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00:00:00.
00:00:30There's something attached to my penis.
00:00:52That's a catheter. It allows you to go to the bathroom.
00:00:56If it's causing you discomfort, Nurse Stephen can adjust it after the examination.
00:01:00We're almost done.
00:01:02Now, can you tell me who the President of the United States is?
00:01:06Um, Bush.
00:01:08Can you tell me President Bush's first name?
00:01:15No.
00:01:26Do you feel any nausea?
00:01:42No.
00:01:43Dizziness?
00:01:44No.
00:01:45Wait.
00:01:46I mean, should I feel nausea and dizziness?
00:01:49No.
00:01:50No.
00:01:51Wait.
00:01:52I mean, should I feel nausea and dizziness?
00:01:56No.
00:01:57There doesn't appear to be any serious damage, but you may have a slight concussion.
00:02:01We're going to need to keep your way through the night as a precaution.
00:02:02Stephen will be with you.
00:02:03But I'll be in periodically through the night to check on your progress.
00:02:10Alright?
00:02:11Alright.
00:02:12Alright.
00:02:13Alright.
00:02:14...
00:02:16...
00:02:44what so shall i adjust the device for you the what the catheter you said it was causing you
00:03:06some discomfort no no it's it's not bothering me listen you don't have to be nervous about it
00:03:12remember i am a professional i know i know you're professional but it's not bothering me really
00:03:17okay well perhaps i can do something else for you are you hungry or thirsty
00:03:22i'm a little thirsty okay well i want to get you some water then
00:03:26is that enough you want another cup no that did it okay
00:03:45by the way you've taken good care of yourself excuse me you look good
00:03:53i hope my negatives are okay everything else is replaceable
00:04:04so you're a photographer yeah yeah something like that
00:04:08are you on assignment for a newspaper or magazine
00:04:12no well then what do you take pictures for art
00:04:17oh so you you like sell your work in art galleries and stuff like that
00:04:22sometimes that's why you're traveling around right
00:04:26yeah i'm doing this series titled america's lost highways
00:04:31well do you do you have some kind of grant that's funding your work
00:04:38from the visa foundation
00:04:39you mean visa awards grants to artists
00:04:42yeah as long as the artist agrees to pay the grant back with 18 percent interest
00:04:46oh well it's got to be real important work for you then right
00:04:50we'll see about that
00:04:51i only left washington a few days ago
00:04:54wow you're from the capital
00:04:56i was but i officially moved from there when i began this series
00:05:00so you don't have a home
00:05:03not at the moment
00:05:04are you in some kind of trouble mr donnelly
00:05:07get lost i mean it
00:05:08oh come on
00:05:09i'm gonna call the cops get out
00:05:10i mean it get out
00:05:11no i'm just an artist who can't catch a break
00:05:13well maybe i should expand that a little and say that i'm a person who can't catch a break in general
00:05:17especially the last three years i mean the last three years it's like i've been the victim of a voodoo play
00:05:21a voodoo play
00:05:23yeah like there's this underground theater company somewhere staging this savage improvisational comedy
00:05:28and every fiendish twist they create on stage actually happens to me in real life
00:05:32have you spoken to anybody about this at all
00:05:37i don't have the resources for a therapist
00:05:40well
00:05:45we have all night together
00:05:51and you know you could talk to me if you like about what you've been through
00:05:56and i'm i'm no therapist but
00:06:00sometimes it helps to talk about all of your problems with complete strangers
00:06:06actually
00:06:09you seem kind of familiar to me
00:06:12i do
00:06:13why's that
00:06:14i don't know
00:06:16i wish i could say the same
00:06:19why
00:06:20i don't know i guess
00:06:24you just seem like some guy
00:06:27somebody that someone else might
00:06:30want to be acquainted with that's all
00:06:32well you shouldn't say that until you've heard my story
00:06:34okay
00:06:35well what is your story when did this uh voodoo play as you call it begin
00:06:43it all started on the streets of baltimore
00:06:45you're not really going to hit me with that are you
00:06:52shut up
00:06:52my god you were assaulted
00:06:55oh
00:06:56you see that now
00:06:58well yeah how else could i see it
00:06:59that i ran from a group of 12 year olds
00:07:01oh
00:07:01but
00:07:04but you could have been killed
00:07:06besides 12 is not so young when there's 10 of them
00:07:10it wasn't so much that
00:07:11it's that i didn't want to have to hurt any of them
00:07:13which is what i would have had to do if i didn't run
00:07:15in fact
00:07:17i think that's what caused you to lose faith in me
00:07:20what do you mean mr donnelly
00:07:23it's why you left me damn it
00:07:24deep down inside you want to love a man who possesses more innate aggressiveness
00:07:29mr donnelly um
00:07:30are you feeling dizzy
00:07:32no no no don't sidetrack me with that concerned shit
00:07:34it's why you left me just be honest about it for christ's sakes
00:07:38mr donnelly listen just relax i'm gonna go get the doctor
00:07:41hey i don't need a doctor
00:07:43hey get back here damn it
00:07:45oh man he bought it
00:07:53this is rashkolnikov
00:08:01and i'm dying
00:08:03i need you to comfort me
00:08:07or by my own hand
00:08:10i'll die
00:08:13i'll die
00:08:16mr donnelly mr donnelly
00:08:20can you hear me
00:08:21wake up mr donnelly
00:08:22hey hey i'm sorry mr donnelly
00:08:24but it is critical you remain conscious
00:08:26now can you count to 10 for me
00:08:28one two three four five six seven eight nine ten
00:08:29can you tell me what state you're in
00:08:31ohio athens ohio athens ohio good and can you tell me the city and state in which you reside
00:08:39actually doctor please steven not until i'm through what steven is trying to say doctor is that i don't live in any town or city at the moment
00:08:46oh you're homeless
00:08:48no i'm simply traveling between one phase of my life to the next
00:08:54i see
00:08:56well
00:08:57clinically speaking your general awareness seems to be clearer than just ten minutes ago
00:09:02so in that case i'll stop back later to check on you
00:09:07steven may i have a quick word with you out in the hall
00:09:11doctor i swear i did nothing to set that patient
00:09:13yes steven i believe you
00:09:15after speaking with mr donnelly just now i am convinced his mental state was probably askew even before this accident
00:09:21but in order to keep him awake i'm afraid you're just going to have to play along with his fantasies
00:09:26certainly doctor
00:09:27up to a point that is steven
00:09:30i don't want things going overboard again like with a lacrosse player
00:09:33i'm going to kiss you over
00:09:35and over
00:09:37that will never happen again doctor
00:09:39i hope so steven
00:09:41so is there anything else i can get you some more water or something
00:09:57actually there is something
00:09:58what
00:09:59i need to know
00:10:01if you're still attracted to me
00:10:03mr donnelly you need to realize
00:10:05that i'm not the person that you keep referring to me as
00:10:09i know that but before i even started my baltimore story
00:10:12you said that i seem like somebody a person would want to be acquainted with
00:10:16and i'm wondering
00:10:17do you still feel that way about me
00:10:20listen
00:10:21if you're just nervous about me adjusting the catheter for you
00:10:25my dick
00:10:26is fine
00:10:27i just need to know
00:10:29if you're attracted to me
