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  • 5/21/2025
Eastenders 21st May 2025

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00:00name your consultant what what time's your appointment no I don't actually have one if
00:20it's an emergency best go to A&E I'm afraid we don't offer a drop-in service no I know sorry
00:25it's just I've only just worked it all out you see I've got this online I've saved the link hold on
00:33just too much of this is matching up I knew that there was something seriously wrong with him I
00:39knew it it's just the way he's reacting or actually he's not really reacting and it does say on here
00:46that if it isn't his eyes then it's most probably something to do with his brain so so what I go to
00:52A&E and I sit there for 10 hours and then I just I'm just gonna get told to come back here aren't I
00:56so I need we need to see a consultant and I need to get him checked out okay you will need an actual
01:04referral well you do emergency appointments here don't you yes all right okay well can I get one
01:11of them then please his name's Jimmy Bill he should be there because he's literally only two weeks old
01:16I appreciate you baby stressful times Mrs Bill Brannan miss this isn't me just being paranoid look I'm sorry
01:26I'm sorry I know I know babies don't usually focus this early and they develop at different times
01:31this is different okay I can feel it I know it's different we strongly suggest as a start
01:42if mum is worried she contact her help visitor for god's sake no it's not me that needs help it's him
01:48it's my baby this is urgent hi listen mate I need a word your mum is I'm not saying she's um
01:58she's ill um and there's nothing to worry about me but a lot of women can feel quite strung out
02:05and sad right after a baby's born it's just gonna be hardest on your mum you know so let's just let's
02:11be nice to her don't kick the football against the front door yeah and that right come on
02:18Lauren
02:21babe
02:25oh the pram's gone if she's taking jimmy for it that means she could pick up some milk
02:32why don't you take a tablet what under the sink what do you mean how do you mean what tablet
02:39what tablet Louie Louie when did you last see your mum take a tablet
02:49all right two minutes break don't go anywhere Louie stay there yeah
02:56okay
02:59Linda Linda have you seen Lauren I can't find her
03:04well Lauren could be having a lie down upstairs if well she's not there she she's not in and you
03:09don't understand the health visitor thought she might have postnatal depression okay but it's not
03:14that though is it does the health visitor know that Lauren not that is it you can't hang on
03:19there's no way she has another stash what and that's what Louie says that it must be morphine
03:25again
03:26oh she's got drugs in the house grand shut me down but it makes sense that's why she's all
03:30over the place there's tablets under the sink that's what Louie told me but they're not there
03:35anymore dad they're gone I took her at face value just just hang on all right Lauren talks to you
03:41doesn't she you can't just go on the say-so of a nine-year-old why would Louie make it up I mean
03:49once an addict always an addict I'm sorry Linda no offense but it's easy to have a relapse
03:54I told you I've already seen my health visitor and she didn't pick up anything with your son
04:02oh Dave Bob's going in the disabled loose again maybe she just got distracted or jumped to
04:11conclusions we do have a waiting list what's that going to be for an urgent appointment
04:14what six months if I'm lucky have you got any idea how hard it's going to be to wait for
04:20for us for him for me doctors were happy otherwise they wouldn't have discharged you
04:27if you're not satisfied with your health visitor you need to make an appointment with
04:31your practice if necessary the GP will refer James to us and an appropriate consultant it is
04:39not James it is Jimmy and that is just not good enough well that's how the system works well I'm
04:47just his mother what do I know now do you know what I want to speak to your manager and then I
05:00want to speak to your manager's manager I'm sorry guys I'm sorry but we just looks like we're gonna
05:05have to wait a little bit for as long as it takes because I am not moving go on then call security
05:16hope you don't mind your face all over social media then we do not tolerate threatening behavior you need
05:24to listen to me just listen okay I know that you probably end up with all sorts in here and you
05:32you probably have had a gutful this is not just my job this is my life my baby and for all we know
05:45every second that you spend just bobbing me off he is getting worse I am not some crazy hysterical
05:53mother that you get to patronize I'm not my son needs help he needs help so you need to help him
06:01help him help him no Lauren after everything she said right after everything she promised I mean that
06:16girl is a walking disaster I mean lack of sleep stressed I mean you go and look it up right it is
