00:00This isn't a normal pregnancy. This is a very different pregnancy.
00:04I'm pregnant, but they don't know how they're going to get this baby out.
00:07I can't have a normal birth and I can't have a cesarean.
00:10They've basically told me that I might not survive it.
00:1330 weeks pregnant and on my way to the emergency pregnancy ward.
00:17They tape you up to the monitor and then you press this every time you hear the baby move.
00:21And my baby was moving like crazy.
00:24I really didn't know what that meant because this was my first time being admitted for increased movement.
00:28But my mum was looking very worried. She's just sitting there.
00:32At this point, I thought I was all good, but my mum knew I was having contractions.
00:37So then they had to do a swab, which is an internal and they hold this swab and twist it for one minute.
00:45And then you get the results back straight away and it tells you whether or not you're in labour,
00:49which is so scary to me because they don't know how they're getting this baby out.
00:52And we haven't found a surgeon yet.
00:54I was in the hospital all night last night, having contractions at 30 weeks, which is incredibly scary.
01:01So I'm waiting on a consultant who is confident to deliver this baby.
01:06Milana goes on to explain the full story of how she found out she was pregnant
01:11and why she won't be able to give birth to this baby.
01:14I took a pregnancy test.
01:17I then started having like a slight pain down by my stomach.
01:21And at the early scan, they told me I had a fibroid.
01:25So she told me that I needed to go and have an MRI because they're not happy of the location of the fibroid.
01:33They said that my location of my fibroid is actually sitting, covering my cervix and growing.
01:41She said that there's no way I'm going to be able to have this baby naturally.
01:45They told me I couldn't have a cesarean because of where the fibroid was,
01:50that if they cut me there, it could cut through the fibroid and I just bleeped out.
01:55So everything is really dangerous.
01:58The fibroid is now the same size as the baby.
02:01Milana continues to document her pregnancy journey
02:04in hopes that her experiences might help other mothers going through similar things.
02:10I am 33 weeks today and I've just stopped the tablets that were keeping me pregnant
02:15since I was 14 weeks.
02:18So I could go into labour any time now.
02:22It's a mixture of emotions.
02:24I know obviously I'll have emergency serene if I do go into labour.
02:27So that's one way to get the doctor's attentions, I guess.
02:30Wow.
02:31That was a lot.
02:32Basically, I walked in and saw the specialist.
02:34The second I went in, she said to me,
02:36you're anemic and I look really pale and drawn.
02:39She said that they really need to get my iron levels up before my cesarean
02:44because the concern is that I'm going to be out.
02:46I did ask her if I'm going to be out and I did, I did cry.
02:50She said that's not what we want to happen.
02:53Today, I just convinced myself I'm going to be out.
02:55The fact that a cesarean can kill me, it's just playing on my mind so much.
03:00I mean, the messages are telling me I'm selfish because I'm risking my life and putting my family through it.
03:06That is the last thing I've intended to do.
03:09I'm just praying to God that I'm in safe hands and I get to see my baby and watch it grow up.
03:16Today completely shocked us.
03:17We was on our way to the baby scan and was not expecting the turnaround of events that happened.
03:22I wasn't allowed to film in the scan, but they told me that the baby is too big
03:27and that they needed to refer me to see a doctor ASAP.
03:30I'm feeling so sad and trying to hold it together.
03:33I just feel that there is fresh news to digest all the time.
03:36My mum's reading my notes and comparing my scans from the last one I had
03:40and it looks like the baby is a lot bigger, which apparently isn't very good.
03:44My pregnancy has literally had me living at the hospital.
03:48Every time I call the emergency unit, they tell me that I should come in and get checked.
03:52Anyway, I was popped on the monitor and thankfully the baby's heart rate looked really good
03:57because I was taking in for reduced movements and feeling weak.
04:01And also my body was incredibly itchy all over.
04:05So I did tell the midwife who's making me have a blood test.
04:08The nurse.
04:08Because you told her.
