00:00All of my mistakes dulu, saya try to belajar
00:01even though a lot of things yang kita buat lagi
00:03but that's life. Nowadays, especially
00:06this past few years, I rasa sangat-sangat
00:08macam lega. Betul lah tu
00:10orang kata belajar daripada pengalaman kan
00:12bagus Ismail Zaini ni kerana
00:14disebabkan pengalaman lalu menjadikan dirinya
00:16kini lebih baik. Kata Ismail
00:17sekarang ini dia lebih berjaga-jaga terutama
00:20ketika menggunakan media sosial. Tidak
00:22mahu melayan sebarang komen toksik, Ismail juga
00:24memilih untuk tidak berkongsi luahan perasaan
00:26atau emosi di threat
00:28tapi kalau ada komen
00:30negatif, apa respon mail je?
00:32TikTok pun kalau tengok komen pun nampak
00:34toksik tu kat mana-mana je. Tapi
00:36threat tu kenapa saya try tu? Sebenarnya sebab
00:38kawan-kawan juga. Sebab Zain kan
00:40dia cakap, wih kau kena, kena
00:41emasih pun ada threat takkan? Saya tak ada threat. Saya pun macam
00:44ish, biar betul ni kan? Itu kena join ni. Sebab
00:46as much as dulu saya tak macam threat
00:48apa ni, macam takpelah. Lagi-lagi slide lah, saya
00:50fokus on few media sosial je. Tapi lama-lama
00:52bila tengok threat ni macam, oh you actually
00:54can gain more people to talk
00:56to. Macam tu.
00:57dapat that connection. Interact lah. Interact with people
00:59sebab sometimes for stories, orang yang
01:01follow saya je. Tapi kalau kat threat ni, can go
01:03a conversation. Sometimes a question, orang
01:05sama-sama pendapat orang. So, I'm
01:07still new. Tapi orang kan toxic tu
01:09of course ada kat mana-mana pun. But I'm
01:11not being picky ke apa. Kalau ada toxic tu
01:13saya just baca and let it slide je lah.
01:15Tapi dekat threat ni, macam
01:16you aku sikit tu. Oh yes.
01:19Aku tak punya tu. Macam penjelakang
01:20orang apa benda dah cakap tu kan?
01:23Dari dulu dah rasa beyond tu. So for me
01:25ni macam nak beyond mana lagi. So
01:27kalau dia nak jadi toxic, takkan kita
01:29nak jadi toxic juga. So if I feel like
01:31the energy is wrong, then I tak layan lah.
01:33Masanya awak bukan sebabkan threat tu
01:35untuk awak berpulsi pasal karya
01:36perkembangan karya awak lah.
01:37Just to communicate, dekatkan lagi kita
01:39dengan new norm the nowadays. Sebab
01:42ha follow the threat lah. So macam
01:44macam saya pun try lah. Saya pun tak
01:45geti sebenarnya. Nak menteran, nak cakap apa kan?
01:48Tadi tak luar-luar kan perasaan
01:49macam already yang pernah
01:50eh takde lah. Kalau macam luarkan
01:53perasaan tu, I feel like that is such a
01:562016 punya thing to do. So bagi saya
01:58memang tak lah. Ya for now
02:00if I rasa sedih kat paul, I'll just
02:01keep it to myself.
02:02Sebab yang macam dia kalau
02:03lihat sekarang ni awak lebih matang
02:04kemudian yang macam cakap
02:06kira-kira mikir nak buat macam
02:07awak macam buat kecualangan
02:08semua yang mana-mana-mana
02:10orang-mana. Siapa yang buatkan awak
02:13growing up memang macam-macam
02:15benda. Tapi bagi saya masing-masing
02:17ada jalan cerita masing-masing. And
02:18for me, just like I said, daripada
02:20all of my mistakes dulu, saya try to
02:22belajar. Even though a lot of
02:23things yang kita buat lagi. But that's
02:25that's life. Kita human being. Kita
02:27try to find ourselves more. And
02:28Alhamdulillah nowadays, especially
02:30these past few years, Ma'er rasa
02:32sangat-sangat macam lega. Because
02:34all the small things yang I should do
02:36in life, Ma'er dah buat. Which is
02:37spend more time with family, dengan
02:38my dad, dengan my mom and
02:40sebagainya. So bagi Ma'er,
02:42yang ubah Ma'er is my past
02:44juga. Walaupun that world is
02:47dark. Macam the past is so-so
02:49dark. Yang buat Ma'er somehow
02:50ada those things yang Ma'er
02:51tak ada. Macam ya, macam
02:53anxiety. Somehow but I'm not
02:55I'm not saying it as anxiety. Cuma
02:57macam Ma'er takut nak keluar. Ma'er
02:59takut jumpa ramai orang. There are
03:00a few times. Even until now. Tapi
03:02Alhamdulillah it's getting better. And
03:04the world is changing and I'm also
03:06a change man.
03:06pengalaman matang. Alhamdulillah.
03:08I'm not saying it's so-so-so-so-so-so-so-so-so-so-so-so-so-so-so-so.
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