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00:00Ten years ago six of the brightest lights in the pop cosmos were suddenly extinguished leaving a generation of fans bereft
00:10Some cracked under the pressure. It was overwhelming. It was just too much too soon too young
00:16Others were sacked by their record companies. We wished it's over Sony are dropping us
00:20It was like the world being pulled under your feet at 90 miles an hour
00:25Now after a decade away they're putting real life on hold
00:30As they attempt to reboot their pop careers
00:39This is the big reunion
01:00Previously on the big reunion the boys from five regroups for the first time in over half a decade
01:19Sorry you're a bit late
01:23But they have a bit of a problem. They're a man down
01:25What we're going to do about a new member?
01:27I don't want any other punk in the band and I don't want them just to be some punk that is just going to fill the space temporarily
01:33I'm glad you went away in love with you
01:35I'm glad you went away in love with you
01:36I mean you can sing though
01:39I can hold a note with people. I can't. I'm not Mariah Carey
01:42Over in Atomic Kitten World, Liz and Natasha welcomed Carey back into the line-up
01:48You abandoned us bitch
01:51With just weeks to go before the big reunion gig the bands are fighting to get physically and emotionally fit
02:02While most battle with egos and love handles one member of Liberty X has made a life-changing decision
02:07I'm 80% susceptible of breast cancer
02:13So tomorrow on Lorraine I'm going to announce that I'm going to have a double mastectomy
02:19You nervous?
02:22I'm just scared of not waking up
02:24With the aftermath of a double mastectomy to contend with
02:32Michelle Heaton and her band Liberty X are under pressure to be ready for the gig
02:36That's your hand
02:39Oh you want to clap my hands for me?
02:42Beep beep
02:43But with first rehearsals just around the corner
02:47Michelle must face the reality of her situation
02:50I've got to say it is very depressing that I'm not feeding my baby
02:57Well you are very independent aren't you?
03:00I know
03:00You don't let me do it too much
03:02Because mummy can't raise her arms very high
03:05On the morning of the operation I didn't get a chance
03:09I don't think to say bye to you before I went in
03:12No
03:12Because I've texted you didn't I?
03:13A quick text just to say that you were going
03:15And I was okay, I was fine at home
03:18And then I left for work
03:20But when I got to work
03:22You text me saying that your phone was getting switched off
03:26I hear
03:27Oh stop it
03:28Sorry, sorry
03:29It was just
03:30It was just there
03:32You made me cry
03:33Sorry
03:34I can't stop
03:35It was there
03:37Stop it, I can't even hug you
03:40What's grandma doing to mummy?
03:44The doctor said that give it about six weeks before I do anything over exerting
03:56I think it's too early
03:58I mean it's great you're getting back together
04:00I think it, you know, I'd love to see the band, see all them others
04:03But I think it's too early for you
04:05I really do
04:07I'll have to make it work, I need to make it work
04:12It's not just Michelle and Liberty X that need to be ready
04:24This week another pair of defunct supergroups face the challenge of reuniting
04:28As we get up close and personal with 9-1-1 and Bewitched
04:33In 1998, four Irish beauties with the collective Denim Fetish became one of history's biggest girl bands
04:40They smashed UK chart records, bagged four consecutive number ones and jigged their way to over 3 million album sales in the process
04:52When the band split four years later, Sinead and Adele returned to Ireland while Kiwi and Lindsay remained close in London
04:59But relationships were fractured
05:04Adele and Sinead's friendship fell apart
05:06I felt like my wife was leaving me, that's what I actually felt like
05:10My intention was never to kind of hurt somebody and I did
05:14Lindsay battled to find her new identity
05:17The ending of the band was a blur
05:19Whilst Kiwi struggled to come to terms with life outside her twin's shadow
05:24Why I was the dancer, why I was the joker, because I just wanted to be seen
05:28I wanted to make sure that people actually knew there was two of us with the same face
05:40But before their big reunion can move forward, Adele and Sinead have flown to London
05:45All four girls are about to meet up at Lindsay's house for the first time in six years to face their issues
05:51I feel sick, I'm really nervous and I don't know why
05:57We're just like waiting for the buzzer to go because there should be here any second
06:03I do feel, I feel very nervous now
06:06I don't know what to expect
06:07Is today going to be fun?
