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00:00:00When I mention the name Gia, what's the first thing that comes to your mind?
00:00:06The way she moved, the way she used her face, the way sometimes her face would be a little crooked, like her mouth.
00:00:14I mean, sometimes it was a little tough, sometimes it would be whatever the spirit was.
00:00:22And it gave back to the picture something much more interesting.
00:00:29And there's no cookie cutter Gia, no form.
00:00:34She was her own form without knowing.
00:00:40Make me chase you, make me chase you.
00:00:42Tease, tease, tease.
00:00:44Nice.
00:00:46His words, the makeup and the clothes, all add up to the illusion of readily available sexuality.
00:00:53Look at me like you're naked.
00:00:54That's it.
00:00:54Look right to me.
00:00:57This is not so much a profession, but a roulette game, where your beauty, your look, is gambled every day.
00:01:04You either break the bank or get broken.
00:01:07If you don't have the luck that your look is in that day, you're through.
00:01:11You can try to learn how to win at this game, but like roulette, winning just happens.
00:01:16Once you make it, you become a member of an exclusive international club where the sun always shines.
00:01:24The parties are glowing, a land where there's no ugliness, no sickness, no poverty.
00:01:30A land where dreams come true and everyone is certified beautiful.
00:01:35The light at the end of the tunnel is the action of Europe and Paris.
00:01:44Here, the fashion showing of Emmanuel Kahn.
00:01:46When you become a member of the European Model Club, the work is plentiful and fast.
00:01:52But fast sometimes gets to be frantic.
00:01:55Okay, I started out in London, then I went to Madrid, then I went to London again, then I went to Milan, then I went to London, then I went to Milan, then I went to Düsseldorf, then to Madrid, then to Lanzarote.
00:02:05Romance is out of the question.
00:02:08People don't look at you with the idea of a lasting relationship because they think that you're just going to be here for a short time and that's what they expect from you.
00:02:16I think it's a fantastic business for about five years to meet people and to make money and to travel.
00:02:24But it's very difficult to stay sane.
00:02:27It's very difficult not to either start drinking too much champagne or to take too much cocaine or anything.
00:02:32It's very difficult, as he can put the words in my mouth, to keep your self-respect.
00:02:39And as soon as this camera went on, the first thing I thought, is light nice?
00:02:43Yes.
00:02:43Not am I going to say anything interesting, but is the light nice?
00:02:46There's absolutely nothing but fantasy and getting off.
00:02:50And I'm getting off, making people sit up and watch, making people applaud, which is wonderful.
00:02:55You can't live like that all your life.
00:02:57Self-respect, or the lack of it, is something that models continually worry about.
00:03:07Many say that being paid a fortune for what is essentially unskilled labor is ultimately unfulfilling.
00:03:14Their careers seem to go in cycles of anxiety.
00:03:18John Casablanca is head of the elite agency in New York.
00:03:22When success comes, they have a moment where they appreciate it very, very much, but it's very, very short.
00:03:28I think they get spoiled incredibly fast and go through like a crisis where they think that everything is owed them.
00:03:34It's a very natural reaction in a way.
00:03:37You know, they get too much too quickly.
00:03:39You know, they get too much too quickly.
00:04:09You know, they get too much too quickly.
00:04:39I just kind of knew, I guess, somewhere inside of me that she would not live a long life.
00:04:56All the times that she had OD'd, why didn't God take her then?
00:05:01Why did she have to go through everything?
00:05:05You know, she wasn't spared anything.
00:05:06Gia, when you got out here being photographed, you not only looked different, you acted different.
00:05:15You became a different individual.
00:05:17What's the process?
00:05:21I mean, when you're having your photograph taken, do you think of yourself in a different way as you project to the camera?
00:05:28I have to, you know, I have to, you know, that's what I do, it's a job, I mean, I'm modeling, so I have to project what I am at that time.
00:05:41What were you at that time?
00:05:45Well, whatever your eyes want to see, I mean, I'm the fashion model.
00:05:50When you came in, you were Gia, and you were Rangie, and you were walking loose, and when you got into this, you became a cat, you became a feline, you became a lady.
00:06:02That's how I do my job.
00:06:09Look up here in my camera.
00:06:11Right in.
00:06:12Beautiful like that.
00:06:13Great.
00:06:16Look into the light with your head.
00:06:18Turn your head into the light.
00:06:20And chin down, chin down, into the light.
00:06:22That's a, that's a, turn, turn, turn your head.
00:06:25Get the light, oh, you can.
00:06:27Okay, that's beautiful like that.
00:06:28Now, you got a nice framing of it now?
00:06:30Beautiful.
00:06:31Tell me when you want me to go.
00:06:32Oh, you have to get speed and everything.
00:06:33You got speed?
00:06:34Okay, beautiful like that.
00:06:37Great like that.
00:06:38Chin down, eyes into my camera.
00:06:39You almost destroyed you, didn't you?
00:06:43And you thought more than once about packing it in, didn't you?
00:06:49Yes, I did.
00:06:50I guess you could say that I did.
00:06:52Yes, I have.
00:06:53Um, but I thought about that also without drugs.
00:06:57I mean, now I have a great lust for life, you could say.
00:07:03And I love life.
00:07:05And it's a wonderful feeling.
00:07:07And I think that I had to go through that in order to have this feeling that I have for life now.
00:07:14I mean, that's how I feel right now.
00:07:16Why she took up with what she did and why she ended up the way she did
00:07:29was some self-destructive thing that was in her.
00:07:34And you could feel that when you were with her.
00:07:38That was the vulnerability.
00:07:40That was her sensitivity to everything around her.
00:07:43That was what put me many times in tears when I was holding her.
00:07:49Nobody.
00:07:50Nobody.
00:07:51I don't care who it is.
00:07:52Especially a mother should ever see what I saw.
00:07:55I remember her in the end when she broke out in pimples and she had track marks on her arms
00:08:01and her fingernails were all bitten and her hair was falling out
00:08:04and she had black and blue marks because she was trying to hurt herself, trying to kill herself.
00:08:13It's a very, very sad, tragic story.
00:08:17I keep thinking how that beautiful, beautiful girl must have just wasted away with AIDS.
00:08:23And that horrifies me.
00:08:25What do you think killed you?
00:08:30Lack of love.
00:08:33Lack of love.
00:08:35She never seemed to be able to find the people that could give her the love that she needed,
00:08:43the specific kind of love that she needed.
00:08:45It's hard to make the difference between what is real and what is not real.
00:08:51The photographer, Chris von Wagenheim, who was at the peak of his career at that time,
00:08:58was intensely riveted to her.
00:09:01He was gone.
00:09:04He just couldn't take his eyes off.
00:09:05The camera, click, click, click.
00:09:07I mean, there was...
00:09:08You see the movie, The Eyes of Laura Mars?
00:09:11This girl did it before the movie.
00:09:14I mean, she really, really was amazing.
00:09:17You just looked at her.
00:09:18It was this presence that was so unlike anybody else.
00:09:22So unlike anybody else.
00:09:24In private life, she was very simple and she never wore makeup.
00:09:29She never cared about anything.
00:09:30And then with the light, she would just...
00:09:33Stay just like that, Gia.
00:09:36Stay like that till I can shoot.
00:09:38It's beautiful like that, Harry.
00:09:39Fabulous.
00:09:40Beautiful like that.
00:09:41Great.
00:09:42Great like that.
00:09:43Move slow.
00:09:45Not bad.
00:09:46No.
00:09:46For the period, the brief period of time that Gia was on top of her profession,
00:09:51she was at the very top.
00:09:53She was way beyond anyone.
00:09:54How long was that?
00:09:57A year or two.
00:09:59It was like that.
00:10:01I've used for many years binoculars, little binoculars,
00:10:06so that I can focus on what the camera sees and get a close-up view.
00:10:13Because Scoville was using a long lens.
00:10:15And to my horror, I saw her arms.
00:10:21She was very thin at the time as well.
00:10:23And there were track marks.
00:10:24This one time, she showed up to the shooting with tons of track marks.
00:10:30And it was just really hard to cover them and really hard to photograph her
00:10:36because you could only do it by certain angles.
00:10:40I think they were on her arms and parts of her legs.
00:10:44I knew by what she was saying, having been there myself,
00:10:47that this girl was using a lot, a lot, a lot of heroin.
00:10:50And that she was doing it a lot more frequently than people thought she was.
00:10:55And that she was frightened.
00:10:56It kind of creeps up on you and catches you in a world that's, you know,
00:11:03none that anyone will ever know except someone that has been there.
00:11:08Here we are in the land of make-believe, right?
00:11:11Fantasy.
00:11:12Fantasy, okay.
00:11:14Strange come true.
00:11:15It's real hard.
00:11:16And you feel sorry for these girls.
00:11:18It's mentally, it's a lot of strain on your mind.
00:11:22And I remember touching her face and putting on eye makeup and thinking,
00:11:27my God, it's like you don't need anything.
00:11:29I guess I do look different than when I came in here, don't I?
00:11:34Her features are so perfect.
00:11:36It was in a building on 53rd Street.
00:11:39I can't remember the name of Big Modern Building.
00:11:42And we were shooting, and now that I'm thinking,
00:11:44my, excuse me, it was Italian Bazaar.
00:11:46And she made such an impression because the girls I was working with that day
00:11:53and just came in, and they were these pretty, cute, sweet girls,
00:11:58and we made them up and everything.
00:12:00And she came in, and all of a sudden, I see,
00:12:06I had these black punk glasses on that day,
00:12:10wraparound kind of weird punk glasses.
00:12:13All of a sudden, I see this girl's come in.
00:12:16She's got her feet up on the table.
00:12:19She's smoking, and she's wearing my glasses.
