00:00We weren't official, but we weren't nothing either.
00:03We lived in that messy middle where feelings were real,
00:05but commitment was always complicated.
00:07And I told myself it was fine,
00:09that casual could still be meaningful,
00:12that maybe if I just waited long enough,
00:13you'd wake up and realize you had everything you needed right in front of you.
00:17But here's the truth.
00:18I wasn't confused.
00:19I was convincing myself that crumbs could fill me,
00:22that chemistry meant something when consistency never showed up with it.
00:26I called it almost love,
00:27but now I call it what it was.
00:30A distraction.
00:31A way to feel wanted without truly being seen.
00:33A temporary high that left me questioning myself more than I should admit.
00:37You knew just enough to keep me close.
00:39Just distant enough to keep me unsure.
00:42And that kind of love, it's not love.
00:44It's emotional breadcrumbing.
00:46It's false hope with good timing.
00:48But you know what?
00:49I learned.
00:50I learned that not choosing me was louder than your silence.
00:53That my peace is worth more than the potential you never lived up to.
00:57And yeah, I loved you.
00:58Or at least the version of you I thought could exist.
01:01But I love me more now.
01:02So if you ever circle back, know this.
01:05I've stopped writing stories about people who only showed up halfway.
01:08I'm done with almosts.
01:09I'm done with confusion disguised as connection.
01:12Because I don't want something that feels good for a little while.
01:15I want something that is good.
01:17Fully.
01:18Freely.
01:19Loudly.
01:21And next time I won't have to wonder what we are.
01:23Because it'll be clear.
01:24It'll be safe.
01:26It'll be real.
01:27And it won't feel like fighting to be chosen.
01:29It'll feel like home.
01:30Let's try, Mr frisbee.
01:30And after the story, tell me, when look.
01:30Now I'm not drunk, I'm drunk.
01:30So if not...
01:30The thing that is why I just started talking.
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