Explore the complex and often tumultuous relationships of couples navigating life after one partner's release from prison. This episode delves into the unique challenges and emotional hurdles faced as they try to build a future together. Witness the drama, passion, and difficult adjustments as love is tested outside the walls.
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00:00:00Previously on Love After Lockup.
00:00:03Ow!
00:00:04Me and Demadric got together when I was in high school.
00:00:07What's up, mama? Give me a hug. You doing all right?
00:00:09Yeah.
00:00:10Joela is still in love with Demadric.
00:00:13Do me and her got anything going on?
00:00:14I don't know. You tell me.
00:00:15Demadric's cheated on me with her twice.
00:00:17Today, I'm going to make a promise to be with you forever.
00:00:19This is more of a promise that we will get married.
00:00:22I've got to engage to Kiana.
00:00:23Who wants to play with who feelings?
00:00:25I have some messages in Demadric's phone.
00:00:29He's been entertaining his baby mama.
00:00:31Get your and get the hurry up.
00:00:33What's up, beautiful?
00:00:36Who are you talking to all morning?
00:00:38You talking to your ex?
00:00:39I'm blocking Alex on his Facebook.
00:00:40Can I come see you tomorrow?
00:00:41Okay.
00:00:42Let me check this for his location.
00:00:43He's a .
00:00:44Alex lives in Mart, bro.
00:00:46Dang.
00:00:47I'm not doing the anymore.
00:00:49I've got to go.
00:00:50You and Brian, he's going to live with you?
00:00:53Yes.
00:00:54I'm going to have children with him and everything.
00:00:55I'm so excited.
00:00:57So I just wanted to give y'all some ground rules.
00:01:00He needs to be back here by 3 o'clock.
00:01:02Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.
00:01:03I'm about to take you to a strip club.
00:01:05You're trying to see where you're at.
00:01:06I just told you I'm on my way home.
00:01:08I can't believe we're about to be out.
00:01:10I can't wait to see you and just hug you.
00:01:12All day.
00:01:13We're not in a relationship?
00:01:14No.
00:01:15He's lying about everything.
00:01:17It ain't nobody else.
00:01:18It's just me.
00:01:19It is somebody else.
00:01:20That's the end of you.
00:01:21I'm putting a little air tag on my car.
00:01:25I can see for myself where he going.
00:01:27No more, girl.
00:01:28You're pregnant.
00:01:29I'm scared.
00:01:30Where is he at?
00:01:31He had a vengeance.
00:01:32We got a lot of vengeance.
00:01:33Who are these girls?
00:01:34Why you ain't answer the phone?
00:01:35Why are y'all ladies leaving my...
00:01:37It's a wrap.
00:01:38Hey, babe.
00:01:40I thought we were, like, going to consummate things,
00:01:42but I wasn't feeling it.
00:01:44All right, call me when you're done.
00:01:45I'm not used to having someone watching everything that I do.
00:01:48What do you need all your contacts for?
00:01:50Maybe we can grab something and eat together.
00:01:52Whatever.
00:01:53We should go our separate ways.
00:01:55Like, you didn't even want a better life.
00:01:56No.
00:01:57I don't want to talk to you right now.
00:01:58Okay.
00:01:59Hi!
00:02:00Courtney and I have been dating for about six months now.
00:02:02We've spent no physical time together.
00:02:04I do.
00:02:06I never thought that I'd be dropping my bride off
00:02:08at a halfway house on my wedding night.
00:02:10Hey, baby.
00:02:11How you doing?
00:02:12It's just temporary.
00:02:13Temporary.
00:02:14We were acting kind of funny last night.
00:02:16It started making me ask questions.
00:02:18Maybe she's using drugs.
00:02:19We just got married and you don't trust me?
00:02:21I don't understand why we're at a sandwich shop for our first date.
00:02:23Are you broke?
00:02:24I just dang there shelled out, like, ten grand on you getting out.
00:02:27Wow.
00:02:3840!
00:02:40You're ungrateful as hell right now.
00:02:41You had sugar daddies that are giving you money all the time.
00:02:44That's not...
00:02:45And I know for a fact that you didn't get rid of them.
00:02:46Okay, okay.
00:02:47Maybe if you provided for me a little bit more, I wouldn't have to go to them.
00:02:50Take the bus.
00:02:51Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no.
00:02:52Go and go and go and go and go and go and go and go.
00:02:55.
00:02:56You.
00:02:57I didn't ask him for a single dollar when I was in prison because he knew I had people taking
00:03:07care of me.
