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After having lived in New York for more than two decades, a writer comes back to Ireland and faces up to his haunting past.
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00:00:26I am a man of the north.
00:00:30Names like Alta Muscle, Six Mile Cross and Ballygally roll off my tongue like water over a mill wheel.
00:00:38I am made of rain, nettles and thick moss, trees and wind.
00:00:46I am stories, handed down like heirlooms.
00:00:51Cucullin. Onion. Maeve.
00:00:55War. Church. Famine. Fairies.
00:01:07I could be an Irish man anywhere in the world.
00:01:13But somehow I have been delivered back to this place. Home.
00:01:24Home. What does it mean? Home.
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00:02:14I don't know.
00:03:08Do you remember who used to live here?
00:03:12It's old Mrs Rogers' house, isn't it?
00:03:14It was.
00:03:15Dead as a doornail a while ago.
00:03:18But don't worry, I checked the place for ghosts.
00:03:27Come on, let's get you settled.
00:03:43There's not much in here as you can see.
00:03:45What I stuffed off earlier, got a few of the basics.
00:03:49Tea bags, milk, sugar, bread, peanut butter.
00:03:53There's a kettle.
00:03:55Do you want me to light a bit of a fire for you?
00:03:58No.
00:04:00You know where to find me, okay?
00:04:10St Anthony and St Jude are a big help to me.
00:05:25Dear God, Matt, look at yourself.
00:05:29What is going on with you?
00:05:34You're a great writer, Matt.
00:05:36Or at least you were.
00:05:39But that was ten years ago.
00:05:42Ten years and not even an essay or a review.
00:05:48You're a writer.
00:05:49Writer's right.
00:05:50That's what they do.
00:05:53You need to stop running.
00:05:57When was the last time you were back in Ireland?
00:06:02Ten?
00:06:03Twenty years ago?
00:06:05Twenty-six.
00:06:06Twenty-six years.
00:06:10Whoa.
00:06:13What the fuck did they do to you back there?
00:06:24You really?
00:06:25You really?
00:06:25I don't know.
00:06:25I don't know.
00:06:29I don't know.
00:06:32I don't know.
00:06:34I don't know.
00:06:46We'll be there.
00:07:33When I was a boy, my best friend Declan and I built a dam to mark the beginning of summer.
00:07:40Every year we went to the same bend in the river at the bottom of Paggy McKenna's Meadow.
00:07:47There was a spot there right next to an old apple orchard where the river yawned against a deep mossy
00:07:54bank, creating a wide crescentular well that was just perfect for a swimming hole.
00:08:01We'd strip down to our shorts and wade into the river, dragging big clots of mucky sod that we'd dug
00:08:08from the bank, slapping them down in a row on the riverbed, embracing them with large stones and thick stubby
00:08:17branches.
00:08:18The water rising about our ankles, until at last we could take a run from the field and leap, knowing
00:08:28it was deep enough to catch us when we fell.
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00:15:43You, Donald, who told you to sit down?
00:15:47Stand up.
00:16:09Ah, there we go.
00:16:10There we go.
00:16:11Ah, there we go.
00:16:26Ah, there we go.
00:16:31Ah.
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00:18:03Ah.
00:18:12Ah, there we go.
00:18:17Ah, there we go.
00:18:24Ah, it's all...
00:18:25Fill the hearts and may yet come again
00:18:32Where the past has been lost
00:18:37And the future has still to be won
00:18:44And the cares of tomorrow
00:18:48Must wait till this day is done
00:19:07Sorry
00:19:13Katie
00:19:14You didn't recognise me?
00:19:18No, I did
00:19:19Liar
00:19:23Still as beautiful as ever
00:19:25I'm sorry
00:19:28That's terrible, I'll just get back
00:19:30It's been weird
00:19:33Oh, are you away?
00:19:37How are you getting on at the cottage on your own?
00:19:43How do you know where I'm staying?
