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Married At First Sight UK S10 Ep 35
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00:00If I kissed Leesha, you would have lost your head.
00:03Previously...
00:04That's double standard.
00:05...as Lees' actions rocked the final dinner party...
00:08Why would you kiss her back? That's what I'm not getting.
00:10If this were to happen with you, it would be very different.
00:12With you, it's not.
00:13...it sent her marriage into meltdown.
00:15Consumption's turned.
00:17Typical, Lees.
00:18Arguing at me like a f***ing lawyer.
00:20Mention sitting ribs.
00:21And with the experiments ending in sight...
00:25I'm worried that I'm not gonna be enough for you.
00:29Shocking confessions threaten to tear it all apart.
00:32Do you think your feelings will change when we leave the experiment?
00:35Um...
00:36I'm worried we might lose that passion and everything that we do have.
00:40No reassurance whatsoever.
00:42Devastating answer.
00:43But it was hard truths.
00:45Do you think I've been respectful in this marriage?
00:48Nah.
00:49That threw Lea's behaviour into the spotlight.
00:51Lea, in Lea's defence, you're a flirty person.
00:54Come on, Bailey.
00:55She goes, oh, I'll sleep with her. I'll shag her. Oh, I'll turn her.
00:57If I said I would shag Lea, you wouldn't be happy.
01:00Do I feel disrespected in those moments? Yes, I do.
01:03F*** me.
01:04I'm done arguing. I'm done trying to defend myself.
01:07It's ridiculous.
01:09Tonight.
01:10In her head.
01:11I fancy these people. That is unfair on you.
01:14The experiment reaches its gripping climax.
01:16I'm scared because it's something I want so badly.
01:19I don't ever want to see your heart broken.
01:22Do you think you're on the same page?
01:24I don't think so.
01:26As the first three couples face a life-changing decision.
01:30There is feeling there, but I actually don't know if Lea will ever trust me.
01:34If Rhys doesn't want to renew the vows, my heart will be broken.
01:40Whether to stay together.
01:42Is love enough to make this work?
01:45We've got a really deep connection, but the good doesn't come without the bad.
01:50Or end their marriages forever.
01:52I never want to hurt Lea Shaw.
01:54I just need to be honest.
01:56Lea, I always try to do the best in you.
01:59But if I'm truly thinking about my future, I need someone who trusts me without question.
02:05You put pressure on me to move at a faster pace than I was ready for and not have questions at all.
02:11So, Lea Shaw.
02:23I'm just going to miss not waking up to you.
02:25Yeah.
02:26Not having your scrambled eggs in the morning.
02:28Having reached the end of the experiment, the remaining couples are about to head home.
02:34I've got a little present for you.
02:36What have we got?
02:37Come on then.
02:38Yeah?
02:39Come on then.
02:40To contemplate the future of their marriages.
02:49I think this is going to be the last time that we're going to be sitting on this couch.
02:53Yeah.
02:54This feels like our first home, doesn't it?
02:58Mm.
02:59We've had such an amazing time.
03:02I refuse to pack until last minute because I don't want to leave.
03:06As rubbish as this is right now, everything else is so exciting.
03:12Yeah.
03:13I'm looking forward to this week going by very quickly so we can get to Vow Renewals and just
03:18see each other again and then start our lives together.
03:21Mm-hmm.
03:22The last time I went home to my apartment was Homestays and I was bringing John home and I was excited for him to be my family and friends.
03:32So, yeah, I think it's hard today going back just by myself.
03:39Have a little last look around of the apartment.
03:41Oh, there's so many good memories.
03:45Yeah.
03:46I know.
03:47But we're going to make more amazing memories together in our own apartments.
03:51This is just the start.
03:53Okay.
03:58Having a week away from John, I'm not used to that.
04:01We've not had the outside world influencing our relationship.
04:06And it's scary.
04:08Hi, baby.
04:09Giving someone your heart is terrifying, especially when I have been so hurt in the past.
04:16If this marriage wasn't to work out, I'd feel absolutely heartbroken.
04:19I would be devastated.
04:24To see her leave.
04:26Oh, that was heartbreaking.
04:30I can't imagine my life without Abby now.
04:32I really can't.
04:33I've spent a long time single, a long time wondering whether love will ever come.
04:41And now that it's here, I don't want that to change.
04:52I'm going to really struggle not waking up next to you every day.
04:56Yeah, I'm sad.
04:58You get to see your family.
04:59Yeah.
05:00I get to see my family.
05:01Yeah.
05:02I am buzzing to see them all.
05:04Can't wait to just ever catch up, give them a good old hug.
05:08I'm feeling very sad this morning.
05:10I'm not ready to leave Rhys.
05:12He's my person.
05:14But Rhys does struggle to reassure me on the day to day.
05:18I think my hope is that you come back and you miss me
05:21and that you know exactly where your emotions are and where your feelings are
05:24and just a bit more of like a clearer mindset.
