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British writer/professor C.S. Lewis falls in love with dying American poet Joy Gresham.
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00:02:48And now
00:02:50And now
00:02:52Now the Honorable Professor
00:02:54Plain Jack Lewis
00:02:56Another very complicated question
00:02:58Very simple
00:02:59This week, infanticide
00:03:03Infanticide is a long word, isn't it?
00:03:08Let me put it to you in the bluff common man's language that has made me so popular among
00:03:16bluff common men
00:03:18I don't believe you heard a word of it
00:03:20A noble address
00:03:22Jack
00:03:23Judiciously navigated
00:03:24Shouldn't I have said that I've not been married?
00:03:28Not at all
00:03:29The personal touch
00:03:30Anyway, I don't see it makes any difference
00:03:32We don't expect those who teach us sexual morality to be practicing fornicators
00:03:36Oh, I shouldn't play that card too often, Jack
00:03:39The expert on marriage who has never been married
00:03:42The lecturer on romantic love who believes that romantic love is a medieval invention
00:03:46The author of children's books who has never had any children
00:03:49You'll end up the non-playing captain in the cricket game of life
00:03:56Cricket game of life
00:03:58The spectator sees more of the sport
00:04:00Oh, come on, Jack
00:04:01When was the last time you even talked to a woman?
00:04:04I mean about anything that matters
00:04:06Women have no concept about what really matters
00:04:09How could Jack possibly talk to them about it?
00:04:11Most of my letters come from women
00:04:12They write about what really matters
00:04:14To them very much so
00:04:15Dear Professor Lewis
00:04:16Last night I had a vision of a man with a brown beard
00:04:20Was it Jesus?
00:04:22Often it's about their faith, yes
00:04:24But just as often it's about their marriages
00:04:26Don't ask me why
00:04:28Cricket game of life
00:04:34Listen to this warning
00:04:48Dear Mr. Lewis, you have played a greater part in my life than you can ever know
00:04:53My children adore your narnia fantasies, especially my youngest boy
00:04:57My husband is fascinated by your science fiction books
00:05:00So who am I?
00:05:02So far I have been in the following order
00:05:04A Jewish atheist
00:05:05An award-winning poet
00:05:07A card-carrying communist
00:05:09A convert to Christianity
00:05:11And mother of two boys
00:05:13Must be American
00:05:14Mrs. William L. Gresham
00:05:18Pleasant play in Stadford, New York State
00:05:29Am I right that you are as fascinated as I am by the image of the unfound door?
00:05:34The mythical door that leads out of time and space into... where?
00:05:38The undiscovered country?
00:05:40The never-never land?
00:05:42Is this your land of Narnia that you get to through the magic wardrobe?
00:05:47I know you wrote your Narnia books for children
00:05:50Maybe I'm still a child
00:05:52Maybe you are for that matter
00:05:54I enclose one of my poems
00:05:57It's called Snow in Madrid
00:05:59Written during the Civil War in Spain
00:06:01First I must boast a little
00:06:04And tell you that my collection of poems won a National Institute Award
00:06:07Which I shared with Robert Frost
00:06:09That's so you won't wipe me off as a nut
00:06:11Here's Snow in Madrid
00:06:14Softly so casual
00:06:16Lovely so light
00:06:18So light
00:06:19The cruel sky lets fall
00:06:22Something one does not fight
00:06:24Men before perishing
00:06:26See with unwounded eye
00:06:29For once a gentle thing
00:06:31Fall from the sky
00:06:33I propose to start this morning with a picture
00:06:45Pictures do not tax the brain they say
00:06:47So picture if you please gentlemen
00:06:50Ladies of May morning in the country
00:06:52You are walking a little aimlessly beside a river
00:06:55You come upon a garden enclosed by a high wall
00:06:58You walk around the wall
00:07:00You find a door
00:07:01You enter the garden
00:07:02Inside there is a fountain
00:07:03Inside the fountain lie two crystal stones
00:07:06You look into the stones
00:07:07And there you see in reflection another garden
00:07:10A rose garden
00:07:11In the midst of the roses
00:07:13There grows one beautiful rosebud
00:07:16You are filled with longing for this rosebud
00:07:19You stretch out one hand
00:07:21And pluck the bum
00:07:23Not exactly real life is it?
00:07:28This is Guillaume Delory's allegorical description
00:07:32Of the experience of falling in love
00:07:34From the Romain de la Rose
00:07:36Now
00:07:38The question I want to put to you is
00:07:40Is it true?
00:07:41Is this real life?
00:07:43Now before you jump to the obvious conclusion
00:07:46Ask yourself a further question
00:07:48Which is more real?
00:07:50Falling in love
00:07:52Or picking a rose?
00:08:08Abide with me
00:08:12Falling in love
00:08:15Time
00:08:42Mrs. Gresham writes a straight sort of letter.
00:09:01Who is Mrs. Gresham?
00:09:03The Jewish communist Christian American.
00:09:07Ah, yes. Pleasant Plains.
00:09:12She writes as if she knows me already.
00:09:15Price of fame.
00:09:17I don't mean she's presumptuous.
00:09:20I suppose she is.
00:09:23I mean, she seems to have seen through me.
00:09:25How can she have?
00:09:27I don't know.
00:09:29I suppose she's read my books.
00:09:36I expect it's just the American style.
00:09:38Americans don't understand about inhibitions.
00:09:51I'm amused that you see me as the child.
00:09:53I believe I would rather be the child caught in the magic spell than the magician casting it.
00:10:01In my book called The Magician's Nephew, it is, of course, the child who brings the magic that saves his mother from death.
00:10:08This, I fear, is pure wishful fulfillment.
00:10:14Long ago, there was a time when such events were real.
00:10:18I refer to my own life.
00:10:19But I had no such magic.
00:10:27As for Narnia itself, no, it is not the true Never-Never Land.
00:10:31I take it you mean heaven.
00:10:33Narnia exists in time and will come to an end.
00:10:38Like our real world by which we set such store, it is only a part of the Shadowlands.
00:10:43Friday.
00:10:50Friday, as we see all day.
00:10:52Saturday?
00:10:54Saturday.
00:10:56Annual Assembly of the Women's Literary Guild.
00:10:59Oh, yes.
00:11:01Couldn't I give them the talk I gave to the disabled veterans?
00:11:04Might not one of the literary women be married to a disabled veteran?
00:11:10Mrs. Gresham is coming to England.
