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Everything Now Season 1 Episode 8- Episode 8 - 1080p
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00:00Mia?
00:01Mia?
00:02How are you feeling?
00:07Good.
00:08I've been, uh, good.
00:10You know, I've been sticking to the meal plan, taking it day by day, and...
00:27Yeah.
00:32And your family?
00:34I know times have been a bit turbulent in the Polanco household.
00:39Yeah, we've been sorting it.
00:42You know, just got to push through this bit.
00:46And friends?
00:50Oh, fuck.
00:53Great.
00:55Yeah, they're all good.
01:01Mia, how long have we been seeing each other, would you say?
01:06Dunno, a long time.
01:09And do you feel you can be truthful with Mia?
01:14Yeah.
01:16Yeah.
01:17All right, then.
01:19Mia, how are you feeling?
01:24Great.
01:25Okay, you all know what you're doing.
01:35Lots of energy, big smiles.
01:37I'm looking into you, Martin.
01:39What?
01:40Yeah.
01:41Okay, so, these ladies and gents don't get out much, so it's our job to keep their spirits
01:45up, but blood pressure's low.
01:47So, board games, card games, and most importantly, tea.
01:51Lots of it.
01:52Yeah.
01:53Okay?
01:54Come on.
01:55These 90-year-olds have more spring in their step than you.
01:57Morning, folks.
01:58Who's ready for bingo?
02:00You're late.
02:01Are you early?
02:02I cannot believe I'm spending my Sunday with the survivors of the Great Fire of London.
02:07Oh, entirely your fault for leaving your Duke of Edinburgh community hours till last minute.
02:16Is she here?
02:18I haven't seen her all week.
02:20She hasn't responded since Carly Gate.
02:22Yeah, same.
02:25She's gone full MIA on us.
02:27She's going through a difficult time.
02:29She is a difficult time.
02:31Where are you going?
02:34I don't know.
02:36Draco.
02:40Alright, I'll take bingo.
02:42At least we want to reach for the arsenic the least.
02:47Hey.
03:03You think they'd swing for a better selection?
03:05Right.
03:06It's not as if we don't need a distraction.
03:07Exactly.
03:16My daughter was here for a while.
03:18Oh.
03:19She moved to outpatients about two months ago.
03:23Good for her.
03:24And you.
03:25Good for everyone, really.
03:26Oh, thanks.
03:27You here to see yours?
03:28He's ready for you now.
03:29Oh, excuse me.
03:30Hey.
03:31You're Jenna's mum.
03:32Right?
03:33Harold.
03:34Mia.
03:35Hi.
03:36Hi.
03:37I heard she got out.
03:38How is she?
03:39She tried?
03:40No one could say she didn't try.
03:41No one could say she didn't try.
03:42I think she'd want people.
03:43to know that.
03:44I think she'd want people to know that.
03:45I think she'd want people to know that.
03:46it was very interesting.
03:47Still with me.
03:48What is wrong with her?
03:49What are you doing?
03:50She's just doing my job.
03:51Wow, you're going to be on the right side.
03:52I'm perfect.
03:53I think she was just my job.
03:54You're looking at my job.
03:55You're looking at my job.
03:56What am I doing?
03:57You're looking at my job.
03:58You're looking at your job.
03:59she tried no one could say she didn't try
04:08I think she'd want people to know that
04:12it was just too much for her
04:17I'm so sorry
04:29I want to go skydiving right off the Colorado River
04:39maybe bungee jumping or fly on a hot air balloon
04:44those all sound deeply costly and potentially fatal
04:47hey it's your list I'm just helping you out
04:49okay what else is on there
04:51I told you you need to make one of your own
04:53yeah well I just like laughing at yours
04:55so go on a ferris wheel
04:58are you serious that is so boring Jenna
05:01Mia I'm so sorry about your friend
05:11if you ever want to talk about anything
05:16no they told us not to keep in touch
05:17why not
05:18they said it could be triggering
05:19remind us of the bad times make things worse
05:22but I guess it didn't matter in the end see
05:26darling
05:27don't forget your 11am snack
05:31no thanks
05:35if you want to talk about it
05:39I'm going to have a shower
05:40it's more like the hospital
05:41okay
05:45okay
05:46okay
05:46All right.
