00:00I was asked to write a book right after the Josh scandal and I knew that I had to heal.
00:07I knew I had some things that I really needed to dive deep in and just in order to like to be more
00:15whole and I had trust issues. I had a lot of anger. I had some things I needed to really
00:21straighten out and so I took that time and then once I did the work and educated myself on all
00:28these different like definitions of what like narcissistic abuse is and all the things that
00:33I've been through I was like oh my gosh like I could help someone else and that's really where
00:38it came from is just the desire to to share my story and that I hope that it feels like a hug
00:45for someone else that they're not alone because I felt so alone you know going through everything.
00:50I honestly think their jaw will drop from like page one all the way until the end. I really take
01:00readers on a journey. I didn't want to just share one story. You know most memoirs are just like you
01:05know a couple stories here and there and and just they focus on one thing but for me I was like this
01:11is my chance to like lay it all on the line and really tell the whole story and the whole truth
01:17and connect the dots. So you know one minute I was on the show and one minute I'm not and there's
01:23no reason why there's no there's no you know no one knows the real truth and so I was just like here's
01:29my here's my chance to really to talk about it and to bring light to it and share the truth. I think
01:35the hardest part for me and I won't cry on here I promise but I think the the hardest part for me was
01:41just saying goodbye again and like and like writing that again like it felt like daggers in my heart
01:48and like my husband was so like Dylan was so kind and like what do you need chocolate give me hugs like
01:55like he wrote me notes my little boy wrote me notes like all the things because they knew that like
02:00I was just really going through something and I just had to relive it all in order to tell it the way
02:04that it happened. It was really hard but I knew that like I had to push through um and I just had
02:10to believe in myself because I've never been so so brave in my entire life um but I was like here like
02:18here's my chance to really just be the real me you know and it helps and honestly it comes back to
02:24helping someone else you know like parent complexes and toxic families are so like they're I mean a lot of
02:31people struggle with that I uh blocked him and I just realized that I wanted better for my life
02:38I have no idea if they know or not more than likely no and so I'm really hoping that they get a chance
02:44to read my book or they pick it up at Walmart when you know they're by themselves or something and
02:49they're like what is this and they actually get the truth because um like I said it's a lot of things
02:55have been just slipped underneath the rug in my family and not a lot has been has come out to lie a lot
03:01I mean there has been clearly but there's there's more to the story
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