00:19:45You have been away too long if you think a yank can't land back here without everybody for a 20
00:19:49mile radius having an opinion about it
00:19:52The mailman?
00:19:54I was in the post office yesterday when he'd come in, he looked like he'd seen a ghost
00:19:58Just glad to see you're not doing your shopping in a skirt and a pair of high heels
00:20:04It was cold
00:20:05I didn't have a jacket
00:20:06You don't have to convince me you're not gay
00:20:08I...I remember
00:20:15You two...know each other?
00:20:19Declan
00:20:24I remember
00:20:26I didn't know
00:20:27I remember
00:20:28The sand
00:20:30Baby
00:20:30The sand
00:20:35I remember
00:20:35The sand
00:20:38That'd be
00:20:39The sand
00:20:39The sand
00:20:39Oh, let's get at the beach
00:20:47Visit a sermon
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00:21:43It's been a while since you've been in one of these, I suppose.
00:21:46Twenty-five years. Give or take a wedding or two.
00:21:50Did we scare you that badly?
00:21:53I never much believed in fairy tales.
00:21:56That's not true. I remember when you were little. You believed in all kinds of magic.
00:22:07Then I grew up.
00:22:09That was a pity.
00:22:11It is a pity.
00:22:15I saw Katie at the store.
00:22:18A wee word of advice, my American brother.
00:22:21Stay clear of Katie.
00:22:23And a further piece of advice.
00:22:25Stay well clear of Declan Hughes. He's a dangerous man, Matt.
00:22:30Beatty's in here every Sunday on his knees with his tongue out waiting for the sacrament.
00:22:33I'm not in New York now, Matt. People around here have a way of doing things.
00:22:42Come on. Come up here.
00:23:05Hello.
00:23:33I can see you now.
00:23:35A pig in the white flapping sheets in the breeze, and in the scullery, your hands in a bowl of
00:23:43dough kneading, a trace of flour in your hair in the gauge.
00:23:50It was said you made the best loaf of bread in all of Eldermostan, folded secrets into the dough, fed
00:23:59them to us.
00:24:01Pain.
00:24:05Love.
00:24:08Loss.
00:24:11The flour of all that went unsaid, dissolved in the tongue like a mystery, bloomed in my heart like a
00:24:19rose.
00:24:22What madness drove you to the river?
00:24:25What might I have done to save you from that cold, wet grave?
00:24:31Mother, I am so sorry I didn't come home.
00:24:43The flour.
00:25:03Between the water.
00:25:04You have got to get your head out of the clouds with this clown.
00:25:09Jesus, shall we walk down here 20 years ago?
00:25:1126.
00:25:1326 years ago.
00:25:16Seriously.
00:25:18Was he that good in the sack?
00:25:19Mikey.
00:25:21I loved him.
00:25:25He's a fantasy, for God's sake.
00:25:28Would you rather have stayed with Declan?
00:25:31I'd rather you stay alive.
00:25:35Do you seriously think Declan Hughes is going to sit back and let you walk off into the sunset with
00:25:42this loser?
00:25:50Two packs of cigarettes, please.
00:25:52Yep. What kind would you like?
00:25:54A dose of honour.
00:25:58What's the damage?
00:26:01Uh, that's 24-70, please.
00:26:04Are you American?
00:26:05Almost.
00:26:0624-70?
00:26:08Wow.
00:26:09How you haven't gone too long?
00:26:11What part were you in, New York?
00:26:13How'd you guess?
00:26:14You sure don't look like no hick.
00:26:17Very good.
00:26:19That's where I'm headed as soon as I get my act together.
00:26:22What, you don't like it here?
00:26:24This hole?
00:26:25Surely it can't be that bad.
00:26:27Tell you what.
00:26:28Why don't you take my job in here and I go out to your cottage and do your writing for
00:26:31you.
00:26:32How does that sound?
00:26:33Wow.
00:26:35Word does travel fast round here.
00:26:36And I heard about those women's clothes bit too.
00:26:39Pretty sure you've got a damn good excuse for that outfit.
