct Publishing.
24:54Um, so, you just pretty much write a book, format it, everything, give it to them, and bam, it's there.
25:07So that's, that's, that's really it.
25:08There's a lot more that goes into it in terms of calculating stuff, but, um, yeah.
25:14If you want to, if you want to get started, try KDP.
25:17Um, it should be kdp.amazon.com, but it might be different for Australia.
25:20Oh yeah, so, uh, I still follow your dogs on Instagram?
25:26Uh, good.
25:28Good, very good.
25:29Yeah, I love dogs, dogs, so good.
25:31Oh gosh, I live next to my aunt and uncle now, and they have, like, seven dogs?
25:38Yeah, it's, it's pretty much heaven.
25:40Um, do I have a job?
25:44I get a pretty good amount of money from just writing and promotion stuff.
25:49Uh, moon callers will be translated into Spanish.
25:53Um, I am hoping to do that, and I might be able to.
25:58Um, I'll have to talk to some people, but I think I'll be able to do that pretty soon.
26:04Um, thank you, Hylian princess.
26:09What happened to Zaya?
26:10Uh, he's, he's just like a few rooms over that way.
26:13Um, he's sleeping.
26:15He's, he's still gigantic.
26:18Uh, so, yeah.
26:20Have I ever sent my books to a publisher?
26:22No.
26:23Um, I plan to do that someday, but I kind of want to have full control over the series for now.
26:30Um, so, um, yeah.
26:33Someday, someday maybe I'll, I'll send it to a, uh, a publisher, but not, not today.
26:39Do I like Harry Potter?
26:43Yes.
26:44Yes, I will always like Harry Potter.
26:45The only, like, the only thing I wanted when I turned 11 was a note from Hogwarts saying that I was excited.
26:53Did I get it?
26:54There it is.
26:57But I did get a, uh, a handmade note from Hogwarts for my, like, uh, 16th, 17th birthday, so that was nice.
27:08You remember when I got Zaya as a kitten?
27:10Yeah, he was really small.
27:12Now he's, like, uh, 32, 33 pounds.
27:17Yeah.
27:18Not even kidding.
27:19Not even kidding.
27:19My cat, Zaya, is, like, 32, 33 pounds.
27:24It's crazy.
27:25Will my books ever be sold in stores?
27:26I hope so.
27:27Right now it has, um, it's activated for distribution to bookstores, but I think I might be missing something.
27:37Um.
27:39Or no one has just, no one's bought it yet.
27:41Which is fine.
27:42I mean, some, someday I'll get there.
27:45Someday I'll get there.
27:46Today might not be that day.
27:48But, I'll get there someday.
27:50I've missed you.
27:51You're a Slytherin?
27:54I'm a Ravenclaw.
27:56What up?
27:57Yay.
27:59Have I watched an anime called Black Clover?
28:01I have not.
28:02I don't usually, well, that's a lie.
28:04I was gonna say, I don't usually watch stuff, but I have been watching stuff quite frequently in the past couple months.
28:09I've been watching Hannibal, well, re-watching Hannibal, um, like, the series lately.
28:14I, god, that show is just, it's gotta, it's, uh, it gives me nightmares.
28:23Gives me nightmares.
28:24And I wish it wasn't canceled, because I love nightmares.
28:27Is that weird?
28:27I don't know.
28:28Um.
28:31Am I still in California?
28:32Absolutely not.
28:33Um, no, a couple years ago I moved to Portland, Oregon, and then in June, this past June, I moved to this tiny, tiny, tiny, tiny, tiny town in the middle of Nevada.
28:47So, yep.
28:50There's just desert and cowboys everywhere.
28:53So, that's, yeah.
28:58Mm-hmm.
28:59Bookstores will sometimes buy it if people are requesting the series often.
29:03Everybody go to Barnes & Noble and ask for moon callers.
29:06I don't care if you already own it.
29:08I don't have a Barnes & Noble near me, or I would go there 20 times in different disguises and ask for moon callers.
29:14Just so they would buy it.
29:15Sorry.
29:16That's, that's not right of me.
29:18I shouldn't.
29:19Anyway, it's good to dream.
29:20You know.
29:22Do I like it here?
29:23I feel like the only reason I like it so far is because Red Dead came out in October, and so playing that sort of made me feel better about living here.
29:37Um, it'll take some getting used to.
29:39Um, but it's quiet, and it snows sometimes, even if it's in the desert, which is odd.
29:45But I guess it's, like, right next to the Sierra Nevadas, so makes sense.