00:12:23And I, you know, I just turn around and look at her,
00:12:26and I mean, she had presence, enormous presence.
00:12:32And I was furious with her because she slapped on some ugly kind of cheap foundation.
00:12:38And I remember thinking, why'd she do that?
00:12:41Doesn't she trust me to be able to do her makeup?
00:12:44So I got a little uptight with her.
00:12:47And that day, and I still have the photographs from that day,
00:12:53it was for Italian Bazaar.
00:12:56It was extraordinary.
00:12:57She did the most powerful dress in a black one-shoulder, off-the-shoulder dress,
00:13:07and there she was, and let the strap down, and she'd, like, one breast was hanging out.
00:13:12And I mean, she was, but so hot, so cool, and so sexy.
00:13:16She had a really interesting, she wiped out every other girl that was there,
00:13:26that you only could pay attention to Gia.
00:13:29I started working with very good people, you know, and a lot of work.
00:13:34I mean, all the time, very fast.
00:13:37I didn't build into a model.
00:13:42I just sort of became one.
00:13:44She actually created a style, which is difficult to do.
00:13:48She created, I mean, this big camel hair coat that she would,
00:13:54it's kind of like a garbo, you know, a guy, a garbo, kind of garbo-esque figure.
00:14:01I mean, to have every editor in New York City just want to work with Gia
00:14:08to see what she looked like that day.
00:14:12Who else?
00:14:13Name somebody.
00:14:14Cindy is gorgeous.
00:14:16Drop-dead gorgeous.
00:14:18Nobody cares what she's wearing.
00:14:21That may not sound important, but to people whose business it is fashion,
00:14:26you have to work with Gia.
00:14:28You obviously love your work.
00:14:29You're good at it.
00:14:31One of the top supermodels.
00:14:34Are you so much in love with it that when it is inevitable,
00:14:39that it can't be any longer?
00:14:42What are you going to do?
00:14:43I don't know.
00:14:44I mean, I love my work.
00:14:46I love the people I work with.
00:14:47I love making beautiful photographs.
00:14:49But I never just wanted to be a model.
00:14:54I mean, it's never been a dream of mine.
00:14:56I just sort of fell into it.
00:14:58She really never came to peace with being perhaps the first in a generation of supermodels.
00:15:04I think all the idolatry and the praise and all of the attention was very fleeting, and she seemed to know that.
00:15:12Somehow, within Gia, she knew that all this was just a temporary thing, and perhaps, in a way, she was wiser than most of the others.
00:15:20And that was reflected in her very outrageous behavior, in her trying to provoke and shock everyone.
00:15:29Probably was a deep sense of intelligence, and maybe, maybe in some strange way, an understanding, an inherent understanding of this industry,
00:15:40and how it uses people, and, you know, swallows them up and spits them out.
00:15:44And I think perhaps Gia knew that going in.
00:15:46You can walk away from it just like that.
00:15:49Well, I wouldn't say that you just walk away from it.
00:15:51I mean, I do love it, you know, and it's a fantastic career.
00:15:54I don't know what killed her, I mean, but I know that there was a sadness.
00:16:01There was something that was eating her inside, always, and that one thing maybe took different form.
00:16:09And it was a certain emptiness at first, and then the emptiness turned into the addiction.
00:16:20And then the addiction cured, it became an disease.
00:16:25So, there was something inside there that was stronger than all of the rest, and that somehow was eating her.
00:16:38You know, it was just, it was hard to get to know Gia.
00:16:42It was really hard to get to know her.
00:16:43She didn't let you in, you know.
00:16:45She didn't let you come into her, into herself.
00:16:51I did, you know, just try to chat with her.
00:16:57Yeah, she chatted back, but not a lot.
00:17:00She was a very unpredictable, emotionally unpredictable person.
00:17:04For one moment, everything could be fine, and the next moment, you know, there could be an emotional storm.
00:17:12Everybody liked Gia, um, they also were scared of Gia.
00:17:17Um, like I said, they didn't know what she was going to do, ever.
00:17:22She put on this red string bikini, walking next to a horse.
00:17:28Forget Bo Derek and Ten, forget it.
00:17:31I'll never forget this visual.
00:17:32The sun's going down, the waves are coming in, and Gia just, one minute she was being a real punk.
00:17:38Like, yeah, Janice, come on, let's go drink some tequila, let's go get the chips, let's go pick up some Mexicans.
00:17:42I'm like, Gia, we're doing Vogue.
00:17:46This is Vogue, honey.
00:17:47She was so vulnerable and so easily hurt by people, and I hated to see her hurt.
00:17:54I hated to see her hurting herself.
00:17:57And, uh, it was hard for me because it was like a heartbreak all the time for me.
00:18:02I knew she was hurting herself.
00:18:04I knew she was having problems living.
00:18:07Yeah, I mean, this is looking back, but I think there was probably something very sad in her life.
00:18:15She wasn't explicit about what happened, but there was definitely the sense that there was an abnormal kind of sexual tension between she and her father.
00:18:25And it was, I'm really not sure whether they actually had sex or they didn't have sex, but there was...
00:18:37She was an animal that, and I had sex, but there was a lot of sexual tension between her and her parents, and then she was having sex, and she was having sex with a guy.
00:18:49So she was laughing because the other men were sending to her, and she was having sex with a girl because it was like a girl, and she was having sex with a girl.
00:18:51And then, I was like, you know, she was in love with the girl, and she went back with the girl.
00:19:00And she was like, she was hanging out.
00:19:02So she was lying in love with the girl.
00:19:04So she was like, you know, what's going on?
00:19:06I'm a girl watcher, I'm a girl watcher, here comes one now.
00:19:19Well, that was Gia's anthem.
00:19:20I mean, she was always looking for beautiful women.
00:19:24Gia had a desire for women that was so, in its essence, masculine.
00:19:29I mean, Gia really, you know, I've worked with a lot of people of all kinds of different sexual orientations over the years.
00:19:36And working with lesbian women, you know, there's just certain strong feelings that you get when you listen to them talk about their passions and their desires.
00:19:46The thing that was always so disconcerting about Gia was, whenever I would kind of tap into what she was telling me in a session about her sexuality,
00:19:54it was so much closer to the way that men talk about women, just the whole vibe, the whole feeling.
00:20:00There was a quality about her that very, very many times, and I remember that my wife had said this too,
00:20:09that more than anybody else, I felt like I was in a room with James Dean.
00:20:14You know, there was like that kind of, that very kind of brooding male, young male quality to her, and she loved women.
00:20:22Gia was very feminine and also very butch at the same time.
00:20:26It was a very sort of interesting mix.
00:20:29She just had a beautiful way about her that was a little on the masculine side, like a swagger.
00:20:37She used to come to my house, and I'm telling you that it looked like Johnny Depp.
00:20:43It did not look like a girl.
00:20:46It looked like a cute, gorgeous, Italian guy that I had dated when I used to live on Staten Island.
00:20:52It did not look like a model? No way.
00:20:56Can you imagine me walking down the street with a gorgeous model?
00:20:59It just wouldn't work.
00:21:01She looked like a guy, a gorgeous guy.
00:21:04No one can imagine that, but she did.
00:21:07I'm sure other people could see that.
00:21:10She was wearing a bold, beat-up trench coat with sort of a pair of khaki pants and work boots
00:21:19and a button-down shirt from Brooks Brothers with no bra, no makeup.
00:21:25Her hair just dried however it dried after she washed it.
00:21:28And she looked sort of very plain to me.
00:21:33You know, she looked pretty.
00:21:35But I remember walking in with her to this club and just everybody just looking at her.
00:21:43She knew she was beautiful.
00:21:44She had the best tits in the business.
00:21:47She could make them jump up and down.
00:21:49She was gorgeous.
00:21:51She was inventive.
00:21:52She was a bad boy, and that was very alluring in those days.
00:21:56And that's why everybody wanted her.
00:22:00So here we are.
00:22:02We're both nude.
00:22:03We're both climbing this fence.
00:22:04The music is blaring.
00:22:06We're dancing.
00:22:07We're being photographed.
00:22:09We're feeling fabulous.
00:22:10We're looking gorgeous and all this and that.
00:22:13But she was thinking I was meaning it, which I was doing something.
00:22:18In those days, I used to get in front of any camera, just jump in front of the camera and
00:22:22act out scenes.
00:22:23At the end of the day, I took my makeup off and went home.
00:22:26And she went home and called me up and said, would you like to go for a ride in my car?
00:22:35And all of a sudden, I went, uh-uh.
00:22:38Wait a minute.
00:22:39Did she think I meant anything?
00:22:42You know, like, I said, Gia, you know, I really like you and everything.
00:22:46You're beautiful.
00:22:47I said, but I don't like women like that.
00:22:49And I could tell when I was giving her the answer, she was blowing it off already.
00:22:54She didn't take any notice of anything I was saying.
00:22:58She said, oh, I have this great car or something.
00:23:01I don't know what she said, but it was like really like a 19-year-old kid would say to her.
00:23:06I mean, I was like 29 or whatever.
00:23:09And I just thought, oh, my God, I've got, this isn't happening.
00:23:12And then sure enough, that night or the next day, I got roses and I was, ooh, now what do I do?
00:23:21To me, it was funny, but Gia had no sense of humor about anything like this.
00:23:27None. Zero.
00:23:28But she did not care about my sexual preference or didn't even enter her mind.
00:23:34We used to hang out with the same people, like a photographer, Andrea Blanche, Ariella, another photographer named Bruce Lawrence that I used to see a long time ago.
00:23:46And he had a party and we wound up in his party.
00:23:50And all of a sudden, the music was playing and blah, blah, blah.
00:23:53And all of a sudden, she kissed me.
