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00:10A few weeks ago, I achieved my lifelong dream, winning the cup.
00:21For those of you who've done that know how it feels.
00:25I don't even think I have the words to describe it.
00:30But something else happened that night.
00:34Something you may have noticed got a lot more attention than the Admirals winning the cup.
00:44It's been an interesting month.
00:49In case you missed it somehow, I came out as gay in a ridiculously public way.
00:56And I've always been a private person.
00:58I've never really shared anything about my private life.
01:03But from what I've seen over the past few weeks, it's maybe important that I do a bit.
01:10Fans have been sending me messages.
01:13And a lot of young fans.
01:16Telling me how much it meant to them for me to come out.
01:21And look, I love hockey.
01:23I'm so grateful that I get to do this for a living.
01:29But I also know what it feels like to not fit in.
01:31When I was a teenager, I realized that I may be that thing that hockey players like to throw around as an insult.
01:47The kind of language that I heard on the ice and in the locker room every day was a constant reminder that I was different.
01:51When you have a secret that you work as hard as I did to protect, it's exhausting.
02:02It's a non-stop effort.
02:06And it's also really, really lonely.
02:14Thankfully, I found the person who changes everything.
02:19And he gave me the confidence and strength and the need to be honest about who I am.
02:25Fear is a powerful thing.
02:33But then I found the one thing that is more powerful.
02:39So I share this honor with my teammates and my coaches.
02:43But I also share it with you, Kip.
02:47You have made me better in every conceivable way.
02:53I love you.
03:25Is this a jeep?
03:29No, it's British.
03:32Practical.
03:33Good in the snow.
03:35Okay.
03:35It's British.
03:49It's always hot with us.
03:51Are you hungry?
04:11It's about a two-hour drive, but we can stop for something if you want.
04:14No, I'm okay.
04:19I think you're gonna like the cottage.
04:21It's relaxing.
04:24Is that what we're going to do? Relax?
04:28I hope so.
04:31I would like to relax with you.
04:34For once.
04:39I bought groceries, so we don't need to leave.
04:43Or not leave much.
04:46If we don't want to.
04:47Thank you for inviting me.
04:51I'm glad you're here.
04:57Me too, but also like terrified, yes.
05:02Did anyone recognize you at the airport or anything?
05:16No, no.
05:17Not that I noticed.
05:19Cool.
05:19The cottage is super private, so you don't need to worry about anything.
05:26Not even your parents?
05:28No.
05:29I told them I was on a silent retreat, like a meditation.
05:33What?
05:34Does that sound fake?
05:35Yes.
05:35It would, if it was anyone but you.
05:40I can carry my own bag.
06:01How are your ribs?
06:03Fine, I can take my bag.
06:06I can't believe you played with those bruised ribs.
06:09Oh, you can't.
06:11Okay, maybe I can.
06:12Wow.
06:25Wow.
06:27Your real estate fetish really paid off, huh?
06:29I didn't buy this.
06:34I had a bill.
06:36Oh, I know.
06:43I can give you a tour, if you'd like, or I could make us some lunch.
06:48There's plenty of food.
06:49Also, I bought you Cokes, so the water here is really good.
06:55I have my own well.
06:57You can see it.
07:00In case you're thirsty.
07:01Okay.
07:19Wait, um, it's been a while, so I might not last.
07:49Yes, same, but we have two weeks.
07:51Yeah, cool.
07:53Wait, um, same?
07:56Hmm.
07:58You said same.
08:00You haven't been with anyone lately?
08:02No.
08:04Not since.
08:06No, not since.
08:07So can we?
08:08Really?
08:10Really?
08:11Oh, it's not a big deal, okay?
08:14Yeah, but it's been months.
08:17Yes, I know.
08:17So can we fuck now, please?
08:19I haven't either.
08:23Not since the last time.
08:24I have an idea.
08:39For the next two weeks, let's just be honest with each other about what we actually think
08:54and maybe how we really feel.
08:57I will try.
09:01I will try.
09:03Really?
09:04Yes.
09:05I will do anything if it will make you touch my dick, Claremont.
09:10Should I show you to your room?
09:11There's two guest rooms downstairs, so plenty to choose from.
09:17I will need the king-size bed.
09:19They all have a king-size bed.
09:21And the view.
