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Tahara 2020 Full Movie Coming-of-Age Drama
Friendship Tested: Tahara (2020)
A Journey of Self-Discovery Tahara
Tahara (2020) is a coming-of-age drama film directed by Olivia Peace, starring Madeline Grey DeFreece and Rachel Sennott. The story revolves around two best friends, Hannah and Carrie, who attend the funeral of their Hebrew school classmate who died by suicide. As they navigate their grief, their friendship is put to the test, and secrets are revealed, leading to a exploration of their personal identities.
The film seamlessly weaves between live-action and animated footage, showcasing the complexities of teenage relationships and self-discovery. Hannah and Carrie's bond is challenged when Hannah's actions lead to unintended consequences, causing tension and heartache.

Cast: Madeline Grey DeFreece as Carrie Lowstein
Rachel Sennott as Hannah Rosen
Daniel Taveras as Tristan Leibotwitz
Bernadette Quigley as Moreh Klein
Shlomit Azoulay as Elaina Cohen

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00:03:53Gary.
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00:03:55Holy shit.
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00:03:57Trust him.
00:03:58What day he was in our Hebrew school class?
00:03:59He smiled at me.
00:04:01No, he didn't.
00:04:03I was like a dog.
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00:04:07I love you.
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00:04:13It's very awesome.
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00:04:30Um, thanks.
00:04:32You look, I mean, you look like really, really good.
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00:05:52Shalom.
00:05:57Chapter of the book of Psalms.
00:06:02Chapter of the book of Psalms.
00:06:07Chapter of the book of Psalms.
00:06:12Chapter of the book of Psalms.
00:06:42The Lord is in the name of the Lord.
00:06:45The Lord is in the name of the Lord.
00:06:47and that's when we're going to see
00:06:49what's going on
00:08:43Hello, everyone.
00:09:24I had the honor of officiating at the service when she became a bat mitzvah.
00:09:29And I give my condolences to the family.
00:09:32And I, for one.
00:09:34I'm going to miss her very much.
00:09:49I will now recite...
00:09:56In memorial prayer, would you kindly rise?
00:10:34Lord,
00:10:38that does she?
00:10:39You
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00:10:54There will be a luncheon in the pastoral conference room downstairs where they will be collecting
00:10:59Donations for habitat for horses in samantha's honor
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00:11:43Carrie
00:11:44Hannah
00:11:45Oh
00:11:46Thank you so much for coming
00:11:49Of course mrs. Goldstein
00:11:50Yeah of course
00:11:51I haven't seen you since you all were in that
00:11:54Musical
00:11:55Do you remember that?
00:11:56Mm-hmm
00:11:57Oh listen to me of course you remember
00:11:59Samantha loved musicals
00:12:01I don't know if a lot of people knew
00:12:04That
00:12:05She would always sing that Annie song in the shower
00:12:09You know the tomorrow one
00:12:11Tomorrow
00:12:12Yes right
00:12:13That's it
00:12:14Tomorrow
00:12:16She had such a good voice
00:12:19Yeah I remember we were in eighth grade choir together
00:12:23She was
00:12:24So great
00:12:25Yeah she was like really really good
00:12:26Oh that's so nice of you girls to see
00:12:29You know she thought the world of you too
00:12:31Especially you Hannah
00:12:34It was so nice seeing pictures of you two at that big party
00:12:38Totally
00:12:39You look so pretty
00:12:40Thanks
00:12:41Um
00:12:42I
00:12:43You should
00:12:44Probably stop rambling
00:12:45I know Samantha would die of embarrassment
00:12:47If she knew I was carrying on like this
00:12:49I
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00:12:53I'm so
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00:12:54Sorry for your loss Mrs. Goldstein
00:12:56Yeah so sorry
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00:12:59Thank you
00:13:00Thank you girls
00:13:01If you'll excuse me
00:13:02If you'll excuse me
00:13:14What did she mean by that?
00:13:19What?
00:13:20I just didn't know that you and Samantha took a-
00:13:24picture together at Melissa's party.
00:13:26Oh, I don't know.
00:13:27I don't really remember, but I wasn't going to like-
00:13:29cracked her.
00:13:34But-
00:13:35Ugh, I'm starving.
00:13:36I think I'm going to have a bagel.
00:13:37Do you want the other half?
00:13:38No.
00:13:39I don't know.
00:13:40I'm not really hungry.
00:13:41Hmm, your loss.
00:13:43Hi.
00:13:44Ah!
00:13:45Ah!
00:13:46Ah!
00:13:47Can you believe that?
00:13:49It's so sad.
00:13:51Don't they know that Tristan would never go-
00:13:54for any of them.
00:13:55Bad bone structure.
00:13:59Yeah.
00:14:00Yeah.
00:14:01This is so nasty.
00:14:03Ugh, total-
00:14:04It's like, Elena's pretty and everything, but she's not like a real person.
00:14:09I'm going to go get a cup of water.
00:14:14Could you get me some?
00:14:19I'm not working for a while.
00:14:21I'm fishing.
00:14:24I'm fishing.
00:14:27I'm fishing.
00:14:28I'm fishing.
00:14:39I'd really love that.
00:14:42Oh, I'm sure.
00:14:49Thanks.
00:15:03Oh my god, are you crying?
00:15:08What?
00:15:09Your eyes are red.
00:15:10Yeah, because of like air pollution.
00:15:13I don't know.
00:15:14Whatever.
00:15:15Stop eating.
00:15:16I don't know.
00:15:18I don't know.
00:15:19I don't know.
00:15:21I don't know.
00:15:23Do you think Tristan owns that suit?
00:15:26I don't know.
00:15:29It just looks so good on him.
00:15:31Like, he looks really, really good.
00:15:33Yeah.
00:15:35It got hotter, right?
00:15:37Yeah.
00:15:38I guess.
00:15:39You guess?
00:15:42I just don't think...
00:15:44We should be talking about this right now.
00:15:46Why?
00:15:47Because we're...
00:15:48At a funeral service?
00:15:50I didn't even know her that well.
00:15:52She wasn't like my...
00:15:53Baby psych class.
00:15:56Great.
00:15:57She's super sharp.
00:15:58She was...
00:15:58It was nice.
00:15:59We worked on a group project together.
00:16:02Didn't you say you had to do all the...
00:16:04Yeah, no one ever does the work on like a group project.
00:16:06No, I remember you being like really mad because...
00:16:08she said she would help you with the presentation part and then she like totally goes to the studio.
00:16:11I mean, she clearly had other things on her mind.
00:16:13It doesn't matter.
00:16:15I just don't think we should be talking about Tristan's suit right now.
00:16:18Okay?
00:16:19Okay?
00:16:23Are you sure you want a bite?
00:16:27Are you sure you want a bite?
00:16:28Fine.
00:16:31Fine.
00:16:33Fine.
00:16:34Fine.
00:16:35Fine.
00:16:36I'm out of pee.
00:16:38Okay, so let's get started.
00:16:43It's a turkey song.
00:16:46It's a turkey song.
00:16:48That's why I had to quit swim team.
00:16:50Quit swim team because you hated running.
00:16:53Why should I have to run for swim practice?
00:16:56That's unfair.
00:16:58That's stupid.
00:17:01Oh, I'm s***.
00:17:03I'm so bored.
00:17:07I mean, today has been like...
00:17:08So, so sad.
00:17:10But now I just want to go home.
00:17:12I don't want to go to the stupid...
00:17:13Teen Talk back.
