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00:00Sanilav, the police are here.
00:03You have no idea what you've done.
00:06You've got something called a subarachnoid hemorrhage.
00:08We're going to send you for an operation to relieve the pressure.
00:11I haven't made the best husband.
00:13You hear about people defying the odds all the time, don't you?
00:16Yeah.
00:17But I wouldn't tear my hopes up if I were you.
00:21I was abandoned by a woman called Tina Piper.
00:25That's her address.
00:26Tina Piper's address.
00:28You said you needed answers.
00:49You have reached your destination.
00:52You say you won't, but you won't.
00:59But when I think about it, I don't see how it begins.
01:07Hiya, pet.
01:08You're here to do our legs, yeah?
01:09Come on in.
01:10I'll put the kettle on.
01:14I'll put the kettle on.
01:15Hiya, pet.
01:16You're here to do our legs, yeah?
01:17Come on in.
01:18I'll put the kettle on.
01:22Hiya, pet.
01:23You're here to do our legs, yeah?
01:25Come on in.
01:26You're here to do our legs, yeah?
01:27Come on in.
01:28I'll put the kettle on.
01:34I'll put the kettle on.
01:35I'll put the kettle on.
01:36I'll put the kettle on.
01:37Okay.
01:38You're here to do the kettle on.
02:09I could have hoped to see some progress by now.
02:31I thought she was responding to pain stimulus.
02:34In the context of the EEG, it's likely just a spinal reflex.
02:38We'll do a CT angiogram.
02:40What should I turn to call? She has to be updated.
02:43Sorry.
02:45Can I see her?
02:48Ha! That's what I've said.
02:51Hey, well, what did you...
02:52Look, let's catch up with the weekend and I'll catch you then.
02:56That's what I've said.
03:10I've got to go, Flower. District nurse is here.
03:12Bye.
03:13Sorry about that.
03:15Come in.
03:16Right. I've given them a wash but they're still a bit whiffy.
03:22I think the left one's getting worse, to be honest.
03:25Dressings are here.
03:27There's a box of other bits by the chair there and aprons and gloves on here.
03:31We were expecting.
03:34What's her name?
03:36Polly.
03:37Young lass.
03:38Not long qualified.
03:40What's your name, sorry?
03:42Natalie.
03:45I'm new at the area.
03:46Oh, you sound pretty local.
03:48Yeah, I moved away.
03:51Is that the stuff here?
03:53Yep.
03:54Should be everything but shout if you need out.
03:57I'll get rid of this lot.
03:59And do us a brew.
04:01Right.
04:02Back in a minute, ma'am.
04:07Right.
04:09Hello.
04:11Nana.
04:14Do you want me to tell her?
04:19No.
04:20No, I'll tell her.
04:23Do you take sugar?
04:34Just as it comes is grand, thanks.
04:39How long ago was her stroke?
04:41Oh.
04:43About five years now.
04:45You've just been caring for her here since then?
04:48Yeah.
04:49Well, I can't afford a private nursing home.
04:51And I kind of bring myself to just dump her with social services.
04:55Stay with those places, so...
04:58Right?
05:00Yeah, no.
05:02What do you think?
05:05What do I think?
05:07Is it infected?
05:09Oh, yeah.
05:11Erm, I'll do her a microbial dressing and a proper pressure bandage,
05:14but she's going to need antibiotics.
05:17Right.
05:18OK.
05:19Can you sort that out, or...?
05:21Erm, it's probably best if you speak to her GP.
05:24OK.
05:26Poor circulation doesn't really help healing these things.
05:31Erm, does she have any history of, like, IV drug use or alcohol abuse?
05:35Her?
05:37No.
05:39Right.
05:41So you grew up round here, did you?
05:45Near here.
05:47Yeah.
05:49Sorry, erm...
05:51Do you mind if I use your loom?
05:53Yeah, that's it.
05:54Just down the hall, up the stairs and straight ahead.
05:56Yeah.
06:00Yeah.
06:03Er, hello, guys.
06:04Yeah, I appreciate that you're worried about all your friends,
06:07but if you don't need medical attention, could you wait outside?
06:10Thank you!
06:12I'm gonna need a resource wand, please.
