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00:19:00I've been doing a lot of soul searching over the last several years and it led me back
00:19:07to the point where I wanted to sink my life into Breath of the Wild and stream it.
00:19:35What do you do for a living?
00:19:38And feel free to not answer any of this, obviously.
00:19:48Oh golly gosh, I don't even know your name is Alex.
00:19:54Now I know.
00:19:59I'm from another galaxy.
00:20:02Ah no, I live alone.
00:20:04I kind of like to have my own space, but also if I'm alone then it's lonely.
00:20:15Well, I should probably go to sleep.
00:20:18Oh you just got home, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
00:20:21I gotta go to bed, I have to.
00:20:26I guess I kind of stream so that sometimes I am part of people's daily routine.
00:20:31It's kind of cool to have people tuning in regularly and kind of coming along the journey with me.
00:20:39Uh, peace out, goodbye.
00:20:43I bet you can bow spin to do that.
00:20:45But bow spinning also doesn't get as many hits so you need more stamina, so...
00:20:50I'll see what's up.
00:20:51I'm sitting stable at like 10 plus viewers.
00:20:54It's just like, it's fucking amazing.
00:20:57Like seriously, like...
00:20:59It means, it really means so much to me that you guys fucking like...
00:21:04Come around to watch me be bad at games.
00:21:06If I could have any pet, it would be either a skunk or a bat.
00:21:17Katarina says...
00:21:18I'm dgirl.
00:21:19I like your username.
00:21:22D stands for dick and to death to your foes.
00:21:24Dgirl, have you ever had soylums?
00:21:27It tastes really good.
00:21:30I'll go to bat for noxie on a lot of things, but not for that fucking soylums shit.
00:21:35What was that on the ground?
00:21:36Was that like a nut or something?
00:21:40Or should I say nut?
00:21:42Nut.
00:21:43Nut.
00:21:44This is the way I am to people I like.
00:21:46So if I'm giving you shit, it's probably because I like you.
00:22:03I really love the people here, honestly.
00:22:06Not to get all like soppy and shit.
00:22:09I'm getting a little emotional.
00:22:11This is magical.
00:22:13Oh my god, there's a star.
00:22:20They're gobstoppers.
00:22:27Dgirl, will you be my Dgirlfriend?
00:22:39I think I'm dating Narcissus right?
00:22:41I don't know.
00:22:47Dgirl, I've been thinking about you being here.
00:23:10I'm in the high point of my life suddenly.
00:23:11I like the view up here.
00:23:13I feel like I'm in a high point of my life suddenly.
00:23:16And I think this game is partially to thank for that.
00:23:23someone chopped down a tree and like launched it super far but then link pulls the paraglider
00:23:30and it actually maintains the momentum from the ragdoll physics and i'm like oh my god
00:23:44okay like look at this tree right
00:23:50this looks bad actually this one right here this one
00:24:11ah damn it i guess we want to go more this way
00:24:26oh
00:24:28five new voicemail from mom
00:24:30hi my darling
00:24:32all right sweetheart hanging there
00:24:35i love you call me when you're free bye
00:24:42oh
00:24:48oh wait why
00:24:54all right this is doable i think we can do this
00:24:58let's fucking go
00:25:01no that's what i call speed running
00:25:05she just started around let's go
00:25:08i'm disrupting speed running much like i did in 2011
00:25:12i want to be the single greatest player of this game
00:25:15nine hours and 38 minutes
00:25:17it's 504 11
00:25:183 51 59
00:25:20there's a whole journey to it there's the magic to it with the streams
00:25:24learning and improving keeping people company during lonely nights
00:25:46i can't get up this it's too high up but i think i can jump it with this
00:25:49you take a bomb you place the bomb then it's like shield backflip and detonate
00:25:56forward air jump shield surf paraglider and then you climb up the wall
00:26:03i need to do it all really fast and accurately so let me try
00:26:06it's like
00:26:10wait it's hard to do
00:26:16oh my god come on
00:26:21come on why did that work though what the fuck
00:26:25i started today feeling very adequate and now i feel like kind of inadequate
