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00:00So far, this is all too good to be true.
00:09I never thought that I would feel any kind of motion and butterflies so quickly.
00:18But I definitely am scared now as we start to expose our feelings
00:23that somehow this house of cards will collapse.
00:30But these issues do need to be addressed.
00:37My future wife has to have all the information about me.
00:48I decided to tell you a little bit about myself today.
00:51I have...
00:53There are things you definitely need to know about.
00:56For a while, my life always seemed to be on the up.
01:01Somehow I got a better job every two years, earned more.
01:04Then there was a phase that was a little wilder, where I think I had lost myself a little.
01:10Where I partied a lot and somehow felt like, I don't know, I enjoyed life,
01:14but I was no where near the person that I am now.
01:22And then out of nowhere, a year and a half ago, I discovered I had a health issue.
01:30That I had a brain tumor.
01:39That I had a brain tumor.
01:44Oh, my God.
01:49Well, I'm trying to...
01:57I can usually talk about this in a problem, I tell.
02:04Everyone.
02:11Yeah, take a deep breath.
02:13I'm here.
02:14It's okay.
02:14I'm listening.
02:14So, then it slowly dawned on me that this was a big deal, right?
02:20Because we're not talking about a 2 to 5% chance that I needed nursing care,
02:26that I was not going to look the way I do anymore, but a 50% chance.
02:32Unfortunately, they later found out that it was a malignant tumor.
02:37Wow.
02:37But, we eventually found some really great doctors, and they did the most amazing job ever.
02:49I think I had a 12, 13-hour surgery, which is really incredibly rough.
02:54And I woke up, and the first thing I asked was, am I normal?
02:56And everyone said, you're normal.
02:58I cried.
02:59I, whoa.
03:01Just tears of joy.
03:02I was just like, okay, so, no one will be able to tell that I've been through anything.
03:09Like, I should actually be 100% deaf in my left ear.
03:12I don't know how, by some miracle, I can hear a little bit.
03:14I wear a hearing aid, but you can't see it, you know?
03:17Yeah.
03:19And, yeah, but it's all good.
03:22I don't think about it all day long, every day.
03:26It's a part of me.
03:27It happened.
03:28And it's all good.
03:29I take my hat off to him, big time.
03:39I really do.
03:41And I just had this feeling that I wanted to be there for him, to be close to him, just
03:46to be by his side for a lifetime, no matter what happens.
03:52I have to say, I think it's really great that you're here.
03:57I'm really grateful for that.
03:59It's really, really great.
04:01I'm really grateful for that, too.
04:03Yeah.
04:05Bye-bye.
04:06Bye-bye.
04:09Hug.
04:09Hugs and kisses.
04:10Hug.
04:13This is just the beginning of something really, really, really huge.
04:20I'm in love.
04:24It's over.
04:30It's over.
04:32It's over.
04:32She's the one.
04:34Really?
04:34For sure.
04:36For sure.
04:37I'm sure.
04:37It's sure.
04:40Guys, to love.
04:41To the girls.
04:42To us.
04:42To love, guys.
04:43To love, guys.
04:44Yay!
04:44It's so awesome, man.
04:48Tell me about something between my teeth.
04:56Hello.
04:57Hello.
04:57I'm curious.
04:59I crave love.
05:00Yeah.
05:01So that means you must be full of love, that you're finally ready to share it with a special
05:06person.
05:06Hey, I'm bursting.
05:08Love is probably the last thing that's missing in my life.
05:12Maybe it's my own fault.
05:13Andrea, would you like to tell me what the lock screen on your phone looks like?
05:20Right now, it's actually my cat.
05:22Your cat?
05:23Yeah.
05:23I used to have a turtle.
05:25Really?
05:25I had, yeah, a water turtle.
05:28But I really think there's a high chance of meeting someone here.
05:32Would you like to tell me what your keychain looks like?
05:37No.
05:39I'm proud to say that I consider myself a very curious person.
05:42I've been learning Chinese for three years.
05:45And I also speak English, German, French, and Russian.
05:49Are you also interested in languages?
05:51Um, not really.
05:54Found your dream man yet?
05:56So, Yan and I had a very nice conversation, but...
05:59Oh, nice.
05:59Yesterday was more...
06:00My neighbor is nice, too.
06:03I feel like I'm going on dates, and none of the women are particularly happy that I'm
06:09the one showing up.
06:11Oh.
06:12Was it over before it began?
06:19Um...
06:20Yeah, and that's...
06:22Yeah, it's not a nice feeling.
06:24I hate, you know, this feeling of not being enough.
06:27It's so bad, and I've had that a few times, and I don't want it to come back now, man.
06:31Do we have to be alone?
06:34I first had the feeling of not being enough really early.
06:41I'm the epitome of the friend zone.
06:45Girls mostly just saw me as the nice guy, and...
06:51It's hard for me to feel like I am confronted with that again now.
06:57Um...
06:58Do you feel you're enough?
07:03Do you feel you're enough?
07:04Yeah.
07:05Yeah.
07:06Yeah.