29:51Do I live alone or do I have a boo?
29:54Um, both.
29:55But I live with my mom.
29:57So, and I was living with, um, my friend who did my cover artwork, and his wife, also my amazing, beautiful friend.
30:06I posted a picture of her last night.
30:07Um, we were, uh, we were all, like, living together for several months, actually.
30:13So, now it's, it's just, we have a new house, so that's my bad.
30:19Except my room is undecorated, so I won't do a room tour yet, but I want to do that.
30:25Because room tours are pretty fun.
30:26And I really like, uh, interior decoration.
30:29I'm making this place look like a damn castle.
30:35Need that dress.
30:35Anyway, dress up as Gandalf and come to the front desk of Barnes & Noble and say, stock my book.
30:40Okay, I didn't read that whole thing, but there was Gandalf and going to Barnes & Noble, and I agree.
30:47Cheers to you.
30:49Mm-hmm.
30:49Um, I seem so happy.
30:52I'm pretty, I'm pretty damn up there.
30:55Yeah, um, I, if anything, I just feel, um, really myself.
31:01Which is, which is great.
31:03I don't, but it's, I mean, that seems like something everybody should just feel by default, right?
31:11But, uh, I really did not feel myself for a very, very, very, very, very long time.
31:16And now I do.
31:18Uh, so.
31:19Okay.
31:21That's, that's, I'm very happy.
31:24Anyway, so.
31:25Thank you for being happy for me, too.
31:27My night elf room is the best?
31:28Oh, hey.
31:30I didn't say this one wouldn't be a night elf room, okay?
31:32I mean, I've already got my super obnoxiously blue Christmas lights that I haven't hung up yet.
31:39Um.
31:41So, we'll get there.
31:43I mean, pretty much everything is blue in here.
31:46Uh, blue and silver.
31:47Blue and that's it.
31:50So, it'll be more like blue or silver.
31:52Um.
31:55Anyway.
31:57Drinking a Starbucks watching your favorite dad?
31:59Is that me?
32:01Is that me?
32:02Hmm.
32:03Cool.
32:04I am the dad, pretty much.
32:06What series do I watch?
32:08Well, I'm watching Hannibal now.
32:10Before that, watched, I watched Mindhunter.
32:14Before that, watched Silicon Valley.
32:18So, it jumps all around, really.
32:21Um.
32:22There's really no one thing that I watch.
32:25What color is my hair?
32:26Uh, well, it's, it's like white, silvery.
32:29Um.
32:30It looks kind of purple in this light.
32:33But it's, it's, it's like white, silver.
32:36And then, this is my natural hair color up here.
32:39This dark.
32:40Not this part.
32:42This part.
32:43Just pretty much black.
32:45So.
32:46Mm-hmm.
32:47Would I be down to see my lore in a video game?
32:50Another fun fact.
32:51Moon Colors actually started out.
32:53Uh.
32:54But, well.
32:57Okay.
32:57It keeps pausing because apparently my internet sucks out here in the desert.
33:01Um.
33:02But anyway.
33:03Uh.
33:03Moon Colors first started as like a biography for my WoW character.
33:08And then everything, nothing was in the WoW universe anymore.
33:13So, I just decided to change it all.
33:15Um.
33:15Because none of it was canon at all.
33:18Uh.
33:19But.
33:20I wanted Moon Colors to be a video game.
33:22So, I already have like all of these classes.
33:25And like class abilities and specs.
33:27Um.
33:27Set up.
33:28In some of my journals somewhere.
33:31So.
33:32Uh.
33:32To answer your question.
33:33Absolutely.
33:33I would love to see Moon Colors to be a video game someday.
33:36That would be great.
33:38Mm-hmm.
33:40How old am I?
33:41I am 24.
33:43Yes.
33:4524.
33:46Oh.
33:46It's pausing because of the hearts.
33:48I am sorry.
33:50I don't know where those are coming from.
33:52I don't do this often enough to know if that's, if I'm doing that.
33:56Or if you guys are doing that.
33:59Don't know.
33:59Anyway.
34:01Um.
34:02Can we meet up one day?
34:03I would love to do that.
34:05I mean, I love, I love meeting you guys.
34:07That's the thing.
34:07That's the thing that's like extra hard is, um.
34:09I guess it can be assumed when I say I don't want to make YouTube videos, that I just don't
34:15want to interact.
34:16But the thing is, I don't like to interact via social media very much.
34:21I, but in person, that's completely different.
34:24That's like, I will go to whatever length to interact with you.