00:11:12Mrs. Gresham of the Pleasant Plains.
00:11:13Does she want to talk, too?
00:11:15Yes, she wants to meet us.
00:11:16Us?
00:11:17Yes, I quote.
00:11:18Perhaps you and your brother, Major Lewis, would find time to join me for tea in an hotel.
00:11:24Tea is safe.
00:11:25Hotel is safe.
00:11:26Shall we say yes?
00:11:28Do we want to?
00:11:29You might be curious to see what she looks like.
00:11:31Voluminous fur coat.
00:11:32Long, pointed nose.
00:11:34Thin.
00:11:34Nervy.
00:11:35Shrill voice.
00:11:36Spectacles.
00:11:37Thick brown rooms.
00:11:38Thick brown eyes.
00:11:40Relentlessly understanding.
00:11:42There she is in the red and green check.
00:12:06Still young.
00:12:07How old is she?
00:12:09Forty.
00:12:09I don't know.
00:12:12What about the fur coat?
00:12:14Didn't we say that she'd have a fur coat?
00:12:17God preserve us.
00:12:22Thank you, Lord.
00:12:28Aren't women peculiar?
00:12:29Two things that men find most unnatural.
00:12:35The dominance of the female and the dominance of the collective.
00:12:40What are you talking about?
00:12:42Insects.
00:12:43That's what's wrong with insects.
00:12:45Insects?
00:12:48Morning.
00:12:52Mr. Lewis, I'm Joy Gresham.
00:12:55I remember announcing to my parents that I was an atheist at the age of eight.
00:13:03By high school, I had it all worked out.
00:13:05Men are only apes.
00:13:07Virtue is only custom.
00:13:09Life is only an electrochemical reaction.
00:13:12Mind is only a set of conditioned reflexes.
00:13:14And anyway, most people aren't rational like me.
00:13:17Love, art, and altruism are only sex.
00:13:19The universe is only matter.
00:13:21Matter is only energy.
00:13:23I've forgotten what I said energy was only.
00:13:24Portrait of a happy materialist.
00:13:26But somewhere deep inside, there was this girl with dreaming eyes.
00:13:30Furiously scribbling verses.
00:13:38Where is everybody?
00:13:40Working, studying, bent over books.
00:13:43That's your story.
00:13:45I'm sorry?
00:13:45I've been developing this theory about the English.
00:13:48Now, the big question about the English is, where are they all?
00:13:51Why are they so tired?
00:13:52You must have noticed, they don't talk.
00:13:54They don't move.
00:13:55All day long, they're timid and lethargic.
00:13:58There's only one possible explanation.
00:14:00The English are nocturnal creatures.
00:14:01They can do their living at night.
00:14:02Well, that's your explanation, is it?
00:14:04I believe that somewhere in England, there's this terrific party going on all through the night
00:14:08with everyone yelling and stomping and having the best time.
00:14:13See what I mean?
00:14:14They're all sleeping it off.
00:14:18You're different to how I imagined.
00:14:27In what way?
00:14:29Beefier.
00:14:34How about me, your mother?
00:14:35Where you thought I'd be?
00:14:36No, I can honestly say that you're a complete surprise.
00:14:44Good.
00:14:44I like that.
00:14:47How long do you plan to stay in England?
00:14:50Till the end of December.
00:14:52Boys aren't too happy about not being home for Christmas, but they like the snow.
00:14:56Of course, you have two boys, David and, um...
00:14:58Douglas, he's a Narnia fan.
00:15:00I must tell you, he'd really like to meet you.
00:15:02Well, then he shall.
00:15:04Do you expect to be in Oxford again?
00:15:06I could be.
00:15:07Well, if you give us adequate warning, I dare say we could rise to a T.
00:15:10What do you say, Warner?
00:15:12Whatever you say, Jack.
00:15:13Well, then, I'll go.
00:15:14I'll go.
00:15:15I'll go.
00:15:16Well, then, I'll go.
00:15:17I'll go.
00:15:18I'll go.
00:15:19I'll go.
00:15:20I'll go.
00:15:21I'll go.
00:15:22I'll go.
00:15:23I'll go.
00:15:24I'll go.
00:15:25I'll go.
00:15:26I'll go.
00:15:27I'll go.
00:15:28Well, I'll go.
00:15:29I'll go.
00:15:30Mummy, Mummy, is this the one?
00:15:31Yes, yes.
00:15:32Wait a minute, will you?
00:15:33Hello.
00:15:34Which one are you?
00:15:35David.
00:15:36Are you him?
00:15:37No, I'm his brother.
00:15:39So, you found us, Mrs. Graciel.
00:15:53Are you him?
00:15:55Yes, I suppose I am.
00:15:57You don't look like him.
00:16:00This one's the tricky one, the knight.
00:16:02This is what he does.
00:16:03One, two.
00:16:04See that?
00:16:05Any two squares as long as he turns a corner.
00:16:08I'll try.
00:16:11No, no, only two squares.
00:16:12Are you actually a member of the party?
00:16:14Oh, yes.
00:16:15Paid up Communist Party member.
00:16:17That's it.
00:16:18I even edited an anthology of anti-imperialist war poetry.
00:16:21War poetry of the United Nations.
00:16:23Hm.
00:16:24Which English poets did you include?
00:16:25I couldn't find any English poets.
00:16:27Not ones who had the right ideological line.
00:16:29So I invented two.
00:16:31Megan Coombs Dawson and Hayden Weir.
00:16:34Hayden Weir.
00:16:36He died in battle early in the war.
00:16:39Heroically.
00:16:40So you were a true believer.
00:16:43I thought I was.
00:16:45I believed there had to be more.
00:16:48I just got the wrong more.
00:16:51All my life I've known I had a home somewhere.
00:16:55So I had to go in all the houses along the way looking for it hoping I'd recognize it.
00:17:00Let me tell you I have wandered into a lot of wrong houses.
00:17:04Here we are.
00:17:05Have you found the right house now?
00:17:07I think so.
00:17:09All my life I've had a sense of, I never knew what to call it.
00:17:23Moments of longing had seemed to come from another world.
00:17:26I wandered into a few wrong houses of my own.
00:17:29For me the great myths came from the north.
00:17:32Siegfried.
00:17:33Twilight of the gods.
00:17:34The Christian myth never seemed to have the same power.
00:17:37You saw it as a myth?
00:17:39Why did then?
00:17:40The dying hero.