05:27Yeah.
05:28You know I've always struggled with all your closeness and I've always wanted to try and open you up.
05:33Because I'm not like that.
05:34Yeah.
05:35I find it very, like, unnatural.
05:38Obviously, I know where my heart's at.
05:40When I say I love someone, I'm not going to, like, change my mind all of a sudden.
05:43Yeah, yeah.
05:44I have put my heart and soul into this experiment and I have told Rhys that I love him.
05:53But Rhys will not say it back to me.
05:56So, I am scared.
05:59I don't want to get blindsided.
06:00I'm just really nervous that she's going to break my heart.
06:11Come on.
06:13He's got our bags up.
06:14Yeah.
06:17Wow.
06:19Five days.
06:20You're going to have a lovely time with your family.
06:23I've got strong feelings for Leisha.
06:25But we are at different levels emotionally.
06:28Leisha does need quite a bit of reassurance.
06:31And I know she wants me to open up a lot more.
06:34And I've been giving, like, more than what I would normally give anyway.
06:36But she's not satisfied with it.
06:39It does concern me.
06:41This decision coming up from Val and yours is going to be a tricky one.
06:45I've got a lot to think about to make sure I make the right decision.
06:51I have 110% fallen deeply in love with Rhys.
06:59He's my best friend, so it's sad.
07:06If Rhys doesn't want to renew the vows, my heart will be broken.
07:26There's an atmosphere between me and Leo today, to be honest.
07:30We ended the dinner party last night on a bad note.
07:33And we're not really in a great place.
07:37My head's all over the place about Val and yours at the moment.
07:40I've got a lot of thinking to do.
07:43So, how are you feeling after dinner party last night?
07:47I'm just, like, deflated about it all.
07:50I do think there's been one rule for one on occasions.
07:54Say if I kissed Leisha on the lips like you did,
07:57you would have gone mad.
07:58If you think there's a double standard there, you know the type of person that I am.
08:02Have you ever had any speculation or worry that me or Leisha have acted funny with each other in the past?
08:08Just ask that yes or no.
08:09No, but have you thought I've ever acted a certain way towards her?
08:12Answer the question, yes or no?
08:14Answer the question, yes or no?
08:15Answer the question, yes or no?
08:16Yes, the things that you said in the beginning made me uncomfortable.
08:19There has been situations where you've made comments that have made me feel uncomfortable,
08:22especially, again, after partner swap.
08:24What did I say?
08:25You told me that Leisha was flirty with you.
08:27On that weekend?
08:28Yes, you did. Yes, you came back and fucking told me that.
08:30I said she's a lot.
08:31You said she's done that before, so don't try and act like, I'm fucking going nuts.
08:34You've categorically come back and told me that she's acted a certain way with you, Leisha.
08:38Don't fucking do that.
08:39You're making me look like I'm fucking nuts and you know that I'm not.
08:42No, I'm not. No, I'm not.
08:43Because you've told me things.
08:44This is what I'm saying every time with you.
08:46Do you know what?
08:47I've overreacted the whole fucking thing.
08:49I've made it up in my head.
08:50There's not been a single situation that you've ever stepped out of line
08:53or nobody else has ever stepped out of line and I've had no right this whole fucking time.
08:57You'll be wrapped in that.
08:58But that's how you're making it sound, Lea.
09:00There's been an uncomfortable situation between you and her, no?
09:04You've behaved a certain way towards her knowing that she's flirted with you.
09:07Oh, my God. No, I haven't.
09:08Do you not think that that's disrespectful?
09:10No, I haven't.
09:11If there was someone in this experiment that had been flirting with me and I'd come back and told you.
09:13Oh, my God. I can't remember this conversation.
09:14Neither can I.
09:15I can't. I'm not doing this on the fucking last day. There's no point.
09:17See you later.
09:24What is she doing?
09:26Lea's behaviour has made me question what I really want in my future.
09:31Can I be with someone like that on the outside?
09:34I've got so much to think about before Val renewals.
09:37If I fucking turn up.
09:39How are you?
09:40How are you?
09:41How are you?
09:42How are you?
09:43How are you?
09:44How are you?
09:45How are you?
09:46How are you?
09:47Across the country, our separated couples are returning to their hometowns to speak
10:04with friends and family ahead of Varenuels.
10:10Hello, what's up?
10:12I show you home.
10:13In Formby, Leah is seeking words of wisdom from Cousin Taylor.
10:17A lot's happened.
10:18Oh, God, tell me about it.
10:23Hey.
10:24Whilst over 200 miles away in Essex, Lee is meeting up with best friend Nicole.
10:29Have you been?
10:30A bit low and quite a bit.
10:32Yeah, it was kind of just not good vibes.
10:34Really?
10:35When I left, yeah.
10:36Why?
10:37I was about to leave the apartment. Let's just have one more chat.
10:39That blew up.
10:40I ended up walking out and leaving because we was just going round in circles and it was not needing.
