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Full Drama Movie HD
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00:00:00That's mad.
00:00:02Hey, you want to go to the movie?
00:00:04No.
00:00:08What's wrong?
00:00:10Why are you acting so weird?
00:00:12You said you were going to be home by 10.
00:00:16I did not say I was going to be home by 10.
00:00:18Now, I was waiting for you.
00:00:20I thought we were going to do something.
00:00:22I thought, what do you do?
00:00:24Sit and look at the clock while I'm gone?
00:00:26I can't believe you wore that rag in public.
00:00:30Excuse me?
00:00:32You know how much this rag cost?
00:00:34So, five weeks ago...
00:00:36God, what are you all saying? My personal dresser?
00:00:40What is this really about?
00:00:44I can't believe you told that guy I was your boyfriend.
00:00:48Well, aren't you?
00:00:50Yes, but we've been together for two and a half years, you know?
00:00:52I think I'm a little tired.
00:00:54I hate lover and spouse and all that shit.
00:00:58How do you think that makes me feel?
00:01:00Okay, let's turn this discussion to you.
00:01:02You're so...
00:01:04So insecure.
00:01:06Small wonder.
00:01:08Okay, I feel to the fire, why don't you?
00:01:10You're giving me a major migraine.
00:01:12Can I take an aspirin?
00:01:14You're not even listening to anything I say.
00:01:16Jeff.
00:01:18What? You know, I'm trying to talk to you right now.
00:01:20You're not even listening to anything I say.
00:01:22Jeff.
00:01:23What? You know, I'm trying to talk to you right now.
00:01:24I'm talking to you right now.
00:01:26Jeff.
00:01:27What?
00:01:29What?
00:01:30What?
00:01:32What?
00:01:34It was unexpected.
00:01:36Not at all as I'd imagined.
00:01:41I was having trouble falling asleep that night, three days after he died.
00:01:46I was awake, so I know it wasn't a dream.
00:01:50He didn't actually appear.
00:01:54He passed over me like a gentle hand skimming the surface of cool water.
00:01:59He'd come, he said, to assure me there was something else.
00:02:04He spoke clearly and without judgment.
00:02:07The painful edge of fear in his voice was gone.
00:02:11He sounded whole again.
00:02:12As he had that day on the beach with the limitless horizon stretched out before us.
00:02:18At the moment, it all came together for us in a way that excused everything that preceded it
00:02:23and sustained us through all the terrible days that followed.
00:02:28And then he was gone.
00:02:31Not all at once, but gradually.
00:02:35Todd says these visits, real or imagined, speak to a desire for what he calls closure.
00:02:42The end of one chapter, the beginning of another.
00:02:46But for some time now, middles, beginnings, and ends have been in constant collision for me.
00:02:52Constant collision.
00:02:53Constant collision.
00:02:59See, it's starting.
00:03:01How long?
00:03:02A few hours.
00:03:05No more.
00:03:06No more.
00:03:06No more.
00:03:11No more.
00:03:16No more.
00:03:20I think you better come now.
00:03:50I think he just looked at me.
00:04:15He's gone.
00:04:20I can't seem to shake the images of death and dying.
00:04:38They're always with me.
00:04:39But if I am to make sense of the past ten years, I must first sort out all my memories, starting at the beginning, on that warm winter day in 1978.
00:04:51A dollar?
00:04:54No, I don't think so.
00:04:56Thanks anyway.
00:04:57No.
00:04:57Isn't that fabulous?
00:05:02My grandmother went blind carving that.
00:05:08Justin, how much?
00:05:09What's it worth to you?
00:05:10No, seriously.
00:05:13Ten.
00:05:14Ten?
00:05:14Ten dollars?
00:05:15It's brand new.
00:05:16It's never been worn.
00:05:17Oh yeah, I brought all this stuff from you.
00:05:25Only the five.
00:05:27I have one.
00:05:28For you, five.
00:05:30Thanks.
00:05:31You're welcome.
00:05:31Excuse me.
00:05:41I think I just bought that shirt.
00:05:43You think?
00:05:44You're not sure?
00:05:45No, I know.
00:05:46I just paid five dollars for it.
00:05:47It looks good on you, but yeah.
00:05:50Why don't you sell it to me?
00:05:52I wish I could, but it's a gift.
00:05:56It's going to be for someone else.
00:06:00Like a guy.
00:06:01First come, first serve, I guess, huh?
00:06:02Yeah, I guess.
00:06:04Look at these.
00:06:05Aren't they great?
00:06:06They're just your size and only twenty dollars.
00:06:08Great.
00:06:09I don't want any boots that's on.
00:06:10They're too expensive.
00:06:12I'll buy them for you.
00:06:14I don't want any boots.
00:06:15I want you to have them.
00:06:18Fine.
00:06:20Fine.
00:06:22Here you go.
00:06:31Thanks.
00:06:32I hope you like the shirt.
00:06:34Come on.
00:06:34Let's go.
00:06:49It's a restaurant.
00:06:50I need to just have a little bit of style.
00:06:54What do you mean by style?
00:06:55I don't know.
00:06:56Like, just something.
00:06:57Something sort of a nice one.
00:06:59I don't know.
00:07:00Just, I don't know.
00:07:02Something different, you know?
00:07:04I'm thinking about...
00:07:05Hey.
00:07:05I didn't mean to yell out like that.
00:07:09I...
00:07:09I don't know your name.
00:07:12But I recognize the shirt.
00:07:15It was for someone else.
00:07:17Um, yeah.
00:07:18Yeah, that's right.
00:07:19A gift.
00:07:21Yeah, it, um...
00:07:23It didn't work out.
00:07:25Fortunately, before Christmas.
00:07:26Well, it looks good on you.
00:07:34Thanks.
00:07:35Take care.
00:07:36Hey, uh, would you like to, um...
00:07:38Like to join us?
00:07:40And, no, I, I...
00:07:42I look like shit.
00:07:43I wasn't expecting to see anyone.
00:07:46You sure you're gay?
00:07:46What, um, happened to you?
00:07:52Lucky you don't want to hear my problems, man.
00:08:01Well, for a minute.
00:08:02Refills, anyone?
00:08:20Hair, put you on fire.
00:08:24So, um...
00:08:25What's going on?
00:08:28Well, it's been a crap of a week.
00:08:32I screwed my shoulder up playing soccer, and, um...
00:08:35Well, I got fired from my job at the library.
00:08:37Which is no big deal, because the pay sucked, and...
00:08:40I mean, that's what you get for being an English major, right?
00:08:43Hey, me too.
00:08:45Four years of college, and I'm a minimum wage slave at a Xerox shop.
00:08:49Oh.
00:08:51I also, uh...
00:08:53My lover, Tony, kicked me out.
00:08:56Wait a minute.
00:08:58You're not a crisis fairy, are you?
00:09:01What?
00:09:01A crisis fairy?
00:09:03One of those guys that, um, goes through life with a cartoon bubble over his head that says,
00:09:08Hey, God, pick on me.