06:09Is it going to be emotional?
06:10Will there be tears?
06:11Will there be anger?
06:12I'm not sure
06:13I don't know if I'm changing my mind
06:17Like I was in the car on the way here going
06:19Oh, I don't know
06:20Do I want to do this?
06:21Will I get out?
06:22No, I won't get out
06:23No, I won't get out
06:24No, I won't get out
06:25It's been so long since we've been together as four
06:27I don't know how the chemistry is going to be between us
06:34Hello
06:36Hi
06:41Hi
06:43Oh my god, you look fabulous
06:46You okay?
06:50You okay?
06:51Good to see you
06:52Do you have a mirror?
06:57Can we see us all in your hallway mirror?
06:59You look like Corey
07:02You look like Corey
07:03You look like Corey
07:04I'm Jim
07:05I'm Jim
07:06I'm Jim
07:07I'm Jim
07:08Weird
07:09Weird
07:10Weird
07:13The big reunion gig is edging closer
07:17And with so much water under the bridge
07:19There's lots to discuss
07:20Are you excited?
07:22I'm just constantly feeling nervous
07:24Yeah, it's the fear of the unknown, isn't it?
07:26We don't know how it's going to work
07:27We don't know
07:28I do
07:29I'm out front now, ladies and gents
07:30Sorry to tell you
07:31When Bewitched imploded in 2002
07:33Even the powerful bond between twins Kiwi and Adele
07:35Was stretched
07:50Kiwi stayed in London while Adele returned to Ireland
07:54Life has turned out well for Adele
07:56She part owns a children's animation business
07:59And is happily married with kids
08:03When I met my husband, my cousin set us up on a blind date
08:07And the second I arrived, the second I saw him
08:09I couldn't believe it
08:10I was just like
08:11Oh my God, is that my blind date?
08:12I just thought he was gorgeous
08:13How are you doing, buddy?
08:14No way ahead of us, did she?
08:15Look, your pizza's amazing
08:16Edel might be happy with pizza and movie night now
08:30But life's had its ups and downs over the last ten years
08:33When the band ended, we all actually had an identity crisis
08:38Everybody did
08:39Kiwi fell into a very, very deep depression
08:42She couldn't find who she was
08:44And that's really difficult
08:45It's not nice not knowing who you are
08:47It's actually quite lonely
08:51I just became Kiwi from Bewitched
08:53So when that was snatched off me
08:55I was like, well, who am I?
08:57I didn't, I was like, I actually don't know who Kiwi is
09:00I didn't discuss my state of mind with anybody
09:03I didn't at that point
09:04And I didn't for the next five years
09:09If you did go out for a coffee or go to Sainsbury's
09:11And people were looking at you
09:13At times inside my head
09:15I was going, what the fuck are you looking at?
09:21I was in London one weekend
09:23And we were in a car on the way home from a club
09:25And Kiwi just started screaming in the back of the cab
09:28The cab man, seeing what a state I was in
09:31And he pulled over on the road
09:33And we all got out of the car
09:34And Kiwi was just screaming
09:35In the middle of a London street
09:36Just, just screaming
09:37I was like, I can't even remember what she was screaming
09:46I just remember her being heartbreaking
09:49And I just remember saying to her
09:51Okay, you know what, you need help
09:53This is not enough for me to help you
09:55I couldn't say it out loud
09:57I was waiting and hoping that somebody would say it to me
10:00Because the words were just too big
10:02To get out of my mouth
10:04I couldn't reach out
10:05And just couldn't say to someone
10:07I need help
10:08I guess I was a ticking bomb
10:10And the bomb exploded
10:12While Kiwi was having a meltdown
10:20Idel was planning for the biggest day of her life
10:23It was a day neither Lynch would ever forget
10:28She was a maid of honour at my wedding
10:30And rightly so
10:31She was everything to me
10:32And it was a really difficult day for her
10:35When I think of Idel's big day
10:37I was pretty
10:38I wasn't fully there
10:39I was putting on a face
10:40Trying to
10:41Trying to be there for her
10:42On the biggest day of her life
10:43And I was going
10:45The feelings were so conflictive
10:46Because I knew how much she was struggling
10:47And I'm trying to be so happy for myself
10:48Which I actually was
10:49Naturally
10:50Because I'd met the love of my life
10:51But yet so unhappy
10:52Because the first love of my life
10:53Is falling to pieces
10:54And when I
10:55When I think about it now
10:56I hate that I wasn't there for her
10:57Like I'd like to be
