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00:14I arrived in Moscow in November of 1975 during the Cold War.
00:25The Soviet Union was the main intelligence target of the U.S.
00:30And so this was a big job.
00:33The danger of getting identified as a CIA officer would be devastating.
00:46After I was arrested, the Soviets wrote this about me.
00:52A chiseled, almost ideal, medium-sized figure.
00:55She was actually, if not beautiful, then very, very pretty.
01:00And very smart, too.
01:05And Martha loved to drink.
01:09In general, if she was not a drunk, then she was amenable.
01:14And if not a slut, then a very free-spirited woman.
01:19What did you do in the hospital?
01:20Pardon me.
01:22Animal, animal, animal, animal.
01:23If you don't want to be executed, don't become a spy for the CIA.
01:32It was obviously very complimentary to me.
01:38I'm not sure about the drinking.
01:40I don't know when they would have seen that.
01:54I never knew my mom was a spy.
01:57I never had a clue.
01:58She led a normal life.
02:01She just was really busy.
02:03And if you were to tell me today that...
02:08How do I put this?
02:11If she hadn't told me back then, and she just let the lie go...
02:16Not the lie, but the secret.
02:18I should call it a secret.
02:19It's not a lie.
02:20If she had let it go to today, I still would have never suspected it.
02:27During the Cold War, working for CIA, I knew it was a very dangerous time in history.
02:35And you're taking the ultimate risk.
02:38That was just going to be a fact of my life.
02:42It was a very exciting life.
02:45I am Marty Peterson.
02:47I worked for the CIA for 32 years.
02:51People are always surprised because I look like someone's grandmother at this point.
02:55And I tell them, people who work for the CIA, you know, look like grandmothers eventually.
03:02You know?
03:05Servicing the CIA is not easy.
03:08You're living a double life.
03:10But you are blessed.
03:13You are fortunate.
03:14Not everybody has the opportunity to serve our country this way.
03:18My name is James Olson.
03:21I served undercover in the CIA during the Cold War when the United States and the Soviet Union
03:29were building up their capabilities.
03:31And about to destroy the other, many times over.
03:37At the time, I really wanted to make a mark of some kind for the world.
03:44The Soviet Union was a very, very powerful adversary.
03:48So we had to bring our A game.
03:51Being considered for a case officer position was not the norm for a woman.
03:57You have to think about the fact that women weren't even expected to work.
04:02My name is Tracy Walder.
04:03I'm one of the few women who served on both the operations side of the CIA and the FBI.
04:09Women couldn't even have their own credit cards until the 70s.
04:12Women couldn't be special agents at the FBI until 1972.
04:15They said, well, we would love to hire you.
04:20We have several jobs as secretaries.
04:23And I said, I would like to be interviewed for the officer program.
04:29I found out about a man working with CIA who was looking for someone to go to Madrid.
04:37And it became very clear that he was looking for a girl Friday, a little roll in the hay as
04:44well.
04:44I didn't go.
04:47CIA is patriarchal.
04:48The reason was, well, women eventually will get married and have babies.
04:53What good are they?
04:53I didn't want to be a secretary.
04:56I had other skills.
04:58They saw that I had potential.
05:01And eventually I was hired as a career trainee.
05:08In the CIA, the bread and butter of intelligence is the overseas agent, the source.
05:14The foreigner who has access to information that our country needs for its own security,
05:20who knows what their plans are.
05:22And so we were so hungry during the Cold War for Russian sources that getting a foreign
05:28service officer anywhere was going to be valuable for us.
05:31At the end of 1974, we had recruited this great source down in Bogota, Colombia.
05:37Alexander Ogorodnik, codenamed Trigon, a foreign ministry officer for the Soviet Union.
05:44He probably had some disaffection from the Soviet Union.
05:48He lived in the West, so he saw the difference.
05:51He saw what a democratic society could look like.
05:54And he was about ready to go back to Moscow.