06:16All right.
06:46All right.
06:48Mom.
06:51What are you doing?
06:58Mom.
07:06What are you doing?
07:10Why do you keep doing this to us?
07:21Clearly there is something wrong.
07:23If this...
07:25I'm sorry, but...
07:29I can't help you.
07:31I cannot watch you end up like your friend.
07:34Mia.
07:36You need to go back to hospital.
07:40You need to see Dr Nell.
07:42I'll get a bin bag and we can call him together and we'll make a plan.
07:48What?
07:49What?
07:50What?
07:51What?
07:52What?
08:02Oh, my God.
08:19Mia?
08:28Mia!
08:33How are you?
08:36First time in a week I haven't woken up crying.
08:38But we love character development, so...
08:44You don't have to be here today.
08:46Are you open to see her?
08:47No.
08:48Won't you?
08:50No.
08:52No, she won't be here.
08:55Why?
08:59Because Mia's a coward.
09:02Well, at least you won't be seeing me like this.
09:06Like what?
09:13I mean, look, you're still Alison.
09:16You know?
09:17I'm still scared of you.
09:19Mm-hmm.
09:20I'm sorry I haven't been in touch.
09:50You and everyone else.
09:52No-one will talk to me.
09:54I've got shit going on too, you know.
09:56Carly, let's get out of here.
09:58What?
09:59We should go and we can have a day of doing whatever we want.
10:03Yeah.
10:04Come on, Carly.
10:05I mean, haven't you ever wanted to, like,
10:08tuck your phone out the window and go fully off the map
10:12and we can finish the fucking list?
10:15Fuck everyone else.
10:18Carly?
10:20When you finish up with this, I need you to clean up in the back.
10:23Kids chundered everywhere.
10:28I've got to work.
10:30You know what?
10:32It's fine.
10:33It's fine because you know what we can do?
10:35We can...
10:36We can chuck these.
10:38Just like...
10:40Come on.
10:41Come on.
10:42Come on.
10:43Come out with me.
10:44Please.
10:45Carly.
10:46Please.
10:50OK, folks.
10:51Look alive.
10:52Or look as dead as I am.
10:54Yay!
10:55Woo!
10:56I feel fine.
10:5769.
10:58Oh, let me go.
10:59Please.
11:00I'll owe you everything forever.
11:01You already owe me.
11:02No.
11:03Lots of fun.
11:04Young and full of cum.
11:0541.
11:06Mia's mum.
11:07How has she been this week?
11:08I haven't seen her all half-term.
11:09None of us have.
11:10It's happening again.
11:14And I didn't even realise I was watching it happen.
11:44You're overreacting.
11:56Because she knows that if we're all worried about her,
11:59then we'll forget about the shit she's done.
12:01Again.
12:02Cameron.
12:03She hasn't been eating all week.
12:06I said I'll check around.
12:08Alright, well, I'm coming with you.
12:09I thought you didn't want to see her.
12:11Yeah, well, it's not about her.
12:13We can check the bandstand or the skate park.
12:16Or Carly.
12:17That's who she's going to be with, obviously.
12:20We'll find Carly and we'll find Mia.
12:23Okay.
12:24But I shouldn't leave.
12:25I'll stay here.
12:26Yeah, someone's got to kick these Wildcats in check.
12:43Goin' straight to voicemail for me, too.
12:44Goin' straight to voicemail for me, too.
12:45Goin' straight to voicemail for me, too.
12:50I don't understand how this happened.
12:51You were supposed to sit with her at mealtimes.
12:52You were supposed to sit with her at mealtimes.
12:53You were supposed to watch her eat.
12:54Christ, you've seen me do it enough times.
12:55I couldn't have left you clearer instructions with me.