00:03:09and he was totally cool with that and now all of a sudden he's not and he's throwing it in my face
00:03:13what kind of is that like this is the day after our wedding that's crazy i can be a single woman
00:03:20all day i have people who took care of me and provided for me in prison if you want to take
00:03:31that and call it a sugar daddy then that's on you i accumulated 25 000 roughly from
00:03:42the people who took care of me but i was in for 15 months and i spend anywhere from
00:03:4915 to 1700 a month for commissary hair products and snacks and food i only saved a 1400
00:03:58dollars why does it even matter like you're not giving it to me so what do you want me to do
00:04:07i thought i knew her but i didn't expect her to be this spoiled
00:04:11she never really talked about money like that we've been arguing all day
00:04:15i'm pretty bummed out the good thing about diamonds is the resale value stays high
00:04:28so
00:04:43barbie stop stop stop stop stop stop let me drive you home what is there to talk about will
00:04:49you don't trust me you obviously think i'm not worthy
00:04:56why are you demanding my money my wallet let me see your bank you're a broke boy what do you think
00:05:00that does to me i just don't know what to expect from me when i get in the car we're not talking
00:05:06fine your sandwiches are ready uh could we get those to go to go yes okay thank you so much
00:05:11this is not what i signed up for this is not how i want to spend the rest of our lives
00:05:22rushing in to marriage may have been a mistake for better or for worse i guess right
00:05:41last night was just draining i actually don't know where julius is right now i have no clue so he
00:05:50didn't come home last night
00:06:01your life is definitely overreacting i wasn't on night with them girls so like
00:06:07and she didn't have no reason to be tripping i know girls are gonna be involved he has to have
00:06:13girls in his videos and stuff i don't know it's gonna be hard to get used to being able to separate
00:06:19if it's work or you know something more than that if i would have did that to julius pulling up in his
00:06:26car with guys coming out not answering his call all day he would never let nothing like that fly
00:06:33i just feel like that he just don't respect me but it's just time for me to be standing up for
00:06:38myself and especially now that i'm pregnant if he can't set my boundaries then it's not gonna work
00:06:50man this smell good in here
00:06:54what's up babe
00:06:55where you been at was at drew house why you ain't text or called me last night where the food at
00:07:09i didn't know if he was coming or not you ain't come home
00:07:11you didn't come home last night because i was just chilling so you can't tell me you're chilling in
00:07:26andrew house that was my bad but it wasn't nothing though you gotta realize that this the career that
00:07:38i'm taking so like it's gonna be females at the studio sometime well why you can't communicate and tell
00:07:45me that they there you making it a secret i shouldn't have to pop up and see them
00:07:49i apologize for not communicating with you
00:07:56i got bigger stuff i need to talk to you about play like what i'm sure
00:08:11so what does this mean say i'm pregnant
00:08:25we pregnant yeah i'm pregnant we pregnant
00:08:33damn
00:08:36i don't know that's
00:08:37that's that's crazy i thought he was gonna be kind of more just like happy but nervous like i
00:08:46expect him to be nervous that's a lot for anybody but it's not like he didn't know it was a possibility
00:08:51we don't use protection so it's like you knew that could happen
00:08:57hey are you sure though yeah he don't too though you know sometimes they don't be right though it's right
00:09:03i'm pregnant i missed my period i've been nauseous and sick my boobs hurt i'm pregnant
00:09:15that's a lot man that's crazy i don't know what to say
00:09:21it is what it is i guess it is what you guess
00:09:25i mean that's what it is
00:09:30we got a lot going on right now we gonna be able to handle that yeah what you mean
00:09:36what other option we got
00:09:37it's here now so what is we gonna do
00:09:46we've only been serious for a certain amount of time and i just got out of prison not even a whole month
00:10:03i'm not really trying to have no kids right now
00:10:06i don't know what's the lie and what's the truth you literally left me and ran into someone else's arm
00:10:31i don't know who he's with what he's doing daddy gonna have to go to work soon all right what you
00:10:40doing all right i'll see you in a second you don't have to use over this how do you feel like i may have
00:10:47made a mistake
00:10:58these hundred dollar shirts you don't give a what they are do you know how much money i put in your
00:11:02books and this is what i get cheated on the
00:11:05i went through the magic's phone and i found out he was cheating with joela why did you cheat on me with her
00:11:24because when i was gone i gave you all my trust
00:11:28i made decisions off of what you did and you opened that door first you you started this platform
00:11:34you were young you don't think that's a little it doesn't matter it doesn't matter
00:11:38i did have a slip up while demodric was in the shoe because i found out that he was texting his
00:11:45baby mama so i saw he was entertaining someone so i started entertaining someone if you want to go
00:11:52fling and have your fun go do that that's not what i want to entertain me while you're doing my face
00:11:57that's what i'm getting but what i'm saying is that's what you did demodric
00:12:00demodric is definitely trying to justify his excuse with my wrongdoing but let's be for real if the
00:12:07roles were reversed you would have not been faithful you couldn't have even done it while we were
00:12:13together we can move forward if you want to but that's all on to you how are we gonna move forward
00:12:18when you keep reaching back you don't have that situation taken care of so how can you start a