00:26:34it's okay it's okay for me to be a mess on stream sometimes it's okay
00:26:38i have self-image issues like a lot
00:26:43being trans you walk this fine line between being like
00:26:49a goddess and a monster
00:26:55it's hard for me to explain this but sometimes it feels like i
00:27:01i am really not
00:27:05enough or i'm not enough or i'm not like where i want to be with myself
00:27:10i don't want to feel like i'm like this
00:27:46i don't want to feel like i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not
00:27:49enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not
00:27:49enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not
00:27:49enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not
00:27:49enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not
00:27:49enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not
00:27:49enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not
00:27:49enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not
00:27:49enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough or i'm not enough
00:28:02a group of people showed up and we're like we're with something we're looking for jake
00:28:08for people who are having trouble and then i said i'm not jake and then i said well what's
00:28:12your name and then i was like if you don't know my name then go away and then they're
00:28:20like okay but can we leave a card and i'm like okay fine
00:28:27mental health crisis services i wish i asked them more questions like how the fuck like why are you
00:28:37hear it i need a fucking cloth
00:28:54like that
00:28:54so
00:28:56so
00:29:08so
00:29:09so
00:30:30I think I've been very desperate for any attention, and thus, the people who show
00:30:36me negative attention, I seek it out.
00:30:40I've read more hate than you can imagine.
00:30:43I've read thousands and thousands of hate messages towards me.
00:30:48Kill trans people.
00:30:50Kill these freaks.
00:30:53Cosmo's not my name.
00:30:54My name isn't Cosmo.
00:30:56My name isn't Cosmo.
00:30:57My name is Narcissus.
00:30:59All this fucking transphobic shit.
00:31:01I feel like I started to internalize some of that shit.
00:31:03Watching this stream right now in hopes that someone's sworn in and killed herself.
00:31:07Don't be surprised when you find Cosmo there.
00:31:09Narcissus.
00:31:10Some of the fuck didn't I have.
00:31:11Sign ways of rejection.
00:31:12All ways of resistance.
00:31:14End.
00:31:17People reacted really negatively to anything that was apparently some sort of weakness.
00:31:21So I fucking blew up the weaknesses.
00:31:24I pressed myself up against the wall and did some crazy shit.
00:31:28Please support me, please.
00:31:31Flush all your credibility and dignity down the toilet.
00:31:33Okay, would you shut up?
00:31:35Maybe I've caused a little damage.
00:31:37Certainly other people have caused some damage to me.
00:31:39It's like I want to respond to all their comments.
00:31:42What's going on in your life on the other side of the screen?
00:31:44Another fucking coward.
00:31:46Goodbye.
00:31:47You are coming into random people's chats being a bigot.
00:31:50Being a total piece of shit.
00:31:55I complain about people being negative towards me.
00:32:01You talking shit about me on YouTube not even a week ago?
00:32:13Then it causes another whole group of negativity to spawn off of that.
00:32:20I can almost date these people into spreading my image all over the place, even though it's
00:32:24really negative.
00:32:34How do I navigate this fucking online experience?
00:32:48Hi, Angel.
00:32:50Hi.
00:32:54How are you?
00:32:56I've been a bit emotional lately.
00:32:58It's great to be emotional, and it's great to be deep and aware of what you are, of the
00:33:04world and everything, but mostly you shouldn't be crying a lot.
00:33:10I know, I know.
00:33:12Yeah.
00:33:16I haven't seen you in three years.
00:33:19No.
00:33:20I know.
00:33:21No.
00:33:22No.
00:33:28I should probably be calling more often.
00:33:31Yeah, I know.
00:33:33That's all I do is think about you every day.
00:33:36Bye-bye.