10:58I would like to be
10:59Completely engrossed in her day
11:00And enjoy it
11:01And enjoy it
11:02And enjoy it
11:03And enjoy it
11:04And enjoy it
11:05Every minute
11:06But I wasn't
11:07And I know desperately
11:08She wanted to give a shit
11:09But she couldn't
11:10Sorry
11:11I have a picture
11:12And it's a lovely picture
11:13And it's a lovely picture
11:14And I'm not happy
11:15I'm not happy
11:16Because I've met the love of my life
11:17And I'm not happy
11:18Because I've met the love of my life
11:19But yet so unhappy
11:20Because the first love of my life
11:21Is falling to pieces
11:22And when I
11:23When I think about it now
11:24I hate that I wasn't there for her
11:26Like I'd like to be
11:27I would like to be
11:28Completely engrossed in her day
11:29And enjoying every minute
11:30But I wasn't
11:31And I know desperately
11:32She wanted to give a shit
11:33But she couldn't
11:34Sorry
11:35You can see the back of me
11:36And we're hugging each other
11:37But it's
11:38It's quite a
11:39It's a really nice picture
11:40But you can see the struggle
11:42In the picture
11:43That I'm going through
11:44It's almost like
11:45It's almost like
11:46I'm gripping onto her
11:48Myself and Adele
11:49Know what's going on
11:50In that picture
11:51It's just like
11:52You can see the
11:53Yeah
11:54You can just see the struggle
11:56It was hard
11:59It was sad
12:01It was sad
12:02Since the wedding
12:09Kiwi slowly got her life
12:11Back on track
12:12When I had my breakdown
12:14I went into counselling
12:15And I started to understand
12:16Some of where I went wrong
12:18Some of where I got lost
12:20And because I did
12:22And because I did
12:23I ended up finding my strength again
12:24And becoming a whole person
12:26I'm studying counselling
12:28Which I absolutely love
12:30Really really passionate about it
12:31I'm in my last year
12:33For me counselling was a gift
12:35And I just want to be able to pass that gift on
12:37As well as studying counselling
12:43Kiwi also volunteers for a charity in her spare time
12:47Hi Archie
12:48Hello Archie
12:49My name is Kiwi from Make-A-Wish Foundation
12:51And I'm Caroline
12:53We're here to find out what your wish is going to be
12:56We can't actually give those children extra days onto their life
12:59But we can give them life into their days
13:01Which is really nice
13:02And it is really special to be part of
13:08And she's rekindled her passion for pop
13:10By singing lead in a covers band
13:15How's this any different now from doing it from in the past with you
13:18When you're on the witch?
13:19I get to sing
13:20Out loud
13:21Out the front
13:22I'm a lead
13:23Guys thank you very much for having us with you tonight
13:25Enjoy your rest tonight
13:29Now standing taller than ever
13:33Kiwi even finds time to be a stilt walker
13:35With her other sister Naomi
13:40My little sister is a fire performer and a stilt walker
13:42And she went get up on stilts if you want
13:44I said fine
13:45So I did
13:46And I still do it now
13:47Because it's a laugh
13:48And I get to work with my sister
13:49And hang out with her and get paid
13:54Coming up
13:55With the big reunion looming
13:57Sinead and Adele
13:58Attempts to heal old wounds
14:01It was such a hard time
14:02To lose you
14:03It was so hard
14:05Like it really didn't break my heart for years
14:099-1-1 confront the demons that blew them apart
14:11At the height of their success
14:15Just sat there with the you know
14:16With this kind of half bottle of Jack Daniels
14:17And this strips of tablets and just thought you know
14:22I might as well end it now
14:24And five get a bit drunk and disrespect someone else's furniture
14:29The girls from bewitched are back together for the first time in six years
14:48But with the Hammersmith Apollo concert looming
14:50Putting differences aside is proving harder than they thought
14:53It's making me feel really weird
14:56Yeah
14:57What's weird is we don't feel like a unit
14:59That's what it is
15:00It's like we're all sitting here
15:02Very separate
15:03Very individual
15:04And that's
15:05I don't know how to be
15:06I don't know how to be
15:07This singular
15:09In this
15:10This situation
15:11Situation
15:18When bewitched shut up shop in 2002
15:21Sinead and Adele's friendship also came to an end
15:24And emotions are still raw
15:27My biggest anxiety about doing this
15:29There's only one
15:30And it's Sinead I think