05:56But getting that information from Trigon to us was going to be a major challenge because
06:04all of our people in Moscow were under constant KGB surveillance.
06:08We had to get somebody free of KGB surveillance.
06:13We said to ourselves, we know that the KGB does not use women for high-risk operational jobs.
06:23They probably assume that we don't either.
06:30I got a call one day from a wonderful man, and he offered a job in Moscow as a case
06:39officer.
06:39We had the perfect candidate sitting right there.
06:43That was momentous for us.
06:45And we said, all right, let's do it.
06:47I had no experience.
06:49I was fresh out of training.
06:51I mean, Moscow was the main target of U.S. intelligence.
06:55So I knew that this was big time.
06:59I just hoped that I could do the job.
07:03Finally, we had the person who had great access going back to Moscow,
07:08and we can handle him with Marty Peterson.
07:13I flew from Florida to Moscow.
07:17The flight landed, and I was instantly paranoid.
07:21I thought they knew who I was, and it was frightening.
07:27The KGB was vicious.
07:30It was cruel.
07:32It routinely engaged in assassinations, torture.
07:36They were a brutal foreign service.
07:46My name is Alexander Vasilyev.
07:49I am ex-KGB intelligence officer.
07:54If you don't want to be executed, don't become a spy for the CIA.
07:59The punishment is obvious.
08:02It's death.
08:03We were trained to believe that we were a war against the CIA,
08:08against the U.S. administration.
08:10And the KGB surveillance was the best of the best.
08:14We are watching you.
08:15To most people in the embassy, both my American colleagues and Soviets who worked in the first floor,
08:24I was doing a low-level job and then would go up to the CIA station at noon and at
08:32the end of the day.
08:34Our hope was that the KGB would overlook her and that they would then not surveil her.
08:39And we told Marty, we want you to be portraying yourself as frivolous.
08:44You know, move around town.
08:46In fact, he developed the nickname of Party Marty.
08:51Being comfortable sometimes with being underestimated can actually be sort of this quiet skill that you have
08:58that really works out in your favor.
09:04My first job was to determine whether I had surveillance.
09:11In the beginning, I thought, well, I just wasn't seeing it.
09:15I also invited other secretaries with me to take trips around town.
09:21And I had reason to turn around and look with other people with me.
09:26And nobody seemed to be following me.
09:29I would go into the station, of course, and say, I didn't see any surveillance.
09:36And the men doubted the fact that I could actually spot surveillance.
09:41There were some old male chauvinist curmudgeons back at CIA headquarters who said,
09:49she's just not seeing it because it's there.
09:52We didn't know for sure if Marty was being fallen.
09:56KGB was using a certain type of radio transmission among their surveillance teams.
10:05What was discovered was we can intercept those communications.
10:12I'm Robert Wallace.
10:14I was director of the Office of Technical Service in the Directorate of Science and Technology.
10:19In Moscow, that technology was absolutely critical for the operation itself.
10:26to be accomplished.
10:27They gave me a receiver, the SR-100.
10:32Our agents would be able to hear now the communications of surveillance teams who were tracking them.
10:39So if we made a move on this street, we could hear that in our ear.
10:47So when the men went out, they could hear.
10:49When I went out, this is what I heard.
11:02There was no one following me, ever.
11:07Marty was our ace in the hole.
11:08I had a way to operate in Moscow that everyone else didn't.
11:16Marty became the handler for Trigon, and that was historic.
11:22For the first time ever, we were handing a source inside Moscow.
11:27And also, this was the first time we'd ever used a woman in an advanced operational role,
11:33a high-risk, dangerous operation.
11:35It was life and death what she was doing.
11:42I had been in Moscow about two and a half months.
11:47We needed to know what was going on in the Kremlin.
11:51The White House was relying on us because it was so important that we provide our policymakers
11:57with good inside information on the Soviet Union.
12:01I knew there were a lot of risks.
12:04But this wasn't the first time that I fended for myself in a dangerous place.
