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After the disappointing debut of her novel, a woman engages in escapist behaviour, creating trouble in her marriage; as she and her husband, an ambitious TV writer, both have fantasies about other people, they navigate the challenges of commitment.
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00:00:01The 15 years.
00:00:02The 15 years?
00:00:05Hey.
00:00:08I want to try something.
00:00:09I want to try to say something new
00:00:13that I haven't already told you in the last 15 years.
00:00:16Okay.
00:00:17I'll do the same.
00:00:19I like the way you think.
00:00:21Your opinion is always the only one I really care about.
00:00:25My mom told me she finally realized what she needs from a man.
00:00:32She needs to feel like he thinks she's special.
00:00:36But that's how you make me feel.
00:00:38And you are special.
00:00:40No.
00:00:41That you make me feel like I am.
00:00:43Look at this.
00:00:48You know what I've observed about you over all the years we've been together?
00:00:52It seems like the two things that make you happiest
00:00:55are when I tell you I'm baking something.
00:00:57This cake is unbelievable.
00:00:58Yeah.
00:00:59And when I ask you if you want to have sex.
00:01:02Well, yeah.
00:01:04Maybe that's what all men want most from their wives.
00:01:06You know?
00:01:07Food and sex.
00:01:08It's like their two most basic physiological needs being met by their partner.
00:01:14But there's gotta be something else.
00:01:17What about recognition and praise?
00:01:19That's gotta be high on everyone's list.
00:01:24Okay.
00:01:25Here's a question.
00:01:27Which would you rather?
00:01:28A blowjob?
00:01:29Or I give you compliments for five minutes straight?
00:01:32A blowjob.
00:01:36I like when you give me compliments.
00:01:38But...
00:01:39I know.
00:01:40A hand job.
00:01:41That way I can tell you how great you are at the same time.
00:01:44Yeah, that's what I'm talking about.
00:01:47You see how your brain works?
00:01:48Should we try that?
00:01:59This one's already folded.
00:02:01It's weird that everyone dies.
00:02:06It's the most dramatic, suspenseful premise ever.
00:02:10It's not a movie, you know?
00:02:11You, that is you, are going to die one day and you don't know when or how.
00:02:16Wait, why are you singling me out?
00:02:17Are you anticipating it or...?
00:02:18No, it's just invigorating.
00:02:22I am going to die.
00:02:25Oh, that's terrifying.
00:02:27Or a relief.
00:02:30Katie Couric is going to die.
00:02:34Yes.
00:02:35Yes, she is.
00:02:37But the question is...
00:02:38How much time do you have left?
00:02:40Short amount?
00:02:41Long amount?
00:02:43Yeah, that.
00:02:44And what do you do with the time that you have?
00:02:46Are you spending it the way you should?
00:02:48The way you want to?
00:02:51Did you write today?
00:02:53No.
00:02:56You should just write something new.
00:02:57Just anything.
00:02:59I will.
00:03:00I'm going to.
00:03:03Kim, your book is great.
00:03:06I mean, that's the success.
00:03:07Just having created something that's great.
00:03:12People are going to discover it over time.
00:03:14They will.
00:03:15It'll be read.
00:03:19They absorb.
00:03:20I didn't even notice time going by.
00:03:21Well, that's what they say happiness is, right?
00:03:23Absorbeness.
00:03:25It's an incredible debut.
00:03:27This novel reminded me of what it was like to be a child.
00:03:32Cultivating relationships on social media eats up hours.
00:03:36Every day.
00:03:37Reading other people's feeds and coming up with interesting responses that are actually worth reading.
00:03:44And everyone acts like they're just hanging out, you know?
00:03:47But really, everyone is selling something.
00:03:51I don't know what to tell you.
00:03:52If you think you can put out a book without promoting it on social media, well, it's naive.
00:03:57The future is digital, that's all. End of story.
00:04:01I'll keep at it.
00:04:03How many followers do you have on Twitter?
00:04:04About 300?
00:04:08My 15-year-old daughter has 45,000.
00:04:11I know.
00:04:13Her tweets are really good.
00:04:15Look, we're abandoning our business model.
00:04:17Instead of authors, we're now going to pursue creators of digital content.
00:04:22Okay.
00:04:23So, I can't represent you anymore, but you're a good writer.
00:04:26It's just, you know, the novel is dead. Publishing is dead.
00:04:30I think there's always going to be people who want to read novels.
00:04:35It's not profitable.
00:04:37Except for a few authors at the very top.
00:04:39Supposedly, book sales are higher than ever.
00:04:42People are reading e-books.
00:04:43Well, they're not buying your book.
00:04:46I'm sorry.
00:04:47None of our clients' books are doing great right now.
00:04:49That's why we're changing direction.
00:04:58Okay.
00:05:00Well, I appreciate everything you've done for me and my book.
00:05:05Let's keep in touch.
00:05:07Okay.
00:05:08Bye.
00:05:15I'm sure you'll be able to get another agent when your next book is done.
00:05:19It's exciting that you and Alex were in the trades today.
00:05:23I can't believe the show is going to go.
00:05:25Yeah, I know. I can't believe it either. It's crazy.
00:05:29You're finally going to be running your own TV show.
00:05:32You work so hard.
00:05:33Yeah.
00:05:34If we can just make this a hit, then we can get one of our own pilots made.
00:05:38Yeah.
00:05:40The hours are going to be long, though.
00:05:42We're not going to be able to spend as much time together.
00:05:44You know how you always say couples that stick together, stick together.
00:05:48No. It'll be okay.
00:05:50I'll use the extra time alone to write.
00:05:57Ideas.
00:06:03Ideas.
00:06:17Ideas.
00:06:22Ideas.
00:06:33Ideas.
00:06:34Ideas.
00:06:38Ideas.
00:06:40What is the point?
00:06:44Ideas.
00:06:46Ideas.
00:06:48Ideas.
00:06:50Ideas.
00:06:52What is the point?
00:06:54I found our lead actress.
00:06:57Yeah?
00:06:59She's in that group of Headshots in the middle of the first time.
00:07:00I found our lead actress.
00:07:01Yeah?
00:07:01She's in that group of headshots we got today.
00:07:03Her name is Brittany Slayton.
00:07:07Is she funny?
00:07:08Who cares? Look at her.
00:07:10You're going to care. When we start shooting, she has to deliver one of your jokes.
00:07:13We'll get an audience just because of how she looks.
00:07:16Let's just watch her reel together tomorrow.
00:07:18Okay.
00:07:29Hey.
00:07:31Hi.
00:07:33Lori told me about some news show today where they did this experiment.
00:07:37They gave women the choice of dating.
00:07:39Either a short guy with a prestigious job and a great salary.
00:07:42Or a tall guy who had a dead-end job, was broke, and had a lot of debt.
00:07:47All the women chose the tall guy.
00:07:51I just think it sucks not giving short guys a chance.
00:07:54Well, it's the same as men wanting to be with a woman just because she's beautiful.
00:07:59I like how personality is the great equalizer.
00:08:03You know, if a person has charisma, doesn't matter if they're not conventionally attracted.
00:08:09People want to be with them.
00:08:10You know, supposedly one of the traits of charismatic people is that they're good listeners.
00:08:14Like Bill Clinton, people say that when he's talking to you, you feel like he's completely focused on you.
00:08:21Like you're the most important person in the world.
00:08:22Like you're the most important person in the world.
00:08:23When Isak Denison would talk to people, she'd open her eyes really wide and refrain from blinking as if she were trying to entrance them.
00:08:31Wow.
00:08:32They made her seem affected, but really, she was just insecure.
00:08:36Her whole problem was self-confidence.
00:08:40Maybe she wouldn't have become a great writer if she didn't have something to prove.
00:08:44Maybe that's what drives anyone who becomes great.
00:08:47They have something to prove.
00:08:48Yeah.
00:08:49Mm-hmm.
00:08:50I want to read you something that she wrote.
00:08:53Yeah.
00:08:59Reality had met me such a short time ago in such an ugly shape that I have no wish to come into contact with it again.
00:09:07Somewhere in me, a dark fear was still crouching, and I took refuge within the fantastic like a distressed child in his fairy tales.
00:09:16I did not want to look ahead and not at all to look back.
00:09:21Hmm.
00:09:22That's good.
00:09:24How are you doing?
00:09:26I keep fantasizing about leaving everything.
00:09:29Not just John, but also Philly, this house.
00:09:33You just got to hang in there.
00:09:35You're going to make it through this.
00:09:38It's like you've got to rip off the mother of all Band-Aids.
00:09:41Yeah.
00:09:42But once you do...
00:09:43I'll be free.