00:17:41The god who sacrifices himself for his people.
00:17:44What always stumped me was the sheer number of other dying god myths there were.
00:17:48I could never understand why our myths should happen to be the only one that was true.
00:17:52It didn't seem to be any more likely than the others.
00:17:54However you talk about gods going to sound a little wacky.
00:17:57Quite so.
00:17:59My problem was to tell the one true wackiness from all the competing versions.
00:18:03So how did you get unstumped?
00:18:05Well one day I thought maybe they're all true.
00:18:09All ways of telling the same story.
00:18:12What if there is just the one true myth that came to reality in Jesus Christ?
00:18:17And all the other myths merely echoes of it.
00:18:20A little blurred, a little confused.
00:18:22Like Chinese whispers.
00:18:24That sounds rather cerebral to me.
00:18:26Well anyway I did think myself to faith.
00:18:29Well one of the uses of thought is knowing when thought isn't enough.
00:18:34Can you dive?
00:18:36Can I dive?
00:18:38I learned how to dive the same summer I learned I was a Christian.
00:18:42It's the easiest thing in the world.
00:18:44You don't have to do anything.
00:18:45All you have to do is stop doing something.
00:18:47You have to learn to stop trying to preserve yourself.
00:18:50Once you let yourself go head first without worrying where you're gonna land or anything.
00:18:55It works.
00:18:56You're a diver.
00:18:57John!
00:18:58Oh mommy!
00:18:59Can we go into the trees?
00:19:00Can they?
00:19:01Of course!
00:19:02The woods are part of our property as far as the fens.
00:19:05John!
00:19:07John!
00:19:08John!
00:19:13Where are you all spending Christmas?
00:19:15Maybe London.
00:19:16We've not decided.
00:19:17You'd be very welcome to join us here.
00:19:19The boys might like it.
00:19:20You don't want us rampaging all over your house.
00:19:23We shall survive.
00:19:24Christmas is more like Christmas with children, isn't it?
00:19:27I feel no goodwill towards my fellow men.
00:19:28I feel ill will.
00:19:29It's nothing to do with how you feel.
00:19:30Feelings are fine.
00:19:31I feel ill will.
00:19:32It's nothing to do with how you feel.
00:19:33Feelings are far too unreliable.
00:19:34Then what has it got to do with?
00:19:37God Becomes Man.
00:19:38What I resent about Christmas is this general presumption of goodwill.
00:19:52I feel no goodwill towards my fellow men.
00:19:55I feel ill will.
00:19:56It's nothing to do with how you feel.
00:19:58Feelings are far too unreliable.
00:20:00Then what has it got to do with?
00:20:02God becomes man.
00:20:04Simple as that.
00:20:05Then God must be bonkers.
00:20:06Who would choose voluntarily to be human?
00:20:10Far more satisfactory to stay safely divided.
00:20:13Well, think of Christmas in terms of magic, Christopher.
00:20:16The birth of a helpless squealing creature who happens to be God and an omnipotent baby.
00:20:21Doesn't that satisfy your taste for the peculiar?
00:20:25It's the coming of new life in the heart of winter when everything seems to be dead.
00:20:30The snow falls and the trees bear fruit.
00:20:33That's real magic.
00:20:49I hope you know what you let yourself in for.
00:20:53Douglas?
00:21:08Douglas?
00:21:09Douglas?
00:21:11Douglas?
00:21:12Douglas? Douglas?
00:21:21Will you be joining us for tea?
00:21:25Is this the house?
00:21:28No, not this one.
00:21:30The children were sent to the house of an old professor who lived in the heart of the country, ten miles from the nearest railway station, and two miles from the nearest post office.
00:21:50He had no wife, and he lived in a very large house.
00:21:54It's not so big.
00:22:00I was just like Douglas when I was his age. Always sneaking off the book to some secret hiding place.
00:22:06What were you hiding from?
00:22:08I don't know.
00:22:10Before my mother died, there was nothing to be afraid of.
00:22:15I don't think it started off as hiding. I think it started off as seeking.
00:22:19What were you seeking?
00:22:22The unfound door.
00:22:24The undiscovered country.
00:22:26From who was born and no traveller returns.
00:22:29That was always the snag.
00:22:33I wanted to travel to other worlds.
00:22:35But I wanted to come home again.
00:22:38How old were you when your mother died?
00:22:42Not much older than Douglas is now.
00:22:46Did it hit you hard?
00:22:47Yes, it was the end of my world.
00:22:53I remember my father in tears.
00:22:56Voices all over the house.
00:22:58Doors shutting and opening.
00:23:01It was a big house.
00:23:03Long, empty corridors.
00:23:05I remember I had the toothache.
00:23:11I wanted my mother to come to me.
00:23:15I cried for her to come.
00:23:18But she didn't come.
00:23:21My father never spoke about it.
00:23:22It was too much for him.
00:23:24Warnie and I knew that, so we didn't talk about it.
00:23:28Children pick these things up.
00:23:31They have their own way of dealing with things.
00:23:33In secret hiding places.
00:23:35Jack's children's stories are published in America, they tell me.
00:23:51Are they or are they not in translation?
00:23:55The lion, the witch and the clothes closet.
00:23:58You must mind me, Jack.
00:24:00Success breeds envy as ever.
00:24:02I don't know what you call success.
00:24:04Most of my friends tend to treat my children's books.
00:24:07My wife knows better than I do.
00:24:09Well, I've reached my limit.
00:24:11Dangerous creatures, wives.
00:24:12They know too much.
00:24:14I don't understand.
00:24:16Women's sixth sense. Intuition.
00:24:18Why should women need a sixth sense?
00:24:20I should have thought five senses were enough if you make the effort to use them.
00:24:23Mrs. Gresham's absolutely right.
00:24:25There's no mystery here, Harry.
00:24:26Women are just naturally more inquisitive than men.
00:24:29Have you ever wondered why?
00:24:31I'd rather suppose that it was because women have always found themselves with more time on their hands.
00:24:37Ignore him, he likes to provoke.
00:24:39I take it you'd rather be ignorant than curious.
00:24:41Oh, every time.
00:24:43It's the English way, you see.
00:24:45Healthy suspicion of intimacy.
00:24:47One of the breed manages to reproduce it all.
00:24:56It's a white Christmas, all right.
00:24:57The boys will like it.
00:24:58Something wrong?
00:24:59Mm-hmm.