12:16My first week at college, I met my husband, John Peterson.
12:23And he made the choice in 1967 to go into the Army to enlist.
12:30He became a Green Beret in 1969.
12:34To me, of course, that was going off to sure death.
12:39You know, that's how we thought about Vietnam.
12:42But he survived.
12:45And then he told me he had applied for CIA.
12:50I was shocked.
12:51I was.
12:52I didn't know anything about CIA.
12:55John said, I got my notice of my first assignment.
12:59It's Pak Se Laos, and you can come along.
13:04I said, yes, absolutely.
13:07This was an adventure we were going to take on.
13:10That's John in Pak Se.
13:13After we got there and he's getting ready to get on a plane to put his troops into the field.
13:19His business was war.
13:23I worked in the office.
13:25He worked in the field.
13:28John and I always looked at life as partners.
13:31I was part of his team.
13:34It was him and me.
13:36Often when I would be coming home from work, I would hear a big explosion.
13:42It made a metal taste come to your mouth.
13:45That is tremendous fright.
13:48So it became right up front and very personal that there was danger there.
13:57I had been out on the street so much and had logged many hours and never had surveillance.
14:34Because she could slip away.
14:35For us to have whatever materials are being transmitted through the dead drop.
14:39It can be instructions, of course.
14:41It can be money.
14:41It can be medicines.
14:43It can be camera.
14:44Anything that the agent needs to carry out his or her business.
14:47Say, just a very nice rock laying along the side of the road someplace.
14:52But inside is a major cavity that an agent could use.
14:57The tech person in the field is crucial.
14:59There's no book telling them what to do.
15:02They're some of the most gifted people in the world because they're constantly thinking
15:06quickly and making do with what's available to them.
15:09One of the classics is a dead rat.
15:13You have a nice little cavity.
15:15Perhaps you want to put a small camera.
15:17Not likely to be picked up by anybody except the intended agent.
15:23How do you prevent cat from grabbing it?
15:25Treat it with a little Tabasco sauce.
15:27Because cats hate Tabasco sauce.
15:34Originally, Trigon had taken pictures of documents with a 35-millimeter camera.
15:41But that was very risky, taking the camera into the embassy.
15:45So we realized that he was a good candidate for this very unique miniature camera hidden
15:52within a fountain pen.
15:54And this was my first dead drop.
15:56We told him where it would be and how it would be disguised, that it was concealed in a Soviet
16:05cigarette pack.
16:07He would take the top off, hold the pen over a piece of paper with his elbows up, and that
16:14was the right focal distance.
16:15And then he would plunge this top down, and it would take a full-page picture.
16:28Dead drop deliveries always make you nervous.
16:32Usually, you would pitch the package out of the car window.
16:36The problem was, we didn't know whether the camera's mechanism would survive.
16:41So at the last minute, the station decided that I would deliver the package on foot.
16:51I drove my car for two hours, looking for surveillance.
16:59When I determined that I had no surveillance, I went into the Soviet subway system.
17:06I rode three stops, I got out and changed to another subway line, and walked to the site where
17:16the package was to be delivered to Trigon that night.
17:21My heart was going a million miles an hour.
17:24I was really alert and terrified all at the same time.
17:32As I approached the dead drop site, I pause, take a Kleenex out of my bag and blow my nose,
17:39and at the same time, I take the package out of my purse.
17:52Trigon is supposed to come and pick up my package, but when I return, I look down, and my package
18:02is still there.
18:04And I'm horrified to see, several blocks away, a man in the shadows watching.
18:17They caught me red-handed.
18:26When I saw that man at a distance, my huge concern was that that was a KGB officer.
18:34I didn't want to be known as the woman who got caught.
18:42I didn't know who he was or why he was there.
18:46But I glanced back to see that man has disappeared.
18:53So I recovered the camera in the package and went on my way back into the subway.
19:01I go in the next morning and report what has happened.
