00:16It's crazy how one route can just change your life.
00:20A good friend of mine on this route like two and a half years ago,
00:24she put it in my head that maybe I could do it.
00:29And then I remember her shouting down from the bottom like,
00:31Freya, you could totally do this route.
00:32And I remember just smiling to myself when she said it
00:35because somewhere inside I felt like maybe I could.
00:39But then my rational side or kind of the one that overthinks things
00:44thought, don't be ridiculous.
00:46It's got way too high of an E number, way too high of a grade.
00:50Only like professionals or elite climbers can climb them
00:54or like Hazel Finlay or someone.
00:55And I was kind of ashamed to even suggest that I wanted to do it.
01:03So I used to come here almost like sneak out to it,
01:06like sneaking out of my bedroom window at home when I was a teenager.
01:09I'd put a shunt on and just like practice the moves for myself,
01:12like not wanting to tell anyone that I was trying the route.
01:14And then when I was actually going to go and lead it,
01:16I didn't tell anyone I had my friend Megan come out and belay me
01:19because I just didn't want to tell anyone that I was actually going to try this route.
01:21Because I guess I was ashamed for thinking that I could do it like that or not.
01:28And then when I did it and when it was actually happening,
01:31it was a massive breakthrough mentally that all everyone ever does is try.
01:36And that as long as you're trying and if you have a good feeling that you can maybe do it
01:39too,
01:40then you should just go for it.
01:41And since then I haven't felt the same sense of shame or embarrassment for trying hard
01:47because it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.
01:49If you want to give it a go and if you're inspired by a route
01:52or if you feel like you can do it, then that probably means that you can
01:54and you should just go for it.
01:56And it took a while to kind of get the confidence in myself to try.
02:01Still an element of insecurity about certain things.
02:04Breaking into a grade above this one would probably be a similar mental process,
02:08but I think I've got some tools now to like deal with that and some more confidence in myself
02:13and it doesn't really matter what anyone else thinks.
02:17And it's just trusting yourself, like trusting yourself.
02:21That's what it's all about.
02:22Anyone can place gear, anyone can climb, but you just have to be friends with yourself, I think.
02:29When I climbed Electric Avenue, that was a huge breakthrough in my climbing,
02:33physically and mentally, and kind of showed me what was possible in the future.
02:39And I decided to think about the magic has beenделing you for the magic.
02:39I think it's a magic HER.
02:40Yes, I can tell you when the magic is for a magic.
02:41But if you don't care, it's not a magic.
02:41But there is this magic!
02:42You actually don't care!
02:42You can't do it!
02:42You're wrong!