34:29Um.
34:30So, I would love to meet up with you one day.
34:33That would be great.
34:35Where at doing the heart thing?
34:37Over there?
34:38Or maybe it's over here for you guys?
34:40I don't know.
34:40There's just like a stream of hearts.
34:42Like.
34:43Yeah.
34:44You're a self-published author too?
34:46Just them.
34:47Yeah.
34:48Yeah.
34:49No, I totally, um.
34:51It was actually kind of scary because, uh, I didn't know how to go about it and if it
34:59would work, um, doing self-publishing.
35:01But it's actually working out very well.
35:04And I like it because I can do whatever I want to my own series.
35:08Whenever I want.
35:09So, for new authors, I highly recommend it actually.
35:13Self-publishing.
35:14Um.
35:17And also, someone just said they want to do a Mooncaller's cosplay but don't know which
35:22character to cosplay.
35:24Um.
35:26I mean, I started out doing a Saren as my first Mooncaller's cosplay.
35:31And I look nothing like her.
35:33So, it really could be anybody.
35:35Like, whichever character that you feel the most attached to, believe me, I will scream
35:40if you cosplay them.
35:42I just, I love all of them equally.
35:43So, uh, it's just.
35:47That's, that's not true.
35:48Some of them I relate to more.
35:50I guess I should say.
35:51Yeah.
35:52Mm-hmm.
35:53This is crazy how far I've come.
35:55You remember my bad pick-up lines video?
35:57I don't.
35:58Which is weird.
35:59I mean, I remember making one.
36:01But I don't remember any of the video itself.
36:04But anyway.
36:07Yeah.
36:07Definitely, definitely come pretty far, I guess, in some direction.
36:10Um.
36:12Not to a goal yet, though.
36:15Oh, well.
36:17Um.
36:18I remember being so sad when I left.
36:21Oh.
36:22Oh, thank you.
36:23I mean.
36:24I know.
36:25I had to leave the internet, like, a couple years ago.
36:28And I thought it was going to be permanent.
36:30Um.
36:30I can't exactly say what brought me back.
36:34But.
36:35I mean, I'm glad I'm here now.
36:36And I won't be, like, ever actually leaving again.
36:39I know I take a lot of breaks.
36:40But that's just because I think about 50,000 times clearer when I'm not.
36:46Oops.
36:47Sorry.
36:47Like, my phone's charging and I had wires.
36:49Um.
36:53I think a lot clearer when I'm not, um, influenced by anything external.
36:58Including, uh, I don't know if this sounds stupid, but, uh, including, like, memes and
37:03current events that don't really, anything that isn't on the news.
37:08You know?
37:09Um.
37:11Like, internet drama.
37:13Can't.
37:14That just throws, that, of all things, throws me off.
37:17So, um, I'm not going to ever leave again, though.
37:20God.
37:21So.
37:22I don't know.
37:24Yeah, the breaks are definitely, in addition to that, better for my mental health.
37:29Because I kind of feel like I would probably just be, like, a tiny pile of sad ashes right
37:38now if I, if I pushed myself a little too hard.
37:41So.
37:42Oh, hey, Bri.
37:44Yes, I'm using your mug.
37:45Sorry, my friend Bri.
37:47Sent me a gift package.
37:48And this was in it.
37:50And also the septum ring.
37:51And also this is in my sleeve.
37:53Hold on.
37:55Bracelet.
37:57Thank you, Bri.
37:59Bye.
38:00So.
38:01People on YouTube are especially mean.
38:03I know.
38:05I know.
38:06Um.
38:07Believe me.
38:07Do I have any ideas for a new story after Mooncallers?
38:14I've actually already started writing two other trilogies.
38:21Yeah.
38:22I mean, it was pretty much just because I, like, once I get an idea, I want to have just the
38:29foundation built a little bit.
38:32Um, so, if an idea pops in my head, I'll spend one day writing that instead.
38:37So, I have two, um, what's it called?
38:43Uh, trilogies that I've started.
38:44But they, they all take place in, um, in the same, uh, universe as Mooncallers.
38:52Because the world is really big.
38:54Um, I mean, Mooncallers only takes place in the joined hands, which is two very small
39:00continents connected by a bridge.
39:02Um, but the whole other rest of the world is out there still.
39:06Um, so I'm using this same universe to, to write everything.
39:10Um.
39:12Sorry.
39:12Itchy.
39:13Sorry.
39:14Sorry.
39:15Itchy, itchy.
39:16How are my tattoo removal tattoos?