00:12:23situation with me okay we separate it cool matter of fact hold on you want your ring back you know i
00:12:36want my grandma ring back if you don't want it matter of fact i'm gonna kill your wine first
00:12:42damn you couldn't hand it to me no you couldn't do right enjoy your evening
00:13:01joela is the mother of my kids giving a key on the ring definitely changed the momentum
00:13:06it's a lot more pressure on me a lot more weight so one day i kick it with joela and one thing led to
00:13:14another and that's how i went not proud of it there's definitely some uh regrets there
00:13:20i feel like a fool i feel embarrassed i feel betrayed i feel dumb
00:13:33oh man i'm sad
00:13:39this just isn't how i imagined it to be it's just very hard
00:13:44i just love him because love enough no
00:14:06this is at alex's house like i don't care anymore i don't give a
00:14:14this is at alex's house like i don't care if you don't care if you don't care if you don't care
00:14:19yes i did start hanging out with troy but we did not have sex while you and i were together
00:14:26and that is the truth at this point like i'm trying to differentiate what's a lie and what's the
00:14:32truth because everything you told me there was lies built into it so like at the end of the day how am
00:14:40i supposed to believe what you're saying now it's crazy that alex still denies everything and that
00:14:47she still can't take accountability for her actions and honestly i just it just makes me lose respect for
00:14:53her i heard the recording of her admitting that dude did y'all like every night or no
00:14:59we only have sex four times i don't like having sex with men who can't go longer than 38 seconds
00:15:06you're woman enough to do you know be woman enough to man up and and admit it
00:15:11like i was finna give you my all i was finna give you the world like a diamond for like scrap
00:15:16metal i don't understand that because as a man i did everything i was supposed to do i give you a
00:15:20fair chance like i did i gave you like 100 fair chance and i need you to like respect the fact that
00:15:26i'm really trying to make work with brooke because i'm trying to give her that chance now
00:15:32she wasn't there when you were locked up it was like i messed up once and you literally left me and
00:15:38ran into someone else's arms how the hell is that supposed to make me feel how do you think i felt in
00:15:44there obviously good because you left me to go to her jk is allowing brooke to push me out of his life
00:16:02i do not think that brooke deserves to be with jk he just deserves so much better
00:16:08i love that man and i believe jk loves me i think he just kind of covered it up
00:16:22it wasn't supposed to be like this it wasn't i gave you every piece of me you know
00:16:26i'm saying you shattered me bro i feel like you shattered me come here
00:16:38i don't want to you hurt me worse than i've ever been hurt in my life
00:16:45and like
00:16:45i just don't want to cry no more bro i don't want to hurt no more i just want to be happy i'm home
00:16:59i'm with my family you know what i'm saying like i'm trying to figure this out
00:17:03i have nothing in life like i have nothing all i have is my loved ones
00:17:08then go be happy james like if being happy is what you want then let me go because apparently
00:17:17i can't do that for you
00:17:25bro i'm on my way to all this house right now i left work early to do this i probably just lost my job
00:17:32over this dumb it sounds like he wants a cake and to eat it too well he had that cake but he ain't
00:17:39eating this one no more i'm done
00:17:45if i'm not trusting you what are we doing bye see you later are you gonna leave me with a card
00:17:51what is your plan i love you i'm not about to be no delivery boy so i need to support you in prison
00:17:58that's why you're in my presence i'm so over the
00:18:13michael said he couldn't do this okay then be done don't call me don't talk to me forget me then
00:18:21i don't want to hear what he's got to say because whatever he's going to say is bull
00:18:24you've done enough of this all year do something different
00:18:40i did not go well i didn't never thought it was gonna go well he didn't get mad exactly he got sad he
00:18:48got hurt i broke his heart and i don't know how to deal with that this is a total pattern for me
00:18:57i everything up that's good for me you know it's just like i cannot and will not promise him never to
00:19:05go back because there's a promise i've broken so many times to my closest people who i love unconditionally
00:19:13and i do love him and uh yeah i'm not gonna take him down with me
00:19:23i feel like i don't deserve a good happy healthy life because you know it's like the ugly duckling
00:19:29growing up to be you know some kind of princess it doesn't it doesn't make any it doesn't fit the
00:19:35story line it's not my destiny or whatever i can finish the story but i can't pick up the pen and
00:19:43not i mean write it at all it's already been written hi what do you see you oh my gosh
00:19:53where's jimmy oh well uh uh i just broke it off you just just like right before this yeah just right
00:20:00before oh wow um how do you feel like i may have made a mistake but like because you broke up with
00:20:08him or because yeah because he's kind of like the best thing has ever kind of happened to me but i don't
00:20:13think he was ever really you know what the attraction is the chemistry i never saw it like
00:20:19i just never saw you guys clicking like that yeah yeah well you were right i think it's for sure i just
00:20:25don't want to be in a relationship right now so it's not just jokes to anyone
00:20:33i think he cared for me but it's like he still wants to go news that's the whole thing
00:20:39i mean i seen his phone ding and it was his buddy calling him spencer so talk to spencer then yeah
00:20:47i don't even i can't even believe this is happening
00:20:51it's the thing it's the thing you can't take it back it's like guess what that's how you feel
00:21:00there you go i just wasted a year of my life on some somebody