00:10:31are you
00:10:36all right
00:10:42all right i knew it
00:10:43you do like me
00:10:45listen
00:10:46i am not going to touch you
00:10:48unless it falls
00:10:49within the guidelines of professional behavior
00:10:52of course
00:10:53of course this is nothing lewd
00:10:55what i need
00:10:56what i'm asking you to do
00:10:59is pretend to be her
00:11:02when i'm telling you the story of the last three years
00:11:05i need to talk to you
00:11:06as if i were talking to her
00:11:08but what do you expect me to say
00:11:10nothing much really
00:11:11i just need to tell her all the stuff that's happened to me since we split
00:11:14and since i can't speak to her anymore in reality
00:11:17mr donnelly i don't think this is a very good idea
00:11:20oh come on steven
00:11:21it'll be fun
00:11:22and i'll bet you've never even had an ounce of fun on one of these graveyard shifts
00:11:27only once
00:11:28what was that
00:11:28i said this could be very dangerous for us
00:11:31maybe but only for me
00:11:32i mean you've got nothing to fear
00:11:34look at the condition i'm in
00:11:36i'm harmless
00:11:37so
00:11:46did i dump you after you told me about the assault in baltimore
00:11:53you know
00:11:55because i
00:11:56figured you weren't man enough for me anymore
00:12:00it's pretty good
00:12:03no
00:12:05you waited another week until hartford
00:12:08you were an actress
00:12:10and you were doing a national tour of hello dolly at the time
00:12:13we shared an apartment together in new york and i visited you on weekends
00:12:18some
00:12:22sometimes
00:12:23i think i don't love you
00:12:27but then i think about us breaking up and i start to cry
00:12:33maybe it's something i just need to work on
00:12:42what was odd though was that when we woke up the next morning you attacked me
00:12:46we do have weird sex
00:12:48especially when i get on top of that always desert
00:12:51yeah
00:12:53you all right
00:12:56yeah
00:12:57okay let's take a shower
00:13:00i want to get somebody to eat i'm starving
00:13:02but then two days later you came back to new york and laid the hammer down
00:13:06so when can you move out
00:13:07i don't know agnes jesus can i digest being dumped first
00:13:12normally i'd say yes but i'm on the road and i have to move pretty quickly on this
00:13:16well yeah you're on the road and you're not here that should give me more time
00:13:20it's not like we're gonna be together
00:13:22i'm sorry
00:13:25but i have to put this behind me with you here i can't do that
00:13:30this is my apartment remember
00:13:33i know it's your apartment agnes but as you know i don't have a lot of money right now
00:13:37but you have to leave
00:13:38look i'm not unreasonable
00:13:40i can i can i can give you till april first
00:13:45that's only five weeks
00:13:46how am i gonna get the money together and find a suitable apartment in this city
00:13:50in five weeks
00:13:51i don't know jude but people do it
00:13:53my god what did you do
00:13:55i went out and got a dark room
00:13:57you mean you went out and got a dark denzy hotel room
00:13:59no no i mean the next day i went out and literally bought an entire photographic dark room set
00:14:04so
00:14:05what did i do
00:14:08when you came home with all that equipment
00:14:11actually
00:14:11you'd already gone back on the road that morning
00:14:14which gave me the freedom to set all that stuff up right in the middle of your apartment
00:14:18you didn't dare
00:14:19you didn't dare
00:14:20you didn't dare
00:14:25oh
00:14:25go
00:14:26me
00:14:26I can't believe if you were going to leave in five weeks
00:14:56Why you bothered setting up all that equipment in my apartment?
00:14:59I needed something to divert my attention immediately, baby
00:15:02You destroyed me
00:15:03Why didn't you just buy some drugs or get a hooker?
00:15:07Oh my god, you're a man
00:15:10Man, woman, it is only what we see in our minds that counts
00:15:15How about what our eyes see?
00:15:17What do your eyes see?
00:15:21You mean you cheated on me with the man?
00:15:24I didn't cheat, we were already broken up
00:15:26But it was still my apartment you were living in
00:15:29Hey, I was paying half the rent
00:15:30No, but it was my lease
00:15:31And I'm assuming that the bed you had this tryst in was still my bed
00:15:35Yeah, it was your bed
00:15:37You're doing very well, by the way
00:15:39What do you mean I'm doing well?
00:15:42At playing her
00:15:42You're becoming quite convincing
00:15:44Well, you're becoming quite despicable
00:15:46How could you do such a thing?
00:15:49How could I do such a thing?
00:15:50How could you kick me out on such short notice like that?
00:15:52I mean for god's sakes I ended up out in Queens in a one room serial killer basement special
00:15:57The fella who's living here now isn't moving out because he's unhappy with the apartment
00:16:02He's moving out because he has some problems up here
00:16:07If you know what I mean
00:16:08Oh, I mean he's not the frothing at the mouth of lunatic type or anything
00:16:13He's just having a tough time right now
00:16:17Lenny! Are you in there?
00:16:25The man is here to look at the apartment
00:16:27Lenny!
00:16:31It's alright, sweetheart
00:16:32It's just me and that man I told you about
00:16:36Hi, Lenny
00:16:43See, it's just me and that man
00:16:47Don't be scared, dear
00:16:49And then my landlady's boyfriend had some kind of auto repair business that he ran out of the garage
00:16:54And he had all of these power tools that took up a lot of electricity
00:16:57So four or five times a day suddenly the power would go out
00:17:01And then when the power went out
00:17:04The large family had this large Siberian husky named Anuk
00:17:07Who was very nice
00:17:09But when the power went out the dog would freak out and come into my apartment to hide
00:17:12Well, how did he get in?
00:17:15Well, my apartment only took up half of the basement
00:17:18The other half still belonged to the family
00:17:20And there was a door that couldn't close all the way between us
00:17:23In fact, some mornings I'd wake up and find the dog sleeping in my shower
00:17:26Nanuk, I gotta get in there
00:17:32Come on
00:17:33But the dog wasn't the only unexpected visitor I had
00:17:38I got a deer
00:17:40I got a deer
00:18:00Oh, my God.
00:18:30Make love, make love, make love, make love.
00:18:53Plus, the neighborhood wasn't exactly the most photogenic place.
00:18:58Hey!
00:19:05Hey, douchebag!
00:19:09Hey, douchebag!
00:19:11What?
00:19:12What are you taking pictures of the garbage for you with the Daily News or something?
00:19:16No, no, these pictures are not for the press.
00:19:19So then what are you taking pictures of the garbage for, you nuts?
00:19:22These pictures are for art galleries.
00:19:25Art galleries by pictures of garbage?
00:19:27Yeah, sometimes, okay?
00:19:29Oh, yeah, well, did you sell any yet?
00:19:34I didn't think so.
00:19:36Hey, hey, come on, why don't you take pictures of the skyline or me instead, you know?
00:19:42I'm not that ugly.
00:19:43Hey, look, I'm trying to concentrate here, alright?
00:19:45You mind?
00:19:46Hey, hey, hey, hey, no problem, man.
00:19:47No need to get testy, alright?
00:19:48I was just trying to help you out a bit, okay?
00:19:52Douchebag.
00:19:53That sounds pretty frightening.
00:19:54Not to mention depressing and lonely.
00:19:56Did you have any kind of love life out there?
00:20:00Or were you still hung up on me?
00:20:02No, I mean, you know, I was hurting for you.
00:20:05But I did manage to hook up with some women through the restaurant I was working in.