15:32It's just how I'm going to feel about being in her person again
15:35She was everything to me
15:38It was like, you know, a marriage
15:40Or really a relationship
15:41And saying, you know what
15:42I love you to pieces
15:43But I just need time by myself
15:45On my own
15:46I need to figure out who
15:48You know, I am without you
15:53Since leaving the band behind
15:54Sinead has rediscovered herself
15:56But despite being happily married with kids in Ireland
15:59Her fallout with Adele still weighs heavy
16:02After a while they wanted to actually continue
16:07And try and get another record deal
16:09Yeah, I remember that
16:10And then
16:11No one else was going
16:12I remember Adele came down
16:13And we sat out in the garden
16:14And
16:15Erm
16:16I kind of think she knew then
16:18That I think I wanted to leave
16:21And I think that was the hardest part
16:23Yeah, yeah
16:24Yeah
16:25I know, that was a very emotional time for you
16:26I know that
16:34It's like, he always called it a fallout
16:35Which sounds so royal
16:37But it wasn't that royal
16:38It was like a slip away or something, you know
16:41Yeah, I don't know
16:42It just feels weird
16:45How do you feel hearing her say that?
16:47I feel like I've said everything and, you know
16:50There isn't another explanation
16:56Like, I don't feel nervous
16:58I don't feel uncomfortable
16:59I don't feel anxious
17:01Do you know what I mean?
17:02In
17:03I think that's
17:04I think that's what feels weird for me
17:05Because I can tell
17:06I can feel that from you
17:07And I can tell
17:08That you are
17:09You're already comfortable with whatever we are
17:10Or we're not
17:12And I'm not there yet
17:13And the more I see of you
17:14And the more
17:15That your personality reminds me of
17:19What I loved
17:20The more I'm afraid I'm going to want from her
17:22Do you know what I mean?
17:25But she doesn't want to give it to me
17:26So that's what I'm most afraid about
17:28I'm like, why am I throwing myself in here
17:30To get so emotional about it?
17:31Because it was such a hard time
17:33To lose you
17:34It was so hard
17:36Like, it really did break my heart for years
17:43It's like
17:45I would be afraid
17:46That it would
17:47Get too intense again
17:49Because
17:50What's so scary about that though?
17:52Because I just
17:53I think I just lost
17:54Who I was
17:55I didn't know who I was
17:56I don't know
17:57I just don't think
17:58I don't think any
17:59It could get back to that intensity anyway
18:01Because it was just you and me
18:02I don't think that's even what I'm asking for yet
18:04Well I just don't
18:05I don't have any preconceptions
18:06Of what it may or may not be
18:08Yeah
18:09But it's very emotional
18:10It's weird
18:12After years apart
18:16And with scores unsettled
18:18Simply turning the smiles back on
18:20May be an impossible process
18:23Another flip side to how I felt
18:25A lot of the time was lonely
18:26Because I was
18:27You know the lead singer
18:28And very much
18:29You know in touch with the business side
18:31Probably more than anyone else
18:32You guys understand each other
18:34But no one understood me
18:36So it made me feel quite lonely at times
18:38It's funny because I can hear you saying
18:39You three
18:40You three
18:41And for me that's not right
18:42That's not how you felt
18:43No
18:44Because I was a twin
18:45In the band and living in my twin's shadow
18:48Yeah
18:49I was jealous of what you were doing
18:50Yeah
18:51But I didn't realise
18:52Yeah
18:53What you were doing was actually quite high pressure
18:54Being a lead singer
18:55Absolutely
18:56I've thought of that since as well
18:58We are different people now
18:59We all had our little roles in the band back then
19:03And I don't feel like that person anymore
19:06So I know for myself
19:08I'm not going to be
19:10I'm not going to be slipping back into a role that I
19:13That I did ten years ago
19:19Over the last ten years it's been all changed for the band's quiet girl Lindsay
19:24When Bewitched hung up their denim jackets her life was suddenly thrown into chaos
19:29In the space of a year my mum died and the band ended
19:37And so my life just did
19:39360
19:43And last year Lindsay's marriage to 911's Lee hit the rocks
19:49We're not together anymore
19:50We're still friends
19:54There's only so much grieving and healing you can do and then you have to go on with life
19:58You know then you have to pick yourself up and go
20:00Okay
20:01What's next?
