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00:00oh you're back you're back what happened oh no oh god nick nick there's been no change with noah
00:17okay okay if it's not noah then what's going on i just got off the phone with mariah
00:25there is so much fear in her voice and i'm not there she wants me she needs me but
00:30i'll leave noah when the doctors don't even know what yeah i know yeah she is so frightened
00:37and for her to say that she needs me and i don't go how do i help her nick she can't be alone
00:46oh my good friend that look in your eyes i know it well the isolation that comes from being
01:00such a rare breed one that no one else has even tried to understand
01:05but it's a self-imposed loneliness you just need to open your eyes and see what's right in front of
01:17you i feel alone because i am alone you're not here you're not real
01:28you're in hell where you belong
01:58oh come now mariah i know you have more courage than that
02:18to hide behind predictable arguments
02:21like logic and reality to fear what we can't explain because here i am here we are
02:33no not because you're actually real because you have poisoned my life because you're connected to
02:41every painful moment i have you are in here oh sweet child
02:49if i'm sitting in this chair simply in your head
02:54the point is
02:57victor neumann shot you you died
03:01what
03:03victor neumann shot you you died
03:06oh well what's death to a true believer
03:10miracles mariah miracles the world is full of them
03:16it's like a shadow in the corner there's nothing there there's nothing that can hurt me
03:20would you like to feel my heart beat
03:24yes give me your hand
03:27don't touch me
03:32as you wish
03:34would you just go away
03:39not as long as you need someone by your side someone who knows you and understands you
03:44and would never judge you leave now the way tessa did
03:50how abandoned you must feel
03:52i told her to go
03:54you were ashamed
03:56you didn't want her to see you as you are
03:59but i embrace the mariah before me
04:03i applaud her
04:07that is why i'm the only one in this world you could count on
04:14oh
04:16oh
04:20oh
04:22oh
04:24oh
04:28oh
04:30oh
04:32oh
04:34oh god
04:36oh
04:38i'm sorry
04:45i shouldn't have done that
04:46no
04:47no
04:48don't say that
04:49i wasn't thinking i just
04:51this is my fault
04:52no no you have been nothing but a good friend
04:55well a good friend wouldn't let that happen
04:58no
04:59you have put up with me drinking too much
05:01and moaning about my life
05:03i've been sweet and patient and i have been drunk and stupid
05:08there's nothing stupid about what you're going through
05:11you just
05:12needed a distraction that that's i get it
05:14uh no
05:16that
05:17is
05:19not
05:20what happened
05:21what do you mean
05:23kissing you wasn't about anything other than you
05:27so you did it for me
05:29no i didn't do it for you
05:32i've thought about it
05:37wondered
05:39there would be times when the thought would just be in my head when
05:42you were talking about whatever or
05:46when you were focusing on playing a song or
05:50just
05:51in your eyes when you smile
05:55this wasn't just some out of the blue accident
05:59i've thought about kissing you before
06:02i've thought about kissing you before
06:05thought about kissing you too
06:10Sharon and Mariah will understand why you can't go
06:14you can't
06:16when she told me that she needed me
06:18i froze
06:20i froze
06:21and what if she thinks that means that i don't want to be with her
06:25no
06:26she doesn't
06:28she's certainly going through something she is hurt and confused but she knows that you love her
06:33what if she doesn't know
06:35she does
06:36okay
06:37she does
06:38but
06:40if this is going to torture you like this go and see your daughter
06:44i hate saying this but Noah's not going to know if you're here or not
06:50no that is not true
06:52he's in there
06:53he can hear my voice even if he cannot answer and he knows someone is my hand holding his hand
06:57you're right
06:58you're right you're his mother that makes all the difference but
07:02you can't let guilt make your decisions for you
07:06i'm sorry
07:08you're being so sweet and i'm so on edge
07:12it's okay
07:13you don't have to apologize to me if it were summer
07:16it would tear me apart not knowing what was going on
07:19and to see Noah in there like that
07:22rips my heart out
07:24it really does
07:27and Mariah
07:29she's broken too
07:31not like Noah but she is in pain
07:33both my babies are in pain
07:35and i can't fix it
07:37i can't fix it
07:42what a marvel you are Mariah
07:45how resilient
07:48and yet so fragile
07:50this isn't the first time that you've shut yourself off from the world is it
07:54why
07:56huh
07:58you just trying to protect yourself
08:00or are you trying to
08:03keep others safe
08:05from you
08:07here's a public service to all of those that you might harm
08:11well you don't want to confide in me
08:15that's alright
08:17but
08:19and forgive me for being so presumptuous
08:21do i play some
08:23small part in your troubles
08:26lately
08:28perhaps my name has been uttered in your therapy session
08:32i am the guiding force
08:36behind your entire existence
08:38you
08:40you
08:41are nothing
08:43you are not even real
08:44you are not even real
08:52peekaboo
08:54oh i wish we played that game when you were a child
08:58but you were such an old soul
09:01weary of spirit and weary of others
09:04what's this?