00:33:37Bye-bye.
00:33:39Let's just drink all of our sorrows away.
00:33:58I feel like I'm in a mental rut, so I'm never going to pull myself out of it.
00:34:07Okay.
00:34:09If anyone in my chat is, like, a counselor or a therapist dealing with people who have
00:34:15depression, let's have a conversation publicly.
00:34:21Twitch must be my all and my everything.
00:34:25It must be.
00:34:27It has to be public.
00:34:30No, stop doubting the power of the internet.
00:34:42I feel isolated.
00:34:44I feel it.
00:34:47I feel really lonely.
00:34:49I don't feel like I have friends.
00:34:53I think that I don't know how to be friends with people.
00:34:57Me interacting with people IRL is, like, me being really shy and closed.
00:35:03And then, like, having trouble connecting.
00:35:06That's my experience.
00:35:13I have this queen-sized bed.
00:35:16It's like, all I want to do is, like, roll around with someone.
00:35:20And, like, I just don't.
00:35:28I'm just alone.
00:35:33I don't know.
00:35:33I'm just alone.
00:35:33I'm just alone.
00:35:41I'm just alone.
00:35:44All right.
00:35:56Oh my god, and oh my god why? Jesus, too much is happening right now.
00:36:08Okay, voice chat with me right now.
00:36:15It's ringing, it's ringing. Hi. I don't know, like where do you feel we are right now?
00:36:21I feel not alone right now. Yeah. I feel like I'm sharing my time and space with you.
00:36:26Yeah, but I don't- I don't get to like wake up next to you and shit.
00:36:30That's almost not even dis- okay, like look, there's like physical-
00:36:33It is absolutely dis- okay, it is, it is, it is.
00:36:37It bums me out, man.
00:36:38Let's hear it with my guitar.
00:36:47It bums me out.
00:36:53It bums me out.
00:36:56Yeah, this is beautiful.
00:36:59It bums me out.
00:37:03Your voice is so beautiful.
00:37:05It bums me out.
00:37:11And if I could be in your apartment, and you could be in Southern California all the time.
00:37:43It bums me out.
00:37:46It bums me out.
00:37:49It bums me out.
00:37:53It bums me out.
00:37:57It bums me out.
00:38:00It bums me out.
00:38:03It bums me out.
00:38:03It bums me out.
00:38:04It bums me out.
00:38:07It bums me out.
00:38:07It bums me out.
00:38:07It's, it, it tastes like fucking mold.
00:38:10So, she keeps her room dark.
00:38:14fucking garbage bags
00:38:15in the window
00:38:17it's kind of a nightmare
00:38:20I'm gonna be
00:38:21nesting so fucking hard
00:38:23nesting
00:38:24we're gonna upgrade so much shit in your apartment
00:38:26I'll fucking upgrade it
00:38:30damn
00:38:31alright if you want me to
00:38:34ministry
00:38:34thank you for tuning in
00:38:37I'll see you
00:38:39later
00:38:49we've been improving my place
00:38:50basically
00:38:51yeah I'm trying to make her have a apartment like an adult
00:38:55I'm actually like super hungry
00:38:57suddenly
00:38:57I want some pizza now
00:38:59we can just get it
00:39:01we need to like end this
00:39:03no do another attack
00:39:09I'll be right back when I get pizza
00:39:14that's been good
00:39:15there's this person there with me
00:39:17and like I'm not being like harshly judged
00:39:19and like
00:39:21we're like doing cool shit
00:39:22and like improving things
00:39:24and it just felt really like
00:39:25I felt like this bond
00:39:27and it was really fucking good
00:39:28and I just started like crying really hard
00:39:30and it was like incredibly fucking like
00:39:32it felt almost like therapeutic
00:39:34it felt like extremely good
00:39:36I think she's back
00:39:38cool
00:39:42hey
00:39:43hey
00:39:44cool
00:39:45how are you just going?