04:10That I was itchy.
04:11Yeah.
04:12I know.
04:12Not my fault.
04:13She said, now you've told her.
04:15Now she has to follow up.
04:17And I have to have a blood test because I'm itchy.
04:19We had to wait for my blood to come back and speak with the doctors.
04:22The doctors said that they feel like I need to be seen every few days and put on the monitor,
04:26which is so scary.
04:28The feeling of dying is just getting worse as my C-section is drawing closer.
04:32I'm really, really struggling.
04:34The reality of what's going to happen in my C-section is giving me nightmares at night.
04:38And I am struggling to hold it together.
04:42I know the baby is going to be fine and that makes me so happy.
04:45But the fact that I might never see the baby is really hard to digest.
04:50I've done everything I can.
04:52But the one thing I can't do is guarantee I'll be there for it once it's born.
04:55Because I just don't know the outcome.
04:57Today's appointment took a very scary turn that both myself and my mum hadn't even considered.
05:02As you know, baby's getting monitored every few days and thankfully baby is fine.
05:06But I had to speak to the doctor because I've been getting chest pain.
05:10I was also feeling very tired and breathless.
05:12And the doctor suspected it could be a possible plot, which scared us so much.
05:17The doctor did the test that they could do and she said she felt it looked okay.
05:21And it could possibly be this fibroid that I'm showing you here.
05:24And it kind of goes under my chest sometimes and can lean on things.
05:29It looks like my C-section is going to be delayed by another week.
05:33I've been in bed with this virus the last two days.
05:36Just haven't been feeling great at all.
05:38I'm 39 weeks pregnant tomorrow and I know the baby's safer in here because I'm just not well right now.
05:43And I don't want to be breathing my germs on the baby.
05:45Though I am scared to go over because there's a possibility maybe I'll go into labour.
05:50Just received a phone call from the hospital and I have my C-section day.
05:54It's in two days' time.
05:58I'm so nervous.
06:00Obviously, it's a very high-risk surgery for me with fibroids.
06:05But we'll get to meet baby girl and I've just been crying so, so much.
06:10My face is swollen.
06:11I'm probably going to cry for the next 48 hours.
06:14After weeks of waiting, the day was finally here.
06:17And it was time for the doctor to perform the risky surgery to try and save Milana and her baby.
06:22I can't believe I'm saying this.
06:24I am alive.
06:25I made it through my C-section.
06:27I hardly bled at all.
06:29This is the morning of my C-section.
06:31I was so nervous.
06:32I didn't know if I was going to survive the next few hours of my life.
06:35But you know what?
06:36I'm here.
06:37I have a beautiful baby girl.
06:39My mum has kept me going this whole time.
06:44Both me and my mum, all we could think about was those appointments we'd had over the last few months.
06:48Of them saying the dangerous risks of me having this baby.
06:52We both kept thinking about it, hugging each other and crying.
06:56They actually let my mum come in while I had my spinal to help me calm down a little bit because I was in a bad state.
07:02Not surprising because everything I'd been through the last few months.
07:06Look at my mum in her scrubs.
07:07How perfect is she?
07:09I owe so much to my mum.
07:11This is us walking into theatre and here is the moment.
07:14She was born.
07:16And I had to share this with you because you have all been there every single step of the way helping me.
07:22You have no idea.
07:23Her name is Megan Roxy after my mum.
07:25And I can't wait to continue showing you the rest of our journey together.
07:31What an incredible journey she has been on.
07:34Commenters on the original video were so supportive and congratulated Milana with one person saying,
07:40The relief I'm feeling, OMG, you did it.
07:43I'm so proud of you.
07:44And another person added,
07:46Not me literally in tears.
07:48This gives me so much hope.
07:50I'm due in two weeks and been told I might not make it either.
07:54Thank you for sharing this.
07:56Thanks so much to Milana for sharing her pregnancy journey with us.
07:59And as always, thanks for watching Ultimate.
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