12:56You were supposed to sit with her at mealtimes.
12:57You were supposed to sit with her at mealtimes.
13:02Christ, you've seen me do it enough times.
13:04I couldn't have left you clearer instructions when I—
13:09When you left.
13:10You left us.
13:11If this is anyone's fault, how dare you do it.
13:14If I can't wait to do it enough, I can't wait to get myself on the bed.
13:17I can't wait to see you now.
13:18I can't wait to see the world.
13:20I can't wait to see you, too.
13:21I can't wait to see you.
13:22I can't wait to see you.
13:23I can't wait to see you.
13:24And I'm waiting to see you.
13:25You moved to the room.
13:27I can't wait to see you.
13:28You moved to your house.
13:29I can't wait to see you.
13:30You were so excited for me.
13:31How dare you try and put this on me when you've been too busy
13:35with your new girlfriend to give a shit about this family?
13:42Do you want to know where I met her?
13:45At the support group, for parents, at the hospital.
13:50The one you never bothered to go to.
13:56I'm going to try Mia again.
14:01And that is why you do not go home with the guy selling his mixtape
14:09in the little car park. Am I right? Am I right?
14:14Okay. 34. That's 34-34-34.
14:22Theo Mason.
14:26Um, could you man the tea station?
14:29It'd be an honour.
14:35So, uh, anyone into cults?
14:38Yeah, why did Becca leave? She was supposed to be running this.
14:41I don't know, it's just some Mia stuff, but she'll be back.
14:43Er, this is Legs Eleven. Legs Eleven.
14:46What does that mean? Is she okay?
14:47It's fine. It'll all be fine. It's just a fuss about nothing.
14:50Legs Eleven. Legs Eleven.
14:52Will, tell me.
14:54I guess she hasn't been eating and no-one knows where she is.
15:01But it's fine.
15:02Are you serious?
15:03No, but it's fine. We're peachy. We are peachy.
15:05It's all peachy and that is 17 and it is a peachy, peachy 17.
15:09Yeah, it sounds proper peachy. Mature as usual, Will.
15:16Okay. Okay. Wakey, wakey everyone. Yes, Beatrice. Yes, bring both eyes.
15:21Who is ready to have some real fun? Let's get some booze and tunes up in here. Prohibition is so yesterday.
15:28Okay.
15:32Okay.
15:44Hi. Excuse me. Have you seen Carly? She works here.
15:48She used to. Until she walked out in the middle of her shift.
15:51Oh, okay. Was she with anyone? A girl?
15:55Yeah. Er, they were giggling, flapping some paper about.
15:57The bucket list.
15:58And then next minute, I'm down a shelf stacker.
16:01Er, okay. Great.
16:03Thank you, Gareth.
16:05Cheese guy?
16:07You're cheese guy?
16:08You what?
16:10Oh.
16:23Soldier.
16:24Fargo.
16:25Fuck.
16:29Oh, oh, oh, oh, god.
16:32You are so funny.
16:40Finger down!