00:25:00Bad news?
00:25:01Not too good.
00:25:02If I were back home now, when this were happening, I'd be writing to you for a while.
00:25:03It's a white Christmas, all right.
00:25:04The boys will like it.
00:25:05Something wrong?
00:25:06Mm-hmm.
00:25:07Bad news?
00:25:08Not too good.
00:25:09If I were back home now, when this were happening, I'd be writing to you for advice.
00:25:10Then write to me.
00:25:12Mr. Lewis, this is who doesn't help.
00:25:13I don't know, this is who you are and I'm so afraid.
00:25:16Look,
00:25:22Hello, Holmes, this is a black box.
00:25:25Help me!
00:25:27And you, believe me?
00:25:28To save me if you're sheep or not.
00:25:29What might I have earned?
00:25:31Nothing's mad, you don't know more like it.
00:25:34I just wish for love.
00:25:36I know nothing.
00:25:37Dear Mr. Lewis, my husband is in love with another woman and wants to marry her.
00:25:44Should I give him a divorce?
00:25:47Yours anxiously, middle-aged Christian mother.
00:25:52Have you been expecting this?
00:25:55Rene and I are in love and have been since about the middle of August.
00:26:00If it had not been for our love, I could not have come through this summer with as little anguish as I have,
00:26:05for things have been rough financially.
00:26:08Did you know?
00:26:09Not about Rene. She is not the first.
00:26:14Do you love your husband?
00:26:16Bill's very talented. He wants to do right by everyone.
00:26:20He's a good man at heart. I guess I love him.
00:26:24Bill is an alcoholic. He is compulsively unfaithful. He is sometimes violent.
00:26:30I guess I haven't loved him for years.
00:26:32Violent.
00:26:35Hmm. He breaks chairs.
00:26:38Fires rifles in the air.
00:26:40Oh, not at anyone. Just to let off steam.
00:26:42Only when he is drunk, he doesn't know what he's doing.
00:26:46Once he broke a bottle over Douglas' head.
00:26:49He did what?
00:26:52Not so good, right?
00:26:54Not so good.
00:26:55Not so good.
00:27:00This is the land of Narnia, said the faun.
00:27:04All that lies between the lamppost and the great castle of Caer Paravel on the Eastern Sea.
00:27:11It is winter in Narnia and has been for ever so long.
00:27:16Always winter and never Christmas.
00:27:20Douglas! Are you out there catching pneumonia?
00:27:24It lasted perhaps 30 seconds.
00:27:31But it changed everything for me. I've been turning into a different person ever since.
00:27:37What happened?
00:27:39We were living in Westchester. Bill was working in New York.
00:27:43One day Bill called from his office.
00:27:46He said he was losing control of his mind. He wasn't coming home.
00:27:50Bang! He put down the faun. That was it.
00:27:53I had two small babies. I was all alone. I had no idea what to do.
00:27:57I put the babies to bed and I waited. He didn't come.
00:28:02Round about midnight I broke down.
00:28:06I felt so useless, so helpless.
00:28:10Babies were upstairs asleep. I was downstairs crying.
00:28:18And there was someone else in the room.
00:28:21Just for a few seconds, maybe half a minute.
00:28:26I knew it was a real person.
00:28:29A person so real that all my precious life seemed to shadow by comparison.
00:28:35It was like waking from sleep.
00:28:41I've no idea what I said. I guess I was just saying,
00:28:44Okay then. Okay.
00:28:50He came back three days later.
00:28:55Did you tell him?
00:28:56Hi Bill. What do you know? God exists.
00:28:59Yes, I told him.
00:29:01I'll say this for Bill. He has an open mind.
00:29:03Only you can't keep any one thing in it for long.
00:29:07Oh, thank you, Bonnie.
00:29:11So, you're going back to him.
00:29:14What else can I do?
00:29:31Hurrah!
00:29:32Hurrah!
00:29:36Just a little, Jack.
00:29:37Good mommy.
00:29:38You never let us have wine.
00:29:40You know you don't like it.
00:29:41I do too.
00:29:42A toast to our guests.
00:29:44To Joy, to David, to Douglas.
00:29:47To say Merry Christmas.
00:29:49And to wish you a safe voyage home.
00:29:52And most of all,
00:29:53because both Warney and I hope very much we'll be seeing you again.
00:29:56to our continuing friendship.
00:29:59To friendship.
00:30:00Friendship.
00:30:01Friendship.
00:30:02Thanks.
00:30:04Thanks, Josh.
00:30:05OK.
00:30:06They won't be there.
00:30:07And they forget Whoo.
00:30:10children all around us.
00:30:13Bye guys.
00:30:14They could take them every time.
00:30:17who listen to me.
00:30:18How are you aware of an Lorraine?
00:30:21ORCHESTRA PLAYS
00:30:51ORCHESTRA PLAYS
00:31:21that this surplus of idle males
00:31:23drove them willy-nilly into mass adultery.
00:31:26Yes, sir.
00:31:26Married love could not be looked upon as romantic longings
00:31:30because wives were items of baggage.
00:31:33Now, if you were Guillaume de Lory or Chrétien de Troyes,
00:31:37you would no more consider writing a poem about marrying a woman
00:31:40than you would about buying a pound of tomatoes.
00:31:43Nowadays, of course, poems about wives
00:31:45jostle democratically alongside poems about tomatoes.
00:31:50Good morning.
00:32:22Christopher, would you say you were content?
00:32:37I am as I am.
00:32:40The world is as it is.
00:32:42My contentment, or otherwise, has very little to do with it.
00:32:45You don't ever feel a sense of waste?
00:32:49Of course.
00:32:50All life is waste.
00:32:53Remember, I don't have your faith in divine recycling.
00:32:56Mm-mm.
00:32:57Mm-mm.
00:32:57¶¶
00:33:27Can't it wait?
00:33:35What?
00:33:36I said if it can wait, why am I banging on your windy?
00:33:46Well, you see, you see.
00:33:49See what?
00:33:51In there.
00:33:56This is the magic wood, Jack.
00:34:07This is the wood between the worlds.
00:34:11Joy!
00:34:14Where are you?
00:34:21Hello, Jack.
00:34:24A little magic for the magicians.
00:34:27Where in heaven's name have you sprung from?
00:34:31Nice to see you again, Joy.
00:34:34Do come in and have a cup of tea, Joy.
00:34:39Of course, of course.
00:34:43It's all right, Jack.
