00:00 I have very strong views on how I wanted to raise my child,
00:02 that I wanted to do it myself.
00:06 My whole entire life,
00:13 I've never pictured having a baby with anybody,
00:17 and I wanted to have a baby and give her everything
00:21 and do it the way I wanted to do it.
00:23 And when you have a baby with somebody,
00:25 there's always going to be that compromise.
00:30 I've always wanted to be a mom.
00:32 I always said by 30, I would get a sperm donor.
00:35 Once I turned 27,
00:38 I had this epiphany vision
00:42 that I had to make this happen now.
00:45 I did a private donor and I did an at-home insemination.
00:49 Luckily, I got pregnant on the first try.
00:53 I know what he looks like.
00:55 I got background information.
00:58 I know who he is.
00:59 If, you know, in the future, she has questions,
01:03 they will be able to be answered.
01:04 I'm comfortable with it.
01:06 You know, I just wanted somebody that looked like me
01:08 and was, you know, artistic.
01:12 I really just believed it was that one missing ingredient
01:15 that I needed.
01:16 I grew and birthed a whole human.
01:21 I made her.
01:22 I made her hair.
01:23 I made her skin.
01:23 I made her organs, her heart, her brain.
01:26 I don't like when people are like,
01:27 "Oh, her father," or something like that
01:30 because it's not that.
01:31 It's a donor.
01:32 I continued to make TikToks all throughout my pregnancy
01:38 and I would post, but it would be like head and chest up.
01:41 You would never see my stomach.
01:43 Nobody knew I was pregnant, unless you knew me in person.
01:46 I didn't post about it.
01:47 I didn't post until I had the baby.
01:50 I think if I would have made it public,
01:52 it would have been a lot more people's opinions
01:55 and unsolicited advice that I would not have wanted.
02:00 No one took care of me.
02:04 I took care of myself, even up until delivery.
02:09 I went through the pregnancy alone,
02:10 so to bring her into the world,
02:13 it just made sense for me to do it alone.
02:16 I'm grateful for my doula, that she was there,
02:19 and I couldn't have done it without her.
02:21 That was my main support.
02:23 I definitely have a good friend support system.
02:26 I don't have much family, but my mom is involved.
02:30 I'm so happy that she's here.
02:34 I'm so happy that I made it happen.
02:36 She's almost three months old
02:38 and she's just the coolest girl.
02:40 She completes me.
02:41 A relationship with another person
02:43 is not going to complete me.
02:45 My daily routine now is her 24/7.
02:51 But I wouldn't want it any other way.
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