09:07did you drop something?
09:12huh
09:14this must be yours
09:15this must be yours
09:20Tessa tore that up
09:22maybe you just imagined it
09:25shut up
09:27if i'm real maybe this is just a card trick
09:30or if i'm in your mind
09:32maybe it's a sign
09:34i think you're a cheap con
09:36oh
09:37then i can help you put yourself back together
09:40mariah
09:42and you know what that means don't you
09:44you can't shut me off like you have everyone else
09:50not when i'm a part of you
09:56should i not have said that?
10:00is it anything we didn't already know?
10:02no
10:04you knew i thought about kissing you
10:07you never sensed it with me
10:09even if i did i mean it would have been wishful thinking
10:12and you know i never would have acted on it
10:15am i terrible for doing it?
10:17no of course not
10:19i mean i put you in the situation
10:21it's weird
10:23it's weird saying it out loud
10:25can i say weird one more time just to make it even more awkward
10:29you always make me feel less ridiculous
10:34you couldn't be ridiculous if you tried
10:38i tell you what
10:40how about
10:42we go to sleep
10:44we wake up tomorrow morning
10:46possibly a little hungover
10:48and we just forget this ever happened
10:50did you even drink that much?
10:53i was talking about you
10:56and you could just
10:59wake up
11:01with your memory wiped clean
11:03yeah that'd be a no
11:06yeah
11:08me either
11:10definitely no way to test that theory either because
11:12there's no way i'm getting to bed anytime soon
11:15me either
11:16yeah i am like six shots of espresso awake right now
11:22well the adrenaline of shame will do that
11:27what about a walk?
11:30walk?
11:32yeah
11:34fresh air
11:35clear our heads
11:37yes i like that let's do that
11:38thank you
11:56and doctor she seems to swing between wanting me there and preferring to be alone
12:04oh and mariah also referenced childhood and the fact that i wasn't there and the mother's love that she missed out on
12:13yes i just thought you should know where her mind is if she's not sharing specifics
12:20if there's whatever any other updates i
12:24thank you and whatever information i can share with you
12:28yes
12:30thank you so much for looking out for her
12:33okay goodbye
12:34you're just looking out for your girl okay don't forget that
12:41i'm gonna go back in with noah are you coming?
12:45yeah i'll uh be in in a minute i just wanna call my parents
12:49thank you dr white
12:50dr white call your office
12:51dr white call your office
12:52dr white call your office
12:53dr white call your office
12:55hello
12:57nicholas i'm so glad you called i didn't want to disturb you
13:00yeah i figured
13:02is dad there are you on speakerphone?
13:04well he already went up but i can wake him
13:19no
13:21don't do that
13:23this will probably just get dad all worked up anyway
13:25what is it?
13:27there are some
13:29questions and confusion about
13:32noah's accident
13:33a detective came by and claimed that he was investigating the crash
13:38claiming?
13:39what does that mean?
13:41just the line of questioning
13:43it was um
13:44off-putting and uh
13:46kind of vague
13:48that's not everything
13:49noah's phone rang
13:50and i answered it
13:51and there was a woman on the phone named sienna
13:53who claimed that she was a friend
13:55of noah's
13:56and then i told her about
13:58noah's accident
13:59and then she just uh
14:01she got all squirrely you know
14:03i was asking her basic stuff like
14:05how do you know my son?