00:10:20I'm ready. I want it noted. And I'm just going to sit here totally still. Because normally when I see that you're still getting ready, I'll keep fiddling around. And then later, when we're late, you'll think it was because of me.
00:10:30I know it's me this time, but it's usually you.
00:10:33It's not always me. That's not true.
00:10:36Then how come every time I have a lunch or appointment by myself, I am on time?
00:10:41Okay, wait. Let's get back to Lisa. So you know she's not typically a snoop. It's not her style.
00:10:46Well, actually though, doesn't everybody snoop sometimes? I mean, I've done it.
00:10:52What, with me? With my stuff?
00:10:54No. Not with you.
00:10:57Okay.
00:10:58Anyway, John stays at work till like 10 o'clock every night because they have a week going to bed at the same time.
00:11:03Because the bedroom is intimate, obviously. And if you're having problems...
00:11:07Anyway, John works late, comes home, watches sports news while polishing off a bottle of wine, and passes out on the sofa.
00:11:15Lisa comes down to the kitchen for a glass of water, notices his cell phone on the dining table, and it makes a noise, signaling he got a text.
00:11:25Oh, boy.
00:11:25Yeah.
00:11:26Yeah.
00:11:26It's a selfie from some blonde.
00:11:30Oh, no.
00:11:31Yeah.
00:11:32Blonde said, hey hottie, you want to hang this weekend?
00:11:35What are they, like fucking 20-year-olds or something?
00:11:41That's crazy.
00:11:41You know, Lisa said, even though she's not in love with him anymore and she's told him she wants a divorce, it was like getting punched in the stomach.
00:11:48Of course.
00:11:49But she's like, what else is on his phone?
00:11:52Yeah.
00:11:53So she starts clicking through his texts, and there are tons of him asking different women out for drinks.
00:11:59Oh, my goodness. Are these women our age or are they younger?
00:12:04Lisa thinks they're our age. She thinks maybe he went to college with some of them.
00:12:07Okay.
00:12:08Probably the only way he's going to get someone younger is if he drives some flashy car or something.
00:12:12That's funny.
00:12:13But he has no money because his business isn't doing well and he refuses to get a job because 9-to-5s are for suckers, right?
00:12:21And meanwhile, Lisa is working her ass off trying to pay the bills so their water doesn't get shut off.
00:12:27Jesus, that's terrible.
00:12:29And you know what he says to her?
00:12:30What?
00:12:31I just wish you'd be happy.
00:12:35Huh?
00:12:36I mean, maybe that's what all men want, right? You know, just for their wives to smile and be happy.
00:12:43You know what? I get it. I understand it.
00:12:46It's like, welcome home, honey. Here's your cake.
00:12:49That's how you are, you know? Right?
00:12:55That's how you see me?
00:12:56Yeah, you're always happy.
00:13:01Well, except for now.
00:13:02Really?
00:13:03I have no idea what my purpose is.
00:13:07I mean, when I was writing my book, I felt like I was doing something that mattered.
00:13:11But if it turns out you're not successful at whatever it is you do...
00:13:15People love your writing, though, Kim.
00:13:16But if I'm not getting paid for it and only a handful of people know or care about it,
00:13:21I can't help but wonder if I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing.
00:13:27Your writing is validated by success.
00:13:29You are continually working on TV shows or selling pilots.
00:13:33And you're paid well.
00:13:34It is great that you have confirmation of your talent.
00:13:40Meanwhile, I...
00:13:42Oh my God, we're so late.
00:13:43I was ready.
00:13:44I was ready.
00:13:51I was ready.
00:14:21You didn't have.
00:14:22Yeah.
00:14:25But I've changed.
00:14:26You look great.
00:14:30You remember Homecoming?
00:14:32We didn't even make it to the dance.
00:14:35We just sat out in the parking lot and made it out in my car.
00:14:42Who knew that kissing for so long could be such a turn-on?
00:14:47But I guess we did more than just kiss.
00:14:59I don't believe in climate change.
00:15:02Don't ruin it.
00:15:04What if you've been losing weight and working out because you want a date?
00:15:23I do not want a date.
00:15:26I'm married.
00:15:28To a crazy person.
00:15:31Actually, I wish I really were nuts.
00:15:33I'd have more followers on Twitter.
00:15:36Side celebrities, the people who do best on Twitter are the pretty girls who are nuts.
00:15:40Like models who get into insult wars with people or say crazy shit about their sex life.
00:15:46Yeah.
00:15:47You know, Alex has been doing online dating.
00:15:49Oh.
00:15:50How's it going?
00:15:52She says that all the guys post pictures of their motorcycle or truck and all the girls post pictures of their cats.
00:15:58Wow.
00:15:59Yeah, it's like everyone's speaking the wrong language to each other.
00:16:02Can you imagine online dating?
00:16:06No.
00:16:07She says that no one looks like their photo.
00:16:09When she goes to meet them for coffee or whatever, they look totally different than their picture.
00:16:14Ugh.
00:16:15It's crazy.
00:16:16Well, it's tricky.
00:16:17I mean, you have to have photos that are good enough to catch guys' attention, but not so good that they're disappointed when they meet you.
00:16:24Yeah, she says some of the guys will post pictures of themselves, like, shirtless.
00:16:30What are you doing?
00:16:31Must be, like, a primal thing.
00:16:34Yeah, it's like, this is what I look like naked.
00:16:37I want to see what you look like naked.
00:16:40Yeah.
00:16:42You look good.
00:16:44Yeah.
00:16:45Yeah.
00:16:47Thanks.
00:16:50Chris is constantly hooking up with girls he meets online.
00:16:55I don't think he goes out with anyone twice.
00:16:57They just have sex and keep moving.
00:16:59Kim, he's in his 20s.
00:17:00But isn't it weird that we miss that?
00:17:03Apparently people spend their 20s bawling everyone in sight.
00:17:06But not us.
00:17:09Do you wish now that you'd been single in your 20s?
00:17:11No.
00:17:12Whoa.
00:17:13You are lying.
00:17:14This is what dishonesty in a marriage looks like.
00:17:19Would I rather have been single in my 20s than date you?
00:17:24No.
00:17:25You would do very well if you were single now.
00:17:28Kim, guys would be throwing themselves at you.
00:17:31I have at least five friends who would gleefully step over my dead body to get to you.
00:17:36Well, no one would be as good as you.
00:17:39I'd be, I'd be, I'd be screwed.
00:17:43Mm-hmm.
00:17:44Seriously.
00:17:46How's it going with the mediator?
00:17:47Okay, so far.
00:17:50If we can just keep being civil to each other, the divorce will only cost about $5,000.
00:17:57When Lisa and John first got together, I was envious of them.
00:18:01Because it seemed like they were more in love than anyone had ever been in the history of the world.
00:18:07And then basically right after they got married, they started having problems.
00:18:12They were in counseling the first year.
00:18:15It seems like people make the decision to get married when they're in a state of heightened emotion.
00:18:21But emotions are fleeting and marriage is not.
00:18:24It is hard as hell to get out of.
00:18:26So, no one should ever get married.
00:18:31Well, some would say that's why you get married.
00:18:33Because it helps you stay put when you're experiencing fleeting emotions.
00:18:37It's just so weird that Lisa was married for 17 years and now she'll be dating again.
00:18:44I mean, can you imagine having sex with strangers?
00:18:48I just described some people's fantasy, right?
00:18:51Yeah.
00:18:51Sex with strangers.
00:18:53Yeah.
00:18:56I'm really sensitive to how people smell, even just assuming they're showered and clean.
00:19:02That's funny. That's actually one of the questions on the dating apps.
00:19:05Really?
00:19:05Yeah, Alex says they ask you to rate how important everything is to you, and that's one of the things.
00:19:11How important is it that your date smells good?
00:19:14Very important.
00:19:16Yeah.
00:19:17I don't like when women wear tons of perfume.
00:19:20Hmm.
00:19:21I like when men wear cologne.
00:19:25Hmm.
00:19:26Maybe I should wear cologne more often.
00:19:29No, I don't care about you wearing it.
00:19:31You smell good without it.
00:19:32No, but if you like cologne, maybe I should wear it.
00:19:35I don't know.
00:19:39Maybe it would help.
00:19:40Maybe it would help?
00:19:42What?
00:19:44Did you just say maybe it would help?
00:19:46Like, what the hell is that supposed to mean?
00:19:47I don't know.
00:19:51I didn't know what I was saying.
00:19:52I was thinking about something else, and then I...
00:19:55I'm sorry, I...
00:19:56Why don't we have sex anymore?
00:19:59We do.
00:20:01It's been forever.
00:20:02It's been like a month.
00:20:03Yeah, that's a long time.
00:20:12What is it?
00:20:15Is it me?