00:09:10I insist.
00:09:12I don't think so.
00:09:14I'm usually lucky.
00:09:15You like Marquez?
00:09:23Uh, yeah, so far.
00:09:26Uh, we close him away.
00:09:30Let me see if I can, um...
00:09:31As he faced the firing squad, he remembered that distant afternoon when his father took him to discover the ice.
00:09:42Or something like that.
00:09:47That's really great.
00:09:52If I give you my number, would you call me?
00:09:59It's just that I don't deal very well with rejection.
00:10:08I asked you.
00:10:10To the degree that, um...
00:10:13Well, if your answering machine picked up, then...
00:10:15I'd be afraid to even leave a message.
00:10:17Oh, man.
00:10:19I thought I was insecure.
00:10:23Well, guess what?
00:10:26I don't own an answer to you.
00:10:28I like you.
00:10:36I think you're funny.
00:10:42Give me a call.
00:10:43Uh, Guy.
00:10:50If someone named Philip calls...
00:10:54Philip?
00:10:56Yeah.
00:10:56It fits.
00:11:10The way you cut through space, it's so, um...
00:11:14I can't even describe it.
00:11:18No.
00:11:19Don't.
00:11:21Don't let me do it.
00:11:25You are such...
00:11:26Ferb.
00:11:36Hold on.
00:11:42There.
00:11:43That's more like it.
00:11:47Wait, wait, wait.
00:11:48What?
00:11:49Disco?
00:11:50That's not real music.
00:11:52That's our official.
00:11:52That's the whole point, baby.
00:11:54It's about the beat.
00:11:57It's primal.
00:11:58It's cathartic.
00:12:00You smoke a little peyote and you do a rain dance.
00:12:02I like to slow dance.
00:12:03I like to slow dance.
00:12:08Oh, yeah?
00:12:09Yeah.
00:12:10You want to have sentimental types?
00:12:13There's a difference between being sentimental and having sentiment.
00:12:19Oh, yeah.
00:12:20Tell me all about it.
00:12:23Later.
00:12:24It's about it.
00:12:29It makes it so escalated.
00:12:30It makes it to 90s.
00:12:30Oh, yeah.
00:12:30Oh, harder.
00:12:31Harder.
00:12:32Harder.
00:12:34Little to the right.
00:12:34Little to the right.
00:12:35Little to the right.
00:12:35Little to the right.
00:12:40That's it.
00:12:41I hate the reciprocation part.
00:13:02This guy's in the picture.
00:13:05Oh, it's Jerry and Devin, my closest.
00:13:09Oh, you met Jerry that day at the plum.
00:13:11Oh, yeah, it was months ago.
00:13:15When did I get to meet them formally?
00:13:24They won't approve.
00:13:27And then they've been open.
00:13:29Hey, I know that shirt.
00:13:45Looks better on him.
00:13:47That's all, please.
00:13:53Don't do that.
00:13:56You'll overwhelm the taste of the watercress.
00:13:59Taste?
00:14:01What taste?
00:14:02So, Guy, what is it you do for a living?
00:14:18Well, right now I work at a bookstore, but I'm sitting for my real estate license.
00:14:33And you?
00:14:34I've devoted my life to good deeds.
00:14:44Would you excuse me?
00:14:47I have to go to the bathroom.
00:14:48How nice.
00:14:56He announces he's going to the bathroom like it was a normal bodily function.
00:15:01Next course.
00:15:13Good deeds.
00:15:16Yeah, like supporting half the coke dealers in town.
00:15:19The only thing he's ever worked on is his tan.
00:15:23All he ever does is go to the gym and get his hair streep.
00:15:26What's he live on air?
00:15:27No, the interest from his inheritance.
00:15:30The interest.
00:15:32Wow, must be nice.
00:15:33What about the other one?
00:15:34Jerry?
00:15:35Chef extraordinaire, the blue-haired ladies and old sissies.
00:15:39Yeah, well.
00:15:40They remind me of the wicked stepsisters.
00:15:42Completely harmless.
00:15:44They live only to annoy one another.
00:15:50Is this your imitation of a peach?
00:15:52Babe, the 60s are over.
00:15:58In fact, the 70s may be over.
00:16:01You know what?
00:16:03I decided that you are the good guys.
00:16:09Thanks.
00:16:11And, um, I decided that you're not a shadow puppet.
00:16:17You know, the kind of guy that only lets you see a silhouette.
00:16:22Only one dimension.
00:16:26And even that from a distance.
00:16:30Fortunately, you're the other kind.
00:16:35The other kind?
00:16:36Yeah.
00:16:38Flesh and bone.
00:16:39Kid, you slay me.
00:16:45I want to wake up with you every morning.
00:17:08You think?
00:17:13Yeah.
00:17:19Aren't you first familiar, okay?
00:17:20Well, the first record I bought was the original cast album, The Sound of Music.
00:17:29And the second one was Johnny Angel by Shelley Sabre.
00:17:34Come on, are you serious?
00:17:36No, I...
00:17:36I just always knew.
00:17:42You?
00:17:43I was ten.
00:17:50We had this neighbor, Albert.
00:17:52Nice guy.
00:17:54So well-groomed, my mom would say.
00:17:57He lived with his folks.
00:17:59He never married.
00:18:00But every day, I'd climb this huge tree in our backyard because Albert had a pool.
00:18:11Sometimes, he'd entertain it just off my dad because I'd be fagged this, fagged that.
00:18:18Why does he move down to the village with the rest of the fruitcakes?
00:18:21I never saw anything happen in the yard, anyway, but I'd get so excited just watching them.
00:18:31I used to love to climb that tree.
00:18:34I remember thinking my dad would get so pissed if he knew I was like Albert.
00:18:41Oh, man.
00:18:42Wait a minute.
00:18:43You became gay to spite your dad?
00:18:46No, you stupid.
00:18:49Don't stop.
00:18:50That tickles me.
00:18:51I, I...
00:18:52I...
00:18:55I...
00:18:55I...
00:18:56I...
00:19:56And then suddenly, one day, everything changed.
00:20:11Hey, how are you going to sleep in?
00:20:22Listen, I said I would make breakfast.
00:20:24You're never going to shake that flu.
00:20:25Oh, I better get those eggs in front, though.
00:20:33Did you hear me?
00:20:39Is this your impression of a Stafford way?
00:20:41How are you going to sleep?
00:20:42Oh, I'm going to sleep in front.
00:20:49Oh.
00:20:50Yes, yes, it's an emergency.
00:21:16Yes, I'll hold.
00:21:18No, no, I sent an emergency.
00:21:22Fucking bitch, cut me off.
00:21:25What are you screaming?
00:21:32What happened?
00:21:37What's the last thing you remember?
00:21:42I, uh...
00:21:44I went to the fridge for the eggs.
00:21:58And that doctor...
00:21:5918 months to two years, he says.