00:21:06i envisioned i mean i envisioned a lot of things
00:21:09i have a whole i had a whole life prepared um
00:21:21that's the thing i i have no clue i'm still in shock i'm like what the just happened what
00:21:29like i don't know if i'm being punked
00:21:31i just think now that i look at it it was the whole thing maybe the whole thing was just a scam
00:21:43maybe that was his plan all along i don't know
00:21:50what do we need to get together like for real for real
00:21:53i do want to spend more time with you i know i know maybe tomorrow
00:21:55i don't know who he's with what he's doing daddy gonna have to go to work soon all right
00:22:11all right i'll see you in a second i'm trying to tear down these walls that you have up around your
00:22:15heart so we can build a life together i just want better for our kids well actually she's toxic i'm sure
00:22:25i don't care if you use my cat all right bro i'll get you on
00:22:47i can like a bitch
00:22:56he gotta get there nah i got you bro i got you my bad
00:23:01me and adrian was gonna go to a strip club come on go go go go go go in the heat of the moment
00:23:07hell yeah it was a good idea gosh yorlady hell nah that was some dumb ass
00:23:11it's over you even though we didn't go in i know brooklyn's still going to hit so
00:23:19i'm like 26 minutes away
00:23:37like that's not making sense
00:23:39bro it's traffic bro i'm gonna get there
00:23:47yeah all right yeah
00:23:52brian has an ankle monitor so if brian is not here on time then guess what he has to go back to
00:23:58the halfway house i'm asking you to be on time the system is actually to be on time and you're not
00:24:03taking either one of us serious so what are we doing here
00:24:09yo
00:24:14i don't know maybe we driving too fast i don't know
00:24:20what take it serious this is not a game hang up arm
00:24:25bro bro bro i don't understand the nonchalantness of everything that's going on
00:24:34these people can take away your freedom in a snap of a finger
00:24:38and then he pulling up in my grass
00:24:48what the
00:24:52why is he in my grass
00:24:55it's 3-0-1 and if they would have got to calling your phone then what
00:24:59i'm at home just like i'm at home right now bro you're about to really piss me off
00:25:03he ain't late he ain't late he was late he ain't late yes he is
00:25:06it's 3-1
00:25:073-1 you're supposed to be here at three get out my grass
00:25:10come close the door out my grass no problem take my phone
00:25:14you slogged up the process you are late see you later
00:25:20and then you just sit here letting him oh we're on time we're on time and you're not saying
00:25:24nothing you think it's funny bro get my
00:25:28anything else boss bro bye
00:25:33i'm irritating because i'm trying to make sure you get home on time
00:25:38so what y'all is doing once you go get close came back here where'd you go after the clothes store
00:25:44well he tried to take me somewhere like where you ain't going there
00:25:49you didn't go where a little club for what like a strip club first of all that don't even make
00:25:56sense you went outside to look at the building i cannot believe that this man pulled up to the
00:26:05strip club with my man with him is he crazy and i knew y'all was up to something because don't know
00:26:13man need three hours at the mall i don't want you with him that's not gonna happen that's my gas
00:26:23your friend just took you to a strip club and then you came in this bitch lying you came in here
00:26:28lying well you wasn't telling the truth you didn't say where you was at when you asked where i was at
00:26:32we were on the highway coming home bro talking about you holding out on the truth that's what's
00:26:36throwing me off how how i asked you where'd you where'd you go you said to get clothes and i came home
00:26:43and now it's i went to the strip club and i sat outside the strip club make that make sense
00:26:47whoa it was one second he ain't we ain't going that bitch i don't care how many seconds it was
00:26:52why you leaving that out and see and i said for all this i should have went in that
00:26:56bitch you probably did and you just holding out maybe i need to ask you 10 more times and then you'll
00:27:02answer it's about trust if i'm not trusting you what are we doing
00:27:13i'm feeling pretty bummed out this morning courtney and i had a pretty big blowout yesterday
00:27:20i'm worried she might re-offend and the fact that because of the interstate compact i don't get to
00:27:26take her back with me to sacramento today's my last day and all of that's kind of making me feel pretty
00:27:33insecure my plan is to get to her street and park and then just text her i'm hoping she wants to talk it
00:27:45out
00:27:59hey you look nice thanks i slept horribly last night you didn't return any of my calls
00:28:07i miss you yeah well i didn't really sleep well either we both said some that we shouldn't have
00:28:14said if we really love each other and i apologize i want nothing more than to have you in my life
00:28:20courtney but we can't do that if we don't try i'm just really stressed out
00:28:27i just feel really insecure about our relationship right now but whatever dude let's just go
00:28:40i can't believe will would think that i would jeopardize my freedom by using drugs
00:28:47it makes me feel like you got any plans today
00:28:50um no i had a couple plans what and maybe light some candles run a bath i mean
00:29:03i'm kind of still in the doghouse for how yesterday went this is not the type of stress that i need to
00:29:11be dealing with i haven't even been out for a whole week and like the things that i should be worrying
00:29:17about are my job or getting calls or doing things that are like a necessity that i need you're right
00:29:27and this is my last day here courtney we shouldn't fight like this i just want us to have a good day
00:29:33enjoy each other's company i'm hoping you're willing to do the same
00:29:39i'm not trying to spend the day mad at each other either