20:04I threw myself back into work actually
20:07I decided to try something very different
20:10And I went and trained as an actor
20:15I went to drama school for two years
20:17I am officially an unemployed actress
20:23And she'll be exposing her talents in an upcoming movie
20:28To Josephine
20:41Lindsay's made a fresh start
20:42But her thespian friends are mesmerised by tales of her pop past
20:48These are boxes which I haven't looked through for years
20:53I don't know what's in them but it says storage Lindsay's denim
20:58Oh
21:01I like that thing
21:02What do you have to do dance routines in them?
21:07Oh I need this
21:09Oh that's got my name on it
21:13Put the denim down
21:14Now back with the band the new Lindsay finds the confidence to confront an old issue
21:31Were you guys unhappy all the time?
21:33Like from day one?
21:34I felt very alone in the band
21:35Yeah
21:36A lot of the time
21:37And I felt like because
21:39I was probably the quieter one
21:40Really quiet
21:41I was a bit more placid
21:42So quiet
21:43And I slipped into a role that was
21:47I didn't recognise
21:48Like I was such a confident and outgoing person before I got into the band
21:52And in the band I felt overwhelmed by you guys
21:56I felt overwhelmed
21:57By the three of us?
21:58Yeah, yeah, yeah
22:00I felt like if I had an opinion or a feeling about something that I felt like it was going to be seen as being rude or wrong
22:12Who made you feel like that?
22:13Um
22:14You did sometimes
22:15That's a big thing to say
22:16That somebody makes you feel like something and not that you
22:20Reacted to that in doing that
22:22You know what I mean?
22:23You're saying that I made you feel like that
22:26I'm a strong person
22:27But I'm not as opinionated
22:29And I'm not as quick off the mark to get in there with my opinion
22:32I don't feel the need to do that
22:35I don't feel like
22:36You know unless
22:38Sorry am I cutting you off?
22:41No go on
22:42When you say that I made you feel like that
22:44But yet you're saying I was in a band with three strong characters
22:47But it was only me that you're referring to
22:52I suppose in general
22:54You know you were the strongest
22:56You know even though Lindsay's saying oh other strong people
22:59But you were the strongest
23:00You were the most opinionated
23:02And that's probably
23:04Do you know what I mean?
23:05That's I think where that's coming from
23:08It almost felt like there wasn't a point
23:10Because
23:12You would win the conversation anyway
23:14You would put your opinion would win the conversation anyway
23:17So I felt like well
23:18Why would it win?
23:19Because that's because
23:20Because of your character
23:21Because of how strong
23:22Because I would win it or because you would give up in the end?
23:24Well exactly
23:25Well yeah either way
23:30How's everyone feeling now?
