00:00 Brian taught me how to preg check a cow to check if they're pregnant arm shoulder deep
00:04 There was definitely a
00:16 Kenness work in the real world. We did
00:19 See each other a few times after the show we have chemistry. That's natural
00:24 I don't think that's something you can fully control, but we're not we don't have compatibility
00:28 Like we are you on a lot of things we don't see the world in the same way
00:33 There are so many things that were different you got to be realistic Julie's in Texas and I'm in Florida
00:39 So we both live vastly different lifestyles too, which I think plays into it
00:45 But the ending of our relationship did seem eminent
00:48 Regardless of the fact that we were attracted to each other
00:51 After the show we got the news that
00:58 CPS was gonna allow us to petition for adoption and bringing him home was very scary
01:05 very scary because I've never taken care of a kid before I've never held a baby in my life and
01:10 Here I'm bringing one home and that's
01:14 Wildly uncomfortable for me. So I was I was very scared because I don't know what to do
01:19 I'm like, what do you feed this thing? He owns my smile. I
01:26 Think a lot of things that aren't shown on the show is that it wasn't so like
01:31 Cut and drive like the boys were on one side the girls on the other me Brian and told we were together all day every day
01:36 I consider total a really good friend. So it's like it sucks to see her being dragged through like this
01:41 That's that's not our total. Yeah
01:43 Tolu is beautiful
01:46 absolutely
01:48 Magnificent in almost every single way. I've also been receiving a lot of backlash for my conversation with Jake
01:55 I am very proud of my culture of my heritage and I wear it with pride
02:00 Everybody else you were able to see the full spectrum of who they are
02:05 Like Simone is this Bryce is that Jake is I mean Brian is this but for me and Winnie we are just
02:14 African
02:16 Africans, that's it. That's all you could say about us
02:20 despite the full array of Tolu that I've I've I've shown you that I've displayed for you the only one thing that
02:28 you can pick is
02:30 African and
02:31 That was that was where the anger stemmed from and I think what makes the show so emotional for people because people feel so
02:38 Uncomfortable in a morally gray dilemma the concepts that the trust brings up is this
02:45 Debate around morality and right or wrong and you'd say like stealing is supposed to be wrong
02:49 But is it wrong to steal if you're stealing to eat? I was never playing Julie
02:54 I truly feel like we have we have and had a connection
02:59 But I also noticed from a strategic standpoint that it behooved that connection to keep growing in the house
03:07 She also cares about the other guys in the house
03:09 And so it really worked into our favor and surprisingly as things went on we really did have a connection
03:16 The show does is it highlights you can still be a good person even if
03:23 Sometimes your choices are in the gray and so that shifted like how I've even viewed myself and like what I am
03:29 Deserving of and I feel like I'm a lot more gentle with myself
03:34 When you don't leave the ranch in years, I have a whole world
03:38 Literally passing me by after the show
03:43 I've picked up a couple books to read baby rooster that have nothing to do with
03:48 Just white people in culture. Like we picked up one that has a Hispanic girl. That's buying her first horse
03:56 Bill Pickett a black cowboy and all about his story
04:01 And so we're reading all about these stories and stuff to say that my world has been kind of cracked open a little bit and expanded
04:07 Yeah, it's gonna play a big part into his upbringing. I've heard that Tolu is
04:12 She's a boss-ass bitch
04:15 like I'm not even gonna lie despite the fact that there were so many people that tried to
04:20 When the show aired tried to tear me down and write these really nasty
04:26 Vile narratives about me. I watched the show and I am immensely proud of myself to me. I came off as
04:33 level-headed
04:35 well-spoken I
04:37 Fashionable hello and even with the conflicts that I had to deal with in the house. I'm so proud by how I resolved those conflicts
04:45 After the camera stopped rolling I
04:51 Did go up to every single person one by one and I said to them. Yeah, I am the one that took the
04:59 $25,000. Oh they were living. I
05:02 Got very very upset
05:06 Over this time. I start thinking about it that you know, it was like what 20 48 to 72 hours earlier
05:13 She was gonna go home with nothing. That was my very first time in the vault
05:18 They were so willing to forgive Julie so easily for taking
05:22 $15,000 and not telling anybody for almost three weeks and then for me
05:28 It was also my first time in the vault. I took the money and I was immediately met with
05:35 Backlash, I thought she did the right thing. I did the right thing. I
05:40 Understand Tolu's reasoning. I also wanted to take the money
05:44 I didn't but I can't fault Tolu on it because I understand her reasonings for doing so
05:51 But you shouldn't have partied with me like that
05:53 hindsight's
05:55 irrelevant
05:57 2020 Tolu took the money. I forgive her we went out for dinner last night. I
06:02 Am going to be so excited to go to my mom to go to my dad and say
06:11 Thank you for everything. I already said that I am giving my parents their fair share. I went in there for them
06:18 I wouldn't even have the opportunity to be in that space
06:21 It wasn't for the sacrifices that they made for me way back when but this will just be the first little seed that I can
06:28 Give them to say look your daughter. She's doing big things
06:31 Things have been rough
06:33 I know the drought has not been easy on ranchers across the entire South and especially
06:38 The second year drought that we're going into and it's the hay prices
06:42 The cost of ranching has never been more expensive today ever in history
06:47 I got two little kids that are in school. I'm just gonna probably put the money away
06:52 I don't buy things like for myself clearly this jacket's the best thing I own right now cuz I bought it yesterday
06:57 Like my friend was like you should buy a Gucci belt
06:59 I wouldn't even know where to buy a Gucci belt taking care of my family
07:02 I think ever since the pandemic and ever since the past few years
07:06 It's kind of been like me trying to keep my head above water
07:09 I'm a single dad and I have a little guy that I take care of so obviously he's number one in my life
07:14 That's a big thing and then giving to my church community is a really big thing for me as well
07:19 I don't know. I I have a very like
07:22 Hoarder and scarcity mindset still with money. I just want to make sure like I'm good
07:29 Like I just want to make like a dentist appointment and not be scared
07:33 I want furniture in my house like I've always been too scared to like buy furniture
07:36 Everything's really cheap like and I like hate that. I don't have furniture. I just want furniture I
07:42 Get emotional because even when people talk about the show being about greed
07:47 I'm like, I just want to like be safe
07:50 I want to like have these small moments that maybe people like don't think about
07:54 If Brian and I had our own spin-off
08:00 It would just be I would take Brian to a train station in New York City and I would give him a map and then Brian
08:04 Would get on the train and then I would get out of the train when Brian walks in and then Brian would have to find
08:09 His way back to me
08:11 And they just follow you just navigate the city and then people will come up to you and take pictures with you
08:17 Because they would think you're like a novelty act. Uh, you know, I am
08:22 manifesting bigger better greater
08:25 Opportunities trust and believe baby that is not the last time y'all are gonna see me on your TV screen
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