00:20:10Not that they helped much.
00:20:11So, uh, you guys all set?
00:20:18I can, uh, fill that up for you.
00:20:20Oh, no.
00:20:21We've had enough.
00:20:22That's for sure.
00:20:24Here you go.
00:20:25It's all set.
00:20:26Thanks.
00:20:27What?
00:20:28Wait, did I, uh, did I do something silly?
00:20:32Oh, no, you're fine.
00:20:34Okay, well, um, have a good day.
00:20:36You too.
00:20:37You too.
00:20:38Ah!
00:20:39Oh, my God!
00:20:40Oh, my God!
00:20:41Ugh!
00:20:42Dear Mr. Waiter, I just scored a great apartment and I feel my luck is running high.
00:20:59Maybe you could add to my lucky streak by giving me a call tonight.
00:21:02Here's my number, Debra.
00:21:04Hey, Jay.
00:21:05Yeah?
00:21:06You didn't happen to catch the names of those two women who just left, did you?
00:21:09No, I didn't.
00:21:10That young one was really something.
00:21:12Tell me about it.
00:21:13And check this out.
00:21:17You know which one left it?
00:21:19No, no, I don't.
00:21:20But, uh, I know which one you're hoping to be dealt.
00:21:23Oh, yeah.
00:21:24You're best.
00:21:25But the other one wasn't a waste of time.
00:21:29Especially your time.
00:21:31I'll bet the first thing you're wondering is which one of us left you that note.
00:21:37Oh, I mean, it's not that big a deal.
00:21:40But, uh, yeah, I was wondering, sure.
00:21:43Well, I'm the slightly older one.
00:21:46You know, with the strawberry blonde hair.
00:21:49Oh, right.
00:21:50Right.
00:21:51Yeah, that's who I thought it was.
00:21:53I mean, the other girl.
00:21:54You wish it was her, don't you?
00:21:56No.
00:21:57No, no.
00:21:58In fact, I was about to say that she was a little young.
00:22:01So, anyway, do you want to get together with me sometime?
00:22:08Sure.
00:22:11Okay.
00:22:12You mean you went out with her even though she wasn't the one you wanted?
00:22:15Well, you know, I did think she was attractive.
00:22:17But not gorgeous.
00:22:18No, but then again I went out with a lot of women who I didn't think were gorgeous.
00:22:22Did you think I was gorgeous?
00:22:25Sure.
00:22:26That's not very convincing.
00:22:28Well, maybe you not dropped dead gorgeous at first, but eventually you lit me up anyway, baby.
00:22:32I was mad for you.
00:22:33But not mad the way a woman wants to be mad for her.
00:22:36Ah, no.
00:22:37You have it all wrong.
00:22:38The truth is that I fell hard for you and cast my eyes and the rest of my body passionately upon you as oftenly as humanly possible, baby.
00:22:47You did?
00:22:50Do you miss doing that?
00:22:52Of course.
00:22:56Hmm.
00:22:58What?
00:23:01Interesting.
00:23:03Yeah, well, let's get back to the story.
00:23:12See that guy over there?
00:23:15Hey, douchebag!
00:23:17Ah, yeah, unfortunately.
00:23:19Well, I was in line for the ladies room when we started talking, and I said to him that I was on this really hot date with this really cute guy, and things were going good.
00:23:33But for some reason, he hasn't even tried to kiss me yet.
00:23:37Yeah.
00:23:38And you know what he said to me?
00:23:41I would have kissed you the moment I saw you.
00:23:44What do you think of that?
00:23:45Dude, hey.
00:23:46Hey.
00:23:47Dude, I just have to say something.
00:23:48You know, I had it really pretty tough last year, but it's okay because this night has been so totally fantastic, and you, you are the best thing that's happened to me in years.
00:24:02Oh, yeah, yeah, that's great, Debra. That's really nice. You know, I like you too, but remember, this is just our first date, right?
00:24:20I know, I know, but if you realize something special, I can tell.
00:24:30And then on the very next date, she introduces me to her father.
00:24:34Dude, there's somebody here I want you to meet. Dad, this is Jude, the guy I can't shut up about.
00:24:42That's right. She hasn't stopped talking about you all week. How are you, slugger?
00:24:47Oh, it's nice to meet you, uh, sport.
00:24:52Hey, after we've sucked this round down, would the two you like to hit up this frat party with me?
00:24:58Dad, I really think we want to spend some time alone together after this.
00:25:04You okay with that, Jude?
00:25:06Look, look, to be honest, I'm still kind of hung up on my old girlfriend.
00:25:12Listen, mister, just because you have great asses in me, you're so perfect.
00:25:16First of all, you're losing your hair. You're wonderful. You're a waiter!
00:25:22I bet you still wouldn't have been hung up on me. I mean, the young one who came onto you so strong.
00:25:26Yes, I would if I still ached for you.
00:25:29Really? Well, what about that other girl?
00:25:33Hey!
00:25:36Hi!
00:25:38Susanna, right?
00:25:39Yeah. How you doing, Jude?
00:25:41Great, great, man. Whatever happened to you? You never came back to work at the restaurant.
00:25:45Oh, Matt didn't hire me. He thought I was too slow.
00:25:47Well, you know what? I was about to go get some coffee. What are you up to?
00:25:50Oh, I've got to go pick up some keys for this apartment I'm about to sublet.
00:25:54Oh, is the apartment in Manhattan?
00:25:56Yeah, it's on East 27th.
00:25:58I had to move off to Queens in a one-room basement Roshkalnikov special and I was looking for over a month.
00:26:03Sounds pretty severe.
00:26:04Yeah, well, that's the kind of luck I've had lately.
00:26:07Well, don't let it get you too down. Luck can change at any moment.
00:26:11Especially if you keep your eyes open for the right opportunity.
00:26:14Oh. Oh, okay. Alright. Um...
00:26:19Would you like to go out sometime?
00:26:35So, where did you say you lived?
00:26:38East 27th. You're in Queens, right?
00:26:41Yeah. Yeah, I gotta get on the N train.
00:26:44Well, Russ calling the call. If you'd like, you could come back to my place for a little while.
00:26:49Really?
00:26:51Yeah, really.
00:26:54Actually, before you come back, there is something I should tell you first.
00:26:58What?
00:27:01I feel kind of embarrassed, though.
00:27:02Oh, well, if you're embarrassed, you don't have to tell me.
00:27:07Okay.
00:27:09Actually, I feel kind of guilty not telling you, though.
00:27:14Do you have a boyfriend?
00:27:16No, it's...
00:27:18Not that, it's just...
00:27:21Well, look, you know, if you're embarrassed or uncomfortable, just tell me later.
00:27:26Okay.
00:27:27That was great.
00:27:29That was great.
00:27:30I can't ever remember having a first date go this well.
00:27:35Though, I gotta admit, you had me a little worried out there on the street when you told me you had something to tell me.
00:27:40Wow, I mean, with the luck I've had lately, I thought you were gonna end up having a male sex organ.
00:27:45It's nothing that extreme.
00:27:46Yeah, well, I sure know that now, don't I?
00:27:50Anyway, I mean, you know, if you're feeling comfortable, you can tell me now if you like.
00:27:57Gee, now I don't know if I want to tell you, because I don't want to spoil such a great date.
00:28:01Well, look, as long as you don't have male genitalia, you can't spoil this evening. Mm-mm.