00:17:14Those things are always so dumb.
00:17:16I don't know.
00:17:16I feel like the best part of you...
00:17:18That's why it was always the intellectual debates.
00:17:21Uh-huh.
00:17:22That was probably...
00:17:23It's probably hard for you with someone's tongue down your throat the whole time.
00:17:26I find that pretty stimulating, actually.
00:17:28You're so gross.
00:17:30Okay.
00:17:31At least I didn't have Ben Schwartz's hand...
00:17:33Hands down my pants like somebody.
00:17:34Yeah.
00:17:35You had Ben Feldmans.
00:17:37True.
00:17:38At least him stabbing me in the vagina with his boiled fingers was more fun than today.
00:17:43He's like trying to get a peanut out of a tiny bag.
00:17:48I want to hook up with someone who's experienced, like me, you know?
00:17:53You f***ed.
00:17:53I hooked up with, like, three guys.
00:17:55Okay.
00:17:55You've hooked up with one and you kept your jeans on.
00:17:58What?
00:17:58I'm just saying.
00:17:59If this was a competition, I would win.
00:18:01Yeah.
00:18:02I'm sure you would.
00:18:03Okay.
00:18:05Okay.
00:18:08You're welcome.
00:18:13Do you think I'm pretty?
00:18:18Don't be stupid.
00:18:20I think I'm, like, okay looking.
00:18:22I'm not classic.
00:18:23It's basically beautiful or whatever.
00:18:26My nose is weird.
00:18:28Stop it.
00:18:29You're pretty.
00:18:32Would you ever kill your s***?
00:18:34No, I don't think so.
00:18:37Neither would I.
00:18:38But if I did, which I wouldn't, I'd do what Samantha did.
00:18:42Pills are so...
00:18:43I guess you could hang yourself, but that'd be kind of hard.
00:18:48Just letting you rest in a broth tub could be cool, but so emo middle school, you know?
00:18:53Oh.
00:18:55S***.
00:18:59S***.
00:19:01Tiff Concealer.
00:19:04Tiff Concealer.
00:19:06Do you have some?
00:19:07Like, in your...
00:19:08Do you have a purse?
00:19:12For me.
00:19:13Yes.
00:19:14For you.
00:19:16No.
00:19:18Whatever.
00:19:21You can hardly see it anywhere.
00:19:24S***.
00:19:25Do you think I'm just like, anyway?
00:19:27Do you s***?
00:19:28Do you s***?
00:19:28Do you think Tristan's a good kisser?
00:19:30No clue
00:19:32Rachel Feinstein
00:19:33says he's like really good but
00:19:35she's a pathological liar so
00:19:37who knows if that's even true
00:19:38Wait
00:19:40didn't Tristan and
00:19:42Samantha's knock out
00:19:43Oh
00:19:45Yeah I heard about that
00:19:46but then he took Lauren Silverstein to
00:19:48Homecoming
00:19:49I remember seeing them kiss
00:19:50during the slow dance
00:19:52so tragic
00:19:53haha
00:19:58I wonder if I'm a good kisser
00:20:03I thought you were
00:20:05so experienced
00:20:08Well I never like
00:20:09dated anybody
00:20:11Sorry
00:20:13so I haven't exactly had any
00:20:15returning customers
00:20:18I think
00:20:19It does
00:20:20It's gonna be so bad
00:20:21So
00:20:22it's gonna be so cute
00:20:23I like the sauce
00:20:24I'm getting Oczywiście
00:20:25Jen
00:20:27I'm getting irritated
00:20:28I'm gonna wonder if I was
00:20:30a giraffe
00:20:31I'm trying
00:20:32to get that
00:20:33I'm not even a cat
00:20:34I'm just the cat
00:20:35I'm not a cat
00:20:36I'm not a cat
00:20:37I'm not a cat
00:20:38I'm not a cat
00:20:39I'm not a cat
00:20:41I'm not a cat
00:20:43I'm not a cat
00:20:44I'm not a cat
00:20:46I'm not a cat
00:20:47Please, I need to know if I'm like the worst guesser in the world.
00:20:50Okay, I can tell you right now you're
00:20:52probably not the worst kisser in the world.
00:20:55Just pretend I'm like SACOR.
00:20:57Zach Horwitz has back hair.
00:20:59Okay, fine. Pretend I'm someone else.
00:21:02Pretend I'm Mr. Danielson.
00:21:05Stop.
00:21:06I know.
00:21:07I know you think he's so hot when he pours those beakers.
00:21:10Oh, Mr. D.
00:21:12Would you come over here and help me with something?
00:21:14Oops, I dropped the beaker. I know.
00:21:17I know that's a safety hazard.
00:21:18I don't want to kiss Mr. Danielson.
00:21:20And kiss me.
00:21:22No.
00:21:23Come on, just do it. It'll be like a second.
00:21:27Fine.
00:21:33It doesn't count.
00:21:34Yes, it does. You asked me to kiss you so I kissed you.
00:21:37Okay, there's no way you determined anything from that.
00:21:42Okay, fine.
00:21:46Alright, bye.
00:21:47I guess I'll never know if I'm a good kisser or not.
00:21:49And then one day I'll kiss someone and they'll be like,
00:21:51that was awful.
00:21:52And I'll die of shame because my best friend was too-
00:21:57I guess I'll kiss you.
00:21:58What would you like?
00:21:59I'm sorry.
00:22:00You're a good friend.
00:22:01You're a good friend.
00:22:02I'm here.
00:22:03I'm here.
00:22:04I'm here.
00:22:05I'm here.
00:22:06I'm here.
00:22:07I don't know.
00:22:12You
00:22:17How's that?
00:22:22Bad?
00:22:27Okay.
00:22:32Cool.
00:22:35Good.
00:22:37Cool.
00:22:39Thanks.
00:22:42Yeah, totally.
00:22:47Ladies, what did I tell you about being in here?
00:22:50Sorry, Maura Klein.
00:22:51We were just leaving.
00:22:52Good.
00:22:53See you in my classroom in five minutes, correct?
00:22:55Yep.
00:22:56Mm-hmm.
00:22:57Good.
00:22:58Good.
00:22:59Good.
00:23:00Good.
00:23:01Good.
00:23:02Ugh, I can't believe she's the one running the talk back.
00:23:05It's like Hebrew school, but worse.
00:23:07Yeah, I think her real job is in grief counseling.
00:23:10Truly the last person on the planet I'd want-
00:23:12to cancel my grief.
00:23:13Okay.
00:23:14All right, we should probably go.
00:23:16Yeah, yeah.
00:23:17Um, I just-
00:23:19Oh, Grandma.
00:23:20Oh, sorry.
00:23:21Sorry.
00:23:22Okay.
00:23:23Okay.
00:23:25Okay.
00:23:26Okay.
00:23:27Kill me.
00:23:29Okay.
00:23:30Okay.
00:23:31Kill me.
00:23:32Oh, God.
00:23:33Oh, God.
00:23:37Did you see it?
00:23:38Did you see it?
00:23:39Did you see it?
00:23:40You didn't see it?
00:23:41You didn't see it.
00:23:42You have to look with your eyes.
00:23:44You've got two of them.
00:23:45Okay.
00:23:46I'm gonna play it one more time.
00:23:47You just go.
00:23:49Will we get you?
00:23:50There you go.
00:23:51Yeah.
00:23:52I want to come in.
00:23:53You are not too sure if people always wanted to rape.