00:29:42i want that sweatshirt when you leave it's my favorite sweater but you're my favorite human
00:29:53if i'm going to be married to somebody i want to be able to work through anything
00:29:57i'd like to give this back to you if that's okay okay
00:30:02him and i are still learning each other and learning to trust one another but i mean
00:30:12if anything now he knows you definitely need punished for last night maybe timey yet
00:30:22you are to be judged for your punishments inside he knows my expectations and my worth
00:30:33we're in your rope salad since we're building trust
00:30:36i've never done it before this might start off as like a wholly unsexual experience we're gonna
00:30:44learn a little bit shibari is about giving over trust to your partner and i think that that's a
00:30:52really cool bonding tool i was never a boy scout so knots not really my thing that's crazy because we
00:30:57just tied the knot i had a moment of weakness where i didn't trust her i'm gonna try to
00:31:04to extend that trust now and in the future i was thinking if you take these ropes and come across
00:31:09you like this the distance is going to be rough this looks like some clothes i would wear i'm telling
00:31:14you you look pretty hot i feel pretty sported but i feel like we made a bond during this trip that
00:31:22i think is going to last for a lifetime
00:31:31you don't need no up you're fixing my arms up what i can't pay my bills and support another human
00:31:37i'll go get some real money right now i'm sure you're in shock i'm terrified i'm gonna be alone the
00:31:43rest of my life of course i'm broken you don't have to use them for this
00:31:56so much
00:32:09all right man i'm sorry i'm sorry
00:32:17i was just surprised at first caught me out of war when i'm happy
00:32:36i wouldn't want to have a baby with nobody else
00:32:43we good
00:32:48i grew up in a single mother household my mom she did it all on her own she didn't have like my
00:32:54dad's help or anything i really didn't really meet my dad so i was like 13 and even then he
00:33:00wasn't really in our house he just would come up here like every other summer that's just crazy
00:33:07it is crazy i love you though i love you too
00:33:12when he was locked up always talked about having kids he always talks about how he wants to have a
00:33:17son and push his son to go to college so they don't get caught up in like the street life
00:33:22but guys talk about wanting it and then it happens and they're just like
00:33:27i don't know they switch up so i don't know i i hope that he just sticks with what he was saying
00:33:31before now that i'm pregnant we need to get our together yeah for sure like i think you really
00:33:39need to go ahead and try to get that job and get your license you don't need no job you talking
00:33:44about you fixing my hours up what i said what i don't cut that because i already work full-time what do
00:33:52you mean i don't need no if i want to if i want to really go get some money i'll go get some real
00:33:59money right now i'm not about to be no delivery boy that's not me but we need a job i can't pay my
00:34:05bills and support another human i just got you don't have you don't support me at all what do you
00:34:10i need support you in prison what do you give me now a roof over your head i don't know i got
00:34:16a car to drive okay you don't support you but that's what i'm saying what are you saying
00:34:21you like what you talking about i bought you clothes boxes cool boxes i need more
00:34:27you want exactly so what are you talking about but i have my own money but you still with support i
00:34:32had to help you too so what are you talking about you put money on my books you got exactly more than
00:34:37the next one what are you talking about in the position you're in but make it you're not making
00:34:41sense you're acting like i don't do you're in my presence right now what are you talking about
00:34:49i'm so over this i swear to god no you took it there because at the end of the day you don't
00:34:56support me you don't do nothing for me but i still stick around and with you
00:35:02he just is so arrogant like that's why you're in my presence now like it's a privilege to be in my
00:35:07presence to have a woman that's willing to do all this for you to even give you money hurry get
00:35:12out come on i'm trying to go where are we doing it it's a privilege to have a woman like me
00:35:17i can't i can't even pay my school payment right now because of the
00:35:21while i was having him in jail you got the nerve to always like you don't do for me
00:35:25i'm already pregnant and emotional i work two jobs and i go to school and you got the nerd
00:35:30tell me to pick up more today what i don't even know what he's saying just bunch of bull
00:35:41are you gonna leave me with a card so i'm gonna have to spend like more than
00:35:45my earth thousand where the you're at i'm coming from a job search love put me in a liar you're at
00:35:53alex's house bro
00:36:11i'm mad sad i'm all of the above
00:36:14so what's up i just i'm in shock i don't know what to do well i'm sure i'm sure you're in shock
00:36:35michael's back in prison he was out for i think three weeks
00:36:39the only time he checked in with his parole officer was the day that i took him
00:36:46and then he only stayed at the halfway house that one night and he was gone all the stuff that
00:36:53he said is he doesn't want to leave his mom anymore and he was lonely like me and we talked
00:36:57about the loneliness and i'm like what about all that what does that not mean anything do you
00:37:06know if he's used oh yeah he used i mean he told me he used i did reach out to him one time and i
00:37:12asked him where he was at he said he was at his friend spencer's his response to me was pretty
00:37:18like i was bothering him so i was like okay i didn't have a plan b joey sweetie honey if i could take
00:37:28it away i would but i can't i just don't want me to go through all that oh god i know it's gonna be a process but
00:37:45i don't want to be i'm terrified that i'm never going to find that true love i'm terrified that no