00:23:55The thing that irritated her is that she knew that I
00:24:24I sort of wished that she was a guy.
00:24:43Did she make you question your own sexuality?
00:24:46No.
00:24:47No, she always knew I was straight.
00:24:49As a matter of fact, the main thing she, problem she had with me probably was sex.
00:24:56There, I'm all done, you liar.
00:25:26I never wanted to hurt Gia, ever.
00:25:32And this is kind of really, really personal, what I'm saying,
00:25:35because she was so adorable and so charming and so much of a pleasure to be with
00:25:47that even though I knew this was going to be complicated, I was going to be there.
00:25:54And I was there.
00:25:56And it was complicated.
00:25:58There'd be straight women who would fancy Gia and not know that they fancied Gia.
00:26:07I don't think she cared if they were gay or straight.
00:26:09She just went after women that she found beautiful.
00:26:11A friend of mine had come back from a shoot in Barbados with Gia on the trip
00:26:16and she called me hysterically crying that Gia had sexually attacked her
00:26:21and that she didn't know how to handle it
00:26:24and I was really freaked out about it.
00:26:27Actually, I think she left the shooting early because of this scene.
00:26:33I thought it was kind of funny.
00:26:34I wasn't like afraid of her physically, but there was something about her that was scary.
00:26:40I mean, there were moods, there were angers, mood swings.
00:26:44And of course, I didn't know about the drugs.
00:26:47I knew that we all did drugs at parties and I knew that we were, but I didn't know the extent that she was doing the drugs,
00:26:57which contributed to her mood swings, although I'm pretty sure she was moody anyway.
00:27:02When we decided we had a problem, I think a lot of it was passed off as the Bowie episode and the influence of that.
00:27:11She liked to go out and stay out all night and we just couldn't get her to behave.
00:27:17Any drugs in her life at that point?
00:27:20She experimented and we knew that there were several episodes of that.
00:27:24I had rushed her to the emergency a couple of times and had them run tests on her
00:27:30and then they told me on one occasion,
00:27:32what are you going to prove she's going to have X amount of cocaine or something in her?
00:27:37What are you going to do?
00:27:38You have a problem, take her home, take care of it.
00:27:40When I hear people say, well, her mother did this or her mother wasn't that or her mother,
00:27:45and I think, oh my God, if only they knew how difficult this girl was.
00:27:49She was really difficult.
00:27:52Do you think you ever fell in love with her?
00:27:54Yeah, I'm sure I did.
00:27:55I'm sure I did because there was a point when I can consciously,
00:28:00and in those days I was not conscious that often,
00:28:04I can remember saying, I know this is how it's going to be played out,
00:28:09that she's going to be a big star, I'm going to be a nobody in the background,
00:28:14but if it makes her happy, I'll stay with her.
00:28:17I knew that the thing that made her happy was that she had me emotionally.
00:28:23Right into the lens down there, that's it.
00:28:26Beautiful.
00:28:26She became erratic.
00:28:28In time, her work was effective.
00:28:30At one point, you got kind of into the drug scene, didn't you?
00:28:33Yes, you could say that I did.
00:28:41Heroin was actually, in those times, a party drug.
00:28:45It was just like Coke and Quaalude.
00:28:47They'd be the most elegant parties in the world.
00:28:50I'd be in beautiful townhouses, and they'd be serving heroin,
00:28:53and we always snorted it, and that was pretty common.
00:28:57But I'd never shoot it up.
00:28:59I had no interest in needles, and it wasn't like that serious.
00:29:03It was too serious for me.
00:29:04It was too much of a street drug.
00:29:07And no, I never shot it up.
00:29:09And then one day, in my apartment, I can remember Gia kind of grabbing me,
00:29:15and her eyes looked like wild.
00:29:18They were like dancing.
00:29:19They looked like flames.
00:29:20And she just grabbed me, and she said she had a syringe in her hand,
00:29:25and she wanted to shoot me up with it.
00:29:27And I said, you're out of your mind.
00:29:29She absolutely wore me down and wore me out.
00:29:33I was anorexic at the time, about 80 pounds, and it was easy to wear me out.
00:29:39But all of a sudden, I just said, go ahead, do it.
00:29:42And she shot me up, and I passed out for about 16 hours.
00:29:47You're free of it, aren't you, now?
00:29:48Oh, yes, I am definitely.
00:29:49I wouldn't be here right now talking to you if I wasn't.
00:29:52When I found out that she had died of AIDS,
00:29:55I was, of course, hysterical for my own life,
00:30:02and hysterical grieving over hers.
00:30:05But then I had to have the AIDS test and this and that,
00:30:08and I had a pretty miserable couple of years thinking that I had AIDS.
00:30:14She wanted to take me with her on the ride that she was on.
00:30:18Francesco, do you remember where you were or what you were doing when you found out that Gia was HIV positive?
00:30:26No, I know it was a phone call, and I know I thought, oh, my God, she kicked the habit.
00:30:32She got over that terrible thing, and now she has AIDS, and I just started crying.
00:30:41Because I thought, oh, my God, after all she went through, do you feel any anger towards her?
00:30:48Oh, I'm sure I wanted to call her, you fucking bitch.
00:30:52How could you do that to me and all this and that?
00:30:54But, you know, she didn't know.
00:30:58She didn't know she had AIDS.
00:31:00Do you think the industry used Gia longer than they should have, considering her condition?
00:31:05Yes, they did.
00:31:08She was a mess.
00:31:09She was a total mess.
00:31:11I can remember waking up one morning, feeling like someone beating me over the head.
00:31:16I'd been out with her that night, and she'd been awake all night.
00:31:21I realized when I saw her, she didn't even sleep that night.
00:31:24And she just looked at me, and she said, Sam, should I go into work today?
00:31:28And I said, no, not if you feel like I do.
00:31:30Please, do not go into work today.
00:31:32When you're a junkie, you have to be high to perform.
00:31:37So any time she was booked, any time she showed up, she was stoned.
00:31:42No matter what she said, she had to be.
00:31:44Otherwise, she'd be sick.
00:31:46I have pictures of her where you see the unhappiness.
00:31:51She was a tormented soul.
00:31:57People said to me, you should have let her go to work.
00:32:00We would have taken care of her once she got there.
00:32:03Okay?
00:32:05She could never, ever get off the circle, and it was a really vicious circle.
00:32:11It's too bad they didn't do it intentionally,
00:32:14but they did not realize that she had to be high to be there.
00:32:19They knew that she was using it.
00:32:20They knew that she was screwing up jobs.
00:32:22They knew anecdotally, and the stories had a kind of a cute twist to them, you know,
00:32:28oh, gee, I did it again, and so on.
00:32:30Back in the Wilhelmina days, she was not using heroin.
00:32:33She was not alone, because she had the attention of Wilhelmina.
00:32:38Willie made time for her.
00:32:40I suppose you could say Willie was a surrogate mom to her.
00:32:42The death of Wilhelmina began her heroin addiction, I remember, because I was there.
00:32:50Wilhelmina was a very important influence on your career and your life.
00:32:55Yes, she was very important.
00:33:01She helped me when I had just started.
00:33:05I mean, as a friend, she helped me.
00:33:08And as an agent, she helped me.
00:33:12And she was extremely intelligent.
00:33:15And she was just a great person to have in my life on a business level,
00:33:25as well as feeling personal feelings towards her.
00:33:31She was just a tremendous woman.
00:33:32And her death must have been a terrible loss to you.
00:33:36Yes, it was a terrible loss to me.
00:33:40And I still, you know, I regret it terribly.
00:33:45You know, I just, I mean, things are meant to be,
00:33:49and I just hope that her soul is where it should be.
00:33:53It was suggested to me by the owner of Wilhelmina
00:33:56that maybe I would see Gia in a kind of counseling relationship,
00:34:01because apparently she was having some difficulties with drugs.
00:34:05It wasn't really defined to me a whole lot more than that.
00:34:08I knew it was hard drugs.
00:34:10But other than the fact that I had heard these anecdotal stories
00:34:14almost on a daily basis, and that I'd heard she was gorgeous,
00:34:18I had not ever met the woman.
00:34:20I only met her when she came to see me as a counselor
00:34:23one afternoon in my wife's office.
00:34:25That's how it all began.
00:34:26What kind of drug are we talking about now?
00:34:28At the time, she was using heroin.
00:34:31As I know, but I am definitely, I definitely,
00:34:35I'm going to school for cinematography,
00:34:38and I plan to make a big, big splash of film someday
00:34:43with my films as a cinematographer.
00:34:47My favorite cinematographer is
00:34:49Victorio Storero, he made reds, and he made, what else did he make?
00:35:06He works a lot with Bertolucci.
00:35:08But I know you want to get the outs of business, so...
00:35:12No, I'm just a little bit crazy because Jeff here has been telling me
00:35:19that I shake too much, that my nerves are bad,
00:35:22but that's just because I still haven't finished my growing pains.
00:35:26But as soon as I do, I'll be fine.
00:35:30And then I'm going to take you on the road
00:35:32and show all you motherfuckers what I can do.
00:35:36But until then, you know...
00:35:39I don't know what can I say.
00:35:41My skin looks bad, doesn't it?
00:35:42Nothing's okay.
00:35:45Just a little scrubbing.
00:35:46Go to the health spa.
00:35:47I'm joining the health spa.
00:35:49And you know, people, models that are with elite,
00:35:53they get a discount of, like, a 3% discount.
00:35:58No, but it's pretty good.
00:36:01Yeah, so that's life in a big city, and...
00:36:04She definitely kept people at a distance, yeah.
00:36:09She...
00:36:10It almost...
00:36:10It was almost like she was afraid, too, to let somebody in.
00:36:14This girl was just extraordinary.
00:36:16She really had me in the palm of her hand.