07:07Yeah, I am.
07:08Then you'll be enough for plenty of women, too.
07:11I promise.
07:12It's, uh...
07:13It's a...
07:14I get it.
07:15It's a shitty feeling.
07:16It's a disaster.
07:17It's a shitty feeling.
07:18It's a disaster.
07:21Hello.
07:22Hey.
07:23I believe you are my last date today.
07:26Yeah, I always say save the best for last.
07:28Yeah.
07:29I'm just saying.
07:30My name is Yan.
07:31Nice to meet you.
07:32My name is Lawan.
07:33Could you spell that for me, please?
07:35I don't think I've ever heard that name before.
07:37Of course.
07:38L, like Ludwig.
07:39O like Otto, A like Anton, and N like Ron Paul.
07:42Yeah, look, my intuition was right.
07:43That's what I had written.
07:44Yeah?
07:45Yeah.
07:46Perfect instant bonus point.
07:47You take what you can get.
07:49Okay, let's see how many more you can collect today.
07:53Yeah, I hope I don't get my first minus point now.
07:56Would you like to tell me how old you are?
07:58I'm 26.
07:59How old are you?
08:00You're 26.
08:01I'm a year older.
08:02I'm 27.
08:03I think you're the youngest of the group, right?
08:05That is right, yeah.
08:07But that doesn't speak to emotional maturity or anything like that.
08:11Yes.
08:13It's kind of a trigger for me.
08:15Really?
08:16Yeah, I'm really confident about my age.
08:18But you never quite know how women might react to it.
08:23And that was on my mind, to be honest.
08:25Well, to put your mind at ease, I get the same thing.
08:28Yes.
08:29And I don't feel that way at all, like you.
08:31Because I always think, I mean, I'm totally settled in life.
08:34If you know what you want, then I think age is completely irrelevant.
08:37Beautifully put.
08:38I totally agree.
08:39I think the point is that you keep growing.
08:44Like, as a person.
08:45But I want a partner who will be with me through thick and thin.
08:50Who's the missing piece to my puzzle and makes life even more beautiful than it already is.
08:56Yes, you just took the words out of my mouth.
09:00That's why I kept quiet and let you talk.
09:03If you're grounded in yourself, then you're ready for that one big relationship.
09:09I live to love.
09:10Yes, exactly.
09:11That was very well put.
09:13Yes.
09:17Now I have to decide whether I want to start my career or if I want to take the first state exam.
09:23And, of course, I would also talk to my wife about what the best option might be.
09:30Yes.
09:31So maybe with me, you mean?
09:33Perfect.
09:37I like it.
09:39Um, okay.
09:42Yes, we should talk again soon.
09:45I'm very much counting on it, right?
09:47Yes, I put a star next to your name, okay?
09:49Yeah, same.
09:53Can't wait.
09:54Yes, me too.
09:57I'm pretty interested in Luan because I'm very strongly drawn to women who can communicate their feelings very openly.
10:06And so I'm really hyped.
10:09Can someone please, hold on, wait.
10:10I'll take that off.
10:11Look, there's some space now.
10:12Anyone?
10:13I've been single for two years.
10:15Oh, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
10:18And I'm mostly looking forward to maybe having a ring on my finger in no time.
10:20I've been single for two years.
10:27And I'm mostly looking forward to maybe having a ring on my finger in no time.
10:34How crazy would that be, right?
10:38I'm someone who can show her feelings very quickly.
10:41And that's why it's very important that my partner can communicate their feelings too.
10:50My current status is that I get on really well with Andy, but also with Dustin, kind of equally.
11:05They're both great in the way they are.
11:07And so far I could see myself with either of them.
11:11It's very, very confusing.
11:14But I'm also someone who has a hard time making decisions.
11:17It's like that with everything in my life.
11:20If I have different options that I like equally, then I have a really hard time deciding.
11:26I think clarity is my word.
11:28I'll get it tattooed after the experiment.
11:31I'm a bit of an emotional mess because I'm getting the first warm feelings in my heart for Yasmin.
11:37That's why it's incredibly hard to grasp everything or even want to grasp it.
11:41I have to say, with Dustin, I really trust him.
11:51So with him, it's super easy for me to talk about all kinds of stuff.
11:56I also think he has a calming effect on me.
11:58And I want our conversations to go deeper.
12:00Maybe I'll come to some kind of realization.
12:04Dustin!
12:06In the pods, we had this, do you want kids or not thing going on.
12:11My mother wants nothing more than to be a grandmother.
12:16I have to say, I'm 30, right?
12:18Yeah, it's an issue.
12:19I don't have much time left and I don't want to have just one child.
12:22How many?
12:23Maybe three?
12:26I'll put an exclamation mark to it.
12:27I think five kids.
12:29That's just a feeling.
12:30What?
12:31Five kids, I think.
12:33Really?
12:34Two exclamation marks?
12:38Pressure is on.
12:43I was lucky enough to grow up in a very harmonious environment.
12:47I got so many great things from my parents and my upbringing.
12:50And we have such great family relationships.