00:23:56Okay.
00:23:59Take your time.
00:24:00If you like rallying, follow me and leave it at the same time.
00:24:04Because they can.
00:24:09Everyone, please, settle down.
00:24:35Today is a terrible day.
00:24:37But we have this time now.
00:24:42To process what the Jewish tradition teaches us about death so we can...
00:24:47We can grieve and be stronger together.
00:24:51I know this is difficult.
00:24:52I was in a similar situation when I was your age.
00:24:55At that time, I was fighting for Israel.
00:25:00Back then, I saw death around every corner.
00:25:03I was haunted like a phantom.
00:25:05When I slept.
00:25:06When I slept, I dreamt it.
00:25:08When I woke, I saw it.
00:25:10And to see someone so young choose to leave this world of the...
00:25:15living.
00:25:16Well, I cannot explain it.
00:25:20And I cannot justify it.
00:25:21But as the Talmud tells us, we must try to understand.
00:25:25Now...
00:25:29Please take these handouts.
00:25:33I can't talk about the child.
00:25:34I can't even talk about the child.
00:25:35You can't...
00:25:36I can't even talk about the young kids.
00:25:37I can't even talk about the young kids.
00:25:38I don't know.
00:25:39I don't know.
00:25:40I don't know.
00:25:43I don't know.
00:25:44I don't know.
00:25:45I don't know.
00:25:46I don't know.
00:25:48I don't know.
00:25:49I don't know.
00:25:50I don't know.
00:25:51I don't know.
00:25:53I don't know.
00:25:58I would have thought they'd have handouts for them.
00:26:03This is better than the workbooks with the mice on them.
00:26:08Okay.
00:26:12Okay.
00:26:13It's not.
00:26:14Does everyone have one?
00:26:16Good.
00:26:18Who would like to read or laugh?
00:26:20Hmm.
00:26:21He laugh.
00:26:23Death is something that happens to people of all relationships.
00:26:28But in the Jewish faith, there are particular rituals that must be done when someone passes.
00:26:33Rachel Feinstein, please help your friend Rachel.
00:26:38Rachel Grossman.
00:26:39Excuse yourselves if you must.
00:26:41Should I keep going?
00:26:42Um...
00:26:43Would anyone else care to read?
00:26:45Let's have a little fun, shall we?
00:26:48Um...
00:26:49Itzaka.
00:26:50Please, continue.
00:26:53There are many Jewish traditions associated with...
00:26:58With death.
00:26:59Some come right from the Torah, while others...
00:27:03These cultures were developed in Eastern Europe throughout the 19th century.
00:27:06Yes, Ila.
00:27:08Maura Klein, what do you think the great rabbis would specifically say about this?
00:27:13The situation.
00:27:14Interesting question, Hela.
00:27:16I think...
00:27:17I think the great rabbis tell us that in order to understand death, we must...
00:27:22have insightful conversations.
00:27:25We can't express grief with...
00:27:27standard shallow platitudes.
00:27:28Like what we're doing here today.
00:27:29For Samantha.
00:27:32Exactly, Maura.
00:27:33What was that?
00:27:35What was that?
00:27:36What was that?
00:27:37A cough.
00:27:38Did you have something to add, Itzaka?
00:27:41Um...
00:27:42Uh...
00:27:43Yeah.
00:27:44I was wondering...
00:27:47If I should keep reading.
00:27:48I see.
00:27:49Well...
00:27:50Well...
00:27:51Well...
00:27:52Well...
00:27:53Well...
00:27:54Well...
00:27:55It's Mira.
00:27:56Mira.
00:27:57Mira.
00:27:58Some of these traditions include preparing the body...
00:28:00by cleansing it in the ritual act of purification, Tahara, in which the funeral director...
00:28:05or alternatively, a holy society, the Heber Kedisha cleanses the body.
00:28:09In Samantha...
00:28:10In this case, her body would have only been handled by women to make sure it stayed totally
00:28:13pure.
00:28:14But that's...
00:28:15I think Samantha would have liked that.
00:28:16I think Samantha would have liked that.
00:28:17I think Samantha would have liked that.
00:28:20together...
00:28:21I think Samantha would have liked that.
00:28:22And I think Samantha would have liked that.
00:28:23I think Samantha would have liked that.
00:28:24Now, can anyone tell me...
00:28:25Significance of these rituals
00:28:30Come on, I don't want Mira and Hila to do all the talking
00:28:33One of you young scholars must understand
00:28:35Why it's important that the body be pure before burial
00:28:40Fine
00:28:42Mira
00:28:45It's supposed to erase your social status in death
00:28:48Correct
00:28:49The only relationship
00:28:50That matters in the end
00:28:51Is the one you have with Hashem
00:28:53Yes Hila
00:28:55Yeah, just piggybacking off of that
00:28:56I wanted to say how important it is
00:28:58Because it shows no matter how that
00:29:00Bad things are
00:29:01Like if you're dead
00:29:02We always have our faith
00:29:04But we have it
00:29:05When we're alive too
00:29:06Does anyone else want to add to this discussion?
00:29:10Stop
00:29:15Oh my god, Hannah
00:29:17It's Haka
00:29:18Oh my god, Hannah
00:29:19It's Haka
00:29:20Are you alright?
00:29:23Um
00:29:24Yeah
00:29:25Yeah
00:29:26I just
00:29:27I didn't have that much for breakfast
00:29:28It was my fault
00:29:29Sorry
00:29:30Maybe it's time for a break
00:29:31Maybe it's time for a break
00:29:35Haka
00:29:36Please make sure you drink some water
00:29:38And get something to eat
00:29:39We don't need to add
00:29:40To today's tragedy
00:29:41Understood?
00:29:42I'll take care of her
00:29:43Thank you, Haka
00:29:46Hey, are you okay?
00:29:47Totally
00:29:48I just
00:29:49I lost my balance
00:29:50That's all
00:29:50Fine
00:29:51I was like
00:29:52Just
00:29:53I got a mountain
00:29:54You
00:29:55I'm sorry
00:29:56I'm sorry
00:29:57You
00:29:58You
00:29:59You
00:29:59You
00:30:00You
00:30:01You
00:30:03I got
00:30:04I got a mountain
00:30:06You
00:30:07You
00:30:09You
00:30:10You
00:30:11You
00:30:13You
00:30:15You
00:30:16You
00:30:18You
00:30:19You
00:30:20you know satellite thing well I mean according to the video this satellite
00:30:24shut up
00:30:25you shut up why do we never see the boats go lower I wonder if prom is even still going to happen
00:30:30of course it is they wouldn't chance to come over one person if anything they should move it up so we
00:30:35are like making a memorial that's a really good idea
00:30:40I just said prom should be a distraction
00:30:42oh right
00:30:45I just can't believe she won't be there too
00:30:48are you guys close
00:30:50that's too bad
00:30:55up
00:30:56up
00:30:57up
00:30:58up
00:30:59up
00:31:00So, the first thing I'm going to do is I'm going to put in my hand, and I'm going to put in my hand, so I'm going to put in my hand.
00:31:05Hey.
00:31:06I can't watch this fake pity party.
00:31:09Yeah.
00:31:09Yeah, I mean...
00:31:10I can't either.
00:31:12You wanna...
00:31:15What?
00:31:16You know...
00:31:18I could go to the bathroom and...
00:31:20I mean, people are probably gonna be crying in there.
00:31:22Or worse, talking about me.
00:31:25Yeah, probably.