06:13Excuse me!
06:15Rosie, can you give me a hand, please?
06:17Yeah, sure.
06:18Siobhan, don't remember me saying there'd be a spike in drugs admissions during Pride.
06:21Well, here we go.
06:22Yep.
06:23Through to resource, please.
06:24Oh, how's Cassie?
06:25Are you sure?
06:26Er, right, okay.
06:27Er, excuse me.
06:28Right, she's right, guys, move, come on.
06:29Yeah, I'm on my way.
06:30Er, no, it's just a surprise.
06:31I'm sorry, I have to go, okay?
06:32Right, right.
06:33Sonny's putting on her prison visitors list for tomorrow.
06:34Oh, right.
06:35Jacob!
06:36You're back!
06:37Aw!
06:38Yeah, well, not thanks to his girlfriend, huh?
06:39Why don't you tell her to stop messing around and start naming names?
06:40Er, she's not my girlfriend anymore.
06:41And I'm sure she's told the police everything she knows.
06:42Well, apparently no one's been arrested for terror because she won't talk.
06:43Jacob, can you back off?
06:44You know, I'll back off when you stop defending her.
06:45As if he's actually sold.
06:46I'm not defending her.
06:47Jacob, you're being unfair right now.
06:48I'm being unfair right now.
06:49Let's stop shouting, Jake, I'm saying what's going on.
06:51Bye!
06:52Bye!
06:53Bye!
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07:14Bye!
07:15Bye!
07:16Hey, beautiful!
07:17Hey, you're just spinning on each other.
07:18Yeah, you started it!
07:19Yeah, I'm finishing it.
07:20Jacob, in the truck please, unless you fancy going back on desk duty.
07:23It's been a difficult morning, it's not even over yet, so just…
07:28You okay?
07:29Yeah, you?
07:30Yeah.
07:31I must do a little patient.
07:33Hey!
07:34Hiya!
07:35This is Darcy Kalira, 15 years old.
07:38She collapsed at Pride about half an hour ago.
07:40We think she's taken the same pill as the others from today, obviously, we don't know
07:44Obviously, we don't know what that is presented as an opiate OD. She's had multiple doses of naloxone with little to no effect
07:49Okay, Reese's three, please
07:51There's two more coming from the same group and the parents are on the way
07:54Okay
08:14What's the difference?
08:20Well, with a coma, a patient can be unresponsive and unconscious, but there is still underlying brain activity
08:27And they wake up
08:29Sometimes
08:31And the other thing, the
08:34Brain stem, death, um, that's very different
08:40It's permanent and it's irreversible. There's no underlying brain activity, so there is no chance of recovery
08:47So which one is she?
08:52At the moment, we don't know
08:54So we're going to send her for a scan that uses a special dye that shows blood flow inside her brain and hopefully that's going to tell us more
09:02I know it's a lot
09:06I thought you worked in A&E
09:10Yeah, usually I do
09:12But
09:14Since Cassie had her next of kin present, I was assigned her independent mental capacity advocate
09:20Which means I was appointed to make decisions in her best interests
09:24But obviously now you're here
09:26No, I don't want to make any decisions
09:29I can't do that
09:30I just want to be with her
09:31Okay
09:33It's okay
09:34We'll do it together
09:35I will be with you every step of the way
09:38Thank you
09:40Thank you
09:41Take care, Nadia
09:42Take care, Nadia
09:43Take care, Nadia
10:14Are you okay?
10:15Yeah, just
10:17Do you think it's true what Jacob said earlier that Sunny's not going to talk to the police?
10:21I don't know
10:21I don't know, she's got Jake to think about
10:22What about everyone else's kids?
10:27Yeah, I'm not defending her
10:28I'm just saying
10:29No, of course you're not
10:30I'm sorry
10:32Well, it's just that
10:33It doesn't look like Cassie's going to be naming any names anytime soon
10:37Maybe you should go and visit Sunny
10:38See if she'll talk
10:41No
10:42No
10:43If she has some names it might help stop this
10:45She's not the only one
10:46What about the kid who ran Cassie down?
10:47He knows who they are
10:48Rash
10:49If Sunny's intimidated by them, what do you think a little kid's going to do?