39:18Well, most of them gone.
39:19Um, you can still sort of see my sit sprite, just barely.
39:23Um, the only one you can really see is this one.
39:25This big, you know, from Black Butler.
39:29Yeah.
39:30Um.
39:31But it's pretty much, it's, it's, I mean, from far away, you really can't tell it's there.
39:37So, that did a good job.
39:38I mean, I had 12 sessions on this for tattoo removal.
39:42So.
39:45We'll be, ooh, we're all four stories connect.
39:48Don't put this idea in my head.
39:51Because then I'll spend way longer on moon call.
39:53I sort of want to do this.
39:56Shoot.
39:57I usually text myself ideas, but I can't because I'm using my phone.
40:01That's a really good idea.
40:02Thank you for suggesting that all of the stories should connect.
40:05Hmm.
40:06Hmm.
40:08Might be nice to have, actually have friends.
40:11Hey.
40:11I mean.
40:12Okay.
40:12I have lost most of my friends to the person who said that they've been abandoned by friends.
40:18Um.
40:19Sometimes it was me being abandoned.
40:20Sometimes it was me abandoning them.
40:21I'll admit to that.
40:23But.
40:25That does not mean, ever, that there isn't room for more friends.
40:29This is just.
40:30This is just what you're supposed to go through right now.
40:33Because you're supposed to learn from this.
40:35And.
40:36When a new friend comes along.
40:37You will know what to do and what not to do.
40:39So.
40:40You haven't been abandoned entirely.
40:42Okay.
40:43You'll get friends.
40:44They're always there.
40:45There's always somebody that's gonna love you.
40:47Okay.
40:48Just letting you know.
40:50I have to itch.
40:51Again.
40:51I'm so sorry.
40:52Give some heartfelt speech.
40:54Immediately puts fingers and nose.
40:56What am I?
40:57I use different front time frames.
41:00Yeah.
41:01Um.
41:01The.
41:02The second.
41:02The.
41:03Well.
41:03Technically the third.
41:05Trilogy that I just started last week actually.
41:09Um.
41:11Takes place.
41:12Like.
41:13100.
41:14200 years prior to Nune Callers.
41:16So.
41:17Yeah.
41:18It also has to do with.
41:20Less to do with magic.
41:22More to do with.
41:23Not gonna say.
41:24Never mind.
41:24I just like to talk about this stuff.
41:26But I shouldn't.
41:27So.
41:27Oh.
41:30Ugh.
41:32Am I going to get any Moon Callers tattoos?
41:35Um.
41:36I do want to.
41:37Only problem is.
41:38Living out in the middle of the desert.
41:40Not many tattoo artists here.
41:41At least not ones that I trust.
41:43Um.
41:44I was considering getting Lucia's Majelis right here.
41:48Um.
41:49Oops.
41:49God damn it.
41:50Just a stupid cord.
41:52Um.
41:52Um.
41:52But I kind of want to get.
41:55Um.
41:56The mark of Fen.
41:57The uh.
41:58Fen is the.
41:59The wolf god.
42:00Uh.
42:01And one of the main characters.
42:02Brielle and Rueca.
42:04They're practically the same character.
42:05Um.
42:06Have.
42:08The mark of Fen on their shoulder.
42:10And I kind of want to have mine somewhere on my arm.
42:13So.
42:16Moon Callers merch.
42:18Dude.
42:19You know I would go for that right away.
42:21I mean.
42:21I've been trying to get a philastil made.
42:24The philastil is like a.
42:25Necklace.
42:26That's in Moon Callers.
42:28Um.
42:29I've been trying to get one of those made.
42:31For.
42:32Ever since before the first book came out.
42:35And I still can't find a place that would do it.
42:37So.
42:39Damn it.
42:40Someday.
42:41I will.
42:42Have merch.
42:43Moon Callers hair color brand.
42:46Do you want to work for me?
42:48Pastel Milky Rose.
42:50Because.
42:51You are brilliant.
42:52That would actually be a very very.
42:54Damn.
42:55You guys have some really really good ideas.
42:57It's like.
42:58Kind of scary.
42:59Hmm.
43:00Do you have Moon Callers tattooed on your wrist?
43:03I want to hold you.
43:05I want to hold you.
43:06I want to hold you.
43:08I just.
43:10I just want to cradle you.
43:11Oh my gosh.
43:12I love you.
43:13I love you.
43:14I love you.
43:14That makes me so happy.
43:15I've seen two other Moon Callers tattoos so far.
43:19But not that one.