00:31:28We can check and see if it's empty.
00:31:31And if it's empty, we can...
00:31:33What are you talking about?
00:31:34If you have to go to the bathroom...
00:31:35Go to the bathroom and go.
00:31:37Uh, yeah, yeah.
00:31:37I mean, you know, I'd have to go to the bathroom.
00:31:40Okay, then what?
00:31:42Nothing.
00:31:44Nothing.
00:31:45Never mind.
00:31:48Have you seen Tristan?
00:31:50No.
00:31:51I wonder if he went outside.
00:31:53That'd be so like him.
00:31:55It's like 20 degrees out.
00:31:57I know.
00:31:57He's so random.
00:32:00I wonder if I should say something to him so he, like, knows that I'm here.
00:32:03I'm sure he knows you're here.
00:32:05I don't know.
00:32:05I feel like I haven't been very, like, visible.
00:32:08You fell out of your chair, like, two seconds ago.
00:32:10Yeah, that's not the kind of visibility that I want.
00:32:12Plus, I don't think he noticed.
00:32:14He...
00:32:15Definitely saw.
00:32:17I thought you were gonna get, like, a concussion.
00:32:20Yeah, so embarrassing.
00:32:25But...
00:32:25Whatever.
00:32:26I just want him to see me how I want him to.
00:32:29You know how it is.
00:32:31Not really.
00:32:32Like, I want him to see me doing hot stuff.
00:32:35What?
00:32:38Do you know where we could get a popsicle?
00:32:40Kidding.
00:32:42We'll find something else.
00:32:45Or, like...
00:32:49Or, like...
00:32:50Maybe we could practice more.
00:32:55You know, you said you wanted to be, like, a really great kisser.
00:32:58So...
00:32:59Yeah, and now I know that I am.
00:33:00I want him to, like, want me.
00:33:03Like, how do I get somebody to want me?
00:33:05I don't know.
00:33:06I'm sure you'll figure it out.
00:33:08It's, like, my hair.
00:33:10I was gonna straighten it this morning, but I didn't have enough time, and I was gonna mess everything up for me.
00:33:15Where are you going?
00:33:18God.
00:33:20God.
00:33:21God.
00:33:21God.
00:33:22God.
00:33:23God.
00:33:24God.
00:33:25God.
00:33:26God.
00:33:28God.
00:33:29God.
00:33:30God.
00:33:31God.
00:33:33God.
00:33:34God.
00:33:35God.
00:33:36God.
00:33:37God.
00:33:38God.
00:33:39God.
00:33:40God.
00:33:41God.
00:33:42God.
00:33:43God.
00:33:44God.
00:33:45You wait?
00:33:50You wait?
00:33:55I, uh...
00:34:00I don't think we're allowed to smoke in here.
00:34:03It's not smoke.
00:34:06It's a cucumber.
00:34:07It's easily the best flavor, but they don't make it anymore.
00:34:10So my brother has to buy it on eBay.
00:34:15I'm humorless.
00:34:20.
00:34:25Mango's good, too, though.
00:34:30Pfft, pfft, pfft, pfft.
00:34:35I don't want to sit in here.
00:34:40Pfft, pfft.
00:34:45What are you so scared of?
00:34:49Nothing.
00:34:51Damn.
00:34:53I'm bored.
00:34:55Why don't you break me off a little piece of that brownie?
00:35:00I don't know.
00:35:05Dude, you were only supposed to have, like, a tiny butt.
00:35:10My brother got ripped off.
00:35:12These haven't hit yet, they're not going to.
00:35:14Oh, hey.
00:35:15Sorry about your dead girlfriend.
00:35:18Dude, stop it, seriously?
00:35:20What, I was joking.
00:35:21It's not funny.
00:35:22No, it's fine.
00:35:23I mean, she wasn't actually my girlfriend, so...
00:35:25I mean, not anymore.
00:35:26Oh, I'm really sorry, dude.
00:35:28No, I...
00:35:29We didn't actually...
00:35:30We didn't know each other.
00:35:31Yeah, totally.
00:35:32Do you wanna see something cool?
00:35:33Dude, stop.
00:35:34It's fake.
00:35:35I know.
00:35:39Oh, that's good.
00:35:40I know...
00:35:41I know.
00:35:42Stephanie...
00:35:43I don't know.
00:35:44They aren't at that
00:36:01here.
00:36:03I'm going to take a look at it.
00:36:13All right, everyone, please turn over your worksheets.
00:36:18As you can see, it's divided into six panels.
00:36:23Presenting a stage of mourning.
00:36:25I want you to fill in each section without you...
00:36:28Thank you personally for honors, Maggie.
00:36:33Inhale so deeply.
00:36:34One puff of these is like 20 cigarettes.
00:36:36Keep coughing like that.
00:36:38You're basically done.
00:36:48So when did you first start smoking her?
00:36:53Phoebe.
00:36:54This summer.
00:36:55I wanted to impress a boy.
00:36:58Oh, well, it's like super impressive.
00:37:02Do you want...
00:37:03Do you remember Samantha's bat mitzvah?
00:37:05Uh, I don't think I went.
00:37:08Yeah, it was the um, it was the same day as Amy Levy's.
00:37:13I think most people didn't want to go to both.
00:37:15Honestly, most people only wanted to go to Amy's.
00:37:17Yeah.
00:37:18Amy's was at the Planetarium.
00:37:19Yeah, it was cool.
00:37:20And Samantha's was at that like weird hotel.
00:37:23I felt the um, wagon wheel.
00:37:25It was like horse themed.
00:37:29Did you go?
00:37:30To Samantha's?
00:37:31Yeah, I went.
00:37:32My mom made me go.
00:37:33She said I had to go to anyone's bat mitzvah who was in my Hebrew school class.
00:37:36Even if we weren't friends.
00:37:39Plus me and Samantha used to carpool together all the time.
00:37:41She lives like three houses down from me.
00:37:43She lived.
00:37:46She lived.
00:37:48She lived.
00:37:49She lived.
00:37:50I'm really sorry.
00:37:51Yeah.
00:37:53She lived.
00:37:54It was like so sad.
00:37:55It was like all adults.
00:37:58And Samantha's little cousins.
00:37:59And like the DJ kept trying to get people to dance and like.
00:38:03No one did.
00:38:04I mean I left right after the candle ceremony.
00:38:08Which was.
00:38:09Humiliating.
00:38:10Humiliating.
00:38:13But she had a candle for all of her friends and it was just.
00:38:18me.
00:38:19And our other neighbor Kim.
00:38:20Oh my god that sucks.
00:38:23Yeah.
00:38:24Yeah.
00:38:28I wish.
00:38:29I mean I don't know.
00:38:33I know she was weird but like.
00:38:36I wish people cared about her.
00:38:38more.
00:38:41Dude I feel so fake.
00:38:43Yeah.
00:38:44But you two are close right?
00:38:48Uh.
00:38:49I mean not really.
00:38:53Um.
00:38:54In elementary school.
00:38:55Um.
00:38:56In elementary school.
00:38:58We used to like dance together.
00:38:59But.
00:39:00You know like.
00:39:01You know hip hop and jazz.
00:39:03And.
00:39:04Whatever.
00:39:05It was so dumb.
00:39:06I quit when I went to.
00:39:08middle school.
00:39:09Um.
00:39:10So I never really saw her outside of any of that.
00:39:13Except for here.
00:39:14Except for here.
00:39:15I.
00:39:18Um.
00:39:19I don't know.