10:52We don't even know where he is
10:54You can actually go to Sunny face to face and ask
10:56Wait, I'm not going to speak to her
10:58Just drop it, okay?
11:03Right
11:05Okay
11:10Don't you move!
11:15I called the surgery about the antibiotics
11:18You're not a district nurse
11:20They don't know who you are
11:21I'm sorry
11:22Trying to rob us?
11:23Is that it?
11:24No, no
11:24Con your way in here and snoop around
11:26No, it's not
11:26I've got three seconds to get out or I'm calling the police
11:29No
11:29No, no
11:30Out!
11:30Get out of my house
11:32No, I'm Nicole Piper
11:35Yeah, me ma'am
11:36I know
11:39I should have said straight away
11:41I was stupid
11:43I just
11:45I just wanted to meet you
11:47and find out what happened
11:49I just wanted to understand why I was put in care
11:53How dare you lie
11:57You're waiting here
11:59I can't do this
12:00I can't do this
12:01Hang on
12:02You're the one in the wrong here, not me
12:04Get out
12:06Shooting up
12:07With a toddler in the house
12:09Locking me away while you're having a good time
12:11What?
12:12You OD'd?
12:13Is that what happened?
12:14I don't know what you're talking about
12:15Yes, you do
12:17Why would I make that up?
12:18Why would I remember?
12:19Needles?
12:20I don't know
12:21I'm a diabetic
12:24I don't know
12:24No
12:25You think
12:25You don't do that
12:26But you don't
12:27I remember
12:27Party's been locked away
12:29You don't understand
12:30I can hear the music
12:32I can't have this conversation
12:34I want you out
12:35At my house
12:38Hey
12:38You're not even going to explain yourself
12:42What?
12:42You can't do this
12:44Urgh
12:46No
12:56ITU beds are allocated strictly on the basis of clinical priority
12:59And this area is for patients and relatives only
13:11Okay
13:12And do the rest of the parents know who they're sharing a ward with?
13:16Okay
13:17And do the rest of the parents know who they're sharing a ward with?
13:20Get out
13:21Get out
13:22I'm calling security
13:23What?
13:23What?
13:23Hey
13:26Okay
13:27Remind me never to get on the wrong side of you
13:29Journalist, can you believe that?
13:31Have any victims of contaminated drugs been denied a bed because of someone who was selling them?
13:36Well, the hell do they know that?
13:37I don't know
13:40But Darcy Kallara just took our last level three bed
13:42She'll be all right
13:44She's got the best people looking after her
13:50Okay, listen
13:52I'm gonna go get a bite to eat from somewhere that's not a vending machine if you fancy a break
13:56Thank you, but I have a sad sandwich in the fridge if I ever get the chance
14:02I'll make sure that guy finds the exit
14:22She threw his out
14:23You found us?
14:25Yeah, for what good it did
14:26Even now, she doesn't want anything to do with us
14:29I started remembering all this stuff
14:32And she says I'm wrong, but
14:34I don't know if I am
14:37Nicole, it's okay
14:38I don't understand
14:39Why lie?
14:40Diabetes
14:42But that doesn't explain the rest of it
14:44I don't know
14:45I just don't know
14:48Sorry, I know I'm not making any sense
14:50No, it's okay
14:52I've come all the way here
14:54In me grown-up brain
14:56Knows I am wasting my time
14:58But there's still a little girl inside of us that just
15:03Just needs answers
15:04Now I'm sat here in me car
15:06And I don't know what to do
15:07I just wanted to see
15:12How's Cassie?
15:13She hasn't responded to the sendation hold
15:20Right
15:22Look, it's getting late
15:24I don't think you should be driving when you're upset
15:26Maybe you should find somewhere there to stay
15:29Maybe, but if Cassie does come round, she needs someone with her
15:32I reckon if I apologise to Maddox, she will let us back in
15:36Nicole, Vicky came back
15:38Cassie's birth man, Vicky
15:39Apparently she hasn't left her side since she got here
15:42Okay, so no need to rush back then
15:49We need you in cubicle two
15:54Look, I'm sorry, I have to go
15:57No, I understand
16:00Thank you for calling
16:01Of course
16:04Bye
16:04For you
16:16Really?