14:06and things like that
14:07and then it's like she couldn't wait to get off the phone
14:09like it couldn't happen fast enough
14:12you think a friend would be more helpful?
14:15i know and now
14:16i don't know
14:17i mean just this whole thing it feels off
14:20i'm starting to have more and more questions about how my son ended up in the hospital
14:24who has known you as long as i have
14:29please
14:32you never knew me
14:34your tone
14:37your gestures
14:38your skepticism
14:40from the time you could speak
14:42and now i see where you have chosen to uh
14:46shut yourself in
14:49with only me for company
14:50i'm touched
14:53people always have nightmares about monsters
14:55i guess
14:56why is it so hard for you to say it?
14:58am i the reason why you checked in here?
15:02you stalked me
15:04and you terrorized me and it didn't stop until victor put a bullet in you
15:10is that a yes?
15:12oh god
15:16i can't get rid of you
15:18i can't get rid of you no matter what i do
15:24and i have done
15:26terrible
15:28terrible things to try to get you
15:31out of my life
15:32things that i
15:34i can't wash away
15:37maria
15:39you're a strong and capable woman
15:41don't you think i'd be gone if that's what you truly wanted?
15:45i do want it
15:47more than anything
15:49and yet you keep me so close to you
15:52tucked inside your heart and mind
15:56and it's because you know i adore
16:00your darkness
16:02you are
16:04disgusting
16:05you are evil
16:06oh
16:07and you're not?
16:08is that it?
16:10shut up
16:12oh you have dark instincts my girl
16:14always have
16:16need i remind you
16:18how you met sharon?
16:20huh?
16:21haunting a grieving woman with a fragile mind?
16:24no that was years ago and i would never do something
16:26do something
16:27dark or violent you never let your urges
16:30overreach your decency
16:32oh kiddo
16:33you know you keep trying to be the good girl
16:36but it's just not in you
16:39i mean there's no shame in being your true self
16:43you're evil
16:44no
16:45yeah
16:46no no no i'm not
16:48yes you are
16:49no and i am never going to believe that
16:52oh
16:53i think you already do
17:00oh come on mariah it's just you and me here
17:03do you think you could be anything as banal as good?
17:09you are fire
17:11and rage
17:13and swirling darkness
17:15do you ever stop talking?
17:17you know it was very good of you the way you
17:20shut out your wife and your child
17:23for their sake
17:25or was it for them really?
17:27just cutting them loose
17:29give you some wiggle room
17:32maybe a chance
17:34to live the life that you want
17:36is this the life that i want?
17:39is this it? locked away from
17:42everyone i love and i care about?
17:44no anyone that uh would crap your style
17:48ah yes
17:50yes so i can be filled with swirls of smoke
17:53ah darkness
17:55okay so
17:58let me ask you
18:01what is it that i should do with my darkness?
18:05you who tortured me
18:08and everyone i love with your
18:10your
18:12your arrogance and your insults
18:14and pretending to know me
18:15what is your answer
18:17how should i live
18:19with the worst parts of myself
18:22let the boring mortals
18:24see you
18:26in all of your glory
18:28you can do it
18:31take some action
18:33you're not a talker
18:35you're a doer
18:37so what will you do
18:40with all the fire inside you
18:43how will you unleash it on the world
18:46have you already taken action?
18:52oh
18:56oh
18:58tell me everything
19:00i just can't stop wondering you know why the detective wouldn't share any information with me
19:08if
19:10if they honestly suspected that my son was a victim of a crime wouldn't they want our help?
19:14you know we can't tell them anything if we don't know what they suspect
19:17and this so called friend
19:20you think she's somehow involved?
19:22i don't know mom it's just
19:24her whole tone you know
19:26i
19:28i told her about what happened to noah
19:30if she was a friend of his
19:32wouldn't she want to know how he was doing or offer to come by and see him?
19:35and noah has never mentioned her
19:37no!
