00:00I was married to Mya Beryl for fifty-five years.
00:17Until she was taken.
00:20Of cancer.
00:23She was the light of my life.
00:27I'm sorry to hear that.
00:29Listen, Ralph...
00:31I've never looked at another woman again.
00:33Well, you're looking at me now.
00:34Not like that, I mean.
00:37Well, I would have, if I were twenty years younger.
00:40Oh, only twenty.
00:43Look, Ralph, I'm sorry, but do you mind?
00:45It's just, I'm meeting someone here and...
00:47And I'm cramping your style.
00:49No.
00:50Well, yes, a little bit.
00:52It's just, this is really important.
00:54Everyone's important, until you reach a certain age.
00:58You'll be old too, you know, one day.
01:03Look, I didn't mean anything.
01:05Oh, my God.
01:07What are you laughing at?
01:08You!
01:09Spinning off that geyser.
01:11Er, yeah, not for you to sit there, thank you.
01:13Full country, innit?
01:15I can sit where I like, right?
01:17Yes, and God knows you look like you need a seat.
01:19Look, I don't want to sit on me, but I'm supposed to be meeting someone on this bench.
01:24OK, well, maybe I am as well.
01:27Who are you carer?
01:28Anyway, I got here first.
01:30I don't have a carer.
01:32Are you always this rude?
01:34No.
01:35Yes, actually, I am sometimes, quite often.
01:38Me too.
01:39We just sit here and like, slag each other off, you know?
01:43Look, I'm really sorry, but can you just...
01:45I'm Ryan, your son.
01:48I always say the wrong thing, but...
01:53I don't give a stuff anymore.
01:56I've got no filter.
01:58At least now I know where I get it from, hey?
02:06You stopped talking.
02:09Yeah, sorry, it's just...
02:11You were the one who was like, constantly ringing me, remember?
02:15Yeah, after you rang me first yesterday.
02:19It was you, wasn't it?
02:20Yeah.
02:22But I bottled it.
02:26I'm sorry, I just...
02:27I wasn't expecting...
02:28What?
02:29I've got to be disabled, like, for a son.
02:32I wasn't expecting you at all, actually.
02:33I was waiting for Irene.
02:36Yeah.
02:38Life full of disappointments.
02:42No, I'm not disappointed.
02:43Yeah, you are.
02:44You are.
02:45No, I'm not.
02:46I'm shocked, obviously.
02:47Not because of you...
02:52I wanted to see you.
02:54Yeah, and now you have.
02:57You can't even look at me.
03:00Look, this isn't my one who died there,
03:03but I was born this way, so, you know, what are you going to do?
03:06So, you...
03:07You were like this since birth?
03:13Ryan, I didn't even know you'd survived, let alone had these kinds of problems.
03:16Problem?
03:17I've not got problems.
03:18I've not got problems.
03:20I've got cerebral palsy.
03:22It's not a big deal.
03:28Fine.
03:29Right.
03:30Don't look at me.
03:31You really can't bear it.
03:32But...
03:33I'm here now, so you might as well just say what you want to say.
03:36You might as well just say what you want to say.
03:43You're clearly doing fine as you are.
03:45And you're happy.
03:47That is such a cop-out.
03:49Well, you see, mate.
03:50And you've got a good family, yeah?
03:52They could have kept me under the stairwell, you know.
03:56Ryan...
03:57Why do the police need my DNA?
03:59I mean, that's the real reason you're here, isn't it?
04:02To get me to comply.
04:04Look, just be honest.
04:06No, I wanted to see you. Genuinely, I did.
04:08And yes, there's all the police stuff,
04:10but please can we just forget about all that now?
04:12Why? Because you suddenly feel sorry for me?
04:15Oh, poor disabled guy, right?
04:17You don't give up you, do you?
04:18Yeah.
04:19I know an allegation we made against a man who might be my dad.
04:24Well, Ryan, you really don't need to know the details.
04:28I've had a lot of people decide what I need to know over the years.
04:33Don't be one of them, Charity.
04:38This isn't pretty.
04:42I don't even know where...
04:47I didn't have a great upbringing.
04:51I was drinking, I was on the streets,
04:53I didn't know where I was sleeping most nights.
04:55Did you have a mum and dad?
05:01For all the good they were.
05:04Let's just say they weren't interested.
05:07I was bad in their eyes, so I guess I just lived up to it.
05:13Got chucked out.
05:17I was 14 when I had you.
05:19I was just a kid myself.
05:24It was the hardest day of my life.
05:26It was all over the place.
05:27When did you leave me at the hospital?
05:32I'm not proud.
05:36It's just, I was really scared.
05:41I watched your flatline, Ryan.
05:45I thought you died in front of me.
05:46I mean, you died in front of me.
05:47I mean, you died in front of me.
05:50I just...
05:52I couldn't cope.
05:54I just...
05:56I panicked.
05:58I just found myself running down this corridor
05:59and I guess I just never stopped.
06:02So you just...
06:05took off?
06:10Did my dad not want to see me either?
06:14Ryan, he...
06:16It wasn't like that.
06:17Was he on the streets too?
06:19Is that what you met him?
06:23Yeah, in a way, I guess.
06:25So...
06:27You were underrated and he was...
06:30What?