00:39:49I still haven't left the plateau
00:39:52I'm about to start another one I guess
00:39:54although I could use a slice
00:39:55I could use a slice
00:39:57this is the first time for a slice
00:39:58for you
00:39:59okay
00:39:59we're going back to IRL
00:40:23we'll be right back to you
00:41:30Oh, this is the run.
00:41:37Yes, first try.
00:41:42We're heading to the airport later tonight.
00:41:44And that'll be the end of our five-day vacation.
00:41:49I'm squeezing every last possible second out of the day, Nursi.
00:41:54Yes, this is world record pace.
00:41:57Adrenaline pumping through my veins.
00:42:00Holy shit.
00:42:11Oh my fucking god, no.
00:42:15I think I just lost one minute.
00:42:21I've failed the tree launches every fucking run lately.
00:42:23I don't understand why.
00:42:25Still a minute ahead.
00:42:38I staced this it too, really.
00:42:40So it didn't go.
00:42:42It wasn't disconnected from the bottom yet.
00:42:45I'm so bummed.
00:42:47Like, what the fuck?
00:42:48Okay, it's over.
00:42:49It's actually over.
00:42:50I'm so fucking sad.
00:42:51That's it.
00:42:51Like, there's no more.
00:42:53That's it.
00:42:54I could have had it and I didn't get it.
00:42:55It's over.
00:42:57The run's over.
00:43:02It's time to go.
00:43:04It's time to go.
00:43:50It's time to go.
00:44:18Okay, I'll use those to play games or something.
00:44:20I don't know.
00:44:21How's life for everybody?
00:44:24I missed you too.
00:44:25I missed you too, but it's been replaced by missing Narcy even more.
00:44:31Like, I really like her.
00:44:33So nice.
00:44:36The line is it was a gaycation, but we just haven't gotten right.
00:44:42We haven't, like, hammered out shit.
00:45:06What I missed is feeling like the universe loves me.
00:45:09And that everything was good.
00:45:15A lot of my ego is built out of the impact I had before.
00:45:20And I feel like I don't have that impact anymore.
00:45:24And it really hurts me.
00:45:27It feels like I've failed if I can't reach that.
00:45:33Hello?
00:45:33Hello?
00:45:34Hello?
00:45:34Let's hashtag everything we are to each other right now.
00:45:36I'm going to start a new run while we're chatting.
00:45:40So you're saying that, like, you would kind of want to develop something with me?
00:45:46I mean, I'd like to think I'm building a relationship.
00:45:51I've kind of designed my life in a way where I can just focus in on a few things that
00:45:57I really want to work towards.
00:46:00Okay, so what do you want?
00:46:24If this is the record, then we must post a Reddit thread called
00:46:29Absolutely Disgusting Record by Narcissa.
00:46:33Do I still think I can get over 10,000 viewers in Breath of the Wild?
00:46:36Yes, I do.
00:46:37I certainly do.
00:46:43Clear your minds for this jump.
00:46:49We're actually on pace for fucking sub 340.
00:46:53It's unbelievable.
00:46:57I want this run.
00:46:59I want to finish this run.
00:47:01I want this to be the run.
00:47:09Oh, oh my god.
00:47:11That was fucking miraculous.
00:47:15Oh my fucking god.
00:47:32This beats the record by minutes.
00:47:36May I ask?
00:47:39Do you really remember me?
00:47:42Peace and love.
00:47:43Peace and love.
00:47:44And remember,
00:47:46trans girls rule Breath of the Wild.
00:48:03The current world record holder on Zelda Ocarina of Time.
00:48:09You immediately have an audience, right?
00:48:11Oh, absolutely.
00:48:12Several thousand usually tune in for Zelda.
00:48:20I was at the precipice.
00:48:23And now, I'm like a fallen star.
00:48:28I want to feel like I'm on top of the world.
00:48:33I feel like I'm being swallowed by it.