23:34I'm feeling a little bit different than when I walked through the door
23:36I was nervous coming in and emotional about Sinead and I
23:38And I feel like over this chat that now I think you and I need to chat
23:39While Sinead is out of the room, Lindsay and Adele attempt to thrash things out
23:43I am still feeling like that you think a lot of it is my fault although you're
23:44I know you're kind of trying to change the words as you go along but I am feeling off you that you think a lot was my fault
23:48And I'm feeling a little bit
23:49I wouldn't say that
23:50No, don't put words in my mouth because I wouldn't say that
23:51Don't put words in my mouth because I don't say that
23:52I don't say that
23:54That's just you
24:03I don't say that
24:05That's just what I really want to do
24:06I need to chat
24:07While Sinead is out of the room, Lindsay and Adele attempt to thrash things out
24:09of trying to change the words as you go along but i am feeling off you that you think a lot was my
24:13fault and i'm feeling a little bit no i i don't like don't put words in my mouth because i wouldn't
24:18say fault i wouldn't say it was your no i didn't put words i said you're feeling that you're not
24:22actually putting the words i'm just telling you how i'm what i'm feeling right now yeah sorry
24:30there's so much more to me but you didn't show me that much more no we didn't have a
24:34relationships that's that's what i mean now lindsay and idel's relationship is under pressure
24:41for a second time serious doubts about the reunion have started to creep in i feel like we've kind of
24:49only hit the tip of the iceberg it could go either way do i want to do this do i actually want to get
24:57back into enriched getting to rehearse and getting on the stage i'm not sure we'll get there i'm doubtful
25:04coming up we look at whether the boys from 911 have had their bodies shaken by life out of the
25:12spotlight i had stitches in my head lee had like carry me to like the hospital i was in a proper state
25:19and we examine what the trio have been up to since they split 13 years ago what was you doing cocaine
25:35with just weeks to go until the big reunion concert at london's hammersmith apollo
25:40we're probing the reality of life after fame for our one-time mega stars
25:50with their very own brand of babyface charm and break dancing brawn womanizing party boys 9-1-1 became
25:57one of pop's major forces in the mid-90s but at their peak they squandered the chance of prolonged
26:02fame and fortune committing commercial suicide by walking away from their multi-million pound record
26:07deal go to bed and i just start crying i just felt this like overwhelming sadness for me it was it
26:26was an it was an excuse basically to get the alcohol out and i didn't have to worry about it didn't have
26:30to answer to anybody i think it's a long overdue that we need to sit down and probably talk about
26:34talk about all the issues we kind of had
26:42i've gone into this meeting with the boys totally open-minded
26:47ask me anything and i'll be truthful about it so bring it on yeah i'm i'm really looking forward to it
26:52i'll give you my opinion and and and say what i need to say if they don't like it then that there's
27:01not a lot i can do about that we never used to chatting 9-1-1 about any of our problems or anything
27:09so it's a bit nerve-wracking really because you don't know what's going to come out like you might hate me
27:14it's been a long time i don't think we sat together for a meal for about 10 years 12 years probably
27:26right what are you thinking about the uh like the reunion the reality is i don't care about any of the
27:34bands it's it's more about the three of us and what you know what we can achieve between the three of
27:40us i thought like at the beginning we were like so tight as a as a group like we were working so many
27:46long hours we didn't have a day off in free like something like 10 days off in three years we had
27:51and i think in the end that took its toll and i remember the last nine months you could tell
27:55i must admit i couldn't be doing when you're both a pair of bellens i just had enough i just want to
28:00keep away i felt we were slowly going down and i thought it's it's a natural point for us to get
28:10to get out of here i remember doing smtv and jimmy you couldn't even stand up no i used to
28:17you used to come in pissed whenever we used to do stuff like well he obviously doesn't give a
28:20shit anymore so it's like what we're gonna do you were knocking around with a bunch of
28:24fucking plebs you know all them they were dickheads and it was as if you didn't give a
28:29shit about me and lee you didn't talk to us and you're going away but then you turn up to smtv
28:36and be absolutely bladded
28:43by the time 911 imploded at the turn of the millennium jimmy's excessive behavior had taken its
28:48toll on the band and was spiraling out of control
28:54well the biggest thing was was just not having your two best friends there that were
29:00you know played a huge huge role in your life for all those years and um your only answer to
29:08replacing him was the empty bottles on the floor so i i just spent my time kind of just
29:14drinking myself silly so yeah it was a sad time
29:23back to the old days let's get some songs done
29:28jimmy's rediscovered his love of music with his old 911 producer really simple
29:32but things could easily have turned out very differently
29:41to me you seem like a different person today than you were 10 years ago i remember i used to
29:45just you know wake up and it'd be a case of well i've got nothing to do but uh in order to kill the
29:52pain and the depression i just opened a bottle of wine in the morning yeah yeah
