00:06There are these moments in life, these fleeting feelings that form like bubbles in your throat
00:13and flutters in your chest, moments that feel so intense, that make you feel more alive
00:19than you've ever felt, like you've been comatose for years and suddenly and inexplicably been
00:25reawakened. For me, that came with her. Looking into her eyes, I felt that. Natural. Incandescent. Alive.
00:42I met Maggie the first day of kindergarten. I guess I maybe thought she looked lonely.
00:47That day, my mom had made me peanut butter and jelly for lunch. I hated peanut butter and jelly.
00:54I traded Maggie it for her Lunchables. I guess you could say that set up a pretty good
00:59foundation for our friendship. I guess in my head, I always knew there was something different
01:04about Maggie. She never seemed much interested in talking about guys or swooning about Ryan
01:09Gosling, like every other prepubescent girl who's seen The Notebook. She had this quiet
01:14sort of curiosity about her. Almost like she had a thousand things on her mind, but said
01:19hardly anything at all.
01:25I had a feeling that, as the years went on, something started to change. A shift in dynamic
01:30of our relationship, I guess you could say. Touches lingered longer. More and more often,
01:36our cheeks flushed with heat whenever we spent too much time looking at each other.
01:42She started pointing out my strange conventions and tiny intricacies, like how my voice lifts
01:48up when I'm nervous, or how the sun kisses my face in the summertime and always leaves me
01:54with the same freckled mark on the tip of my nose. I liked that. I never told her so.
02:14A year ago, I think she wanted to finally tell me how she felt. This poorly kept secret between us
02:20that hadn't yet been told, but had already been silently communicated too many times before.
02:25She didn't tell me that day. Okay, so, hearts and swords. Okay. Queen of swords. A queen.
02:44I don't know if I'm doing this right. I don't know either, but I know you used four cards,
02:50so. Okay. I think so. Okay, um, the sun. And...
03:16I love you.
03:21I love you too.
03:33Shit.
03:36Her lips were soft and her breath tasted sweet.
03:41Elena told me that she loved me today. I said, I love her too. I know that I really do.
04:01So, where do we go from here? I don't know, but we've spent ten years not knowing. I think we'll
04:10be okay.
04:11Seems, if anything, you'd be less certain after everything you ever learned.
04:21For me, she will be better.
04:22I don't know.
04:25Okay.
04:26I love you.
04:34Maybe one day.
04:41I love you.
04:42I love you.
04:43I love you.
04:43I love you.
04:44I love you.
04:45I love you.
04:45I love you.
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