19:05After much discussion, we realized that man in the shadows was probably Trigon watching for a car.
19:17And, of course, he hasn't seen a car.
19:22Ultimately, the next month, I was able to deliver the camera in the pen to Trigon.
19:33I knew that I could put a package down on foot and then leave the area and then return
19:43and pick up Trigon's package.
19:47And what was crucial for us, Trigon was assigned to the communications center.
19:54And that's where the cables came in from Soviet ambassadors overseas reporting back to Moscow
20:00of what they were doing, what their policy recommendations were.
20:04Trigon had access to that.
20:08Over time, you get more confident and you realize the agent is going to be there to pick up that
20:14dead drop.
20:15And that mutual understanding gives you a good feeling.
20:21And so we began to receive his intelligence and we learned he is a very capable agent.
20:30He became so adept at this.
20:33He had access to front-line, high-level intelligence on arms control, but also on foreign policy in general.
20:40Intelligence that was produced, thanks to Marty, was going right to the president's desk.
20:44That one of the most pleasant surprises that I have had has been the quality of work done by the
20:52Central Intelligence Agency.
20:54The intelligence was pouring in.
20:56One of the major players in U.S.-USSR relations was the Soviet ambassador in Washington, Anatoly de Brennan.
21:05I hope that relations between our countries will develop.
21:10And Kissinger was meeting regularly with de Brennan.
21:13Kissinger loved the Trigon reporting because he would have the meeting with de Brennan.
21:18And then he could see how de Brennan was interpreting it back to Moscow or misinterpreting it back to Moscow.
21:26And a lot was going on.
21:28We were in the middle of the SALT 2 negotiations.
21:30We were trying to trade negotiations.
21:32The Russians were deploying cruise missiles.
21:35It was gold for us.
21:37We'd never seen intelligence like that before.
21:42Over time, I felt such a connection with Trigon.
21:47Even though I have never met him, he and I never exchanged a word.
21:54But I had a feeling of, we're in it together.
21:58We are a team.
22:00And of course, keeping him safe and alive is the most important thing to me.
22:07The relationship between officer and asset is critical because the reality is you have someone's life in your hands.
22:13Period.
22:13Because they are committing a crime by giving you information that they shouldn't be giving you.
22:22In our country, that's called treason.
22:25Trigon knew that if he were caught, that his fate would be horrible.
22:30His fate was sealed as soon as he fell into the KGB's hands.
22:34KGB investigated all their citizens, especially those who had been overseas.
22:42He told us in his packages to us that he had undergone a security check.
22:49And each time he was deathly concerned because they could uncover what he was doing.
22:55And that means torture and the bullet to the back of the head.
23:01Trigon was a traitor.
23:04Traitors, all of them were executed.
23:09If you think about the gravity of what Trigon was doing in 1975 Russia,
23:16for him to be willingly providing us with information was a death sentence if that information came out.
23:25Trigon is under incredible stress.
23:29If anyone went and searched his apartment, it could be the end for him.
23:38Then, end of April 1977, we received a package from Trigon.
23:45And when our tech opened the package, he realized that there were some differences in his photography.
23:56Maybe in his stress, he'd become careless.
24:01He'd become reckless.
24:02This stress was causing him physical problems.
24:06He had stomach problems.
24:08He had breathing problems.
24:12Eventually, Trigon requests that he be provided with a means to commit suicide in the event that he is caught.
24:25We didn't want to encourage a potential asset to kill himself.
24:31So we said no.
24:33And only over time, with persistent requests, we felt that it was a moral responsibility to answer his request.
24:44The CIA determined that the best concealment device would be the same pen that Trigon had the camera in.
24:56And now, it contained an ampoule of poison in the barrel where the ink was.
25:02And this would cause instant death.
25:06I was able to deliver the pen to Trigon.
25:10I just hoped that he would never have to use it.
25:20On October 19th, John kissed me goodbye and headed to work.
25:26I worked all day.