09:22They all have a view.
09:24And they will need the, what do you call, an ensuite bedroom.
09:28Well, that might be a problem.
09:31I'm always dead.
09:32There's only one of the non-suite.
09:34That's fine.
09:34This is awkward.
09:47This room isn't available to the guests.
09:50Disappointing.
09:51I'm sorry, sir.
09:52We'd really like to accommodate you, but...
09:54Sir, I'm just a bellboy.
09:57You can't treat the staff like this, please.
09:58Oh, I think I know how the staff likes to be treated.
10:01I feel like it's leaves.
10:09Wait.
10:10Wait, wait, wait.
10:11What's the matter?
10:21I heard no.
10:24I heard no.
10:54Why are you making so many burgers?
11:08The recipe was for eight, so...
11:10Okay, you cut it in half.
11:12What, you can't do math?
11:14Leave me alone.
11:17No.
11:18No.
11:18No.
11:24Okay, fine.
11:29I should have cut it in half.
11:33Ordinarily, I would just give the rest of my parents, but that would probably ruin my whole silent retreat lie, I guess.
11:37Yuna and David, yes?
11:41Mm-hmm.
11:45And?
11:48And what?
11:50Tell me about them.
11:52What do you want to know?
11:53I don't know.
11:57I don't know anything.
11:58I don't know your mother is Japanese or something.
12:03Probably where you get your looks.
12:05Half of them, yeah.
12:07And your dad is, what, boring?
12:10Is that where you get your boring from?
12:12He's not boring.
12:12So it's exciting, reading The New Yorker.
12:17He's normal, okay?
12:19He works for the Treasury Board of Canada.
12:22Crazy.
12:23Fuck you, he played hockey for McGill.
12:25Whoa.
12:27McGill?
12:29What the fuck is McGill?
12:30Is McGill at that?
12:31It's a really good school.
12:33My parents are great.
12:36Do they know?
12:39About you?
12:40Of course not.
12:41No, about you.
12:45No.
12:46Would they not be good about it?
12:51I don't know.
12:53I mean, no, they'd be fine.
12:55I'm sure they would be, but...
12:57I don't know.
12:59We haven't talked about it.
13:05Sometimes I think I would have told them already.
13:11Oh, this is my fault.
13:18No.
13:20I mean, yeah, kind of.
13:26What?
13:26I think you can tell your parents you're gay without giving them a list of all the guys you're fucking...
13:32I know, I know.
13:35Anyways, it just doesn't really matter.
13:38You done?
13:38Yeah.
13:39Nice, right?
13:40Nice, right?
13:55So we just sit here and look at it?
13:57Canada is fun.
13:59Shut up.
14:00It was just Rose.
14:01Just Rose.
14:03Just Rose.
14:04Just Rose.
14:05Just checking in.
14:05You're not jealous, are you?
14:07No.
14:08Ilya, I'm gay.
14:17You're not so gay you can fuck Rose Landry.
14:22Oh, my God.
14:22It was like twice.
14:23And both times were complete disasters.