00:28:08You sure?
00:28:09Positive.
00:28:13Okay.
00:28:14I'm a whore.
00:28:19No, you're not. Just because you sleep with a guy on the first date, that's nonsense.
00:28:24No, I don't mean it that way. I mean, I'm really a whore. I work for an escort service.
00:28:30No, but you went to Colgate, and you lived abroad.
00:28:35Actually, I got started with this abroad.
00:28:37I hear it's tough getting a job in Hungary.
00:28:39No. I had another job, too. I started escorting for the extra money.
00:28:44And it's sort of exciting.
00:28:48Really?
00:28:50Yeah. Not so much the men that you have to escort, but just the fact that you have to go meet them at all these secret places and parties.
00:28:59There's something thrilling about it.
00:29:03I see.
00:29:05Do you think you can untie me now?
00:29:08I knew I shouldn't have told you.
00:29:10It still must have been a big boost to your libido. You know, having a whore take you home for her own recreational purposes.
00:29:17I suppose it should have been, but at the time, the whole experience just put me on edge for a while.
00:29:21Don't tell me to get the f*** out of here. This is your fault, so f*** you.
00:29:25What?! I said f*** you.
00:29:30You threw a plate at me, you Nazi bastard!
00:29:33Get out of here, you zigh-hoff!
00:29:36Why did you call me?!
00:29:38I called you a zigh-hoff!
00:29:40Take it easy!
00:29:41And a couple of days later, I got fired over it.
00:29:44What did you do for money?
00:29:46Well, I had a little bit saved by this time. Plus, I had my visa grant. So instead of looking for work, I decided to leave New York altogether.
00:29:53I mean, I figured with the luck I was having, the sooner the better, right?
00:29:55Packing up everything and moving to Washington D.C. sounds pretty extreme if you ask me.
00:30:01Oh, actually, I didn't go to Washington then. That comes later. First I moved to Vermont.
00:30:06Why Vermont?
00:30:07Actually, you've been there.
00:30:11I have?
00:30:24When?
00:30:25A couple of years ago with me. We spent this weekend up there at this great little B&B.
00:30:30It was the most intimate two days of our relationship.
00:30:34Did I tie you up like Susanna did?
00:30:41No. It was a different kind of intimacy.
00:30:44Was it this far away?
00:30:45Why is it closer like this?
00:30:56Um, sort of.
00:31:00So you got into a fight with a chef from work and you decided to move to Vermont, right?
00:31:07Well, actually, before I moved to Vermont, I made a quick pit stop up at my parents' house up in Albany, New York to get some things together.
00:31:15What?
00:31:16What?
00:31:17What?
00:31:18What?
00:31:19What?
00:31:20What?
00:31:21What?
00:31:22What?
00:31:23What?
00:31:24What?
00:31:25What?
00:31:26What?
00:31:27What?
00:31:28What?
00:31:29Now, I don't fully understand this. You say you're moving back here for three weeks and then in three weeks you're moving to Vermont?
00:31:36Yes, Mom. That's what I said.
00:31:38Well, that's crazy. Why don't you just move right to Vermont from New York?
00:31:42Because I need to buy a car here first.
00:31:45Why you don't sell cars in Vermont?
00:31:47Vermont's a rural state, Dad. How can I go look for a car if I don't have one to take me around?
00:31:52Well, maybe you could rent one, couldn't you?
00:31:54I don't even know where in Vermont I'm going to be staying yet.
00:31:57Well, we got a surreal planner here, Jane, huh?
00:31:59Dad, Dad, look, I got a plan, alright?
00:32:01Tomorrow, I figured I'd drive up to Killington and case out the employment situation there.
00:32:05If that doesn't look promising, the next day I'll drive to Stratton.
00:32:08Yeah, and if that don't work out, where are you going to be driving to on Monday, Aspen?
00:32:13Well, how are you going to do all this driving when you don't even have a car?
00:32:18I thought I'd borrow one of yours.
00:32:21Beautiful. Eh?
00:32:22We got a 32-year-old man here who wants to borrow his dad's car.
00:32:25Hey, do you realize when Bill Clinton was 32 years of age, he was elected governor?
00:32:30Well, I guess I'm not Bill Clinton, Dad.
00:32:32Oh, you're sure not. You're sure not borrowing my car, either.
00:32:36Okay, now, I took this car off the road a couple of months ago.
00:32:40So, you're not going to be able to take it on the highway for a test drive.
00:32:45What do you mean?
00:32:46What I mean is there are no plates. See? No plates.
00:32:51Well, to be honest, Mr. Green, I don't think I can buy something without taking it for a test drive.
00:32:55I know that.
00:32:57I figured you'd take it for a drive around the lot here a few times.
00:33:00You're kidding.
00:33:02No, I'm not kidding.
00:33:04There isn't any grass.
00:33:22So, a smooth ride.
00:33:24Yep.
00:33:25Sure, I want you to try out the four-wheel drive.
00:33:30Why are you laughing?
00:33:35Oh, because that's such a funny story.
00:33:37No, it's not. It's a pathetic story.
00:33:39Why ever let it get as far as a test drive is beyond me?
00:33:42Because you have a good heart.
00:33:45The kind, sweet, gentle heart.
00:34:01Why are you crying?
00:34:02Because it's stuff like that that reminds me of how much I love you.
00:34:07But you don't love me.
00:34:08You dump me like a bad habit.
00:34:10But maybe I made a mistake.
00:34:12In fact, I know I did.
00:34:15Just tell me what I gotta do to prove that to you.
00:34:17Look, if you feel you made such a big mistake, then why are you back in New York and not here with me?
00:34:22But I am here.
00:34:24I'm right here standing over you, Jude, and I want you back.
00:34:29Broken arms and all.
00:34:31I want you right now.
00:34:32No, you're not here.
00:34:36You are a substitute, remember?
00:34:38But don't you want me to be her?
00:34:39Yes, I want you to be her, but you're not her.
00:34:42You're becoming way too coddling.
00:34:44Agnes would never do that.
00:34:45She was a strong, determined, tough, opinionated woman.
00:34:52That doesn't sound very attractive to me.
00:34:55Well, I admired her determination.
00:34:58I even found it sexy.
00:35:02Well...
00:35:12I guess I could play it that way.
00:35:17Anything to become more involved.
00:35:23Alright.
00:35:25But what I really need you to do is just listen.
00:35:30Okay.
00:35:33Let's go.
00:35:34Let's go.
00:35:35Let's go.
00:35:36Let's go.
00:35:37Let's go.
00:35:38Let's go.
00:35:42Let's go.
00:35:44Let's go.
00:35:45Let's go.
00:35:56Let's go.
00:35:59So nice.
00:36:30Hello? Hello?
00:36:43How did you know which city my show was playing in?
00:36:45Oh, you were back in New York now. Your show was running on Broadway.
00:36:49My show went to Broadway? Was it a hit?
00:36:54Well, it was a revival of a proven hit starring the original lead.
00:36:58You mean to tell me?
00:37:00All this time, I've been touring in a revival of Hello, Dolly with, dare I say, Carol Channing?
00:37:11Yeah.
00:37:12You mean, you mean, the Carol Channing?
00:37:22Yeah, who else?
00:37:23Oh, Mr. Donnelly, I really want to be your ex-girlfriend.
00:37:31Well, you are being her.