12:54So it really became clear to me, especially since moving out, how much they actually made
13:00possible for me.
13:01My father, through his hard work at the driving school, he used to sleep at the driving school
13:06because home was too far away.
13:08And they really worked hard to give us the life that we ended up having.
13:14And yeah, just, yeah, I'm grateful for how they made possible for me.
13:18Well, my brothers and I, we didn't grow up that well cared for.
13:25For me, everything isn't that rosy and beautiful.
13:29And that's why I find it all the more special to have someone sitting here who can speak so
13:35beautifully about his family.
13:36And, um, yeah, I just get an idea of what it could be like.
13:44As a child, I had this romantic view of things.
13:47And my dream was always to kind of have a happy marriage, stay together and have a family.
13:53We have to talk about that.
13:55Let's talk about it.
13:56No, we need to talk about that.
14:06I hope we'll talk again.
14:08You can count on that.
14:09When someone talks about their lovely family life in that way, then of course, it would
14:21be nice to be a part of that family because that's what I've always wanted and just didn't
14:28have.
14:29And that's really, I have to say, that's a big plus for me.
14:32I find that really attractive.
14:34How's your date?
14:37Um, Yasmeen?
14:38Really lovely.
14:39Yeah?
14:39It was emotionally very deep.
14:42It's crazy how quickly things get deep.
14:44Yeah.
14:45It's just crazy.
14:45Crazy.
14:46Yeah.
14:46I'll see her again.
14:47A hundred percent.
14:48Yeah?
14:48Yeah.
14:49Is she also your favorite or?
14:51Yeah.
14:51Oh, wow.
14:52Okay.
14:52Yeah.
14:53It was really lovely.
15:00Wow.
15:01I have to say, a life without love.
15:04Is kind of like soup without salt.
15:08Oh, God.
15:08I thought I knew, but I wouldn't have guessed a soup without salt.
15:11Didn't see that one coming.
15:14I just wanted to say it's nice to feel something again, you know?
15:18Agreed.
15:18Yeah, I'm definitely here to somehow get over my fear of commitment.
15:23There's a lot going on here with so many dates.
15:26It's nice to see that I actually have a good feeling about some of the women that I'm seeing
15:31here.
15:31Which three women are your favorites?
15:35Tell me.
15:36So, Celia, Yasmin, and Natia.
15:39Oh, okay.
15:40Wow, okay.
15:41Yeah.
15:41I really want to see him again, Andy.
15:53I feel so attracted to him.
15:56That's crazy because you can feel it.
15:58I also feel a certain tingling with Andy.
16:11Andy, I thought he was great.
16:14Cute boy.
16:15Bye, girls.
16:17Bye.
16:19So, things are still tense for me because I had a good date with Dustin, but I'm still
16:24a little torn.
16:25I think we need to see how it goes.
16:28Because Andy has always been one of my favorites.
16:34Hello.
16:35And I feel a certain spark when I'm with him.
16:38Who's this?
16:40It's Yasmin.
16:41Hi, Yasmin.
16:42This is Andy.
16:43Hi.
16:44I'm happy to see you.
16:45You can't see me, but maybe soon.
16:47Well, I have an image of you, so I can see you.
16:49You have an image of me?
16:51Tell me, what does that look like?
16:53I see your soul.
16:55So, you're a very warm-hearted, caring, trusting person, and I feel like I can trust you even
17:02with my weaknesses.
17:03And there's so much about your mindset that a man could really consider himself lucky to
17:10have you.
17:13Wow.
17:14Yeah.
17:15Wow.
17:17Yeah.
17:18That's quite the compliment.
17:20Yes.
17:20We love it.
17:21We love it.
17:22Yeah, we love it.
17:24If there's an us, yeah, then we love it.
17:27Very nice.
17:28Yeah.
17:30To be honest, I feel like our relationship and ship has mutuals.
17:35So, there are a lot of things in my past that made me the person I am today, and I think
17:41the biggest issue I've always had was the issue of attachment, that basic trust in a
17:47relationship is hard for me.
17:50Yeah.
17:51I've never really had an example of what a really good relationship, what a family looks
17:57like, because my biological father didn't stay and left us after I was born.
18:03And then my mother met a new man when I was two, and he also left one day.
18:09They were married.
18:09I called him dad, and he was just gone without a goodbye.
18:13So, I've experienced shitty things like that.
18:15Anyway.
18:16I'm really sorry to hear that.
18:19I didn't become the person I am today because everything was great, but actually because
18:22everything was so bad.
18:26It's just difficult because I would say it really consumed my whole childhood and youth.
18:33I mean, we were extremely poor.
18:38I don't know.
18:39Other people would come home, and their parents would cook for them or something, and I just
18:43remember ready meals or whatever, if anything.
18:46And my father was a bit of a hoarder.
18:48It got worse.
18:50So, the only room that was actually normal was the bathroom.
18:56And I had no furniture.
18:57I didn't have a bed.
18:58I just had boxes and bags.
18:59Oh, I'm so sorry.
19:01That's just how it was.
19:02I...
