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00:00Christmas is coming so is my birthday maybe something fantastic will happen
00:05like a pint of Ben and Jerry's what so I just redo this whole thing redo it
00:14we do we do what video anyways you guys have no idea so was that good enough
00:25for you crystal do you have anything you would like to say to everybody have a
00:31good Christmas hi everyone um if you hear weird noise that would be the washer and
00:44dryer which is in that white area but um I did not weigh in yesterday mainly
00:53because my tooth was hurting so bad I literally did not want to do anything
00:56and then once my tooth started feeling better obviously I ate and this and that
01:01so I didn't want to do a weigh-in um I weighed in today and when I saw the scale
01:08I wasn't gonna do a weigh-in video I'm being 100% honest right now
01:16I was not gonna do a weigh-in video I wasn't gonna let myself um I was ashamed
01:25I was disgusted I'm shocked I'm I feel like I just I don't have control over myself anymore
01:36and it's scaring me so bad I told myself that it's December it's holidays it's almost the end
01:48of the year so don't beat yourself up but I'm getting so much weight that I can't help but beat
01:58myself up um I just I start the day so good I really do and then when nighttime comes along
02:12I just want to eat the whole house and I cannot control it
02:16I'm just very let down in myself I'm sure all y'all are gonna unfollow me unsubscribe
02:24you're guys gonna be like this girl's making no progress
02:27I wouldn't blame you I would not blame you but
02:34I don't want anyone to be let down I have created a my fitness pal profile um I will link it down
02:47below if you want to follow me uh or not follow me because my friends on there and I have
02:54decided um that for the rest of December I will try my hardest to watch what I eat but still
03:01not count calories I'm not gonna like be too strict I want to um start 2014 no higher than the weight I
03:13am currently at I feel like it will be possible
03:17that's just I mean even if I'm 0.2 lower or the exact weight I am right now when 2014
03:26starts I am fine by that I do not want to gain any more weight but I made the my fitness pal
03:34profile because once 2014 comes along I will be counting calories I suck at counting calories
03:42meaning I normally stop but I'm good at doing it I can eyeball something and know exactly how many
03:50calories even though I'm not like physically counting calories I have calories racking in my
03:56brain every single day because I have them memorized I did it for so long I can eyeball it now
04:03like I just I just know calories perfectly but how I'm bad at doing this because I always stop
04:10actually physically counting calories but in 2014 I want to try to do it and I know it's so cliche
04:19and so cheesy and so like oh new year's resolution you know and never you know people follow through
04:27for like two months and then bam things hit the road but I want to try really hard 2014 my girlfriend
04:35has this obsession with the number 14 so in a way I feel like maybe it's a sign maybe it's just
04:42you know fate that this is our year I know cliches all over the place but I want to be positive for
04:50this and I want to try so hard next year like it's coming up you know it's the 17th already and
04:58yeah so I'm gonna get to my weigh-in and tell you guys all that jazz this has been going on for
05:05almost five minutes so last time I weighed in which I do not remember what that was I was 368.2
05:13today I weighed in at 371.6 that is a gain of 3.4 pounds I have lost a total of 48.4 pounds that is
05:24you know good but it used to be 89 so in 2014 I will get to that spot again and if I don't
05:35I don't know what I'm gonna do with myself but 2014 I have high hopes like I said I have
05:41pretty much I have a name for my journey and I'm not gonna introduce you guys to that yet
05:48but if you follow me or what do I say follow me if you friend me on my fitness pal you'll know
05:55exactly what that name is because that's my screen name on there because I am going to do this in 2014
06:05I am going to make that goal that I want to reach so badly and don't worry I will tell you guys what
06:13that is eventually um I just kind of wanted to wait more closer to 2014 I'll probably end up telling
06:21you guys in January 1st this little thing I have in my head that I'm really really wanting to succeed
06:27that in 2014 and when I make goals I'm horrible at them but I feel like with enough support enough
06:36motivation and inspiration I have I feel like I can do it um but so that's my way in I wasn't gonna
06:44film a video but I did because I knew I should and I knew that I would have to and I just feel so
06:50guilty and ashamed but there's so many people out there probably feeling the same way and I figured