43:21You're amazing.
43:22You're amazing.
43:22You're amazing.
43:23Also Bri, I saw your comment.
43:25That if I draw you up a Moon Callers tattoo you'll get it.
43:27I want to hold you to that.
43:29What's my lip color?
43:30This is the first time I've worn this in like a really long time.
43:34This is Kashmir by Lime Crime.
43:36Yeah.
43:37Not sure if it's still good anymore.
43:38But.
43:40It shows up.
43:41So.
43:41Oh well.
43:42You really love Aris?
43:43Dude.
43:44If you got an Aris tattoo.
43:45Oh my god.
43:48I would make out with whatever part of your body that is on.
43:52Just kidding.
43:52I wouldn't because that would be probably unsanitary and also creepy and oh well.
43:57But yeah.
43:58He's.
43:58He's.
43:58It's weird because he's.
44:00As much as Lucia, which is the main character technically.
44:05Is.
44:08Most like me in a physical sense.
44:11Um.
44:12I relate to Aris most.
44:15In an emotional way.
44:17Um.
44:17Just the way he thinks.
44:18How quiet he is.
44:19How kind of a bitch he is.
44:22Because I get aggravated really easily.
44:24So I definitely relate to Aris the most.
44:27So.
44:28Anyway.
44:29I'm glad you like him.
44:31Mmhmm.
44:31It's weird seeing me talk again.
44:35Yeah.
44:35It's weird for me to talk again.
44:37I mean.
44:38I.
44:38This is probably the most I've talked.
44:42Oh.
44:43A long time.
44:45A long time.
44:46Probably the last live show I did.
44:48Yeah.
44:50Even though you know how to say it.
44:51You always read it as Lucia.
44:52Yeah.
44:53It actually started as Lucia.
44:55Um.
44:56Her.
44:56Her name was originally Lucia.
44:58And then.
44:59Lost.
45:00The one that edited the second book.
45:01She.
45:02Said.
45:03Um.
45:04Lucia instead.
45:05And I was like.
45:06Oh.
45:06She.
45:08Yeah.
45:09Uh.
45:09So.
45:10It's technically Lucia.
45:12Lucia Siren.
45:14And.
45:15And there's.
45:15Aris Lavrentia.
45:17Um.
45:17Avari Vachera.
45:19Riel Ruka.
45:20Oliver Cross.
45:21Of course.
45:22A lot of people have been like.
45:25Specifically wanting to read the second book.
45:27Just to see more Oliver Cross.
45:29And this makes me really happy.
45:30Because you have no idea where this series goes.
45:33In terms of Oliver Cross.
45:34Because he's like.
45:35A way bigger character than you realize.
45:37So.
45:39I won't say anymore.
45:40I won't say anymore.
45:41Anyway.
45:44Yeah.
45:45You will.
45:46Um.
45:47You will get plenty of Oliver.
45:48Don't worry.
45:49Mm.
45:49Go vegan.
45:53Uh.
45:54I really like fish.
45:57And eggs.
45:59Maybe someday.
46:00No right now.
46:02Um.
46:04Where can you buy my book?
46:05Uh.
46:05Amazon.
46:07Um.
46:07The second book.
46:09It might actually be out before tomorrow night.
46:12Or before tomorrow.
46:13I can't really tell.
46:15Because I don't get to decide when it's actually released.
46:17Strangely enough.
46:18Um.
46:19It's just kind of like a ballpark area.
46:21Um.
46:22But.
46:23If you just search Mooncallers on Amazon.
46:26It'll come up.
46:27There's.
46:28Paperback.
46:29And ebook for this one.
46:31And.
46:31Um.
46:32Paperback.
46:33Ebook.
46:33And hardcover for the second one.
46:35Um.
46:36And there will soon be a hardcover for the first book as well.
46:39But I want to go through and kind of.
46:41Uh.
46:42Do a revised version of the first book.
46:44And make it like longer.
46:45And better.
46:46And fix all of the mistakes.
46:47Because there are a whole lot of mistakes.
46:49Um.
46:50Yeah.
46:51How well are the books selling?
46:53Well.
46:53I can make a living off of it.
46:55And support myself.
46:56So.
46:57This is pretty much my dream come true.
47:00Um.
47:00Really.
47:02Like.
47:02I can't describe it in any way.
47:03The other way.
47:04It's just like.
47:05I can actually say.
47:08That I.
47:09I work as an author.
47:10Specifically.
47:11And that's just.
47:11That's just.
47:12Insane to me.
47:14It's insane.