19:03I can hear the burden on your shoulders.
19:09You probably no longer have any contact with your father.
19:12I do.
19:13Yeah, I do.
19:14I mean, a little bit now.
19:27Yeah, thank you for opening up and telling me about that because it's something that really
19:30shaped you, right?
19:32Yeah, well, I felt like it was okay to tell you.
19:36Yeah, you can trust me with that.
19:37I want you to know that even in the moments of weakness, which I will have, I will still
19:43be strong and reliable and stand by you, okay?
19:50Yeah.
19:51That's exactly what I need.
19:52Yeah, I think so.
19:54And I need that too.
19:55Am I in your top three?
20:01The conversation with Andy today made me feel more secure.
20:06I hope you have other cool dates, but I only say that because I have to.
20:12See you soon.
20:13Bye.
20:14See you soon.
20:14Bye.
20:14Bye, Yasmin.
20:15Bye.
20:16I'm definitely interested because I think he could very well be the one.
20:20The question is, who else is there?
20:26Hey.
20:27Hello.
20:31I think Andy has a lot of irons in the fire.
20:36It's possible I could get hurt.
20:38Yeah, just like it happens in real life dating, you know?
20:41Yeah.
20:42But here you can see it.
20:43Exactly.
20:43Yeah.
20:47Wow.
20:48That's tough.
20:48Yeah.
20:49Wow.
20:49That's tough.
20:50It's hard, right?
20:54Yeah.
21:02I never thought it would be possible that you could develop deep feelings for someone you've
21:07never even met.
21:09Genuinely.
21:10Unbelievable.
21:14Hello.
21:15Hello, my Jesse.
21:17Oh, my God.
21:18How beautiful is this?
21:19Oh, God.
21:20I have to tell you, I've rarely felt as good as I do today.
21:34Yeah.
21:39I have never met anyone who is so similar to me.
21:49Yeah.
21:50Who comes so close to my idea of a dream woman, or rather, who completely fits that description
22:02100%.
22:03I'm incredibly grateful.
22:04I'm incredibly grateful that I've had the privilege of having met you in here, and I think we've
22:22realized that the whole fate thing has played a big role over these last few days.
22:27And I think that someone else was also at work.
22:28Yeah.
22:29Yeah.
22:30And I'm thinking of your beloved grandpa, his favorite song, and one line from the anthem
22:45has stuck with me.
22:46Yeah.
22:47Through thick and thin, no matter where, only together are we strong, Jesse and Consti.
22:54Yeah.
22:55Yeah.
22:56Yeah.
22:57Yeah.
22:58Yeah.
22:59Yeah.
23:00And this is the craziest thing I will ever do in my life.
23:05In my life, but I'm going to get down on one knee.
23:18He's actually doing it.
23:23Jesse, I think you're the one.
23:35Will you be my wife?
23:38Fate brought me here.
23:40Fate brought me here to you.
23:41And for me, there is no other word to say than yes to you.
23:46Yeah!
23:47Oh, my God, man.
23:53Woo!
23:54You found the most beautiful words in the world.
24:09Hey.
24:10Yeah?
24:11You know what?
24:12I'm going to go over here.
24:15I'm a nervous wreck.
24:17But I'm standing in front of this thing again, and I'm pretending to hug you.
24:25I'm absolutely sure of that.
24:30The best thing that ever happened to us.
24:32Always remember that, okay?
24:34Okay.
24:35Bye, fiance.
24:37Bye, future husband.
24:40Bye.
24:42I'm engaged to a woman I've never seen before.
24:55But at the same time, it felt so right and good.
24:59Wow.
25:00I've quite simply found the most beautiful man in the world.
25:12Oh, my God.
25:16Oh, my God.
25:17I hope that any second that I'll also get that moment of sparkle or radiance with Jubriel.
25:29We're just open to each other, and I think we've established a really good, intimate foundation.
25:39With Gunnar, I've noticed that I can let myself go because he's a soft guy and has a gentle voice.
25:46Hey there.
25:47Hello, number one.
25:48But nevertheless, I'm still missing that element of excitement, that certain spark.
25:57In the last few hours, I've worried that you'd say, yeah, no, let's not meet again.
26:01Oh, no.
26:02We still have way too much to talk about.
26:05Sure.
26:06Let's go through your checklist.
26:08Okay.
26:09Are you vegan?
26:10Yes.
26:11I'm going to draw a picture of a cliche now.
26:18I'm really curious.
26:19Yeah, but please don't hold back.
26:20Just say it.
26:21Okay.
26:22I'm just going to enjoy it.
26:23In Berlin, you often come across left-wing vegans wearing Doc Martens.
26:30Yeah.
26:31And jeans that are a little too short above the ankles.
26:36Hey, I fulfill a lot of stereotypes.
26:40So, yeah.
26:41Okay.
26:42I, um, I'm kind of worried.
26:47Yeah.
26:48That we might not be 100% compatible because I'm a little, I think you're a really nice guy.
27:03And that's, uh, everything a woman could wish for.