06:21all classic signs of morphine addiction withdrawal I mean she's been at it again right underneath our
06:27noses or new motherhood Ian I can spare an hour go and check up the park I should have trusted my
06:33instincts all right I mean she's a brainy you want to watch out for your little girl with her genetics
06:38Lauren loves her boys according to Peter my grandson is losing weight because she can't even
06:44breastfeed him properly what did you just say I'm just saying how it is all right I mean I've enough of
06:49this woke stuff well I can only apologize for my son Linda it's his age I'm spending too much time
06:55following powerful men online and liking their nonsense I don't need any more grief look any
07:01money Lauren will be back before tea time it's exactly what I said hello this is hospital it's the
07:09hospital yes no well I've managed to calm her down a little if someone can come to pick them up I can
07:18try to stay with her until then no not at all it's not unusual for new mum to worry particularly when
07:24there's been issues with feeding Lauren clearly just sorry what do you mean
07:30it's okay don't cry don't cry don't cry you hungry little boy I know it's okay we can try again can't we
07:48yeah I can try again I'll never start trying
07:55Lauren can you open the door please Lauren can you hear me yeah have you got someone have you have you
08:04found us a consultant I'm very sorry to be blunt but I'm afraid I have to ask Peter is concerned
08:12are you taking any unprescribed medication your family weren't aware of
08:16what Peter thinks I'm relapsing something your older son told him tablets you store under the sink
08:24yeah
08:27hello
08:33Penny said everyone's up to dash off I thought we could have our dinner out at a proper restaurant
08:39yeah
08:41mind you making
08:42what you heard what I said Louis was left here Louis stays here
08:46oh right and what you're gonna do if I don't agree hospitalize me
08:51we've already got our nuggets in the oven haven't we darling
08:54is mum ill again is that why you're whispering
08:56Alan no no no
08:58um do you know what one
09:00they do brilliant ice cream in that restaurant too
09:03we've got ice cream
09:04are you staying grandma can she stay gran
09:07course
09:08oh excellent nuggets your gran's best dish
09:14hey hey little man you alright sleepy you okay
09:32is she okay
09:35well there's these tablets she's she's been taking these tablets
09:39I think Lauren should explain
09:40have you any idea how disappointed we are
09:42it's folic acid
09:43I mean what is that
09:44it's folic acid it's folic acid
09:46it's just what every
09:47pregnant woman takes every breastfeeding woman
09:50would take if they're trying to do the best for their kid
09:52it's a supplement over the counter
09:53why is she hiding it under the sink then
09:55I don't know
09:57I've got no idea
09:59have you ever given birth
10:01Ian had to look after a whole household and the other child
10:04all while you're wearing a maternity pad the same size as a pillow
10:07and then your boobs are just leaking
10:10I think I just
10:15I put them next to the nappies
10:17I did I just
10:19put them next to the nappies
10:21I don't know I could be lying because I don't
10:24I honestly do not remember the last time I had a shower
10:27I don't remember the last time I brushed my teeth
10:29I'm sorry
10:30no don't
10:30don't touch me
10:32I don't want you anywhere near me
10:34we're meant to be doing this together
10:37out of everyone
10:38you are meant to be on my side
10:40perhaps we could give mum and dad a minute
10:43well you don't exactly make it easy
10:44shut up Ian
10:45Lauren I thought you might need some more express milk
10:51no I wasn't
10:57I didn't
10:58postnatal depression
10:59would anyone actually be surprised
11:02I mean your whole family talking down at me
11:05you're always looking for a problem as long as it's mine
11:08will you blame us
11:09I am not Cindy
11:11I'm not your mum
11:14I stand by my kids
11:18I
11:19I raised Louis
11:21on my own
11:22for years
11:23do you know what
11:25I'm done
11:28I'm done
11:30you win
11:32I'm not trying to win anything over your love
11:34I've just lost it
11:34it's my hormones
11:35I'm just
11:36some pathetic
11:37ex-addict
11:38some little woman
11:39that you've just got to try and control
11:40that's not what I think of you
11:42no it is
11:43yes it is
11:43you just fake
11:45like you're listening to me
11:46and you just smile
11:48and you nod
11:49anything for an easy life Peter
11:50I have said it
11:52over
11:53and over again
11:55and you still
11:56haven't even looked at him
11:57you haven't
11:59not properly
12:00not once
12:01why are his eyes like that
12:03because he can't focus
12:06his gaze just sort of drifts off
12:10hey
12:11you awake now
12:13it's like that
12:14it's like that all the time
12:15it's constant
12:15you have to really really look for it
12:18right
12:18but it's just
12:19it's like his eyes just wobbling
12:20okay
12:25might be worth
12:27getting someone to have a little look
12:28as you're here anyway
12:29can you put a call up from S.O.U.?