10:46We didn't need to do that on the last day.
10:51We didn't leave it on a good note at all.
10:53She stormed out, didn't say bye to me.
10:55Oh, God, why?
10:56The dinner party, the honesty box.
10:58Yeah.
10:58My question was, have I ever disrespected you in this experiment?
11:02Mm-hmm.
11:03And she was like, well, yeah, I think you have.
11:06You were too familiar with Beck from day one.
11:08You said she was your type.
11:10And then there was the Alicia thing because I said that she was, like, a good-looking girl.
11:15But I've not once said I fancy anyone.
11:17Okay.
11:18When she asks me a straight question, I'm giving her a straight answer because I'm an honest person.
11:22She then gets her back up and then in her head, I then fancy these people.
11:26It's like an insecurity, obviously, isn't it?
11:28Yeah.
11:29And that is unfair on you.
11:30Mm.
11:30And then she went on Girls' Day and kissed Leisha on the lips.
11:35No, sorry, but if I did that with Leisha, she would lose her rag.
11:40That's double standards.
11:41Yeah.
11:41It's got to be the same rules for everyone.
11:44Exactly.
11:46I've been here before with Lea in this headspace, and then we've come back ten times better.
11:52I don't want to behave as if she's someone that's really important to me because she is.
11:56We've been through a lot in this experiment, and there are feelings there.
12:02Since I've come home, I've been racking my brains trying to realise, is it me?
12:07Is it Lea?
12:08Because there's times throughout the experiment where I feel like Lea's made it sound as though
12:13I'm only reacting that way because of things I've been through in the past.
12:18Naturally, my guard is up, but I'm willing to go in both feet.
12:22I'm serious about wanting it to work.
12:24Lea entered the experiment, hoping to let go of past insecurities.
12:28I saw my life with this person.
12:30That then got taken away.
12:32But as the experiment went on...
12:34I started to feel like you were being overly familiar with Rebecca.
12:39Lea's deep-rooted trust issues...
12:41The hop.
12:42Oh, of course you fucking noticed.
12:44I've been humiliated in the past.
12:46I find it disrespectful.
12:48She's been triggered based on her past relationships.
12:50...became a barrier in their marriage.
12:52So the reason that you flirt with other girls is because you're from Big Bottom?
12:56Who do I flirt with?
12:57I don't flirt with Rebecca.
12:59And I certainly am flirting with her.
13:01Marriage definitely can't work without trust.
13:03A relationship can't work without trust.
13:05It's pathetic.
13:06I've been through a lot of situations.
13:14It's just led to me getting really hurt.
13:18I generally have been in a place throughout the experiment, like kind of half blaming myself a little bit.
13:24It's a hard situation.
13:25Yeah.
13:26So what's kept you in this experiment for so long?
13:32There's loads of reasons why we are a match and I do see that our morals aligned well.
13:37Yeah.
13:37Also, they're not a surface level relationship.
13:40There's definitely feelings there from my side.
13:43There's a lot more in my heart towards her.
13:45Yeah, she's a lovely person as well.
13:47Yeah, she's a nice girl.
13:48And yeah, it's not been nice how it's been left.
13:50I'm not one to hold a grudge.
13:52I can't sit and forget about all the good things about what our relationship's been and all the good things about hair.
13:58Yeah.
13:59It's been a rollercoaster.
14:00I've learned a lot about myself.
14:00Yeah.
14:01But I think right now, I've just got to sit, think about the whole process.
14:06It's a lot to think about.
14:07Oh, my head is scrambled.
14:12Something keeps me wanting to try.
14:16Yeah.
14:17We had a really good homestay.
14:19I saw her in a different light.
14:20She saw me in a different light.
14:22We're very similar in that we're family orientated and we have a really strong bond.
14:29So I'm going into vow renewals.
14:30I don't want to regret anything.
14:32So I'm trying to make sure that I'm making the right decision for me.
14:36Yeah, it's massive.
14:39There's a lot of pressure on you.
14:41Yeah.
14:42And this will determine, like, the rest of your lives.
14:45Yeah.
14:46I know.
14:50I'm really sad that me and Leah left on bad terms.
14:54I didn't want our last day in the apartments to be like that.
14:57But you can see from the way I'm reacting in these situations, there are feelings there.
15:02There is a connection there.
15:03Otherwise, I wouldn't feel this way.
15:06I'm really torn because I don't want to miss out on something that could potentially be really special.
15:13This is one of the hardest decisions that I'm ever really going to have to make.
15:16There's so many good things about Leah that I genuinely do love.
15:25There is a lot of feeling there.
15:26I care for her, I respect her.
15:28But I can't ignore the fact that I trust her but she doesn't trust me.
15:32Is it going to be something that can work on the outside?
15:37I'm going into this vow renewal in totally two minds at the moment.
15:43Whatever decision I make is going to be a hard one.
15:46I've invested so much time into this person, so much effort, if I decided to walk away.