27:06And I'm afraid that, um, I could come across as too strong or too intense.
27:20I think what you're looking for many would describe as strength or masculinity.
27:26We can put it that way.
27:27Yeah.
27:28Okay.
27:29Um.
27:30Yeah.
27:31I know how masculine, how strong I am.
27:32I can give you, I can give you examples.
27:34Yeah.
27:35But I still get the feeling that you see me as gentle and weak.
27:40I know I have that side, but I also like that side of me.
27:44I'm proud of it too.
27:45I like being considerate.
27:46I like being considerate.
27:47I like that side of you too.
27:49It's not like, it's, it's, it's fantastic, that side.
27:52It's, it's great.
27:53I'm just worried that it doesn't match mine.
27:57Where are we going on vacation?
28:00You say, oh, I don't care, honey, wherever you want to go.
28:02And I say, what do you want to eat today?
28:04And you say, honey, as long as you're happy, can I eat on your shoulder without...
28:09Without me breaking, you mean?
28:11Yeah.
28:12I don't know what to say to that.
28:17I could give you a thousand examples of when I was there for friends when I was strong,
28:22but it feels wrong because it's like...
28:24That's nonsense.
28:25And you, yesterday, you were the strongest person in the world when you were there for me.
28:30That's so...
28:34I understand how you see me.
28:36I'm sorry.
28:37Because, no, hey, no.
28:39Don't be sorry, just be honest with me.
28:41I don't know what...
28:43What else has to happen because the only thing that's missing is actually the most important thing.
28:52And that's the excitement and stuff.
28:56And people often say that if you don't feel it, then it's real and long-lasting and you don't need a roller coaster ride.
29:06You just have to feel safe and secure.
29:12Um...
29:14I've never had that.
29:15I know the day would come when we would say goodbye.
29:24I don't even know what that feels like.
29:27If I could go down this path with you, then we'll only have each other for, as of today, forever.
29:38And your way and the security and everything you give me would be...
29:42If I knew, okay, we're gonna have kids, I would...
29:45And we still have a few days.
29:50Still you need that spark.
29:53I don't wanna be the nice guy.
29:56Um...
29:57I wanna be wanted.
29:58Telling a man he's not manly enough, telling a woman she's not feminine enough, is about the worst thing you can do.
30:11I don't know what kind of spark it would take.
30:13All I can do is hope.
30:15And, uh...
30:17Give everything.
30:20To make sure we both...
30:21Give what we want.
30:25Yes, I, uh...
30:27Told someone that I think he's too weak for me.
30:29Oh no!
30:30Yes, but I didn't know how else to say it.
30:32I mean, he understood what I was...
30:35But that's, um...
30:36Really like...
30:37Spitting in a...
30:39In a person's face.
30:40Nobody ever told me...
30:43My love could be the sign...
30:49What crap.
30:51I feel very helpless right now.
30:52I feel like she could be the right one for me.
30:55But she has to figure out for herself whether I'm the right one for her.
30:59And, um...
31:01Yeah.
31:02I hope that'll happen.
31:10I'm about to see Jesse for the first time.
31:18I'm damn excited.
31:22There's nothing I want more right now than to finally see him, hold him in my arms, and start a new life with him.
31:28I'm scared of falling back into old patterns.
31:33Putting physical appearances first.
31:38This is the last piece of the puzzle that's still missing.
31:41Discover and feel that certain traction.
31:44And then...
31:45Full steam ahead.
31:46Place him ahead.
31:47Oh, my God.
31:53Oh, my God.
31:56Oh, God.
32:16oh my god oh my god dude oh my god you're beautiful you too oh my heart
32:46hello hello fiance hey hello fiance oh god god are we really doing this oh my god
33:08oh jesse will you be my wife for sure definitely give it to me shaking push
33:20oh my god my god
33:25we're not shooting a porno here okay i just need to calm down i'm fine
33:37come maybe we'll calm down if we sit here
33:40mr and mrs palma right i think this is gonna be really huge me too
33:47the family is already looking forward to it yeah no kidding
33:51i'm really looking forward to it they're never gonna believe this
33:55no one will believe this no no one's gonna believe it
33:58you're sitting there and i don't know you can't keep your hands off each other so
34:11yeah it's a tricky situation i'm sweating all over
34:15thank you you look great i have to leave you now
34:20i'm excited me too
34:27we'll see each other again soon
34:31my finger was finally deflowered after 32 years
34:45strike
34:46when i look into konsti's eyes i see a great future that we'll have together
34:57there's so much ahead of us and i can't wait
35:00we're euphoric
35:04i have a really good feeling since we also physically matched
35:08guys what are you doing here
35:10lucky little kid is sitting here you know
35:15so now a little pump up yeah pump up the muscles work out of it
35:28but you have a hair sticking out there up there like uh yeah that's my flirt antenna
35:34okay yeah so leave it there yeah yeah exactly that's what i meant
35:38so i'm dating a few women now so uh celia yasmin and nadia
35:44i mean i don't have a method for how to filter these things i think i'll just go back
35:48into the conversations be open and then somehow let my gut feeling decide
35:52with andy it just fits but i can't really explain it
36:05but maybe i just haven't seen any men in a long time
36:10ah someone's coming into the pod in a good mood
36:19yeah hello
36:20hey celia this is andy i missed your laugh