16:16Yeah, I mean, I had to guess what you'd want
16:18But hopefully it's better than that
16:19Sad sandwich
16:22Oh, thank you
16:23That's really sweet
16:24You know, normally when I buy a girl dinner
16:26I prefer to be somewhere a little bit more romantic
16:28But it needs most
16:30Dr Byron, are you flirting with me?
16:32No
16:35I'm in a can if you want me to
16:38You don't remember me, do you?
16:40Didn't think that you did
16:43Look at me
16:44Look at me
16:45Stop shouting
16:46I hope she dies
16:47It'd be the least that she deserves
16:49I've got reporters calling me
16:50Do you know what she's done?
16:51She's the reason why my daughter's in here in the first place
16:54If not, Dad, then do drop
16:56Don't you talk about my daughter, you shat
16:58Shut up
16:58Drown, please
16:59Calm down, okay?
17:02You okay?
17:04What do you think?
17:05I think that everybody is just tired and emotional
17:08Suppose you think she's right, do you?
17:10Think Cassie deserves all of this?
17:11Of course I don't
17:13Cassie was taken advantage of by the same people who contaminated those pills
17:16People who do not care who gets hurt as long as they make a profit
17:20Yes, you are
17:20That's why she deserves the best possible treatment
17:22Same as everybody else
17:25There's a relative's room just down the corridor
17:27Why don't you just go get some rest?
17:29I don't want to leave her on her own
17:31See, well, I'll stay with her
17:34Just go get a couple of hours
17:36Really?
17:37Yeah
17:38She has a big day tomorrow and she is gonna need you
17:41I'll stay with her, okay?
17:42I won't leave her side, I promise
17:47Thanks
17:48Just try and rest
17:50Just try and rest
17:53Come on.
18:23Come on.
18:53Come on.
18:54Come on.
18:55Come on.
18:56Come on.
18:57Come on.
18:58Come on.
18:59Excuse me.
19:00Hello, my sweetheart.
19:01It's okay, Darcy.
19:02It's okay.
19:03I'm here, baby girl.
19:04Hi.
19:05It's okay.
19:06Hi, Darcy.
19:07Just try and relax.
19:08Stay nice and calm and we'll get this tube out for you, okay?
19:10Nice and steady.
19:11Good girl.
19:12She's waking up.
19:13So it does happen.
19:14I'm gonna get us a new place for when she's well enough.
19:15We can have a new start.
19:16Both of us.
19:17Yeah.
19:18That's a good idea.
19:19Yeah.
19:20That's a good idea.
19:21I know what you can hear us.
19:22Can we please just talk?
19:23I just need to know what happened and then I'll leave you alone.
19:24I just...
19:25I just...
19:26I just need to know what happened and then I'll leave you alone.
19:27I just...
19:28I'm going to get us a new place for when she's well enough.
19:34We can have a new start, both of us.
19:38Yeah.
19:40That's a good idea.
19:46I know what you can hear is.
19:48Can we please just talk?
19:50I just need to know what happened and then I'll leave you alone.
19:53I just need to know.
19:56Surely you can understand that.
19:58Ten minutes.
20:01Five minutes.
20:14And they're not even worth that.
20:15Technically I didn't lie.
20:30You had a...
20:32It said NHS on it.
20:35I'm a doctor.
20:37In E.
20:38Down south, not up here.
20:40That's how you knew how to do all that.
20:45Are you really a diabetic?
20:48It would just help us to know if I'm asked if it runs in the family.
20:50How did you find us?
21:05A friend helped us.
21:07Why did you lock us up?
21:15I've not remembered that wrong, have I?
21:17You...
21:17You did?
21:20I wasn't locking you up.
21:22I was keeping you safe.
21:25From what?
21:28Your dad.
21:29No, Mummy, no, please.
21:36Shh.
21:37It's okay.
21:38Come on, come on, get in here.
21:39Come on.
21:39Come here with it.
21:41Get in here, if you don't get down here.
21:45There's a lot of shit.
21:47Don't make me when you don't get me.
21:50Get here.
21:51No.
21:54That's for her medicines.
21:55She can't have them on in them is to make sure.
