00:01Look, I just generally am sorry.
00:05I just, oh.
00:09Look, I am very sorry, and I just want you to know that.
00:12My intentions obviously weren't right.
00:16Going in this chat with Jana,
00:18I definitely had to take a different approach.
00:20I did these things off the back of our old relationship
00:23and what has happened to me from her before,
00:25and I just wanted her to hear me out,
00:28even though it was, like, wrong,
00:30I still just wanted her to know how I felt.
00:33Obviously, I did go back and, you know,
00:36kissed her and went to bed.
00:38I know that's not right.
00:39Did you kiss her in bed?
00:40I did kiss her in bed and then just no touching or anything.
00:43Did you do any sexual?
00:45So far, I asked her if you did anything sexual.
00:47That's fine. Do it.
00:49And in the shower?
00:51I was in the shower naked and she came in.
00:53I kissed her in the shower and got out.
00:55She was fully clothed, no touching or anything.
00:57There was no intentions for that at all or anything like that.
01:00See, one thing is you're kissing for the surf fans
01:02and then the next is you keep kissing.
01:05Look, and I do...
01:06I didn't even kiss him for the surf fans.
01:07I put my hand out and got him to kiss my hand.
01:10And I understand that and I am sorry.
01:12You know that this was a test and you still failed it.
01:16Like, you knew you were getting put to the test.
01:19I was in the same situation as him.
01:21I was able to hold myself back.
01:24He wasn't.
01:24You know, I understand how you feel.
01:26Can you talk normally?
01:27Sit up and talk normally.
01:29I do understand how you feel.
01:31Like, and I was like, what?
01:32Like, so, like, I thought all that you...
01:34Kai, babe, you're not making sense.
01:36I am.
01:36No, you're not.
01:37You keep cutting your words up.
01:39You needed to speak a proper sentence.
01:41Por fin alto.
01:43Kai gets like this.
01:45Once again, something he's always done.
01:46I'm very used to his word vomit
01:48when he gets put in situations like this.
01:51He doesn't know how to speak properly, clearly.
01:54Now I made myself look like an absolute dickhead
01:56and even more hurt than you.
01:57It's the fact that have you learnt?
01:59Like, are you going to f***ing change
02:00or is this going to keep happening?
02:02I don't want to go.
02:03I want to...
02:04I know, Yana.
02:06Kai, I want to work with you on the outside,
02:08but if this is going to keep happening,
02:10like, how am I meant to now f***ing trust you on the outside?
02:12Am I going to be able to trust you on the outside?
02:15I don't want anyone else, Kai.
02:15Have you had trust this whole time?
02:18I don't f***ing want anyone else.
02:20Like, get that in your head.
02:22This was the make it or break it.
02:24I needed this test to know
02:25if you were going to f***ing be able to deal with this.
02:27If you can't deal with this in here,
02:29how the f*** are you going to manage on the outside?
02:31Like, you've macked on with this girl.
02:33You didn't like it.
02:33You thought, I'm going to go back to Yana
02:35because she's going to come back to me
02:37and she's going to forgive me like she always has.
02:41Yana, that's not my way of f***ing.
02:43Well, that's how it f***ing feels.
02:45It's not as bad at all.
02:47Anyway.
02:48Please don't f***ing think that.
02:50I know how it seems, but please don't.
02:54Can I have a hug, please?
02:58Please?
02:59No, Kai, not tonight.
03:01I definitely regret what I've done.
03:04I'm not proud of it at all.
03:08I know.
03:08There's nothing I can do here.
03:11Down.
03:13Down.
03:15Oh.
03:16Oh.
03:18Joe.
03:19You going to die again?
03:21Jump.
03:22Here we go.
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