19:39which is why i want dad to get our people and see if
19:42if they can look into this woman for me
19:43well of course i'm sure he can just
19:47text me her name and number and i'll make sure he gets it in the morning
19:50i will
19:52thanks mom
19:54darling i'm so sorry you're going through this again
19:57yeah
19:59i just
20:02can't stop thinking you know
20:04about how many times i have sat by one of my kids bedside
20:07praying
20:09praying
20:11you think it can't happen again you know
20:15and that does
20:17sweetheart i wish i could tell you there's a cap on suffering
20:22but it seems like
20:24life always has another surprise in store for us
20:28i've thrown things off kilter haven't i
20:34no
20:36no it's
20:38it's good
20:39everything's gonna be fine
20:41how can you be so you
20:44you're so calm and kind
20:47mariah basically ignores me
20:50i can't even talk about it but there's no
20:52pressure
20:54no questions
20:56you're just there
20:58and i'm so grateful
21:00that's what friends do
21:02no
21:04not all of them
21:06not like this
21:08well i guess i'm not your ordinary friend
21:13am i embarrassing you
21:16you know tessa
21:18my
21:20mind's just doing backflips right now i can't even think straight
21:24because you feel like things are too awkward
21:26it's my fault
21:28but we can still be us daniel
21:30i mean we can deal with this together
21:35i wish you would talk to me
21:37i wish you'd have faith in me
21:39and not hold back
21:40i'll hold back
21:48you want me to tell you what i haven't told anybody else
21:54you want to hear all the gory details
21:57if you would do me the honor
22:00you don't exist
22:04well then what's the harm
22:05if i don't exist
22:09who can i tell
22:11go on
22:14it is about you
22:16it is all about you
22:19how delightful
22:21the monster who came back with his monster bride jordan
22:27and all of those terrible things you did to innocent people to get to me
22:34to make me complicit to make me responsible and even after you died
22:41i still couldn't get rid of you
22:43the guilt was just
22:49just choking me
22:51it was always about you for me
22:54that's what love means
22:56every thought
22:59every thought every feeling
23:01i just
23:04wanted to run away
23:09i drank but it was never enough to get rid of you
23:13go on
23:14go on
23:15ever since you had me taken from my mother
23:20you have instilled your sickness in me
23:25then it just
23:30squeezed out everything else
23:33i couldn't be a wife
23:36i couldn't be a mother
23:38i couldn't be a daughter
23:40i was just this thing that you couldn't let go of
23:46i couldn't let go of
23:50and then there he was
23:56and he smiled at me
23:59and we started talking
24:03and he had a job
24:05and a name
24:07and a hometown
24:12but he wasn't a person to me
24:13he was just an echo
24:16of you
24:21and then there it was
24:23the answer to
24:27everything i had been looking for the answer
24:33to erasing you
24:35from
24:37my brain
24:39from my life
24:40to
24:42to getting
24:43rid of you
24:44for good
24:46and
24:47what was your method
24:53i smiled back
24:55and i laughed at his jokes
25:00and i let him
25:04buy me drinks
25:06buy me drinks
25:08and i even
25:10let him kiss me
25:12hmm
25:14and then he invited me back to his room
25:17go on
25:21and i went
25:23because deep down
25:27because deep down
25:29i knew
25:32that this was the solution
25:35to kill
25:38the monster
25:40the predator
25:42that by erasing
25:45your life
25:47i could regain mine
25:49and i could find
25:51rid of all the horror
25:52and the hate
25:53and the hate
25:54that you instilled in me
26:02tessa i know you mean well
26:04and you want me to be able to talk to you
26:05but i just
26:07feel like it's something that we're both gonna regret
26:12then i'll talk
26:17i have feelings for you that i can't explain
26:20there is
26:24comfort
26:26but
26:28there's also excitement
26:30i
26:32see your face
26:34and i hear your voice
26:36and i feel relief
26:38because i know that
26:41life will be brighter for however long i am with you
26:44and that feeling
26:47it
26:49it makes me float
26:52but it also
26:53grounds me
26:57and it's gotten me through so many moments
27:01so many days
27:05it's
27:07wonderful
27:09but it's awful too
27:11well that's the last thing i want to do is make your life more complicated
