00:00I looked inside myself and I saw the depths of my own suffering in a way that I hadn't
00:08ever seen before and just broke open.
00:13People know me for sliding down an iceberg on a slice of pizza, for sending jumbo love,
00:21for hiking in my underwear, sending highballs and then screaming like a banshee when I get
00:26to the top and for bat hanging.
00:30I love climbing so much.
00:32It's like the driving force of my life.
00:35He didn't hit your dad.
00:36I'm fine.
00:37I hope you are too.
00:39When I was away on climbing trips, he would frequently call.
00:42His love for me never wavered.
00:44I've never been stronger than that.
00:46I was like He-Man.
00:47I knew immediately what had happened.
00:49His left side was totally paralyzed.
00:51This is life now.
00:53I went from being like a full-time pro climber to a caregiver for my dad.
01:01There's so much life shit in the way.
01:04There's so much baggage.
01:05Ethan, it's your turn.
01:07Someday you're going to have to come home and visit me.
01:10You'll do the better.
01:11I miss you, Ethan.
01:14I was still thinking about climbing all the time.
01:17I just never stopped pushing towards the next goal, the next project.
01:21Ethan, it's your dad.
01:23I love you and I miss you.
01:25And thanks for all you've done for me.
01:27You know, everything.
01:31While the pain and sadness cuts our hearts wide open,
01:35what rushes in to fill the space is pure and infinite love.
01:38And then you want to make it beautiful yes,
01:40So watermelon, yeah?
01:42I'm ok.
01:42I've got some stuff out of this.
01:43But you've missed, yeah?
01:43i've had everything in a while.
01:44Take care of nonprofit.
01:44You can have nothing too long of activated business.
01:44even better than money.
01:44Let's go through a moment.