47:15Is it an easy read?
47:16Yeah.
47:17Amazon actually.
47:18Estimates you to be able to read through the first book in four hours.
47:22Um.
47:23And I actually read through.
47:25The second book.
47:27While I was editing it.
47:29In.
47:30Less than a day.
47:31So.
47:32Even though it's like huge.
47:33Sort of.
47:34I mean.
47:35It's.
47:36How many pages is this?
47:37Oh.
47:37It's 446 pages.
47:39Um.
47:40Even though it's pretty.
47:41Pretty sizable.
47:42Uh.
47:44It's.
47:44It's a super easy read.
47:46Yeah.
47:47Um.
47:48But it's actually.
47:48The second one is a whole lot more profound.
47:50Than the first one.
47:52Um.
47:52The first one.
47:53I had a tendency to write it very simplistically.
47:58Um.
47:59Mostly because my dad has a lot of attention deficit problems.
48:04And so my dad has trouble reading very difficult books.
48:09Uh.
48:10So I wanted to write a book that made it easier for him to read it.
48:14Um.
48:15So that's.
48:15That's part of the reason why the first Mooncaller's is.
48:18Um.
48:19Very.
48:20Simplistic.
48:21The second one.
48:22Not so much.
48:23The second one is.
48:24Um.
48:25It's quite a bit more complicated.
48:26And the third one.
48:28That I'm still obviously working on.
48:30Uh.
48:32That one's just on a whole other level.
48:34So it's just going to gradually get more.
48:36Um.
48:36Complex.
48:38It's not going to go.
48:38But.
48:39Right now.
48:39Easy read.
48:40Yeah.
48:41Uh huh.
48:43What kind of music do I listen to now?
48:46Um.
48:47Actually.
48:48Uh.
48:49Quite a wide variety.
48:50Which is weird.
48:51Because usually I only listen to game soundtracks.
48:54That's still true when it comes to.
48:56When I write.
48:57Which is every day.
48:58But.
48:59Um.
48:59Drum roll please.
49:01Do do do do.
49:02I know how to drive now.
49:04Yeah.
49:05I mean.
49:05I can't legally.
49:07But.
49:08Out here in the desert.
49:08It's pretty easy to get away with.
49:10Just driving around.
49:11Um.
49:12So.
49:13I have a car.
49:13And everything.
49:14It's a Honda Element.
49:15You know.
49:16One of the things that looks like a toaster.
49:18Uh.
49:18Yeah.
49:19So.
49:19Um.
49:22Driving.
49:23Has opened me up to.
49:25Stop pausing.
49:25Stop.
49:26Okay.
49:26Sorry.
49:26It keeps telling me it's pausing.
49:28Anyway.
49:28So.
49:28It's opened me up to a whole other world of music.
49:31Because I can't really listen to orchestral while I'm driving or else I'll fall asleep.
49:35Um.
49:37So.
49:38Uh.
49:38I've been listening to a lot more electronica again.
49:42Trap.
49:43Uh.
49:43Which is.
49:44It's actually.
49:45It's surprisingly soothing.
49:48So.
49:49Yeah.
49:50Uh.
49:52Do I listen to anything else?
49:53I don't know.
49:54I'd have to check my phone.
49:55But I can't.
49:55Because I'm using it.
49:56Again.
49:56Damn it.
49:58Damn it.
49:59Yeah.
49:59It is never like too late to learn.
50:01My dad.
50:01You want to know something cool?
50:02I actually drove for the first time.
50:04Like actually drove on the extraterrestrial highway.
50:08Yeah.
50:08Like that's the highway.
50:11Um.
50:13Uh.
50:14That's like nearest to Area 51.
50:18That's why it's called the extraterrestrial highway.
50:20Well.
50:20Also because alien sightings.
50:22And stuff.
50:24Yeah.
50:24What do I mean illegally?
50:26Oh.
50:27Like.
50:28I had.
50:28I don't have a license yet.
50:30Um.
50:31But I just drive to like.
50:34Go pick up my friend on the street.
50:35Or something.
50:37That's.
50:37That's what I mean.
50:38Uh huh.
50:42Um.
50:43I don't actually drive on roads.
50:46I wouldn't even call them roads.
50:47They're actually just dirt roads.
50:49So.
50:49But I know how to do it.
50:51That's.
50:51That's what means the most to me.
50:55Oh.
50:56I'm so glad that you enjoy seeing me living my best life.
50:59Because like um.
51:01You would not believe the amount of people who have been like.
51:05By doing this.