00:37:33No, no, no, no. I mean, I really want to be your ex-girlfriend. I don't want to pretend anymore.
00:37:38I mean, it's been a secret desire of my entire life to go to New York and be on Broadway and get to be a Broadway star.
00:37:52Well, Agnes was hardly a Broadway star. In fact, she was scarcely more than a chorus girl. And this had been her first theater job in three years. Mostly, she made her living doing these insipid voiceovers for television and radio.
00:38:06Yeah. That may be on the way I made my living most of the time. But it sure was several notches above you being a waiter wannabe photographer.
00:38:20At least I kept my art true to my soul.
00:38:23Soul! That's what every artistic failure hides behind.
00:38:26If you saw the work that I've done since we've split, you'd hardly be calling me a failure.
00:38:30Well, have you sold any of it?
00:38:32A couple of pieces. But what does that matter? Van Gogh never sold anything in his life.
00:38:37Look at the wonderful life that this Mr. Van Gogh led.
00:38:41No, look at the wonderful art he left the world.
00:38:44No, look at the life he led.
00:38:47Is that the life you want?
00:38:50Because from the looks of things, that's exactly the direction you're headed in.
00:38:53No.
00:38:56For the first time this evening, I've begun to see why I dumped you.
00:39:07What a loser attitude.
00:39:08No, I have a truly artistic attitude.
00:39:11Yeah, and it was this artistic attitude that led you away from the liveliest, most cultured city in the world
00:39:17to some little farmhouse in the middle of the woods somewhere, wasn't it?
00:39:21It wasn't in the middle of the woods. It was in the town of Manchester.
00:39:24And I wasn't so alone after a while, either. I was meeting people through the restaurant I was working in.
00:39:29Uh-huh. And I'm sure these people were exactly the kind of influence that every burgeoning artist needs to have around them.
00:39:36Excuse me, Jude.
00:39:38Hi. Hi. How you doing? Didn't mean to startle you.
00:39:41Um, this is Kenny. I don't know if you've had a chance to meet. He opens up for us in the morning and he cleans up. Have you met?
00:39:48Oh, no. No, I haven't. Uh, hi, Kenny.
00:39:51Hello, Jude.
00:39:52Okay, Kenny, hon, you can take off if you want.
00:39:57Bye, Kate. Bye, Jude. Bye, uh, Kenny.
00:40:01That's great. That's great.
00:40:03Okay, here's the situation.
00:40:06Kenny is very sweet.
00:40:08Very, very hardworking.
00:40:10A little slow.
00:40:11Uh-huh.
00:40:11Yeah. And if you ever see him with his hat to the side so his brim is, like, over here, that means he wants attention from you.
00:40:18He's needy. Needy. And slow. Needy and slow.
00:40:21And, uh, have you met Eric in the kitchen?
00:40:23No.
00:40:24He's under house arrest.
00:40:25Yeah. Yeah. A lot going on.
00:40:27I'm telling you, Kenny, I learned my lesson this time.
00:40:31You'll never catch me shooting a bottle rocket at a cop again.
00:40:33Well, that's just heartwarming, Eric. Really.
00:40:37Hi, Kate.
00:40:38Hi, Eric. What's going on, Kenny? Thought you were leaving.
00:40:41Okay, Kate. I'm leaving now. Bye.
00:40:43Okay. Bye, Kenny.
00:40:46Uh, Jude, I'd like you to meet Eric. Eric, this is Jude.
00:40:50Hi.
00:40:51Hi.
00:40:58Wave.
00:41:00Bye, Kenny.
00:41:04So, how are you doing, Jude?
00:41:06Oh, uh, I'm doing good. How are you?
00:41:09Not bad considering.
00:41:11You ever been on house arrest before?
00:41:13Um, no.
00:41:15Don't ever try it, dude. It sucks.
00:41:19Okay. That's great to know, Eric. Thank you.
00:41:21Uh, listen, why don't we get back to work?
00:41:23We've got a restaurant to open, and I think I hear a car coming in.
00:41:26Let's get back to work.
00:41:27God, I hate that Helen, bitch, sometimes.
00:41:32Sometimes I'd like to take this knife and chop her up in little pieces, and put her in a deep fryer, and serve her as chicken wings.
00:41:43Is, uh, is that a fact?
00:41:45Probably not. Just a fantasy of mine.
00:41:48But everyone has a right to dream, right?
00:41:50Oh, yeah. Definitely. Definitely.
00:41:55So you ever wrap a cat up in a burlap sack and throw it through your neighbor's window?
00:41:59All right, so maybe I wasn't meeting the right people.
00:42:03But I was doing some great work up there.
00:42:05Fuck, I need to get back out on the road.
00:42:18What on earth for?
00:42:19To finish America's lost highways.
00:42:22Listen, Jude.
00:42:25It sounds like you might have talent.
00:42:27But do you honestly believe that a series of photographs of old country highways with cracked pavement is going to bring you any kind of commercial success?
00:42:39Let me tell you something.
00:42:40That cracked pavement is a metaphor for every American dream whose continuity has been broken.
00:42:46In what way?
00:42:47In the way that all of us had big dreams at one point in our life.
00:42:50But 99% of the time, while pursuing those dreams, something causes the wheels to fall off, and we settle for something less.
00:42:57And that's what made the tire fall off your trooper.
00:43:00No, baby. You were my cracked pavement.
00:43:02But let me tell you something.
00:43:03When I get out of here, that camera of mine is going to put that tire back on again.
00:43:08Now ask me, were there any other women who worked there?
00:43:12Who worked where?
00:43:14At the restaurant in Vermont.
00:43:15Do you have any tattoos?
00:43:18Where'd that come from?
00:43:20I don't know. I'm bored, and it could give me something to do, you know?
00:43:25If you had something, you could show it to me.
00:43:27Hey, Eric!
00:43:29Where the hell's my caffeine melt, you dumbass?
00:43:32I ordered the thing over a half hour ago, you half dick!
00:43:36I have one right here.
00:43:40On my bicep.
00:43:43You're from Vermont, and you've never been skiing.
00:43:45That's right.
00:43:48Wow. Did you ever leave town?
00:43:50On occasion.
00:43:51Once a month, my mother goes down to Bennington to shop.
00:43:55Sometimes I join her.
00:43:57We live together.
00:43:59You live with your mother?
00:44:01I have one.
00:44:03In here.
00:44:05Where?
00:44:05On my shoulder.
00:44:10I know, Jude.
00:44:12I'm a moderately attractive young girl who could be a much more attractive young girl.
00:44:16If only I put some effort into it.
00:44:19But my snowboarding boyfriend left me.
00:44:21My yuppie parents hate me.
00:44:23And I'm behind on my car payments.
00:44:25So what's the point?
00:44:27And I have one.
00:44:35Right here.
00:44:39That's my favorite one.
00:44:41I don't care about that.
00:44:43I want to talk about something else.
00:44:45In fact, I bet you're just the kind of guy that would like to marry a virgin, aren't you?
00:44:51No.
00:44:52Not necessarily.
00:44:53I wouldn't be opposed to the idea.
00:44:55I mean, in some sick, twisted, Freudian way.
00:44:57Isn't that every man's fantasy?
00:44:59That's interesting.
00:45:01Why?
00:45:02Because I'm a virgin.
00:45:04Why are you telling me that?
00:45:06I guess I'm just trying to open things up a little.
