00:00Oh my god, sadly, like me when I was young, I always told my dad
00:04Okay dad, I want this on the first day, I want this on the second day, I want this on the third day
00:06I always wanted to plan, but since both of my parents are gone, I didn't even buy any Eid clothes
00:16So actually, I really miss the times when we used to go shopping for Eid
00:20Back in the days, we used to go back to our hometowns, here and there
00:23But now, it's rare for us to do all of that
00:26We kind of lost the Kampung vibe, our Eid tradition, we lost it
00:56Oh my god, sadly, like me when I was young, I always told my dad
00:59Okay dad, I want this on the first day, I want this on the second day, I want this on the third day
01:01I always wanted to plan, but since both of my parents are gone, I didn't even buy any Eid clothes
01:06So actually, I really miss the times when we used to go back to our hometowns, here and there
01:11Back in the days, we used to go back to our hometowns, here and there
01:15Actually, I'm the saddest when I heard that there's no Eid
01:17When I first heard it, I cried because I lost the Eid vibe
01:22But I miss it, I miss having a family
01:26My dad passed away in 2018, and my mom passed away in 2021
01:32Mostly, when my mom was still alive, we used to go back to our hometowns on the first day
01:35When my dad was still alive, we used to go visit our relatives in Melaka and Sembilan
01:40Sometimes, we even went to Penang
01:42We used to go to Melaka
01:43Actually, when my dad was gone, the Eid vibe was totally gone
01:46Yes, because he was the one who forced us to go back to our hometowns on the first day and the second day
01:50But when my dad was gone, no one wanted to plan the trip
01:57We were the youngest, so when we planned the trip, everyone was busy
02:02During the first and second year, I was like, we have to do this, we have to do that
02:06Let's just follow the tradition
02:07But when everyone was busy, we gave up
02:09Because I'm a family person, I'm a very family person
02:12So I wanted to have that Eid vibe
02:15But so far, this is how it is
02:17Life is young, right?
02:18Of course, crying
02:20Not during Eid, but I will cry whenever I hear Eid al-Fitr
02:24Because Eid al-Fitr, for me, I really don't like it
02:29Until like 2-3 years after my dad passed away, I didn't want to celebrate Eid
02:33I didn't want to celebrate Eid, I just wanted to travel
02:35Because when we look at our friends, they went back to their hometowns, they have families
02:38So we feel like, why don't we have that?
02:40It's hard, very hard
02:42But I don't regret what I've been through in my life
02:45Because what I'm going through now, it's all because of the hardship that I went through
02:49True
02:49Well, we didn't ask to be an LGBT, right?
02:52But I believe that everything that I've been through makes me strong now
02:57I miss when my parents forced me, okay, we have to go back to Melaka, we have to do this
03:01Sometimes when we were young, it was like, no, it's okay, why?
03:03We have to go, right?
03:04It's fun, right? It's like going at night, right?
03:06But when it's gone, I feel like, Allah, I miss it
03:08I miss going to this house, going to this house
03:10And he won't be tired, he will want to visit too
03:13As long as he can visit, any relatives he can visit, he will visit too
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