00:20:16Are you not attracted to me anymore?
00:20:18You know I'm attracted to you.
00:20:20Then what is it?
00:20:21I think I just meant that cologne makes me think of sex.
00:20:27I just need something to remind me of sex.
00:20:39Hey.
00:20:42I'm sorry.
00:20:44I'm sorry.
00:20:45I didn't mean it like that.
00:20:50I'm sorry.
00:20:53Hey.
00:20:56I didn't mean it.
00:20:59I'm sorry.
00:21:06I am attracted to you.
00:21:15What are you doing?
00:21:31I want to drink it hot first, and then switch to iced.
00:21:35I want it both ways.
00:21:37How'd casting go today?
00:21:40Good.
00:21:40We had a girl come in to audition that was surprisingly good.
00:21:44We all liked her, all the writers.
00:21:46She was a little ditzy, but very funny.
00:21:48And what's her name?
00:21:49I'm Brittany.
00:21:50You know what I noticed today?
00:21:52Hmm.
00:21:54Everyone that came in to audition had striking eye color,
00:21:57like blue or green eyes that got everyone's attention.
00:22:01I bet the reason they got into acting was because when they were growing up,
00:22:05people would comment on their eyes, and it would make them feel special.
00:22:09I believe it.
00:22:11Yeah.
00:22:11George Clooney has brown eyes.
00:22:16So is she attractive?
00:22:18Who?
00:22:19Brittany.
00:22:20Yeah, she's cute.
00:22:22What's her last name?
00:22:24Uh, Slayton, I think?
00:22:27See, it's little things like this.
00:22:29Just chip away at trots.
00:22:31Are you seriously pretending to be unsure of her name?
00:22:34Hmm.
00:22:42What?
00:22:46What?
00:22:48I'm trying to decide what I'll do if you leave me for this actress.
00:22:52I'm not going to leave you.
00:22:54Manhattan.
00:22:55Some kind of finance guy.
00:22:56Not the shady type.
00:22:58He just was always brilliant at math, and he has impeccable ethics.
00:23:02Uh, there's no such person.
00:23:05Fine.
00:23:06Yeah.
00:23:08If I were single, I could redecorate as often as I like.
00:23:12Change up the whole damn house whenever I want.
00:23:15Meanwhile, I hope you're ready to play therapist and personal assistant to your actress wife,
00:23:21as she careens between breathtaking narcissism and debilitating insecurity.
00:23:27The great thing about actors is you always know where you stand.
00:23:32They're number one.
00:23:35Why do you do this?
00:23:39Huh?
00:23:43I like to be prepared for any outcome.
00:23:45Like anyone, I'm trying to avoid suffering.
00:23:48Well, if we break up, we'd both suffer.
00:23:53Even if I marry an actress and you end up with a finance guy.
00:24:03Yeah.
00:24:12Nervous!
00:24:12You got to commit or you're going to make a mess.
00:24:17Commit, commit, commit, commit!
00:24:18No, she used that book club.
00:24:32No, she used that book club.
00:24:37Once a week?
00:24:50Once a week, yeah.
00:24:51No, but she's doing great.
00:24:53She's doing really good.
00:24:59What's that?
00:25:00Well, look, I'm glad it made you feel better, but did you think about going outside at all
00:25:03and throwing it against the ground or...
00:25:05I'll fix the wall.
00:25:07I know how to spackle.
00:25:09Besides, I've been wanting to paint this room again anyway.
00:25:11We just had to paint it.
00:25:12Two years ago.
00:25:14I got my hair cut and colored, and I bought some cute new outfits.
00:25:18Meg has a good camera, so she's going to take some pics of me to use on dating apps.
00:25:23Oh, my gosh.
00:25:24How fun.
00:25:24It's so weird to be single again.
00:25:27Lately, I haven't been able to sleep because I'm just excited.
00:25:36Did you know anytime you see a celebrity with fabulous mermaid waves, it's actually hair extensions?
00:25:42What?
00:25:47One day, I'm going to get hair extensions.
00:25:50They'll be really expensive.
00:25:52They'll never be exactly right, and I'll complain about them a lot.
00:26:00Actually, I don't want hair extensions.
00:26:02It's like Fran Leibowitz says about plastic surgery.
00:26:06It's the burden of the rich.
00:26:10But I would like to repaint this bedroom.
00:26:15You always want change, huh?
00:26:17You always want things to stay the same.
00:26:21Look, I've been with the same person for 15 years, and that's great.
00:26:27But I do need change in some part of my life, and I don't think it's a big deal to want to repaint the bedroom occasionally.
00:26:36Are you stressed about the show?
00:26:40Yeah.
00:26:41I just hope we make something good.
00:26:44On set, it seems like you're not attracted to me.
00:26:48I am.
00:26:49You don't act like it.
00:26:51God, I hope not.
00:26:52God, I hope not.
00:27:22So, what have you been up to?
00:27:37I'm trying to think of how to summarize the last two decades.
00:27:42You look good.
00:27:43No, you do.
00:27:45Oh, I don't really look like this.
00:27:48Recently, I've gained some weight, and I've started losing my hair.
00:27:51I don't care about that stuff.
00:27:54I just remember you the way you used to be.
00:27:56So, when we were on set today, did I hear you talking about The Bachelorette?
00:28:04I'm obsessed.
00:28:05Is that a problem?
00:28:10I wish I didn't care.
00:28:13Let's pretend I only watch documentaries.
00:28:16Well, this whole thing is pretend.
00:28:18There has to be some grain of truth or reality.
00:28:21Remember how we all went to Catherine's parents' farm for senior skip day?
00:28:25Yeah.
00:28:25And everyone got wasted, and we all played strip poker in the barn.
00:28:29That was one of the best nights of my life.
00:28:31And you and I almost made out.
00:28:33Why didn't we?
00:28:35I don't know.
00:28:36Oh, wait.
00:28:37That's because you only dated football players.
00:28:39I read a book recently.
00:28:41Oh, yeah?
00:28:41Oh, it was so good.
00:28:43It was about magical thinking.
00:28:44Oh, the Joan Didion book.
00:28:47No.
00:28:48It was about how if you think positively enough, often enough, you can manifest everything you dream of.
00:28:56So, every person who's successful now never had negative thoughts while they were working their way up?
00:29:05I'm not sure.
00:29:08I wanted to sleep, and now I'm having a panic attack.
00:29:11So, how are you?
00:29:15Good.
00:29:16It seems like your focus on success is making you unhappy.
00:29:22You think?
00:29:23Look, I'm a nice, sweet person.
00:29:26No, I know.
00:29:27I'm sorry.
00:29:30I'll see you at work.
00:29:32Okay.
00:29:34I'm going to look really hot tomorrow.
00:29:38Great.
00:29:38What did you do today?
00:29:48Wasted time online.
00:29:51How much time did you spend on Facebook?
00:29:53Too much.
00:29:55What did you get out of it?
00:29:56I miss my friends from high school.
00:29:59You don't even have anything in common with them.
00:30:02Except childhood.
00:30:04Okay.
00:30:06That's a bit dramatic.
00:30:08It is dramatic.
00:30:10Growing up with a group of people?
00:30:12Well, it's your personal history, your formative years.
00:30:18Well, I just think, at a certain point, at a certain age, you move past that.
00:30:22Or is it more important than ever?
00:30:26Those memories, who you were then.
00:30:28Like, I can't decide if I'm a completely different person now or if I'm basically the same.
00:30:35I have no desire to be on Facebook.
00:30:41You're not a sentimental person.
00:30:44You're not nostalgic.
00:30:45I am about some things.
00:30:47You seemed happy to see everybody at your 20-year reunion.
00:30:52You were happy to see Shannon.
00:30:54It was nice to see her.
00:30:55It was nice to see everyone.
00:30:58I like people.
00:30:59Yeah, but I want to see everybody from my class.
00:31:07Get them all together and just hang out for hours.
00:31:10Really catch up.
00:31:12Yeah, I don't need to do that.
00:31:23Maybe you don't care about being on Facebook because you're interested.
00:31:29You're not interested in your life.
00:31:31You're engaged in what you're doing.
00:31:35You're not interested in your life?
00:31:40Hey, hey, hey.
00:31:42Hey.
00:31:51Stop breaking the law, asshole.
00:31:53Liar, liar.
00:31:55From where does the power come?
00:31:57To see the race to its end.
00:31:59Chariots of Fire.
00:32:01You want us to give back the money?
00:32:04Lost in America.
00:32:07I've got the hair.
00:32:08I've got the eyes.
00:32:09Peggy Sue got married.
00:32:12Oh, I'm trying to cooperate.
00:32:16Fargo.
00:32:19Michael is a very tall man.