00:45:08But you're not supposed to be talking about yourself.
00:45:11You're supposed to be playing another character.
00:45:13But I don't want to do that anymore either, Mr. Donnelly.
00:45:16Listen, I don't want to talk about other women.
00:45:18And I don't want to play your big-ass girlfriend.
00:45:21But that's what I need from you.
00:45:23No, what you need, Mr. Donnelly, is the truth.
00:45:26And the truth is that she never loved you.
00:45:28And when she realized it, she let you go.
00:45:31How would you know?
00:45:33You just said you've never even experienced intimacy.
00:45:35I've been waiting for the real thing to come.
00:45:37It sounds to me like you're waiting your entire life for miracles to happen.
00:45:41My miracle has happened, Mr. Donnelly.
00:45:44The person I love has come into my life.
00:45:47Let's hope so, Stephen.
00:45:48Because until you lose your virginity, you don't know what a miracle is.
00:45:53No, Mr. Donnelly.
00:45:54The only person in this room that doesn't know about true miracles is you.
00:45:58And the reason your life is caught up in this voodoo story is because deep down inside,
00:46:03you're looking for your one true miracle.
00:46:05Which is why I can't play her anymore.
00:46:10Because she was not it.
00:46:12Yes, she was, and I was hers.
00:46:14It just got messed up is all.
00:46:16Now look, if you don't want to play her anymore, that's fine.
00:46:19But I need to go over this just the same, and I need you to listen.
00:46:23You do need me to listen.
00:46:24Because what lies ahead for you, if you don't overcome this,
00:46:28is far more tragic than anything you've ever been through.
00:46:32Oh, how would you know?
00:46:33Well, I can see your life in Vermont was extremely isolated,
00:46:36and that you struggled to surround yourself with people of similar cultivation.
00:46:44Hi.
00:46:49Your name's Big Daddy.
00:46:51That's what it says.
00:46:53Hmm, that's interesting.
00:46:56Of course, I'm guessing you've got a real name, too, right?
00:46:59What do you think?
00:47:00Well, I think that you probably do.
00:47:04Smart cookie.
00:47:06Thanks.
00:47:07Thanks.
00:47:09You mind telling me what it is?
00:47:14Paul.
00:47:16But I don't ever want to hear you say it, hear?
00:47:17Oh, sure, sure.
00:47:20You know, I can totally respect that.
00:47:22I don't need you to respect it.
00:47:23I just don't want to hear you saying it.
00:47:26Understood.
00:47:27Understood.
00:47:29So, I'm, uh...
00:47:31I'm guessing you got this name, Big Daddy, from Cat and a Hot Tin Roof, huh?
00:47:35What?
00:47:36The name, Big Daddy.
00:47:37It's from that Tennessee Williams play, Cat and a Hot Tin Roof.
00:47:39I don't know where it came from.
00:47:41Oh, oh, well, you see, Tennessee Williams, the playwright,
00:47:44he wrote this play called Cat and a Hot Tin Roof.
00:47:46I don't know who you're talking about,
00:47:47but in a minute, I'm going to take a cat, a tin roof,
00:47:50and the entire state of Tennessee
00:47:51and shove it up your puny little ass.
00:47:52Now, that's something you better respect.
00:47:53You got it?
00:47:55Yeah.
00:47:55Yeah.
00:47:56No problem.
00:47:59Well, get out of here.
00:48:02Sure, no problem.
00:48:05Big Daddy.
00:48:09Hey.
00:48:09You're, uh, old dog, huh?
00:48:16I can also see why this isolation caused you to contact Agnes again.
00:48:22Hello?
00:48:24Agnes, hello.
00:48:27Um, look, the reason why I'm calling is that I'm doing my taxes,
00:48:31and I'm going to write off a portion of my rent as a business expense,
00:48:35you know, because of my dog room.
00:48:36So, I'm just wondering, you know, if you could write me out a rent receipt
00:48:40for the month that I had the darkroom in your apartment.
00:48:42Is that really necessary?
00:48:44If I ever got audited, sure.
00:48:46Jude, you make less than $15,000 a year.
00:48:49I doubt you're ever going to get audited.
00:48:51Besides, how much of a write-off could it be?
00:48:53A couple hundred dollars.
00:48:55And how much would that actually save you on your taxes?
00:48:57I don't know.
00:48:59Twenty bucks?
00:49:00She never sent you the rent receipt, did she?
00:49:03No.
00:49:03And yet, you still continue to make the phone calls, right?
00:49:06How do you know?
00:49:07It's written all over you.
00:49:09And the phone calls became more and more bizarre, didn't they?
00:49:13Hello.
00:49:17Brogy!
00:49:18I'm sorry?
00:49:20Brogy!
00:49:21Okay, this is pretty strange.
00:49:23Money.
00:49:24It's the only thing that matters.
00:49:28Money!
00:49:29It's the only thing that matters.
00:49:38Hello.
00:49:39Of course, she knew it was you.
00:49:50I don't think so at first.
00:49:52And besides, I only did it a few times while I was in Vermont anyway.
00:49:56Once I got out in my mind that I wanted to move to D.C.,
00:49:58I got so preoccupied with that that I stopped calling.
00:50:00But going to D.C. turned out to be just another diversion.
00:50:04And once the isolation settled in,
00:50:06you started making the phone calls again, didn't you?
00:50:08That's only partially true.
00:50:09Yes, the isolation settled in again.
00:50:12But my decision to go to Washington had nothing to do with any diversions.
00:50:16My decision to go to D.C. was purely artistic.
00:50:19Oh, please.
00:50:20Why would any artist live in D.C. when they could live in New York?
00:50:23I don't know.
00:50:23Why did Van Gogh move to Arles instead of staying in Paris?
00:50:26Uh, because he was insane, Mr. Donnelly?
00:50:29Hey, stop pissing on Vincent.
00:50:31I'm not pissing on Vincent.
00:50:33I feel sorry for the man, as I should.
00:50:36Because as you well know, after Arles,
00:50:38he ended up in an insane asylum in Saint-Rémy where he committed suicide.
00:50:42And something equally tragic is in store for you
00:50:45if you can't face the reality of what you're running from.
00:50:47I'm not running away from anything.
00:50:50I'm running towards becoming an artist.
00:50:52By taking pictures of our national shrines like a common tourist?
00:50:55The monuments in D.C. were the furthest thing from my artistic itinerary.
00:50:59Well, what did this artistic itinerary have you take pictures of?
00:51:03The Beltway.
00:51:04The what?
00:51:05The Beltway.
00:51:06The highway that wraps around Washington.
00:51:09You're joking, right?
00:51:10There's no way you moved all the way down to D.C.
00:51:13to take pictures of the Washington Beltway.
00:51:15Yes, I did.
00:51:16In fact, I also planned to photograph the Baltimore Beltway, too.
00:51:20My working title for the series was
00:51:22A Tale of Two Beltways.
00:51:25Okay, Mr. Donnelly.
00:51:26Now I know what you're running from.
00:51:29What?
00:51:32You're gay.
00:51:34What?
00:51:35You're gay!
00:51:36Hey, fuck you.
00:51:37Oh, no, Mr. Donnelly.
00:51:38You are queer!
00:51:40Why?
00:51:41Because I take pictures of highway, Stephen?