16:41What's bothering you love I know a broken heart when I see one
17:11what else is on the list we've read it like a million times shoplifting right yes that narrows
17:30it down to a shop this isn't funny Cam I know no I don't think you do this is my fault she wasn't
17:39responding all week and I just assumed she needed space like we all did I'm such a terrible friend
17:49no none of this is on you we can't keep blaming ourselves and she blows her fucking life up
17:56you're the fixer Bex you make things good again right you're honest I didn't tell you
18:10when
18:21like a month ago just after we ended things
18:29uh is it are you are you okay I'm okay I was then too more or less
18:42fuck I wish you would have told me I'm sorry I didn't no no I don't mean like that don't be
18:52I just mean that I wish I couldn't make you feel like you could
18:59yeah well it's over now
19:07let's keep looking for Mia
19:11do you want to know the worst part Edith
19:15right now she's not even thinking about how much he hurt me she's running around with the girl that
19:21she wanted more and even though she broke my heart I'm not allowed to be mad because
19:28she's not well and everyone's just expecting me to build a bridge and get over it
19:35you should
19:35I've lived a long and colourful life and if there's anything I've learned
19:41it's important to forgive when forgiveness is earned and if it isn't
19:48build that bridge Alison and then burn it to the fucking ground
19:55that young man's been staring at you all afternoon go and talk to your boyfriend
20:08well he's not my boyfriend Ivan shut up
20:12well he should be if I was your age I wouldn't let him slip through my fingers
20:16so why is a ferris wheel on your list I was on someone else's
20:27number 42
20:30number 42
20:33Mia
20:42don't
20:44please don't
20:46please don't
21:16I got you one anyway
21:21no you shouldn't have I'm like really not hungry
21:25well we haven't eaten yet today it's almost five
21:28you know what we should do next we should get out of London and we can go on a train and we can go anywhere we can go to Manchester check out your own haunts okay
21:36Mia
21:36no I just want to have one good day Carly okay and we can finish the list
21:40why do we have to finish it today what's the rush
21:45why are you being so boring
21:47I mean if you don't want to do it I'll just do it myself
21:50there'll be other days
21:52do you really do you know what the average recovery time for anorexia is
21:59seven years and I have seven years left of work and worry and fuck up and that's if I'm lucky
22:04it's like not even half the people make it that far and I deserve one day
22:09Carly one day to be free
22:12my friend died and she was the stronger one and if she couldn't make it what chance do I have
22:19none if you keep running away
22:42I'm sorry
22:44I'm sorry
23:06I'm so scared
23:08We'll find her. We'll get her the right treatment.
23:15No, I don't mean that.
23:19All the time.
23:22Since she was born, I never knew what to do.
23:27Me too.
23:33Really, I was just making it up as I went along.
23:38Would have been easier, maybe.
23:47To be scared together.
24:08I just don't understand.
24:11Like, I'm eating when I should.
24:14I'm taking all the meds. I'm coming to see you.
24:17And I did all the right things, but I still didn't feel any different.
24:22You know, being me wasn't easier.
24:24And waking up in the morning wasn't easier.
24:26And I just couldn't try anymore.
24:29And now I'm right back where I started.
24:32Only worse, because now I know there's no way out.
24:35And...
24:36And I'm so lonely.
24:41I'm trying so hard, but I can't connect with people and I don't understand why.
24:47Well, it's because anorexia was your companion all day, every day.
24:53It means that you were never alone with the painful thoughts.
25:00You've been holding on to a friend that was never a real friend.
25:07But that doesn't mean the grief isn't real.
25:13You know what I felt when I found out about Jenna?
25:23Go on.
25:25The first thought...
25:30I didn't cry.
25:32I didn't scream or anything.
25:38I just thought that she won.
25:40She beat me.
25:44Because her illness took her to a place that mine never had.
25:50Because...
25:52She didn't have to get better and I did.
25:58And that's the first thought that I felt when I heard my friend had died.
26:06I'm so proud of you.
26:08I'm proud. I just told you that...
26:10I know what you told me, but I also know that your disorder thrives on secrecy.
26:16And that anorexic voice inside you relies on you living in shame.
26:21And what have you done today?
26:23You've been honest.
26:25You've asked for help.
26:27Two things you would never have done a year ago.
26:29You are different.
26:30You are different.
26:31You are different.
26:41You are different.
26:42And I'll keep telling you until you believe in it.
26:46No Barber etc...
26:48You are different.
26:50I know.
26:52No.
26:54It's all it's fun.
26:58Will?
27:07Will.
27:17What's going on?
27:22I'm sorry, I actually can't do it.
27:24Shh, it's all right.
27:25No, it's not all right. It's not.
27:27Because, like, it's not been all right for years
27:30and I didn't even notice.
27:32Like, I was too busy trying to make everyone laugh.
27:37And she didn't need a laugh, she needed...
27:39She needed a friend and someone who would listen to her
27:42and I didn't.