00:36:17She never sat still for a minute.
00:36:19She was up and down, sitting on the desk in front of me,
00:36:21twirling around in a chair, jumping, picking things up.
00:36:24It was absolutely amazing.
00:36:26And I knew that this was going to be a challenge.
00:36:29I mean, I knew, to say the least, it was going to be a challenge.
00:36:32But I also knew, just from the hint she was giving me,
00:36:35that the kid was in bad drug trouble.
00:36:39You taste it.
00:36:42Slightly different taste, white or brown.
00:36:43There's a warmth that goes through the body.
00:36:48There's a feeling of deep heat in all the muscles that,
00:36:53especially if one is in need, each muscle is untied, relaxed, one by one.
00:36:58A capability, creatively, to be open to the four winds,
00:37:05to synchronize thought, to think many things at once.
00:37:09There's definitely a physiological reaction in the brain that stimulates this.
00:37:13It has to do with the fear of flight syndrome and so forth
00:37:16when you're in danger and things slow down.
00:37:18That's that same response.
00:37:20And the way you think so clearly, and of many things at once,
00:37:25that's also part of it.
00:37:27I remember, you know,
00:37:30having other junkies tell dealers, you know,
00:37:37watch out for her because she's never going to,
00:37:39you're never going to be able to give her enough.
00:37:42And there was never enough.
00:37:45Every single cell in the body has a little niche that needs to,
00:37:49that is the cells in the toes, in the nose,
00:37:52in the fingers, in the heart,
00:37:55in the eyes, in the ears, everywhere.
00:37:59When a model is a commodity,
00:38:03they'll use anybody till they're used up.
00:38:07And it's not just models,
00:38:08it's editors, photographers, hair and makeup.
00:38:12That's the nature of the business.
00:38:14In other words, it's everything for the picture.
00:38:15Yeah, everything for the picture,
00:38:17for what the magazine wants.
00:38:21Her agent should have smacked her ass into a rehab
00:38:23and kept her there in a halfway house
00:38:25and sat on her instead of collecting those fucking commissions.
00:38:28I keep thinking, what else could I have done?
00:38:30What could I have done?
00:38:31But it wasn't for me.
00:38:34I did what I could do,
00:38:36and that was it.
00:38:37What everybody else wanted her to care about,
00:38:39which was that she was screwing up her career,
00:38:41is the part she didn't care about at all.
00:38:42That could not have mattered less to her.
00:38:47I think the most telling thing that I got out of that session,
00:38:51for me, the thing that was going to carry forward
00:38:53from that point on the most was
00:38:55how much she disliked what she did for a living.
00:38:59She said at least four or five times
00:39:02just in that second session
00:39:04that she felt like a fake, a fraud,
00:39:07that she felt like she was stealing money
00:39:09for doing what she did because it wasn't who she really was.
00:39:12They didn't know who she really was.
00:39:14That came through a lot, too.
00:39:16And I realized that this drug for this kid was perfect.
00:39:20It was like the perfect match of the person and the drug
00:39:23because it allowed her to do what she had to do,
00:39:26the thing that she liked doing so little.
00:39:28It allowed her to numb herself sufficiently
00:39:30to get through what she saw
00:39:32as basically a bullshit thing to do with bullshit people.
00:39:35It's a state of neither consciousness or unconsciousness.
00:39:41She thought, okay, this is cool.
00:39:43I'm feeling numb now.
00:39:45You know, I can do this.
00:39:47They can do what they want with me today,
00:39:49and I don't care.
00:39:50She didn't have a great sense of humor,
00:39:53and she did not want to look foolish.
00:39:54And a lot of times when you do these TV commercials,
00:39:57they've got you...
00:39:58She used to say,
00:39:58I'm not going to be jumping out of a washing machine.
00:40:00What are they going to do to me today?
00:40:02She was very careful about her image,
00:40:05and she wanted her in
00:40:06because that was really all she had.
00:40:09What do you think killed Gia?
00:40:15People like Gia in this world,
00:40:18there's not much anyone can do to help them.
00:40:20They're just going to die away
00:40:24and not be here anymore.
00:40:25And I guess it's the fault of the world
00:40:30and all of us and not them.
00:40:33I don't put the blame on them.
00:40:35I mean, the only time I ever felt the same way
00:40:38was with Janice Joplin
00:40:39when I spent just an afternoon with Janice.
00:40:42But I spent many afternoons with Gia
00:40:45and many evenings with her.
00:40:47And there was something there
00:40:51that you just fell in love with.
00:40:53Do you think she was happy being so beautiful?
00:40:56No, I think her beauty really got in her way.
00:40:58The very, very first time,
00:41:00I was doing a Maybelline commercial with her
00:41:02way before we had the affair.
00:41:06And she was so beautiful.
00:41:08Everyone just come over and go,
00:41:09oh, my God, look how beautiful she is and everything.
00:41:11She's walking this puppy dog
00:41:13in this Maybelline commercial and everything.
00:41:14And just for conversation's sake,
00:41:17she sat down next to me and I said,
00:41:19well, how'd you get started?
00:41:20And she went through this long thing
00:41:22about how my mother convinced my aunt
00:41:25and all this and that.
00:41:26And it was like she never really wanted to.
00:41:27She was trying to tell me, a perfect stranger,
00:41:30she never really wanted to be here,
00:41:32but here she was.
00:41:34And it was way different than what she expected.
00:41:38Are you happy with your success?
00:41:41Um, yes, I am. I am.
00:41:44You hesitated.
00:41:46Well, I just wanted to think about it.
00:41:48Now I am happy with it.
00:41:51Gia was one of those people's really verbose
00:41:53when she was high on heroin, by the way.
00:41:54A lot of people are not. She was.
00:41:56She seemed to be able to speak and think
00:41:58more clearly when she was high than not.
00:42:01Um, and so she told me more about herself,
00:42:03about the hoagie shop,
00:42:05and about growing up in Philadelphia,
00:42:07and da-da-da-da-da.
00:42:07So I had more of a sense of where she came from,
00:42:10more of a sense that this was really like
00:42:11the all-American kid that I was dealing with here.
00:42:13But what came through to me so loud and clear
00:42:15was that she was really scared to death.
00:42:17She knew that something was happening in her life,
00:42:20and she was in free fall.
00:42:21That's exactly where she was.
00:42:23She was in free fall.
00:42:24Um, and she actually asked me to help her.
00:42:27It is like taking a hallucinogen 24 hours a day
00:42:31that is very, very subtle.
00:42:34Uh, it was no longer, well, will I or won't I use
00:42:36this week or today or whatever?
00:42:38That was gone.
00:42:39So it was no longer in her control?
00:42:40No longer in her control at all.
00:42:41And she sensed that?
00:42:42And she sensed that.
00:42:43She sensed it clearly.
00:42:44I mean, she, as much as said that out front,
00:42:48that she, uh, you know, she said,
00:42:49I know that when I walk out of this building,
00:42:51well, first of all, she said,
00:42:52you know why I was late?
00:42:53I said, of course, I know you were late.
00:42:54Now I knew why you were late.
00:42:55And she said, you know where I'll go when I leave here.
00:42:57And I said, yeah, of course,
00:42:58I know where you'll go when you leave here.
00:43:00Um, it was beginning to control her life all the time.
00:43:03The only time that she wasn't thinking
00:43:04about going to get heroin
00:43:05was when she had just done some.
00:43:07It's a very, very subtle thing, heroin.
00:43:10Extremely subtle.
00:43:11Um, I think William Burroughs said that,
00:43:14uh, as opposed to cocaine,
00:43:15in which you shoot cocaine,
00:43:16goes up in your head, it's a rush,
00:43:17it's very clear, it's brutal.
00:43:19Uh, for heroin, you have to listen.
00:43:21Everything in your body, you know,
00:43:24needs it and wants it.
00:43:26And everything in your mind
00:43:27needs it and wants it.
00:43:30I mean, heroin, uh, you know,
00:43:32is like a giant buffer.
00:43:36You know, it just softens everything.
00:43:40It's like a piece of cotton
00:43:42between you and life.
00:43:44And, um, I, I remember when,
00:43:47when I would kick things being so clear,
00:43:52you know, painfully clear,
00:43:54like almost, I would feel almost like
00:43:56things were three dimension,
00:43:58you know, like I had 3D glasses on
00:44:00all of a sudden.
00:44:01They were just so clear.
00:44:03And I, I liked the haze that heroin
00:44:06put around life.
00:44:10And, um, I just didn't feel sad.
00:44:15I didn't feel afraid.
00:44:16Um, the only thing I felt afraid of
00:44:21was running out.
00:44:23When the junkie is in need,
00:44:26the pain of life
00:44:27is felt
00:44:30with an indescribable intensity
00:44:32by every single organ
00:44:34and every single part of the body.
00:44:37And this means, um,
00:44:41strange electrical cramps
00:44:43in all the joints of the body.
00:44:47Every single one.
00:44:48The little finger, the knees,
00:44:50the back, the neck, the arms.
00:44:52That is suicidal.
00:44:54I think that the thing that hit me
00:44:55the most clearly was
00:44:56that she was scared
00:44:57of what she was doing.
00:44:59Total insomnia.
00:45:00Uh, for months, really.
00:45:02And you know that's ahead of you.
00:45:04Um, and no, nothing
00:45:06will take care of that insomnia.
00:45:09Um, in addition, um,
00:45:12all the symptoms of basic sickness.
00:45:14That is to say,
00:45:15your nose runs.
00:45:16You cough.
00:45:16You have fits of sneezing.
00:45:18You cry.
00:45:19Uh, your eyes just cry.
00:45:21Um, your eyes are very dilated.
00:45:23All light hurts.