00:51:43Nah, because the only possible explanation
00:51:46for this kind of irrational thinking
00:51:47is deeply rooted sexual repression.
00:51:50And since you obviously are familiar with women,
00:51:54the only other conclusion could possibly be
00:51:56is that what you really want is a man.
00:52:01And since you can't admit that to yourself,
00:52:02you just keep driving on and on and on,
00:52:05filling your time with aimless ambition.
00:52:07Oh, how the fuck would you know?
00:52:08You're just some hick nurse.
00:52:10Because until tonight,
00:52:11I was hiding from the very same thing.
00:52:14Oh, give me a break.
00:52:15I knew you were gay the moment I first saw you.
00:52:17How did you know?
00:52:18By the way you walk and talk and act.
00:52:20And believe me,
00:52:21you didn't just pick up these affectations tonight.
00:52:23But I waited for my miracle to come.
00:52:26And until it did,
00:52:27I wasn't sure.
00:52:29But tonight,
00:52:30my miracle came.
00:52:32And I'm positive.
00:52:33Back off here.
00:52:34If I hear you say to me
00:52:36what I think you want to say to me,
00:52:37that's going to put me completely over the edge.
00:52:39But you are over the edge, Mr. Donnelly.
00:52:41That's why I've got to say what I've got to say.
00:52:43No, Stephen.
00:52:44No, you don't.
00:52:45Mr. Donnelly,
00:52:46there's no use.
00:52:48I love you.
00:52:49Stop it, Stephen.
00:52:50I can't stop, Mr. Donnelly.
00:52:51It's true.
00:52:52I love you with all of the oxygen in my blood.
00:52:55I love you with the marrow in my bones.
00:52:57No, Stephen.
00:52:58No.
00:52:59Oh, Jude, it's true.
00:53:01I love you.
00:53:02I love you the way Anthony loved Cleopatra.
00:53:04The way Napoleon loved Josephine.
00:53:07I'm willing to risk it all.
00:53:09Let them do with me as they may.
00:53:12The truth is out.
00:53:13The time has come.
00:53:15Brace yourself, Mr. Donnelly.
00:53:17Brace yourself real good.
00:53:19I'm going to kiss you over and over and over.
00:53:22Well, how's our patient here?
00:53:24Has the thought cleared yet?
00:53:26I believe it's about to, doctor.
00:53:28Is that so, Jude?
00:53:30Stephen, this patient's not conscious.
00:53:33Oh, no.
00:53:34Mr. Donnelly.
00:53:35Mr. Donnelly, wake up.
00:53:36I'm not fucking gay.
00:53:41I'll admit, yes,
00:53:44I've had sexual thoughts concerning men.
00:53:46I even slept with a cross-dressing one once,
00:53:48but I didn't know he was gay until later.
00:53:51And besides, he was French.
00:53:53And sleeping with a Frenchman does not make you gay.
00:53:56Stephen, what have you two been talking about?
00:53:58Shut up, doctor.
00:53:59I'm not through.
00:54:00Now, look, I support the gay community.
00:54:02In fact, the straw that broke the Campbell's back for me in Vermont
00:54:05had to do with gay slander.
00:54:07But right now, in this moment,
00:54:10I miss you.
00:54:21Thanks.
00:54:21Thanks.
00:54:22Thanks a lot.
00:54:23Thanks.
00:54:24This next song is also about loss,
00:54:27but not loss in the eternal sense.
00:54:32The kind of loss that I'm referring to
00:54:34is more the kind of loss that we experience here on Earth.
00:54:38And, of course, I mean divorce.
00:54:45No, no, no.
00:54:46What, what, what, wait, wait, wait.
00:54:47What are you cheering at?
00:54:48I mean divorce is an ugly thing, right?
00:54:53In fact, a couple years ago I was at this party
00:54:55and after a while it dawned on me
00:54:58that I was the only person in that room
00:54:59who hadn't yet been through a divorce.
00:55:02That's because you're gay!
00:55:06But just the same,
00:55:08I know that I want to spend the rest of my life with a woman.
00:55:11I want this so badly
00:55:13that it's probably the thing that screwed me up the last three years.
00:55:15I, I'm possessed by this false ideal,
00:55:19eternal love.
00:55:20But, but I simply refuse to settle for anything less.
00:55:24Yes, Mr. Donnelly, that's fine.
00:55:26Now, can you count to ten for me?
00:55:28I don't need to count to ten, Doctor.
00:55:30My consciousness is quite clear.
00:55:32I'm sorry, Mr. Donnelly,
00:55:33but I begged to differ just a moment ago.
00:55:34You were out completely.
00:55:36I was faking, Doctor.
00:55:37I was simply trying to block out something I didn't want to hear.
00:55:40Something Stephen was trying to say?
00:55:45Yes.
00:55:47Was he accusing you of being a homosexual?
00:55:49He was trying to help me, I think.
00:55:51I see.
00:55:53Stephen, what did I specifically tell you earlier?
00:55:56Well, you said to play along with him.
00:55:57What else did I specifically tell you?
00:56:01I'm sorry, Doctor.
00:56:02Yes, well, this is the lacrosse player all over again.
00:56:05And if it weren't for the lack of qualified nurses in this town,
00:56:08you would be out of a job.
00:56:09I understand.
00:56:10No, I'm not sure that you do.
00:56:12Now, as it got to the point,
00:56:13you have told Mr. Donnelly that you love him.
00:56:17Wonderful.
00:56:19Well, luckily, we have another nurse coming on duty soon
00:56:21who can replace you.
00:56:23Until then, I want you to apologize to Mr. Donnelly emphatically.
00:56:27Then just do your job,
00:56:28which is simply to listen,
00:56:30and then keep him alert.
00:56:32Okay, Doctor.
00:56:33Okay.
00:56:33Stephen, I'm sorry.
00:56:45No, Mr. Donnelly,
00:56:46there's no need for you to apologize.
00:56:48I'm the one who's sorry.
00:56:49Why should you be sorry?
00:56:51You've only been trying to help me.
00:56:52No, that's not true.
00:56:54My intentions have been quite selfish, really.
00:56:57And I'd like to apologize to you.
00:57:00Why?
00:57:00Because I've been trying to seduce you all evening long.
00:57:05Seduce me?
00:57:06Come on, Stephen.
00:57:07Give me a break.
00:57:08You wouldn't know where to begin.
00:57:09You're a virgin.
00:57:10Actually,
00:57:11that's not true, Mr. Donnelly.
00:57:15I've been sexually active for over two decades now.
00:57:19Really?
00:57:21Yeah.
00:57:22Wow.
00:57:23This is becoming as bizarre as anything from my voodoo play.
00:57:27But I've got to admit, you have helped me.
00:57:30No, Mr. Donnelly.
00:57:33I have misled you
00:57:35for my own amusement.
00:57:38Maybe.
00:57:39But in doing so,
00:57:40you have helped me identify that thing
00:57:41that's been screwing up my life all these years.
00:57:44This false ideal, eternal love.
00:57:46It doesn't exist, does it?
00:57:47Nothing on this earth is eternal.
00:57:51So when the good things come into our lives,
00:57:52we've got to learn to enjoy them.
00:57:54But when it's time to let them go,
00:57:56we have to let them go.
00:57:58Otherwise, their memory will destroy us.
00:58:01But what if I can't let go?
00:58:03And what if I can get back what I lost?
00:58:06There is no chance.