14:29fuck Rose Landry oh my god it was like twice and both times were complete
14:34disasters I'm not sure she's looking for repeat performance oh disaster is like
14:38how I'm not going into details what the fuck was that alone of what alone is it's
14:49a bird sounds like a fucking wolf it's a bird trust me you're so scared what kind
14:56of a bird makes a noise like that alone a fucking wolf stupid Canadian wolf bird
15:10oh so now you speak bird too fluent I hate you no you don't
15:26have you talked to your brother lately
15:29is that a good thing
15:36probably I don't know
15:40I'm sorry about your family even if they suck you must miss them
15:48my mother didn't suck she was great how did she die by accident
16:03she accidentally swallowed a whole bottle of pills
16:09I don't want you to think she was weak I don't she wasn't
16:37she was so funny and beautiful
16:41she was so sad
16:46and my dad was so hard on her
16:51and
16:52motherfucker
16:55do you want to go inside
17:09no
17:12good morning
17:34good morning
17:36I like you
17:40you can't pick Montreal yes I can I've always wondered what it would be like to be a metro you know historically they're the best team in sport that
18:10better than the fucking Yankee
18:11oh I know so
18:12well I'm gonna be Boston
18:13good choice
18:14well I'm gonna fucking kill you
18:16I am you
18:18well you're not anything
18:20I'm undercover of the fucking game
18:23oh fuck it's hated
18:28he just had a baby I haven't talked to him in weeks
18:31you're a baby
18:34hey buddy
18:35hey buddy
18:36yeah
18:37how's um
18:39I know I'm so sorry
18:40but how's Amber right
18:42how is she
18:43oh yeah the pics are cute
18:48oh good good
18:50and then Jackie's good too
18:51is it
18:54better than
18:55yeah no I remember that
18:59that was a tough time
19:00sorry hey just um
19:04my mom's under the line
19:05just come just get rid of her
19:06okay
19:07what are you doing
19:09I think you know
19:10please stop
19:12I don't think it's what you want
19:15later
19:16okay
19:17okay
19:19I make you a deal
19:20I won't touch you
19:22but if you get hard
19:23I won't get hard
19:24okay so no problem then
19:25yeah
19:27Shane
19:29sorry man
19:35yeah my mom is so annoying sometimes
19:36sorry you were saying
19:38oh right
19:40yeah yeah
19:41Mark
19:41and that's her
19:42middle brother
19:43brother-in-law
19:46right
19:47but he's the one
19:49got it right
19:51yeah from Thanksgiving
19:52yeah
19:59yeah he's great
20:00uh
20:02well that's nice
20:04if he could come and stay
20:05cool cool
20:12yeah yeah
20:12that makes sense
20:13uh no
20:17nothing much here
20:18the headaches are better
20:19fuck
20:21no
20:22no
20:22sorry
20:23just a text
20:23totally
20:25yeah
20:27totally
20:27totally clear
20:28so
20:28all's well there
20:30geez
20:32sorry
20:33hey
20:34one second
20:34sorry man
20:56I just had to run
20:57someone's at the door
20:57fuck
20:59no
21:00it's just
21:01just Amazon
21:02but I'll call you next week
21:04and
21:04yeah
21:06yeah
21:06so
21:07totally
21:08and
21:09alright
21:11yes
21:11love you man
21:12and you're my best to Jackie and the kids
21:13fuck you
21:17fuck you
21:19why was that so hard
21:21because you like to be bad
21:23that's not what this is
21:31you and me
21:33maybe it was a first
21:36but
21:36not now
21:38and
21:39not for a long time
21:40so you love Hayden
21:45alright
21:45so I was thinking I'm a free agent next season
21:56yeah
21:58you want to resign with Boston
22:01then where
22:09I don't know
22:10I was thinking maybe Canadian team
22:12not Montreal
22:17no I mean
22:18I know
22:19but I would
22:21love to not have a Russian passport
22:23I could marry Svetlana
22:41she's American
22:44would be easy citizenship
22:46she would do it
22:48her father is
22:52goalie Sergei Vitrov
22:53yeah you've told me
22:54she would help me
22:56but
23:01is she
23:03I don't know
23:04someone you want to marry
23:05we were friends
23:07we would be fine
23:07and it would be for the passport
23:11okay
23:15but
23:16but what
23:18but you like women
23:22right
23:23you could find someone you
23:26want to marry for real
23:29and still get the passport
23:31maybe but
23:35but what
23:38I have this problem
23:40what's the problem
23:44I like women yes
23:49yeah I know
23:50and everywhere I go
23:52I'm surrounded by beautiful women
23:54and they love me
23:55sounds rough
23:57yes it is
23:58listen
23:59and these women
24:01they're so
24:02sexy
24:03and fun
24:04but I'm always thinking
24:08about this
24:10slow fucking hockey player
24:12with beautiful freckles
24:13and a weak backhand
24:18a weak backhand
24:19yes
24:19very weak
24:20and he's so boring
24:22and he drives this terrible car
24:24it's a normal car
24:25I am always wishing
24:27that these women were him
24:29it's a terrible problem
24:33do you want that problem
24:41to go away
24:41I don't ever want that problem
24:48to ever go away
24:49don't marry Solana
24:57just don't
25:00I know it wouldn't be
25:03for love
25:03or whatever
25:04just don't
25:07we can figure something else out
25:11okay
25:12okay
25:15let's go away
25:46I have another idea.
25:49What idea? What is happening?
25:53What if you played in Ottawa?
25:56Ottawa is the same division as Boston. We're still rivals.