00:45:24The fact that she was frightened,
00:45:26uh, betrayed everything else
00:45:28that she was trying to give me
00:45:29in terms of her, you know,
00:45:31devil-make-care attitude
00:45:32and the whole GIA act
00:45:33that she was trying to throw my way.
00:45:35Headache, stomachache, diarrhea,
00:45:36vomiting, vomiting
00:45:38until you're vomiting green
00:45:39and yellow goop
00:45:41because there's nothing left
00:45:42in your stomach
00:45:42and you're vomiting
00:45:43the chemicals and lining
00:45:44of your stomach.
00:45:46Um, hideous.
00:45:49Totally hideous.
00:45:50Like you want to die.
00:45:51She looked terrible.
00:45:53She was very skinny,
00:45:54very dark circles
00:45:56under her eyes,
00:45:57white, white, white face,
00:45:59which can be attractive,
00:46:00but it wasn't terribly attractive.
00:46:02We did a lot of pictures
00:46:04in a limousine
00:46:06where Arthur Elgore,
00:46:08the photographer,
00:46:10kept her mostly in shadow.
00:46:13I mean, you could see
00:46:14it was GIA, her mouth
00:46:15and her body language.
00:46:18There was clearly
00:46:19some kind of a bond
00:46:20developing between the two of us
00:46:22and, um,
00:46:23I think that it was
00:46:25much more based upon
00:46:27GIA's need
00:46:28to feel as though
00:46:29she was fighting this demon,
00:46:30that it was any real
00:46:31kinship that she felt with me.
00:46:34She definitely related to the fact
00:46:35that I had been through this.
00:46:37I mean,
00:46:37that made her feel safe.
00:46:39The fact that I had been through this
00:46:40and knew what she was talking about
00:46:41made her feel like
00:46:43she was being heard
00:46:44when she talked to me.
00:46:45But I think that
00:46:46what was really compelling her
00:46:47was that she wanted to feel
00:46:49like she was making an effort
00:46:50to fight this thing.
00:46:52So,
00:46:53some of the sessions
00:46:53were very good
00:46:54because of that.
00:46:55Um,
00:46:56then it got to a point
00:46:57and I would say
00:46:58that this was probably
00:46:59a month and a half,
00:47:01maybe two months
00:47:01after the first time
00:47:02that I ever saw her.
00:47:04I got a call from her
00:47:05and she told me
00:47:06that she was down
00:47:07on the street.
00:47:09Uh,
00:47:09now I knew
00:47:09that that meant
00:47:10Rivington Street,
00:47:11which was a street
00:47:11in Lower East Side
00:47:12that was infamous
00:47:13for being
00:47:14a heroin supermarket
00:47:15back at that time.
00:47:18Uh,
00:47:18and she asked me
00:47:19to come down there
00:47:20and get her.
00:47:22And I will tell you
00:47:23that in all
00:47:24of my professional life
00:47:25I would have,
00:47:26I would have reacted
00:47:27to that
00:47:27with such derisive laughter.
00:47:29I mean,
00:47:30that was an insane idea.
00:47:31It's highly unprofessional.
00:47:33I,
00:47:33I think it borders
00:47:34on unethical actually.
00:47:36But something about
00:47:37this girl
00:47:38really compelled me
00:47:40and I,
00:47:41I agreed to do it.
00:47:42And I actually
00:47:43found myself
00:47:44taking the train
00:47:45and going down
00:47:46in the middle
00:47:47of the bowels
00:47:48of the Lower East Side
00:47:49where she said
00:47:52she was going to be,
00:47:53she wasn't.
00:47:53That was the first thing.
00:47:55So I'm walking around
00:47:56to these assorted
00:47:57drug dealers
00:47:58and whatnot types
00:47:59and I'm familiar
00:48:00with this scene.
00:48:00I mean,
00:48:00I can speak the language
00:48:01and I can kind of
00:48:02ingratiate myself.
00:48:05Who I was asking for
00:48:06was obvious
00:48:06that they weren't
00:48:07seeing too many people
00:48:07who fit that description
00:48:08every day down there.
00:48:09So finally a guy
00:48:10pointed me
00:48:11in the general direction
00:48:12of a shooting gallery
00:48:13and I went in
00:48:14and I went from
00:48:15floor to floor
00:48:16and I got to like
00:48:16the third floor
00:48:17of this abandoned building
00:48:18and not only
00:48:20was she sitting there
00:48:21shooting heroin
00:48:22but she was wearing
00:48:23the clothes
00:48:24from a shoot.
00:48:25She was wearing
00:48:25like a gown.
00:48:26It was the most
00:48:27ludicrous juxtaposition
00:48:28you can imagine.
00:48:30Here are all these
00:48:31mostly minority
00:48:32drug addicts
00:48:33all in this
00:48:34heavy kind of nod
00:48:35and in the middle
00:48:37of them
00:48:37is this girl
00:48:38saying,
00:48:38I never forget it.
00:48:39It was this pale blue
00:48:41gown
00:48:42like an evening gown
00:48:43sitting on the floor
00:48:44cross-legged
00:48:45injecting heroin
00:48:47into her arm.
00:48:48I walked over to her
00:48:50and she was in such
00:48:51a deep nod
00:48:51that she was literally
00:48:52sitting there
00:48:52with it in her arm
00:48:53unable to move.
00:48:55And this is
00:48:55endorphin
00:48:56at your fingertips
00:48:57by your choice
00:48:58by your control
00:48:59injected
00:49:00direct into the bloodstream
00:49:02with an intensity
00:49:03that is more
00:49:04that is
00:49:04greater
00:49:06than your body
00:49:06produces naturally.
00:49:08Tell me about
00:49:08the shooting galleries.
00:49:11They're just
00:49:11abandoned
00:49:12like apartment
00:49:14buildings
00:49:14or hotels
00:49:15and
00:49:16you
00:49:17you know
00:49:20you have to
00:49:21get in
00:49:22and
00:49:24you
00:49:25you go up
00:49:26the stairs
00:49:27and
00:49:27there's a
00:49:28you know
00:49:29like
00:49:30I'll give you
00:49:31an example
00:49:31of the
00:49:31you know
00:49:32one of the ones
00:49:32I went to
00:49:33there
00:49:33there's an empty room
00:49:35and the only thing
00:49:36that was in there
00:49:37was a bunch of
00:49:37dophins
00:49:38and
00:49:38and then
00:49:39there was a
00:49:40set of
00:49:41a chest of drawers
00:49:42and
00:49:42and
00:49:43inside the drawers
00:49:46were a bunch of
00:49:47you know
00:49:48dirty
00:49:50old syringes
00:49:52and
00:49:53and you know
00:49:54spoons
00:49:55burnt spoons
00:49:56and cottons
00:49:57and
00:49:58and
00:49:59you know
00:49:59if you didn't
00:50:00have your own
00:50:00set of works
00:50:01with you
00:50:02then you
00:50:02could use
00:50:03one of those
00:50:04and
00:50:04and
00:50:05and
00:50:06and you just
00:50:08went
00:50:08and you
00:50:09and you
00:50:09bought your dope
00:50:10and you got loaded
00:50:10there.
00:50:11Whenever she was
00:50:12in the middle
00:50:12of doing that
00:50:13the look on her face
00:50:15she was really
00:50:16transcendent
00:50:17that's the only word
00:50:17I can think of
00:50:18and
00:50:19when it stopped
00:50:20you could just see
00:50:21there was this moment
00:50:21of real disappointment
00:50:22and sadness
00:50:23just kind of swept over her
00:50:24and then she moved on
00:50:26about her Gia business.
00:50:27It doesn't speed you up
00:50:28it doesn't slow you down
00:50:29it just gives you
00:50:30the opportunity
00:50:31for everything
00:50:32to be a little bit
00:50:33different
00:50:34a little bit
00:50:36enhanced
00:50:37it does come
00:50:38of course
00:50:39from opium
00:50:39which is a refined opium
00:50:41which is
00:50:43of course
00:50:44a hallucinogen.
00:50:45I walked over
00:50:45I took it out of her arm
00:50:46I put it down
00:50:47I
00:50:48picked her up
00:50:49took her out of the building
00:50:51and I got a cab
00:50:52and took her home.