00:22:01He's giving us the terms of a lease on a goddamn car.
00:22:06He didn't even say he was sorry.
00:22:07He's a guy.
00:22:15Like he knew.
00:22:18But he didn't know.
00:22:21You don't think he came back because, um...
00:22:23What does it really matter anyway?
00:22:24He said this wouldn't happen because you and God had been together for so long.
00:22:45Come on, girl.
00:22:56Get yourself back.
00:23:05I'm fine.
00:23:06I'm fine.
00:23:10Okay.
00:23:12Um...
00:23:14Where are the, uh, books and tapes that he asked for?
00:23:19Right here.
00:23:23If you know, don't make me ask you.
00:23:26It was at times like these that we learned to draw strength from our shared memories.
00:23:48Hey, guys, guys.
00:23:50I can't go another step.
00:23:51Come on.
00:23:52Don't think about it, Phil.
00:23:53It's a few more miles.
00:23:55I think.
00:23:56Come on.
00:24:02Why are we doing this again?
00:24:04Because, Phil.
00:24:05A, we cannot afford the train.
00:24:06And B, we cannot appreciate all of this beauty from a moving vehicle.
00:24:13Oh, man.
00:24:15I had no idea.
00:24:18Thanks, Phil.
00:24:22Man.
00:24:32Postcards?
00:24:35Unpredictable.
00:24:40I say postcards.
00:24:41I know what you said.
00:24:44I can read your lips.
00:24:47Oh, really?
00:24:47How about reading this?
00:24:59I missed that.
00:25:01Again.
00:25:03Sorry.
00:25:05I don't do requests.
00:25:06I have one left over.
00:25:18You might want to send it to your dad.
00:25:21No.
00:25:21What are you doing with this?
00:25:33I like to take it out.
00:25:35Look at it.
00:25:36Imagine you as a child.
00:25:40I don't.
00:25:42It sucked.
00:25:45Everyone's childhood, by definition, sucks.
00:25:47I'm going to find a nice frame for this influence.
00:25:52Yeah, I think it was fourth grade.
00:25:54I know he's proud of it, but he won't cop to it.
00:25:57You know how he is.
00:26:01I don't remember.
00:26:02I don't remember.
00:26:02Look, he flew all the way out here just to see you.
00:26:26He flew all the way out here because he thinks that's what a father should do.
00:26:29He's got nothing to say to him.
00:26:33Why?
00:26:33Is he driving me crazy?
00:26:35No, no.
00:26:35He's been fine.
00:26:37Except he did the weirdest thing during dinner.
00:26:43Up.
00:26:44Up, Prince.
00:26:46Get it.
00:26:48Get it.
00:26:51Get it.
00:26:53Good boy.
00:26:55I guess he really misses his dog.
00:26:57What dog?
00:26:59He hates animals.
00:27:01The man, I told you, is psycho.
00:27:05Whatever.
00:27:05But you're going to have to deal with him.
00:27:08I have my hands full between the house and the doctors and the stores.
00:27:13All right?
00:27:18Guy.
00:27:21Okay.
00:27:22Okay.
00:27:22I want you to get better now.
00:27:38I'm not going to get better.
00:27:44Do you understand that?
00:27:46So, has he made out a will?
00:27:58You'll let me know.
00:28:04Why do you think he shuts me out?
00:28:06I always let him live his life exactly as he wanted.
00:28:14And look what he did with it.
00:28:16Get out.
00:28:17I wasn't even going to touch that one.
00:28:18So, you think he'll be coming back?
00:28:22Uh-uh.
00:28:23Guy called him the other day and told him he didn't want to see him again.
00:28:26What made me think death would be all neat and tied up with ribbons?
00:28:42There.
00:28:44Thanks.
00:28:44This thing's getting a bit threadbare, sweetie.
00:28:48No, no.
00:28:48It's just getting comfy.
00:28:52What about that paint stain?
00:28:54Oh, forget it.
00:28:54I've tried.
00:28:55It is not coming out.
00:28:57What do you think?
00:28:59Uh, well...
00:29:02It's yellow, all right.
00:29:05It's just not the bright yellow.
00:29:07No, it's the one we picked out.
00:29:09Chablis.
00:29:10Yeah, but I was kind of expecting more of a dusty egg yolk kind of yellow.
00:29:16You know, like an aging Roman palazzo.
00:29:19Like I know what the fuck you're talking about.
00:29:26Patrick.
00:29:27Anyone ever tell you that life is a banquet and you're starving?
00:29:30Yeah, yeah.
00:29:32Sorry.
00:29:34A little cow.
00:29:35It'll come out.
00:29:37Where's my kiss?
00:29:38Guys, stop.
00:29:39You're a mess.
00:29:40I'm left, huh?
00:29:41Yeah, so come clean me up in the bathtub.
00:29:43We can throw that tugboat.
00:29:44No, no, I can't.
00:29:45I don't have time, right?
00:29:46I've got to pull together a housewarming by Saturday.
00:29:48I guess so.
00:29:49Put some beers in the fridge and throw some chips in a bowl, huh?
00:29:53You're the problem with gay liberation.
00:29:54Now they'll just let anybody in.
00:30:00Okay.
00:30:02Maybe just a quick shower.
00:30:04Okay.
00:30:10Oh, California cuisine.
00:30:22Oh, California cuisine.
00:30:26Anorexic boiled veggies with overpriced balsamic vinegar and extra virgin olive oil.
00:30:36Good thing we ate.
00:30:38What do you mean you already ate?
00:30:39Oh, we had to.
00:30:41Had to digest.
00:30:42You can't do crystal on a full stomach.
00:30:44Slack party tonight.
00:30:45Gonna boogie till we puke.
00:30:47I'll be so sorry to miss that.
00:31:06Busy night?
00:31:09Oh.
00:31:10We were hoping for a scene.
00:31:12Yeah, frankly, this party could use it.
00:31:17I'd only agreed to an open relationship because I figured, if the door was open, the temptation
00:31:23wouldn't be so strong.
00:31:25The only thing that wasn't allowed was falling in love with someone else.
00:31:33But as Todd now likes to remind me, your dick always knows exactly what it wants.
00:31:39It isn't so easy with the heart.
00:31:46Todd.
00:31:52Do you want to hear something really sick?
00:31:55I later picked up the same guy.
00:31:57What was that about?
00:32:04Some weird sort of one-upsmanship.
00:32:08That's mature.
00:32:09That seems like another lifetime, but it was just yesterday.
00:32:17Guy used to say, sexual fidelity is this outdated middle-class concept to keep men from having
00:32:24to raise somebody else's bastard.
00:32:26It has nothing to do with us.
00:32:27I'm not going to let anybody lay a guilt trip on me about it.
00:32:30Such as a perfectly healthy outlet.
00:32:33It's going to get a little bit out of shape, all right?
00:32:35I mean, really, you don't have to have sex with everybody you love, so you don't need to love
00:32:42everybody you're upset with.