22:11I know we're all invested in Cassie Wood's prognosis,
22:35so I just thought I'd update everyone at once.
22:38She's had a CT angio this morning
22:41and, unfortunately, the results weren't what we all hoped for.
22:47They're going to do further brainstem testing,
22:49but it's not looking good.
22:51There's an MDT this afternoon
22:53where, obviously, next steps will be discussed.
22:58That's it.
22:59That's all I've got, guys.
23:04Don't mention I take your beds to me.
23:07How was it going to?
23:07Good.
23:08He didn't want to play mam's and dad's.
23:16I'm not defending him.
23:19I'm just telling you how it was.
23:22Go on.
23:28That's it, really.
23:29He would go out, drink too much, come home and knock me about.
23:41Sometimes his mates would come round, drink and play video games, and then they'd leave, and he never touched you.
23:57It was me.
23:58I tried to keep you away from it for his best, but I know you saw more than you should have.
24:09Jack!
24:20Jack!
24:21Jack!
24:22Where's he now?
24:40Dead.
24:43Okay.
24:45When?
24:47How?
24:48Before I went into care, after, last year.
24:56Before.
24:58I don't understand.
25:02Why didn't you keep us if he was gone?
25:06If there was no threat?
25:10Unless it wasn't your choice.
25:12I don't know.
25:14If you were in prison.
25:18Oh, God, did you kill him?
25:24Ma'am?
25:25She's choking.
25:26Oh, you are a doctor.
25:27No, she's really choking.
25:28Ma'am?
25:31She's unconscious.
25:32You need to get her head.
25:33I'm going to get her on the floor, all right?
25:34Oh, God.
25:34Thank God.
25:36That's it.
25:37That's it.
25:38That's it.
25:39Call 999.
25:43Oh, my God.
25:47Ambulance.
25:47It's out.
25:55We're all right.
25:56It's out.
25:57Right, nice and easy.
25:58There you go.
25:59No, we're okay.
26:01She's breathing.
26:02Bloody hell, ma'am.
26:03Who chokes on soup?
26:11Right, you keep an eye on her.
26:13I'll go and get me work back from the car.
26:15I'll check her off, all right?
26:18No, I'm still here.
26:20No, we're okay.
26:22My daughter's here.
26:22She's a doctor.
26:31Cassie?
26:32Cassie, can you hear me?
26:33Any other way?
26:46All right.
26:52Bye.
26:52Bye.
26:57Bye.
26:57Bye.
26:59Bye.
26:59Bye.
27:00Bye.
27:01Bye.
27:01Bye.
27:02Please tell me it's good because I've been out here thinking all these things and I just
27:23I really need to know she's going to be okay because this is my chance now to make this
27:30right I have to make it right I'm not ready I'm not ready because I have to tell her I have to say I'm
27:40sorry sounds nice and clear no broken ribs no surgical emphysema no pain on palpation I think
27:53she's all right should I call and cancel the ambulance it's worth them saying her they'll
27:59want to do an x-ray and probably some bloods because of our infection okay I didn't kill him
28:07he came off his motorbike I wasn't in prison and I wasn't a junkie who overdosed
28:15I know why you want there to be some big dramatic movie style explanation as to why things ended up
28:21the way they did but the truth is I was a mess I was 19 single parent stone broke
28:34I was skipping meals to make me benefit stretch and me diabetes got worse
28:38my mommy won't wake up hope I did again diabetic coma
28:50what do they call it ventilator pneumonia ventilator required pneumonia something like that
28:58anyway one thing led to another and
28:59I woke up in ITU a month later they'd already put you in emergency foster care
29:11right but that was only temporary until you recovered so yeah that was the plan
29:16but when it was time to go home
29:24I just never took you back
29:33so you did abandon us
29:35I had no family
29:36no support
29:37what about your mom
29:38my mom died when I was a bear
29:40I grew up with me nana until she died too
29:44so this is
29:45Ruth
29:48she's my mother-in-law
29:50you're married
29:5222 years
29:55have you got three boys
30:03EEG shows flat isoelectric tracing
30:05there's no evidence of cortical electrical activity and no response to external stimuli
30:11Dr. Ventner repeated full brain stem testing and had the same results
30:15the CT angiogram shows a complete loss of gray white matter differentiation
30:20indicating that since the initial scans done on arrival in the ED
30:24severe hypoxic brain injury has developed
30:27as you can see there's complete effacement of the ventricles
30:30the basal cisterns and sulci due to cerebral edema
30:34together this paints a cohesive picture of non-survivable brain injury
30:39with no signs of ongoing neurological activity
30:42by all neurological criteria
30:45Cassie is dead
30:46she's permanently lost the capacity for consciousness and the ability to breathe by herself
30:53I think the right course of action now
30:55is the withdrawal of life-sustaining treatment
30:59are we all in agreement?