00:50:53It was in my
00:50:535th Avenue office
00:50:54and she just showed up
00:50:56and she looked
00:50:57pretty bad
00:50:58and she asked me
00:50:59for a hundred dollars
00:51:00and
00:51:02I understood that
00:51:05it wasn't good news
00:51:07and
00:51:07so
00:51:09but I couldn't
00:51:10refuse her
00:51:10so of course
00:51:12I gave her the money
00:51:13and I said
00:51:14well
00:51:14you know
00:51:15you obviously know
00:51:16what I would like
00:51:17to tell you
00:51:18and take care of yourself
00:51:19and she said
00:51:19yes yes
00:51:20I know
00:51:20and
00:51:22I just said
00:51:23you know
00:51:23if you know
00:51:24I'm there
00:51:25if you need me
00:51:26and
00:51:26and that's all
00:51:28and
00:51:28and
00:51:29and I guess
00:51:32I never saw her
00:51:33after that
00:51:33I
00:51:35I did the
00:51:36the let's go downtown
00:51:38and rescue
00:51:39Gia routine
00:51:40a few times
00:51:40probably more
00:51:42than a few
00:51:43and
00:51:45the last time
00:51:46that I went down
00:51:47and did that
00:51:48it was very much
00:51:50like that first scenario
00:51:51very very similar
00:51:52the dynamic was really
00:51:53very very similar
00:51:54the only difference
00:51:55of course was that
00:51:56as soon as I got there
00:51:57I knew where to go now
00:51:58I mean
00:51:58it was no problem
00:51:59about trying to figure it out
00:52:00or ask anybody
00:52:01I just made a beeline
00:52:02right to the place
00:52:02and when I
00:52:05got up there
00:52:06up to the floor
00:52:07she certainly
00:52:09wasn't wearing
00:52:10any ball gown
00:52:10she was spread out
00:52:12on the floor
00:52:12and I remember
00:52:14this very small
00:52:15wiry
00:52:16Spanish woman
00:52:17was slapping her
00:52:19in the face
00:52:19vigorously
00:52:20back and forth
00:52:20and yelling
00:52:21wake up
00:52:21wake up
00:52:22and I thought
00:52:22oh god
00:52:23no don't tell me
00:52:23this is really
00:52:24what's happening
00:52:24and I went over
00:52:26I went back
00:52:27and I looked at her
00:52:28and she was just
00:52:29as overdosed
00:52:30as you could possibly imagine
00:52:32I remember seeing cups
00:52:33filled with water
00:52:34with six or eight needles
00:52:36in the glass
00:52:37there's so much
00:52:39that just about
00:52:41the needle itself
00:52:42that you're addicted to
00:52:43if a junkie has heroin
00:52:45and no needle
00:52:46the junkie will do anything
00:52:47to get the needle
00:52:47will not imbibe it
00:52:48another way
00:52:49the visual of it
00:52:51the whole physicalization
00:52:52of the squeezing
00:52:53and relaxing
00:52:54squeezing and relaxing
00:52:55exactly while the drugs
00:52:57are hitting your brain
00:52:58your cerebral cortex
00:53:00many many many many
00:53:01people shared needles
00:53:02in those days
00:53:02obviously Gia did as well
00:53:04she also had unprotected sex
00:53:06was there a lot of
00:53:07sex for drugs?
00:53:10oh yeah
00:53:10there was
00:53:11yeah
00:53:11definitely
00:53:13the response
00:53:15of a bunch of heroin addicts
00:53:16to you overdosing
00:53:17is usually to take you out
00:53:18and drop you in the street
00:53:19and run as fast as they can
00:53:21they aren't really
00:53:23infamous for being
00:53:25compassionate
00:53:26and altruistic
00:53:28at moments like that
00:53:28and I think
00:53:30if I hadn't been there
00:53:31that's exactly
00:53:32what they would have done
00:53:32first of all
00:53:34what they were saying
00:53:35about her
00:53:36at the time
00:53:36which was
00:53:37another one of those
00:53:39extraordinarily bizarre
00:53:40juxtapositions
00:53:41is they were saying
00:53:42things like
00:53:43greedy bitch
00:53:44never does know
00:53:44when to stop
00:53:45now I heard that
00:53:45about her before
00:53:46from the addicts
00:53:47down there
00:53:47that even
00:53:49among addicts
00:53:51Gia's appetite
00:53:51was extraordinary
00:53:53they were amazed
00:53:54that such a little girl
00:53:56could get down there
00:53:57with that much money
00:53:59buy that much heroin
00:54:00and do it all
00:54:01and not die
00:54:02what did I say
00:54:03yeah let's get a shot
00:54:04of me and you here
00:54:05I'm still in shape
00:54:09everybody
00:54:10I'm still alive
00:54:11and you know
00:54:13what can I say
00:54:14let me do it
00:54:17let me do it with you
00:54:17let me check it out
00:54:19come on
00:54:21how much money
00:54:22are we talking about
00:54:23she would go down
00:54:25there were weekends
00:54:27when she would go down
00:54:28and run through
00:54:282,500 bucks
00:54:29whatever life
00:54:31had to offer
00:54:32Gia wasn't
00:54:34wasn't getting
00:54:35what she needed
00:54:35she was almost
00:54:37mournful
00:54:38it was sad
00:54:39to see her
00:54:40and you could feel
00:54:40that
00:54:41that deep sadness
00:54:42penetrating
00:54:43her whole life
00:54:44I just think
00:54:46she was lost
00:54:47I just think
00:54:48she was really lost
00:54:49she was scared
00:54:50it always looked
00:54:52like she was scared
00:54:53Sandy
00:54:54do you know
00:54:54Gia believed in God
00:54:55I did have a feeling
00:54:57that she believed
00:54:58in God
00:54:59but it's just
00:54:59a feeling
00:55:00I felt
00:55:01she was spiritual
00:55:02I convinced
00:55:03a couple of women
00:55:04to stay with her
00:55:05while I ran
00:55:06and tried to find
00:55:07you never find a phone
00:55:08that works in those neighborhoods
00:55:09so I could find a phone
00:55:10that worked
00:55:10and call 911
00:55:11and get somebody there
00:55:12get an ambulance there
00:55:13and that's what I did
00:55:15I ran downstairs
00:55:16and I ran a few blocks
00:55:17this way and that way
00:55:18by the time
00:55:19I got back up
00:55:20one of the girls
00:55:21had given Gia
00:55:23a shot
00:55:24they used to give people
00:55:26shots of salt water
00:55:27or milk
00:55:28and I have no idea
00:55:29why that worked
00:55:30on any level
00:55:31medically
00:55:31I still to this day
00:55:32don't know why it worked
00:55:33if it was that
00:55:34or just a slapping
00:55:35in the face
00:55:35or whatever
00:55:36but she was starting
00:55:37to come around
00:55:38and when I told her
00:55:39that an ambulance
00:55:40was coming
00:55:40she woke up
00:55:41very very quickly
00:55:42and insisted that we
00:55:43get out of there
00:55:44and that we want to worry
00:55:44because she didn't want
00:55:45to be found out
00:55:46by you know
00:55:47whatever
00:55:47which is exactly
00:55:49what we did
00:55:49we went
00:55:50we ran out
00:55:51she was awake enough
00:55:52to be on her feet
00:55:52we got out of there
00:55:53we got in the cab
00:55:54and we left
00:55:54and in the cab
00:55:55I told her
00:55:56don't ever
00:55:57ever ever
00:55:58call me again
00:55:58to come down here
00:55:59this is the end of that
00:56:00I will never do this again
00:56:01I'll see you
00:56:02I'll talk to you
00:56:03I'll do whatever you want to do
00:56:04but this I will never do again
00:56:06and I held to that
00:56:07did you see her again
00:56:09after you found out
00:56:10that she was HIV
00:56:10no no
00:56:12I never saw her again
00:56:14and I don't think
00:56:16she wanted to see anyone
00:56:17if she had called
00:56:19for me to come
00:56:20and see her
00:56:20I would have gone running
00:56:21but I didn't see her
00:56:24I just
00:56:24and then I just heard
00:56:25that she had died
00:56:26and
00:56:27you know
00:56:30it's
00:56:31a very very sad
00:56:33tragic story
00:56:34there's so many drugs
00:56:35in our food
00:56:37you know
00:56:37people take drugs
00:56:38every day
00:56:38and they don't even know it
00:56:40you don't have
00:56:41if you don't mind me saying this
00:56:44you really don't have
00:56:45well of course I mind you saying it
00:56:46you don't have
00:56:48cocaine and heroin
00:56:49in food
00:56:51I mean
00:56:51well you never know
00:56:53I mean
00:56:54she would somehow
00:56:56get into my building
00:56:57go to the penthouse
00:56:59scale the outside
00:57:01of the building
00:57:02I was up 10 stories
00:57:03so she was on the 11th floor
00:57:05she would scale like Superman
00:57:06or like she thought
00:57:08in her mind
00:57:08Romeo and Juliet
00:57:09she would scale the outside
00:57:11of the building
00:57:12and land on my
00:57:14air conditioner
00:57:15in the bedroom
00:57:16and once I was with a guy
00:57:18that I had been seeing
00:57:19on and off
00:57:20and she landed
00:57:20on the air conditioner
00:57:21this is the first time
00:57:22she did it
00:57:23and I see these white sneakers
00:57:26land on my air conditioner
00:57:27and I fainted
00:57:28I knew who it was immediately
00:57:30and she was outside
00:57:31of the bedroom
00:57:33it was
00:57:33way more than I could tolerate
00:57:36way more
00:57:37and she did it
00:57:38two other times
00:57:39she did it three times
00:57:41she would
00:57:42man
00:57:42and I took the
00:57:43the doorman
00:57:44and I said
00:57:44you cannot let this girl
00:57:46in the building
00:57:47she had a way
00:57:48of charming them
00:57:50or sleazing
00:57:51in and out
00:57:52you know
00:57:53but that was way more
00:57:55than I could take
00:57:56that was a little
00:57:57too much
00:57:58and I fainted
00:57:59but my boyfriend
00:58:00looked at me like
00:58:02aren't you going to help her
00:58:03are you going to help her
00:58:04and he opened the window
00:58:06and they were
00:58:07these windows
00:58:08that pulled
00:58:08out like this
00:58:10so it was hard
00:58:11to get her in
00:58:12and he managed
00:58:13to get her in
00:58:14and she plopped herself
00:58:16down on the bed
00:58:17and threw her
00:58:18legs up
00:58:19and she looked like
00:58:20she belonged there
00:58:21and what the fuck
00:58:22was he doing there
00:58:23in my bedroom
00:58:25she gave him
00:58:25a dirty look
00:58:26I said
00:58:27what would have happened
00:58:28if we didn't get you
00:58:29in this room
00:58:30you could have fallen
00:58:32what would
00:58:32oh she said
00:58:33I would have kicked
00:58:34open another window
00:58:35I'm not a man
00:58:48who likes to swear
00:58:49but I never cared
00:58:50to be in the hall
00:58:53I am there
00:58:58to no one there
00:59:03did you like Gia?