00:48:52No one in the world gives a fuck.
00:48:56It turns out life is not a fairy tale after all.
00:49:02It turns out everyone abandons the fuck out of you.
00:49:06Everything I've done up until now,
00:49:09it was all over nothing.
00:49:12I will never succeed in the way I succeeded in the past.
00:49:20This stream will all be fucking big again.
00:49:22It'll never fucking happen.
00:49:23I'm not relatable anymore.
00:49:25It doesn't matter if I'm the best fucking player in the world of this game.
00:49:27No one fucking cares.
00:49:29I've gone from being the superstar to the fallen star,
00:49:33plummeted into Earth like a fucking comet,
00:49:36slamming down, creating a shockwave,
00:49:38and burying in my fucking chasm so deep
00:49:41as everyone piles on and pushes me down
00:49:43into the caverns of darkness
00:49:45where I'm crowned the queen of hell.
00:49:50They think I'm a deranged freak
00:49:52who's delusional and should kill myself.
00:49:56They only fucking watch me if I'm raving.
00:50:00So the only solution is just to fucking go nuclear.
00:50:09I am the monster that you all created.
00:50:15These fucking people watching and observing me
00:50:17as I sit here and fucking go through the struggle.
00:50:21I fucking hate this game.
00:50:23I hate people who watch video games.
00:50:24That fucking twitch and viewership is so fucking great.
00:50:26You all have such fucking poor taste.
00:50:28I fucking hate you.
00:50:53So what happens if I call that phone number?
00:50:56You get to talk to your counselor.
00:50:59My phone is right here.
00:51:04Suicide prevention lifeline.
00:51:08Well, I cut off all my hair and
00:51:11I guess it was like an act of self-harm
00:51:18and feeling kind of hopeless.
00:51:23It's like people want to see me fail
00:51:29and anytime there's any sort of sign of weakness
00:51:31they pinpoint it and harass me
00:51:33and tick out of a scab
00:51:34until I'm squeezed and I'm bleeding.
00:51:38I mean, I guess I just have
00:51:39a certain level of visibility
00:51:41so they're jealous or something.
00:51:43I don't know, but there's a lot of
00:51:44sick, twisted feelings I get out of it
00:51:46and it just makes me feel like
00:51:48humanity in general is kind of evil
00:51:50and that every single entity on this planet
00:51:52is just self-interested
00:51:55and that friendship is an illusion
00:51:57and that love is an illusion
00:51:58and that I'm just incredibly fucking alone.
00:52:00I'm just like a fucking alien on this planet.
00:52:04It just feels easier to damage
00:52:06a social connection than it does to grow it.
00:52:10Yeah.
00:52:11I'll get through tonight.
00:52:13Definitely.
00:52:16Alright.
00:52:17Bye.
00:52:25Well, that was okay, I guess.
00:52:36Why weren't you all watching?
00:52:39When I broke the Breath of the Wild record,
00:52:42I could have really used your support.
00:52:49I think I'm an attention addict.
00:52:53I think I'm an attention addict.
00:52:56I think I'm an attention addict.
00:53:13I think I'm an attention addict.
00:53:20I think I'm an witness addict.
00:53:30I think I'm an attention addict.
00:53:34I think I'm an attention addict.
00:53:52Oh
00:53:53My god
00:53:57Do you did it live on streams? I
00:54:03Don't know I just hope she's gonna be okay
00:54:10Hello, hey, what do you feel?
00:54:13I like ruin myself by cutting my hair off
00:54:18You didn't ruin yourself you just fucking
00:54:22Cut your hair off
00:54:25I don't know how to just be calm and quiet during the hard moments because I feel like I really
00:54:31really want and need connection
00:54:37I feel like crying because
00:54:42I'm like grateful that you're talking to me right now
00:54:46Happy cries are good cries
00:54:52I
00:54:52Can I ask you something when would you be free if I was to come whenever whenever?