00:26:41I do.
00:26:42It's called cold.
00:26:44Well, if you ever need warming up.
00:26:47I'm sitting down with a guy and he's leaving.
00:27:03The sky and the air who acts.
00:27:04I can't understand.
00:30:03And are you back?
00:30:07Or are you just on a flying visit?
00:30:12I don't think I could make it around here anymore.
00:30:16You've been Americanized?
00:30:19Well, it has been my home for over 20 years.
00:30:37I'm sorry.
00:30:39I'm sorry.
00:30:40Don't.
00:30:41Please.
00:30:42Don't.
00:30:43I should have written to you.
00:30:45You have nothing to apologize for.
00:30:49It was a long time ago.
00:30:51We were just kids, for God's sake.
00:30:55I think that you should have this bag.
00:31:10Look, when I got there, it's hard to explain.
00:31:14I mean, it was crazy.
00:31:15Right from the moment the lads collected me from the airport.
00:31:20And then it all comes at you so fast.
00:31:23The newness.
00:31:25A month has gone by and then two months.
00:31:30And then in the blink of an eye, a year's gone by.
00:31:35I see the Statue of Liberty one morning.
00:31:37To the window of the van on my way to work.
00:31:41And I remember how much you wanted to see it.
00:31:46It nearly fucking killed me.
00:31:51Not enough for you to write to me even then.
00:31:55To worry about it, I saw it.
00:31:57Wasn't that impressed as it happens.
00:32:04I have to go.
00:32:15As a night, went there.
00:32:18It's nice to center.
00:32:26Now students will see me.
00:32:27I love controllable buildings.
00:32:28I'm probably not.
00:32:31So I'm used to fulsion thenuys.
00:32:33They all pressed to me.
00:32:33I knew半 friend Europe's gone before.
00:32:33I'm so prepared for my family and my family.
00:32:34My family needs to be cut down from the door.
00:32:35I kept in this sowie
00:32:42my friends sitting the interior with a garden.
00:33:04You broke a mother's heart when you left, you know.
00:33:08She idolized you, that woman.
00:33:11Her son, the writer.
00:33:14Wow.
00:33:17And there was a story she could take to the shop every day.
00:33:24I'm not saying you killed her.
00:33:27You didn't.
00:33:30She had health issues in the end.
00:33:34Depression.
00:33:37Terribly, terribly depression, God love her.
00:33:40But you didn't fucking help it, Matt.
00:33:43You didn't fucking help it one bit.
00:33:48What did I ever do to you, brother?
00:33:53What did we ever do to you?
00:34:00That's beautiful...
00:34:09Hello everything,8 mujer.
00:34:09A record to try.
00:34:09A record to see what you also do to grow.
00:34:10Let me tal how loud.
00:34:25Why didn't you hear?
00:34:25I don't know.
00:34:56I don't know.
00:35:53God, you scared the life out of me.
00:35:56Sorry about that.
00:35:58I suppose you're going to go and put that in one of your books now, too, are you?
00:36:02How did you know I'm a writer?
00:36:04Be good, you've been gone a long time.
00:36:06And you don't remember your neighbours.
00:36:10Didn't you come down and build a dam every year at the bottom of my field?
00:36:14Packy!
00:36:16I'd have to come down at the end of the summer and tumble at meself, of course.
00:36:20I thought you were dead years ago.
00:36:23That would explain the lack of a Christmas card.
00:36:26What are you doing out here, hiding behind hedges?
00:36:28Scaring people half to death?
00:36:30People must think you're mad.
00:36:32I'd be right.
00:36:33I'm getting madder by the day.
00:36:37I'm out patching holes in these hedges to keep the sheep in.
00:36:42You got yourself a nice wee house for your sojourn, I see.
00:36:45It is a nice wee house.
00:36:47Poor old Mary.
00:36:49Dead a week in there before the mailman got a sniff of her.
00:36:53If she'd been on the Facebook, they'd have found her sooner.
00:36:57Old country's gone mad if you ask me.