00:59:29I liked her a lot
00:59:31but she caused me
00:59:32a lot
00:59:33a lot
00:59:34of pain
00:59:35and
00:59:36and
00:59:36aggravation
00:59:38constantly
00:59:40I mean
00:59:41I would be all up
00:59:43and in a great mood
00:59:44and I would say
00:59:44Gia
00:59:45I have tickets
00:59:45we're going to Florida
00:59:46we're going to Key West
00:59:47we're going to this great place
00:59:49what'd you do that for?
00:59:51I mean
00:59:51can you
00:59:52become
00:59:53hooked
00:59:53on modeling
00:59:54as you can
00:59:55become hooked
00:59:56on drugs?
00:59:57no
00:59:59I doubt that very much
01:00:01but I
01:00:03you know
01:00:03all things
01:00:04you can take
01:00:05all things
01:00:06as drugs
01:00:07I mean
01:00:07anything's a drug
01:00:09if you
01:00:09take it
01:00:10you know
01:00:11it's not good
01:00:12to take things
01:00:13too much
01:00:15you know
01:00:15because then
01:00:16they don't seem
01:00:17to be worth as much
01:00:18where she took me
01:00:20in terms of
01:00:21the human mind
01:00:22and what goes on
01:00:23I mean
01:00:23I'm sure
01:00:24that if I had known
01:00:25then what I know now
01:00:26I certainly could have seen
01:00:27that she was
01:00:28at the very least
01:00:29bipolar
01:00:29she was certainly
01:00:31in need of some
01:00:31maybe if she had been
01:00:32diagnosed
01:00:33and properly medicated
01:00:34at some point
01:00:35this whole thing
01:00:36wouldn't happen
01:00:36she might be alive
01:00:37to this day
01:00:38that's entirely possible
01:00:39my friend Jimmy and I
01:00:40who knew Gia also
01:00:42we were at a house
01:00:44that I had out
01:00:44in Pennsylvania
01:00:45and we were just
01:00:47talking about this
01:00:48that and the other thing
01:00:49and then we started
01:00:49to talk about Gia
01:00:50for no apparent reason
01:00:51we had no idea
01:00:52why the subject came up
01:00:53but we talked about her
01:00:54we reminisced
01:00:55we told some stories
01:00:56and so on
01:00:56and then it kind of
01:00:57went away
01:00:58and then Jimmy called me
01:01:00about two weeks later
01:01:01and told me
01:01:01that he had found out
01:01:02that almost at exactly
01:01:04the moment
01:01:04that we were having
01:01:05that conversation
01:01:05about Gia
01:01:06she was busy
01:01:07dying in the hospital
01:01:08I'll never forget it
01:01:11I was standing
01:01:12beside of her bed
01:01:14and one of her doctors
01:01:15at that moment
01:01:16called on the phone
01:01:17and I talked to him
01:01:18and we had already decided
01:01:21that that's probably
01:01:23how she was going
01:01:24to be diagnosed
01:01:25and we just went on
01:01:29from there
01:01:29I mean it was horrendous
01:01:31she had been clean
01:01:32from the time
01:01:34that she went through
01:01:35the rehab program
01:01:37and then she had gone
01:01:39and sold her car
01:01:40and I think she
01:01:42she might have been
01:01:43intentionally trying
01:01:44to kill herself
01:01:45because she was
01:01:46in Atlantic City
01:01:48for about a week
01:01:49and it wasn't going right
01:01:52it was
01:01:52it was very bad
01:01:53I was getting a lot
01:01:54of phone calls
01:01:55and I said
01:01:56when Gia's ready
01:01:57to come home
01:01:58she will call me
01:01:59and then I got the call
01:02:01from her father
01:02:02and he said
01:02:03you know
01:02:04she's really messed up
01:02:05and I said
01:02:05well you know
01:02:06what do you want me to do
01:02:07and he said
01:02:08well she's supposed
01:02:09to come back
01:02:10and I'm going to put her
01:02:10on a bus
01:02:11and send her back to you
01:02:12so the next day
01:02:14she came in his store
01:02:15and they called me
01:02:18on the phone
01:02:19and I made her promise
01:02:20that if I met her
01:02:21at the bus
01:02:21she would go straight
01:02:22to the hospital
01:02:23with me
01:02:24and I took her
01:02:26to the hospital
01:02:26she was an absolute mess
01:02:28couldn't walk straight
01:02:30or anything
01:02:31there was no way
01:02:33I could take her home
01:02:34because I couldn't
01:02:35handle her
01:02:36in the condition
01:02:36she was in
01:02:37I didn't know
01:02:37what I was going
01:02:38to be in for
01:02:38and she obviously
01:02:40was more than
01:02:41just on drugs
01:02:42I was home alone
01:02:44and the doorbell rang
01:02:46which was odd
01:02:49because I have a doorman
01:02:50and I usually get buzzed first
01:02:52especially I'm a little paranoid
01:02:54and I need to know
01:02:55the buzzer
01:02:56who's coming up
01:02:57and this and that
01:02:57anyway was the doorbell
01:02:58but I said uh-oh
01:03:00and I opened it up
01:03:01and she was there
01:03:02looking gorgeous
01:03:03I mean looking like
01:03:05probably the first day
01:03:06I'd ever seen her
01:03:07and all cleaned up
01:03:09beautiful hair
01:03:10beautifully dressed
01:03:11cashmere
01:03:12beautiful coat
01:03:13and everything
01:03:14and she just smiled
01:03:16very quietly
01:03:18it was a different Gia
01:03:20and she walked into the
01:03:21and I let her in
01:03:22because I could tell
01:03:23she was cool
01:03:25okay I could tell
01:03:26she wasn't
01:03:26high I guess
01:03:28and she just
01:03:30walked in
01:03:31the apartment
01:03:33and sat down
01:03:34on the couch
01:03:35I sat down
01:03:36next to her
01:03:36I said hi
01:03:37how are you
01:03:38what's happening
01:03:39you know
01:03:39and she put her head
01:03:42on my chest
01:03:44and she just
01:03:45sobbed
01:03:46and my whole
01:03:47shirt was dripping
01:03:49wet from tears
01:03:51and she never
01:03:53spoke to me
01:03:54I just kept
01:03:56trying to
01:03:57figure out
01:03:59what she was
01:04:00doing in the city
01:04:00I must have been
01:04:01asking her all kind
01:04:02of ordinary
01:04:03simple questions
01:04:04and she just
01:04:07looked at me
01:04:08and she said
01:04:08I gotta go now
01:04:09and she left
01:04:10and piecing that
01:04:13together with
01:04:14what I know now
01:04:15about how
01:04:16the time period
01:04:17that she was sick
01:04:18and everything
01:04:18I'm sure she knew
01:04:20she was sick
01:04:21and she looked
01:04:22good for that day
01:04:23and she was gonna
01:04:24say goodbye to me
01:04:25looking good
01:04:26she was never
01:04:27really well
01:04:28again that was
01:04:29in June
01:04:29right after she
01:04:33came out of the
01:04:33hospital we took
01:04:34her to great
01:04:34adventure
01:04:35and she got
01:04:37very weak
01:04:37very fast
01:04:40and she said
01:04:41to me
01:04:41she says
01:04:41mommy
01:04:42she says
01:04:42I know
01:04:43that I couldn't
01:04:44go to Disney
01:04:45I just wouldn't
01:04:46be able to do it
01:04:47she wanted to go
01:04:47to Disney
01:04:48and I had told
01:04:50her if she got
01:04:50well enough
01:04:51we would take her
01:04:52but there was no
01:04:53way and she knew
01:04:54it and it started
01:04:56to rain and I got
01:04:57very very concerned
01:04:58about her
01:04:59and she told me
01:05:01like she always
01:05:02said oh mommy
01:05:03what would I do
01:05:04without you
01:05:05and then she was
01:05:08home more than
01:05:09she was anywhere
01:05:10else and then
01:05:11we were trying to
01:05:13work on some of
01:05:14the problems that
01:05:15she had
01:05:15the physical things
01:05:17that were happening
01:05:17to her body
01:05:18and then we had
01:05:20to put her in
01:05:21the hospital
01:05:21she went in on
01:05:24a Friday
01:05:24on Sunday night
01:05:26they put her on
01:05:27full life support
01:05:28when she left
01:05:30I had no idea
01:05:31that this was her
01:05:31goodbye
01:05:32I had no idea
01:05:34I'd never see her
01:05:35again
01:05:35she called me
01:05:37after that time
01:05:38she called me
01:05:40once
01:05:40once that I
01:05:42remember
01:05:43picking up the
01:05:44phone and I
01:05:45heard a voice
01:05:45and she said
01:05:46to me
01:05:46Sam
01:05:47are you afraid
01:05:49of me
01:05:49and I
01:05:51I said no
01:05:52I'm not afraid
01:05:52of you
01:05:53I've never been
01:05:53afraid of you
01:05:54and I slammed
01:05:55the phone down
01:05:56on her
01:05:56of course
01:05:59I was
01:05:59I couldn't
01:06:01believe she
01:06:02was asking
01:06:02me are you
01:06:03afraid of me
01:06:04because you
01:06:04think I have
01:06:05AIDS
01:06:05she was sitting
01:06:06there breathing
01:06:07on her own
01:06:07but she just
01:06:08she just couldn't
01:06:09do it
01:06:09and then
01:06:10after
01:06:11I think they
01:06:12had her off
01:06:12for maybe 15
01:06:13minutes
01:06:13and they were
01:06:15trying to see
01:06:15how long
01:06:16they could keep
01:06:17her off