00:32:43Macho bullshit dressed up in queer clothes.
00:32:46We weren't the only ones who bought into it.
00:32:52And neither one of you was the slightest bit jealous.
00:32:55Jealousy was strictly against the rules.
00:33:00And it is so lame.
00:33:02I could never be with someone I don't love.
00:33:04How can you say that and kiss me in the same breath?
00:33:12You don't think it's possible to love two people at the same time?
00:33:16Look, it's hard enough to love one, but they don't come with all that baggage.
00:33:22I have the room to love Jerry and still be crazy about you.
00:33:26Oh, you are so loved.
00:33:30So tell me, why is it you swallow all that new age crap like, uh, if you love yourself
00:33:36enough you won't die?
00:33:41Love doesn't die.
00:33:43Only people.
00:33:44You still love Devin, right?
00:33:49And you'll carry us all with you when we're gone.
00:33:53You won't forget.
00:34:01You are amazing.
00:34:05Besides, I plan to be around.
00:34:10The cure?
00:34:11No.
00:34:12Don't give me hope, okay?
00:34:15It's too scary.
00:34:19Hey, teach.
00:34:21Is the gay history lesson over now?
00:34:24Can we hump?
00:34:25Inclenchable.
00:34:26I need to take my nauseous pillow.
00:34:32I need to take my nauseous pillow.
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00:34:41I need to take my nauseous pillow.
00:34:42I need to take my nauseous pillow.
00:34:43I need to take my nauseous pillow.
00:34:44I need to take my nauseous pillow.
00:34:45I need to take my nauseous pillow.
00:34:46I need to take my nauseous pillow.
00:34:47I need to take my nauseous pillow.
00:34:48I need to take my nauseous pillow.
00:34:49I need to take my nauseous pillow.
00:34:50I need to take my nauseous pillow.
00:34:51I need to take my nauseous pillow.
00:34:52it's also time for your shot yes yes
00:35:06it doesn't suck the diarrhea and it hurts like a bitch
00:35:12where's guy i left him sleeping
00:35:22up i need that oh sorry
00:35:41i'd like some privacy please
00:35:52you're going in stay back you stay back no absolutely not
00:35:58i've already been in no way i cheated you little
00:36:00shit i cheated two out of three i beat you
00:36:02ow ow okay one more time get over there
00:36:07what are you two doing racing racing whatever for god they're like children
00:36:22oh bless you
00:36:32so where's guy um he had to go back to work
00:36:36oh pity can that queen snore or what
00:36:46hey are you screwing around with cherry's cat patty davis you know i never remember the names
00:36:52phil
00:36:54so have you read my perspectives yet
00:36:56um i'm sorry i i just i've been swamped no um i've been around it i'm just you know
00:37:02i've got this foreclosure and everything
00:37:04i will read it i swear my mom's grave
00:37:10i think you'll be impressed
00:37:16look all i need is ten thousand dollars
00:37:18i know philly we discussed this already
00:37:20but it's a chance for me to own my own business
00:37:26guy look i know when you're stalling
00:37:28so why don't you just say no now and i won't get my hopes up
00:37:30all right look phil
00:37:36running a business is a very difficult thing
00:37:38you could lose your shirt that could come between us
00:37:40but if i don't try now then i'll never know what it's like
00:37:44all right well then let me give you a little advice
00:37:46don't sell so hard
00:37:48make you look desperate
00:37:50you know just forget it
00:38:00don't phil
00:38:02phil
00:38:04there are few things in life more boring than a lover's quarrel
00:38:08why am i discussing this with you of all people
00:38:14god you really piss me off sometimes
00:38:20hair
00:38:24buy yourself something nice
00:38:26a rolex
00:38:32i can't take this
00:38:36oh please i have so much fucking money
00:38:40but it didn't come from me
00:38:42well then how am i supposed to explain where i got that
00:38:44look that's your problem
00:38:46you can't tell guy
00:38:48and especially not jerry
00:38:50i do not want him hitting me up for one of his ridiculous theme restaurants
00:38:54rodeo soul
00:38:56i could give you equity
00:39:00in a coffee shop
00:39:04yeah right
00:39:06oh
00:39:08oh
00:39:10but there is a catch
00:39:14you have to dump that loser
00:39:16what
00:39:20you heard me
00:39:22all right otherwise hand it back
00:39:24i can't
00:39:30i can't
00:39:32you're too easy
00:39:38maybe you're right
00:39:40maybe the relationship is
00:39:42on its course
00:39:44don't
00:39:46face it
00:39:48the two of you love getting under each other's skin
00:39:50it turns you on
00:39:54you're fated for each other like me and that tasty little slut over there
00:39:58you're
00:40:04you're kidding right
00:40:06what
00:40:08it's
00:40:10the same melodrama just a different channel
00:40:12look
00:40:16look will you do me a favor if there's any money left over will you buy yourself a coat
00:40:22i'll call you tomorrow
00:40:26i'll pay you back
00:40:28promise
00:40:30of course you will
00:40:32you
00:40:34that's who you are
00:40:44ditto etc
00:40:46no
00:40:48he's out
00:40:50i'm all alone for you
00:40:52well why don't you
00:40:54tell that wife of yours you're going out for
00:40:56cigarettes
00:40:58huh
00:41:00huh
00:41:02i thought i wrote the check out myself
00:41:04he signed right in front of me
00:41:06now you know how the nails are
00:41:10give it another day
00:41:12and if it don't come
00:41:14i'll just bring you another
00:41:16person
00:41:22okay
00:41:24well now you change your mind
00:41:26oh stop
00:41:28okay
00:41:30all right
00:41:32bye-bye
00:41:34kisses
00:41:36oh
00:41:38son
00:41:40aren't you afraid one of those guys is going to take you seriously
00:41:42oh please
00:41:44a little attention is all they want really
00:41:46most of the time
00:41:48oh
00:41:50let the service pick it up
00:41:52oh
00:41:54how much longer do we have to keep this up
00:41:56another month
00:41:58two
00:42:00well good because jojo would appreciate if i brought home a paycheck one of these days
00:42:04look we've almost turned the corner okay and once we do
00:42:06i know i know gravy train
00:42:08i know i know gravy train
00:42:10it's the lowest damn train i've ever seen
00:42:12we're actually
00:42:14we're actually ahead of projections
00:42:16you know
00:42:18hey honey don't you look handsome today
00:42:20thanks
00:42:22like a fine gentleman
00:42:24blow out your candles
00:42:26laura
00:42:28this in this office space that i'm managing they um
00:42:30well they were getting rid of this and there's a hard drive in the car
00:42:34oh
00:42:36we can't even afford a pencil right now
00:42:38it's a gift
00:42:40oh
00:42:42bless your little heart
00:42:48what do we say
00:42:50thanks
00:42:58would it kill you to admit that that was very sweet
00:43:00why must you turn everything into a sensitivity card
00:43:02extend the man some credit
00:43:04extend the man some credit
00:43:06he is just feeling guilty
00:43:08if it was up to him then i would
00:43:10oh you're going to just nurse that grudge until he gets milk
00:43:12i already have a conscience
00:43:14and a mother
00:43:16okay you finished
00:43:26i need a witness for these
00:43:32hello
00:43:34billy
00:43:36can i get a witness
00:43:38um
00:43:40todd's coming by in a bit
00:43:42todd
00:43:44bitchin
00:43:46quit picking on him he's a good soul
00:43:48who else would put up with jerry
00:43:50yeah i was gonna put up with him when he gets sick
00:43:54this whole generation looks down on us anyway
00:43:56i swear if one more 20 year old gives him the attitude
00:44:00don't worry about todd okay
00:44:02he's got great karma
00:44:04great karma
00:44:06poor bastard
00:44:08hey did he really get it from the blood transfusion
00:44:12okay
00:44:14don't say anything though okay
00:44:16makes him feel guilty
00:44:18makes him feel guilty
00:44:30thanks
00:44:34okay
00:44:35i gotta go
00:44:36we're installing the new computers this week
00:44:38we've got time booked on them
00:44:40oops
00:44:41fell december
00:44:42good to make ass aren't you feeling
00:44:44okay
00:44:46did the doctor say when i go back to work
00:44:50okay pills water ivy um
00:44:52you want the window open
00:45:00why didn't you tell me to my face
00:45:02guy don't be angry
00:45:04oh gee phil what the fuck am i supposed to do
00:45:06you let me take care of you
00:45:08i don't want you to take care of me
00:45:10why can't i be on the phone making deals till i croak
00:45:14what's wrong with that
00:45:16you can catch up on your reading
00:45:18what
00:45:20like i'm on some extended vacation to god damn
00:45:24we're beginning
00:45:26i can't read anymore phil
00:45:32i have no attention span
00:45:34the drugs have me too song to
00:45:36god knows i've got no sex drive left
00:45:40and now i can't work that's
00:45:42that's great that's just
00:45:44everything in my life one by one is just
00:45:48That's great. That's just...