25:27I came home and I was working in the kitchen.
25:30And I heard the truck drive into our driveway, which had gravel.
25:35It was kind of like our doorbell.
25:38I went to the door, expecting John to be there.
25:42And it was the chief of our unit.
25:45I said, Bill, John didn't tell me you were coming for dinner.
25:48And Bill just looked at me.
25:50He said, oh, Marty.
25:53And I realized in a second that something had happened to John.
26:07I was told his helicopter should have taken off below the tree line.
26:13But his pilot, for whatever reason, lifted up too high.
26:18And the North Vietnamese got a good angle.
26:21There was a man in a second helicopter.
26:24John was his very best friend.
26:27So he tried to turn around and go back.
26:30But there were too many enemies in the area.
26:34And that night, sitting there, he said, Marty, I tried to get to him.
26:38I tried to get him out.
26:40And it was impossible.
26:44The next day, his soldiers, they kept telling me, we're getting the body out.
26:50And I thought, it's just a body.
26:54He wasn't there.
26:56I just knew that he wasn't coming home.
27:02When I was offered a position in Moscow, the agency said, we think that you are the right person to
27:09go.
27:10You have had difficult life experiences, so we know you could withstand the difficulties.
27:24June 28th, 1977, I went into this park where Trigon and I had exchanged packages before.
27:35I had a log with his new schedule and resupply of the pen and cartridges.
27:42I walked down the wooded path and put the package at the base of the lamppost.
27:50After an hour, I saw on the road a small paneled van.
27:58I had never seen any car parked in that park.
28:03And it had its dome light on, and the windows were steamed over.
28:10And I thought, either this is an ambush or it's Lover's Lane.
28:19And then, all of a sudden, a man appeared in front of me.
28:23We almost collided.
28:27And I stepped off the side of the path.
28:30I stood there for about 20 minutes.
28:35And then I decided to cross the road.
28:38The van was no longer there.
28:41And there, on the ground by the lamppost, was the log.
28:45Trigon hadn't been there that night.
28:49All my alarms went off.
28:51I knew there was something wrong.
28:53I realized this was not coincidence.
28:57There is no such thing as coincidence in espionage.
29:03So, I drove my car by the signal site the next morning.
29:08A signal site is a location where an agent would come and make a mark.
29:16When one of our case officers sees that mark, we know the dead drop has been loaded.
29:22The child crossing sign was the actual signal site that we had described to Trigon.
29:29I wasn't very close to it.
29:31When I could see the signal that he made, it was like it had been stenciled.
29:37This was bright red.
29:39It looked like an artist had drawn it carefully, so we wouldn't miss it.
29:46Trigon never made signals like this.
29:50Even though we had all these red flags that indicated there was a problem with Trigon,
29:56we never aborted an operation.
29:59When an agent's life was on the line, we had to know whether he was okay or not.
30:06I worked my day job.
30:07It was very difficult to concentrate.
30:10At 6 o'clock, I went up to the station, and my colleagues were all there.
30:15They had the package packed.
30:18It was a piece of asphalt, and it contained all the elements that we knew Trigon needed.
30:23The camera in the pen, equipment documents, rubles in low denominations.
30:30I put it in my bag, and began a long surveillance detection route.
30:45I continued on to the river, to where the site was located, on the top of a railroad bridge.
31:02I took the piece of asphalt out of my purse, and slid it into a narrow window.
31:11I turned around and came back through the tower, and started down the stairs.
31:18I was about the fourth step from the bottom, when these three men came at me across the street.
31:32A van came from underneath the bridge, and the men got out.
31:49This was the moment that I was arrested by the KGB.
31:56I remember the moment so clearly.
31:59I attached this receiver on my bra using Velcro, which they had no idea about.
32:05And they had a real problem getting it undone, because they didn't know you had to pull it apart.
32:10When they have their hands inside your blouse, you know, it's pretty bad.
32:18Yeah, pretty bad.