00:37:00They've disappeared.
00:37:02They're all indoors now.
00:37:03Lost in their own little screens.
00:37:06You never see a child outside anymore.
00:37:09They wouldn't know their way down to the river if you led them by the ear.
00:37:15I have one wee word of advice for you, though.
00:37:18Watch that girl's husband doesn't catch her up here sniffing around your undergarments while he's out at work.
00:37:24I don't know how you operate these things over there in a Mary Kay.
00:37:28But around here, you mess with a man like Declan Hughes.
00:37:32You better brace yourself for a storm.
00:37:36There's skeletons out here in these fields, you know.
00:37:40Skeletons of men every bit as smart as you or me.
00:37:44Men who didn't see the storm coming.
00:37:48Well, that's changed since I've been gone.
00:37:52At least there's peace now that the troubles have ended.
00:37:55Peace, me whole.
00:37:57Where'd you read that shite?
00:37:59The trouble's not over in this country, boy.
00:38:02Not as long as there's still an English man wearing a unit.
00:38:05Don't kid yourself about that.
00:38:13We are opposed to a united Ireland.
00:38:17We will not have a united Ireland.
00:38:19Yeah!
00:38:21And I say to the Dublin government,
00:38:24if they don't behave themselves in the surf,
00:38:29it will be shots across the border.
00:38:32Yeah!
00:38:45It'll never be over.
00:38:47Not till it's all one country again,
00:38:50the way the good Lord intended it.
00:38:52North to south, east to west, sea to Cheyne and sea.
00:38:57If it was up to me,
00:38:58there wouldn't even be a wall or a fence on it.
00:39:00No one's over.
00:39:01No one's over.
00:39:05No one's over.
00:39:17No one's over.
00:39:20No one's over.
00:39:22No one's over.
00:39:24No one's over.
00:39:26No one's over.
00:39:27No one's over.
00:39:28No one's over.
00:39:28No one's over.
00:39:30No one's over.
00:39:30Oh, my God.
00:40:05By God, it's some country to look at just the same.
00:40:08When you take a moment to lift your head to see past the mess we've made of it.
00:40:57When you take a moment to lift your head to see past the mess we've made of it.
00:41:14Oh, so you are alive.
00:41:17Your son cried himself to sleep again last night.
00:41:20What do you want me to tell him?
00:41:21That you're in Ireland writing or thinking?
00:41:25Is that what you're doing?
00:41:26You're thinking?
00:41:29I'm sorry, Sarah.
00:41:31You're right.
00:41:33Lucas!
00:41:35Sarah?
00:41:36I've got to go.
00:41:37I cannot do this right now.
00:42:03What the fuck did they do to you back there?
00:42:24You broke our mother's heart when you left, you know?
00:42:34It was a long time ago.
00:42:36We were just kids, for God's sake.
00:42:43There are skeletons out here in these fields, you know.
00:42:48Skeletons of men every bit as smart as you or me.
00:42:51shoes.
00:43:05Oh.
00:43:07Oh.
00:43:12Ha ha.
00:43:13Oh, ha.
00:43:13Ha.
00:43:19Ho.
00:43:35You okay?
00:43:37Katie?
00:43:40Katie, what are you doing here?
00:43:42Well, I was just driving past
00:43:44and I saw the car.
00:43:46I did call your name.
00:43:52You.
00:44:00I waited for you, you know.
00:44:05Heart broken.
00:44:08Everybody talk behind my back.
00:44:12Poor wee girl.
00:44:14Left behind like that.
00:44:16They all said you were no good.
00:44:17But I defended you.
00:44:21Every chance I got, I defended you.
00:44:27I waited.
00:44:29I waited.
00:44:31Every day.
00:44:34Two.
00:44:35Oh.
00:44:36Years.
00:44:37Like a dog.
00:44:39With a postman.
00:44:48You shouldn't be here, Katie.
00:44:50You should go.
00:44:57Maybe you should go.