25:59Okay, but listen.
26:01First off, super close by.
26:04Second, Ottawa needs a star center, and they're nowhere near their cap, so they can definitely afford you.
26:09And maybe we could start to change the narrative a bit.
26:13But...
26:13Hollander, I just woke up. What is the narrative?
26:17Boston and Montreal. That's intense. Everyone knows that.
26:20But Montreal and Ottawa...
26:22And look, lots of guys have friends on other teams.
26:25They're not rookies anymore. They're younger guys coming in, frothing at the mouth.
26:29Let them hate each other.
26:31We don't need to keep this up until we retire, do we? We're not fucking wrestlers.
26:35Hollander, Hollander, okay, it's very late, and this is who you were.
26:39What are you getting at?
26:40We do play for Ottawa.
26:43I play for Montreal.
26:46Okay, we're only two hours apart, and we start a charity.
26:50Something that, you know, we both care about.
26:53And we come up with a story like I approached you.
26:56And where I approached you?
26:57Fine, sure.
26:58And we tell the press and everyone that by working on this cause that we both love, that we developed a mutual respect for one another, and, um, yeah.
27:09And if we like sucking each other's dicks, any questions?
27:14Fuck off. This is a good idea, Rosemouth.
27:19Okay. Okay.
27:21It's not bad.
27:22So we start the charity.
27:24Yeah, and it wouldn't be bullshit either.
27:26Like, we can really start a charity.
27:28Something cool that means a lot to both of us.
27:30And, you know, we still play hard against each other on the ice.
27:36Shut up.
27:40And then if people saw us out in public or whatever, it wouldn't be so fucking crazy.
27:45And we're only two hours apart, all year round.
27:52We'll apply for, like, citizenship here in Canada.
27:56And maybe, one day when we both retire, we could be together.
28:04For real.
28:10You really think that's what I hate to wonder?
28:15I do.
28:18About this.
28:23And is that what you want?
28:25To be together?
28:29So much.
28:31So much it scares me.
28:43Hey.
28:45I love you.
29:05Holy shit.
29:09I mean...
29:10I love you, too.
29:11I love you, too.
29:15Fuck off.
29:18Oh, my God.
29:19I love you so much.
29:21I love you.
29:32Does it...
29:33Does it fucking kill you, too?
29:40What do you want?
29:41I love you.
29:51I love you.
30:06You love you, too.
30:07Bye.
30:07Bye.
30:08Bye.
30:09Bye.
30:40How did we let this happen?
31:00We were both very stupid and irresponsible.
31:06This is real though, right?
31:08Mm-hmm.
31:10Please fuck me.
31:15Please fuck me.
31:21Oh, my God.
31:51Oh, my God.
32:21And suicide prevention.
32:27It was just an idea.
32:34She would have loved you.
32:40Like I love you.
32:41Say it again in Russian, please.
32:53Yeah.
32:55Yeah.
32:57I love you.
33:11Is this where you do yoga, or up there?
33:22No, I do it inside.
33:24The producer wanted me.
33:26Wait, you saw that?
33:28Yeah, it was very good.
33:30I needed help sleeping, so...
33:32You're an asshole.
33:35How's the water?
33:37You're in it.
33:38Yeah, but I want to know how you like it.
33:41Oh, fuck you.
33:43What if my phone was in my pocket?
33:45Hey, it's not.
33:46You left it on the table.
33:46It's been ringing all morning.
33:51I'm still an asshole.
33:57Give me a kiss.
33:58You're cold.
34:04Do you want pasta from last night or hot dogs?
34:06Pork bugs.
34:07Okay, they're going to have to defrost a bit.
34:09That was a wee of a little time.
34:10Maybe.
34:12What do you have in mind?
34:13Nothing that will take too long.
34:26Oh, fuck.
34:28Maybe you should...
34:28Yeah, yeah, yeah.
34:31Do you want me to...
34:31No, no.
34:32Fuck.
34:45Fuck.
34:45Fuck.
34:45Fuck.
34:46Fuck.
34:46Fuck.
34:47Fuck. Fuck, this is a fucking nightmare.
35:04Shit.
35:05Oh, fuck, this is a fucking nightmare.
35:08Oh, what the fuck am I supposed to do?
35:11Well, you should go talk to him.