00:45:52Everything in my life, one by one, is just...
00:46:02Hey.
00:46:18I don't know. It's so grown up, so white picket fence.
00:46:24Look at it this way, Phil.
00:46:26It won't cost much more than renting. We get a tax break. It's a steal.
00:46:30Look, it's totally redecorated. We got a pool.
00:46:33I mean, the only reason we're getting it so cheap is because of that probate.
00:46:36You know, that's another thing. I still feel guilty that we're taking advantage of someone else's misfortune.
00:46:42It's not your fault the guy died of that gay thing, Phil.
00:46:45What's next, guys? The Morning in America speech?
00:46:49My best friends have that gay thing, okay?
00:46:51And every day I check every single pimple on my body for that gay thing.
00:46:54Alright, alright. Look.
00:46:56When you stop obsessing, I'll be at the office.
00:47:01God, you can be such an asshole sometimes.
00:47:04What?
00:47:05Oh, by the way, we have to have our bid in by tomorrow.
00:47:09And, uh, don't expect me home again till late. I got a lot of paperwork.
00:47:14Yeah, right. When I was born yesterday.
00:47:26Are you thinking of moving in?
00:47:33Guess you're preoccupied, huh?
00:47:35I could be distracted.
00:47:47I know the contented cow look.
00:47:49Who is he? Tell mama all.
00:47:51Well, actually, this guy. To christen the new house. It was incredible. It was like one of the...
00:48:01Oh, no, wait a minute. If it was a perfect stranger, then...
00:48:04That's different. That's hot.
00:48:06Yes.
00:48:07If the two of you are still added, at least have the decency to keep it to yourselves.
00:48:16I require coffee.
00:48:17No. Caffeine is lethal. I'm fixing us some nice ginger tea.
00:48:21There. Thanks.
00:48:31Oh, go ahead, Jerry. Go ahead and tell him before you rupture a blood missile.
00:48:47Go on.
00:48:53He has a purple splotch on the bottom of his foot.
00:48:59Oh, my God. Devlin, are you okay? I mean, did you talk to a doctor about it?
00:49:02I told you.
00:49:03What did you do? I didn't even hear about it.
00:49:05I didn't even hear about it.
00:49:06Philip, stop, please. I am dropping T-cells by the minute here, all right?
00:49:10My holistic doctor, Sri Lanka Punjab, or whatever his name is, says that I am already carrying too much stress.
00:49:19I can't be carrying yours, too.
00:49:22You know, this is fabulous. Where did you get this?
00:49:26That? Yeah. I got that, oh, at this little shop on the left bank.
00:49:33You promised me we'd go to Paris together.
00:49:42You still can.
00:49:44We're not supposed to fly.
00:49:47James?
00:49:50Have you unpacked your kitchen knives yet?
00:49:53I'm making coffee.
00:49:54No, thank you. Jerry, not a word.
00:49:56Horse, the candlestick's everything. The mantelpiece has to be all redone.
00:49:59No, I can't, I can't give you that. The horse I like.
00:50:02Oh, that's a horse?
00:50:04I don't like that.
00:50:07Mmm.
00:50:08Guess who I ran into the other day at the grocery store?
00:50:13Larry from the gym.
00:50:16Poor dear.
00:50:18Who?
00:50:20Larry from the gym.
00:50:24Larry from the gym. God.
00:50:26Oh, right. Larry from the gym, of course.
00:50:28You know, with the work boots and the 501s and the tight white t-shirt.
00:50:31That Larry from the gym.
00:50:32Very funny, Phillipe.
00:50:35Larry.
00:50:37The Pillsbury Doughboy with biceps.
00:50:39The Academy Award winning hair.
00:50:44Larry.
00:50:45Vaguely, vaguely. Why?
00:50:49He has the look.
00:50:54What?
00:50:55The look.
00:50:58Ugh.
00:51:01Auschwitz in a Lacoste.
00:51:03The gray tan.
00:51:04Only not from the sun.
00:51:06From those vile little chemical cocktails.
00:51:08Cheekbones all caved in.
00:51:09The stringy flyaway hair.
00:51:10The look.
00:51:11I can't believe you two gossip about something like this.
00:51:14Oh.
00:51:15Smell you, Princess Grace.
00:51:17Please.
00:51:18Please.
00:51:19Believe me.
00:51:20When we have the look, people are going to remark.
00:51:24Try and stop them.
00:51:27I just don't have it yet.
00:51:33You guys would tell me, right?
00:51:36So I could go into deep veils.
00:51:38Oh, God.
00:51:39When those sweet society matrix that I cook for, find out that is it.
00:51:43I am out on my ass.
00:51:44You know, I will be just out of a job and living in a cardboard box somewhere.
00:51:47Jerry.
00:51:48Jerry.
00:51:49You look terrific.
00:51:55You're right.
00:51:56I look terrific.
00:52:01You look terrific.
00:52:03Come here.
