00:00 Madison Hausberg is pregnant. The Siesta Key star took to Instagram to announce that she and her
00:04 husband Ish Soto are expecting their second child together. "One in our hearts, one in my belly.
00:11 Baby number two due in 2024." Madison wrote alongside a photo of the couple holding up their
00:16 baby's sonogram and their late son's ashes. Madison delivered their first son, still born at 37 weeks
00:23 in December 2021. The couple named their son Elliot Angel Soto. The 29-year-old has been super open
00:31 with fans about the heartbreaking experience. Back in May 2022, the reality star spoke with
00:37 Access Hollywood and shared how she and Ish have supported one another through their tragic loss.
00:43 "I mean, Ish and I have been tested since the beginning. Like, we really have been put through
00:48 a lot. But obviously this is the greatest test any marriage, especially right off the bat,
00:53 you know, like we, I was seven months pregnant at our wedding. And then two months later, I delivered
01:00 Elliot, stillborn. And it just really has strengthened us so much. I couldn't be more
01:10 appreciative of my husband. He just is the most incredible partner. And he really gets me through
01:17 the days. It's, it's pretty amazing." "You do have your love to get through this together. And like
01:24 I said, the season finale, we're going to see your wedding. Are you excited to relive it? Are you,
01:30 you know, what kind of emotions are you feeling watching your wedding back?"
01:34 "You know, our wedding was the most amazing day. So I am really excited to have that and to relive
01:43 that. And it's also one of the last memories that I have with my son when he was alive. So I, I am,
01:50 excited seems like the wrong word. But I'm definitely, I'm ready to see it unfold. And I
01:59 think it could be healing. Just having that to always look back on."
02:04 "A thousand percent. I mean, I feel like you have such this positive perspective on this,
02:10 because you did have this journey and you get to watch it back. And it will always, Elliot will
02:15 always, you know, be with you. And I don't want to obviously put words in your mouth, but."
02:20 "No, no, that's exactly how I feel." "You've also been open about trying to have another baby. How,
02:26 if you are okay talking about it, okay, where do you guys stand on that journey right now?"
02:32 "So we are still trying. I'm five months out of giving birth. And so my body is still adjusting.
02:40 And it's really difficult because I do have this love hate relationship with my body these days.
02:46 You know, in some ways as a mother, I feel that it failed me, but in other ways, you know, I'm
02:52 very proud of what it created. It created the most beautiful baby in the world. So it's really tough.
02:59 And I want to be gentle with myself, but it's hard some days. And I know lost moms do deal with a lot
03:06 of guilt and a lot of that we can tend to be difficult on ourselves. But I think that's just
03:12 grief. But we are actively trying and it is disappointing to say the least when I wake up
03:22 to take a pregnancy test and it's negative, which we've had three of those now. So we're really,
03:29 really hoping that, you know, every month, maybe we will see that positive. But I do want to say
03:39 that being pregnant again is not something I want to do to replace Elliot. It's just entirely,
03:49 for me, it feels like it has to be, it really is part of my healing process. I just really crave
03:56 having that baby in my arms that I don't have right now. So yeah, I would really love to have
04:04 that hopefully sooner than later. Well, I'm praying for you guys. I know fans, I know they've
04:11 all just been loving and supporting you during all of this and they just want you to be happy.
04:16 And of course, nothing would replace Elliot. Nothing could replace Elliot. Have you found
04:21 a little community that you're able to kind of, okay, you're nodding. I mean, the community that
04:28 I found really has saved me these past five months. I knew nothing about stillbirth, nothing
04:35 about baby loss. Coming out of that hospital, leaving after giving birth and, you know,
04:41 hearing babies next door crying, hearing families cheering, and then me leaving empty-armed
04:48 was really traumatizing. And when you leave, I mean, I left with no community, nothing. I was
04:56 completely alone. And I found on social media so many other lost moms who really I connected with
05:07 immediately because we've gone through such a unique experience. And I really feel like without
05:13 them, I don't know how I would have gone through this. Well, that is, you know, a community really
05:20 does help you and push you through. And I love also that you said earlier that your Siesta Key
05:26 cast members are so loving and so supportive. You're going back to Florida. I assume you guys
05:32 are going to start filming the next season, maybe. Is there anything you're looking forward to doing
05:39 with your group of girlfriends? Well, I'm always, I mean, if there's another season and if I go back,
05:46 I'm obviously looking forward to just being with them and being around, you know, people again.
05:54 It's been really hard for me to socialize. So I think I'm ready, you know, to start seeing friends
06:03 again and being around people who love me and also sharing stories about Elliot and talking about him
06:13 is always so wonderful. And I know all of those girls, they love asking questions about him. And
06:20 that's something I appreciate so much. And it's so often people are, you know, they're scared
06:25 because they don't want to upset me or, you know, they think that it's only a bad thing, but it's
06:32 not. And I really want to emphasize that Elliot is my child and I love talking about him. Yes,
06:39 it brings me to tears, but it's also my favorite thing to talk about. You know, I still want to
06:45 talk about how cute his nose was. I still want to talk about the color of his hair, you know, like
06:49 I'm still his mom and I have all those same feelings that like new mothers have. Like,
06:54 I'm very proud of my son. So I just, I think that's something I really want to drive home for
07:00 people who have friends who have gone through this or family who have gone through this. Like,
07:04 please continue talking about our babies. Like we don't want our babies to be forgotten.
07:08 What a powerful thing to say. Cause I mean, to be completely honest, going into this interview,
07:14 I just, I didn't know. I was like, I don't know what kind of questions to ask, what kind of things,
07:18 but you know, you being so open, it's just such, it's just, yes, because Elliot was your,
07:24 is your baby and he is the cutest baby. The photos that you've posted. I'm like the nose,
07:29 oh, I think so too. So, so, so sweet. Well, I really want to applaud you for just being
07:37 such a strong mom, a woman, like, you know, we need more of that. We need people to be open and
07:44 honest about this stuff because it's not a taboo topic. And I love also that MTV, I know, I think
07:49 you said something about this where, you know, MTV is showing your pregnancy and you applaud them
07:54 for that. Yeah. And thank you for also, you know, bringing me on and being willing to talk about
08:00 this. Like you are also helping breaking the stigma because there is such a stigma against,
08:05 you know, death and people hate the word, like my baby, like people don't want to say like your baby
08:10 died, like he did die. And like, I don't say that to be, you know, shocking, but I say that because
08:16 it also means that he lived. And so I think that's like really important that we are able to talk
08:21 about that. Like death is very real and it should be talked about.
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