35:14Yeah, what if you don't want to talk to me?
35:16What if...
35:17Fuck, my mom.
35:19Hey, hey, hey, they will talk to you.
35:22I fucking lied to them.
35:24For so many years, I fucking lied to them,
35:26and now my dad just walks in on me.
35:29This, this is my fucking nightmare.
35:32This is my actual fucking nightmare, Ilya.
35:34Okay.
35:37Then maybe it's time to wake up, yes?
35:45Fuck, I'm scared.
35:48Yes, it's scary.
35:50But you're brave.
35:52Shut up.
35:53No, you're brave.
35:55I don't feel like I'm gonna die.
36:01So much for eating them into it.
36:04Maybe, maybe he didn't even know this.
36:07Mm-hmm.
36:13Okay.
36:14I'm gonna get changed.
36:17I'm gonna drive over.
36:20And then...
36:22And then, fuck, what am I gonna say?
36:25Do you want me to come with you?
36:29Or do you?
36:30No, of course.
36:34Okay.
36:36Okay, okay.
36:53That is not gonna help.
36:56Oh, they don't know I play for Boston.
37:00Oh, it's not gonna have that.
37:01I want to give you my phone to go.
37:02And then, happen to me.
37:03I'll have to be done.
37:04Okay.
37:05What the shit?
37:07I won't have to do to do it.
37:15I'll have to do it.
37:18And then, go, I'll have to do it.
37:20What?
37:23I won't have to do it.
37:26Oh, my God.
37:27I won't have to do it.
37:28Oh, my God.
37:29What?
37:29I won't have to do it.
37:29I won't have to do it.
37:30Yeah, maybe you should wait in the car.
37:34Okay, never mind, sorry.
37:50It's me, Shane.
37:54Hi.
37:56I left my charger at your place, and it's the old one that fits into my phone, and all the other chargers we have are newer, so...
38:03It's okay, Dad. I'm sorry you shouldn't have found out that way.
38:09Found out what, exactly?
38:13I'm gay.
38:15Wish I was gonna tell you soon.
38:18I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner.
38:21Yeah, and this is Ilya.
38:24Rosanoff.
38:26But you already know that.
38:28Right.
38:30He's visiting and we're, um...
38:34Lovers.
38:35No, Ilya, that's gross.
38:38But you hate him.
38:40No.
38:42I mean, I get that, but no.
38:44I actually, uh...
38:47I love him.
38:52Puzzin, I want this to be honest with you.
38:55Uh, I'm sorry.
38:56All right.
38:59Can we just sit down, please?
39:03Here.
39:07I think we thought maybe you were gay.
39:12You did.
39:13I think we thought it was certainly possible.
39:16For how long?
39:18For a while, I guess.
39:20Yes.
39:21We both know you pretty well, Shane.
39:23I mean, what we did not suspect was that you were so friendly with Rosanoff.
39:30Ilya.
39:31Ilya.
39:32Sorry.
39:33I know.
39:34It's a long story.
39:38When did this happen?
39:44Wait.
39:45The all-star game.
39:48You two had so much chemistry.
39:53No, it was before then.
39:57Wow.
39:59Well.
40:00Wow.
40:04So, when?
40:09Since our, uh, rookie season.
40:11Since your rookie season?
40:12No, it's not true.
40:13Since before that.
40:14Not helpful.
40:15Before?
40:16Somewhere before.
40:19So, you've been in love since...
40:21No.
40:22Oh, no.
40:23No, no, no, no, no, no.
40:24No.
40:25No.
40:26Just, uh...
40:28Just what?
40:30Um...
40:31Just...
40:32Just...
40:34Just...
40:35Just...
40:36Oh.
40:37Okay.
40:38Just what?
40:40Lovers.
40:41Okay.
40:42No one is allowed to use that word again.
40:44Well...
40:46I would love a drink.
40:53And there were no nice men in Montreal?
40:55I don't know.
40:56Probably there were.
41:00And do your teammates know?
41:01No.
41:02Nobody knows.
41:04I mean...
41:05This could welcome.
41:06Thanks.
41:07I tried to buy the Russian stuff.
41:08Mm.
41:11You never...
41:12I mean, you...
41:13You never let him win, did you, Shane?
41:15What?
41:17Do you let Dad win the cards?