00:34:45We've got a house of our own now.
00:34:47We've got a house of our own now.
00:34:56Come on.
00:34:57I'll do the kitchen.
00:35:07That's good.
00:35:08Would you take that back into the kitchen?
00:35:11And this?
00:35:12and this how does bill feel about your bringing the boys to England doesn't like it on the other
00:35:34hand he can only afford to give us $60 a month England's cheaper how much is that doesn't sound
00:35:39enough you can't you will let me help ensure I don't want to take your money
00:35:47don't be silly that's what friends are for
00:35:49so she's settled here for good has she
00:35:59who knows for the foreseeable future
00:36:08you know how it looks don't you Jack I know
00:36:15she's a good friend Warnie that's all
00:36:20I never really know what he's thinking I catch glimpses that's all
00:36:36perhaps he doesn't know himself he has such a sharp clear mind I suppose I expect him to have everything taped even himself
00:36:56you like him don't you yes I like it
00:37:02do you think he likes me I'm quite sure he does
00:37:06but I don't have to tell you tell me
00:37:13Jack plays safe he always has
00:37:17thank you Warnie message received
00:37:21it's good to have everything out in the open then everyone knows where they are
00:37:33sure that's how I like it too
00:37:34I mean it's very difficult to know exactly what is going on between people
00:37:39sometimes it makes me quite angry that people aren't allowed to be
00:37:44well I just friend
00:37:46like us you mean
00:37:48like us
00:37:48well not to say that friendship is a small thing as a matter of fact I rate it as one of life's most precious gifts
00:37:56but
00:37:58but it shouldn't be turned into a watered down version of something that it's not
00:38:05such as?
00:38:09such as
00:38:09well just to give you one example
00:38:12romantic love
00:38:14which nowadays is just about the only emotion that men and women are permitted to feel for each other
00:38:19and that's not to say that
00:38:22friendship isn't in its way a kind of
00:38:25a kind of love
00:38:27a kind of love yes I knew you'd understand
00:38:29oh I understand better than that Jack
00:38:31you're a bachelor and I'm a divorced woman
00:38:34some people might think you have some idea of marrying me
00:38:38you have no such idea
00:38:39I'm to have no false expectations
00:38:42you've decided to have this out in the open because you care about me and don't wish me to be hurt
00:38:47have I understood you correctly?
00:38:52you are extraordinary
00:38:54I don't know what to say
00:39:01it's okay Jack
00:39:03exam over
00:39:03will you know if there's ever anything I can do to help?
00:39:08sure I know
00:39:09well
00:39:14did I tell you Warnie I've decided to marry Joy
00:39:28no Jack
00:39:31yes it seemed like a good idea
00:39:34you're starting me
00:39:37no no I mean
00:39:39don't worry Warnie nothing's going to change
00:39:41I'm not really going to marry Joy
00:39:43you're not?
00:39:44the rumors are unfounded
00:39:46they are
00:39:48what I have agreed to is to extend my British citizenship to her and the boy so that she can go on living in England
00:39:55by marrying her
00:39:57only technically
00:39:59you're marrying Joy technically
00:40:02a true marriage is a declaration before God
00:40:06not before some government official
00:40:09this will be a bureaucratic formality
00:40:12nothing more
00:40:13Joy will keep her own name
00:40:15we will all go on living exactly as before
00:40:18no one will even know that a marriage has taken place apart from you
00:40:22Somerset House and the Department of Immigration
00:40:26it is nothing more than a bureaucratic formality
00:40:30before you are joined in matrimony
00:40:35I have to remind you of the solemn and binding character of the vows you're about to make
00:40:39marriage according to the law of this country is the union of one man with one woman
00:40:44voluntarily entered into for life to the exclusion of all others
00:40:48now we proceed to the exchange of vows
00:40:51Mr. Lewis if you'll repeat after me
00:40:54I call upon these persons here present
00:40:57I call upon these persons here present
00:41:00to witness that I
00:41:01Clive Staples Lewis
00:41:03to witness that I
00:41:05Clive Staples Lewis
00:41:06do take thee
00:41:08Helen Joy Davidman
00:41:09do take thee
00:41:11Helen Joy Davidman
00:41:12to be my lawful wedded wife
00:41:15to be my lawful wedded wife
00:41:19do we have a ring?
00:41:22no ring
00:41:23very well the ring is not statutory
00:41:24the statement sets out the nature of the marriage
00:41:36the reasons why you have entered into it
00:41:38yes I understand
00:41:40this is a disclaimer to rights in each other's estates
00:41:43yes of course
00:41:45this is a declaration that the marriage is undertaken solely for the purpose of your naturalization
00:41:51and that you have no intention of living as man and wife
00:41:55yes I understand
00:41:58if there is nothing you object to in the wording
00:42:01your signature here
00:42:04of course
00:42:06Mr. Lewis
00:42:13this must be an unusual kind of document for you
00:42:18I don't believe I've ever drawn up such a statement before
00:42:21it must be done with it
00:42:23it will be kept here
00:42:24Mr. Lewis's instructions are very clear on this point
00:42:28Mrs. Gresham
00:42:29the statement is strictly confidential
00:42:32and its existence will be divulged to no others beyond those now in this room
00:42:38Mr. Lewis's instructions are always very clear
00:42:42you
00:43:01you
00:43:03Jack
00:43:04it's after midnight
00:43:06Jack. Jack, it's after midnight. You'd better go.
00:43:15Quiet ride. Pass my bedtime.
00:43:19What will the neighbors think?
00:43:20The worst, I've no doubt.
00:43:23She was on his breast to share the joke.
00:43:27What joke?
00:43:28All the neighbors thinking we're unmarried and up to all sorts of wickedness.
00:43:31We're all the time we're married and up to nothing.
00:43:33Technically married.
00:43:42I should be going.
00:43:44Leaving already?
00:43:54You're a good friend, Joy.
00:43:55So are you, Jack.
00:43:58Jack, you've given me so much. You've got to let me give you something back.
00:44:03Do you know me, Joy?
00:44:09I guess I do.
00:44:10You've got to let me give you something else.
00:44:11I guess I do.
00:44:12I'm sure you've got to let me give you something to the other one.
00:44:15I guess I have to.
00:44:16I guess I have to let you go.
00:44:17I guess I have to.
00:44:18I guess I have to kill you.
00:44:19I guess I have to let you.
