00:04But there was a time now after you deliver the baby, you didn't have the baby.
00:11What's the story here?
00:13I didn't say I didn't have the baby.
00:14I chose not to first because they asked me, do you want to hold your baby?
00:19I said, not right now because I'm still groggy.
00:22I basically went through pre-eclampsia or health syndrome.
00:26What does that mean?
00:27I don't want to be technical about it because I can't really describe it.
00:30But my blood pressure was high and it was a tough pregnancy.
00:35Basically, not by choice.
00:37I couldn't have an epidural.
00:38So I was in labor for 30 hours.
00:41Then, I didn't want to hold her and have that first moment and not feel it fully.
00:54So, my husband was kind of sad when I said, I think not right now.
01:01Maybe give it like a few hours.
01:04And a few hours, that's when I saw him.
01:07Take us to that moment.
01:09You know, you finally got that chance.
01:11Oh, it was just, it's not like in the movies where it's instant.
01:16But then, yung mother instinct mo, bigla siyang, bigla siyang mag-i-hit eh.
01:22It's not like yung parang, oh, bigla na lang yung care mo sa kanya.
01:27Yung una kong inisip is like, wait lang, nung nag-snap out of the meds na siguro ako.
01:33Sabi ko, hindi pa siya kumakain.
01:35I haven't fed her.
01:37What should I do?
01:37Should I give her milk?
01:39Am I producing milk?
01:40Ganun yung una kong inisip.
01:41Tapos, tawag ako ng nurse.
01:42Should I try to breastfeed?
01:44What is it?
01:44Am I producing enough?
01:45Ang dami kong questions.
01:46And she was like, no, you gotta relax.
01:49It's fine.
01:49It's okay pa na hindi mo pa siya ifeed.
01:52I'm like, no, but it's been how many hours?
01:53Or so, eh, ganyan.
01:55But yun nga, dun makikita na mother's instinct talaga.
01:58Iba.
01:59Iba.
01:59Oo.
02:00And then, days passed and then I was looking at her and dun na parang sudden rush of emotions.
02:09Serious.
02:09Like this certain love that you can't even explain.
02:13Parang, this no joke, now I know exactly what love means.
02:18Oh.
02:18Parang, it's like, sabi ko, okay, I've been, you know, singing so many songs.
02:23You know, and you know, have fallen in love with so many things.
02:28But this is different.
02:29Saying so many lines about love in your movies.
02:31Yes, but then you don't.
02:33Hindi mo, like, I didn't know what I was talking about.
02:36And I've played roles where I play the mother.
02:38And I was like, wow, I don't think I've given it justice.
02:42Hindi ko.
02:43Yeah.
02:43Iba yung pakiramdam.
02:44I know Sloan is in the U.S.
02:46But since we talked about it, are you breastfeeding?
02:49Yes.
02:49Yes, I am breastfeeding until now.
02:51So, now I've been pumping.
02:53Yeah.
02:53So, I was like, hindi ko naisap nung nasa plane ako pagpunta too much information.
02:59Nasa plane ako, I'm like, oh my God, hindi ko naisap.
03:01Nope, nevermind.
03:04I'll call you sag outdoors in this restaurant in the GI for covid.
03:09So, let's fake blink.
03:10So, I will invite these strands in place.
03:12So, the road, now you're in your basket, what are you trying to walk inapple?
03:13So, we can actually see a normal day.
03:13No, now you're thinking about outside the day.
03:20Some love you guys have said that, to me, you don't want
03:26No.
03:30You won't want me, but I have a conversation.
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