00:04and then going through that yung phone call would not stop ringing there was
00:10this one person was not my friend okay it was just some random some random
00:17musician I met on Kumu app when I was doing Kumu he goes by the name of
00:23destiny hello destiny and sa kulit niya pinig up ko na hindi na rin ako mamatay sabi ko
00:31pero naka live ka nun hindi tapos na yung live mo okay tapos na yung live mo okay so you
00:35picked up the phone and
00:36and I'm like what and then he's like ate ate kasama ko si misis nakamotor na kami asan ka po
00:45asan ka po hindi
00:47kayo makakilala hindi kami hindi kami makakilala personally okay sa Kumu lang na nakipag jam ganyan
00:56and so dahil sa kakulit niya I told him where I am kinalma niya ako pinakain niya ako and then
01:05binigyan niya pa ako ng money para maka check-in para makatulog kahit isang araw and then
01:12naging series of strangers in my life at that time just contacting me on Facebook that just kept
01:21sending help sending help na o dito ka muna sa amin hindi ko kilala yung mga tao di namin kilala
01:27dito ka muna tuloy ka sa amin ilang araw and then meron ulit iba kami makakausap ganun ulit until
01:36siguro two months yung dumaan I heard from Mark he's from the company of Kule Desma and that's how
01:48doon kayo nagtagpo ni Kule Desma who was responsible doon sa yung pagpasok sa unang rehabilitation center
01:56and that was like I couldn't believe it that it was cool kasi we became best friends like 20
02:05something years back when I first became born again Christian so she remembered that friendship
02:10and decided like okay I'll help her out you know no one's there and she did and that's how I
02:19got in
02:20rehab one because of who anong nangyari dun sa rehab one hindi ko pa nun nare-realize wala pa akong
02:27realization about my life na it's destroyed ang talagang pakay ko lang dun is magpahinga paglabas tira
02:36ulit ganun pero hindi ko pa alam yun hindi ko pa alam na yun yung mindset this is in hindsight
02:42you're able to
02:43connect the dots yeah pero when I went into rehab one I didn't have any future or or forcing and
02:52I
02:53didn't have any of that basta I was just there it's bible based so there's a lot of bible studies
03:01there's a lot of reflection time there's a lot of retreat uh moments ganyan so parang ini enjoy ko lang
03:08at least I'm not hungry anymore on the streets at least I'm not on the verge of suicide anymore
03:15and at least here I'm not alone I'm feeding my head with God's word and ko is there
03:23now with with her daughter also Isabella they've been a great team that were trying to help me but
03:31in all honesty nahirapan silang dalawa with me it wasn't easy for them because I was still entitled and
03:38hard-headed I was still like they were giving me their hand and I wanted their arm and I wanted
03:45their head and pero because ko has been you know like a christian for longer than I am
03:55ang lawak ng pag-intindi niya eh ang lawak ng pangunawa niya so even in the end kahit nagkaroon kami
04:02ng misunderstanding hindi nagtagal nagbati din kami and then parang inano niya na muna ko parang
04:32hindi hindi hindi hindi niya kasalanan eh it's not his fault pero pareho kaming ganun ang
04:39ginagawa so kung isa sa amin ay gustong lumayo na sa droga or gusto nang mag recover
04:47pero yung isa hindi pa hindi mag it's not gonna work kasi siyempre ano din ako eh addict nga din
04:56ako eh
04:56I have addiction so it might not be now or next month or ano but eventually it can
05:06make me use again parang ganun um how how did it affect your friendship with ko ah nagkaroon kayo
05:13ng misunderstanding was she disappointed she was sad she was sad she was sad sabi niya
05:20wonderful human being i mean she's a friend yeah sabi niya you already know what happened to you living
05:25that life bakit mo pa why do you have to repeat ganyan
05:30that life bakit mo pa why do you have to repeat ganyan
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