00:39:20This feels like.
00:39:21Different.
00:39:23Um.
00:39:24Um.
00:39:25So.
00:39:26They weren't really like.
00:39:27Forever.
00:39:28friends.
00:39:29I don't know why.
00:39:31I don't know why.
00:39:33I guess.
00:39:34I guess.
00:39:35I guess.
00:39:36I guess.
00:39:37I do know why.
00:39:38I just never.
00:39:39I just never.
00:39:40Really gave her much of a chance.
00:39:44And.
00:39:45Now.
00:39:46I guess.
00:39:47I never will.
00:39:48Yeah.
00:39:49She like never told anyone anything about herself.
00:39:51Like it was clear she was a total lesbian.
00:39:53Like just come at her.
00:39:54We all see her haircut.
00:39:55No one cares.
00:39:56Yeah.
00:39:58Well.
00:39:59Except for Hannah.
00:40:00But like she didn't feel the same way.
00:40:01So.
00:40:02Mhm.
00:40:03Wait.
00:40:04Wait.
00:40:05What?
00:40:06I mean like I wouldn't want Samantha to ask.
00:40:08me out.
00:40:09But I wouldn't go and tell literally everyone.
00:40:13me out.
00:40:16Ew.
00:40:17Why are you looking at me like that?
00:40:18What?
00:40:19Are you in public?
00:40:20Are you in public?
00:40:21No.
00:40:23I'm in public.
00:40:24Wait.
00:40:25I'm going to tell literally everything.
00:40:26And you know what else is annoying?
00:40:27Why is Melissa being so neat?
00:40:28Why is Melissa being so neat?
00:40:28Like, why are you making today all about you?
00:40:30You know, Samantha was, like, actually my friend.
00:40:32And...
00:40:33And I get that you have things going on with your parents, but like...
00:40:36Samantha's dead.
00:40:38Yeah.
00:40:40Totally.
00:40:41I get it.
00:40:43Okay.
00:40:44Well, I guess the break's almost over.
00:40:47Yeah.
00:40:48This was weird, but fun.
00:40:51I get it.
00:40:52Yeah.
00:40:53Yeah.
00:40:54Yeah.
00:40:56Yeah.
00:40:58Remember that each and every one of you.
00:41:03You should always be here for one another.
00:41:08As the Babylonian Talmud tells us, all Jews are responsible.
00:41:13Tragedy takes a long time to...
00:41:18Thankfully, your faith will guide you through...
00:41:23And so will your community.
00:41:28Did you feel this?
00:41:34I'm sorry.
00:41:35I'm sorry.
00:41:37I'm sorry.
00:41:38I don't know.
00:41:39Okay.
00:41:40Yeah.
00:41:41Yeah.
00:41:43And so, once everyone is finished, we will share our responses.
00:41:48Out loud and see how we can best process our grief.
00:41:51Together.
00:41:53Okay.
00:41:54So, um, this one.
00:41:58Okay.
00:41:59Okay.
00:42:00Sure.
00:42:01No, no.
00:42:02Um, sorry.
00:42:03Hi.
00:42:04Hi.
00:42:05Hi.
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00:42:17Hi.
00:42:18Hi.
00:42:18Yeah.
00:42:23No, no, no.
00:42:24That's pretty much what I did.
00:42:28No!
00:42:31No!
00:42:33How did you film that clip?
00:42:36No, you look like I did.
00:42:38No, no, no, no.
00:42:40No, no, no, no.
00:42:44Amora Klein?
00:42:45Yes, it's okay.
00:42:46Could I use the restroom?
00:42:48We just got back from break.
00:42:50I know, I just thought I felt a little bit of blood on the-
00:42:53So I thought maybe I could ask you if I could go.
00:42:56If not, it's okay.
00:42:57Go.
00:42:58Okay.
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00:44:33I don't know who drew it, obviously.
00:44:36It was worth asking.
00:44:37No!
00:44:38Would anyone else like to share?
00:44:43No.
00:44:44No.
00:44:45No.
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00:44:53You
00:44:58You
00:45:23And I just feel like I really relate to this because I just, the shock and the...
00:45:28That's phase one, like I was at camp and so I just, I was really shocked when I got that...
00:45:33And then there's the sadness part, which I did, but I did it really fast.
00:45:38I really, I think, still stuck in that busyness phase because it...
00:45:43It really just helps me to cope with grief, just keeping busy and like keeping my mind.
00:45:48And I just think that it would be really nice in a year from now to come back and do...
00:45:53Something similar to what we're doing today.
00:45:55I always like the Yehuda for my bubby.
00:45:57She passed...
00:45:58I had to wait three years ago, but I'm still really sad about that.
00:46:00Thank you, Mira.
00:46:02What?
00:46:03What?
00:46:05What?
00:46:07Sorry.
00:46:08I just thought what Mira...
00:46:12I said it's powerful.
00:46:13It's all.
00:46:14Ta-ta.
00:46:15Side seat open.
00:46:20I know, it's fine.
00:46:21It's like looking past your life anymore.
00:46:22The bottle is not perfect.
00:46:23It's definitely so heavy.
00:46:24You can even get to the bottle.
00:46:25I think there's one problem.
00:46:26You can store it.
00:46:27How much is it?
00:46:28I've got to sleep.
00:46:29You can do this for sure.
00:46:30I'm just going to sleep.
00:46:32You can rip it up.
00:46:33You can do it.
00:46:34You can do it now.
00:46:35It's like getting sort ofized.
00:46:37You can't do it now.
00:46:38I'm still gonna try.
00:46:39You can even get to sleep right away.
00:46:41You can do it now.
00:46:43You can, you can do it.
00:46:45So it's going to sleep.
00:46:47You can do it.
00:46:48You can't do it.
00:46:49Do you dare?
00:46:54Um.
00:46:59Okay.
00:47:01Um.
00:47:02I guess I've just been...
00:47:04Thinking.
00:47:05And I realized that none of this...
00:47:09Matters.
00:47:10It doesn't matter.
00:47:12Um.
00:47:13Today...
00:47:14Everything.
00:47:15Like...
00:47:16Like this class thing.
00:47:19I mean, none of us really liked Samantha that much, right?
00:47:23Right?
00:47:24Alayna?
00:47:25I don't know what you're talking about.
00:47:29You said that...
00:47:30None of this really matters.
00:47:31And...
00:47:32You said that...
00:47:33None of this really matters.
00:47:34And it's all fake.
00:47:35And no one really cares that Samantha's dead.
00:47:37Alayna?
00:47:38Do you feel that way?
00:47:39Absolutely not.
00:47:40I never said that.
00:47:42You literally told me, like, an hour...
00:47:44Today is a horrible day.
00:47:46And I don't know why you're lying and making it worse.
00:47:49It's just for everyone.
00:47:50I'm not lying.
00:47:51Maybe we should take a moment.
00:47:52To reflect.
00:47:53I mean, we're...
00:47:54Any of us surprised to find out that it was Samantha?
00:47:58I...
00:47:59None of us did anything to help her because we were all too caught up in our own lives.
00:48:04God, shut up.
00:48:06Hava, please!
00:48:09What?
00:48:10You asked me to be honest.
00:48:11And...
00:48:12I'm just tired of acting...
00:48:14Something like this has some sort of greater meaning.
00:48:16And...
00:48:17And we, like, cared so much.
00:48:19I mean, Samantha killed herself.
00:48:21And nothing that we do here today is going to change that.