00:38:06one's going to love me the way i love them
00:38:08you don't have to use over this you don't have to oh i know i don't have to get up over because
00:38:15that was the first thing i thought i was like no way would i use give him that that's the thing i'm
00:38:20in a good headspace other than him good it's a blessing in disguise i think i didn't think it was
00:38:26gonna work anyway he's a con i never trusted him and that's the other thing joey you trust people too
00:38:33easily i know i'm done i'm done crying over him i'm done being sad over good good you need to just
00:38:44best indicated thing and forget about him i've got to make some decisions and where i'm headed with
00:38:52my life without michael and i got to give up on the fairy tale but it's not going to ruin me i'm not
00:38:58going to let it because i have too much to look forward to my family loves me i have a great
00:39:05support system of friends that don't use the sad thing is is you know michael had all that that was
00:39:13all his too you know he had a seat at my table i'm at st anthony's work camp after i broke up with joey
00:39:23they started using that afternoon i did hook up a few times probably like once every other day or
00:39:30sometimes every day i don't know but probably only like 14 different people that's a guess though i don't
00:39:36know but i feel like i wasn't ready really to like give up my old ways or like i wanted a party still
00:39:44and i got in a collision like at a stop sign when the officer finally showed up i had a war
00:39:51i violated parole by moving out of my halfway house and missing appointments with my parole officer
00:39:58they blocked me for three years i'm kind of accepted this way of life already i kind of
00:40:03like amused to prison i really love joey i still love him and i still care about him i really had
00:40:10a lot of hopes for us joey i'm really sorry for the way things ended i wish you'd still talk to me
00:40:17because i really do love you i do cherish the time we had together and you are very special to me
00:40:24and who knows maybe something could happen in the future but i got to get this out of my system
00:40:33i don't know who he's with what he's doing daddy gonna have to go to work it's going all right
00:40:41all right i'll see you in a second all right i'm coming from a job search love
00:40:45put being a liar you're at alex's house bro i got you on a track i just want to be able to trust you
00:41:00i want to last forever this time i want to have kids get married all types of stuff with my daughter's
00:41:15father i just kept trying trying trying to a dead situation if it comes to light that me and brian's
00:41:24relationship is dead i will bury it you want to do all that but you complaining to me about three
00:41:31o'clock and i was here on time bro i complain about three o'clock because you have to
00:41:38be there on time i had to go through being out here by myself without you and since you've been here
00:41:45i can't see myself without you do you understand that so do you understand why i'm tweaking and i'm
00:41:52going the off because i'm not trying to go through that i appreciate you you feel me i understand
00:42:01that you care but you got to understand like bro my whole life i've been independent bro you
00:42:07know what i'm saying so for you to be all up the crack of my ass loki be throwing me off because it
00:42:13be like i'm not doing i'm just not trying to be up the crack of your ass okay i understand you
00:42:17explain it i get that i got you thank you brooklyn i appreciate you
00:42:26thank you i just feel as long as we always stay willing to work with each other
00:42:31and adjust to certain stuff that we do or don't like we'll be fine i started my period
00:42:37of course this is discouraging we've obviously been trying and it has not happened so i don't
00:42:46know bro i'm just tired of getting my hopes up it's gonna happen but you believe it's gonna happen
00:42:52it's gonna happen i believe it's gonna happen you can try a million times like i ain't going nowhere
00:42:57i'm happy where i'm at yeah you happy where you at but i know you want kids like i feel like i'm i'm
00:43:03i'm gonna let you down and that's scary in itself what if you know you get to a point where you like
00:43:11i want to go have a baby with somebody who can have a baby what if i can have a baby
00:43:17then we ain't gonna have no more kids we get there when we get there it's not nothing i wouldn't do for
00:43:25you or show you mm-hmm yeah yeah it's okay
00:43:44i don't like you
00:43:47i don't like
00:43:55good job you know what to do next uh that we have to bake it
00:44:09bestie loves my mom a lot and also me he takes care of both of us our dogs and himself too
00:44:19well we need to get the waffles a bowl no and that no a toaster oh
00:44:30you silly
00:44:32bestie and mommy i think they're just a good girlfriend and boyfriend
00:44:37because they kiss a lot and all that stuff
00:44:45it's breakfast time mommy
00:44:49y'all are so sweet
00:44:52it might sound crazy but if anything in prison it made me more positive don't make me a nice little
00:44:59drink like a lot of people in prison everything gets over with or people telling me not gonna get
00:45:05out of there or whatever the circumstances may be me i can let myself fall victim to that
00:45:10oh thank you i made it to try to go spread something positive to somebody else
00:45:18and i gotta just keep her saying that's my job and my objective is keep brooklyn saying
00:45:27this is so nice i mean i make all of it and you make all of it and what bestie helped me with or
00:45:35without a baby me and brian are gonna be good like putting us together it's like
00:45:40beyonce and jay-z power couple you feel me we got the whole family in here hi gg
00:45:48we have so much stuff to do because of like the lost time that we have had
00:45:55you might get your own i want a crazy wedding and at least two kids in the house that we
00:46:05plan to buy together more for me it's gonna be lit