00:55:14We did it
00:55:16It's like we're parting the birds
00:55:26Yeah
00:55:27I like this big opening here
00:55:29Let's just like move in here
00:55:31This is the ocean
00:55:37How is all this even real?
00:55:40What is reality?
00:55:41I see all this and I'm like
00:55:43I'm alive
00:55:44Like this is a thing
00:55:45It's happening
00:55:46Yeah
00:55:47I can't help myself
00:55:48This is happening as fuck
00:55:49Yeah
00:55:56Do you think your life is too filled with things?
00:56:00You have your band so then you're streaming
00:56:02Yeah
00:56:02And you're cooking
00:56:04I mean that's just kind of the thing I like to do
00:56:06Yeah
00:56:06That's why I like having people around because I can cook for them
00:56:13Try to change your perspective so that
00:56:16You see the sky as like a giant lake
00:56:18Okay
00:56:19And you're like
00:56:21You're above it looking down at it
00:56:28Do you ever want to go to outer space?
00:56:30For some reason I feel like they view better down here
00:56:33Earth is beautiful
00:56:34I think from here and elsewhere
00:56:53Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:57:23Hit the fire, the testimony's out of you
00:57:27It's got you out of vigilance
00:57:29It's got you out of tone of it
00:58:05It's got you out of vigilance
00:58:08Thank you. We're Maneaters.
00:58:16I started fucking crying because you were so inspirational.
00:58:21You looked fucking beautiful.
00:58:23You just shut up and hug me.
00:58:37I lose my center of balance.
00:58:41I was so like falling backwards and confused.
00:58:45Wait, what did he say?
00:58:47Did he say you lose your center of balance in general?
00:58:49Or like...
00:58:50No, just before we're doing this.
00:58:54Like why...
00:58:55I don't care.
00:58:56It's like a...
00:58:57Wait, let's try again.
00:58:59All right.
00:58:59Let's go.
00:59:01Wait, step, step, step.
00:59:04There we go.
00:59:05Yeah, there we go.
00:59:14Ah, this is really cool.
00:59:16This reminds me of Coventry Cove from Beetle Adventure Racing.
00:59:19Well, that's your...
00:59:21That's your comfort zone.
00:59:22This is my...
00:59:23This is my room right here.
00:59:25I always just book it when I'm on a trail.
00:59:28It's kind of hard to get your hand when I'm behind you and the path is so thin.
00:59:40I feel sick.
00:59:42Oh, fuck.
00:59:43Do you want to sit on this?
00:59:44I guess so.
00:59:56I wish I got more sleep.
00:59:58I don't have a pillow on me, but I've got a bag full of shit.
01:00:01It's good work.
01:00:01I feel bad.
01:00:03I'm like...
01:00:04I think I'm ready to go.
01:00:09Let's do what I'm doing.
01:00:11Oh.
01:00:15Okay.
01:00:21There we go.
01:00:22It wasn't so bad.
01:00:50Oh, I might puke.
01:00:52Try to lunge it over the edge.
01:00:59Oh, I am really feeling queasy.
01:01:05Fuck.
01:01:06Such bad timing.
01:01:08Yeah.
01:01:11Okay.
01:01:59All in all, I'm doing better now than I was before the trip.
01:02:08The time I spent there felt like it kind of healed me somewhat.
01:02:12Like, I really needed that.
01:02:19Being able to share some affection and, like, just be around people, I guess.
01:02:28Without being so isolated.
01:02:36Just felt...
01:02:38Really good.
01:02:46I don't know.
01:02:47It's like a breath of...
01:02:49A breath of...
01:02:50What is it?
01:02:51A breath...
01:02:53A lot of fresh air.
01:03:08I was little and she used to help me play Soda when I was, like, I don't know, six, seven
01:03:14years old.
01:03:15And that's really fun.
01:03:17To crop.
01:03:18Okay.