00:48:24We lost it.
00:48:25But I think we can have a productive discussion about how you feel.
00:48:29Well, I'm sorry being honest isn't fucking productive.
00:48:34Do you have a worksheet for that?
00:48:36Do you have a worksheet for that?
00:48:37Yes.
00:48:39Well...
00:48:40If you cannot be here today...
00:48:43You...
00:48:44We're free to leave.
00:48:45My ride doesn't get here until five.
00:48:49Then maybe you should go into the hall and call and see if they can come get you earlier.
00:48:54Fine.
00:48:56Fine.
00:48:58Fine.
00:48:59Fine.
00:49:26Fine.
00:49:04Okay, so let's go.
00:49:20Yes, Sadiq.
00:49:21I'm going to use the bathroom.
00:49:23Go.
00:49:24I'm going to use the bathroom.
00:49:28I'm going to use the bathroom.
00:49:30I'm going to use the bathroom.
00:49:34I'm going to use the bathroom.
00:49:36I'm going to use the bathroom.
00:49:38I'm going to use the bathroom.
00:49:40You
00:49:45Now who else would like to share?
00:49:50You
00:49:55You
00:50:00You
00:50:05You
00:50:10You
00:50:15You
00:50:20You
00:50:22You
00:50:25You
00:50:27You
00:50:30You
00:50:35Shabbat Shalom
00:50:40How's everybody doing tonight?
00:50:45You
00:50:50You
00:50:56Oh, um
00:50:57Oh, sorry
00:50:58I didn't
00:50:59Oh, no, no, no
00:51:00Um, it's fine
00:51:01I'm fine
00:51:02Welcome
00:51:03To the
00:51:04Thank you
00:51:05So today's
00:51:09Thank you
00:51:10Crazy boring
00:51:11Right?
00:51:12What do you mean?
00:51:13And, like, really sad, too
00:51:15Yeah
00:51:16I mean
00:51:20It's
00:51:20Especially for you
00:51:21Cause, like
00:51:22You know
00:51:23You
00:51:25I
00:51:27I mean
00:51:28Didn't you and Samantha
00:51:29Used
00:51:30Oh
00:51:31Uh
00:51:32That was
00:51:33Fake
00:51:34Um
00:51:35Topher
00:51:37Topher
00:51:38Made that up as a joke
00:51:39And
00:51:40Cause
00:51:41Cause she's
00:51:42She was the
00:51:43The weird girl who never talked to any of the boys
00:51:45And
00:51:46She was really into yarn
00:51:47And
00:51:48I
00:51:49It was messed up
00:51:50Now
00:51:51It's even more messed up
00:51:52Now
00:51:53It's even more messed up
00:51:55that
00:51:57that sucks, I'm sorry
00:52:00yeah
00:52:02and like, I feel like everyone
00:52:05is looking at me, like I'm like
00:52:06super upset about her dying or whatever
00:52:09and that's not even
00:52:10true, because I
00:52:10that's
00:52:13that's not what I
00:52:15I mean
00:52:18it's shit that she's dead
00:52:20and
00:52:20I guess I should have told them
00:52:22to stop saying
00:52:24all that
00:52:25stuff
00:52:25now this
00:52:30thing
00:52:31so you two weren't close
00:52:34what
00:52:35you and Samantha
00:52:36you weren't close
00:52:37because you didn't know her
00:52:38no
00:52:38no
00:52:40yeah, same
00:52:40wait, didn't you like
00:52:43ask you
00:52:45a few weeks ago
00:52:46I think she
00:52:48thought
00:52:48you were
00:52:50like
00:52:50like a
00:52:51oh my god
00:52:52no
00:52:52that's crazy that you heard that
00:52:55well
00:52:55you posted
00:52:56on
00:52:57right
00:52:58I mean
00:52:58I could have sworn
00:52:59I saw on your
00:53:00st-
00:53:00story that you were
00:53:00I mean
00:53:00like
00:53:01who can remember
00:53:01that was all so long ago
00:53:05I mean
00:53:07I don't think she even meant it
00:53:10yeah
00:53:12well I wouldn't be surprised
00:53:15she never came out
00:53:17out but
00:53:17she never had
00:53:20to you know
00:53:20yeah
00:53:23well
00:53:25I guess I just wasn't
00:53:26that into it
00:53:26sorry
00:53:27because the horses
00:53:30no
00:53:31actually
00:53:33yeah
00:53:33haha
00:53:35no
00:53:35I just
00:53:35I don't know
00:53:38why
00:53:40but at the time
00:53:41it really weirded me out
00:53:43it was
00:53:45like
00:53:45like
00:53:47like
00:53:48maybe she
00:53:50I just really liked you
00:53:55sorry
00:53:55just being honest
00:53:57well it's not like I would never
00:54:00ever do that
00:54:01yeah
00:54:03um
00:54:04have
00:54:05you
00:54:05seen
00:54:06carry around
00:54:06or
00:54:07isn't she just in class
00:54:08oh
00:54:10oh my god
00:54:10she left
00:54:10wait
00:54:12why
00:54:12is she alright
00:54:13I think so
00:54:14I
00:54:14oh my
00:54:15she went
00:54:15off
00:54:16on workline
00:54:17what did she say
00:54:18like
00:54:20just that like
00:54:20today is totally fake
00:54:23quickly
00:54:25which it is
00:54:25I mean
00:54:25I don't know
00:54:26I think she's really cool
00:54:27I think today's fake too
00:54:28yeah
00:54:29like
00:54:30super fake
00:54:30it's like
00:54:31what are we even doing here
00:54:33plus it's like
00:54:34today
00:54:34and then
00:54:35that's it
00:54:35we're all gonna just move on
00:54:37with our lives
00:54:38forget about this tomorrow
00:54:40oh
00:54:40sorry
00:54:45that was
00:54:45like
00:54:45a lot
00:54:50so
00:54:52uh
00:54:53you and carry
00:54:55you guys are my best friends
00:54:57right
00:54:57yeah
00:54:57she's my best friend
00:54:58you
00:55:00so
00:55:04is she like
00:55:05fucking up with
00:55:05anyone
00:55:07right
00:55:08now
00:55:09or
00:55:10um
00:55:11it's not
00:55:11I
00:55:11it's
00:55:12it's not like
00:55:12that big of a
00:55:13it's not a big
00:55:14it's not that
00:55:15big of a deal or anything
00:55:15I just wanted to know
00:55:16if she uh
00:55:17we've made out before
00:55:17yeah
00:55:20we like
00:55:21make out
00:55:22and stuff
00:55:22it's not like
00:55:25a thing
00:55:25you know
00:55:26it's whatever
00:55:26uh
00:55:28oh
00:55:30okay
00:55:30she's a good kisser
00:55:33so am I
00:55:35oh
00:55:36uh
00:55:36cool
00:55:37I
00:55:38I guess
00:55:40we kiss boys too
00:55:41if you're interested
00:55:42oh
00:55:45um
00:55:46I don't
00:55:47I don't
00:55:47I mean like
00:55:47if you wanted
00:55:48a destruction
00:55:48from today
00:55:50you know
00:55:50I was already
00:55:51gonna hang out
00:55:52with Carrie
00:55:52in the library
00:55:53you should join
00:55:55uh
00:55:55now
00:56:00meet me in the library
00:56:01in like
00:56:0110
00:56:02yeah
00:56:06okay
00:56:07um
00:56:07are you sure
00:56:08Hannah
00:56:09are you sure
00:56:09this is like
00:56:09the right time
00:56:10to be
00:56:12ah
00:56:15ah
00:56:15ah
00:56:15ah
00:56:15ah
00:56:16ah
00:56:17You
00:56:22Hannah, are you in here?