00:58:09Otherwise, you're going to be reliving your life
00:58:10in Vermont and Washington
00:58:12for the rest of your life.
00:58:13Washington, right.
00:58:16I never told you about that.
00:58:17Sorry, mister, but we're all out of honey-roasted peanuts.
00:58:40Excuse me?
00:58:42We're all out of honey-roasted peanuts?
00:58:44That's what you're looking for, right?
00:58:46Yeah.
00:58:47Yeah, you're right.
00:58:49How'd you know?
00:58:50Because you're in here every night,
00:58:53and that's what you always get.
00:58:55Yeah.
00:58:55Yeah, I guess you're right.
00:58:57Well, tonight you're out of luck.
00:58:59Oh.
00:59:00Well, um,
00:59:02will you be getting a new shipment of them in soon?
00:59:03I don't know.
00:59:07Probably.
00:59:09Oh.
00:59:10Well, uh,
00:59:11until that time,
00:59:13how about me and you go out?
00:59:15What?
00:59:16You and me, let's go out.
00:59:18Regardless of when the peanuts come in.
00:59:21Get lost.
00:59:23Oh, come on.
00:59:24You don't mean that.
00:59:25What the hell are you doing, sir?
00:59:27I want to kiss you.
00:59:29Get lost.
00:59:30I mean it.
00:59:30Oh, come on.
00:59:31I'm going to call the cops.
00:59:32Get out.
00:59:32What? Come on.
00:59:32I mean it. Get out.
00:59:36Hey.
00:59:38Hey, how you doing?
00:59:40How you doing tonight, huh?
00:59:43How are you, sweetheart?
00:59:47Mildred!
00:59:49You kitty!
00:59:50Kitty, kitty!
00:59:51Kitty.
00:59:53Yes.
00:59:55Yes, you're lonely,
00:59:56just like me, aren't you?
00:59:58Hmm.
01:00:00Want to see where I live?
01:00:02Come on.
01:00:05I'll show you where I live.
01:00:10Excuse me, sir?
01:00:12Sir?
01:00:15What?
01:00:16Would it be alright
01:00:16if the kids had to look through
01:00:17your camera lens at your shot?
01:00:19When?
01:00:23When?
01:00:23When?
01:00:24Yeah, when?
01:00:26I'm sorry.
01:00:27I don't understand what you mean.
01:00:29I mean when.
01:00:30Before or after I shove this camera up your ass.
01:00:33The knife is out.
01:00:36The knife is out.
01:00:39The knife is out.
01:00:41But soon...
01:00:42It'll go in!
01:00:46It will go in!
01:00:49Did you just throw something at that car?
01:01:00No.
01:01:01Yes, you did.
01:01:02I saw you.
01:01:03I'm 33 years old.
01:01:05Then why are you standing in the bushes?
01:01:08Just getting some air.
01:01:10Yeah, right.
01:01:11I am.
01:01:12The world's gone to hell in the handbasket.
01:01:20Is that when you decided to do this
01:01:22America's Lost Highway series?
01:01:23Yeah.
01:01:24Yeah, I knew I had to get out of D.C.
01:01:26But as you can see,
01:01:27this hasn't helped you much either, has it?
01:01:29Now listen.
01:01:32We don't have much time remaining together.
01:01:35And Dr. Gansey is going to replace me soon
01:01:37with another nurse.
01:01:39But I'd really like to take the time we have left
01:01:42to help convince you of how important it is to let go.
01:01:45Well, I don't know how you'll do it,
01:01:47but you can certainly give it a try.
01:01:50Look.
01:01:51If I show you what'll happen to you
01:01:53if you don't let go of your past,
01:01:56I know you're going to be convinced to let go of it.
01:01:59Yes?
01:02:00Agnes?
01:02:02It's Jude.
01:02:03Oh my God.
01:02:05Agnes?
01:02:06Jude, go away!
01:02:07But Itsuki,
01:02:08I've come such a long way to see you!
01:02:10Jude, go away!
01:02:12I mean it,
01:02:12you're in enough trouble already!
01:02:13Oh, but I love you!
01:02:15I need you!
01:02:16I'm going to start yelling for help in a minute!
01:02:19Shit!
01:02:21Help!
01:02:28Agh!
01:02:29God damn it!
01:02:30Agh, you f***ing bitch!
01:02:33You f***ing bitch!
01:02:34Hold it right there!
01:02:35Agh!
01:02:35Agh!
01:02:42Agh!
01:02:42Agh!
01:02:42But officer!
01:02:45You don't understand!
01:02:46She f***ing ruined it!
01:02:47I'm going to end you if you take a step towards her!
01:02:49Get down on the floor and put your hands behind your back!
01:02:51But officer!
01:02:52Get on the f***ing ground!
01:02:54Stop!
01:02:58But that's the direction you're headed in, Mr. Donnelly!
01:03:00I don't care, Steven! I want you to stop!
01:03:02But only you can do that!
01:03:04You've got to let go!
01:03:05What if she made a mistake?
01:03:06But she didn't make a mistake, and you know that!
01:03:11You've just got to admit it to yourself.
01:03:13You've got to let reality be your closure.
01:03:16And the reality is that you're laid up in a hospital bed in Athens, Ohio
01:03:19with two broken arms and a concussion
01:03:22that you got in an automobile accident
01:03:24while running away from the problems and the pain that you can't confront.
01:03:29Now that is your present reality.
01:03:33Steven...
01:03:36No playing substitutes with this one.
01:03:38Talk to her as her own woman.
01:03:41And you may just find that you can become a new man.
01:03:43Steven! Get away from him now!
01:03:45Have you no decency at all?
01:03:47Doctor, I always just...
01:03:48I don't want to hear it!
01:03:49Just get yourself over to the ICU
01:03:51where even you wouldn't have the nerve to pull any such shenanigans!
01:04:01I apologize for Steven's behavior, Mr. Donnelly.
01:04:03I'm most embarrassed by it.
01:04:05Oh, that's okay, Doctor.
01:04:07Like I said, he was just trying to help.
01:04:11Hello.
01:04:13I'm Jude.
01:04:14Hi.
01:04:15I'm Claire.
01:04:16Claire.
01:04:17That's...
01:04:18That's a beautiful name.
01:04:20Jude's nice, too.
01:04:22Well, I see that the two of you are going to get along just fine, which is a good thing.
01:04:27Since it's imperative, we keep Mr. Donnelly conscious and alert.
01:04:30So in that case, I'll leave the two of you and check back in about an hour or so.
01:04:34Okay?
01:04:35Okay.
01:04:36Okay.
01:04:46So, the doctor tells me you were in an accident, that apparently a tire fell off your car.
01:04:54Yeah.
01:04:55Yeah, that's true.
01:04:57But I don't want to talk about my car.
01:04:59I'd much rather talk about yours.
01:05:02My car?
01:05:04Why?
01:05:05Because I bet it takes people to good places.
01:05:08Or mine only takes people to places where they don't belong.
01:05:11Well...
01:05:12When I first got out of nursing school, my car did take me to Yellowstone National Park.
01:05:22That was a really great place.
01:05:24Excellent, Claire.
01:05:25Excellent.
01:05:26Let's get into your car and go to Yellowstone.
01:05:28I've never been.
01:05:30And nothing could keep me awake and alert like the adventure of a new experience.
01:05:34One, two, three, four.
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