06:56making a video would show that nobody is perfect and I feel like by me not giving up I'm one step
07:04closer to the goal I have in mind whether it takes me forever at least I'm not giving up that is what
07:12matters so I hope you guys are having a good day and if you aren't smiling smile bye
07:26vlogmas 17 is here I am looking like really crazy right now it's the light it's making me look
07:40like I'm literally a ghost but um yeah my hair is just up no makeup this is me in the raw
07:47I'm wearing a shirt that just came out really wrong anyways I just filmed my weigh-in video by
07:55the time you see this I'm sure you're gonna see the weigh-in video um let's not discuss that on here
08:01shall we but anyways I'm just about to do the dishes um and then I'm gonna go upstairs and play
08:08rock band with my girlfriend I like never play rock band but she wants me to play with her so I'm gonna
08:12play I normally sing which I'm actually really good at I'm not really good at singing I'm just
08:18really good at singing rock band I normally get like 100% but today I'm gonna play the guitar which
08:24I'm actually gonna do the bass so yeah that's what I have planned for right now but yeah so stick around
08:31to see the rest of my day like I always say even though I should probably stop anyways
08:36I'm gonna do the bass so I'm gonna do this
08:50so
08:55what is this monkey oh my god monkey no look at what he did he broke
09:20the tree monkey that's bad oh god i guess i gotta clean this up
09:50are you trying to apologize
10:16for what you did downstairs hello everybody i'm terribly sorry for the um bright light but
10:29i mean it's not too bright outside it's like cloudy and stuff but anyways um
10:35so something i noticed about youtube is subscribers in a way kind of want to react
10:42um and connect and all that type of stuff with the youtuber that they are watching um
10:53at least for me anyway and i do see comments um not only on my channel but other channels where
10:59um youtubers not youtubers i'm sorry subscribers try to talk with the youtubers and stuff like that
11:08and you really honestly never see youtubers um ask questions to their um subscribers and give them
11:21something to talk about in the comments so i love seeing your guys's um comments and what you have
11:29to say and all that type of stuff so i figured i'd start a new segment on my channel i don't know this
11:35could go badly this could go greatly even if one person comments on it i really that's all that
11:41matters but um what i'm gonna do is i'm going to ask a question and um i'm going to answer it but i'm
11:52mainly answering it to give ideas or because i'm sure some of you might be curious about my answer and kind
11:58of just to get that out of the way but what i'm mainly asking um the reason why i'm asking is i'm
12:04really asking to you guys um so i will ask the question i will answer and then i will ask the
12:12question again and i should have the question underneath like so right here um and you guys
12:20all you guys have to do is comment down below and give me your answer um some questions will be serious
12:27maybe in depth you need to think about it more some questions are going to be simple easy silly
12:33random fun weird you know um i feel like that's the best way to get to know people and i really do
12:40want to see what um my subscribers have to say um you guys mean a lot to me you guys follow my life
12:47and my randomness and i appreciate it and i want to get to know you guys um a little bit so i figured
12:53the first question can be just something light and easy to kind of um introduce this segment of my
13:02channel and the question is do you think penguins are cute i mean how easy question is that i do think
13:10penguins are cute i used to be obsessed with penguins i've gone to um the zoos i've gone to
13:16aquariums and i was always magnetized to the penguins i just love their habitat and just
13:25they're just adorable like i just can't get enough so my question for you guys is do you think penguins
13:33are cute and all you have to do is answer in the comments down below and i can't wait to see your
13:38guys's answers whoa almost dropped my phone and um if you guys like this and this you guys want to see
13:46more of this and me asking more questions at random um please like this and let me know down in the
13:53comments as well so again the question is do you think penguins are cute i can't wait to see your
13:57answers
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14:13i didn't hear you
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18:47Why, why did I have to go through those certain types of things and I look at me as a little girl in those videos and I literally just want to take that little girl and hold her and hug her and in a way warn her that things are going to get rough.
