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00:00This is where I source all my found objects, my dried plants, my miniature furniture, Christmas
00:16ornaments, shells, paints, nails, stones. This knob here is a radio switch, but what I see in it is an
00:27exploded engine. This is my stash of miniature toys. Sometimes the furniture I find is already broken
00:36and the shop owner says, well, I can't tell you that it's broken. What are you going to do with it?
00:43This is from my previous marriage, wedding cake. That's what's left of the marriage.
00:57Before the Syrian war, my art was very therapeutic, was very cathartic.
01:17I was just making, making, making.
01:20I wanted to build the Damascus of my memories.
01:25A lot of generations came here. A lot of paint happened on these walls.
01:35So this is exactly what I'm going to do. Paint, scrape, paint, scrape.
01:43Before you know it, the architecture was telling the story of the human that lived within.
01:48And that would bring me home.
01:53And that would bring me home.
02:01Mommy!
02:01Mommy!
02:02Hi, my mom! Hello!
02:04Bobby!
02:04Hi, my boy!
02:05Hi, my mom!
02:06Hi, my mom!
02:07I'm sorry, my mom!
02:07Hi, my mom!
02:08Hi, my mom!
02:09Hi, my mom!
02:10Hi, my mom!
02:11Hi, my mom!
02:12What's your name?
02:13I don't know what you're wearing.
02:14You're wearing a mask.
02:15I'm wearing a mask.
02:16What's your name?
02:17I'm wearing a mask.
02:18I'm wearing a mask.
02:18Yes!
02:19Yes!
02:20Yes!
02:21What are your stories?
02:22What are your stories?
02:23What are your stories?
02:23How are your days?
02:24What's your days?
02:25I'm seeing them in five seconds.
02:27Yes!
02:28Yes!
02:29Yes!
02:30Yes!
02:31It's a mess.
02:32Yes!
02:33Yes!
02:34I always wanted to come to the United States to study architecture here.
02:57After 9-11 happened, there was a travel ban in place that wasn't called a travel ban.
03:09My visa was stamped as single entry only.
03:12And I realized that I was stuck here.
03:17I was extremely homesick.
03:20I was given up being with my parents, being with my older brother, my sisters.
03:31I missed my sister's wedding and the birth of her children.
03:35I was very close to my grandmother and I couldn't go to her funeral.
03:41It felt horrible.
03:43I would say to my parents, okay, this is it. I'm coming home.
03:46I'd say, no, don't do this. Don't jeopardize your career.
03:54It was one of those nights, it might have been Thanksgiving break.
04:00Nothing's open. Where is everybody?
04:03They're at home.
04:06They're with their families.
04:10And I was in this open architecture studio space.
04:14And I was the only person in there.
04:17I remember I was so frustrated.
04:19And I had a photograph of an old Demacian facade that was on a candy wrapper.
04:26And I think a little bulb turned on in my head.
04:31And I told me, well, stop whining.
04:35If you can't get home, why don't you make home?
04:43And I would collect all the wood scraps that my peers would throw away on the floor.
04:48The plastics, the styrene.
04:50That's when it really kind of clicked, like, okay, this is me.
05:04This is where I'm from.
05:06It's hard to pin down when exactly the war started.
05:33My parents hesitated to leave home.
05:39It's not until the clashes broke off 100 meters away and shook our whole house.
05:48They realized, okay, the conflict is now on our doorstep.
05:53And we need to leave.
05:55They came and lived in my small apartment.
06:04I was a very young designer, pitching 200, 300, 400 million dollar buildings.
06:14I had to keep a straight face at work and still perform.
06:17But I was very troubled.
06:22Extremely troubled.
06:26I had a monitor literally on news channels 10 hours a day.
06:36I'm working and I'm seeing the Arab world blow up.
06:41I lost my appetite.
06:50I didn't do any art for maybe two years straight.
06:56And I've internalized it, internalized it.
07:00And I'm boiling.
07:03I took to my models like an explosion.
07:16If something did not look right, I took a hammer to it and I broke it.
07:20And I snapped it and I would throw ash at it and burn it.
07:24People were so sick of seeing blood and bodies as a way to build empathy.
07:41And I get that.
07:42I was sick too.
07:43I mean, how many dead bodies can we see?
07:46You just go like, oh my gosh, not another Syrian kid washing off the shores.
07:50Swipe away to the next story.
07:54There was this fire inside me to start humanizing refugees.
08:02And to tell their stories.
08:24you just go with the land.
08:25You just went and start with it differently.
08:26You just like what?
08:27Because I got 2 kids on the ground after 123.
08:28After...
08:29You just go with that.
08:30Yes.
08:31I came here with the Renat
08:44and killed their children.
08:46Though I retire, they're gonna pris 9 days later.
08:49My family also left their house in Damascus.
08:54Where did they come from?
08:56God, it came from today.
08:58It's nice to meet you.
09:00What's going on with me?