00:52:09I sometimes wonder whether our lives would have been different if Jerry and Devin had allowed themselves to be lovers.
00:52:15Or if Guy and I had been better friends.
00:52:18Look, maybe you guys should order, okay?
00:52:21I'm gonna try his office again.
00:52:26Jerry, honey, another strawberry margarita for me.
00:52:29A new sauce.
00:52:42Hey.
00:52:44Picturing him in a blazing car crash is not gonna make you feel better.
00:52:48Trust me, I've been there.
00:52:49Oh, great.
00:52:50Now I'm acting like you.
00:52:51Well, of course you mean open, vulnerable and caring, not neurotic and overprotective.
00:52:56Oh, of course that's what I mean.
00:52:58And don't go worrying about your friends.
00:53:01But, if that Devin folds his napkin one more time, do they call that anal retentive or anal compulsive?
00:53:08Yes.
00:53:14Well, he is surprised.
00:53:16What's Spanish for, I'll have a large raw T-bone steak?
00:53:25It looks as though he's walked into a door.
00:53:29With knuckles on it.
00:53:34I don't want a fucking surprise party.
00:53:36Take care.
00:53:37I love you.
00:53:42Hey, buddy.
00:53:44I hate doing this on the answering machine, but I haven't got the guts to do it in person.
00:53:46This isn't easy.
00:53:47You're gonna think I'm a total shit for doing this so soon after we bought the house too, but...
00:53:49Well...
00:53:51I moved in with Tony.
00:53:53We've been seeing each other for a while, and I think I've got real feelings for him, and I need to explore that.
00:53:57But...
00:53:59I don't want you to work.
00:54:02To do it.
00:54:04You know what?
00:54:05I don't have to worry about your question.
00:54:07This isn't enough.
00:54:08I don't know.
00:54:10Yes, sir.
00:54:11You're gonna think I'm a total shit for doing this so soon after we bought the house too, but...
00:54:14Well.
00:54:17I moved in with Tony.
00:54:20We've been seeing each other for a while, and I think I've got real feelings for him, and I need to explore that.
00:54:24But I don't want you to worry, all right?
00:54:28I fully intend to keep up my half of the house payments
00:54:31until we decide to sell and the way real estate prices are.
00:54:54Philip, I know you're in there.
00:55:02Your car's out front, you dumb cluck.
00:55:09I do not appreciate the silent treatment.
00:55:14I did not dump you.
00:55:18I am your closest friend.
00:55:23You look like shit.
00:55:24Look, it is midnight on a Saturday night.
00:55:29What are you still doing here?
00:55:30Cleaning up.
00:55:32Why?
00:55:33You're taking work away from people who really need it.
00:55:36Is that your version of trickle-down economics?
00:55:39It relaxes me.
00:55:42My shrink would say it's just another manifestation of your need to be in control.
00:55:47You disgust me with your therapist?
00:55:50How else could I waste 50 minutes without talking about myself?
00:55:53Never mind that now.
00:55:54Hey.
00:55:57See these?
00:55:59Stars in my eyes.
00:56:02Since you have been in solitary confinement,
00:56:05you are the last to know that...
00:56:07I have found someone with whom I'm going to spend the rest of my abbreviated life.
00:56:14I am serious.
00:56:15Uh-huh.
00:56:15I am serious.
00:56:18Okay.
00:56:18Name, rank, serial number.
00:56:23Todd.
00:56:2521.
00:56:27And a half.
00:56:28The first time I saw him, he winked at me.
00:56:34He was wearing a red bandana.
00:56:38He has a diamond stud in his left ear.
00:56:40Or at least a zircon.
00:56:42And he has a tattoo of an anchor on his left cheek.
00:56:46Oh, God.
00:56:47He looks like a pirate in training.
00:56:49And the two of you have so much in common.
00:56:51We're both marked men, if that's what you mean.
00:56:55I met him at my weekly pariah meeting.
00:57:00He's very into self-healing.
00:57:02Oh, and protesting.
00:57:04The government.
00:57:04The drug companies.
00:57:06Todd says AIDS is like Tuskegee.
00:57:08They started it in Vietnam and it got out of control.
00:57:14It's probably why Kennedy was shot.
00:57:16Think about it.
00:57:19Or why Hitler invaded Poland.
00:57:21Think about it.
00:57:26I should know better than to expect sympathy from a neg.
00:57:29When you are ready to rise out of the depths of self-pity
00:57:39and think about someone besides yourself for a change.
00:57:43Okay, okay.
00:57:47You're on.
00:57:53It's like a miracle.
00:57:54He says he likes to undress me with his eyes.
00:58:01But he just...
00:58:03He has like this hopeful quality, you know?
00:58:07No thick skin.
00:58:11Kind of like you used to be.
00:58:12As corny as Kansas.
00:58:18Okay.
00:58:20Corny.
00:58:24I was kidding.
00:58:26Are you crying?
00:58:30Alert the media.
00:58:34I'm happy for you.
00:58:37Really.
00:58:45What am I going to do if I screw this one up?
00:58:47I really will die alone.
00:58:54Stop saying that.
00:58:56You have friends.
00:58:58Right.
00:59:01And you've been such a good friend these past couple months.
00:59:04I know that I have been.
00:59:05No, it's...
00:59:06You know, if it's any consolation.
00:59:17I saw Bluebeard the other day,
00:59:19and he doesn't look any happier than you do.
00:59:21Look, at least you were in love once, all right?
00:59:26If you two hadn't been so competitive.
00:59:28Huh?
00:59:29Oh, my therapist says...
00:59:32Oh, fuck it.
00:59:33Pay for your own sessions.
00:59:40I've spent so much time...
00:59:42wanting this so badly...
00:59:46and telling myself it wasn't going to happen.
00:59:49Then...
00:59:50How do I unlearn all that now?
00:59:56A day at a time.
01:00:04Uncanny.
01:00:06That is exactly what Todd would have said.
01:00:09You're going to love him.
01:00:10I know it.
01:00:12I'm meeting him right now at Poindexter's.
01:00:14Break out your tap shoes, kid.
01:00:16We're going to paint the town red.
01:00:17What do you want?
01:00:40I missed you.
01:00:41I'll be in the bedroom until you're gone.
01:00:47Don't wait.
01:00:53What the hell happened to you?
01:01:01Tony.
01:01:03Tony?
01:01:03Did you call the police?
01:01:08Fucking cops, no.
01:01:10They don't care every time you call them.
01:01:14They don't want to get involved.
01:01:16Every time?
01:01:19Tony's got a temper, Phil.
01:01:20He's crazy.
01:01:23Jealousy.
01:01:23I mean...
01:01:24I mean, if you knew I was here...
01:01:25Well, why do you let him do the...
01:01:26I can't hit him back, Phil.
01:01:27I'm afraid I'd kill him, you know?
01:01:30I'm just afraid.
01:01:31So...
01:01:34I punch out a wall
01:01:37and break two bones in my hands.
