00:00I was the only witness. I was so afraid for my life. I couldn't sleep, couldn't leave the house.
00:05I was a dancer. I was making $10,000, $15,000 a month, sometimes 30. Three years ago on October
00:139th, my boyfriend and I had just moved in with each other. That same night, we went out to
00:17celebrate and he was... Unfortunately, that incident set off a chain of events that would
00:22forever change her life. Two hours later, 20 members of his family kicked in the doors to
00:27our new home and drug me out of bed by my hair and physically f***ed me. These two incidents
00:32completely altered the trajectory of my life as I knew it. Ever since then, my life has
00:38been... I have not been able to accomplish or do anything that I've wanted to do. Because
00:45of that immense compound trauma, I wasn't able to leave the house. And her situation only
00:50grew worse with no light at the end of the dark tunnel. Five days later, moved into my sister's
00:56on her sofa for two years. I lost 14 pounds in the first five days. I couldn't eat, I couldn't
01:03sleep, I couldn't leave the house. I was so afraid for my life. I started getting threats
01:10almost instantly after that happened. I was one of two witnesses, but the other witness
01:15that was there had his back turned at the time, so I was the only witness. I had to sleep
01:20put the lights on for two years. And I used to jam a chair up under the door handle.
01:27The trauma of that day left her shattered, triggering a rapid decline in her mental health.
01:31I started therapy two weeks after my boyfriend's. I've been in therapy ever since. I see a psychiatrist
01:37for my medication management once a month and my therapist. October of 2022, I went to inpatient
01:46trauma treatment center. I only had my phone two days a week for 30 minutes each day. We had 40 hours
01:53a week of therapy that was very, very intense. And that's where I also did ART. After spending weeks
02:02recovering, she finally got out. But life continued to challenge her. I checked out of rehab in December
02:09seven. We thought that life was going to be really easy. But what I didn't take into account was that
02:15I was living on a compound where we were all locked in. I knew everybody there coming back out into like
02:23the big world was just very scary for me, very triggering. I had a really bad panic trying to go
02:30to the grocery store. Despite everything she had been through, she found the courage to share her story
02:34with the world online. I've documented my journey over the last three years pretty heavily. I had
02:40people from Dr. Phil reach out. I also had many reach out to me asking for guidance and help. And
02:47I was glad that I was in the position or had the experience to help you guys. Helping others cope with
02:53their grief has allowed her to heal and regain control over her life. We wish her all the best as
02:59she continues to heal.
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