29:55so how much we drink in a day averaging probably i reckon probably 10 bottles a day and you can't
30:03physically drink anymore with time on his hands and a pop star bank account things went from bad to
30:12worse when i went seeking uh cocaine which is what i was you know what i was kind of using you see
30:19some things you just think what am i doing and it just got worse and worse and i just got to a point
30:26where um i just thought you know i didn't i didn't really want to be here anymore and there was there
30:32was no point in you know there was nothing left for me and yeah i just sat there with the you know
30:37with this kind of half bottle of jack daniels and this strips of tablets and just thought you know
30:44i might as well end it now um and it was very dark it was very i don't know just it just felt as though
30:53the room was just full of demons the only saving grace that saved me was that about thinking about
31:00your family and and what you're leaving behind you had no idea mate i've no idea you've been through that
31:07from the depths of despair house husband jimmy has since found salvation and a reason to live my life
31:18now is is complete different past all the dark days and all our businesses yeah i'm married a beautiful
31:26wife and three kids you know i love it it's just it's normal everyday life but i think it's stuff that
31:32people have done over the years that we never got to do it gives me a reason to get up every morning
31:39and think those smiles it's just oh it just melts you
31:51only now after all these years can jimmy bring himself to discuss the darker days with his bandmates
31:56see we didn't know about this like do we we could see obviously at the end of 9-1-1 you were
32:03hanging out with the wrong crowd you were getting involved in
32:06that you shouldn't have been getting involved did you do drugs not in the band i just can't see you
32:11doing drugs i don't understand what jokes was you doing cocaine you're scag we're knocking about with
32:23druggies well yeah well not knocking about with them but like that's where you went that's where
32:27you went to get what you need i want to look at him it's like jim
32:34you know i look back at it now and i think yeah i'm quite happy to accept the responsibility of like
32:40probably probably being a knob i don't i feel then the day if we've all would have been as close that
32:46would never have happened and i feel like guilt the end of the day it only took a conversation
32:50it took one phone call between me me and you or jimmy you know lee and all that and you'd never have
32:56done all that it upsets me
33:04do you think we'll get close again all right don't you well i just think that
33:10you know from your perspective you're very closed off as in emotions i think you can see from just
33:16today that i am more open i've ever been no you probably actually yeah miles more open i speak
33:22more about my feelings and stuff and never did but didn't you have a like uh like anxiety and yeah
33:27i was staying up all night i was losing the plot i didn't like walking into rooms if i was walking
33:33through a pub or anything i got nervous i couldn't go out into public i fucking ate you know i got
33:41uncomfortable with the old fame thing i was struggling when 9-1-1 ended spike's confidence
33:48was annihilated when he suffered a brutal life-changing experience i just want to be back in 9-1-1 where
33:54everything was done for you it's first time out the bubble i went home to warrington and left me
34:00mates walked around the corner and got mugged off a coach load of out of towners like saying oh it's that
34:05now in one puff i had stitches in my head and a couple of days later my head just blew up i just
34:11went green and everything lee had like carried me to like the hospital i was in a proper state
34:16i think that sent me over the edge and uh i didn't i probably didn't leave me like me place for about a
34:22year spike's attack unlocked some deeper psychological issues
34:32because we were always in hotels i didn't feel comfortable in big rooms like living in big rooms
34:37so i had to live in apartments and all that i couldn't face getting a house because it just felt
34:41too big for me and i couldn't get used to living in a normal kind of place it was like weird i just
34:48wanted my hotel room spike had various business ventures including a theater school and flogging
34:56key rings his girlfriend sammy has been helping him deal with his fears do you reckon like the agoraphobia
35:02will come back with it uh i think i'm a lot stronger this time i think so and i think i can
35:08cope with it now but it's still a worry there was a point when we were living together and stuff and
35:13i could tell you were down you just didn't want to go out anywhere the curtains were drawn for days
35:20you know what it's like when we were out do you know we'd be in a restaurant or something and
35:23someone would say are you from 9-1-1 you know i couldn't eat then it's that kind of uncomfortable
35:28feeling i have and that's what i don't want at least you think you know what you're going into this
35:32time yeah that's what's worried and one way of finding out and everything coming up lee reveals the
35:43reality behind his pop star mask quite draining actually really trying to put on this like real
35:49confident front all the time and watch out london five are out on the lash for the first time in
35:55over a decade with first rehearsals just around the corner 9-1-1 have decided to have a heart to
36:10heart for the first time since they split the floodgates are now completely open for me the last
36:18six months of 9-1-1 mentally i was just completely fucked up and to be honest i guess when when i knew
