00:00You want to know everything they're doing inside the CIA, right?
00:05Because a lot of people see the movies and you want to know how it works,
00:09but there's a reason the CIA does things that they do.
00:14It's not something we talk about publicly, ever.
00:18The CIA is our nation's first line of defense.
00:23We are absolutely safer because we have people who are out in the field,
00:27not for self, but for country.
00:31We're dealing with regimes that are incredibly brutal
00:34and the punishment for espionage is death.
00:37I flew from Florida to Moscow.
00:41I was in the mountains, in the Pakistan, Afghanistan area.
00:44Didn't speak the language, which is always uncomfortable.
00:48We needed intelligence and we needed it quickly.
00:51At a very young age at CIA,
00:54you can be making decisions that are life or death.
00:58They bash the door in.
01:02About six guys come in and they start yelling.
01:05They're spies. What do you do in our country?
01:08And suddenly, an agent was blindfolded and put it into the trunk of a second vehicle.
01:13And at that point, they realized they were going to kill him.
01:16I did not think about going to jail and perhaps I should have.
01:23It was a raid against our top target.
01:26We all thought, is this an attack?
01:28So we got our weapons ready, prepared to fight now.
01:32This was jeopardizing the most important CIA operation that had been planned in years.
01:39By June, I was pretty sick.
01:41I couldn't function anymore.
01:42When he returned, he didn't look like someone who was going to survive.
01:47If you don't want to be executed, don't become a spy for the CIA.
01:55I never knew my mom was a spy.
01:57I never had a clue.
01:58She led a normal life.
02:00There was a while where I was living a double life and a double life.
02:05It's like building a new relationship.
02:08It's just this guy happens to be a terrorist.
02:10There are moments of doubt.
02:12There are moments when it's harder than I thought.
02:17Assassinations.
02:18Torture.
02:18Lives are at stake.
02:19There's a chance that I won't come back.
02:22You're one person before the agency and you're a totally different person after.
02:27Either you adapt or you die.
02:31You do that knowing that there's a need.
02:35Protecting and saving U.S. lives.
02:38I knew I'm putting my economy's left in danger.
02:40But I couldn't stop myself from helping.
02:44I've had people look at me and say, how could you do what you did?
02:48And my answer is, who do you think we are?
02:54We are you.
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