36:23oh that's such a lovely compliment thanks
36:27uh do you have another cool question you want to get off your chest
36:31yes so let's say the two of us are married
36:35do you think your friends would include me completely
36:39hey if you were my wife you would always come along and i would want that too but of course
36:44there would be some moments when my single friends would want me to come along on my own
36:48yeah for sure uh right then i'd say okay i'm not gonna stay out until three and get wasted but i'll be back home at one
36:55that i let you stay out until three too
36:58yeah okay not bad
37:02um how do you deal with jealousy i'm actually pretty relaxed but if i saw you talking to a man if we're in a club for example or if you were talking to him too intensely then i think what's going on there
37:17yeah then i'd let my alpha side show a little and say if he does anything i want to know about it
37:25and then i'd want you to show a clear line otherwise i'd get involved
37:29i like what you said
37:31i think it's important for a man to have a certain level of dominance because i want to feel safe too
37:37yeah you can
37:39and um yeah you just made me feel that way
37:41i think i'm a good guy right
37:43i mean i think so too
37:45but i have to be honest too
37:47okay
37:48the thing is i'm currently dating a few women of course but
37:51i can tell that i feel like there's a special vibe between us and a special intensity
37:58and i can also feel your warmth and i can tell it really works you know
38:04i just think i think it's so crazy that you can sense that warmth it's crazy
38:10okay
38:11okay
38:13nice
38:17i'm leaving here with a big smile on my face
38:23me too
38:24and yeah
38:25andy has charmed me a little that's true
38:29yes
38:31this is so cheesy
38:38celia is a very very interesting person and i can feel a certain connection is developing
38:44that i haven't felt before
38:49do you have lipstick
38:51sure
38:52would you like mine
38:54here you go
38:55how are you
38:56how was it
38:57good
38:58you're grinning again
38:59who who did you see
39:01andy
39:02i just had a date with andy
39:04and it was good
39:05it was good
39:06i thought oh my god
39:08oh my god
39:09yes
39:10and when i hear that so and so also likes him i wish the girls all the best but somehow
39:18it puts pressure on me
39:19celia told me she had a good date with andy honestly it's just we're so different so
39:26that's what i keep thinking
39:27you know i think it's so like weird
39:29you know i think it's so like weird
39:30yeah he needs to know what he wants
39:32with andy day after day every date gets better i like him more and more and tomorrow i might take things up a notch
39:40yeah
39:41it's crazy that he likes us all especially since we're all so different i love the girls but i'm here to meet a man and i need to focus on myself
39:57hi this is andy
40:00oh i'm so relieved
40:01why
40:02that it's you i have to admit i was really hoping that we'd meet
40:08for you i wrote bundle of energy
40:11that's all
40:13i love that your voice is a little hoarse i think that's super cute
40:17yeah
40:18how long have you been single again a year and a half
40:20about a year and a half
40:21oh i remember that right
40:23um
40:24have you ever lived with a woman
40:26i thought you were gonna ask have you ever slept with a woman
40:28um
40:29are you
40:30are you still a virgin
40:31are you still a virgin
40:32yes
40:33no sex before marriage nadia so
40:35yeah
40:36i'm sorry i can't do this
40:37i have to
40:38i'll have to see what
40:39you have to know beforehand what the deal is
40:40because i have to know what i'm getting myself into
40:43for the rest of my life honestly
40:45yeah i uh
40:46don't worry about that
40:49i mean
40:50i'm a dancer you know
40:53i won't say more than that
40:54yeah i don't need to know more
40:56what
40:57oh man
40:58now you've totally thrown me off
40:59you're welcome it was my pleasure
41:00yeah
41:01oh god
41:02uh let me concentrate for a second then i'll know where we are
41:07i have images in my head now
41:09i asked whether you've ever lived with a woman
41:11all right uh yeah i have
41:13uh that was a long time ago
41:15uh i was in a quite a long relationship where we sort of lived together
41:19i mean she brought her stuff to my place but she was often at her parents place so i have
41:23yeah
41:24my goodness i feel like we started something here that needs to be continued
41:28yeah definitely
41:30i find natia really interesting too she's so fiery so full of energy all the things that i find attractive in a woman just because she's so yeah open-hearted
41:39i'm thinking it could be a good fit
41:41sounds good
41:44sweet
41:50it's so cool to see how you can feel sexual energy through a wall and you don't have to see each other but that it's possible just through a connection
42:00i want to keep getting to know andy
42:02that was really good guys we have to see each other again i'm happy
42:08i knew what i wanted
42:10i need a drink i feel really tense
42:16yeah crazy crazy so i rank the women higher when they're similar to me in the mindset and character so the decisions getting harder and harder
42:31i feel like we're starting to get closer and i feel they're warm
42:34yeah yeah it's not boring here
42:37no
42:40yeah it's just very very exciting at the moment because i have three women on my short list
42:46celia jasmine and natia and there's no gap between one two and three and that's why it's really gonna come down to a gut feeling
42:52man i really want a woman