00:32:22You want a hint?
00:32:26You want a hint?
00:32:26No.
00:32:29All that jazz?
00:32:32Perfect.
00:32:34I'm sorry.
00:32:35I can't.
00:32:35I don't do this.
00:32:37I never do that.
00:32:38I don't care.
00:32:39I just, I can't believe you lied about it.
00:32:42You know what I mean?
00:32:43I do care.
00:32:44Why are you staying up looking at pictures of a half-naked model?
00:32:46It's stupid.
00:32:47The one time I do that, I...
00:32:49It was so weird.
00:32:50I, like, covered up that you were looking at it.
00:32:53You totally lied.
00:32:54I know.
00:32:55I'm sorry.
00:32:56I screwed up.
00:32:56Who even is she?
00:32:58She's just like a swimsuit model.
00:33:00Would it bother you if I stayed up late looking at pictures of naked guys online?
00:33:04Of course it would.
00:33:05You know, you don't have to worry about that.
00:33:08Because I don't want to look at pictures of strangers' penises.
00:33:13Everyone knows that men love beauty.
00:33:16So it's just accepted that you get to look at pictures of women online.
00:33:20But I would argue that you're going outside the relationship for something.
00:33:23And it could get weird.
00:33:25Like, where you just shut down emotionally.
00:33:28No, no.
00:33:28Kim.
00:33:28Kim.
00:33:29I was just on autopilot, okay?
00:33:31Randomly clicking through things without even thinking about it.
00:33:34That's all that was.
00:33:35Why don't you just look at pictures of women openly then?
00:33:38I mean, why hide it?
00:33:39Maybe while I'm cooking you dinner, you could just be sitting at the table,
00:33:43surfing the net for pictures of naked women.
00:33:46I would never do that to you.
00:33:47Doing it behind my back doesn't protect me.
00:33:49It protects you.
00:33:50If you're going to keep doing it, you should tell me.
00:33:54I want to know if that's our arrangement.
00:33:56So that I'll feel free to do what I want to do.
00:34:00Well, um, you already are doing what you want to do.
00:34:04What does that even mean?
00:34:06I mean, you're talking to all those guys on Facebook.
00:34:08They're just friends.
00:34:10Okay, well, a lot of them want to be more than just friends.
00:34:12They're just curious about my life.
00:34:14They just want to catch up.
00:34:17No, no, no, no.
00:34:17Don't defend them, okay?
00:34:19I hate when you defend them.
00:34:22What's depressing is that no one can be trusted.
00:34:26You have your own inner life.
00:34:29And I don't know what you're really thinking or what you do with your private time.
00:34:35Well, I could say the same thing about you.
00:34:39Well, Kim, you can trust me.
00:34:55That was rough.
00:34:57Yeah.
00:34:58We should write an episode about this.
00:35:01I'm going to be embarrassed to tell you about it at work tomorrow.
00:35:04Maybe I won't.
00:35:06Oh, come on.
00:35:07We talk about everything.
00:35:08You think I'm a jerk?
00:35:09No.
00:35:13I am a little disappointed, though.
00:35:15I thought y'all had a great marriage.
00:35:17We do.
00:35:18This is not a big deal.
00:35:20All men do it.
00:35:21So the problem is that you got caught?
00:35:24I don't know.
00:35:27Actually, I can think of a few married men I know who...
00:35:31Nice guys, really sweet.
00:35:33They probably don't look at pictures of naked women online.
00:35:36So you think I'm not a good man?
00:35:38No, of course you're a good man.
00:35:41It's just...
00:35:41There's a continuum, you know?
00:35:44So I'm not the worst, but I'm not the best.
00:35:46But yeah, I mean, I'm sure there's probably loads of women who would shrug this off.
00:35:55They're the type who are not in love with their husbands and are like, whatever keeps them off my back.
00:36:00Yeah, but it's not like she caught me masturbating the pictures of women.
00:36:03You think that's worse?
00:36:05Yeah, you don't.
00:36:06There's a big leap between looking at pictures and masturbating to them.
00:36:10Why?
00:36:12Because...
00:36:13Because you're having sexual thoughts about another woman.
00:36:16Aren't you having sexual thoughts when you're looking at the pictures?
00:36:20I mean, you can have sexual thoughts about a person without looking at pictures of them.
00:36:23Okay, this is a whole can of worms.
00:36:25I just think that masturbating the pictures of women is worse.
00:36:28Look, if I'm dating someone, I don't want them doing any of this stuff.
00:36:33But I think the question is, is it unreasonable for men to expect to be able to look at pictures of naked women?
00:36:41Or is it unreasonable for women to expect them not to?
00:36:45Yes, I think that it's...
00:36:47Oh, you know, this is why I hate dating, by the way.
00:36:50It's like, you meet this guy, he seems nice, he's sweet, and then you find out he has this whole secret life.
00:36:56Women have secret lives.
00:36:57Yeah, but men's habits are always darker.
00:37:01What's the worst thing you do that no one knows about?
00:37:05I got nothing to hide.
00:37:07No, seriously, I could run for political office.
00:37:10Okay.
00:37:13Okay, fine.
00:37:15If I'm reaching, so if I'm jealous of a person, or Lightly's talking, then I go online and look up their real estate records to see how much they paid for their house.
00:37:26That's it.
00:37:27Mm-hmm.
00:37:29So, you look at pictures of naked women online.
00:37:33Sometimes I'm bored, or I'm frustrated, or I need variety.
00:37:37It's not cheating.
00:37:40The hawk was right there between the chairs.
00:38:04It's huge.
00:38:05Wow.
00:38:06Yeah.
00:38:07Oh, look at that hummingbird.
00:38:11You see it right there?
00:38:12I see it.
00:38:13Yeah.
00:38:16I love how birds are busy doing their own thing.
00:38:19They just go about their lives with no interest in us.
00:38:23Yeah.
00:38:24I love that.
00:38:26Ugh, it is gross how much we ate this weekend.
00:38:37What if you could go to jail for gluttony?
00:38:40Our friends would be like, what happened to Mark and Kim?
00:38:44Well, they went to prison because of Fourth of July weekend.
00:38:48A big part of marriage is overeating together.
00:38:53Everyone would be in jail with us.
00:38:55Yeah.
00:38:57You know how they say you should, like, move your body for 20 minutes every day?
00:39:02Yeah.
00:39:03This always sounds appealing to me, you know?
00:39:06Like, I do my workout, but it's tedious.
00:39:10Like, moving your body for 20 minutes a day, that just sounds fun.
00:39:14You could just do whatever.
00:39:16And they say it reduces your chance of getting cancer.
00:39:19Yeah.
00:39:21What's going on?
00:39:23I'm going to move my body for 20 minutes.
00:39:27Okay.
00:39:28You're going to do it with me?
00:39:30Sure.
00:39:31Not for her.
00:39:32Hey.
00:39:33Hi.
00:39:34Hey.
00:39:35Hi.
00:39:36Hi.
00:39:37Hey.
00:39:38So where do you live in Philly?
00:39:39East Falls.
00:39:40Oh, wow.
00:39:41How is it?
00:39:42It's great.
00:39:43There's cool stuff to do.
00:39:44There's cool stuff to do.
00:39:45It's easy to meet up with friends.
00:39:46It's easy to meet up with friends.
00:39:48Come on.
00:39:49Hey, everyone.
00:39:50You know, dog.
00:39:51More than 500 people.
00:39:52Do you know it?
00:39:53Not 50 people.
00:39:54You know, doggy.
00:39:55Yeah.
00:39:56How is it?
00:39:57You know.
00:39:58Not 50 people.
00:39:59We know, doggy.
00:40:00You know, doggy.
00:40:01You know, doggy, doggy.
00:40:02So where do you live in Philly?
00:40:04East Falls.
00:40:06Oh, wow. How is it?
00:40:08It's great. There's cool stuff to do.
00:40:11It's easy to meet up with friends.
00:40:13There's a sense of community.
00:40:15The only time I feel a sense of community in L.A.
00:40:19is when we're greeted warmly by waiters at our favorite restaurants.
00:40:23You don't have to live here.
00:40:25No. I do.
00:40:28So, how'd it go today?
00:40:34We just kept getting a bunch of stupid notes.
00:40:38And the premise of the show, I just...
00:40:42I just wish it were one of me and Alex's ideas.
00:40:45I mean, we've written a ton of great pilots.
00:40:47Everyone loves the Austin pilot.
00:40:49I just don't know why our agents haven't tried to get it set up somewhere yet.
00:40:53I think it has to come from you.
00:40:55You have to tell them this is the script we want to make.
00:40:58We've done that.
00:40:59You've never said we are going to lie down in traffic until you help us get this script set up somewhere.