41:18I'd rather die.
41:19Same here.
41:20All right.
41:21So, is your plan to...
41:23What?
41:24Just keep doing this in secret until you both retire, or...?
41:32Probably.
41:33I...
41:34I don't know.
41:36Probably, yes.
41:38I don't know.
41:39That's sad.
41:42I don't know who would know.
41:45We just can't...
41:47Come out and, like, announce it.
41:57Ilya, I gotta say, I'm surprised.
42:00You have such a reputation as a ladies' man.
42:04It's not untrue.
42:08Ilya likes both.
42:10Oh.
42:12It's true, I've been with many women, but...
42:17I have only been in love with one person.
42:23Same here.
42:24Only one.
42:25Come on.
42:38Come on.
42:39Come on.
42:40Just a minute.
42:41Come on.
42:56Hey.
42:57Hi.
43:00Mom, um...
43:01I need you to know that...
43:16I did really try.
43:19I tried really hard, but, um...
43:21I just can't help it.
43:23I...
43:24I'm sorry.
43:25I...
43:26Oh, no.
43:27You have nothing.
43:28Nothing to apologize for.
43:29Look at...
43:30Look at me.
43:31Look at me.
43:32Look at me.
43:33Look at me.
43:35I'm sorry.
43:37I'm sorry.
43:38I'm sorry.
43:39I'm sorry that I made you feel like you couldn't tell me.
43:42I'm sorry that I made you feel like you couldn't tell me.
43:46Hey.
44:04Hey.
44:06I'm so, so proud of you.
44:10Hey.
44:12Hey.
44:13I'm so, so proud of you.
44:18Okay.
44:22Please forgive me.
44:32I forgive you, Mom.
44:40I love you.
44:41Oh, I love you, too.
44:47So much.
44:55You okay?
44:59Yeah.
45:03All right.
45:05Okay.
45:05Okay.
45:08Okay.
45:10Okay, okay.
45:11Enough.
45:14All right, what's the plan?
45:21We need a statement prepared in case anything leaks.
45:24Something classy and simple.
45:25Mom.
45:26And I'm going to quietly reach out to the premium brands, or maybe just Reebok and Rolex
45:31and Speedo.
45:32They're going to be thrilled, I think, once they wrap their minds around this.
45:35There's a world of opportunity here, if they do it right.
45:37Mom, can we just take three steps back, please?
45:40I'm not going to come out or anything yet.
45:43We just want a future, I don't know.
45:48You play in Ottawa?
45:54Yes.
45:56We would be closer and with the charity.
45:59And you have no loyalty to Boston?
46:00Jesus, Mom.
46:01What?
46:02They drafted him.
46:03You would leave Boston for Shane?
46:06Yes.
46:08Mom?
46:10Loyalty is important.
46:11He's trying to be loyal to me, not Boston.
46:13Well.
46:14My mom cares a little too much about hockey.
46:16No, she where you get it from.
46:18Have you talked to Scott Hunter?
46:20No.
46:21I did.
46:22You did?
46:23Yeah, briefly.
46:24After MLH awards in June.
46:27And what did he say?
46:29Nothing.
46:31Well, I didn't tell him about Shane and me.
46:33But what he did, it was...
46:35Yes, it was very brave.
46:37It changed things for me, at least.
46:40Maybe for us.
46:46Shane.
46:49Shane.
46:53Okay, I'm just freaking out.
46:55I'll be okay in a second.
46:56Hey, hey, hey, hey.
46:58You're good here.
47:01Your family is here.
47:03Your boyfriend is here.
47:07You're good here, okay?
47:12My boyfriend?
47:15I mean, yes.
47:17I think so, probably.
47:18Since rookie season.
47:29Summer before.
47:33I'll bring the chicken and some salad stuff.
47:35Pick up beer in town.
47:36Please text.
47:38Why?
47:38We'll just be there around five.
47:39Please text.
47:40We'll text.
47:41Get attention to your phones.
47:43Thank you for pasta.
47:44Drive safely.
47:45I love you.
47:45Love you.
47:46Love you.
48:05Get off.
48:06Bye-bye.
48:07Bye-bye.
48:11Bye-bye.
48:12Bye-bye.
48:13Bye-bye.
48:13Bye-bye.
48:14Bye-bye.
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