32:24I realized at that moment, I did not know what has happened to Trigon.
32:29Whether he's being held in a cell, brutally tortured, or he is already dead.
32:38They took me to Lubyanka prison.
32:45Russians suspected of being spies.
32:47They were sent to Lubyanka prison, and they were executed.
32:55She was interrogated, and she was an American.
32:58You know, America was an enemy.
32:59The enemy number one.
33:01What do you want to do with our school?
33:03Pardon?
33:04Animal and the old family.
33:05What do you want to do with the bridge?
33:08I don't know.
33:09I knew to say absolutely nothing.
33:14The chief interrogator asked his technical officer to open the package.
33:19They began taking out all the equipment and the documents in the package.
33:26They got to the pen, and the chief interrogator said,
33:33Don't touch it.
33:36Lay it on the side.
33:37Let nobody touch it.
33:39And it was at that moment that I realized he thought that pen had poison in it.
33:47And I knew it was just a camera.
33:52And the only reason he would be afraid of that pen was if he had been there and seen Trigon
34:01use it.
34:01So I knew that something really awful had happened to Trigon, something he wouldn't survive.
34:14We knew that if Marty was ambushed, that Trigon was already dead, or would be dead soon.
34:22That was devastating.
34:24I'll never forget that.
34:25That was one of the lowest moments in my CIA career.
34:32The chief interrogator was so angry.
34:35I thought something violent was going to happen to me, but after many hours, the chief interrogator said to me,
34:44You may go, you may go.
34:47Most people think that's odd that they would let me go, but I had diplomatic immunity.
34:55When I arrived back at the embassy, I went up to the CIA station, and as I came through the
35:01door, all my colleagues were there waiting for me.
35:05The chief, who had only newly arrived, said to me, Oh, I'm so glad you're back.
35:11And on the blackboard in his office, he had written, Our little girl.
35:17And I told him, I am nobody's little girl.
35:21Even though I knew Moscow better than anyone ever would, I think he believed that if a man had gone
35:29out, this wouldn't have happened.
35:32The Soviet Union said that Martha Peterson, an American vice consul, was expelled from the Soviet Union last July as
35:39a spy.
35:42I left Moscow the next day and flew back to Washington.
35:48I came back to CIA headquarters, and I began working again in Washington.
35:54But I had this thought in the back of my head that it was something I had done, and that
36:02somehow I had made a mistake.
36:09For the next seven years, I kept myself busy.
36:14I got married, I began a family.
36:17And it was in 1984 when they finally arrested the man who had caused Trigon's death.
36:25A former employee of the CIA was arrested in New York City today and charged with spying for the government
36:30of Czechoslovakia.
36:31He is identified as Carl Kocher.
36:33We learned from a source, a CIA translator, had been working secretly for Czech intelligence and through Czech intelligence back
36:44to the KGB.
36:45Once the KGB knew that someone in the Soviet embassy was being targeted by the CIA,
36:52they began an investigation of all those who had worked in the Soviet embassy and returned to Moscow.
37:02There's nothing more despicable to us than someone who betrays us from within.
37:08Carl Kocher, without any question, was not only a traitor, but he was a killer.
37:12He murdered Trigon by giving the KGB that information.
37:19After Carl Kocher's arrest, we learned the details of what had happened to Trigon.
37:28He was in his apartment, and they were watching him.
37:33They saw him take out normal, everyday things from the bookshelf, a flashlight, some batteries.
37:42But then they watched as he opened a secret compartment and took out pieces of paper.
37:51They realized he was preparing for another drop.
37:57They barged through his door.
38:01They stripped him down and told him that he should confess.
38:07And he said, I will write a full confession.
38:10He saw his pen laying on the table.
38:13He picked it up, and he began to write.
38:19As he saw that they weren't watching him,
38:23he put the pen in his mouth,
38:28bit down,
38:30and immediately became unconscious.
38:34They tried to revive him.
38:38But he died.