12:40now please
12:41oh S.O.U.?
12:44do you have a minute?
12:45you know what
12:45your man and I have paid in parking fees
12:47they should give me my own space
12:48latte or cappuccino
12:50it's not going to make any difference
12:52to the taste is it?
12:58one step at a time eh
13:00one step at a time
13:03if you think you'll be alright
13:06I'm sorry
13:18I've got an addictive personality
13:25you've always known that about me
13:28but it's like every time
13:31I say it
13:32it just doesn't land with you
13:33the morphine
13:35it didn't just kick off
13:37because I went wandering
13:38about the streets
13:39looking for it
13:39and that is not me saying
13:42that none of this is my fault
13:43I know
13:44I broke your trust
13:47and I'm not proud of myself
13:49I'm just not sure that
13:52this is going to be something
13:54that we can get over
13:55is it?
13:58every time that you expect
14:00the worst of me
14:01well you just ignore me
14:04you break my trust
14:07not one of our parents
14:13has ever just
14:14stood by each other
14:16maybe loyalty
14:18just isn't in
14:19our DNA
14:20we will be better
14:25and our boys will
14:27they will have it better
14:29I'm sorry
14:31oh and I panicked
14:34I'm sorry
14:35you know ever since Lucy died
14:38I
14:38the only time
14:40I don't feel like
14:41half a person
14:42is when I've got you
14:43by my side
14:44it's the only time
14:45I just want you
14:49me
14:50the boys
14:51I just
14:51I want
14:53I just want
14:53to know
14:54what life
14:54mum
15:06I can't answer
15:07what I don't know
15:08alright
15:10erm
15:11maybe
15:13it wasn't drugs
15:14alright
15:14I mean she was still
15:17pretty hysterical
15:18yeah
15:22the midwife said
15:23well might as well
15:24do some tests
15:24seeing as we're here
15:25let's have a look
15:27no to be honest
15:30I think they're
15:30I think they are
15:32just humouring
15:32Lauren
15:33yeah his eyes
15:36are a little bit
15:36slow but I mean
15:37there's nothing
15:38unusual in my
15:39experience
15:40I mean give the
15:41poor little fellow
15:41a chance
15:42I mean he can't
15:43even lift his head
15:43up yet can he
15:44that's right
15:45I mean all he's
15:48meant to be able to
15:48do is eat sleep
15:49and yeah
15:50exactly
15:51well
15:53if the hospital
15:55were that worried
15:55they'd have had him
15:57in straight away
15:58wouldn't they
15:59I can't see anything
16:02wrong with his eyes
16:03yeah they're going to
16:07do some non-invasive
16:08tests
16:09you know
16:09just check little
16:11Jimmy out
16:11and put their minds
16:13at rest
16:13yeah and get
16:17Lauren off their
16:18bags
16:18okay
16:20yeah well I'm
16:22I'm sure you're
16:23right
16:23well we
16:25we just have to
16:26wait and see
16:27won't we
16:27all right
16:29bye
16:30bye
17:00i told you i don't do politics i'm just saying i mean when we were growing up all right being a
17:22powerful man didn't make him toxic did it i mean what is wrong we wanted to try and get out what
17:28you put in i mean that's my point i mean i pay my taxes i mean by rights you could say i bought this
17:35for the nhs well you've killed off their plastic pot plant obviously i'm not going to ask them for
17:40it back but if i did own this i would have fixed it obviously that's a design flaw some people wonder
17:49why the nhs is on its knees you all right are we done yet or do i have to go and stick another
17:58second mortgage on to pay for half an hour of parking peter we can take five if you'd like to
18:08go after him let peter catch his breath why don't i find some literature that might help
18:15so as i explained jimmy has optic nerve and chorio retinal coloboma which means that the back of
18:23his eyes hasn't properly formed back of the eye is vital to give the brain the information it needs
18:30to make a picture of the world we will need to do further tests this is such an unusually early