51:06You're losing all your followers.
51:07Followers.
51:08Okay.
51:09Well.
51:10That's kind of their choice to unfollow me for doing what I love to do.
51:13So.
51:13Um.
51:15You know.
51:16At first it was a little bit nerve wracking.
51:17But.
51:18This is really what I want to do for like.
51:21As long as I can.
51:23Really.
51:23So.
51:23Um.
51:26Like it was kind of scary losing some followers at first.
51:31But.
51:32When I think about it.
51:35Uh.
51:36The thing that scares me the most.
51:39Is.
51:40Never finishing.
51:41This story.
51:43Um.
51:43Like I can't imagine.
51:46Not finishing it.
51:48And so.
51:49I'm.
51:49I don't care if I have one follower by the time I reach book six.
51:53Uh.
51:55So.
51:57I'm glad that you enjoy seeing me.
52:00Doing what I really like to do.
52:02It means a lot.
52:03Really.
52:04Um.
52:04Because you would not believe how scared I get sometimes.
52:09Um.
52:11Yeah.
52:12Also it's really nice to say that.
52:13Because I feel like I didn't ever really express vulnerability very much.
52:18Before.
52:19I mean.
52:19It was like sometimes I would.
52:20But.
52:21Man.
52:22I will tell you guys right now.
52:23I am scared every single freaking day.
52:25Pretty much.
52:27About one thing or another.
52:29But.
52:30Yeah.
52:33I miss doing YouTube.
52:34No.
52:36No I don't.
52:37I really don't.
52:38I mean.
52:38That's why I haven't done it.
52:40It's.
52:41It's very stressful.
52:43It's.
52:43I mean.
52:44Sure.
52:44It's an easy way to make money.
52:45But that's not really what I'm looking to do.
52:48I'm looking to do.
52:50To.
52:51To make a living.
52:52Doing something that I love more than anything else.
52:54And that's exactly what I'm doing.
52:56So.
52:58There is still a chance that I will do YouTube videos in the future.
53:01But they're going to be very different.
53:03From what they were before.
53:05They would be more like me talking right now.
53:07You know.
53:08I don't want to be like.
53:10Do like little skits.
53:11Or.
53:11Talk about makeup.
53:12Because I don't give a shit.
53:13Uh.
53:15Or talk about hair.
53:16Because I like.
53:17I haven't dyed my hair in a year.
53:19A year.
53:21Can you believe it?
53:21I mean.
53:22I've bleached my roots.
53:23But.
53:23Like.
53:24Let me see if I can.
53:26Well.
53:26My hair.
53:27My real hair.
53:27Is actually like down to here now.
53:29Or maybe longer.
53:31I don't know.
53:31Let me just.
53:32This is going to piss me off.
53:33But I want to take out a piece of my hair.
53:34From my pigtails.
53:35Because I am wearing extensions right now.
53:36But.
53:37Um.
53:38Nope.
53:39Not long enough.
53:41Damn.
53:42Anyway.
53:42It's like.
53:43It's my real.
53:43My real hair is like down to here.
53:45Which is so weird.
53:46Because.
53:47Like.
53:48Before.
53:48My hair was like up to here all the time.
53:50It's crazy.
53:52Sorry.
53:52That's the only time I'll actually talk about hair.
53:55In an excited manner.
53:56Is.
53:56The fact that it's growing.
53:58Do I miss my trumpet?
53:59Hey violin guy.
54:01What up?
54:01Um.
54:02Actually.
54:02I know where my trumpet is.
54:04Uh.
54:04My trumpet.
54:05My grandpa used to conduct an orchestra.
54:07Back in the 60s.
54:09And.
54:10That was his trumpet.
54:11That he used sometimes.
54:13And.
54:13So.
54:14My grandpa actually still has the trumpet.
54:16And he's turning.
54:18Um.
54:20Ninety.
54:20Three.
54:21Ninety-two.
54:22In a couple days.
54:23So.
54:24He has my trumpet.
54:26Mmhmm.
54:28You like my voice?
54:30That's.
54:31I mean.
54:32But.
54:33God.
54:33I hate my voice.
54:35I mean.
54:36Like.
54:36I don't hate it.
54:37But it's just that thing.
54:39You know.
54:39With um.
54:42Uh.
54:42Hearing your own voice.
54:44It's just like.
54:45Nails on a chalkboard.
54:46Sort of thing.
54:48Yeah.
54:48And.
54:49Yes to the person who talked about.
54:51Uh.
54:51Silver shampoo.