19:12Like, your life is going to take a turn and it's just sad. I don't mean to get emotional. It's actually kind of embarrassing, but I don't know. I just, I see those videos and I hear my mom say my name and my dad laughing and it just, it breaks my heart.
19:36I was, I looked so happy. My parents sounded happy. And then my life now, I'm just, it's sad. I miss my parents so much.
19:51And every day I think of them and I think of my brothers and everything else and just hard.
20:02And, um, I guess I just wanted to share this with you guys. I'm sorry.
20:11I didn't come on here to cry. I just kind of wanted to show you the clips and kind of just, I don't know, talk and say that from my remembrance,
20:24these are like the first clips I've seen of myself in over 15 years of me being a little girl.
20:36And it's just, it's so weird to think that I was a little girl at one point, but I'm sorry.
20:44I didn't mean to cry on here. It makes me feel kind of dumb to be honest, but yeah.
20:50Um, I'm going to add the clips and show you. They're very short and you can tell how old they are.
21:01I think they're from like 1992 or something, but, um, here they are.
21:09Now, how about the whole coding?
21:14The whole coding.
21:16For grandpa.
21:18And for me.
21:19Look at grandpa do the whole coding.
21:24I'm not!
21:25Are you going to make it?
21:41What?
21:43What?
21:45Do you have a line?
21:49Do you have a line?
22:01So those were just two of the four that she sent me.
22:07I hope you enjoyed them, I guess, I don't know.
22:13I enjoyed them even though they do break my heart.
22:17They really do.
22:19I'm debating whether I should keep them on my phone or delete them.
22:23Because...
22:25Just those short, short, short clips really, really, really just tear apart my heart.
22:32I can't even explain it, how it makes me feel.
22:36But anyways, I'm grateful she sent them.
22:39But I'm going to end my Vlogmas 17 here.
22:43Because for the rest of the night, I'm not really doing anything.
22:46I'm just going to play Grand Theft Auto.
22:49I don't even really play Grand Theft Auto.
22:51I just drive around.
22:52That's just something my girlfriend do sometimes.
22:55She actually plays a storyline.
22:56But she also drives around with me because she's nice like that.
22:59So...
23:00Yeah, I'm going to listen to music, play Grand Theft Auto, and that's about it.
23:04And shari...
23:05Shari.
23:06Shari.
23:07Sorry I didn't show you what I ate much today.
23:10After I cooked dinner, which was delicious.
23:13It was salmon, and I made like onion, and bell pepper, and mushroom, and potato like mixed together.
23:21Oh my god, I loved it.
23:22I really did.
23:23After I ate it, I was like, oh my god.
23:26I forgot to take a picture.
23:28I hate when I do that.
23:30Ugh.
23:31It's really annoying because it was really good dinner.
23:34And I definitely want to make that again, that's for sure.
23:38Did you lick it, Crystal?
23:42Of course.
23:44She's feeling shy, I guess.
23:45I am.
23:46I am.
23:47I am.
23:48But yeah, it was really good.
23:51Yeah.
23:52So...
23:53I also wanted to just say one thing about my weigh-in video.
23:58I did say how I'm not going to be really dieting for the rest of this month.
24:05But I'm trying to watch what I am eating.
24:09And someone told me that it's excuses.
24:12I did not appreciate that comment, whatsoever.
24:17Um, you can think what you want.
24:20Um, yeah, it might be an excuse, but you don't have to be so rude.
24:24Um, I just wanted to say that.
24:26There's just no reason to be so rude in my comments when I'm not rude to you.
24:31But, um, I just wanted to end with that.
24:34When 2014 comes along, things will be different for me.
24:37I will be dieting, I will be counting calories.
24:39But until then, please just be kind with my choices.
24:45Okay?
24:46I'd appreciate it.
24:47Haha.
24:48But thank you guys for watching.
24:49And if you're not subscribed, subscribe.
24:51Like it if you liked it.
24:52And if you aren't smiling, smile.
24:53Bye!
24:54Bye!
24:55Bye!
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