00:12They handed her a page set
00:15Write about his grace
00:18Tell the world about the light that fills this place
00:24She stared at empty paper
00:28With a shaking hand
00:30Thinking where was heaven when I couldn't stand
00:37She remembered broken windows, broken bones
00:43Learning far too early she was on her own
00:50Every prayer she whispered disappeared like smoke
00:56Faith became another promise that was broke
01:01It said just open up your heart
01:04She laughed and nearly fell apart
01:07How do you sing of love divine
01:10When love was never yours to find
01:15She said, I can't write a song about a God I've never known
01:21Not when every night I cried, I cried alone
01:28If he's the shepherd, where was he when I was lost?
01:34If he's the healer, why'd my soul bear all the cost?
01:40You asked for hallelujahs, but all I've got is pain
01:46You are the choir of angels
01:50I've only learned the rain
01:52I wish that I believed the stories everyone has told
01:58But I can't write about a God Who let a little girl grow old
02:08The cutting scars beneath her sleep she learned to hide
02:14While strangers judged the storm she kept inside
02:20She wore a smile the way a soldier wears a shield
02:27Protecting wounds that time refused to heal
02:33They called her bitter, called her heart as stone
02:40Never knowing would she survive alone
02:46She wasn't running from the light above
02:51She was searching for a single proof of love
02:58Then she wrote the truth instead of what they asked
03:02Every tear she'd buried, every haunted past
03:05She didn't pray, she didn't curse the sky
03:08She simply asked the question
03:10Why?
03:12If you're there, can you hear this?
03:15If you're love, where were you?
03:18If you made me in your image
03:20Why'd you leave me black and blue?
03:24She said, maybe if you're real
03:28You'll understand this song
03:32Maybe faith is asking questions all along
03:38I'm not refusing you
03:41Because I hate your name
03:44I'm just exhausted
03:46Carrying all this goddamn blame
03:50So if you're listening somewhere
03:53Beyond these shattered years
03:57Don't ask me now for worship
04:00First sit with all my tears
04:03And maybe when the silence finally lets me breathe again
04:08I'll find the words to write about the God I couldn't see back then
04:18She never wrote the song they wanted
04:21She wrote the one she had to
04:24And somewhere in the quiet
04:27If God was listening
04:34Perhaps that honest cry was the first prayer
04:39She ever truly sang
04:43She ever truly sang
04:53She never sang
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