00:41:05I can't do that. You don't just...
00:41:08Then you have to make it happen yourself, with or without their help.
00:41:11Shoot it yourself.
00:41:13We could go to Philly.
00:41:16You could shoot at friends' houses, local places.
00:41:19If... Kim, if I say no to jobs here so I can make something myself, we wouldn't be able to keep this house.
00:41:24Okay, but...
00:41:25Look, everything we have, we bought with the money that I make from taking jobs that I don't always want to take.
00:41:32I know. So let's not let an attachment to material possessions stop you from fulfilling your dreams.
00:41:37Oh, come on. Kim, you say that.
00:41:40But if we had to move out and move into a one-bedroom apartment, or God forbid, move back home with one of our parents, you would hate me.
00:41:47You would divorce me so fast.
00:41:49No, I wouldn't. But you might resent me for talking you into quitting your job.
00:41:54But I mean, I could go to Philly.
00:41:57What? Why would you go to Philly?
00:42:00I don't know. That makes no sense.
00:42:03Look, it doesn't matter. We just gotta get a hold of ourselves here. We don't have to go to such extreme measures.
00:42:08Look, I am not miserable. I just want to one day be able to make one of my pilots. And that day's gonna come.
00:42:15I just need to be patient. That's it.
00:42:20I need to get a job.
00:42:22I thought when my book was published, maybe I would get in advance to write my next one. But that isn't happening.
00:42:30You already have a job. You're a writer.
00:42:33At a certain point, you have to ask yourself if you're really on the right path. I mean, clearly.
00:42:43You know what? I'm not on this path anymore. Fuck this path. I'm going to do something else.
00:42:50Start your next book.
00:42:53I'm not writing another book. It'd be stupid to write another one.
00:42:58No, no. It's not stupid. You're a writer. You're good at it.
00:43:02Even if I am, does it matter if no one reads what I write?
00:43:05You have a bunch of subscribers on your blog.
00:43:09It's all friends and family. There are writers with tens of thousands of subscribers.
00:43:15Although supposedly no one's even reading blogs anymore. It's all about Instagram now.
00:43:19Okay, whatever. You don't stop expressing yourself just because there's no audience.
00:43:23It used to be I would have agreed with you. But now that I've been doing this for so long, I...
00:43:35You know what I'm trying to accept right now? There may not be a happy ending. I might never be successful.
00:43:43You will be successful. You already are successful.
00:43:50You're amazing. I don't deserve you.
00:43:55So which one was this?
00:43:57The fireman. Super hot.
00:43:59Super hot.
00:44:01So you finally hooked up. What happened?
00:44:04It was a bust. I gave him a handjob just to get him out of my house.
00:44:09If you didn't want to, you shouldn't have. Would you want your daughters doing that?
00:44:14God, no. I shouldn't have done it.
00:44:18He asked me why I wasn't letting him do anything for me.
00:44:21It's because when we were making out, the way he was touching me, I could tell he didn't know what he was doing.
00:44:27But here's something. You know how penises are usually not that attractive?
00:44:32His was. It was actually beautiful.
00:44:35Really?
00:44:36Yeah. It looked like it was airbrushed. His whole body was just sort of golden.
00:44:43Wow.
00:44:44I think another reason he looked good down there was because he was well-groomed. His hair was trimmed.
00:44:51Mark trims his hair.
00:44:53Of course he does. Because he gives a shit.
00:44:56John never did anything to maintain his hair down there. It was disgusting.
00:45:02So you gave him a handjob. Did you use any kind of lubricant or...?
00:45:07He finished himself off.
00:45:09He did something I've never seen before. He spit in his hand for lube.
00:45:13So he's adept at getting himself off.
00:45:19But not women.
00:45:24Maybe this is an argument for dating older men.
00:45:28No. They want to date 26 year olds.
00:45:31Of course they do.
00:45:34Another thing about getting older is I find myself thinking about the big picture more.
00:45:42Often like I'm looking at our life from a distance and I see where we are on the continuum.
00:45:48Yeah I know we have time left but it no longer seems infinite.
00:45:53And soon the pretty years will be over.
00:45:58Or maybe they already are.
00:46:01When I think about how the rest of our life is going to go, I feel like there may not be a lot of surprises left.
00:46:07Or there will be surprises but they won't be good ones.
00:46:11There will be good surprises. A lot of cool stuff might happen.
00:46:15What's weird is that even if I think about the good stuff that might happen, I don't feel excited.
00:46:23You know one of the actresses on our show read a good book about thinking positive.
00:46:28I'll find out the name of it and get it for you.
00:46:31You don't find pessimism attractive?
00:46:37So, how was the notes meeting today? Tell me they raved about the script.
00:46:55No, they went right in the notes. They had no compliments. Nothing positive to say.
00:46:59Bullshit!
00:47:00I kept wanting to say, hey have you seen the shows on your network? Because they all suck.
00:47:04Yeah.
00:47:09What are you doing? Why are you smiling?
00:47:11Oh, I'm just doing this thing from that book on positivity you got me. Go ahead. Tell me more about your day.
00:47:18Okay. So we're shooting this episode where Brittany's older brother comes over and he's talking about his womanizing and basically being a dick.
00:47:25Mm-hmm.
00:47:26And they say, hey, uh, Brittany's not being sweet enough to him in this scene. Can she, like, make him a sandwich or something?
00:47:33Wow. That's annoying.
00:47:36Wait. What are you doing? Why are you smiling?
00:47:38Oh, I'm faking it till I make it. Just the physical act of smiling causes serotonin to be released.
00:47:43It's freaking me out.
00:47:44Really?
00:47:45Yeah.
00:47:46Too much?
00:47:56Dinner was so good. Thank you. And I'm sorry I've been working so late.
00:48:02No, I'm sorry you're having to. So Lisa is going on a million dates. She's like the belle of the ball on all of these dating apps. You know how she had gained weight over the past couple of years because her marriage was so miserable?
00:48:17I bet she loses it now.
00:48:19She already has.
00:48:20Of course.
00:48:21She said when she dropped the kids off at John's this weekend, he looked slimmer, too.
00:48:24Yeah, they're on the market now. They have to look good. It's amazing what people can accomplish when they're motivated.
00:48:31She said some of her girlfriends who are divorced have told her that guys in their 20s and 30s like dating older, divorced women because a lot of them want to have sex with no strings attached.
00:48:43They've already been married. They already have kids.
00:48:48Are you jealous of Lisa?
00:48:49No.
00:48:53No.
00:48:54Because she gets a date?
00:48:56Yeah, but whom? By the time you're our age, people have developed some seriously scary habits.
00:49:04So what'd you do today?
00:49:08I read an article in the LA Times.
00:49:11Well, that's something.
00:49:12It was about people who are obsessed with opera.
00:49:15Yeah?
00:49:16Yeah, they hang out on these websites devoted to opera news and gossip.
00:49:21And there's this contingent of opera lovers called the Opera Hoppers.
00:49:25They fly all over the world just to see performances they're interested in.
00:49:30And these are not just rich people.
00:49:32We're talking about secretaries who love opera and save up all their money to go to Italy or wherever.
00:49:38That's cool.
00:49:39What blew me away is that there are people out there pursuing some passion of theirs full force.
00:49:47I mean, instead of doing something stupid like having an affair just because they feel empty or sad or uninspired,
00:49:54they're taking this passion that could be put toward blowing up their life.
00:50:00And they're doing something positive with it.
00:50:02Is there, uh, do you think it's possible that you're going through a midlife crisis?
00:50:13I think I'm too young.
00:50:17Well, it seems like you're going through something.
00:50:21I think I'm okay.
00:50:23Well, you might not be the best judge.
00:50:26Maybe the person that's in it isn't able to see what's happening.
00:50:32Kim, I'm just concerned that you're going to do something you might regret.
00:50:36You're not thinking about having an affair, are you?
00:50:39No, Mark.
00:50:41I would never do anything to hurt you.
00:50:43Hey, even if you have a really cynical view,
00:50:47like say that people are ultimately self-centered and do what they want,
00:50:53I'm not going to do something that goes against my own best interest.
00:50:58And it's in my own best interest to protect this relationship.
00:51:04Okay.
00:51:08I love you.
00:51:17Hey.
00:51:26Hi.
00:51:30I read the pages you wrote today.
00:51:33Yeah?
00:51:35So good.
00:51:37So funny.
00:51:39I was cracking up at everything.
00:51:41Really?
00:51:42Yeah.
00:51:44Of all the writers we know, you are by far the best.
00:51:49No.
00:51:50Yeah.
00:51:53It's been so long since you've given me a compliment, you know?
00:51:56You're usually so good about it.