54:52I use silver shampoo all the time.
54:54That's actually the only thing I use on my hair.
54:57I don't dye it anymore.
54:58With anything.
55:00Um.
55:01So.
55:02Uh.
55:02Yeah.
55:04Silver shampoo is the thing.
55:05If you want silver hair.
55:07Um.
55:09Sorry.
55:10Hold on.
55:11I want to put my hood up because.
55:12I don't know why.
55:14Oh.
55:16Why I have to do that?
55:18Not sure.
55:19Why I do most things?
55:20Not sure.
55:22Anyway.
55:23Aw.
55:23Thank you guys for liking my voice.
55:24That does mean a lot.
55:26Um.
55:28For getting through episodes.
55:31I'm assuming you mean.
55:33Um.
55:35Like anxious.
55:36Angry.
55:37Sad.
55:37Things like that.
55:39Um.
55:40I mean.
55:41It really can be a whole lot of different episodes.
55:43That you could mean.
55:45But.
55:46In a general way.
55:47What I do.
55:49Is.
55:49Um.
55:51Not.
55:52Not.
55:53Literally talk to myself.
55:54But.
55:55Uh.
55:57Just kind of listen to my thoughts.
55:59You know.
56:00Just lay down.
56:00Listen to my thoughts.
56:02And let it pass that way.
56:03Because.
56:05Then I'll be like.
56:05I'll be focusing more on what my thoughts are saying.
56:09Than the feelings themselves.
56:11And then it just ends up going away.
56:13So.
56:14That's um.
56:15That's.
56:17That's my general thing.
56:18Because I don't.
56:19I don't usually talk about.
56:21How I'm feeling.
56:22Much.
56:23Um.
56:23I don't act on it much.
56:25I just sort of.
56:27Fester in it.
56:28Um.
56:29I guess that's not a good word to use.
56:32I just kind of.
56:32I dwell on it.
56:34So.
56:35If you dwell on pain.
56:38Um.
56:39You don't necessarily become.
56:40Numb to it.
56:42But you learn it.
56:43So.
56:45Um.
56:45And that.
56:47Does apply to each.
56:49Like.
56:49Uh.
56:50Coming episode.
56:52Yes.
56:54Um.
56:56Live ends.
56:57Live ends automatically after an hour?
56:59Shit.
57:00Thank you for telling me that.
57:01Otherwise I would have been like.
57:02What's happening?
57:03Um.
57:04Okay.
57:05So I have four minutes left.
57:06Or three.
57:07I don't really know.
57:08How long I've been on.
57:10Anyway.
57:10It might cut me off.
57:11But.
57:12I'm going to do another live show tomorrow.
57:14Um.
57:15After the second book comes out.
57:17Where'd it go?
57:17Here it is.
57:19So.
57:20This will be out.
57:21On Amazon.
57:22Well.
57:22Not the hardcover.
57:23But the paperback.
57:24Will be out.
57:25Um.
57:26Maybe in a couple of hours.
57:28To tomorrow.
57:30So.
57:30And then I'll come back online.
57:32And.
57:33Talk to you guys more.
57:34Um.
57:35I'm sorry that.
57:36I started at 830.
57:38I know I started at 5.
57:40I started at 527.
57:42I think.
57:42And now it's 626.
57:44So it's probably going to cut me off.
57:46Anyway.
57:47I love you guys.
57:48Um.
57:49So much.
57:49How do you save a live?
57:51I don't know.
57:52I'm going to try.
57:54Uh.
57:55I'll figure it out.
57:56Okay.
57:57Alright.
57:57I love you guys.
57:58And.
57:59Thank you so much for.
58:01Yep.
58:01It just gave me the warning.
58:03Um.
58:03Thank you guys so much for.
58:05Watching.
58:05And checking in.
58:06And talking to me.
58:07And uh.
58:08That was a lot less nerve wracking.
58:10Than I thought it was going to be.
58:11It's always just that.
58:13You know.
58:14Bit before the plunge.
58:16That scares you.
58:17So.
58:18I know.
58:19When I hit it.
58:20Hit.
58:20When I end it.
58:21Hit publish.
58:22Okay.
58:22I will.
58:23Alright.
58:23I'm going to get off now.
58:24I love you guys.
58:26Mwah.
58:27Have a great night.
58:27Okay.
58:28And uh.
58:30Shoot.
58:30I don't know where the end button is.
58:33Got it.
58:33Okay.
58:34Alright.
58:35I love you.
58:36Bye bye.
58:38Bye.
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