36:27it was going to end i thought you know i cannot wait till it ends because my head's going to explode
36:34when i woke up the day after we'd split up i felt i just felt relief and i didn't really
36:46i didn't really think i really missed this not yet i didn't but it would come
36:51since 9-1-1 split in 2000 lee's found himself battling to come to terms with the emotional impact
37:04of a serious childhood illness it's funny because it's only i'd say the last two to three years is
37:12the time that i've only started dealing with my feelings from having cancer which is just crazy
37:21like i think that is when my issues with how i look and
37:26people making comments that's when it started to affect me
37:36tough
37:42lee became a total recluse by his own admission he closed the curtains and played video games for 10
37:50years now he swapped a lifetime spent in front of the camera for the comfort of a career behind the
37:55lens maybe that that tells you something then someone else do star jumps in front the camera for a change
38:05i just needed to get something to focus on and
38:08and sort of get passionate about again i guess and i'm loving it i'm absolutely loving it
38:13there you go perfect he did actually used to be on posters on my bedroom wall
38:18so do i look old and haggard now compared to the poster no i still recognize
38:27at the time when i had all these different insecurities about how i looked and
38:31confidence self-esteem i couldn't understand them but
38:34the more i looked into them after the band and stuff it all made sense
38:40it's quite draining actually really trying to put on this like real confident front all the time
38:46because that's what people want to see as well they don't want to see um somebody's maybe struggling
38:51with it looking at me with that picture i can i can feel those issues i had back then and stuff and
38:58you know i maybe look confident and stuff in the picture but i know reality was i wasn't the most confident
39:12in 2006 lee married lindsay from bewitched but recently their relationship has ended
39:19we just mutually decided to separate a year ago and so hard for both of us
39:30how are you feeling now that you're going to be spending more time with lindsay
39:33in rehearsals and things like that i guess my mind is going to be on the the rehearsals but
39:40every time i see lynn's obviously my mind will go back to me and her
39:53we want each other to be happy and we're just friends
39:58with everyone's individual issues now out in the open and first rehearsals looming
40:10911 have made their first positive steps
40:15i think it's been quite a bit of a surprise and a bit of a shock to be honest with all all three of us
40:21just kind of opening up and just talk about stuff that
40:24you would never kind of talk about in any previous kind of meetings or
40:29it's obvious in it do you know what i mean that spark is there you know it you can feel it being
40:35together with your boat you can feel that we're ready to go again i think the fans want to see us
40:40doing whenever they come and see us back and they're doing a live tour they want to see us doing that again
40:45and it's like we're 40 year old who cares let's just do exactly what we used to do back then
40:50and show that we can still do it cheers for being fucked up hey i think we are
40:56fucked up actually but you know what who gives a shit
41:06last week former pop tearaways five got together for the first time in six years
41:10now richie is nipping back to australia before rehearsals and the lads are sending him off the
41:18only way they know how with an epic night out
41:25we're gonna go and have a couple drinks i think catch up and it's rich's last night as well so
41:30it'd be good to have a little catch up before he disappears and we may not never see him again
41:34all right right i'm ready you know what when you're down always go left you know where we're going yeah
41:45here we go yeah boys are back in town yeah
41:51to this mad journey to this mad journey yeah
41:54he's getting warmed up mate just getting warmed up
42:10when you're down anyway right i just want to say this i know we've had banter
42:40i know we take the piss out of each other i know we've had our ups and downs but i just want
42:44you all to know whatever happens from this day on i do love you all right that was possibly
42:51the nicest thing you've ever said yes yeah and because it's true i'll say one thing have i got
42:57pizza in my teeth no you haven't no yes you got a pizza face i'd like to say it doesn't matter all
43:04my problems i had with a guy i would just like to raise a glass to someone that's not here jane
43:10to jane good on you browner browner browner browner browner good on you john
43:16such a weird breakup and we owe and we owe each other this
43:21your moment yeah we do oh man for no other reason than to get up on stage and have a
43:28one laugh to richie oh bless you boys that's been great having you to our aussie mate
43:39bye bye boys with the power to rocking
43:42fucking madness let's get out of here
43:44next time on the big reunion
43:55the clock's ticking and it's time for the band to get down to business on the first day of rehearsals
44:02you've got like hard shoes soft shoes contemporary
44:05hello skinny with michelle now on the road to recovery liberty x go for a night out
44:15it's funny because people people go i am how are you feeling i am trying my hardest not to look
44:22boil it and five search for a new member reaches boiling point oh i'm feeling a little bit like edgy
44:29right about now man how many fuck it i'm having a break fuck this shit get out of my way
44:33it's too much hard work
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