00:01hey guys what's up what's up and welcome back to the attic i know it's been a week and some
00:07but um
00:09i just want to say thank you guys honestly before i even make any of the other videos you guys
00:14have
00:14been requesting and my q a i just wanted to say thank you guys honestly from the bottom
00:19bottom of my heart um thank you guys for you guys prayers every time i click on the video
00:26and i read you guys comments i break down and i can't even type so instead of me going and
00:33typing
00:34to every single one of you guys i want to just make a one video just specifically for you guys
00:40that commented and liked the video and personally contact me off of youtube on twitter on facebook
00:47whatever the case may be um thank you guys the ghetto views thank you for making that lovely video
00:54and reaching out to me i really really appreciate it um thank you lady nika i had my first phone
01:03conversation with lady nika and i could tell you guys you need someone like that in your life where
01:09you could say whatever and you're not judged she would correct you though and tell you when you're
01:15taking the wrong move but you can only take her advice you know you're your own person by the end
01:20of
01:21the day it's just good to have somebody like that in your corner and it it's good to talk to
01:25strangers
01:25sometimes i don't and understand where i'm coming from when i say stranger she's not around me every
01:31day she's not a family member she's not someone that grew up with me or anything like that she's a
01:36complete stranger that just started to watch my videos and liked me and we just click it off like
01:41that and just for me to able to express myself and her understanding where i'm coming from it was so
01:50heart it was just heartfelt really on a deep level heartfelt and she doesn't even know what she
01:57she did for me in just having that simple conversation with me she doesn't even know
02:02but i want to thank her personally thank you so much lady nika thank you so much to get a
02:07views
02:07thank you so much um say sean bradley you know because i remember i remember his comment especially
02:15um in my video when i'm trying not to break down it's crazy like i've been so emotional but uh
02:24anyways in his i'm trying not to look at the camera because i feel like i'm gonna cry um
02:30his comment say sean bradley when he said under my video that uh when i um made that i lost
02:35my god
02:36daughter um he was like it's okay if you don't know to cry um to pray just pray you know
02:41he hears
02:42your prayers and that was just it was so nice to hear you know because for somebody that's trying
02:48to find their way to the church you know and trying to find out really are the spiritual religious
02:56whatever the case may be it was just good to hear that you know and i understand some of you
03:01guys were
03:01kind of upset that i said f god but in that moment i wasn't saying f him as him as
03:07individual i was
03:08saying how can you give her a sick baby and after all of that take it away from us you
03:14know and you
03:16have people there that don't want babies and give them healthy babies and the shit they do to these
03:20babies it's like what the f but at the same time i had to you know after a couple days
03:26passed and
03:26speaking to girlfriends and family members and all that they were able to even put me in my place
03:32and like how can you be mad at god when there's so much women out there that want to have
03:38babies
03:38that have miscarriage each time you're pregnant and yet they still continue to try because they
03:43want to have that child you know your your your best friend lost one think about that lady that's
03:50for years been trying to have that one baby but keep getting stillborns or miscarriage how do you think
03:55she feels where she find the strength to push on so i i it was just a lot that i
04:01had to just
04:02come to terms with that it's not my fault it's not her fault i can't blame god there's nothing i
04:09could
04:09do about it although i'm hurting for my best friend and she's hurting there's nothing nothing i could do
04:13about it there's even moments where i felt guilty that's why i couldn't make a video for so long
04:18because i felt guilty just laughing or just enjoying life because i know she's at home right now in her
04:25bed
04:25under her covers probably color put her son but that's it you know it was just it was just so
04:32much it was just so so much but thank you guys honestly from the bottom of my heart thank you
04:41guys for you guys lovely words and just if you guys could see in the video when i click record
04:47it
04:47just imagine how my day had already started i got woken up out of my bed saying we just lost
04:53our
04:53goddaughter um or goddaughter my goddaughter her daughter okay she's not only she's not even two
05:00weeks fully two weeks old yet you know then to listen to my best friend breaking down i was just
05:06like what the fuck you know i was just in protective mode right away i just went into protective mode
05:12is she okay i need to get her here she got here by this time i have not broken down
05:16yet
05:16i'm just panicking is she okay you know she gets here i get to talk to her my husband just
05:24went into
05:24a space like oh my god he left my son is in his room sleeping he's about to get up
05:32soon they leave
05:33my best friend and her fiance and now i need to vent the one person i vent to all the
05:40time is her
05:40i can't call her and vent to her about the situation that just happened so i press recorded
05:45and that's what happened that was the end result that video so i just want to say thank you guys
05:51you know thank you guys and we're going we're coming back to regular schedule i have a video
05:57coming up i'm going to be speaking on the whole um nisa nicole and darian and damien situation and
06:02we're talking about love and hip-hop reunion all of that all that is coming up but i just want
06:07to
06:07take the time and say thank you guys so much for sticking in with me and and just being there
06:12and
06:12to all my new subscribers thank you guys for clicking on the video and i don't know y'all see
06:17something
06:17y'all like i hope y'all stick around and also um shit there's couple couple um subscribers that have
06:28been liking my videos like crazy because every minute i'm having to retweet you know a video that
06:34they like and i want to say thank you you know you didn't just like one video you went to
06:37my
06:38channel and you kept watching other videos and you're like hey hey i really like your channel so
06:42thank you guys for that thank you for all the new subscribers and thank you to my loyal subscribers
06:47and thank you to my youtube family say that three times but thank you guys and i'm back and i
06:54have a
06:55lot of topics i want to touch on even the black life matters yeah we're gonna we're gonna talk about
07:00that just as calm as i am right now so just look up for that but okay thank you guys
07:06so much bye