15:50It would be hard to leave her behind.
15:52Can you spoil me?
15:58Oh, thank you, this is lovely.
16:01In Bournemouth, Abby is reuniting with her mum, Pamela.
16:05Thanks for coming.
16:10It's lovely to see you, John.
16:11Loved to see how happy you are.
16:13Whilst in North Wales, John is with his mum and sisters.
16:17It was very sad to leave Abby.
16:20Yeah.
16:21But that he is.
16:22Yeah, yeah.
16:22From both of you.
16:23From both of us, yeah.
16:25We've had an amazing time in the apartments and I do love her.
16:28I am thinking really hard about the vows.
16:31Yeah.
16:32You also need to think about things that might be an obstacle as well.
16:36Yeah.
16:37Yeah, you've been in this fairy tale and it has been absolutely amazing, but there will be something.
16:42Yeah, yeah, yeah.
16:43We've not had conflict yet.
16:46So, you know, that's going to come.
16:48We'll have to navigate our first conflict without the help of the experts.
16:54That'll be the big test.
16:55Yeah, it will.
16:56We know it's going to come.
16:57Yeah.
16:58We've just had a great time so far.
17:00We hope that a great time continues.
17:02Yeah.
17:04Obviously, when we've seen you together on the homestays, I could just see that you belong together.
17:10Definitely belong together.
17:11That's all I've always ever wanted.
17:13Somebody that will care for you, love you, make you happy.
17:17And I think you've definitely found that person.
17:20Yeah, she definitely does that.
17:22Definitely, definitely.
17:23She does, yeah.
17:26I love John.
17:27And I've never had these feelings for anybody in my entire life.
17:32And also someone loving me, I didn't think it would ever be lovable.
17:35The times you used to say to me, all I want is someone to love me, used to break my heart.
17:41When you said our family is now complete, I've made me so happy because I've waited to hear those words from you my entire life.
17:51I know, I know, I know, and what I'm so happy about is that you've found someone that puts the confidence in you.
17:57I can see that he's got the traits that I'd want you to have in a husband.
18:02And I'm so just, like, I'm scared as well because I've never been this open and vulnerable with someone before.
18:10I've never given someone my heart.
18:13I am worried.
18:14John's helped me develop this confidence and security, but I don't want my insecurities to creep back because I'm away from him.
18:22And I don't have that constant reassurance.
18:25No.
18:27I see my future with him.
18:29I know he's my person that I want to spend the rest of my life with.
18:34I guess I'm scared of losing that because it's something I want so badly.
18:39So it's just...
18:42Darling, your heart is in this, fully committed.
18:48And I don't ever want to see your heart broken.
18:56But I have the greatest feeling this is it.
19:01Mm.
19:02When you met him, you felt like that security straight away.
19:06Mm.
19:06Well, I did with your dad too.
19:09When you meet someone and you know they're your life partner, then nothing is going to change that.
19:16Yeah.
19:17I am just so happy.
19:19It's all a mum could want.
19:21Yeah, thank you.
19:24It has been like a fairy tale.
19:27Everything's happened so quickly.
19:29I've wondered whether it's too good to be true.
19:32Me and John have been in some sort of bubble.
19:35I genuinely love that man so much.
19:41There's something that I've wondered so badly.
19:44I'm so nervous.
19:46I have given my heart to John.
19:49What he decides to do with it is down to him.
19:51I can see Lee fitting into my life.
20:07But the second point in our marriage is trust.
20:10I actually don't know if Lee will ever trust me.
20:13In the experiment, she doesn't trust me.
20:16Will she trust me on the outside?
20:19I just don't know.
20:20Today's decision is going to affect the rest of my life.
20:27There's so much about Leah and our relationship that I do love.
20:30But of course, the good doesn't come without the bad.
20:39There's so many different questions going on in my head.
20:42Is she going to keep thinking, I'm doing something bad?
20:46Do I have to dim my light a little bit to be more the perfect person for her?
20:49I've really picked apart every single aspect of our journey.
20:58And it's not a decision I've taken lightly.
21:03I've put so much work into this marriage.
21:06We've got a really deep connection.
21:09But should love be this hard?
21:13Oh, fucking fuck.
21:19If I think about what we do align on, there's so many positives for me.
21:32We do have a lot in common in the sense of that deeper connection.
21:37There is feeling there.
21:38But is it enough?
21:42I don't know.
21:45How are you?
21:46Good.
21:49Yeah, okay.
22:04Leah, can you believe that we made it here?
22:09It was clear from our wedding day that building a strong relationship would take a lot of work.
22:13But we got to know each other on a deeper level so quickly.
22:18And that instantly made me feel like it was something worth trying for.
22:23There were many parts to you that I valued.
22:26How caring and attentive you are.
22:29How you make me laugh.
22:30And your positive mindset, which always kept me level-headed on my hardest days.
22:34I care for you and love you in many ways.