38:43That was a week before I saw the van in the woods.
38:51Losing John and now Trigon,
38:55I was horrified.
38:57I was so sad.
39:01I deal with grief head on.
39:04I acknowledge what's happened.
39:06I realize that life goes on.
39:09You have to continue on the path.
39:13I'm affected by it, but I don't dwell on it.
39:17It's part of my own place.
39:23Trigon's fate was pretty tragic.
39:26But if you decide to cooperate with any intelligence service,
39:31including the Russian intelligence service,
39:33you put your life at risk.
39:36And I wouldn't recommend anyone to do that.
39:39I felt so sad
39:43and yet so relieved
39:45to know
39:46that it wasn't something that I had done.
39:50I think it brings up a bigger issue.
39:52It's not necessarily the case officers
39:54who are compromising the identity.
39:57A lot of times,
39:58our assets have been discovered
40:00because of double agents and moles.
40:02He had used that pen
40:04and that poison
40:06as he had intended.
40:08He avoided the torture,
40:11all the brutality,
40:14and the bullet to the back of the head.
40:19After my husband, John, died,
40:22I got a call from CIA headquarters
40:25that I had to come sign some insurance papers.
40:29I flew to Washington
40:32and I was met by very dear friends
40:34who were in Laos with us.
40:36And they said to me,
40:38Marty, why don't you consider
40:40joining the CIA
40:41and being a case officer
40:43like John would have been?
40:45I realized that maybe that was a plan.
40:51I started work on July 3rd
40:53and that was John's birthday.
40:57It was a very satisfying career,
40:59but it was at a certain time
41:01when I realized
41:02that I was going to have to tell my children
41:05who I worked for.
41:07I had given them a story.
41:10Who is Marty Peterson to you?
41:12That's my mom.
41:15Me and my sister
41:16were off for the day of school
41:17and we get a phone call from my mom
41:20saying, hey,
41:21I need you to meet me at this time.
41:23And that's all she kind of left us with.
41:28I drove them to headquarters
41:30and we went into the front lobby.
41:34My mom showed her badge
41:36and we just rolled right on into the CIA.
41:41I ended up just flirting out mom's a spy
41:44and we all started laughing,
41:45but it was like a nervous laugh.
41:48There is a memorial
41:50to all the CIA officers
41:53who have been killed
41:54in the line of duty.
41:56And among them
41:57was the star for John Peterson.
42:00It was then that I told them
42:02about John
42:03and all that he gave
42:05to our country.
42:08And I told them
42:09about my long career
42:12and how John
42:13was so responsible
42:16for my career
42:17with CIA.
42:19And then she showed me his star
42:21and she just pointed straight to it
42:23and said, that's John's
42:24with absolute conviction
42:26that that was his.
42:27It still gives me goosebumps.
42:29I'm literally sitting here
42:29with goosebumps right now
42:30just thinking about that wall.
42:32But you never see
42:34anything to hint
42:35that mom ever worked
42:36at the CIA
42:37or that that wall
42:38would ever mean anything to her.
42:41I think she was relieved
42:42to give up that secret
42:44finally to us
42:45and be able to share that with us.
42:47I'm literally coming to terms
42:49still every single day
42:50with the life that she had
42:52versus the life that we knew.
42:57Marty Peterson
42:58is an inspiration
42:59to all of us.
43:00Marty became
43:01one of our trainers.
43:02She was a role model.
43:03She was a mentor.
43:05If women want to pursue careers
43:07in these industries
43:08then they absolutely shouldn't.
43:10It's really because
43:10of people like Marty
43:12and the women
43:12who came before her
43:13that it's made it
43:15into a more mainstream
43:16career for females.
43:18Despite all the hard moments
43:21in my life,
43:22the tragedy,
43:24the disappointments,
43:25the fear,
43:28the concern that
43:30maybe I made a bad mistake,
43:32all of that,
43:33I would do it again.
43:35and I would do it again.
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