31:03no I can't agree to this
31:10Flynn you're not serious
31:11I mean sorry Flynn two out of three of every one of our resource beds is occupied by people
31:17wait is that what you want me to tell her mother?
31:19sorry hospital gears need to keep turning we need to prioritize bed
31:22they are
31:23this is ridiculous
31:23no it's not ridiculous
31:24okay can you just call
31:25Claire needs more time
31:28do you mean the mother? I think her name's Vicky
31:30this was what I just said
31:31no love
31:32it's sad Claire
31:36let's take some time to cool down
31:38we can review the situation in the morning
31:40there's obviously something else going on
31:52have you rektatized?
31:53you can't
31:56oh Siobhan
31:57okay
32:06all right well let's get to keep this
32:07excuse me
32:08Rashid Massoud
32:11hi
32:12i understand you're in a relationship with Serena Callahan recently arrested for drug offenses
32:18I've got nothing to say
32:18did you?
32:19no
32:19weren't you aware that you just leave me alone
32:21please
32:22substances
32:23which were being
32:24you can't do that
32:27yeah I can though Connor if you're harassing a member of my staff
32:31was it you were called a patient's relatives
32:33huh?
32:34feeding off of people's misery when they're at their most vulnerable
32:36you should be ashamed of yourself
32:37get out of here before I report you for harassment
32:40go on get out of here
32:41Flynn
32:42seriously come on what the hell
32:45parasites
32:46I hate them
32:48you okay?
32:51yeah
32:53I'm okay
32:59I was on me own
33:02in and out of care
33:06pushing people away when things got rough because I knew the only person I could rely on was myself
33:13I thought someone would adopt you
33:16well they didn't
33:18nobody wanted me
33:28and you just started again
33:30had some brand new kids when the timing was better
33:33that's not fair
33:33that's what's not fair
33:36I kept thinking
33:38what if you hadn't called for help?
33:42how long would it have been until someone found you?
33:45found you?
33:46you could have starved to death sitting next to my rotten corpse and no one would have known
33:52but I didn't
33:54I called 999
33:56but you shouldn't have had to
33:57I thought I was doing what was best for both of us
34:04that's a cop out
34:05well maybe it is but I'm not as strong as you are
34:09I couldn't do it all on my own
34:11I never had a choice
34:13I am sorry
34:22I'm sorry
34:23I couldn't be the person
34:25the
34:26the mam
34:26that you needed me to be
34:31right or wrong
34:31the truth is Nicole
34:33if I'd had to look after us both
34:35I don't think either of us would have made it
34:44right
34:46well
34:50now I know don't I
34:58take it if you need to
35:00I'll check on Ruth
35:01no it's not a good time
35:15when are they doing it?
35:16I'm not sure
35:18it's not tonight maybe in the morning
35:21you should be here
35:23she doesn't need me there
35:27for you
35:31hey
35:37Vicky went home for a change of clothes
35:39she'll be back later
35:40okay
35:42well I mean do you want me to leave you to it?
35:44no it's okay
35:46you don't have to go
35:56are you okay?