22:41There are so many reasons this could work.
22:43However, we've struggled with communication, trust, misunderstood feelings and unwanted behaviours.
23:01Your behaviour, jokes and remarks towards other women only ever caused me to be more closed off.
23:06If this hadn't happened, I feel I may have felt more comfortable to let my guard down.
23:14Disagree.
23:19The fundamental reasons why our relationship has struggled, intimacy not being as it should and issues around trust.
23:27It's enabled me to come to a conclusion on how I want a marriage to feel.
23:33And I would be lying if I said to you that this was it.
23:41A true loving relationship should not take this much effort and force.
23:49Because of these reasons, I've decided that I no longer wish to continue the marriage.
23:53Lee, you've got qualities I truly admire.
24:13You're an incredible communicator.
24:16You're caring, you share my values.
24:19And in moments, you make me feel safe.
24:20We've had moments of connection.
24:26Moments of joy.
24:28But we've also had friction.
24:32Tension.
24:33And doubt.
24:38Throughout this marriage, it's become clear that the lack of trust around my female friendships has created real challenges between us.
24:44Your past hurt was often projected onto me, creating a narrative that didn't reflect who I am.
24:56And that's something I can't ignore.
25:00I often felt like I was being managed, not met.
25:02You're quick to critique.
25:10And I often felt like I was under scrutiny.
25:14I tried to figure you out.
25:15One day, distant and guarded.
25:17The next day, you're more open and tactile.
25:19You told me I made you feel safe, then told me you didn't trust me.
25:27You said I disrespected you.
25:30I honestly felt like I protected you.
25:33Gave you the benefit of the doubt.
25:35Always tried to do the best in you.
25:36Meanwhile, I felt blamed, judged, and misunderstood.
25:44Lee.
25:47If I'm truly thinking about my future, I need someone who trusts me without question.
25:54I don't want to be led on, kept around just in case.
25:58I'm sure if I'm liked, loved, or fancied.
26:03Nor do I want to be made to feel like I'm constantly on trial.
26:06I am leaving this marriage here.
26:12You said you didn't want to lead me on.
26:15So it's time I stopped following.
26:21For you to say that you felt managed throughout the whole...
26:26I didn't say throughout the whole.
26:27Okay.
26:27You add things in all the time.
26:29Managed, not met.
26:31Sometimes I want to chat to you about certain things, and it's like...
26:34Just felt like you weren't meeting my energy.
26:38Do you not think it's a little bit insensitive if I just want to know the ins and outs of what happened?
26:44Like, that's an insecurity in me, right?
26:46So I'm as a support...
26:47And I had.
26:47You didn't at the time.
26:50You were being on me like that.
26:52Because I wanted to find out what had happened.
26:54In a relationship, what I need is someone who is also excited to see me, and then ask the questions.
27:00And I need to feel more supported by my partner and not act as if me asking questions is doing something wrong.
27:06And if you weren't a closed book, maybe you would have got that from the beginning.
27:09I tried.
27:14Did you?
27:17I have tried.
27:19And then you're throwing it in my face.
27:21You're acting as if I haven't fucking tried.
27:22I have tried.
27:23I'm just saying.
27:24I don't feel my energy was met.
27:25Neither do I.
27:31Do you want anything else to say?
27:32Not really.
27:39I'm shocked by some of the things that Leah's just said.
27:55Leah's mentioned a load of things that she's never said to me before.
27:58I've really tried to let my guard down and be as vulnerable as I could.
28:02As much as she doesn't seem to see it.
28:04I came into this today knowing my decision.
28:09I wasn't going to be happy if I were to continue in this marriage.
28:12And I know what I want from my partner.
28:14And it wasn't what Leah could give me.
28:19I chose to walk away today because the marriage was too much of a roller coaster for me to sit on any longer.
28:26I really wanted to come in here and find love.
28:29I deserve someone who's going to trust me fully and have an open heart to me.
28:33I am walking away with my head held tight and I've definitely made the right decision.
28:38I'm absolutely terrified.
28:59I, for the first time, I adore and love someone.
29:04I have given my heart to John.
29:07And I'm hoping he will protect it.
29:10I'm scared because I have been hurt in the past.
29:15So there is so much riding on this decision.
29:21It's my life.
29:24My future.
29:25And ultimately, my heart.
29:39I've waited so long to experience true love.
29:44I've never felt like this before.
29:45We need to adjust to life outside of the experiment.
29:52And that's unknown.
30:00I am worried.
30:02We both are great inside the experiment.
30:06Is love enough to make this work?
30:09I want John to commit to me for our entire lifetime.
30:27That's what I came into this experiment for.
30:31Define my forever person.
30:33And for me, that is John.
30:39Hi.
30:40Hi.
30:41So I'm just hoping that he commits to me in the same way today.
30:47You look amazing.
30:48I love this dress.
30:49So do you.
30:50Wow.
30:52You look so good.