00:45:01Go back to America before something bad happens.
00:45:04Fine, I'll leave.
00:45:05Yes, you leave.
00:45:07Go.
00:45:08Go back to America.
00:45:11I don't even know what you're getting back here for.
00:45:25I don't even know what you're getting back here for.
00:45:30Get the fuck off me!
00:45:38There's that fucking stray again.
00:45:44Here, doggie.
00:45:47Here, doggie.
00:45:58Here, doggie.
00:46:02Put that thing in a bag.
00:46:04And throw it in the boot of the car.
00:46:05And throw it in the car.
00:46:33Now, good morning, everybody.
00:46:36Thank you all very much for coming along today to lend your support.
00:46:40Take it to the rest of them.
00:46:41Much Ellie.
00:46:42Temper fibre.
00:46:43Yeah.
00:46:45We're already up to £500 and dinner for two at Kelly's Inn.
00:46:49So some lucky duck is going home today.
00:46:51A very happy camper, I can tell you.
00:46:53That's great.
00:46:55Thanks.
00:46:56Father Donnelly, come on down onto the field.
00:46:59Father Donnelly.
00:47:01There he is.
00:47:02Good man.
00:47:04Come on down onto the field.
00:47:05Come on ahead.
00:47:06Good man.
00:47:08Good man.
00:47:10Dig deep, Father.
00:47:11Certainly will.
00:47:20This is a bit awkward.
00:47:22Matt Donnelly.
00:47:24Well, come on down here and get your prize.
00:47:28Come on.
00:47:32Matt Donnelly, congratulations.
00:47:35Just back from America.
00:47:37Thanks.
00:47:38Who said that?
00:47:40Now, now.
00:47:41Let's not be sore losers.
00:47:43Matt won fair and square.
00:47:46Well done, Matt.
00:47:47Dinner for two at Kelly's Inn.
00:47:49If you don't have a date, I myself am available to eat.
00:48:10You better watch yourself, Yank.
00:48:14Because if I ever hear you near my wife again, I'm going to gut you like a fucking pig.
00:48:19I'm going to gut you like a fucking pig.
00:48:26I'm going to gut you like a fucking pig.
00:48:28I'm going to gut you like a fucking pig.
00:48:32I'm going to gut you like a fucking pig.
00:48:35I'm going to gut you like a fucking pig.
00:48:37I'm going to gut you like a fucking pig.
00:48:37I'm going to gut you like a fucking pig.
00:48:38I'm going to gut you like a fucking pig.
00:48:40I'm going to gut you like a fucking pig.
00:48:45I'm going to gut you like a fucking pig.
00:49:39Jesus Christ, you've frightened the life out of me.
00:49:43What are you doing sitting here in the dark?
00:49:47Hello, Carrie.
00:49:49You okay?
00:49:51Because you're being a bit weird.
00:49:52Have you been a good girl?
00:49:58I don't like this stuff and I'm going to put the-
00:50:00I said it!
00:50:01Has my wee Carrie been a good wee girl?
00:50:04Because if I find out that you went and done something really, really fucking stupid,
00:50:11Daddy's going to be so angry with his wee girl.
00:50:15I still have to be so angry.
00:50:29I'm so angry.
00:50:32I'm really excited to get to work with you.
00:50:48I'm excited to go out.
00:50:48I'm excited to be here now.
00:50:53I'm excited to be here for the next one.
00:51:00I'm excited to be here for the next one.
00:51:08Are you going to beat me with that?
00:51:12How did you get here?
00:51:16I walked.
00:51:20Let me get you a towel.
00:51:23I won't be needing a towel.
00:51:27I like being wet.
00:51:32Are you working on another book?
00:51:36I read your last one too, you know.
00:51:40Cinder's Landing.
00:51:43I loved that book.
00:51:47Is this one a love story too?
00:51:51I don't know.
00:51:55Am I in it yet?
00:52:04Please.
00:52:09Are you nervous about me touching your stuff?
00:52:17Why?