42:55yeah who lies in my arms like really were you just gonna say hey wow i'm here i've arrived
43:04i've decided i wanted to focus on yan i feel like we're on the same wavelength and we know where we want to go in life but we can also figure it out together
43:22hey luon this is yan hello
43:26luon for god's sakes man
43:29should i ask you how you're doing
43:32yeah i can't imagine someone leaving a date with me and thinking man i had so much fun with yan
43:38i totally feel that and to make you feel better too and i say this with sheer sincerity i had a really lovely conversation with you yesterday
43:46and to be completely honest i feel the same way
43:49lovely well not lovely but it feels good to feel honestly
43:52no well it's lovely because we think the same way
43:54these are basically issues you have with yourself right um the stuff we're talking about right now
43:59that you compare yourself and so on um how is it for you when you're confronted with a me problem as i'll call it
44:05um how do you solve it
44:08um i um i actually always uh talk openly about things with friends family but i also spend time by myself journaling so i actually really like writing down my thoughts i realize that it's quite good to do it that way um and with conflicts in general i always need a moment to sort out my thoughts
44:33before i bring something up but that happens relatively quickly for me it's not like i think about something for five weeks and then i tell you about it it's more i feel something very quickly and then i bring it up um what about you
44:51um
44:53i'm completely blown away
44:55why
44:57i couldn't pick my job off the floor
44:59that was
45:01i mean
45:03i genuinely don't know what to say right now
45:05um
45:07wow
45:09well i feel very much the same way
45:11um
45:13i don't want to say identical
45:15because that might be a bit much but very similar
45:17yeah
45:19i'm also a reflective person
45:21yeah that's really nice
45:22totally
45:23i can also tell that you express yourself very eloquently
45:25which i really like
45:27i'm glad to hear that i do have a real affinity for language do you know what oh god whatever
45:33yeah i'll just say it
45:35do you know what's one of my really weird green flags
45:37what
45:39why are you laughing
45:41why are you laughing
45:43i really like it
45:45when a woman masters the genitive case
45:53yeah well it's probably
45:55that's a very very big quirk of mine
45:57i also really enjoy talking to you because of your diction i really like that too
46:00my diction
46:01yes
46:02never heard that
46:03i've really been complimented on everything but not that
46:09my diction
46:10yeah
46:11so i don't have to be so in my head anymore
46:13yeah
46:14you don't have to be
46:15yeah
46:16me neither
46:17me neither and neither do you
46:18yeah well
46:19i was going to ask if you're an over thinker
46:22i always say because i'm an over thinker
46:25i need an over communicator
46:27totally
46:28yeah
46:29hey i mean i'm listening to you and i refuse to believe that
46:32that you're really real
46:34we're hopeless the pair of us
46:37i'm excited to see what comes next no one
46:39me too
46:44i think the knot has come undone
46:49the two of us are really fucking similar
46:52it feels very easy with it
46:54i never thought that would happen
46:55that is so nice
46:57just lovely
46:58just lovely
46:59oh this is so great
47:00so lovely
47:01shit
47:02oh this is amazing
47:04oh i need to cry for a moment
47:06sweetie
47:07let it all out
47:08that's good
47:09it's beautiful
47:11wow how sweet
47:13hey what nice guys we have this season
47:15Wendy is clearly my number one but of course there's josey who i find very interesting as we had this incredible moment together i'm curious to see if it will have an impact but i can't say for sure yet i'll have to listen to my cut but it'll definitely be interesting i really wish you could see me today because
47:30so fine like too fine yes okay let's be direct what is your favorite body part on the opposite sex and what's your favorite body part on yourself i'm curious to see if it will have an impact but i can't say for sure yet i'll have to listen to my cut but it'll definitely be interesting
47:37but it'll definitely be interesting i really wish you could see me today because
47:44so fine like too fine yes okay let's be direct what is your favorite body part on the opposite sex and what's your favorite body part on yourself i'd say i really love really love a man's back
48:05oh then you'll oops yes yes yes i like a good back i think that's just amazing and on myself actually also my back and my lips that's my favorite favorite part
48:23hey a toned back on a woman yeah backless dresses and a sporty figure you know a nice booty no one would say no to that
48:31and what clothes do you feel sexy and why well i really like a good gym outfit
48:40and i also genuinely like really nice underwear that's so what color it's very um i think dark green is
48:54really nice green is my favorite color yeah yeah you'll like this yeah
48:59what i love is when you can have sex anywhere in the apartment for example without thinking about it
49:09yeah not like oh we have to go to the bedroom if you're like in the kitchen and in the kitchen when
49:14you're in the bathroom in the bathroom you know you don't think about it it just happens and i think
49:19that's really nice well i have to say um so far i haven't been able to let myself go like that
49:26okay because i always need emotions and i need i can only do it with my husband the way i'd like to
49:34try things out it's been more like you you've had sex and felt uncomfortable yeah there was definitely
