00:00How are you coping with the loss?
00:08We miss him. I can imagine how much you miss him.
00:13Yeah, every day, sometimes,
00:15for example, I'm outside, right?
00:16I just walk in New York, in the street.
00:18Sometimes, I'll just break down.
00:20Because suddenly, there's a moment of us performing together,
00:25or he said something funny.
00:26And I find myself, when I'm with people,
00:30I tend to tell them stories of,
00:32you know, my dad said this.
00:34He said this funny thing, na ganyan-ganyan.
00:35I tell stories upon stories,
00:38ng mga just funny moments with him.
00:41Jen, I'm sure merong kang interaction with Tita Hodge.
00:45Anong hindi mo malilimutan?
00:46Hindi, kasi sobrang bait niya talaga.
00:50Palagi akong invited sa mga family gatherings nila.
00:54So, never ko siyang nakita na hindi nakang ngiti.
00:58Ganon, always like,
00:59well, hi, Tito Haji, ganyan.
01:00Hi, Geneva.
01:02Always, always.
01:03And plus, I'm a fan of his.
01:05Right.
01:05Kasi napagaling talaga ang performer.
01:08And on time lag, napaka-professional,
01:11napakagaling pa rin ang boses,
01:13ang galing pa rin sumayaw.
01:14Kaya naiintindihan ko si Sis
01:16when she was talking to me
01:19nung nasa hospital nga si Tito Haji
01:22na it was really tearing her apart.
01:26Talagang, kasi nga yung dad niya
01:29na isa sa idols niya,
01:32yun nga.
01:34Nakikita niya he was weak.
01:35You know, it was hard for her to watch.
01:37What was that last conversation
01:39you had with dad?
01:41When he was already,
01:43it was very, ano na eh,
01:44in the end eh, you know,
01:46yung parang, I just,
01:47I just wanted him to be,
01:49to tell me parang,
01:50anong-anong mga bilin mo?
01:51Kasi ito, diba, at the end,
01:53diba, you want for him to,
01:55I wanted him to tell me
01:57what he wanted.
01:58And of course, a lot of it
01:59had to do with his,
02:00kung gusto ba niyang mag,
02:02to go back to the hospital.
02:03Kasi he decided to stay at home.
02:05Diba, he wanted to,
02:06he just wanted to do
02:08palliative care.
02:09So yung mga ganon,
02:10at the end, diba,
02:10it was about things like that.
02:12So, sinabi niya yun?
02:14Oo, nagusto na lang yan,
02:15nasa bahay na lang siya,
02:16ayaw na niyang magpagamot.
02:18And of course, talagang,
02:18I wanted, oh my God,
02:20that was the hardest.
02:21Kasi gusto ko,
02:22gusto ko siyang lumaban sana.
02:24But at the same time,
02:26Did you express that to him?
02:27Alam mo, ano?
02:28Kasi sobra akong,
02:30She had to be strong.
02:31Pero sobra akong respectful,
02:33at sobra ko siyang mahal,
02:35na hindi ko masabi sa kanya,
02:37oh my God,
02:38lumabang ka.
02:39Hindi ko ma,
02:39parang,
02:40alam mo yun,
02:40okay dad,
02:41parang ganon,
02:42ganon na lang.
02:43At that point,
02:44ibibigay ko lahat ang gusto mo.
02:46I just wanted to respect
02:47what he wanted.
02:49You know,
02:49so,
02:50in a way,
02:51minsan,
02:51I think about it,
02:52na parang,
02:52dapat mo piniliat ko.
02:54Alam mo yun.
02:55Hindi,
02:55but I understand.
02:56I understand.
02:58Oo,
02:58hindi eh.
03:00Ibibigay mo.
03:01That's,
03:02coming from a space of love.
03:04Mm-hmm.
03:04Oo,
03:05hoo,
03:08didn't bet on it,
03:25Oo,
03:25Oo,
03:27Oo,
03:27ain't it.
03:31Oo.
