00:00How are the competition? How are you rivaling in your group or outside?
00:11Within ourselves?
00:14I feel unspoken but secretly.
00:19We were really friends with healthy competition.
00:23And then, the people around us were really comparing.
00:28So, as a teenager...
00:31Sino yung madalas ikumpara sa'yo?
00:34Sino yung madalas ikumpara?
00:35Parang, lahat lang talaga ng girls eh.
00:39Lahat yung girls?
00:40Talag ko.
00:41Or more of love teams.
00:43Yung magkaka-love team like Jabeah, Josh B, Chris Joy.
00:48Yung yung parang more of sino mas okay na love team, sino mas nakakakilig, sino mas kanya-kanyang gimmick sa mga-watches.
00:56Meron pa rin yan sa mga comment section.
00:59Meron pa rin po.
01:00Meron pa rin.
01:01Meron pa rin.
01:02Meron pa rin po.
01:03Pero ano na, hindi na sila yung parang mas gusto ko yung ganito.
01:07Mas more of, Gabi, ito yung childhood ko.
01:09Parang for them, masayang memory na lang din siya.
01:13Tama.
01:14At saka, alam mong kasama niyo, they grew up with you.
01:20Alam mo yun yung henerasyon.
01:23Pero nung kasagsagan talaga ng tween hearts, lalo na yung teen hearts, kahit pa paano na-apekto, umabang kayo?
01:30Ako personally po ah, parang kinain, parang nilamon ako ng, I'm trying to reach something ganun.
01:38Parang ganun, na parang in the middle, parang I lost myself.
01:41Ano yung mga boundaries ko, ano yung mga convictions ko for myself.
01:46Parang at some point, feeling ko naligaw ako ng landas.
01:50Kasi ang naging purpose ko is to get more attention, more ganyan.
01:57Okay. At anong naging resulta nun?
02:00Because of that drive.
02:01And thank you for being so honest.
02:03Lumaki po kasi akong Christian.
02:08So ang naging effect nun sa akin, parang napalayo talaga ako kay Lord.
02:13As in nawala yung relationship ko with God.
02:16Kasi instead of pursuing God, I was pursuing fame, pagka-artista, and all that.
02:22So at some point, parang I felt empty.
02:26Parang nagkaroon ng ganun point in my life na parang ano na?
02:30Ano nang gagawin ko? Ano nang meron?
02:32Okay.
02:33And syempre, during tween hearts nag-peak, pero nagkaroon din ang time na wala.
02:36Walang projects, ganyan, and then natapos yung relationship ko nga po with Christopher.
02:41So would you go back to the Lord in moments?
02:44Yes.
02:45Ayun.
02:46Parang dun ko na-realize na, okay, I cannot be in control of everything.
02:49Alright.
02:50But kahit tumalikod ako or inayawan ko si Lord or I lost my faith, parang God was still there waiting for me.
02:57Alam nyo, yun yung kwento. May mga moments tayo lahat na ganun.
03:00Na without realizing, because I manage talents, without realizing, yung parang,
03:07umabang ba ako?
03:08Nakalimot ba ako?
03:09You know, I was reading a lot of materials about you.
03:12In one interview, sinabi mo that you lost your passion.
03:15You deliberately walked away.
03:18Kailan nangyari yun?
03:20Yun.
03:21Yun nga po yung ano sa akin, kasi ever since kasi nung bata ako, nasa showbiz na po.
03:26So parang dito lumaki na hindi ko alam kung ano ba talaga yung definition?
03:30Ano ba, how do you define your passion?
03:32Paano manalaman kung ano yung passion mo?
03:34Kasi ako kasi nung bata ko, so dito po parang nasanay yung, dito ako nasanay.
03:40So parang feeling ko, ah, ito yung ano sa akin, this is the career for me.
03:45Kaya parang, parang nung time na yun, parang ito yung kinoconsider ko na,
03:49eh kasi siguro I'm good at this, ito na yung passion ko.
03:52Parang ganun na parang naging yun na kagad yung pananaw ko po.
03:56Pero after a while, parang, yun nga po, tulad namanggit ko kayo,
04:00na hindi ko naman po kasi nung tumatanda na ako na-realize yung mga bagay-bagay,
04:04hindi ko naman po talaga yung goal ko pala.
04:07Hindi ko naman gusto na maging super sikat na, ano ba tawag, mga matiny idol.
04:14Ang hirap, parang for me kasi parang hirap po niya i-maintain yung ganun image.
04:19That's when you decided?
04:21Yes.
04:22That's when you realized na, ay, hindi pala solid masyadong yung passion.
04:25Parang kailangan ko lagi mag-compete kasi po at that time to be on top.
04:29Kasi siyempre, you have to be competitive sa, hindi nga lang sa aming twins eh.
04:34Parang ang dami namin competition before.
04:36So parang nakapagod pa naman kayo pag-compete everyday.
04:38Parang araw-araw kailangan, lahat ng gagawin mo yung sa competition.
04:41That's the word. Napagod ka.
04:43Yeah.
04:44Kasi ang common sa inyong dalawa, you pursued education.
04:49Oo. Nag-aral ka. You also went back to school.
04:54Parang, but I like that whole discussion about napagod ako.
04:58I was competing with the world.
04:59How are you today?
05:01Sa buhay.
05:03Very content with where I am right now.
05:06Okay.
05:07Kasi before, naisip ko nga po yan.
05:09Kasi before siyempre kapag in-demand kayo sa showbiz,
05:13alam naman po natin talaga may perks naman talaga ang kapag in-demand kayo sa gantong business.
05:19Pero kapag naisip ko yung, ano ba ang tawag doon? Kapalit niya.
05:24Pag tinitimbang na po yung pros and cons, parang mas binavalue ko naman po
05:29kung ano meron ako ngayon na I have the time, but I have enough for the finances.
05:34Hindi naman sobrang excess, pero I still have.
05:37Kumbaga, hindi mababayaran kasi nung monetary value yung time na meron ka na hawak ko.
05:42Tama. At saka ang gandang perspective noon. Oo. Ikaw Joyce.
05:47Gusto ko sana po maghanap ng ibang word, pero yun din talaga eh.
05:51Parang very content and fulfilled.
05:53That's a powerful word ha?
05:54Yes. Kaya wala akong mahanap na kapantay eh.
05:58Kasi that's beyond money.
05:59Yes.
06:00That's beyond success.
06:01Yes.
06:02It's something that's internal.
06:03Pag sinabi mo I'm content, ang sarap.
06:17Yes.
06:18You are alone.
06:19Get ready.
06:20Oh my God.
06:21Oh my God.
06:22You should be seated.
06:23You are alone.
06:24You should be seated.
06:25You are alone.
06:26You are alone.
06:27Yes.
06:28I am alone.
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