00:44:20ORGAN PLAYS
00:44:50ORGAN PLAYS
00:45:20How can a person be fit and active and need a full and vigorous life one minute and then...
00:45:24There had been some pain before.
00:45:26Well, everybody has pain somewhere.
00:45:29Well, that's how it often goes, I'm afraid.
00:45:33Sudden lurches.
00:45:35Sudden lurches?
00:45:37Dear God.
00:45:38How much has she been told?
00:45:45She's been told that the cancer has eaten away her left femur.
00:45:48That she has a malignant tumour in one breast.
00:45:52She knows that it's serious.
00:45:54How could she not know?
00:45:56Her hip bone snapped like a frozen twig.
00:45:58Nobody seems to know what's going on.
00:46:12So, they're going to operate on the broken hip tomorrow.
00:46:18It's not too good.
00:46:19Dear Mr. Lewis...
00:46:23I'm a Jew...
00:46:26I'm divorced...
00:46:27...broke...
00:46:29...and I have cancer.
00:46:32Now, my question is...
00:46:33...do I get a discount?
00:46:44How's the pain?
00:46:46Kind of pushy.
00:46:50Well, don't talk if it hurts.
00:46:54Can you do that later, please, nurse?
00:46:56I've given you 15 minutes already.
00:46:58For be the sake, woman, this is my wife!
00:47:00She wasn't the guilty party in the divorce.
00:47:11Her husband committed adultery with another woman.
00:47:13With several other women.
00:47:15He was violent.
00:47:16He hit the children.
00:47:17It doesn't make any difference towards the guilty party.
00:47:20You know that as well as I do.
00:47:21Harry, she's dying.
00:47:23I'd marry you this lunchtime if it was up to me.
00:47:26A number of things have come clear to me in the past few days, Harry.
00:47:28This is not a certain whim.
00:47:30You know how seriously I take the sacrament of Christian marriage.
00:47:33As it happens, Joy and I are already married in law.
00:47:36To me, that means nothing.
00:47:38I want to marry her before God.
00:47:41I really am sorry, Jack.
00:47:44I just can't do it.
00:47:46The bishop would never give his consent.
00:47:51I'm going to marry her, Harry.
00:47:53I'm going to marry you, Joy.
00:48:04I'm going to marry you before God and the world.
00:48:07You don't have to, Jack.
00:48:08I want to.
00:48:09It is what I want.
00:48:13Make an honest woman of me.
00:48:15Oh, no.
00:48:16No, it's me that's been dishonest.
00:48:17Look what it takes to make me see the truth.
00:48:19Did I ever do it?
00:48:23Don't leave me, Joy.
00:48:24Jack, about marrying.
00:48:42I'll find a way.
00:48:44I promise.
00:48:44Back home, we have a quaint old custom.
00:48:49When the guy wants to marry the girl, he asks her.
00:48:55It's called proposing.
00:48:57It's the same here.
00:49:00Did I miss it?
00:49:05Oh, Joy.
00:49:06Will you marry this foolish, frightened old man
00:49:16who needs you more than he can bear to say
00:49:21and who loves you even though he hardly knows how?
00:49:30Okay.
00:49:33Just this once.
00:49:36There is no time.
00:49:46Time is what we do not have anymore.
00:49:49Look, it's not just for me.
00:49:50She wants the grace of the sacrament.
00:49:54No.
00:49:55No.
00:49:56The cancer has gone too far.
00:50:00We're just praying that the pain goes before the end.
00:50:03Bless you, John.
00:50:14Bless you.
00:50:16Bless you.
00:50:17Bless you.
00:50:17What do you say, nurse?
00:50:36Is the bride allowed to blush a little?
00:50:38To have and to hold from this day forward.
00:50:42To have and to hold from this day forward.
00:50:45For better, for worse.
00:50:47For better, for worse.
00:50:48For richer, for poorer.
00:50:49For richer, for poorer.
00:50:51In sickness and in health.
00:50:52In sickness and in health.
00:50:54To love, cherish and obey.
00:50:56To love, cherish and obey.
00:50:59Till death us do part.
00:51:00Till death us do part.
00:51:01with this ring
00:51:11I thee wed
00:51:14with my body
00:51:17I thee worship
00:51:19with all my worldly goods
00:51:23I thee endure
00:51:24in the name of the Father
00:51:27and of the Son
00:51:28and of the Holy Ghost
00:51:29Amen
00:51:30Those whom God hath joined together
00:51:35let no man put asunder
00:51:36Thank you, John
00:51:40While I'm here
00:51:42perhaps I could say a short prayer of healing
00:51:44Would you object if I laid hands on you, Mrs. Lewis?
00:51:50No, Father
00:51:51Go ahead
00:52:00I knew you'd be here
00:52:08I knew you'd be here
00:52:08What's the book?
00:52:13He's reading the magician's neviu
00:52:25The part where the mother's ill
00:52:26He's reading the magician's neviu
00:52:27The part where the mother's ill
00:52:28He's reading the magician's neviu
00:52:33He's reading the magician's neviu
00:52:37The part where the mother's ill
00:52:39I didn't know what to say
00:52:44Suddenly it flashed upon his mind
00:52:48that there really were other worlds
00:52:49There might be a fruit in some other world
00:52:52that would really cure his mother
00:52:53It just might be true
00:52:54So many odd things had happened already
00:52:57There must be other worlds
00:52:59you could get to
00:53:00through every pool in the wood
00:53:01He could hunt through them all
00:53:03and then
00:53:03Mother well again
00:53:07ez
00:53:24you
00:53:24you
00:53:26You
00:53:28You
00:53:32You
00:53:34You
00:53:37Come along then.
00:53:50The illness makes her very tired. Don't let her talk too much.
00:53:54Wait a minute.
00:53:57She doesn't look too good I'm afraid. Try not to be surprised.
00:54:01She's just the same as she ever was but she hasn't got much strength.
00:54:06All right, off you go.
00:54:16They're almost exactly the age that you and I were.
00:54:20Don't think about it.
00:54:23I never knew what I was supposed to say.
00:54:27What do you say when your mother's dying?
00:54:31Let the axe do the work.
00:54:37Here's a tip for you.
00:54:41Think of someone you hate.
00:54:45You just sit tight for a moment.
00:55:00I tell you there's nothing like dying to make you realize you're not in charge.
00:55:06Yes, there is.
00:55:07Loving someone does that too.
00:55:09Bad.