09:02You're sitting here a lot.
09:05Yes, of course.
09:07There's a glass table, a glass table, and a glass table.
09:11Where did you go?
09:13I went to the 10th.
09:15I went to the 3rd.
09:19I was interviewing a refugee one time.
09:26And the man started crying.
09:30And he said, I'm very grateful for their help.
09:34But the night we arrived here,
09:37the lady welcoming us was teaching me
09:40how to turn a light switch on.
09:43Could you please translate to her
09:46that I had a very beautiful house in Syria
09:51with a lot of appliances and a lot of things in it.
09:56And I really know how to switch a light on.
09:59We come from established lives.
10:06We had a life.
10:09You can't explain millions of people with one step,
10:14refugee, full stop.
10:16full stop.
10:25Heriath is a Welsh word
10:27without a direct translation into English.
10:31It describes a state of extreme homesickness
10:35to a homeland that is no longer existent
10:41or has never, ever existed.
10:48I have certainly fallen in love
10:51with the idea of Damascus in Syria.
10:54I only had a moment there.
11:03When I opened my eyes,
11:05I was swept away.
11:07When I opened them up,
11:09I would see you on your side.
11:10This antennas was working
11:21Holescent's region of the oldest family.
11:22To the latest family
11:24I've found you all like the second family.
11:25That wasn't too old.
11:26It doesn't make sense.
11:28I told you to run myini in the third family shape.
11:30Had to walk away just by theести,
11:32this belle 경 resume may fail.
11:33It's a different village.
11:34Why don't I work?
11:35What are you eating,
11:36I'm going to come in, shall we?
11:39I'll do it soon.
11:41I'll do it.
11:43We'll have a little bit.
11:54The Syrian war resulted in a lot of marriages failing.
12:01My mom moved back to Damascus because she became extremely homesick.
12:10She was saying in Arabic,
12:14whatever happens to everybody will happen to me as well.
12:19I can't go to Syria because I will get drafted to the military.
12:24Going and seeing my mom in Lebanon is the closest I can be to home.
12:30My nice lemon, growing and growing.
12:49I love my lemons.
13:00The news was not showing what we were losing culturally.
13:07Undoubtedly, the most expensive price being paid in conflicts is the human life.
13:14No question.
13:15But also there's something to weep over when you see a thousand-year-old minaret being bombed out of existence.
13:24You wipe a nation's history.
13:39You wipe their architecture.
13:42Two generations later, it's as though they've never existed.
13:49What does a civilization leave behind when they live there for thousands of years?
14:04How many layers do they leave of paint and stories?
14:16I was painting a picture so that people can fully understand the magnitude of destruction.
14:41human life will have their minds and understanding the fact that people can really learn how they do more.
14:43I was painting a picture in a rest of the day.
14:44In a phase of 20 years,
14:46you're completelyaways on a plane.
14:48When we're learning how we can,
14:50In a day of 20 years,
14:51you're coming.
14:52When we're learning how we can,
14:53For these chants and teenagers,
14:54you're coming out of the day and about the day and about the day,
14:55we're coming out of the opportunity,
14:56all we've met at the time,
14:57for a split second,
15:00you're getting transported to a different place.
15:02transported to a different place.
15:32And you're ready for your job, but I don't have...
15:38You're the one who hit me and I'll go to New York.
15:41Come on, if we're in America.
15:44I'll see you in New York.
15:46Thank you, New York.
15:58Come on, Anna.
16:01I'm gonna separate it.
16:03Okay, okay, okay, okay.
16:06Come on, you're coming.
16:07You have to be a member of the city.
16:09You're a member of the city.
16:11I'm a family and my mother.
16:13Are you a member of the city?
16:16Yes.
16:18Are you a member of the state?
16:20I'm a member of the state.
16:23Are you a member?
16:25You're a member of the city, and you're a member of the state party.
16:29What do we do?
16:31OK...
16:33OK...
16:34It's not like you.
16:38You're a citizen.
16:40Do you know?
16:41I'm in Chicago.
16:43I'm in Chicago.
16:45But where are you?
16:47OK.
16:49Do you have a solution?
16:51OK...
17:01Wars tend to change people, they change souls.
17:17The memories that I have could very well not exist today.
17:24The grace and warmth could very well have vanished.
17:54The energy in the heart, the light, the light, the light, the light.
18:03The light of life can be the hue.
18:11The light inside of the heart is the sun.
18:15We don't have a full family portrait that is newer than 1999.
18:35The four siblings of us and the two parents have not been under a single roof in 14, 15 years.
18:43I stopped counting and I miss it.
18:47I miss home.
18:50I miss home.
19:13I miss home.
19:16I miss home.
19:20I miss home.
19:22I miss home.
19:23I miss home.
19:25I miss home.
19:27I miss home.
19:28I miss home.
19:30I miss home.
19:32I miss home.
19:33I miss home.
19:35I miss home.
19:36I miss home.
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