30:54I missed you.
30:55I've missed you too.
30:57I felt really nervous.
30:59Why are you nervous?
31:00Like, nervous excitement.
31:01My dear husband, John.
31:10As I stand before you today, we are no longer strangers.
31:14We stand connected through a journey of a lifetime
31:17with the ultimate end reward, love.
31:23Throughout our journey, we support each other
31:26every step of the way.
31:27Living with you made a home for ourselves.
31:31But very soon, you became my home.
31:35As my feelings for you got stronger and stronger
31:37each single day.
31:42You acknowledge my lack of confidence,
31:44which I always thought I hid well.
31:46But you set out to change that.
31:49The most beautiful thing
31:50is that you have helped me find that confidence again.
31:53After partner swap week,
31:59I knew you were the one.
32:04I have never been in love,
32:06which is how I know
32:07this time was different.
32:10Hearing you say those three words,
32:13I love you,
32:15was the moment you changed my life forever.
32:19The I became we.
32:20For me, the future became us.
32:24And my heart became yours.
32:27Love only comes once in a lifetime.
32:30And for my entire life,
32:32I have been waiting for it.
32:34And little did I know
32:36for you.
32:37You are my present,
32:44my future,
32:45but most importantly,
32:48you are the love of my life.
32:51Aww.
32:52That was so good.
32:56This is so good.
32:58So much to put in the heart.
33:01I felt it.
33:01To you, my wife.
33:11Standing here at our valerineals,
33:13my mind cast back
33:14to the time before I met you,
33:16wondering if love had passed me by.
33:21For years and years,
33:22I thought I wasn't good enough to be loved.
33:24But since the moment we stood together
33:29on our wedding day,
33:31I knew.
33:34I knew that every failure,
33:36every doubt,
33:38every unanswered question
33:39suddenly made sense.
33:42Because the answer was you.
33:46One of the most defining moments
33:48of this experiment
33:48was Partner Swap Week.
33:50That space made it so clear.
33:54I didn't just like you.
33:56I loved you.
34:00I'd already fallen.
34:04In such a short time,
34:06you've created something
34:07I'm so proud of.
34:09This is only the beginning.
34:12You've changed everything for me.
34:15You've made the idea of a family,
34:17a home,
34:18and a future feel real.
34:21I've waited my whole life
34:22to feel like this,
34:23and I'd walk through
34:24every one of those
34:25awful, lonely, single years again
34:27if they led me back to you.
34:31You've taken a heart
34:32that once wondered
34:33if it would ever be truly seen,
34:36and you've given it a place
34:38to rest, grow, and belong.
34:41I vow to protect what we've built
34:42and never take a single moment
34:44for granted.
34:45to be the man who lifts you,
34:50loves you,
34:50and chooses you
34:51every single day
34:53for the rest of our lives.
34:56This isn't just a new chapter.
34:58This is a story
34:59I always hoped for.
35:02And the greatest gift
35:03is knowing I get to write it with you.
35:07Oh, it's beautiful.
35:16We'll miss you.
35:17We'll miss you too.
35:21Let's just do life.
35:23I'm ready.
35:24Let's go.
35:25The start of our story.
35:33I feel amazing.
35:36This is the perfect way
35:37to end the first chapter
35:40of our journey.
35:41I came into this experiment
35:42wanting to find love.
35:44I found John,
35:46found her husband,
35:47and I found her happily ever after.
35:52And I know you're going to be
35:53the most amazing father.
35:55I love you.
35:57I love you.
35:57Let's go and spend
35:58the rest of our lives together.
36:00Yes.
36:06Oh, thank God you're here.
36:08In Edinburgh,
36:09Leesha is catching up
36:10with best friend Mel.
36:12Here we go.
36:13What a lovely day.
36:15Whilst in Essex,
36:16Rhys is seeking guidance
36:18from his mum and sister.
36:20How's it all going?
36:23A bit emotional
36:24leaving an apartment
36:24the other day.
36:25Leesha's gone back to...
36:27Leesha's gone back to Scotland.
36:29The vow renewals
36:30are coming up.
36:31There's a lot of positives
36:32between us.
36:33Also, there's, like,
36:34negatives.
36:34So I'm just trying to weigh out.
36:36Let's talk about
36:36the positives first.
36:37Positives.
36:38She's an attractive girl.
36:40She's good fun.
36:42We've got loads in common.
36:43She's kind, thoughtful.
36:45I can tell she'd be
36:46a great mum.
36:47Like, she would take care of me
36:48and our future children.
36:50So there's plenty of positives.
36:52Yeah.
36:54He's just perfect.
36:56I want to lie next to him
36:57every single day.
36:57I want to eat dinner with him
36:59every single day.
36:59I like to smell him.
37:01And, like, when he touches me,
37:02and he cuddles me,
37:03like, I just feel so good.
37:05And we just have such a laugh.
37:07I've never met anyone
37:08that I've been so compatible with.