00:55:10Oh.
00:55:11Bad.
00:55:12Oh.
00:55:13Oh.
00:55:14Oh.
00:55:15Bad.
00:55:16Oh.
00:55:17Oh.
00:55:18Oh.
00:55:19Oh.
00:55:20Oh.
00:55:21Bad.
00:55:22Oh.
00:55:23Oh.
00:55:24Oh.
00:55:25Oh.
00:55:26Oh.
00:55:28Oh.
00:55:29Oh.
00:55:30Oh.
00:55:31Ah.
00:55:32Ah.
00:55:35I can live with it.
00:55:47There we are.
00:56:05But it is better, isn't it? It is an improvement.
00:56:13No, it's not an improvement.
00:56:15It means the spread of the disease is slowing down.
00:56:18But it has been arrested. You said the cancer has been arrested.
00:56:21Mr Lewis, you're looking at a train standing in the station.
00:56:24It may not be moving right now, but trains move. That's how trains are.
00:56:28But it is better, isn't it?
00:56:30Yes, it's better.
00:56:33So, what next?
00:56:35What's a good sign? Just tell me that.
00:56:38People do recover from cancer, don't they?
00:56:41Any sign of returning strength?
00:56:43Any sign that the body is rebuilding the diseased bone?
00:56:48Did you expect her to make it this far?
00:57:03Diggory took the apple of life out of his pocket.
00:57:07You will eat it, won't you please? He said to his mother.
00:57:11He said to the breastplate of death.
00:57:16He said to his mother.
00:57:21He said to him how to clean up his pocket.
00:57:24He said to him how to clean up his pocket.
00:57:28PIANO PLAYS
00:57:58The next morning, when the doctor made his usual visit,
00:58:17Diggory heard him say,
00:58:18It's like a miracle.
00:58:21I wouldn't tell the little boy anything at present.
00:58:24We don't want to raise any false hopes.
00:58:28I must not hope too much.
00:58:31I must not hope too much.
00:58:32Behold a man serenely accepting the will of God.
00:58:35You hope, then you fear, then you hope.
00:58:37It's the sheer helplessness of such torture.
00:58:40Why is it that anything we really need is always just beyond our control?
00:58:43You can pray for it.
00:58:45I pray. I pray all the time.
00:58:47Do you remember once explaining to me about prayer?
00:58:50I was arguing that prayer was not to be relied on for results.
00:58:55You told me that all prayer got results,
00:58:57only they weren't always the results we wanted.
00:59:01What are you talking about, Christopher?
00:59:03I've never seen you really want something before.
00:59:06I was wondering what you'd say if you didn't get it.
00:59:08I can't tell you how long it will last.
00:59:14It could be weeks.
00:59:15It could be years.
00:59:17There's no doubt that, for the moment at least,
00:59:20the cancer is remitting.
00:59:22For such an advanced case, that in itself is remarkable.
00:59:28So long as the remission continues,
00:59:30I see no need to keep your wife in hospital.
00:59:36Right.
00:59:54Well, Mrs Lewis, you can come home.
01:00:00Okay.
01:00:01Bring me my bow of burning gold.
01:00:07Bring me my arrows of desire.
01:00:12Bring me my spear of thousand fold.
01:00:18Ta-ba!
01:00:19Salutare alcom.
01:00:30Good morning.
01:00:49I don't know why.
01:00:50I don't like to think of it as a miracle.
01:00:52Why not?
01:00:53It's a miracle to me.
01:00:54Maybe I feel I don't deserve it.
01:00:57No, it's not that.
01:00:58The truth is, I'm frightened of loving God.
01:01:02He's forgiving you back to me.
01:01:04Where I could just as easily hate God later.
01:01:06Don't be so hard on yourself.
01:01:07Love God now.
01:01:08Later come later.
01:01:09Anyway, your coming back to life is not so big a miracle.
01:01:12What's wrong with it?
01:01:13You leave my miracle alone.
01:01:15You were alive before I wasn't.
01:01:17That is not true.
01:01:20I came alive when I started loving you.
01:01:25Could be a short life, Jack.
01:01:26It's alive.
01:01:28It's alive.
01:01:28It's alive.
01:03:30No one's eyes can see very far beyond that.
01:03:32Watch this.
01:03:54Cockpick.
01:04:00Cockpick.
01:04:02Cockpick.
01:04:04Cockpick.
01:04:06Cockpick.
01:04:12Cockpick.
01:04:14Cockpick.
01:04:16Cockpick.
01:04:26Cockpick.
01:04:28Mr Lewis?
01:04:30Cockpick.
01:04:32Cockpick.
01:04:34Cockpick.
01:04:36Cockpick.
01:04:38Cockpick.
01:04:40Cockpick.
01:04:42Cockpick.
01:04:44Cockpick.
01:04:46Cockpick.
01:04:48I don't mind it for me, I mind it for you.
01:05:08Bad?
01:05:11Bad.
01:05:19Shall I call the hospital?
01:05:26Tomorrow.
01:05:32Jack, is it worth it?
01:05:37As long as we have each other.
01:05:40And afterwards?
01:05:45I may need a bit of help.
01:05:48I love you so much, Joy. I can't bear to see you in pain.
01:05:59But pain doesn't matter.
01:06:06Keeps me quiet. I was always such a noisy woman.
01:06:09When it gets close, you find out whether you really believe or not.
01:06:19This is just shadows.
01:06:25That's what you always say.
01:06:29Real life hasn't begun yet.
01:06:34You just better be right.
01:06:35You better be right.
01:06:36You better be right.
01:07:05Jack!
01:07:06Yes, Douglas?
01:07:18Jack?
01:07:31Yes, Douglas?
01:07:34Is Mommy going to die?
01:07:39She might.
01:07:40We have to be ready for it.
01:07:43Can't you do something?
01:07:47I'm afraid not.
01:07:48You know how frightened everyone is of dying.
01:08:08When it comes to the point,
01:08:12you don't have any choice.
01:08:15It's like
01:08:15being arrested.
01:08:20Might as well go quietly.
01:08:24I don't want you to go, Joy.
01:08:29I try to imagine it.
01:08:33It has to be more than I can imagine.
01:08:36Even more than you can imagine, Jack.
01:08:42Nearly all my stories have been about heaven.
01:08:46I've never stopped trying to imagine heaven.
01:08:49Your pictures of heaven.
01:08:52That was how I came to love you.