00:51:58Everyone wants recognition and praise.
00:52:01I know, right?
00:52:02What's wrong?
00:52:12Nothing.
00:52:14Mm-hmm.
00:52:16I'm sorry.
00:52:17I'm sorry.
00:52:18I'm sorry.
00:52:19Nothing.
00:52:21Mm.
00:52:22it's a vision board a vision of the future or i don't know i guess it just represents what i
00:52:43want it's all 80s yeah the 1980s yes well like how is this a vision for the future i knew you
00:52:56wouldn't understand well i'm trying i'm i don't know maybe it's not a vision board exactly it's
00:53:02i'm really into the 80s right now it's one of my passions i just want to immerse myself in it
00:53:12writing is one of your passions
00:53:14i appreciate your encouraging me to write
00:53:22but right now i just want to think about things that make me feel good
00:53:42so
00:54:58Look at him.
00:54:59It was the hardest thing he's ever done.
00:55:00I mean, a part of him died when he sent that boring, stupid text.
00:55:03Nah.
00:55:04Good man.
00:55:05It's hard being an adult.
00:55:06You know, you should have let us pitch your response.
00:55:08Because I could have come up with a way to say no and yes at the same time.
00:55:11What he said was perfect.
00:55:13Why deny yourself what would obviously be an incredible pleasure?
00:55:17Because some things are worth sacrificing for.
00:55:20Like the love of an honest and loyal person.
00:55:22Yeah, instead of hooking up with randos.
00:55:24Well, if Brittany's a rando, sign me up.
00:55:26Okay.
00:55:27Well, I need this job to last for years.
00:55:29Yeah.
00:55:30Okay.
00:55:31So, how you handle this is critically important.
00:55:35Our careers are on the line here.
00:55:36I think what they're saying is don't shit where you eat.
00:55:39He's not going to cheat.
00:55:40I love Kim.
00:55:41I'm in love with Kim.
00:55:46I'm not buying you an iRock.
00:55:51Mark, they're so affordable compared to a new car.
00:55:54You can get one that's in great shape for like nothing.
00:55:57But up until today, you wanted a new Volvo.
00:56:01All the reviews say the new Volvo is a very staid ride.
00:56:04Not exciting to drive.
00:56:06Solid, but dull.
00:56:07For nine years you've been driving a Volvo and loved it.
00:56:10So much so that you've been wanting another one up until today.
00:56:12I did love it.
00:56:14But now that I've been getting in touch with what I really want...
00:56:19You know what?
00:56:20It makes me really uncomfortable the way your opinion about something can change so completely.
00:56:26Hey.
00:56:29I hear what you're saying.
00:56:31But my opinion of you has never changed.
00:56:34Hey.
00:56:35That will always stay the same.
00:56:39You've been talking about getting a new Volvo for months.
00:56:42And now all of a sudden it's dead to you?
00:56:44Now you randomly want to buy a car that represents what was cool in the 80s?
00:56:49Like what is your obsession with the 80s?
00:56:51It just seems like such a fun time.
00:56:53I had the 90s.
00:56:54The 90s sucked.
00:56:56Yeah, the 80s were way better.
00:56:59Diana's best friend had an i-rock and they'd let me ride around with them.
00:57:05Yeah, but it's like that song.
00:57:07You can't put your arms around a memory.
00:57:10Who sang that?
00:57:11Johnny Thunders.
00:57:12He was in the New York Dolls.
00:57:14I just feel like you're gonna screw me over someday.
00:57:21How can you say that? We've been together forever.
00:57:25Yeah, maybe too long.
00:57:26Too long for me or for you?
00:57:28Not for me. I'm happy.
00:57:29So am I.
00:57:30I mean, except for not knowing why I'm alive.
00:57:33Well, maybe you should see someone.
00:57:36I don't need a therapist. I need an i-rock.
00:57:41I mean, come on.
00:57:43Spend $200 an hour just to tell someone about how I spent seven years writing a book.
00:57:49And it nearly killed me.
00:57:51And it was published and I thought that was the holy grail.
00:57:53But it turns out what you really want is for people to actually read it?
00:57:57Come on.
00:57:58Jonathan Franzen wrote a whole thing about this.
00:58:02About how people don't read challenging fiction anymore.
00:58:09So what else do you do besides look at cars online?
00:58:14I watched Valley Girl.
00:58:18What?
00:58:20That's not new to you.
00:58:21You know it's my favorite movie and always has been.
00:58:26Why are you mad?
00:58:27I'm not mad.
00:58:28I just feel like you're refusing to do what would make you happy.
00:58:31Which is to start writing again.
00:58:34I used to worry that there wasn't enough time to write all the books I had ideas for.
00:58:39And now I can't think of one single idea.
00:58:43It's like I have nothing to say.
00:58:45The only thing I can think of is, hey, you know how we're all addicted to our phones?
00:58:50Doesn't that suck?
00:58:52What?
00:58:53What?
00:58:54I'm sure you could come up with ideas if you tried.
00:58:56You just have to get back into it.
00:59:02What?
00:59:03This is from Malcolm Gladwell.
00:59:04He wrote this about his running in a cross-country race when he was young.
00:59:09I had done what everyone always says you were supposed to do as a human being.
00:59:16I had given it my all.
00:59:18And I realized that what everyone says you should always do was so painful that I never wanted to do it again.
00:59:24We should have sex.
00:59:35I wish you wouldn't always use the word should.
00:59:38Oh my gosh.
00:59:40You're right.
00:59:41I'm sorry.
00:59:42I don't always say should.
00:59:44It's just that lately.
00:59:45If you're not up for it, that's fine.
00:59:47I'm up for it.
00:59:50Alright, let's do it.
00:59:54Great.
00:59:58Hi.
00:59:59I'm Fred.
01:00:00I like tacos and 71 Cabernet.
01:00:01My favorite color is agenda.
01:00:08What?
01:00:11I'm just in the middle of something.
01:00:15Supposedly you should never go into a meeting without knowing what you want.
01:00:18No, it's not that type of meeting.
01:00:20They just want to celebrate the show starting production.
01:00:22Oh, that's nice.
01:00:25Kim, they're not going to help us get one of our scripts set up when we're already on a show.
01:00:30It took months for this show to start.
01:00:32If they sell one of your scripts, maybe that'll take months to get going too and the timing would work out.
01:00:37They don't want to do the work, okay?
01:00:39They're thrilled that we're on a job so they don't have to do anything.
01:00:42In fact, I'm sure they're going to push some of their clients on us.
01:00:46Try to pressure us into hiring them.
01:00:48You could ask them to send out your movie script.
01:00:50They didn't respond to it, remember?
01:00:52They don't have to respond to it.
01:00:53They have to sell it.
01:00:54Yeah, but then they'll say it's hard for them to sell it if they don't love it.
01:00:57It's hard for you to work on shows you don't love, but you do it and they take 10% of your salary.
01:01:05Okay, I'll tell them to put out our movie script.
01:01:09They suck.
01:01:10Don't do it for my sake.
01:01:12I mean, if you want this celebratory dinner to be all about their agenda, foisting their other clients on you, if you can't ask for what you want...
01:01:21Okay, you know what I want?
01:01:23Huh?
01:01:24You know what I want?
01:01:25I want to know what you did today.
01:01:30What'd you do?
01:01:31This is embarrassing, but I did nothing.
01:01:36Did you watch Valley Grow again?
01:01:39Yeah.
01:01:44When I'm watching it, it's like when you're sleeping and you're having this really good dream and you just don't want to wake up.
01:01:56Do I need to cancel dinner?
01:01:59Why?
01:02:00Because I'm concerned about you.
01:02:02I'm fine.
01:02:03Can I ask you a question?
01:02:07What is so terrible about our life that you need to escape it by watching Valley Girl over and over?
01:02:12Nothing.
01:02:14I'm very grateful for her life.
01:02:17And I know I'm out of integrity, you know?
01:02:20Not being productive during the day when you're out working hard.
01:02:25I know.
01:02:26It's okay.
01:02:27You...
01:02:32So what's happening with Lisa?
01:02:34She's in love.
01:02:36She says he's the type of guy everybody loves.
01:02:39They go to dinner parties at his friends' houses and everybody's really nice and interesting and they tailgate at football games and she's buying lingerie and they have sex for like ten hours straight.
01:02:49Good for her.
01:02:50Yeah.
01:02:53She deserves it.
01:02:54I'm happy for her.
01:02:56Me too.
01:02:57That's good.
01:02:58Yeah.
01:03:00Oh hey.
01:03:01Okay, I gotta go.
01:03:05No more Valley Girl.
01:03:09Hey.
01:03:10Hi.
01:03:17How's it going?