27:44I-I-I couldn't.
27:50I'm sorry, I'm...
27:52I'm pathetic, I look like shit.
27:54No, don't even think it. Look, Will.
27:57You're allowed to feel the bad stuff, you know?
28:01And you can talk to me.
28:03Like you did in the bathtub.
28:06You know, bathtub Will was drunk and crying and he was boring.
28:13Yeah, well, I liked bathtub Will.
28:16He was real.
28:21No, he liked you.
28:24So much.
28:27Yeah?
28:28Would you call it an emo crush?
28:32Oh, God.
28:35Yeah, I'm so sorry that I said that.
28:36It's...
28:38I-I...
28:39I didn't mean it.
28:42Because you are more.
28:44I just...
28:45I just didn't have a word for all the more you are and I panicked.
28:57It's okay to be scared.
28:58Because you care, Will.
29:01Just...
29:02Say it.
29:04All of it.
29:05Suck and loads.
29:07Come here.
29:09Suck and loads.
29:25Suck and loads.
29:27Suck and loads.
29:29Are you okay?
29:36I'm really sorry.
29:41That's what you are.
29:44All I care about is that you're okay.
29:48I'd love to see you.
30:02When you're ready, maybe you and Al could come round for Scrabble in a movie.
30:09Yeah, it's like that.
30:12Okay.
30:15Sorry, that's my cab.
30:19I can... I'll stay.
30:21No, I'm fine.
30:23Dad, I promise.
30:26I'll call you about Scrabble.
30:29Miss you guys.
30:30Okay.
30:38Come here.
30:41I am so sorry.
30:45I'm sorry...
30:47Daniel...
30:57Right.
30:58Shall we?
30:59Is she...
31:22She's okay.
31:29At least we know she's with someone that cares about her.
31:41I'm sorry about Carly.
31:44You seem...
31:47Must have really liked her.
31:51I don't know.
31:54I think it was my fault.
31:56Some of it.
31:58With me and Carly, it was...
32:00It was never right.
32:05Why?
32:11Why is the front desk calling me?
32:17Let's go.
32:22Come on!
32:24Let's go!
32:28I'm a white wave.
32:30I'm a white wave.
32:32Let's go.
32:40Hey!
32:41Hey!
32:43Hey!
32:48Hey!
32:49Hey!
32:51Hey!
32:58for months i've been giving them board games all they wanted was some brandy
33:14no wonder they hated me how can anybody hate you
33:24i love you
33:25i do and that can mean whatever you want it to mean i'll be whatever you need me to be
33:37i could be a friend or more
33:44hey babe you ready yeah sure
33:49bye ken
33:54love is the actual worst right
34:11do you want to get really drunk
34:20that is frankly a suspicious amount of cabbage
34:39how are you better much better i think i'm gonna be better yeah
34:53look i know that things got
35:05i'm so sorry
35:05i know you are
35:11when i met you it was the first time i felt something stronger than my illness
35:17and it made me want to get up every day and keep going and
35:29hoping for you made everything brighter
35:32you have no idea how many years i've spent trying to save people who wouldn't let me
35:46i can't save you no i don't want you to i just you know we can figure this out and we can
35:59not until we learn to be more than a fantasy to each other not just another fix
36:19i've got work
36:19i think today is the best day of my life gonna rent a bicycle
36:49i think today is the best day of my life
36:58i think today is the best day of my life
37:02i'm thinking about the future all the time
37:06if i'm alone i'm alone and i don't mind
37:09i think today is the best day of my life
37:15i think this is the best day of my life
37:20is the best day of my life
37:22I'm here and finally I'm mixted
37:29Am I in a dream?