06:32A few years older?
06:34Yeah, something like that.
06:37It was all such a mess.
06:39It was just a horrible, painful mess.
06:45Thanks.
06:49I don't mean because of you.
06:51Yeah, but I was a part of it.
06:54You just wanted to forget me.
06:57Right.
07:00Anyway, you were right about one thing.
07:06I did have a happy life.
07:09My real mum is totally amazing.
07:16She's always looked up for me.
07:19Well, there you go. I mean, that's brilliant, isn't it?
07:21I mean, she's over there waiting for me.
07:26She...
07:28She's terrified.
07:30Even now, I'm going to get hurt.
07:35She wanted me to meet you.
07:37But she is so protective.
07:42So scared.
07:44So...
07:46She said she'd wait nearby.
07:48Just in case not wet mum, you know?
07:53Well, you know, that's what a good mum does.
07:56She stays.
07:58Do you want an ice cream?
08:04Not massively, no.
08:07I do.
08:09Don't go anywhere, all right?
08:11Hello, Charity.
08:12Hello, Charity.
08:17So you remembered me then?
08:31Eventually.
08:33I was shocked.
08:36You turning up at the hospital.
08:38I...I was scared you were going to...
08:41What? Hurt him?
08:43Yeah, I get it.
08:45You don't have to go as far as moving house.
08:48That wasn't because of you.
08:51I'd just retired.
08:53We were moving anyway.
08:55Why didn't you tell me that he'd survived?
09:02At the time?
09:04You disappeared that fast.
09:07You didn't even leave your real name, if you remember.
09:13All these years...
09:15I thought he'd died.
09:18I thought he'd died.
09:20They revived him.
09:25Eventually, but...
09:27It was touch and go for a bit.
09:29How come you adopted him?
09:31Well...
09:33We fostered him, first, and then...
09:35Well...
09:39Then...
09:41We just fell in love with him.
09:44It was hard not to.
09:48I've always said if you'd stuck around, you'd have never left.
09:52Thank you for...
09:59It's a joy and a blessing.
10:02I've never needed thanking.
10:03You were raped, weren't you?
10:20An older boyfriend, I'm guessing.
10:24It's only years later you realise the damage they did.
10:27I saw many girls like you in that ward.
10:31No bloke to support them.
10:33No, he was...
10:35He was never my boyfriend.
10:39He kept me locked up.
10:42He raped me repeatedly and then he passed me round his mates, you know.
10:46You were so young.
10:50So vulnerable.
10:52Well, it set me up, you know.
10:54A survivor.
10:56Always have been.
10:59So's Ryan.
11:01Now I know where he gets it from.
11:05Which is why he needs the full truth.
11:09No, no way. No, he can't know any of this.
11:13What were you expecting would happen?
11:16If this goes to court, he'll find out anyway.
11:20If he has to read about this in the newspapers, I'll never forgive you.
11:25And neither will he.
11:29Can I ask you one thing?
11:31Go on.
11:33Was he...
11:35Is he...
11:37Like that because of me?
11:39Because of how I was, how I've been living?
11:44It was a traumatic birth.
11:46His brain was starved of oxygen.
11:49So, yes then.
11:51Nobody knows what would have happened.
11:54Now that's all in the past.
11:57And what matters now is what happens next.
12:00There are no half measures here.
12:03You can't just show up wanting his DNA, telling him you're his mum
12:09and some horror was his dad before taking off again.
12:12Because that would be just using him.
12:15No, I don't want to do that.
12:17Then you've a choice to make.
12:20You either tell him the full truth
12:22and you stay around to help him through all of this permanently
12:25or you stop this whole thing now.
12:30The court case, contact, everything.
12:34And you'll never see him again.
12:42So, what do you think of the old lady?
12:46I'm sure she'd love to hear you say that.
12:49Yeah, well, she's used to much work.
12:51I don't know.
12:52Yeah, I bet.
12:55Would you have kept me?
12:58If you knew I hadn't died?
13:01Ryan, I was just a kid myself.
13:04I mean, I was in a hell of a mess.
13:06I had no home.
13:08With everything you had going on, what kind of life could I have given you?
13:12Am I like him?
13:14Him?
13:17No.
13:19No, you are nothing like him.
13:24So, how long were you together?
13:29Ryan...
13:30Did you ever love him?
13:34He...
13:36It wasn't like that.
13:37He, erm...
13:41He...
13:43I'm sorry.
13:46You're sorry.
13:49Ryan, none of this is your fault.
13:52I'll give my DNA.
13:55If it helps.
13:57But...
13:59Will I have to go to court and see him?
14:05Ryan, listen to me, OK?
14:07You do not have to do anything.
14:10I got you into this, OK?
14:12Me. Not you.
14:14And you don't need it. Not one bit of it.
14:16You just need to get on with your life and be happy.
14:20I mean, who am I to come charging in here, demanding all these things, turning things upside down?
14:24You know, Irene adopting you is the best thing to ever happen to you.
14:33You have no idea how lucky that makes you.
14:35And for the record, you're not a disappointment.
14:46You were always good enough for me.
14:49I just wasn't...
14:51good enough for you.
14:55I'm so sorry.
14:59Bye, Ryan.
15:00Bye, Ryan.