37:10Yeah.
37:10And now he's not here,
37:12I feel really sad.
37:14I'll just miss him.
37:15But I don't know
37:16if he misses me.
37:21So, do you think
37:22you're on the same page
37:23with your emotions?
37:25Mmm, I don't think so.
37:26No?
37:27No.
37:27From early on,
37:29like, I worked that one out.
37:30At least she moves
37:31a lot quicker than me.
37:32The other day,
37:33she said to me
37:33she does love me.
37:38How close are you
37:40to feeling the same way?
37:43I'm definitely getting there.
37:44Each week we are making progress
37:46and I'm getting stronger
37:47emotions and feelings towards her.
37:49And I do honestly think
37:50that I would have been there
37:52by now if it wasn't
37:52for all these arguments.
37:53Yeah.
37:54Because there has been days
37:55where I was thinking,
37:56do I?
37:56Don't know.
37:57Let me just take my time, actually.
37:58And if she does something.
37:59And if she'll do something
38:00and I'm like, ooh,
38:01and I'll attract that a bit more.
38:05I can see that you do
38:06have strong feelings for him.
38:07I do, of course I do.
38:09I've told him I loved him.
38:10Oh, my God.
38:11I felt it and I said it.
38:14And has he said it back
38:15or is he not there yet?
38:16He's not there yet.
38:18Yeah, that's scary.
38:19Isn't it?
38:20Mm-hmm.
38:21He is everything I've asked for.
38:23He really is.
38:24It's just,
38:24he is just not there yet.
38:27I feel like by now
38:28you would probably
38:28be on the same page, though.
38:32Does he make you, like,
38:33feel secure in your relationship?
38:34Most of the time,
38:38that was very hesitant,
38:40that answer.
38:41You need that reassurance
38:42that you're the one
38:43that he wants.
38:46It's not a lot to ask,
38:48I don't think.
38:48I've given Rhys my heart
38:52and I'm now just waiting
38:54for him to catch up to me.
38:57I don't know how long
38:58it's going to take,
38:59but I do worry
39:01that this time apart
39:02may make Rhys think,
39:03is this really all worth it
39:04for him?
39:06I just feel very,
39:07very vulnerable.
39:09In reality,
39:10I have completely
39:11and utterly fallen for Rhys
39:12and I do fear
39:14that I might get hurt.
39:20She's admitted to me
39:21that she does have insecurities.
39:24So she's quite needy.
39:27Yeah, you could say that.
39:29You're not there
39:30to be a fixer.
39:32If there are her insecurities,
39:34that's for her to deal with.
39:37I will give Leisha
39:39a couple of comments
39:39when she's, like,
39:40dolled up and go out,
39:41like, oh, you look gorgeous.
39:43But then she's saying
39:43to people
39:44that I don't pay
39:44her enough compliments.
39:46But that's just not me.
39:48You don't want
39:48to keep thinking,
39:50oh, I better say this.
39:51Yeah.
39:51Because then you're
39:52going to be compromising
39:53how you are
39:54and walking on eggshells.
39:56So you keep being you,
39:57you keep being natural.
39:59Actions speak louder
40:01than words.
40:02I mean, I know how you are,
40:03I know how loving
40:05and nice you are,
40:06tentative.
40:07Even just, like,
40:08the little holding the hand
40:09shows it.
40:10It doesn't have to be words,
40:11does it?
40:11Sometimes I feel like
40:12I'm holding Leisha's hand
40:13quite a lot,
40:14but then, like,
40:14she's saying, like,
40:15I'm not holding her hand
40:16enough.
40:17I'm thinking,
40:17Leisha,
40:18I don't want to be thinking
40:19you'll be happy
40:19unless I was constantly
40:21holding your hand,
40:23arm around you,
40:24literally, like,
40:24rocking you like a baby.
40:25Relationships shouldn't be
40:30second-thinking,
40:32every movement,
40:33every sentence,
40:34all the time.
40:37Leisha's got a lot
40:37on his mind.
40:39Leisha sounds
40:40a little bit demanding.
40:41That will be a problem
40:42for Leisha,
40:43and that might be
40:45the straw that breaks
40:46the camel's back
40:47in this relationship.
40:48This marriage is
41:03everything to me.
41:04I've decided to wear
41:06my wedding dress
41:07that I first met
41:08recently.
41:09It holds a lot of
41:11meaning.
41:11It means the world
41:12for me.
41:13I've never experienced
41:15this kind of love
41:16before.
41:18Rhys is my best friend,
41:21and he is my
41:22forever person.
41:25But I just don't know
41:26if I'm his.
41:30I know exactly
41:31where my heart lies.
41:33Once I say,
41:34I love you,
41:35I mean that.
41:38I do fear
41:39that Rhys' feelings
41:41for me right'll come.
41:44And that may
41:45make him realise
41:46that this isn't
41:47something that he
41:47wants long term.
41:54Leisha's very special
41:56to me.