01:08:54Even before I met you.
01:09:00But you still love me when you see the real thing.
01:09:06I'm like those foreign correspondents
01:09:08who report the war from the hotel bar.
01:09:11I've never been under fire.
01:09:14I've never been under fire.
01:09:16Your turn will come.
01:09:21When it does, if it's allowed.
01:09:25Will you be there to help me?
01:09:27Let them try and stop me.
01:09:34You're better at this than I am.
01:09:37No.
01:09:40It's always easier for the one who goes first.
01:09:43Not much more to say.
01:10:01I've always been bad with feelings.
01:10:04Talking about feelings, you know, then.
01:10:06I love you, Joy.
01:10:17I love you so much.
01:10:21You've made me so happy.
01:10:25I never thought I could be so happy.
01:10:31You're the truest person I've ever known.
01:10:36I love you, Joy.
01:10:38Sweet Jesus.
01:10:41Be with my beloved wife, Joy.
01:10:47Forgive me for loving her too much.
01:10:51Have mercy on us both.
01:10:58Jack.
01:11:01Go to bed.
01:11:04Get some rest.
01:11:06How's the pain?
01:11:11Not too good.
01:11:18Only shadows, Joy.
01:11:25Only shadows.
01:11:26Shadows.
01:11:363rd.
01:11:474th.
01:11:492nd.
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01:11:503rd.
01:11:512nd.
01:11:512nd.
01:11:523rd.
01:11:532nd.
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01:12:004th.
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01:14:04For as much as it has pleased almighty God, the sovereign Lord of life and death, to take unto himself the soul of the departed, we therefore commit her body to the elements, earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
01:14:23Thank God for your faith, Jack.
01:14:38I thank God for your faith.
01:14:41It's only faith which makes any sense at times like this.
01:14:46No, it won't do, Harry.
01:14:47This is a mess, and that is all there is to it.
01:15:28Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
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01:16:28Nobody told me it felt so like fear
01:16:42I'm not afraid
01:16:44But the sensation is like being afraid
01:16:58What is it you're afraid of, Jack?
01:17:08I'm afraid of never seeing her again
01:17:10I'm afraid of my own grief
01:17:13I'm afraid of thinking that suffering is
01:17:18just suffering after all
01:17:20No cause, no purpose
01:17:24No pattern
01:17:26No sense
01:17:29Just pain in a world of pain
01:17:34Jack
01:18:01About the boys
01:18:02David, he's just angry, that's all right
01:18:09I can understand that
01:18:10But Douglas
01:18:11What about Douglas?
01:18:14Jack, your grief is your own business
01:18:16You feel life is a mess
01:18:19Perhaps it is for you
01:18:20But the boys only ate
01:18:23Talk to him
01:18:28I don't know what to say
01:18:31Just talk to him
01:18:34Warning
01:18:39Why can't I remember her face?
01:18:43Oh, I still believe in God
01:18:54That's not the problem
01:18:57Well, it's sort of a God
01:19:01A loving God
01:19:03It wasn't very loving to Joy
01:19:06We don't know what's best for us, Jack
01:19:09We're not the creator
01:19:11We're the creatures
01:19:14Creatures
01:19:15Harry, I'm thinking the most terrible thoughts
01:19:20What if we're like rats in a laboratory
01:19:24Part of some cosmic experiment
01:19:25For our own good, of course
01:19:28God, the vivisectionist
01:19:31That's your grief talking, Jack
01:19:33What was talking before, my complacency
01:19:36All we can do
01:19:38Is to hold on to our faith
01:19:41Faith in what?
01:19:47I turn to God
01:19:48Now that I really need him
01:19:49And what do I find?
01:19:52A door slammed in my face
01:19:53The sound of boating
01:19:57And double boating
01:19:58After that silence
01:20:03It's like being in prison
01:20:09It's like being in prison
01:20:09It's like being in the silence
01:21:14And for the time he senses that he is not in a dungeon, but in the open air.
01:21:23Nothing in his situation has changed.
01:21:27He still waits in darkness.
01:21:28Only now he knows the unseen world is greater than anything he can imagine.
01:21:35It was then that I remembered her.
01:21:42A true, certain memory.
01:21:44It came the same moment that I sensed the door was neither shut nor bolted.
01:21:51Was it ever shut?
01:21:54Was it bolted on the inside by my own desperate need?
01:21:57They say that a drowning swimmer can't be saved if he is too fearful,
01:22:03because he grabs and clutches his rescuers too tight.
01:22:07I remembered her last night.
01:22:19Make it any easier?
01:22:22Nothing does that.
01:22:24It's still a mess, eh?
01:22:29If you were God and you'd created man and woman, what would you do?
01:22:34Let them love each other and then lose each other.
01:22:41Or keep them safe from both the love and the pain.
01:22:46I'd let them choose for themselves.
01:22:48Yes.
01:22:53You wish you'd chosen differently?
01:22:56No.
01:23:18I loved your mother very much.
01:23:30That's okay.
01:23:33I loved her too much.
01:23:38She knew that.
01:23:41She said to me, is it worth it?
01:23:43She knew how it'd be later.
01:23:55Doesn't seem fair, does it?
01:24:00If you want the love, you have to have the pain.
01:24:07I don't see why she had to get sick.
01:24:13Nor me.
01:24:20You can't hold on to things.
01:24:21You have to let them go.
01:24:33Jack.
01:24:36Yes?
01:24:38Do you believe in heaven?
01:24:43Yes, I believe in heaven.
01:24:47Real life hasn't begun yet.
01:24:51All this is just shadows.
01:24:59I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:00I sure would like to see her again.
01:25:22We need to.
01:25:23We need to.
01:25:30I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:31I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:32I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:33I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:34I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:34I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:35I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:36I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:36I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:37I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:37I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:38I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:38I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:39I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:40I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:40I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:41I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:42I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:43I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:44I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:45I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:46I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:47I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:48I don't believe in heaven.
01:25:49Oh, my God.
01:26:19We could swim here in the summer, maybe.
01:26:29Do you know how to swim?
01:26:31Sure.
01:26:34Do you know how to dive?
01:26:35No.
01:26:37I could teach you.
01:26:39Okay.
01:26:42When the summer comes, we could come back here where the water is deep enough, and I'll teach you how to dive.
01:26:48Okay.
01:26:58See that?
01:26:59I'm improving yours.
01:27:05That's okay.
01:27:06Oh, my God.
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