00:00I'm in White Claw Jail
00:03I'm in White Claw Jail
00:11It was the darkest season I'd ever known
00:15Friends, lovers, jobs, roommates
00:18All chewing me up and spitting me back out to square one
00:21And I don't mean the mall in Mississauga
00:26I was stuck on the outside looking in
00:28Like the world was playing a game I didn't know the rules to
00:31I felt hollow and reflective
00:34Opaque, smooth, and ominous as my Oakley shades
00:39Over time, I came to think of emptiness as my gift
00:43Like I had a cavity as deep as the Scarborough Bluffs
00:46Where my heart should have been
00:48That kind of space can absorb anything
00:51I could feel everyone
00:52Hear the murmur of their most profound secrets and desires
00:55When they'd walk by me
00:59All the demons come out at night
01:02The backstabbers, the clout chasers, the aesthetic revivers, the trend riders
01:08Someday, a real rain would come
01:10And wash all the fake-ass people away
01:17I aspired to a specific kind of life
01:20Only a Canadian girl would understand
01:23I sought it out relentlessly
01:25On highways and streets
01:27Haunting stores and cafes and restaurants like a ghost
01:30So hard and for so long that I finally ended up seeing the signs
01:36When the sun goes down
01:38The city speaks to me and I listen
01:42Storefront mannequins come alive
01:43Buildings draw shapes into the night sky
01:46Cars flash in red Morse code
01:48Streetlights lead the way
01:50And at sunrise
01:51The CN Tower kisses me off to sleep
01:54I had endless reserves of love and dedication for those who gave me their loyalty
02:00But the depth of my love is only matched by my vengefulness
02:03And in my darkest hour, I turned to the only weapon I had
02:07My pen
02:09I believe I was chosen
02:11Why else would I be blessed with so much bitterness and anger
02:14If it weren't to finally set the record straight
02:17They can cut me off, misunderstand, or ignore me into oblivion
02:21But I'm never alone
02:22Because I'll always have the music
02:24The movies and the books
02:26I'll always have my Lululemon tracksuit
02:29My Hoka sneakers and my Aritzia sweater
02:32Because I have the power to write myself into existence
02:39I'll never give up
02:40Because I believe in following your desires and obsessions all the way through
02:44I'll never give up
02:46Because I believe in walking through the fire of lonely hell to get to immortality
02:50I'll never give up
02:52Because I would do anything
02:55For that body of work