00:46:09what does he get oh look look look look look she took it
00:46:29feels like i'm losing the will maybe i'm crazy for chasing
00:46:36the memories we had crazy for silence when i'm feeling sad crazy for loving you crazy for loving
00:46:47you so bad hey baby where the you're at i'm on the highway i'm coming from a job search love
00:46:58quit being a liar you're at alex's house bro i see it on your location you've been there for 45 minutes
00:47:06you see your location yeah yeah you are bro i got you on a tracker like am i a goddamn dog am i being
00:47:11chipped now or what you're literally just like the rest of them i'm gonna pull up look i'm already on my
00:47:18way to waco just meet me somewhere in waco or something bro i send you my location you are
00:47:27tracking me to alex's house is i'm on a ankle monitor you know i crave freedom
00:47:36i love brook but i really don't know where we going i don't know if it's forward if it's backward
00:47:45i'm trying to figure it out
00:47:50i don't know what you wanted so i just order nothing
00:48:07baby the only reason i went over there was to close that chapter of my life
00:48:21to let her know that i have a lot of chapters not closed
00:48:24i need her to know that i'm with you and that whatever i have her was dead
00:48:32i let her know that she had her chance when she called that up
00:48:42then you had to go to her house to do to her house
00:48:45and she it up and then i'm with you and i need her to respect her house to do it
00:48:49and i need her to respect that that i'm with you yeah and i need you to respect my wishes too
00:48:53i know which did not happen what did you really have going on over there
00:49:04i went in i said my piece i got it out the way and i came back out
00:49:16like i need you to know i love you and i choose you
00:49:18and i'm trying to prove it to you baby now i will go to see your next that's not the way to do it
00:49:26so in case you wondering he wants me to sit here and trust him but he turns around and he's
00:49:35knowingly breaking my trust and wants to sit here and act like it's not a deal like he was not even to
00:49:41be in contact with alex for any reason
00:49:48i'm over it
00:49:58baby
00:50:00not happening
00:50:05i'm sitting there trying to close these chapters of my life to tear down these barriers that you keep
00:50:09putting up with our relationship i'm trying to tear down these walls that you have up around your heart
00:50:13so we can move on so we can better our relationship so we can build a life together
00:50:18that's what i'm trying to do
00:50:21too late
00:50:24late what do you mean late
00:50:28jk absolutely has broken any little bit of trust that i had in this man that completely out the window
00:50:37let's go home baby okay
00:50:45i feel betrayed because we had an agreement that none of these things were supposed to happen
00:50:51and it just like it really really up because it's like he don't care
00:51:01i am scared for what the future holds
00:51:03it's like baby i need you to know that i love you and i need to know that i'm gonna do whatever
00:51:09i need to do to earn their trust
00:51:11i gotta go get the boys okay tell brodie we're going fishing
00:51:22okay i promise
00:51:24okay not we might we are i'll see
00:51:28okay
00:51:28after today even with jk trying to sit here and reassure me that there was nothing for me to freak
00:51:38out on and that i should trust him like it's just the fact like i feel disrespected that he would
00:51:44even have the nerve to do that at this point i don't know what i don't know what to do like i got
00:51:49absolutely no idea well we got to figure things out because we have a baby on the way tyra's just
00:52:00talking to me about for real she talks it for sure
00:52:03so demodic was over here last night about to put up the rest of his clothes kiana put him out
00:52:20because she found out some text messages and stuff but i knew he was going to come back because he
00:52:26could not resist this and i just wanted my family back so i got what i wanted
00:52:33i'm going to go get on the trampoline no you're going to stay with me did you just try to hit me
00:52:52you're going to stay with me you're still seeing the wrong answer dude
00:52:56i'm going to stay with yes sorry come here let me show you something
00:53:00that's it the claw got you kiana kicked me out because she found some messages between me and
00:53:09joela oh right now i stay with my baby moms when i have to watch the kids and she has to go to work
00:53:15oh what you gonna do a front flip go dj go dj
00:53:21daddy gonna have to go to work schooling all right
00:53:23okay okay yeah come on yeah sometimes it does feel like when i'm with joela and the kids we're a
00:53:31family i can see my kids and not have to sneak around but uh i am single at this moment my title is
00:53:39a single oh i love you give me a hug my boy love you all right mama see y'all later bye bye bye
00:53:50i love you
00:53:54as far as the moderate coming out and trying to be in a relationship
00:53:58what i will say as an older man is you have to make the most honest decision for yourself the one
00:54:02that you can live with because if you're sitting over here 10 years now it's like damn i should have
00:54:05been over there then that's the decision you made staying single it is always an option though you
00:54:11know hello what you doing getting ready yeah i'm about to be on my way over there
00:54:20all right just let me know we can get here all right i'll see you in a second all right
00:54:26my relationship with joela has been all right but it's definitely not the vibe me and kiana have
00:54:30definitely not that vibe i love kiana and when you're in love with somebody it's damn near like
00:54:37you can't go without that person you know i mean you can love other people from the distance
00:54:40when you're in love with somebody there's no distance that can keep you from that person
00:54:46right now me and demodric are single but i mean he i still talk to him every day