01:06:17while she could
01:06:18breathe on her
01:06:18own
01:06:19but it didn't
01:06:20work
01:06:20they put her
01:06:20back on
01:06:21and they were
01:06:21never able
01:06:22to get her
01:06:22off again
01:06:23Halloween came
01:06:25at about
01:06:26two weeks
01:06:27into all this
01:06:28and we celebrated
01:06:30Halloween
01:06:31I mean people
01:06:31thought we were
01:06:32nuts but with
01:06:32Gia you always
01:06:33celebrated the
01:06:34holidays
01:06:34and you always
01:06:35made a big
01:06:35thing out of
01:06:36them
01:06:37so she had
01:06:38the pumpkins
01:06:38in a room
01:06:39and kitty cats
01:06:40and she had
01:06:40this big
01:06:41furry hand
01:06:42and the doctor
01:06:44came in
01:06:44and I think
01:06:45it was sad
01:06:46in a way
01:06:46but yet
01:06:47we were a
01:06:48family
01:06:48this was probably
01:06:49the last time
01:06:50we were ever
01:06:50going to have
01:06:51a holiday
01:06:51with her
01:06:52and we celebrated
01:06:54it
01:06:54even though it
01:06:57was like
01:06:57something crazy
01:06:58like Halloween
01:06:58the time when
01:07:00she said goodbye
01:07:00to me
01:07:01and she cried
01:07:01and everything
01:07:02I had nothing
01:07:02to regret
01:07:03because I didn't
01:07:03know anything
01:07:04but by the
01:07:05last phone
01:07:06conversation
01:07:07I slammed
01:07:07the phone
01:07:08down
01:07:08and you know
01:07:09don't bother
01:07:10me anymore
01:07:10kind of manner
01:07:11I really do
01:07:12regret
01:07:12because she
01:07:14was trying
01:07:15to communicate
01:07:16with me
01:07:16it wasn't
01:07:17just another
01:07:18high phone
01:07:19call
01:07:19I had gotten
01:07:2050 phone
01:07:22calls from her
01:07:23a day
01:07:24at times
01:07:25with her just
01:07:26being stoned
01:07:26out of her
01:07:27mind
01:07:27and I was
01:07:28used to them
01:07:28so I treated
01:07:30this like
01:07:30another high
01:07:31phone call
01:07:31but it wasn't
01:07:32it was the
01:07:33last time
01:07:33I'd ever
01:07:34hear a voice
01:07:35toward the end
01:07:36they ordered
01:07:37a bed
01:07:37for her
01:07:38it was special
01:07:39they had
01:07:39somebody
01:07:40come in
01:07:41and each
01:07:42cushion
01:07:42had to
01:07:44be set up
01:07:45exactly
01:07:46by the
01:07:46technician
01:07:47from the
01:07:48manufacturing
01:07:49company
01:07:49and they
01:07:50thought that
01:07:51would make
01:07:51it easier
01:07:52for her
01:07:52whatever
01:07:53could happen
01:07:54to that
01:07:54body
01:07:55did happen
01:07:56whatever
01:07:56organ
01:07:57whatever
01:07:57there was
01:07:58in it
01:07:59failed
01:07:59and I
01:08:00always thought
01:08:01very romantically
01:08:02I thought
01:08:03you know what
01:08:03because we both
01:08:04loved St. Bart's
01:08:05and we'd been
01:08:05there together
01:08:06I thought
01:08:07you know what
01:08:08Gia
01:08:08one day
01:08:08I'm going to
01:08:09see you
01:08:09on the beach
01:08:10I'll see you
01:08:11again
01:08:11and I always
01:08:13had that idea
01:08:14in my mind
01:08:14there was never
01:08:15ever
01:08:15ever a feeling
01:08:17that I wasn't
01:08:17going to see
01:08:18her again
01:08:18was Gia able
01:08:20to communicate
01:08:21with you
01:08:21while she was
01:08:22in the hospital
01:08:22while she was
01:08:23on life support
01:08:24okay
01:08:25while she was
01:08:26on life support
01:08:27she was on
01:08:28for four weeks
01:08:29the first two
01:08:30weeks
01:08:31were the
01:08:33better part
01:08:34of the time
01:08:35period
01:08:35even though
01:08:36things were
01:08:36going wrong
01:08:37and because
01:08:39she had all
01:08:39these tubes
01:08:41in her
01:08:42and in her
01:08:43throat
01:08:43and everywhere
01:08:44else
01:08:44and all these
01:08:45bottles
01:08:46with something
01:08:46hooked up
01:08:47to her
01:08:48we could
01:08:49communicate
01:08:50with her
01:08:51limitedly
01:08:52she couldn't
01:08:54talk very well
01:08:55but we would
01:08:56say things
01:08:57and because
01:08:59we knew her
01:09:00we would
01:09:00try to say
01:09:02what we thought
01:09:02she was trying
01:09:03to say
01:09:03and there was
01:09:04a time period
01:09:05when we would
01:09:06write things
01:09:07down
01:09:08and if we
01:09:10weren't getting
01:09:10the right answer
01:09:11we would just
01:09:11write a series
01:09:12of people's
01:09:12names
01:09:13or a series
01:09:14of words
01:09:14and then she
01:09:15would point
01:09:15and she wanted
01:09:17to get the hell
01:09:17out of there
01:09:18and she thought
01:09:20if I would
01:09:20just take her
01:09:21home
01:09:21if I could
01:09:22would just
01:09:22help her get
01:09:23out the door
01:09:24everything would
01:09:24be fine
01:09:25and I would
01:09:25I would have
01:09:26to explain
01:09:26to her
01:09:27again and
01:09:27again and
01:09:27again
01:09:28that no
01:09:29if I take
01:09:29you even
01:09:30as far as
01:09:30the elevator
01:09:31you'll never
01:09:31make it
01:09:32and I would
01:09:33tell her
01:09:33we would have
01:09:33to take
01:09:34the oxygen
01:09:34and all
01:09:35this equipment
01:09:35and there's
01:09:36no way
01:09:36we could do
01:09:37that
01:09:37she was not
01:09:39going home
01:09:39and she
01:09:41we kept
01:09:41trying to
01:09:42like let her
01:09:43know that
01:09:43and you knew
01:09:44at that point
01:09:44that she would
01:09:45never go home
01:09:46again
01:09:46I knew that
01:09:47when I saw
01:09:48what happened
01:09:49when they tried
01:09:49to wean her
01:09:50from the tube
01:09:50I probably knew
01:09:52it before that
01:09:52but that kind
01:09:55of reinforced
01:09:55it and it
01:09:56was just a
01:09:57matter of time
01:09:57I wish I could
01:09:59see her again
01:10:00sure
01:10:01there's no doubt
01:10:02about it
01:10:03I never ever
01:10:04got the chance
01:10:04to say goodbye
01:10:05not really
01:10:07just that one
01:10:08last memory
01:10:09but
01:10:09um
01:10:12no
01:10:13this is my
01:10:14goodbye
01:10:15because
01:10:15things sort of
01:10:17have to come
01:10:17a full circle
01:10:18the last two
01:10:19weeks
01:10:19it was like
01:10:20it just went
01:10:21more and more
01:10:22and more
01:10:23and more
01:10:23downhill
01:10:23and
01:10:24it got to the
01:10:26point where
01:10:26she was either
01:10:27drugged to the
01:10:28point that she
01:10:29was sleeping
01:10:29all the time
01:10:30or she was
01:10:31in a coma
01:10:31she
01:10:33is an enormous
01:10:35chapter in my
01:10:36life
01:10:36she is not
01:10:37just
01:10:39a memory
01:10:40she is part
01:10:42of my life
01:10:43she is part
01:10:44of who I am
01:10:44today
01:10:45my sister
01:10:46was in the
01:10:47room with me
01:10:48and
01:10:49they were
01:10:50washing
01:10:50her body
01:10:51and taking
01:10:52care of her
01:10:53and they
01:10:54rolled her
01:10:54over
01:10:55and I
01:10:56saw her
01:10:57back
01:10:57and the
01:10:58flesh
01:10:58was literally
01:10:59falling
01:11:00off
01:11:00of her
01:11:01back
01:11:02AIDS
01:11:03literally
01:11:04ate her
01:11:04alive
01:11:05this is
01:11:12an assault
01:11:13her
01:11:14love
01:11:14I'm
01:11:20making
01:11:22love
01:11:23for all
01:11:24night
01:11:24long
01:11:26I'm
01:11:27making love
01:11:27for all
01:11:28that long
01:11:28I'm making love
01:11:29Laugh and milk and lay on your satin sheets
01:11:38Let smile at all, lay on quality
01:11:45Chocolate mint candy sweets
01:11:53They're running across the way
01:12:00This is an a song
01:12:06This is an a song
01:12:10Keep on singing
01:12:11It's only love
01:12:14It hurts your heart
01:12:21See me
01:12:23Make the dollar
01:12:26Summer
01:12:27I know I should
01:12:32For my own love
01:12:35What's it husband
01:12:37Makes you so stubborn and poor
01:12:42Dear, did you notice the snow
01:12:48Part of the phone
01:12:51Come let us
01:12:55Sit and walk
01:12:57Just listen
01:13:02To the children
01:13:06Laughing and running wild
01:13:12Now this isn't a song
01:13:27Yeah, now this isn't a song
01:13:39Hey baby, hey baby
01:13:45Loving you all night long
01:13:53It'll happen again
01:13:58And again, and again
01:14:02Baby, and again
01:14:07She's a child of the soul
01:14:11Loving is one of all
01:14:17Hmm, now this is Anna's song
01:14:28Yeah, keep on loving me baby
01:14:35Loving me across the hall
01:14:40She can't do no wrong
01:14:48Cause this is Anna's song
01:14:55Laf her chenna, too
01:15:00Kiss me, Anna, dear
01:15:06Hmm, hmm, hmm
01:15:16And again, and again
01:15:21Thank you
01:15:23Thank you
01:15:25Thank you
01:15:25Thank you
01:15:27Thank you
01:15:29Thank you
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