01:03:18How'd it go?
01:03:21Oh great.
01:03:23They're gonna send out our pilots and the movie script.
01:03:25They didn't even remember the way they reacted.
01:03:27They were like, oh yeah, we love that script.
01:03:30Pss.
01:03:33So what'd you do tonight?
01:03:36Ah, there's all this excitement on Facebook.
01:03:39Oh yeah, why?
01:03:41Tommy Clements changed his relationship status from married to single.
01:03:45No way.
01:03:46It's a big deal, Mark.
01:03:49All of us girls were DMing each other. It was so fun.
01:03:53Why?
01:03:54Because it was like we were in high school again.
01:03:56Except instead of passing notes.
01:03:57No, no, no. I mean why were you DMing each other?
01:04:00Because everybody in my class loved Tommy.
01:04:03Oh okay.
01:04:04Okay.
01:04:05And now he's available. Somebody is going to get to marry him.
01:04:10There are a few really interesting candidates.
01:04:13Like who?
01:04:14Remember Heather Hampton?
01:04:16She's gorgeous and she's single now too.
01:04:17Maybe she had like five kids.
01:04:19Tommy has four.
01:04:20Jesus, really?
01:04:22I wonder why his wife divorced him.
01:04:25And why do you think she divorced him?
01:04:28Men never initiate divorce, even if they're miserable.
01:04:32They just have affairs, right?
01:04:34Practically the only time men initiate divorce is if the woman they're cheating with pushes them to do it.
01:04:41Did you get dessert tonight?
01:04:45I did not.
01:04:47What?
01:04:48Do you want me to bake you some chocolate chip cookies?
01:04:50No, no. You were sleeping. I'm not gonna...
01:04:53I already made the dough.
01:04:55I don't mind.
01:04:56I should say no. That's crazy.
01:04:59It'll take ten minutes.
01:05:00Ten minutes?
01:05:02Do you know you're the best human on the planet? That's amazing.
01:05:06You gonna do that?
01:05:07Oh my god.
01:05:08Yeah, the best. Oh my god.
01:05:37I can't believe you're getting divorced.
01:05:49Yeah.
01:05:52But you and Mark, you guys have been together for what, like...
01:05:5615 years.
01:05:58Wow.
01:06:00So what's the secret to a happy marriage?
01:06:03Um...
01:06:05You have to like talking to each other?
01:06:09Obviously, you have to find each other physically attractive too.
01:06:13But I think that's what keeps the physical attraction alive.
01:06:17You know, if you like talking to each other.
01:06:20So you like talking to Mark?
01:06:22Yeah.
01:06:24Then why are you talking to me?
01:06:25Is that your high school yearbook?
01:06:32Mm-hmm.
01:06:34Why are you looking at it?
01:06:36You didn't get enough of everyone on Facebook?
01:06:38I miss the young version of everyone.
01:06:40Who we were then.
01:06:42How was work?
01:06:44Hell.
01:06:46Everything's a battle with those people.
01:06:49How's a lead actress doing?
01:06:51Britney?
01:06:53Good. She's funny.
01:06:55Oh.
01:06:57Has she been flirting with you?
01:07:00Uh, no.
01:07:02Is she being overly solicitous?
01:07:05Cozy?
01:07:07Buddy buddy?
01:07:09No.
01:07:11Covertly seductive?
01:07:13Overtly seductive?
01:07:15Super cute and charming.
01:07:17Hey, you have nothing to worry about.
01:07:18Oof.
01:07:20She knows you're married.
01:07:21She met me at the first taping.
01:07:23I thought I'd want to kill her.
01:07:27But I would never do that.
01:07:29Well, that's a relief.
01:07:30Because I'm terrified of prison.
01:07:31I think that's a relief.
01:07:32Because of course...
01:07:34Who only sells drugs but of...
01:07:35Black-ish and bone fans!
01:07:36Who doesn't currently Però are buried in prison.
01:07:38I think that's not a degree.
01:07:40Who doesn't have carbonated, everything I know.
01:07:41Who is the place?
01:07:43Who has in my room to be living.
01:07:44How are they showing you?
01:07:46A multi- reais pageant.
01:07:48I do not have countries that are dry forllof hours .
01:07:52And I do not yet tending enough food for...
01:08:24How'd the taping go?
01:08:26Good.
01:08:29How was your day?
01:08:31Heather Hampton and Tommy Clements went on a date.
01:08:35But there was no chemistry.
01:08:44I wish I could take you out on a real date.
01:08:48I'd drive over to your place and take you to dinner and a movie.
01:08:52Or I could make a great meal for you.
01:08:56You cook.
01:08:58So you never think about moving back to Philly?
01:09:01No.
01:09:03I know you can't move back because of your work.
01:09:06Well, we can't move back.
01:09:07But sometimes, you know, I think it'd be cool to live there again.
01:09:18I mean, most people settle down where they grew up.
01:09:23There must be a reason for that.
01:09:25I mean, even famous people return to where they grew up.
01:09:28Like Bruce Springsteen lives in New Jersey and John Bon Jovi.
01:09:31Maybe it's healing.
01:09:34Yeah, I'm sure it is cathartic to buy a mansion and a horse farm right next to where you grew up struggling and broke.
01:09:39But we wouldn't be doing that.
01:10:03In this book, they talk about how there is no easy street.
01:10:22There's never a point at which you can just coast indefinitely.
01:10:28That's depressing.
01:10:29Well, it makes sense if you think about it.
01:10:33I mean, it's one thing to take a well-earned vacation or enjoy some downtime.
01:10:38But if all you did was lie around on a beach forever...
01:10:42You would stop being enjoyable.
01:10:46There's some quote about how you're happiest when you're growing.
01:10:51Which involves pain.
01:10:54Discomfort.
01:10:55Just acknowledging that makes it more bearable.
01:11:03Not writing these past few months has been painful, but not in a good way.
01:11:09And now I have nothing to show for my time.
01:11:12Not even a lame draft of some chapters or anything.
01:11:15Yeah, you could argue it's better to create stuff and be disappointed by the results than to not create anything at all and be depressed.
01:11:27I don't know what your interests are or what you care about, really.
01:11:43I mean, other than the random stuff you post on Facebook.
01:11:46So it's hard for me to make up conversation for you.
01:11:50I don't know what you'd say or what you'd talk to me about, you know?
01:11:53I don't know what you're saying or what you're saying or what you're saying.
01:12:23Nothing.
01:12:27I got this from the LA Times today.
01:12:30It's from the music critic Randall Roberts.
01:12:34Nostalgia, by definition, seldom moves a person forward and rarely satisfies in the long run.
01:12:40I just wish I could talk to you, you know?
01:12:47I'm sure if we met up in real life it'd be so great.
01:12:51Maybe.
01:12:52So, how are you?
01:13:04You look good.
01:13:08You don't have to live here.
01:13:10Why didn't we?
01:13:11That was one of the best nights of my life.
01:13:13There's a sense of community.
01:13:15You cook.
01:13:17On a real date.
01:13:18Then why are you talking to me?
01:13:20So what's the secret to a happy marriage?
01:13:23You know how people point out that marriage was invented at a time when
01:13:43people didn't have a very long life expectancy?
01:13:48Like it's a social construct that's maybe an unrealistic ideal now that the average life expectancy is 86 years old.
01:13:56Yeah.
01:14:01I just mean, is it natural to be in close captivity with one person for the majority of your life?
01:14:10If you love that person.
01:14:12If you feel like they're the one that's most suited for you.
01:14:16But do you think conventionality and fear cause two people to stay together for decades?
01:14:22I mean, at a certain point, you know, it's so familiar.
01:14:24You know so much about each other.
01:14:27You know what the other person's going to say.
01:14:29Well, I don't always know what you're going to say.
01:14:32Yeah.
01:14:34Actually, I don't always know what you're going to say either.
01:14:39You're an interesting person.
01:14:43But we know each other so well.
01:14:48We've had a lot of great years and it's like you could say,
01:14:51All right, we're really good together.
01:14:53We're very compatible and we've had a great run.
01:14:57But now maybe we should just, you know, go have new experiences, you know?
01:15:05What are you saying?
01:15:06I just wonder if we're staying together because it's familiar and comfortable.
01:15:14And because we're afraid.
01:15:16Well, partly, yes.
01:15:17And I don't think there's anything wrong with that.
01:15:19But just because something is new and different doesn't necessarily mean that it's better.
01:15:24Oh, I know.
01:15:25I know.
01:15:27What are you getting at?
01:15:28I don't know.
01:15:37It's sunny 365 days a year.
01:15:41There's palm trees right outside our front door.
01:15:43It's a paradise here.
01:15:46Yet you've been talking about moving back to Philly.