00:55:03i see him from time to time of course we still fool around it's definitely hard to just cut him off
00:55:10but i'm trying honestly i don't know who he's with what he's doing like yes we talk every day but
00:55:19i try not to like overplay my part when you see your life with someone like the rest of your life
00:55:28with someone it's hard to just turn that off i don't know what it is i guess we just can't leave
00:55:35each other alone just gonna see where it goes from here
00:56:05what are you doing i'm about to leave
00:56:25are you coming back
00:56:29you legal leaving
00:56:35you know what i'm gonna say
00:56:38tired of just talking to you for real
00:56:41we got to figure things out because we have a baby on the way
00:56:44we good
00:56:48you're not even looking at me
00:56:52i feel like you're just taking my energy wrong you feel like i'm coming at you and really i just want
00:56:57better for our kid than than what we had that's all i'm not telling you to stop your dreams i want
00:57:03you to do everything you want to do in life i just want to make sure that our kid is good and that they
00:57:10have what we didn't have are you ready to be a father i mean right now i'm i mean i'm i'm gonna be ready for whatever i'm gonna deal with it but i'm young and i got a lot to focus on right now so
00:57:27you know what it is it'll be whatever though
00:57:32we didn't come from two-parent households we wanted a two-parent household for our
00:57:38kid we wanted a healthy household for our kid a stable life for our kid that's all i'm saying i just
00:57:44want better for our kids than what we have you make it impossible to do that how
00:57:51how you be acting but it's not just how i be acting but a lot more often than not it is
00:58:00a lot of people be toxic and alexa she toxic for sure my car about to pull up
00:58:09like sometimes i be feeling like she like arguing she like arguing and getting into it and
00:58:17seeing how i react because if i argue with her maybe that's how she feel like
00:58:23somebody loving her or something you know what i'm saying but you ain't got to do that with me like
00:58:27i don't feel like i just need to get away and go do me for a minute
00:58:50we probably really just want the breakup i do believe that i deserve a healthy relationship
00:58:59and if he wants to go just let him go like no more chasing him i'm gonna love myself and prepare
00:59:06to love this baby if you really do just take advantage of the fact that i'm really nice and i'm
00:59:13really forgiving that i probably do just need to look love myself more
00:59:29they told me to stand still so i'm gonna keep on running they try to bring me down but i'm the one
00:59:36that's hunting hey i need my dropping off at home um no i'm coming with you and catch a car back
00:59:41so bummed out that i don't get to take you back with me i don't need you
00:59:53i'm pretty sad that i'm going home now i can't believe that the week is already over
00:59:58i'm gonna miss courtney so much
01:00:02i'm gonna miss you so much same yeah this sucks i'm gonna miss you too much
01:00:07i'm having to leave you almost a thousand miles away this yeah i'm hoping by the following month
01:00:17we'll be moving you out to me me too try not to buy more than like two suitcases
01:00:24i can't have like that many belongings anyways uh at the house perfect
01:00:35um speaking of buying things are you gonna leave me with a card what is your plan
01:00:43yeah yeah i have a credit card i can leave me on it
01:00:50so i'm not to spend like more than a thousand dollars on my phone
01:00:57i love you me too i'm so happy you were able to come and see me yeah sucks this is like the worst part
01:01:08i don't want to go are you going to be able to trust me from a thousand miles away yeah i think um
01:01:18i think you were right and i need to get out of my head we're going to be able to
01:01:23facetime and talk all the time i know i'm definitely going to be able to trust you
01:01:27you they're just saying no coming back from this those shabari ropes were cool yeah that was tight
01:01:36i had a fun time with you
01:01:41when i was in prison me and my sugar guys we would have like video visits and we would talk on the phone
01:01:48um i had one come visit me in person and that was cool
01:01:52but will and i had such a deep connection i knew i wanted to spend the rest of my life
01:01:59with him i'm gonna dump out my suitcase and put you inside i wonder what would happen
01:02:04they go through the scanner and then charge me with human trafficking
01:02:09like i've always been worried about whether or not i would find my soulmate and i have
01:02:17i just i'm not ready to say goodbye yet
01:02:22all right beautiful i'm not gonna make you wait here with me the whole time
01:02:25i don't want to yeah but i gotta go through security and stuff i love you though i love you
01:02:36we're gonna talk all the time all the time all right are you gonna call me when you get home
01:02:40right yeah of course i'll facetime you first thing i'm gonna miss you i love you too
01:02:52i hope that there are many pros to courtney living in this halfway house i hope that i'm
01:03:00just heavily overthinking this whole thing but she's been acting pretty weird these last couple
01:03:04of days hey siri call for a ride share the limited amount of freedom she has and and our inability to
01:03:11see each other as much as we want to see each other as much as we want is making this pretty hard
01:03:14so hard but i think we can make it through
01:03:28we're now going to start buying up donna walk and helping me out all right
01:03:41so far we are going to start lying up donna walk and helping me out
01:03:46We are now going to start my abdominal walk to help you with fertility.
01:04:06It's like a little rough.
01:04:07Alright dog, alright?
01:04:08I love you bro, alright?
01:04:09Good to see you.
01:04:16Good girl, I love you, Jeremy.
01:04:46Never let me go, or your love is stronger.
01:04:53One word from you, and I know that I won't.
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