00:00 I call myself a disco clone.
00:01 The colors I use, my emotions translate into the colors.
00:06 Being a clone means a lot to me.
00:09 It has given me the freedom to just be who I am
00:13 and embrace my inner child.
00:15 Today, I'm going to be transformed into a goth,
00:19 very dark, and I'll be back years ago
00:21 to my boots, like, dressing in all dark.
00:24 I'm excited 'cause it's been forever
00:26 since I've dressed like that.
00:27 Not so sure about this shirt.
00:30 This little thing makes me feel like a dog.
00:32 (dog barking)
00:33 One, two.
00:34 I look so different.
00:38 - I've never seen your nose before.
00:40 - I call myself a disco clone.
00:45 I started dressing like this just over a year ago,
00:49 and it was on accident because my friend had a birthday
00:52 and we were going to a festival
00:54 and my partner wanted to dress as clowns.
00:57 And I didn't want to do it at first,
00:59 a shame to say 'cause now, look at me, I'm a clown.
01:02 But I did it, and then the moment we did that,
01:05 I couldn't look back.
01:06 Some of my favorite pieces, they are,
01:09 that's not it, sorry.
01:10 (squeaking)
01:13 But this is one of my favorite pieces.
01:16 It is one of my most clowny pieces,
01:18 that's why I love it so much.
01:21 Very colorful, very fun, and very comfortable.
01:25 This is my very first clown piece I ever purchased.
01:29 Another of my favorite pieces, holes everywhere.
01:32 We'll fix that one day.
01:33 My absolute favorite hat though has to be this one.
01:38 It's a little beat up, but it's still my favorite
01:41 and I still take it out whenever I can.
01:45 There are some people that think I'm scary
01:49 just 'cause they don't like clowns,
01:52 but I'm not scary, and usually,
01:54 when people get to know me,
01:55 they're not afraid of me anymore.
01:57 I break down their fear of clowns because I'm fun,
02:00 I'm here to have a good time, and they see that.
02:03 Being a clown means a lot to me.
02:05 It has given me the freedom to just be who I am
02:09 and embrace my inner child,
02:12 and just not to take life so seriously.
02:15 Oh.
02:16 Hello?
02:18 Oh.
02:22 They say you owe them some money.
02:24 When I'm choosing makeup for my face
02:29 and the colors I use,
02:30 almost always my emotions translate into the colors.
02:35 What I'm feeling that day, I'll put on my face.
02:38 I used to wear only black.
02:40 That was my thing, and I really liked it,
02:43 but since becoming a clown, you gotta be colorful.
02:47 Today, I'm going to be transformed into a goth.
02:52 Very dark.
02:53 I'm excited 'cause it's been forever
02:56 since I've dressed like that.
02:57 I'm excited to see what it looks like.
03:00 Let's get to it.
03:03 I'm gonna open it with a key, as a clown does.
03:06 Ooh, okay.
03:10 Really cute.
03:12 Fishnet bodysuit.
03:14 I like that.
03:15 These are super cute.
03:20 I do like these a lot.
03:22 Let's get into this one.
03:23 Dark wig.
03:26 I haven't had regular hair color in a long time.
03:30 That's gonna be fun.
03:31 Wild.
03:35 Haven't worn anything like this in a long time.
03:37 These are super cute, though.
03:38 Not so sure about this shirt.
03:42 Not my thing, but we'll see.
03:44 We'll see how it goes.
03:45 This one makes me feel like a dog.
03:48 (dog barking)
03:49 Going out in this outfit,
03:51 I would feel so different from what I'm used to
03:54 that I really don't know.
03:55 I'd probably be pretty nervous about it.
03:58 (knocking)
04:02 Hello!
04:05 Oh my gosh, it's such a pleasure meeting you.
04:07 So nice to meet you.
04:09 Right, this way.
04:09 Okay.
04:10 Today, for Clover, we're gonna go ahead
04:12 and do a very gothic, dark, grudgy look.
04:17 Yeah, we're definitely gonna take her back to her old days.
04:21 Today is just gonna be a lot of darkness,
04:23 a lot of dark colors.
04:24 And do not take your nose off.
04:27 (laughing)
04:28 Oh yes.
04:28 This part, my most important part, my identity,
04:31 I will remove.
04:32 It just feels so good to take my artwork away.
04:37 Honestly, clown makeup starts to feel
04:40 quite heavy after a while,
04:42 so it feels nice to take it off.
04:43 (upbeat music)
04:46 Okay.
04:56 Am I complete?
04:56 Yes.
04:57 Are you ready to see yourself in the mirror?
04:59 I'm nervous, but I'm so ready.
05:01 One, two.
05:03 Wild.
05:08 This is wild, I look so different.
05:12 Is this even me?
05:13 This is so different though,
05:21 than what I'm used to.
05:22 I love the boots.
05:24 The hair, I don't know.
05:25 This isn't a hairstyle I'd have,
05:27 but I think I look cute.
05:30 Right?
05:32 I'm revealing today to my friend and my partner,
05:37 and they haven't ever seen me in full goth.
05:39 I am ready, but I'm so nervous
05:43 for them to see me like this.
05:45 I don't know how they'll react.
05:48 Come out, I'm scared.
05:49 Holy cow.
05:55 How do I look?
05:56 How do I look?
05:58 You're so tan.
06:00 I've never seen your nose before.
06:04 Me either.
06:04 You forgot what it looks like.
06:06 (laughing)
06:09 Yeah.
06:10 You look like a rock band character.
06:12 You do!
06:13 You play the bass guitar.
06:16 (laughing)
06:17 You have beautiful eyes too.
06:19 I'd be dark clown, scary clown.
06:21 Feel not myself hiding my nose right now.
06:24 Probably put it on later.
06:26 Just to feel more comfortable.
06:28 I need to taste the rainbow.
06:29 What I feel like doing right now,
06:36 probably ripping my wig off.
06:38 If it's too much for me, not into it,
06:40 and my hair being this dark just feels unnatural for me.
06:43 I like to have very vibrant and colorful hair.
06:47 What's next for me?
06:48 I'm probably just gonna keep clowning around
06:51 like I always do.
06:52 Clowning around is my thing.
06:55 I'll go anywhere and clown around.
06:57 We have two trans kids.
07:05 Anyone can be whoever they want.
07:07 I'm just owning it.
07:09 Our family is seen to be very unconventional.
07:14 So I had kids and I can't be hot anymore.
07:16 Like, moms are hot too.
07:18 People say I look like a thug, but I love thugs.
07:20 I take that as a compliment.
07:22 I'm bored of people thinking that I cannot be intimate.
07:26 I'm a young, single, hot piece of disabled booty.
07:29 I feel like I'm going to look at myself
07:31 and be like, "Who is that?"
07:35 (upbeat music)
07:38 Life is way too short to be hiding.
07:40 It is my story.
07:41 It is my truth.
07:42 (upbeat music)
07:45 (upbeat music)
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