00:52:23What do you think I'm going to do to you?
00:52:28Relax.
00:52:29Relax.
00:52:32Relax.
00:52:32Relax.
00:52:34Relax.
00:53:02Do you ever feel
00:53:04That time is on your side
00:53:07Giving you space to learn
00:53:10And places to hide
00:53:13Use your time wisely
00:53:16Never say goodbye
00:53:18Cause we will always meet again
00:53:21On the other side
00:53:24So please tell me something
00:53:26I don't already know
00:53:29Please take me far away
00:53:32To a place I do not know
00:53:34Half the bloody parish is here
00:53:36We should say mass in here
00:53:38On a Sunday morning
00:53:39Aye, you can charge for the wine
00:53:42I'll have a pint
00:53:57What'll it be?
00:54:01Two pints, please
00:54:02Two pints?
00:54:03God, let's see
00:54:04To look around
00:54:09Stay my ground
00:54:10And sing my song
00:54:13Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
00:54:18-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
00:54:19-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
00:54:20-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
00:54:21-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
00:54:24-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
00:54:35Matt the writer to his new book and to a safe return to his family in America
00:54:43to your new book
00:54:50you late for an appointment what do you not think about writing one about
00:54:55growing up in Tyrone I like that um what was that called Angela's ashes
00:55:02yeah Matt why didn't you write us a story about your miserable Northern Ireland childhood
00:55:08start with the terrible bait and you're talking primary school that's a good one
00:55:15you beat me unconscious in a room full of kids
00:55:23so who can tell me something about France
00:55:35what's the first thing pops into your head when I say
00:55:48what can God's name make you think of onions
00:55:58you saw onions on the television it was a cartoon about France the man had onions around his neck
00:56:10garlic he had a string of garlic round his neck is that what you saw I suppose so sir stop
00:56:19mumbling speak up
00:56:22yes
00:56:23garlic
00:56:25don't you shout at me
00:56:28you yell at me
00:56:30and my captain
00:56:32stop leave him alone
00:56:34Kenny Corrigan get back to your seat
00:56:36leave him alone
00:56:38get back to your seat Kenny Corrigan
00:56:40leave him alone
00:56:41get back to your seat
00:56:42get back to your seat
00:57:13this is not over asshole
00:57:14Oh, my God.
00:58:01It's my sweet house.
00:58:03Jesus, what are you doing here?
00:58:04Don't be mad at me, Maddie.
00:58:05You're in my fucking house.
00:58:06No, Maddie.
00:58:07I'm your friend, Maddie.
00:58:08Maddie, no.
00:58:09No.
00:58:10Maddie.
00:58:13What are you doing here, Potty?
00:58:15I heard you're telling stories, Maddie.
00:58:20That's cool.
00:58:23Hey, hey, hey.
00:58:26Hey, you remember that time in Owen Cuny's class?
00:58:29Remember you got beat up?
00:58:32I remember.
00:58:34Potty said you.
00:58:35Potty said you.
00:58:37No, I remember.
00:58:38It was Katie, save me.
00:58:39No.
00:58:40No, no.
00:58:41Potty said you.
00:58:44Potty said you.
00:58:461981, August 26th, 2 p.m., I had a blue shirt on me.
00:58:52You remember your blue shirt, Maddie?
00:58:55You remember your blue shirt?
00:58:57I remember.
00:59:05Oh, it's the priest.
00:59:10Money.
00:59:12That one's mad at you, Maddie.
00:59:15That one's mad at you.
00:59:16That one's very mad at you.
00:59:18That one's mad at you, Maddie.
00:59:20That one's mad at you.
00:59:28That one's mad at you.
00:59:33I remember mine, Maddie.
00:59:33I remember my blue shirt.
00:59:33Oh, it's a nice day.
00:59:35Maybe it's a nice day.
00:59:38Oh, I'm worried.
00:59:40That one's mad at you.
00:59:41What am I waiting to know?
00:59:46That one's mad at you, Maddie.