01:01:40Don't shoot him, I am.
01:01:45I don't even know you anymore.
01:01:50Well, it's not going to happen anymore.
01:01:53I'm true.
01:01:54I mean, it's over between us.
01:01:56And I'm going to find a new place to stay.
01:01:58Oh, right.
01:01:58And you want to come back here?
01:02:01Do you get off on it, guy?
01:02:06Is that it?
01:02:07No.
01:02:12I don't know.
01:02:14Well, guess what?
01:02:15I'm not into pain, okay?
01:02:17Physical or any other kind.
01:02:19I'm a total jerk, okay?
01:02:21Don't let me go back there, please.
01:02:37I'll make a cup of coffee or something.
01:02:39I don't see how it's possible for two men to be in love.
01:02:53Sex is actually the most natural part of it.
01:02:56But when those giant male egos start to butt heads,
01:02:59when there's that constant need to be on top emotionally,
01:03:02it's...
01:03:04It's exhausting.
01:03:06Leave it from me.
01:03:07You're supposed to be getting ready for your weekend.
01:03:10I'll do it in the morning.
01:03:11I'm not going.
01:03:14It's over and he wants to begin again.
01:03:17Then why let him move back in?
01:03:19Well, to have his house too.
01:03:21Well, we made an agreement.
01:03:25Just friends.
01:03:33Let me ask you something.
01:03:36What attracted you to guy in the first place?
01:03:38Let's go of the bone, Fido.
01:03:47All right.
01:03:51He seemed centered.
01:03:55Strong.
01:03:58Like the kind of guy who could take care of you.
01:04:02And I thought only women bought into that shit.
01:04:05So, when he didn't live up to your expectations,
01:04:08you couldn't forgive.
01:04:10Also, now it's my fault that he walked all over me with cleats.
01:04:13Philip, you're going to throw away seven years just because.
01:04:15Just because?
01:04:17Are you kidding?
01:04:21You know, I'm not excusing him.
01:04:23But in case you haven't noticed,
01:04:25you are not exactly a walk in the park yourself.
01:04:31Expect too much of people.
01:04:37Expect too much of people.
01:04:43Okay.
01:04:43You're right.
01:04:45We all know how much Linda loves to be right.
01:04:49So, why don't we all join hands and sing in the last chorus of unconditional love?
01:04:54Why not stand by your man?
01:04:58Oh, well, darling, I thought you hated country and western music.
01:05:02How about Ain't Nobody's Business?
01:05:04I love country and western.
01:05:07Your squall's on the warpath tonight.
01:05:10Oh.
01:05:12Just keep going.
01:05:13I will outlast you.
01:05:14We gotta go or traffic will be a nightmare.
01:05:36Hey.
01:05:36Look, if you don't want to go.
01:05:44No, no, no.
01:05:48I'm a man.
01:05:49That day on the beach
01:05:59with the limitless horizon stretched out before us
01:06:02when it all came together in a way
01:06:06that excused everything that preceded it
01:06:08and sustained us through all the terrible days that followed.
01:06:12I don't buy it.
01:06:25He would have told me.
01:06:27Jerry.
01:06:30The police would not have signs of struggle.
01:06:33Well, who said anything about struggle?
01:06:37Haven't you guys ever heard of passive suicide?
01:06:39Don't you remember Joan Fontaine
01:06:42drinking the glass of milk in suspicion
01:06:44even though she thought that Cary Grant had poisoned it?
01:06:46Jerry.
01:06:47Who'd want to offer him?
01:06:54Maybe one of those cheap, homo-hating hustlers
01:06:57caught a peek at one of his lesions.
01:07:01He was still picking up guys?
01:07:05Maybe he sift his dealer again.
01:07:07Did you know about this?
01:07:09Okay, okay, I'm coming, I'm coming.
01:07:13It's about time.
01:07:14Are you deaf?
01:07:15I've been out here screaming myself worse
01:07:16like some fish white.
01:07:20Hey, hey, where have you been?
01:07:21I missed you.
01:07:22Yeah?
01:07:23Why?
01:07:24Because, Devin, you're one of my older people.
01:07:26Is the human pinata here?
01:07:29What are you doing up at this hour?
01:07:33So?
01:07:34Is he gone?
01:07:35I can't believe you.
01:07:38You let that scumbag move back in.
01:07:41You know, you once said that we were faded for each other.
01:07:45I was just trying to make you feel good.
01:07:49You're being especially ugly today.
01:07:51What do you want?
01:07:52You owe me.
01:08:00You know, big time.
01:08:02No, no.
01:08:03Devin, I told you.
01:08:03Where the fuck are you going?
01:08:05You've got to.
01:08:12I'm in pain.
01:08:13Can't you get a prescription from your doctor?
01:08:17Crap.
01:08:18It doesn't do anything.
01:08:21And do not presume to tell me how to deal with my pain.
01:08:25Look.
01:08:28I'm disfigured, goddammit.
01:08:31Now, call the Mexican.
01:08:37The one who works with you down at the store.
01:08:40I had to fire him, Devin.
01:08:41I caught him dealing out of the back of the store.
01:08:43Well, where?
01:08:43Do you know where he lives?
01:08:45Somewhere.
01:08:46I don't know.
01:08:46Where?
01:08:48Where?
01:08:49El Monte, I think.
01:08:50El Monte.
01:08:53Well, you'll have to go.
01:08:56I never leave the west side.
01:09:01Today, I'll take care of him.
01:09:11Poor Devin.
01:09:13He seriously lacked self-love.
01:09:23We had dinner Sunday night.
01:09:27He seemed like, um...
01:09:29I don't know how like he was going to kill himself.
01:09:33Exactly.
01:09:35We had both decided.
01:09:38If things got too bad,
01:09:40pills or carbon monoxide.
01:09:45Smell in that place.
01:09:48He would never, never have wanted to be found like that.
01:09:52Of course, his family didn't waste a minute.
01:09:57Immediately had him cremated.
01:10:01You know how money loathes scandal.
01:10:05Oh, and another thing.
01:10:08He didn't leave a note or a will.
01:10:10That is not Devin's style.
01:10:16The bastard promised me the Hockney.
01:10:18Jerry.
01:10:20You're battling.
01:10:33We should have a memorial.
01:10:36We could do it here.
01:10:37That's a good idea.
01:10:39We should invite the family.
01:10:42A memorial, not a three-ring circus.
01:10:45Yes.
01:10:47Great.
01:10:50I'll do the food.
01:10:53Well, let's see.
01:10:54What's...
01:10:54What's really bad for you?
01:10:58Lots of cholesterol.
01:11:00And high sodium.
01:11:02High fat.
01:11:04Raw oysters.
01:11:06I get to work.
01:11:07And everybody has to smoke filterless cigarettes.
01:11:10Thanks for allowing me to hear my nose.
01:11:11Then we'll wash it all down with my Jim Jones Kool-Aid cocktail.
01:11:18Stop me.