01:15:48And now you're questioning the institution of marriage.
01:15:52Because what?
01:15:54What, you want a shot at Tommy Clements or something?
01:15:56What, you want a shot at Tommy Clements or something?
01:16:03Seriously?
01:16:06You really want to go out with this guy?
01:16:08I just...
01:16:09I miss him.
01:16:12You miss him?
01:16:14Why do you miss him?
01:16:16Because he...
01:16:17He was a nice person and we were friends.
01:16:22I feel so nostalgic.
01:16:24You don't even have anything in common with this guy.
01:16:26Have you been talking to him?
01:16:27No.
01:16:27Are you talking to him on Facebook?
01:16:29No.
01:16:29But you want to.
01:16:35Does he even know anything about what you're doing here?
01:16:37Does he know you're a writer?
01:16:41I don't know.
01:16:43Probably not.
01:16:44I got news for you.
01:16:44This guy doesn't give a shit about anything you care about.
01:16:47He's not going to read your book.
01:16:48He probably hasn't cracked a book since college.
01:16:50But for some reason, you can't stop thinking about moving back home so you can what?
01:16:54Date him?
01:16:55Marry him?
01:16:55What?
01:16:56Holy shit.
01:17:05Oh, man.
01:17:07What is happening, Kim?
01:17:11Why are you not responding to me?
01:17:14I mean, you can't be in love with this guy.
01:17:27You don't even know him anymore.
01:17:28And even if you did, how could you possibly have anything in common with him?
01:17:37Kim, what is happening?
01:17:39Talk to me, please.
01:17:42Is this whole thing, is it because of Lisa?
01:17:44Because you see her dating now and she's falling in love with that guy?
01:17:55I'm supportive.
01:17:57I'm working my ass off for you.
01:17:59I'm doing everything that I possibly can.
01:18:01But I can't compete with your high school memories.
01:18:09I can't believe this.
01:18:20I can't believe this is happening.
01:18:25Say something.
01:18:32Will you say something?
01:18:34Will you say something?
01:18:39You are breaking my fucking heart.
01:18:47Every day, I get online and look at stupid shit for hours.
01:18:54And I can't stop myself.
01:18:57And everybody back home, they don't care that my book's not a success.
01:19:01They don't care if I make it or not.
01:19:03They just, they accept me for me.
01:19:06I accept you for you.
01:19:07I know.
01:19:08But in high school, my dreams hadn't been crushed yet.
01:19:11It's...
01:19:12I don't even know what my dreams were back then.
01:19:18But now, here, I am constantly reminded of everything I haven't achieved.
01:19:26The only thing I care about is writing.
01:19:33Then write.
01:19:37Okay.
01:19:38At first, when I would think about you, I'd get this buzz.
01:19:42Like this jolt of excitement.
01:19:44And now there's absolutely no novelty or thrill, just the misery of addiction.
01:19:50I'm sorry.
01:19:51I'm tired of these weak conversations we have.
01:19:54It's so frustrating.
01:19:55Why can't you just make up interesting conversation for me then?
01:19:59That's of no value to me.
01:20:01I want to know what you'd say for real, in real life.
01:20:04That would be interesting to know.
01:20:07Well, that's not going to happen.
01:20:10Yeah.
01:20:19Could you just go, please?
01:20:21Then why are you always looking at it?
01:20:23Because I'm always getting texts.
01:20:24From who?
01:20:25How do I know it's not Tommy?
01:20:27Because I wouldn't do that to you.
01:20:28Then who the hell's texting you all the time?
01:20:30It's just Lisa.
01:20:31But you know what?
01:20:34You're the one always looking at your phone.
01:20:37In fact, any time I walk into the room, you act guilty.
01:20:40You, like, suddenly lower it.
01:20:41Yeah, that's because I'm looking at sports shit.
01:20:44Not texts from the actress?
01:20:45From Britney?
01:20:46No.
01:20:49You know what I keep thinking about?
01:20:52You forgave me pretty easily for...
01:20:55For almost leaving me for Tommy?
01:20:56I mean, you've forgiven me pretty darn easily.
01:20:58What are you getting at?
01:20:59I think it's because you related to what I was going through.
01:21:02Maybe you think about Shannon sometimes?
01:21:06I mean, you went out with her for two years.
01:21:08You lost your virginity to her.
01:21:09Surely you think about her sometimes.
01:21:13No, I do not think about her at all.
01:21:17You know what the difference between us is?
01:21:20I'm honest about what I'm going through and you're not.
01:21:22No, the difference between us is I can handle upsetting truths and you cannot.
01:21:29He's hot and he is your favorite person to be with.
01:21:35How many people can say that after so many years?
01:21:40There's no better man.
01:21:42Who else is better?
01:21:43There's no one.
01:21:43You are completely compatible.
01:21:49Remember that time you were driving over the canyon and he was driving the opposite way and when he drove past you and you saw his car, your heart skipped a beat.
01:22:02It literally skipped a beat.
01:22:05Kim, you threw it away because you couldn't stop looking at it.
01:22:07No, I just thought, what?
01:22:09Keep it around.
01:22:09It's a high school yearbook.
01:22:11Why would you throw it away?
01:22:12Okay.
01:22:13Yes, I didn't want to keep looking at it.
01:22:15But not because...
01:22:16Yeah, because of Tommy.
01:22:17That's why.
01:22:18No.
01:22:18Yes, it is.
01:22:18Because you couldn't stop looking at him.
01:22:19No, I told you.
01:22:20It's because I'm nostalgic.
01:22:21That's bullshit.
01:22:22But I'm not looking back anymore, okay?
01:22:23I have a plan.
01:22:24A plan?
01:22:25Yeah, a plan.
01:22:26For getting more grounded in the here and now.
01:22:28For reconnecting.
01:22:29It'll promote intimacy and foster goodwill.
01:22:32What is it?
01:22:32What's the plan?
01:22:33We have sex or do something sexual every night.
01:22:35Okay.
01:22:39All right.
01:22:40Okay.
01:22:41That's a plan.
01:22:43Do you want to have sex like they do in the notebook?
01:22:47See how he's holding her arm up against the wall?
01:22:52Sexy, if a nice guy's doing that.
01:22:54But understandably, most nice guys don't.
01:22:57No, there's his hand right there.
01:22:59Oh my gosh, you're right.
01:23:03Hey, that's me.
01:23:05Oh, wait, she's higher.
01:23:07This is it.
01:23:09Ryan's hand was down here.
01:23:13Is she good?
01:23:14Yeah.
01:23:17She's shorter.
01:23:18I thought you wanted to paint the room a different color.
01:23:28Well, I know you like it this shade.
01:23:32And when I started thinking about other colors, there was nothing I could think of that I'd like better.
01:23:38That I wouldn't get sick of.
01:23:40You know?
01:23:41I remember the first time you asked me out.
01:23:49Uh-huh.
01:23:51And you stopped me in the hallway.
01:23:54You seemed nervous.
01:23:57Yeah.
01:23:59That was a great day.
01:24:00Yeah.
01:24:01Yeah.
01:24:03Yeah.
01:24:04Yeah.
01:24:04Yeah.
01:24:05Yeah.
01:24:13Yeah.
01:24:15it turns out I'm in the desert yeah yeah everyone who has a dream or a goal spends time in the
01:24:38desert sometimes years and years am i in the desert too you've attained one of your original big goals
01:24:47having a show but since there's more you want to do i guess you're still in the desert and what
01:24:54happens in the desert it's filled with uncertainty and danger lots of obstacles come up and you don't
01:25:03know if you're going to make it you want to turn back give up your goal anytime you have a chance
01:25:08it's something easier you want to settle for that but you shouldn't no you have to keep going
01:25:14so what's happening with lisa and her insurance guy oh it didn't work out
01:25:24really they were crazy about each other having sex for 10 hours and i know
01:25:30it's hard to find the real thing
01:25:36hey did you see that post from tommy clemens on facebook
01:25:44no he announced his engagement what how could he already be engaged to some woman he met at the gym
01:25:51at the gym he proposed to her at a jam band music festival jam band
01:25:57thank god for what
01:26:02i'm just i'm really grateful for mark i always enjoyed sex but it was a little bit like going to church
01:26:14i never felt like going but afterward i was glad i did but now that we've made it a nightly thing
01:26:21i look forward to it i mean who wouldn't want to feel good every night you know
01:26:27i know what i'm going to write next
01:26:53yeah for some reason i haven't been able to get invested in any of the plot lines i've thought of
01:27:00i don't want to make anything up right now i just want to write what i know
01:27:04so non-fiction what's the topic how to have a good marriage
01:27:10i don't want to make anything up right now
01:27:19so
01:27:23so
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