18:37diagnosis wouldn't normally have been picked up until jimmy was several months but can't see
18:43i would suggest that we register jimmy as severely sight impaired
18:51he's fine
18:57he can't see
19:03he can't see
19:09right so what now peter you need to man up
19:18no no this doesn't make any sense all right i mean how could this happen i mean how could my
19:24grandson learn anything all right how's it how's he gonna read drive dress himself feed himself how
19:30how is my grandson gonna have any sort of normal life when he can't see it's his eyes it's not his
19:37brain right you need to get back in there right and see that miss a up okay tell her that we are
19:43going to go private look i've got a pension i've got i can access we are going to get a second opinion
19:48we are going to get every treatment and we are going to get every operation we are going to fix jimmy
19:56unfortunately there is no operation
20:00in some families coloboma can be inherited but many cases appear without any previous family history
20:07the methadone you were prescribed cannot have caused this lauren it it can be environmental factors
20:18infections or or harmful drugs during pregnancy
20:23we will need to carry out further tests we'll have a much clearer idea when those results come
20:35back in six weeks
20:45this is my punishment
20:49this is what i deserve but not him i mean how can you play russian roulette with a little tiny baby's like
20:55what sort of mother does that lauren
21:06selfish screw up and now he's the one that loses okay listen we can't know the cause at this stage
21:15but he's disabled that's what you're telling me for definite yes
21:29this is this this is all my fault
21:41my baby is disabled for the rest of his life
21:59a disability is not a death sentence
22:09details of the i care liaison officer we mentioned and charities
22:14there are some really great advice teams
22:16once things start to sink in you and lauren are bound to have questions
22:19could you just take me out
22:26right oh right okay um well i'll i'll make sure that lauren gets back okay thank you for being so kind
22:35they just need to give themselves some time peter is shell-shocked they all are thank you
22:42i can't see you
22:57i can't see you
23:00i can't see you
23:01i can't see you
23:04Come on.
23:34God, forgive me.
23:50Please.
23:51Please forgive me.
23:55I'm so sorry.
23:58I'm so sorry, Jimmy.
24:00Everything, everything that I've taken away from you.
24:14You can't see.
24:17You can't see me.
24:21I would do anything.
24:23I would give anything to take it all back.
24:30I promise you, I am never going to take not even a paracetamol ever again.
24:37The future that you don't have.
24:42How?
24:44How?
24:45How could I do this to you?
24:48You deserve so much better than this.
24:51I love you.
24:58I love you so much.
25:02Oh, God.
25:05God, I'm scared.
25:10I'm scared.
25:11I don't know how to do this.
25:15I don't know what you need.
25:19I never meant for any of this to happen.
25:28That's it.
25:30That's all well done, you beautiful, beautiful baby boy.
25:34Shh.
25:41I haven't got there in the end, didn't we, eh?
25:45You and me.
25:48Because it is, it's you and me.
25:51It's you and me now.
25:54And I owe you.
25:58I've got to work this out.
26:00I will, I will work it out.
26:06I am never going to stop fighting for you.
26:09I am going to be right there with you.
26:19In the dark.
26:27Because we are, mate, we're in the dark together.
26:30And I don't know...
26:34I don't know how we're going to get through it
26:37and I can't say that everything's going to be OK. I can't.
26:41I swear to you.
26:44You're not on your own.
26:46You're not. Mummy is right here with you.
26:51Mummy's right here.
26:55We're going to do this together.
26:57I won't do this together.
26:58Mmmmm..
27:00Mmmmm...
27:03Mmmmm...
27:03Mmmmmmm..
27:07Mmmmm hmmmm...
27:09Mmmmm moins.
27:11Wow it's just that sweetmear.
27:12I don't know what you want to make.