41:57I love Leisha's
41:58personality.
42:00It's her kindness,
42:01her thoughtfulness.
42:05Sometimes Leisha
42:06can be a bit demanding.
42:08She wasn't happy
42:09with the fiction
42:09I was giving her.
42:10Although I can
42:13see a future
42:13with Leisha,
42:15she can get me
42:16down to the bickering.
42:19And anyone
42:20who knows me
42:21know that
42:21I cannot
42:22stand drama.
42:23I've definitely
42:29found what I'm
42:30looking for.
42:31But I do get
42:32fearful that
42:32Rhys may
42:34not feel the
42:35same.
42:36If he does
42:37decide to
42:38not renew
42:38his vows,
42:40I will be
42:42heartbroken.
42:44My life
42:45is on the line
42:46here.
42:46I never want
42:53to hurt Leisha.
42:55But I just
42:55need to be
42:56honest.
42:58I know
42:59where my
42:59head's at.
43:02I've done
43:03what I think
43:03is best for
43:04me and my
43:04future.
43:04And I want
43:18to find a
43:19good
43:20for
43:21me.
43:21Hello, you don't love me?
43:41Yes, do you.
43:49You good?
43:51You're good.
44:04Rhys, I never thought I'd be standing here today
44:09after going through such an emotional rollercoaster with you.
44:14But here we are.
44:16Looking back on the first day I met you,
44:18I knew you were going to be someone that I cared a lot about.
44:22You make me laugh every single day.
44:26I couldn't have done this with anyone else.
44:28However, while I have given you my all,
44:37at times I have felt it's not been reciprocated.
44:41I'm scared that if you haven't already got these feelings for me now,
44:46they may never come.
44:47And I'm nervous that this combined with the distance
44:53may hinder our relationship after the experiment is over.
44:59I know how much you've said you hate drama.
45:05So I worry that our marriage may be too much for you.
45:10Or maybe I may be too much for you.
45:13But Rhys, we do have an amazing connection.
45:28You're my best friend.
45:31You've let me be my complete and utter self.
45:34And I'm so grateful I've been matched with you.
45:36So thank you.
45:40I've given you my heart now.
45:42And now I'm trusting you not to break it.
45:50This experience has brought us together.
45:54And I know that you're the person I want to create
45:56both a life and a family with.
45:58Until we are old and grey.
46:00I'm certainly in love with you.
46:06Forever, Rhysha.
46:20So.
46:23Alright.
46:30As I stand here today at our Varon Yor.
46:34I can't believe how far we've come.
46:38Since the first day I met you,
46:40I felt a connection.
46:41I knew I'd found someone special
46:43who was right for me.
46:46We flew to our honeymoon
46:47and everything went great.
46:49But it's also where I had my first concerns.
46:53On the flight home,
46:54it was an instant trigger for me
46:55seeing my wife flirt with another man.
46:57It was hard
47:00and it took me some time to get over it.
47:04I can't say this relationship
47:05has been the easiest.
47:10Whenever things were going good,
47:12something would always crop up
47:13that would take us off track
47:15and put us back a couple of steps.
47:18I feel like you put pressure on me
47:20to move at a faster pace
47:22than I was ready for.
47:27I feel these issues
47:32have caused a lot of friction.
47:35I'm wanting to drama
47:36and tension in our relationship.
47:43And there were times
47:44when I have questions at all.
47:48I feel so scared.
47:50I love this boy.
47:52If this marriage doesn't work out,
47:54I would feel utterly devastated.
47:55I'm so devastated.
47:57Sorry.
48:00Leisha.
48:07Please don't break my heart.
48:13Next time...
48:14I felt like I was not enough for you.
48:17Rhys is faced with a defining decision.
48:20There have been some times
48:21where I've struggled with our marriage.
48:22I don't know how much more
48:24I can do for you.
48:28And while seeking advice
48:29from those they trust most...
48:31Can you see yourself
48:32moving down south to Bailey?
48:34I don't know.
48:35It would break me heart if you left.
48:38I'm worried that this won't work.
48:39I've heard of the experiment.
48:40That's my biggest fear right now.
48:44The final two couples
48:45face the agonizing dilemma.
48:47This is the biggest decision
48:49I've ever had to make.
48:50My entire future
48:51is riding on this
48:52but I just have so many doubts.
48:55I am in love with Daveed
48:56but love isn't enough
48:58to keep a relationship going.
49:00To recommit forever.
49:02I know, babe, loves me.
49:03But is she ready
49:05to uplift her life
49:06for that love?
49:07Or end their marriage
49:09once and for all.
49:10It hasn't all been high.
49:13Our communication broke down.
49:16We couldn't find resolve.
49:19Can our marriage survive
49:20the hundreds of miles between us?
49:23Am I willing to take
49:24that huge risk for love?
49:27The answer...
49:30Bailey.
49:36Oh, God.
49:40Oh, God.
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