00:56:27I'm going to put it in here, so I'm going to put it in here.
00:56:32You
00:56:42I don't know.
00:57:02Hannah?
00:57:31Hey.
00:57:36I was just calling you.
00:57:37Yeah, my phone's off.
00:57:38Where have you been?
00:57:39I had to get some air.
00:57:41Plus, it looks like I'm not the only one who skipped.
00:57:43I was looking for you.
00:57:44That's not what I heard.
00:57:45Why are you being so weird?
00:57:46I'm not being weird.
00:57:48What?
00:57:49You're like...
00:57:50Um, like, gaslighting me.
00:57:53No, I'm not.
00:57:54It's not what...
00:57:55It's not that word, man.
00:57:56Yes, it is.
00:57:56And you are.
00:57:57You're telling me that I'm being weird, but I'm not doing anything.
00:57:59I mean, you're being weird.
00:58:01No, I'm not.
00:58:02Yes, you are.
00:58:02What do you want?
00:58:03I don't want anything from you.
00:58:04Is that being weird?
00:58:09Fine.
00:58:12What?
00:58:14Sorry.
00:58:15Didn't mean to gaslight you again.
00:58:18You're being a bitch.
00:58:19So are you.
00:58:19I don't want anything from you.
00:58:24I don't want anything from you.
00:58:39Why did you leave?
00:58:41I had to get some air.
00:58:42It's a lie.
00:58:44No, it's not.
00:58:44I wasn't feeling well and I had to get some air.
00:58:47Be honest.
00:58:49Fine.
00:58:54I thought we weren't friends anymore and so...
00:58:59I freaked out.
00:59:03You did?
00:59:05Yeah.
00:59:08I just couldn't sit in that classroom anymore.
00:59:09I felt like I was...
00:59:11I told Maura Klein...
00:59:14and I bled all over the seat.
00:59:16I'm sure she loved that.
00:59:19I told my papa...
00:59:23I was afraid.
00:59:24I'm so sorry.
00:59:24I can hear you.
00:59:25I thought, like,
00:59:30weirded you out,
00:59:31so I thought I'd give you some space.
00:59:35Why would you weird me out?
00:59:40I don't know.
00:59:42It was stupid.
00:59:44I'm sorry.
00:59:45It's fine.
00:59:50It's just seeing you hang out with me.
00:59:55Elena kind of freaked me out.
00:59:57She's actually really not that bad.
00:59:59Shut up.
01:00:00She sucks,
01:00:01and nothing you say or do
01:00:02will make me change my mind.
01:00:05She let me hit her vape.
01:00:07Ew, what?
01:00:09Yeah.
01:00:10It was pretty fun.
01:00:12That's so gross.
01:00:15What flavor?
01:00:16Cucumber.
01:00:19Cool.
01:00:20Cool.
01:00:21Cool.
01:00:22Cool.
01:00:23Cool.
01:00:24Cool.
01:00:25Cool.
01:00:30Cool.
01:00:40Today's been, like, so fucked up.
01:00:45I know.
01:00:50I just keep on thinking, like...
01:00:55why she did it.
01:00:58I mean, like, I know it's a stupid question,
01:01:00but, like, why does anyone do that?
01:01:05Sort of thing.
01:01:07What?
01:01:10Kill themselves?
01:01:14I mean, like, yeah.
01:01:15I don't know.
01:01:19I don't know.
01:01:21I think she might have just been depressed, you know?
01:01:24You don't know.
01:01:25I don't know how to answer.
01:01:31We're gonna be okay, though.
01:01:33Nothing's changed between us.
01:01:35I mean, you still want to be my best friend.
01:01:40Right?
01:01:43Yeah.
01:01:44I do.
01:01:46Okay.
01:01:48So there's no problem.
01:01:50I don't know.
01:01:55Um...
01:01:56Samantha had a crush on you?
01:01:59What?
01:02:00Um...
01:02:02Elena told me that...
01:02:03Samantha had a crush on you.
01:02:05crush on you and you told everybody, but you didn't.
01:02:10Why didn't you tell me?
01:02:11Why does that matter?
01:02:12Because I'm your best friend.
01:02:14Why didn't you tell me?
01:02:16Oh, because it was dumb.
01:02:18I was drunk.
01:02:19You were sad.
01:02:20I'm sorry about not being invited to the party.
01:02:22I don't want to hurt your feelings.
01:02:25Well, it kind of makes me feel worse that you didn't tell me.
01:02:29She didn't kill her.
01:02:30I didn't say that she did.
01:02:31Okay.
01:02:32So then why did you ask it like that?
01:02:33I didn't ask her like anything.
01:02:35I didn't make her kill herself.
01:02:37I didn't say that you did.
01:02:38I just.
01:02:39Okay.
01:02:40Okay.
01:02:41So then what were you trying to ask?
01:02:42Nothing.
01:02:43Just.
01:02:44Forget about it.
01:02:45Okay.
01:02:46I will.
01:02:48Okay.
01:02:49I will.
01:02:50Okay.
01:02:51Okay.
01:02:52Okay.
01:02:53Okay.
01:02:54Okay.
01:02:55Okay.
01:02:56I mean, it's like not.
01:03:00On you.
01:03:02I mean, she had other friends.
01:03:05I mean, like, she was invited to the party and I wasn't.
01:03:10I guess.
01:03:15I should have told you.
01:03:16It's just, it was like, it was weird and then she died.
01:03:20It's whatever.
01:03:25I just didn't know what to do.
01:03:28I didn't like her like that, but.
01:03:30She was like a nice person.
01:03:35She was.
01:03:40I hope she doesn't hate me.
01:03:43I don't want anyone to.
01:03:45They hate me, even if they're dead.
01:03:50I don't hate you.
01:03:55I don't hate you.
01:03:56I don't hate you.
01:03:58I don't hate you.
01:04:00I hate you too.
01:04:05Are you going to go back to class?
01:04:08No, I think I want to do something else.
01:04:10Like what?
01:04:11My dad gets here in like 30 minutes.
01:04:14We'll find something.
01:04:15Fun to do.
01:04:17I don't want to like.
01:04:18Lay backwards on the.
01:04:20I don't want to go outside.
01:04:21Neither do I.
01:04:22We're not in fifth grade.
01:04:25I want to do something more adult.
01:04:28Adult?
01:04:30Come on.
01:04:31Trust me.
01:04:32We can't be sad and thinking about this for the rest of our.
01:04:35Our lives.
01:04:36What is it?
01:04:37We'll see.
01:04:40Okay, so what's the surprise?
01:04:46Kiss me.
01:04:48What?
01:04:49Kiss me.
01:04:50Please.
01:04:51I, uh, what the fuck?
01:04:55Kiss me.
01:04:56Kiss me.
01:04:57Kiss me.
01:04:58Kiss me.
01:04:59Kiss me.
01:05:00Kiss me.
01:05:01Kiss me.
01:05:02Kiss me.
01:05:03Kiss me.
01:05:04Kiss me.
01:05:05Kiss me.
01:05:06Kiss me.
01:05:07Kiss me.
01:05:08Kiss me.
01:05:09Kiss me.
01:05:10Kiss me.
01:05:11Kiss me.
01:05:12Kiss me.