36:02St James
36:04pediatric intensive care unit 2011
36:07you were in
36:09F2 on rotation
36:12you do remember me
36:15not until you said
36:17because you're not memorable
36:18oh you had a lot going on
36:21yeah
36:23he was my first
36:25first patient I saw have their life support withdrawn
36:28I've never forgotten him
36:32Joseph, Nathan, Byron
36:39anyway
36:42uh
36:43I need to get a hand over
36:44yeah sure don't let me keep it
36:46yeah no I will
37:05okay
37:08Ngozi
37:09thanks
37:16Tina
37:26sorry
37:27I
37:28I just wanted to give you this
37:34so you did think about us then
37:37sometimes
37:38of course I did
37:40every time I saw a little blonde last on the street I'd wonder
37:43well you know
37:47what it would have been like if
37:52anyway
37:57I have to go
37:59okay
38:01there's someone who
38:03I thought
38:05we were better off without each other but
38:06it's not that simple is it
38:11do you want to swap numbers
38:13stay in touch
38:16no
38:18I don't think so
38:21you've got your family
38:24I've got me answers
38:36yeah that's great
38:40thank you appreciate it
38:46yeah come in
38:48hey so uh orthopaedic said we can use their recovery base
38:51that's great thank you can you sign this for me because
38:53I'm not able to discharge anybody at the moment
38:56yeah how does he work like this
38:58you know apparently some kind of system
39:01but uh he was outside earlier he lost his head with some reporter
39:05reporter
39:06that's great for pr isn't it he called cassie's mum claire earlier on
39:11that's his ex-wife's name
39:12well I don't know is there some history between the two of them
39:15look don't ask me I knew him at uni but he wasn't with claire then
39:18so no idea
39:19well you know something's got to give because you know we're logjammed
39:22yes mrs ashgar on my way uh i don't know ask him
39:35um
39:49so
39:55so
40:03I don't know.
40:33I don't know.
41:03I was thinking about Joseph, I suppose.
41:07What are you thinking about your son?
41:11Have you been reading my confidential medical files?
41:14I could have you struck off for that.
41:17I dare say you could. I don't know what the point would be.
41:19Well, it would make me feel better.
41:21It wouldn't.
41:21No.
41:29Maybe I wouldn't.
41:35He was ten months old when we had to make the decision to...
41:39Fred, I can't even imagine.
41:40I mean, Claire, she wasn't...
41:45You know, she couldn't, so I...
41:47What else could you do? Somebody had to make a decision.
41:50She didn't see it that way.
41:53I mean, she just wanted more time with him, but...
41:56I pushed her into making a decision before she was ready.
42:01I don't think she ever forgave me for that.
42:08Not really.
42:09I know I didn't.
42:12You know, though, this isn't the same.
42:15Vicky isn't Claire.
42:17Cassie isn't Joseph.
42:18I know.
42:18I know, I just didn't want to make the same mistake again.
42:22I didn't want to make things worse than they already are.
42:25I don't think you could make anything worse, Fred.
42:29Oh, Dylan, he was so small.
42:31Yeah.
42:33Good luck.
42:35I tried.
42:48Hey, Cole.
43:18Hi.
43:21I'm sorry.
43:22I can go if you want us to.
43:27Okay.
43:27I just wanted to say I'm so sorry for what I said before.
43:36I know Cassie would be really pleased that you're here.
43:41Nicole.
43:44Stay.
43:44She'd want you here, too.
44:02Good God.
46:02You came?
46:30I wasn't sure that you would.
46:35Whatever you want to say, just say it.
46:40I'm sorry.
46:46I thought you were going to tell me I ruined your life and you'd have a go at me.
46:51I ruined my own life.
46:54And Jake's.
46:56And probably my sister's now that she's got to look after him.
47:00I thought you hated me.
47:01You're a good person, Rash.
47:03If I'd stopped to think about it, I should have known it's exactly what you would do.
47:08I just wish I could go back in time, make different decisions.
47:15I wish I could undo all of it.
47:23If that's the case then, then why don't you speak to the police?
47:30Tell them who these people are so they can be stopped.
47:32And then what?
47:33Tell my sister to leave town, sell her house, pull her own kids out of school.
47:39And I can't go with them, can I?
47:43So what, I just never see my son again?
47:45No, the police just have to do their job without me.
47:51Sonny, people are dying.
47:53Every day people are dying more and more and it just, it needs to stop.
47:58I've said I'm sorry.
48:02That's all I really wanted to say.
48:08Sonny, wait.
48:09Sonny, just think about it.
48:38I'm sorry.
48:52I'm sorry.
48:54I'll see you guys later.