00:59:47What do we potty want?
00:59:49Borrowed some sugar.
00:59:53Are you alright, Matt? Look at the state of you.
00:59:56I'm trying to write.
00:59:59This place smells like a bloody brewery.
01:00:02Don't come on here to lecture me, Gerry!
01:00:05Or what? You'll run away again?
01:00:09I doesn't run away!
01:00:12For a writer, you're not too fond of hearing the truth, Matty.
01:00:19And for God's sake, will you tidy this place up a bit?
01:00:22Your mother didn't raise you to be a tramp.
01:00:46I have been torn in two over the Atlantic.
01:00:51An Irishman in America, an American in Ireland.
01:00:57Betrayed by a brogue on one side, eternal optimism on the other.
01:01:03I am native in neither, easily silenced both here and there.
01:01:09I live now in the parish of memory.
01:01:13Create castles out of my childhood.
01:01:16Fly my Yankee tinge brogue as my flag.
01:01:21I have become one of the ghost Irish.
01:01:24Those who moved away.
01:01:27Those with a heart that will never be fully at rest.
01:01:59There's nothing in other places.
01:02:00What are you doing here?
01:02:05By Jays, it must be nice being you.
01:02:09Mr. fucking cool.
01:02:11Breezing in and out of people's lives.
01:02:14Taking what you want.
01:02:16When you want it.
01:02:19What the fuck are you doing here, Declan?
01:02:22You can't do this.
01:02:24You can't go around with a gun in your hand bullying people.
01:02:27Is that the fucking 1970s?
01:02:29Well that's where you're wrong, asshole.
01:02:31Because as far as I'm concerned, I can do whatever I like here.
01:02:34I earned my right to stay in this country.
01:02:37I stayed and I fought.
01:02:39And what did you do?
01:02:41You ran away till America and you left the fighting to the real men.
01:02:45Please.
01:02:46Please, Declan.
01:02:48You don't think I wanted to run?
01:02:51You don't think that I wanted to escape?
01:02:53No!
01:02:58You don't deserve to live here.
01:03:01And you don't deserve Katie.
01:03:06Go home, Yank.
01:03:33Go home.
01:03:34Go home, Yank.
01:03:36Go home!
01:03:38Go home.
01:03:39Go home.
01:03:46Oh, my God.
01:04:34Oh, my God.
01:04:40Oh, my God.
01:04:44Oh, my God.
01:04:58Oh, my God.
01:05:03Don't start.
01:05:05I need you to come with me.
01:05:09Where are we going?
01:05:11You'll find out when we get there.
01:05:15Come on.
01:05:16Let's go.
01:06:00Are you visiting someone?
01:06:04No.
01:06:06You are.
01:06:09Who am I visiting?
01:06:14Pastor Cooney.
01:06:17I thought he was dead.
01:06:20That's his house over there.
01:06:23No way.
01:06:26There's a part of your past in that house.
01:06:30Do yourself a favor.
01:06:32Go over there, knock on the door and face it for once.
01:06:36It's time to stop running away from it all.
01:06:39I don't know.
01:07:18I'm here to see Master Kuni.
01:07:21Okay, come home.
01:07:22I'll take you to him.
01:07:57Who told you to sit down on your feet?
01:08:29I'll take you to him.
01:08:30No, no, no, no.
01:08:32She went downstairs.
01:08:36You're okay.
01:08:42Donnelly.
01:08:45Donnelly.
01:08:48Good boy.
01:08:52You're a good boy.
01:08:57I've carried you around with me my whole life.
01:09:02I don't look at you.
01:09:05Not much to look at now.
01:09:14They don't teach you that at school.
01:09:19They should do.
01:09:2392 years on this planet.
01:09:28And the only thing I've learned with complete certainty is...
01:09:34You grow old.
01:09:39And you die.
01:09:47I...
01:09:50I did my best.
01:09:56You wrote a book.
01:09:59I read it.
01:10:01You did.
01:10:02You were all proud of you.