01:05:13Kiss me.
01:05:14Kiss me.
01:05:15Kiss me.
01:05:16Kiss me.
01:05:17Kiss me.
01:05:18Kiss me.
01:05:19Kiss me.
01:05:20Kiss me.
01:05:21Kiss me.
01:05:22Kiss me.
01:05:23Kiss me.
01:05:24Kiss me.
01:05:30Uh, hello?
01:05:31Sorry.
01:05:32Sorry.
01:05:33Sorry.
01:05:34I...
01:05:35Hey, Tristan.
01:05:38You know, what is he doing?
01:05:40We're all gonna hang out.
01:05:41Duh.
01:05:42Like we hung out before in the bathroom.
01:05:45What?
01:05:46Come on.
01:05:47Be cool.
01:05:49Uh...
01:05:50Yeah.
01:05:51Yeah.
01:05:52Don't be jealous.
01:05:53I thought we were just...
01:05:54I thought you were just joking and I...
01:05:55I didn't think we were actually going to do this.
01:05:58Why wouldn't we?
01:06:00Can I talk to you for a second?
01:06:03Of course.
01:06:13Bye.
01:06:15Bye.
01:06:16Bye.
01:06:17Bye.
01:06:18Bye.
01:06:20Bye.
01:06:21Bye.
01:06:22Bye.
01:06:23Bye.
01:06:24Bye.
01:06:25Bye.
01:06:25Bye.
01:06:26Bye.
01:06:28Bye.
01:06:29Bye.
01:06:30Bye.
01:06:30Bye.
01:06:32Bye.
01:06:33Bye.
01:06:34Bye.
01:06:35Bye.
01:06:36Bye.
01:06:37Bye.
01:06:38Bye.
01:06:39Bye.
01:06:40Bye.
01:06:40Bye.
01:06:41Bye.
01:06:42Bye.
01:06:43Bye.
01:06:44Bye.
01:06:45Bye.
01:06:46Bye.
01:06:47Bye.
01:06:48Bye.
01:06:49Bye.
01:06:45You know, I'm actually really worried about you.
01:06:48Do I ever want to try this stuff?
01:06:50You can't avoid it forever.
01:06:54Tristan thinks you're-
01:06:55You're so hot and cool.
01:06:57He literally couldn't stop talking about you.
01:06:59You're just saying-
01:07:00You're doing that so you can play out your stupid, gross fantasy.
01:07:02It's fun.
01:07:04You're-
01:07:05You're using me.
01:07:06No, I'm not.
01:07:07Tristan is only doing this because he wants to go with-
01:07:10Because he's so, so into you.
01:07:13Don't overthink this.
01:07:14Let's just do it.
01:07:15Why do you even want to do this?
01:07:17You were like-
01:07:18You were like-
01:07:20In love with him.
01:07:22I mean, we're both gonna, like, be-
01:07:25What if I don't want to?
01:07:27Why wouldn't you want to?
01:07:30Why can't you just hook up with him?
01:07:33I mean, I like it.
01:07:35I really like him, but it's so obvious that he likes you more.
01:07:40So I thought maybe we could share.
01:07:43Share.
01:07:43Got it.
01:07:44It's-
01:07:45It's a fun thing.
01:07:46It's not, like, a serious thing.
01:07:48You want to have sex in our-
01:07:50It's a synagogue.
01:07:50Hook up.
01:07:51Isn't that sex?
01:07:52I don't know.
01:07:52We'll just, like, see what happens.
01:07:54It's-
01:07:55Samantha's funeral.
01:07:56Who cares?
01:07:57She's dead.
01:07:58Plus, her ghost didn't stop you from-
01:08:00Kissing me.
01:08:02That was-
01:08:02That was different.
01:08:05No, it's not.
01:08:07Yes, it is.
01:08:08You've been fucking with my head all the time.
01:08:10No, I haven't.
01:08:11Yes, you have.
01:08:13You know that I like you, and now you're using me so-
01:08:15You can get with Tristan?
01:08:16No, I'm not.
01:08:18I didn't know anything.
01:08:19I-
01:08:19I-
01:08:20I thought you would think this was fun.
01:08:21Stop saying that.
01:08:22This isn't fun.
01:08:23I'm not having fun.
01:08:23I'm not going to have fun.
01:08:24Why-
01:08:25Why did you kiss me in the first place?
01:08:26I told you I wanted to know if I'm a good kisser.
01:08:30Okay.
01:08:34Okay.
01:08:35I-
01:08:36I-
01:08:37I-
01:08:38I-
01:08:39I-
01:08:40Okay.
01:08:42Okay.
01:08:43So do you want to go back?
01:08:45You're so selfish.
01:08:46What?
01:08:49Do you-
01:08:50Do you like me at all?
01:08:51Yes.
01:08:52Of course I like you.
01:08:53I love you.
01:08:54You're my best-
01:08:55You're my best friend.
01:08:55But not more than that.
01:08:59More than-
01:09:00You're my best friend.
01:09:02Like-
01:09:03You and one of a-
01:09:05Do you want to look up with me if Tristan wasn't here?
01:09:08No.
01:09:10Would you?
01:09:12Would you?
01:09:15I mean-
01:09:16I don't know.
01:09:20But you're going to prom with Ben.
01:09:22Just because I'm-
01:09:25Look, I really liked kissing you.
01:09:29And I thought-
01:09:30I thought you liked it, too.
01:09:32Carrie, I don't think of you that way.
01:09:35We're like sisters.
01:09:36We're like closer than sisters.
01:09:37We're like-
01:09:39I don't know.
01:09:40And it's not like I don't think you're pretty.
01:09:42You're smart or whatever.
01:09:43And it's cool if you like me-
01:09:45It's just like I don't like you that way.
01:09:47But it's good if you do.
01:09:50What?
01:09:50What?
01:09:50What?
01:09:50What?
01:09:55Is everything all right?
01:09:59Yeah.
01:10:00Um, everything's great.
01:10:02Right, Carrie?
01:10:05It's nice to see you, Tristan.
01:10:10So-
01:10:15Um, maybe we could hang out.
01:10:19Just-
01:10:20Just the two of us?
01:10:21Is-is she okay?
01:10:23Yeah.
01:10:23She seemed really upset.
01:10:25Oh, yeah.
01:10:26She's fine.
01:10:26It's a long day.
01:10:27Did she know this was gonna happen?
01:10:29Or-
01:10:30Totally.
01:10:31She just like gets like that sometimes.
01:10:33Oh, my God.
01:10:34I feel-
01:10:35I feel so bad.
01:10:35I-
01:10:36Don't.
01:10:37Don't.
01:10:37I mean-
01:10:40Maybe I can make it up to you.
01:10:42Um, my mom works late, so-
01:10:45I have a house to-
01:10:46What?
01:10:46My house.
01:10:47Or myself.
01:10:48What?
01:10:49Are you serious?
01:10:50Right now?
01:10:50That-
01:10:51Yeah.
01:10:51I mean, totally.
01:10:52I thought we were just gonna hang out.
01:10:53I didn't-
01:10:54Think-
01:10:55Think you actually wanted to do-
01:10:56I thought it would be-
01:10:57What the fuck is wrong with you?
01:11:00Look, I'm not interested in you at all.
01:11:05Fuck.
01:11:07I-
01:11:07I'm sorry.
01:11:08I gotta go.
01:11:09This is-
01:11:10It's really not a big deal.
01:11:15Okay, see you around.
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