01:11:18I've crossed over into dimension.
01:11:22Honey, calm down.
01:11:26It's like this giant fuck you.
01:11:28You know...
01:11:29It's really gone.
01:11:39I'll take you to a movie tonight.
01:11:48Something funny?
01:11:52Well, not too early.
01:11:56I'm getting my hairs dyed.
01:11:58Screaming platinum.
01:12:00See you.
01:12:02I'm only kidding.
01:12:04It's all right.
01:12:05I just made a little selfish.
01:12:07I'll take care of someone.
01:12:10Mm-hmm.
01:12:10Okay, let's go.
01:12:40Why are you doing this?
01:13:04Besides being inappropriate, this is rude.
01:13:07One of my best friends just killed himself, and when I see a guy kiss you, I get a pain to love someone that much.
01:13:22What?
01:13:23What is it, huh? Is it sex? Is that what you want?
01:13:27Then can we move on?
01:13:28No. I want to be emotionally inside you.
01:13:34All right. So you don't want to fuck my ass. You want to fuck my head.
01:13:47Look, don't do this, okay?
01:13:53Don't take advantage of me right now.
01:13:56I like you.
01:14:00You're a good kid.
01:14:01I'm not a kid.
01:14:06And I can tell you like me.
01:14:09I have a strong time.
01:14:16I ain't my bitch.
01:14:26Look at me.
01:14:27What about you?
01:14:57Just happened.
01:15:27Mom, it's me.
01:15:43Did I wake you?
01:15:46He's in the hospital again.
01:15:50Oh, honey, I'm sorry.
01:15:53You want me to come out there?
01:15:56It's just that, um...
01:15:58I was in so much pain.
01:16:01I don't feel like I have the right to complain about myself.
01:16:10Ma, almost everybody I know is dead.
01:16:19Do you know what that's like?
01:16:21Yeah.
01:16:23But you still have Dad.
01:16:25Oh, thank God.
01:16:27Just to toss the dice, Ma, it could have been me.
01:16:32I know.
01:16:35Sometimes, when I wake up, I say I hope when I walk into his room.
01:16:41He's dead.
01:16:43Is that horrible?
01:16:45No.
01:16:46And then at the same time, I get crazy at the thought of his not being here.
01:16:52Someone's at the door.
01:16:57It's open!
01:16:58The door?
01:17:02Don't worry, Ma.
01:17:03The boss of the Strangler is never around when you need him.
01:17:06I wish he wouldn't joke like that.
01:17:08Who's joking?
01:17:10I'm kidding, Ma.
01:17:14Thanks for listening.
01:17:16Call me back.
01:17:18How's he doing?
01:17:27Oh, they don't know what it is.
01:17:29Of course.
01:17:30They have to run tests, and then they have to run more tests.
01:17:33They say that there's this new drug, though.
01:17:39A-B-Z or something like that.
01:17:41A-Z-T.
01:17:43They can get you some on the underground.
01:17:50Do you want help?
01:17:56Lick away.
01:17:58Do you think it works?
01:18:07They don't know yet.
01:18:10Nobody knows a goddamn thing.
01:18:13Do you want me to take you there?
01:18:17Come on, we can sit with him for a while.
01:18:21Why are you always so fucking together?
01:18:25Me?
01:18:27You're the one who's doing a mass mailing for AIDS in the middle of the night.
01:18:31With your lover practically in a coma.
01:18:34And you make Florence Nightingale look like Nurse Ratched.
01:18:38If one more person tells me how strong I'm being.
01:19:01Can I sit on your bed for a while?
01:19:03It's your bed, too.
01:19:04It's your bed, too.
01:19:05It's your bed, too.
01:19:26Who told you he died?
01:19:31You just did.
01:19:35I tricked you.
01:19:39How was he?
01:19:43He was fine.
01:19:48His family was there.
01:19:50And Todd.
01:19:52He was peaceful.
01:19:56Like a standard grace.
01:20:00That's good.
01:20:01That's good.
01:20:04That's good.
01:20:08Devin.
01:20:12Jerry.
01:20:15Guess I'm next.
01:20:17I guess I'm next.
01:20:23It's okay.
01:20:26I'm ready.
01:20:30I'm so tired of being sick.
01:20:37I don't know how you stuck it out this long.
01:20:40I know if it was me.
01:20:41Because of you.
01:20:47I'm still here because
01:20:50I need to spend my time with you, Billy.
01:21:05Looking back, I realize now that the only way we were able to go on loving
01:21:10through all the madness
01:21:11was due to a single act of forgiveness.
01:21:15God, I get so bored sometimes.
01:21:22That is a luxury I can't afford.
01:21:28I mean, the kind of boredom that just
01:21:30eats at you no matter how busy you are.
01:21:35You know, like
01:21:35whatever it is you're doing, it's always the wrong thing.
01:21:40Here I am doing absolutely nothing on that board at all.
01:21:53Everything seems perfect.
01:21:57Almost everything.
01:21:58Come on.
01:22:06Let's go for a walk.
01:22:12Hey.
01:22:13What was your first memory?
01:22:15My first memory?
01:22:16I don't recall.
01:22:20I remember mine very clearly.
01:22:25I was about four years old and I was taking a nap.
01:22:30My mother wakes me up and asks me to come help her with the lunch dishes.
01:22:33As I got up, I wiped the sleep from my eyes.
01:22:42I remember thinking,
01:22:44this is the beginning of your life.
01:22:49I don't recall anything that happened before that, but
01:22:55to this day,
01:22:59that memory stands out.
01:23:04Clear.
01:23:06Distinct.
01:23:08Really?
01:23:09What I don't understand is
01:23:11how could I know that that was the beginning of my life
01:23:15when I didn't really know what life was?
01:23:16Phil, do you believe in reincarnation?
01:23:24What, do you mean thinking that you were the queen of Egypt in a past life
01:23:27to make you feel better about being a doorstop in this one?
01:23:30No.
01:23:32No.
01:23:36I believe that if
01:23:37it's any kind of life after death,
01:23:39it's that you
01:23:40you keep coming back as yourself
01:23:43over and over again until you get it right.
01:23:46It could be more hellish than that, huh?
01:23:53Would you want to come back as you?
01:23:56Probably worse things.
01:24:01Not for me.
01:24:06Except I get to fall in love with you all over again.
01:24:08Maybe next time I wouldn't fuck it up so bad.
01:24:18Guy.
01:24:21Don't.
01:24:23I really want to kiss you, Phil.
01:24:25I'll go get the blanket from the car.
01:24:46I'll go get the blanket from the car.
01:24:50I'll go get the blanket from the car
01:25:07Hey, buddy, why'd you let me drive?
01:25:27Sure.
01:25:30Thanks.
01:25:37And then he was gone.
01:26:07And then he was gone.
01:26:37And then he was gone.
01:27:07And then he was gone.
01:27:37And then he was gone.
01:28:07And then he was gone.
01:28:37And then he was gone.
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