01:03:18I just wanted to crop, like, one pixel in.
01:04:00I got banned on purpose because it wasn't making me happy.
01:04:07And maybe that's because my brain got hooked on the dopamine.
01:04:11So now my Twitch account is gone.
01:04:15Hi, my darling.
01:04:17Missed you terribly.
01:04:19Maybe you should come home, my darling.
01:04:28It might be nice to receive some kind of unconditional love.
01:04:34Seeing my parents.
01:04:53This is not a healthy environment for me to be in.
01:04:57Therefore, I must leave this place.
01:05:02But do not grieve for my disappearance.
01:05:07Bye.
01:05:11For I will find what I'm looking for in this life.
01:05:17I will just do it alone.
01:05:24It's like level one where you grew up.
01:05:27Green fields, grass, trees.
01:05:40You're my most beautiful flower.
01:05:42Ruby, mommy's going to catch a fish to fry tonight.
01:05:49You are the best of your generation.
01:05:52Brilliant, talented, sweet, honest.
01:06:01You were special, different from other children.
01:06:08That is why I quit my job and became a stay-at-home mother.
01:06:14I couldn't possibly trust anyone else to give you the love, attention, and freedom that your mind needed to explore
01:06:21life.
01:06:22Bye, bye.
01:06:23Bye,'ve I wellas- Euh-Eyah.
01:07:04Oh, how are you?
01:07:07Oh, how was your flight?
01:07:10It was fine.
01:07:11Oh, baby.
01:07:16I'm sorry it's been so long.
01:07:21Oh, oh, oh, it feels so good to hug you.
01:07:27I mean, look at you.
01:07:31Just beautiful.
01:07:32I've been waiting for that moment for a long time.
01:07:34Yeah, oh, you're wonderful.
01:08:03I'm sorry.
01:08:09I'm sorry.
01:08:11I'm sorry.
01:08:13I'm sorry.
01:08:14I'm sorry.
01:08:30I'm sorry.
01:08:33I'm sorry.
01:08:35I'm sorry.
01:08:49I'm sorry.
01:08:52I'm sorry.
01:08:54I'm sorry.
01:08:56I'm sorry.
01:08:57I'm sorry.
01:09:22I'm sorry.
01:09:31I'm sorry.
01:09:35I'm sorry.
01:09:36I'm sorry.
01:09:40I'm sorry.
01:09:51I'm sorry.
01:09:53I'm sorry.
01:09:59I'm sorry.
01:10:06I'm sorry.
01:10:10I'm sorry.
01:10:24I'm sorry.
01:10:26I'm sorry.
01:10:27I'm sorry.
01:10:28I'm sorry.
01:10:33I'm sorry.
01:10:34I'm sorry.
01:10:34I'm sorry.
01:10:37It's you you see
01:11:21Katerina says
01:11:25I've been on this roof too long
01:11:30Sleek October rain
01:11:34Railing with my ears
01:11:39At the bitter eyes like fire
01:11:44Raking me up and down
01:11:46And spinning out
01:11:47You damned it, damned it
01:11:50But Katerina
01:11:55If you feel like too
01:11:58I'd like you to know
01:12:03Here's a song for when you get lonely
01:12:07And oh, you count it as holy
01:12:11Falls aside, sends you up shivering in the cold
01:12:20But Katerina
01:12:22Honey, it's not fair
01:12:26And up there when you can't decide
01:12:32If it is worth it at all
01:12:36When everything hounds you
01:12:39I'll be round to carry you home
01:12:42To forget about
01:12:45All that you told me
01:12:47Last night
01:12:48And those embarrassing times
01:12:51Like when you were laid on the ground
01:12:53Picking lilies
01:12:54Of boxes and stones
01:12:56I'll be round to carry you home
01:13:10I'll be round to carry you home
01:13:12I'll be round to carry you home
01:13:26So
01:13:42This morning
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