37:32Crazy as it seems
37:45I didn't think you'd come
37:48Neither did I
37:52You know, I remember the first time I met Becca in year seven
38:10I thought she was the coolest girl I'd ever seen
38:14And when I first met Will, I nearly weighed myself from laughing so much
38:22I don't remember meeting you
38:28You know
38:31Cause I can't remember a time when you weren't there by my side
38:36Making me feel like the whole world was wherever we were
38:40Like I was home
38:46And I wouldn't be alive today
38:50If you hadn't have done what you did
38:56You saved me
38:58Cam
38:59Cam
39:03I'm so, so lucky
39:10You're my home too, Am
39:11I'm sorry I haven't been there for you
39:28You okay?
39:29You okay?
39:33Yeah, I'm fine
39:35Oh well, doesn't this look like a total hoot?
39:40Come on Shawshank
39:42Oh, ha ha ha
39:44So nice of you to grace us with your presence
39:45I think I'm starting to understand just how much I've put you all through
40:02And
40:05I know I'm not always an easy person to be friends with
40:08We're not mad that you're not perfect
40:10You know, we're not meant to be
40:12We're meant to accept each other
40:14Warts and all
40:16It's a Veruca
40:18Cut off on Saturday
40:19In the bin by Sunday
40:20That's it, let's leave it
40:21Disgusting
40:22I just want you to know that I'm going to put the work in
40:23I'm going to get better
40:25We're not giving you any other choice
40:27Oh
40:29How'd it go with Alison?
40:31Well, I wrote her a letter but
40:33I haven't heard anything back yet
40:35I haven't heard anything back yet
40:37No, no, no, no
40:39No, no, no
40:41No, no, no
40:43No, no, no
40:45No, no, no
40:47No, no, no
40:49No, no, no
40:51No, no, no
40:52I haven't heard anything back yet
40:58Just give it a bit more time
41:04Now that the crying is over
41:06How are we going to while away the hours?
41:08You got a hot date with Jonah?
41:10Actually, that's not a thing anymore
41:15OK, so, when in doubt, we consult the list, right?
41:19What's left?
41:20What's left on the list?
41:21Get rid of the fucking list
41:22Yeah
41:23Burn the motherfucker
41:24No, I said we make a new list
41:26Together
41:27One that's for all of us
41:28Number one, clown will a party
41:30Ugh
41:31My birthday is only 53 days away
41:33OK, Southend?
41:34Bollocks to that
41:36Just go on holiday
41:37How about grease?
41:39Oh no, backpacking
41:40Excuse me, can you imagine this face in a hostel?
41:42And I just know you guys will show off for me with all the editing
41:44OK, I think I'm done
41:46OK, let's have a look
41:51What, eat in a restaurant?
41:52Prefer I be Italian
41:53Family games night, Jenna
41:55What?
41:56It's supposed to be aspirational
41:58I mean, this is just stuff that anyone could do
42:00No, not anyone
42:03Not you or me yet
42:05I want to be well enough to just get up every day and do things that make me happy
42:12Even small things, especially small things
42:16Like ride a bike or eat a sandwich
42:19Um, OK, I want to go somewhere hot
42:37Am I winning?
42:39Doesn't feel like it
42:41Feels like a sandwich
42:44Maybe, but now
42:47That's enough
42:49That's everything
43:19That's all
43:20That's all
43:21That's all
43:22That's all
43:23That's all
43:24That's all
43:25That's all
43:26That's all
43:27I spent a long time
43:29Thinking about things I should change
43:33Trying to make way for a new day
43:36Looking for a reason why I should stay
43:38I spent a long time
43:39Thinking about the things I should change
43:40Trying to make way for a new day
43:41Looking for a reason why I should stay
43:42I spent a long time
43:44Thinking about the things I should change
43:45Trying to make way for a new day
43:46Looking for a thing
43:47I spent a long time
43:58Thinking about the things I should change
44:02Trying to make way for a new day
44:05Looking for a reason why I should stay
44:08I spent a long time
44:11Thinking about a place I could go
44:17I spent a long time
44:38Thinking about the things I should change
44:41Trying to make way for a new day
44:47I just took a long time
44:50How did I go to the meadow
44:53I could play my little kids
44:56I knew I could let her go
45:01I could go to the night
45:02I could go to the night
45:06If you were years before
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