49:40an inhibition you can't just yeah just yeah yeah wow there was definitely an inhibition and that's
49:48why it's like okay it wasn't what i wanted to do yet that's why i know for sure with my husband
49:54to have that security and it'll it'll be different yeah
49:59i had a brief moment where i thought the lack of
50:04yeah yeah experience could be a problem in the relationship
50:08sure i can't deny that
50:09i don't want to say that i'm going to get cold feet now
50:14but i definitely want fire and passion in my marriage
50:18josie is a really great person she's very lovely she's incredibly open and it means a lot to me that
50:27she confided in me that moment we shared together so first of all i want to say thank you
50:32so much for opening up to me i can only express gratitude uh to you two really i felt so understood
50:39and safe and of course a white person can also give me that no question but it's different
50:45with you i know you feel me i love it oh look how cute we are this is emotional
50:53really i've become so so so soft here it's crazy but it's nice
50:59that's really lovely i love it i can really cuddle right now i'm just saying
51:03they're the moments where i could just hold the person and squeeze them
51:07yeah but with those arms around me i know they'll protect me no matter what
51:12and they can hold me tight and that yeah i like that carry yeah i do like that yeah
51:19i didn't say anything there's definitely a certain physical stability that comes from
51:26strength training right let's just put it that way okay okay it's always interesting
51:33i mean sex affection and stuff that's a big topic
51:38a man of transitions now me where did you get that idea uh yeah i've noticed that when i meet
51:47someone and we kiss and i have the feeling that even the kissing isn't good yeah i already see a lot
51:52of issues there and wonder if i can really stay with the person long term because i know hey
51:57i would really miss that for instance i love it when a woman really takes initiative
52:02comes up to me and tells me like i want you i think that's so sexy and also when it's spontaneous
52:10the living room table is also okay kitchen kitchen great kitchen the kitchen is very underrated
52:21yeah a bit of a bad boy here i'm harmless i'm a nut oh god
52:27yeah this is getting a little spicy
52:37josie definitely brings passion and fire definitely that's really nice too i think it's completely
52:45natural and uh to be able to talk openly about sex and generally about intimate stuff so yeah
52:52it was interesting today for sure i don't know what kind of impact it will have on me we'll see
52:58but yeah it was definitely a very interesting conversation
53:02and how is josie
53:05i don't know i mean oh you like her too yeah okay
53:11well great i mean that was the most open and honest conversation it was a bit you know flirty
53:18and jokey i mean it wasn't dirty talk or anything like that
53:22i didn't know you were dating
53:25the question is uh what does your gut tell you
53:31the question is more what does her gut tell her
53:36you're really into her
53:38yeah totally
53:40and she is
53:41she definitely has concerns
53:43what kind
53:44that i'm that i'm too weak
53:47as a person
53:49i think the question i ask myself when i hear that
53:53do you
53:57want to take the risk
53:58of having to prove that you're strong enough
54:02because that will inevitably happen some way
54:05because i don't want to do that to be honest
54:07she has to figure that out i have nothing to do with that
54:11i'm taking a risk emotionally
54:12yeah
54:13but to me she's worth the risk
54:15my gut feeling tells me that
54:18with you two
54:19you're the safe choice
54:21in that sense that
54:23you're a safe bet
54:24and i think
54:27she needs a bit of that roughness
54:30yeah
54:30rough and tough
54:31yeah and that's not me but she has to figure that out for herself
54:35yeah
54:35so
54:35you're a good guy
54:37if it's not josie
54:39there are plenty of women out there on this planet
54:41yeah but i want josie
54:43yeah yeah
54:43this is gonna be really tough
54:47wow
54:47i'm really
54:48i'm a bit worried
54:50about how the day will go
54:52yeah
54:53yeah
54:55honestly i don't know if i'm the right person for josie
55:00i really want to be wanted right now because i know i want her
55:05that's an imbalance that's okay temporarily but i don't think it would work in the long run
55:11hello
55:21hello
55:22hello
55:22i'm a little afraid that she's only seeing me because she thinks it's the responsible thing to do
55:27and maybe she's lying to herself a bit that a spark might still develop
55:31how are you
55:32exhausted to be honest
55:34today's been crazy huh
55:35but you're doing okay
55:37yeah i am
55:39yeah
55:39i'm not in control of much anyway
55:41that actually gives me a bit of peace
55:44um
55:45i'm looking forward to spending time with you
55:48the rest can wait
55:49sure the stakes are higher and a fall isn't unlikely but
55:54there's always a risk right
55:56yeah
55:58i took the time to think things over again um
56:01and i took account of the pros and cons for myself too
56:05and um
56:06i promised you that i wouldn't come in here with any preconceived ideas or decisions
56:14but i've had a realization
56:19some days
56:33words it gets so hard
56:36trying to mend my broken heart
56:39messed up i've been torn up
56:43but oh
56:46some days you are all i find
56:51it hurts so bad but i can't cry
56:55knowing you are by her side
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