01:10:05I was proud of you.
01:10:09And you will write another book.
01:10:13I don't think I've got another one on me.
01:10:17You will write.
01:10:21You will write.
01:10:22And you will write.
01:10:44Home.
01:10:47Home.
01:10:51Seen from the window of a plain, she is a patchwork quilt.
01:10:55Little square fields of green stitched together by thin rows of thorns.
01:11:01Spring green, fern green, forest green, pine, sea and shamrock green.
01:11:11From above, she is clean, mystical, magical to behold.
01:11:17That is her first great act of deceit.
01:11:20Her lush, rolling beauty, the first betrayal of her truth.
01:11:26For on the ground, and deeper still, buried beneath that verdant lawn, is her pain.
01:11:35Underneath, there is blood.
01:11:41What price had the past exacted on each of us?
01:11:46Mother, Cooney, Katie, Declan.
01:11:55Where have you been all evening?
01:12:00No, no, Declan.
01:12:08Look, they're daffodils.
01:12:12You used to love daffodils.
01:12:16Remember?
01:12:21Please don't believe me.
01:12:23Okay.
01:12:33Okay.
01:12:43Okay.
01:13:10What did any of it mean?
01:13:12Catholic.
01:13:14Protestant.
01:13:16Irish.
01:13:18English.
01:13:20Words designated to keep us apart.
01:13:24Words with borders all their own.
01:13:28Each one of us armed and insulated with a version of the past we deemed to be true.
01:13:34Holding each other at harm's length over a flag or some unresolved hurt.
01:13:43How many lives is a field worth?
01:13:49No one escaped the wound.
01:13:51Each of us carry a scar.
01:13:57Declan had chosen the gun.
01:13:59I must honor this pen.
01:14:03Invite small miracles into the incubator of my heart.
01:14:08Come home to the poetry of myself.
01:14:13It was time for me to let go of the past.
01:14:17Of the wreckage I'd been wearing like a suit of armor.
01:14:22I too had lost sight of what was in front of me.
01:14:27Family.
01:14:28Friends.
01:14:30Forests and fern.
01:14:33Daffodils and birdsong.
01:14:36Rivers and fields.
01:14:39Nettle, rose and thorn hedge.
01:14:42Fog and foxtrot.
01:14:45Mountains, moss and meadows.
01:14:49A heart haunted by the ghosts of poets and rebels.
01:14:53Sir, I love you.
01:14:57Give Lucas a hug for me.
01:15:01I'm coming.
01:15:04I'm coming home.
01:15:05Come on.
01:16:07The land was the land wherever he happened to stand on it.
01:16:49It really was a great country.
01:16:52If only you could lift your head to see past the mess we'd made of it.
01:17:08It was time to stop running.
01:17:11It was time to go home.
01:17:13It was time to go home.
01:17:24It was time to go home.
01:17:41It was time to go home.
01:17:41It was time to go home.
01:17:42It was time to go home.
01:18:55Come by the hills to the land where fancy is free
01:19:06And stand where the peaks meet the sky
01:19:12And the locks meet the sea
01:19:18Where the rivers run clear
01:19:22And the bracken is cold in the sun
01:19:29And the cares of tomorrow must wait till this day is done
01:19:42Come by the hills to the land where life is a song
01:19:53And stand where the birds fill the air
01:19:59With their joys all day long
01:20:03Where the trees sway in time
01:20:09And even the wind sings in tune
01:20:16And the cares of tomorrow must wait till this day is through
01:20:26O know...
01:20:28I am going to die on the lake
01:20:33I am going to die on the lake
01:20:49Therefore that dwells in the場
01:21:16Come by the hills to the land
01:21:21Where legends remain
01:21:27Where glories of old fill the hearts
01:21:33And may yet come again
01:21:38Where the past has been lost
01:21:43And the future has still to be won
01:21:50And the cares of tomorrow
01:21:54Must wait till this day is done
01:22:00And the future has still to be won
01:22:57And that they've just had to be won
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