27:14life more complicated
27:16but life is complicated
27:18and you're the only person that i can talk to these days
27:21you've been there for me and aria
27:24and lucy's been a blessing as well
27:28you
27:30radiate
27:33reassurance
27:35because
27:37you have been through so much
27:39and there is still so much light in you
27:41you
27:45you make me laugh
27:48you let me cry
27:50you are truly my best friend
27:53tess falling in love with you
27:58this is bad
28:02no
28:03no
28:04daniel
28:05no no no no no i shouldn't have said that i shouldn't have said anything
28:12um
28:14you know what i'm gonna go
28:17uh i will call a car for you
28:20because you shouldn't walk home alone
28:22okay daniel stop
28:23i think that maybe i drank a little more than i thought i did or maybe it's just stress
28:26what you're feeling
28:28you know what i can't control how i'm feeling but what i can do is i can keep my mouth shut
28:34hey well what good does that do anyone i mean you're the only person that i can count on to tell me the truth these days
28:40i don't think you were counting on that much truth
28:42it's better than holding it in right
28:44better better than than what
28:48thinking about something that's never gonna happen or that that can never happen i mean how does that make things easier for either one of us
28:55i'm grateful that we can talk about hard things
28:58that we can have faith in each other to not just turn and run away and
29:01in another timeline
29:04i think it could happen
29:08i could fall in love with you too
29:14i was just telling noah how much i loved it when he sang when he was little
29:24who didn't love a verse of old nick donald
29:30that's right
29:32oh my gosh
29:34he thought you were the farmer
29:36and donald was my middle name
29:38we are loving with you noah not at you
29:43just so you know
29:45when he would say his prayers at night
29:47da bess
29:49bess
29:51no god bless
29:53he's always the best mommy
29:55the best daddy
29:57cassie and the whole family
29:59and all of the animals
30:02and all of his toys
30:04made sure to cover his bases
30:06everybody got a da bess
30:09my heart is melting all over again
30:14look at you you sucker
30:16all you have to do is look at your mom with those eyes
30:17you could get anything you wanted
30:20it is such a fib
30:22daddy was the pushover we all know it
30:25oh really
30:27okay all you gotta do is wake up
30:29tell us both who snuck you the most snacks
30:32well now that is a trick question because we all know it was cassie
30:36yeah you're right
30:38it's definitely cassie
30:39i've decided about mariah
30:44mariah
30:46mariah
30:48let's be clear
30:50you're saying that your feelings for me control your every working moment
30:55victor wasn't supposed to kill you it was supposed to be me
30:58i earned that right it was mine
31:02ah so you broke the sixth commandment you took some random man's life instead
31:07and how did that make you feel
31:09as the shrinks say
31:11i
31:14covered his face with a pillow
31:17ah did you feel him thrash under you as the
31:21air escaped his lungs
31:24as the spirit escaped his body
31:25i stopped
31:28before that could happen
31:30oh why not did you do that
31:32because i realized that by killing him i wouldn't erase you
31:37i would just be giving you more power
31:40he would be one of your victims too
31:43oh for a dead man i certainly do get around
31:46i wanted an exorcism i wanted to purge you from my brain
31:51and i realized that
31:52i would just be doing your work for you
31:58i would be giving you control
32:00the devil made me do it
32:02you are a demon and you are in hell
32:06and if i am
32:08you're right there with me
32:10my dear friend
32:12because here we are
32:14just the two of us
32:16and i know why you couldn't kill that poor man
32:19because you couldn't kill me
32:22because you couldn't kill me
32:24were kindred spirits you and i
32:27in the darkness that i've awakened in you
32:31lives on
32:35i'm not like you
32:38i'm not a lost cause
32:45i'm not a psychopath
32:48who tortures people
32:51i didn't take a life
32:54and that's because i have human decency
32:58and compassion
33:00and logic
33:02i'm in here
33:11i'm in here
33:13because i have remorse
33:16i am in here
33:18and i am in pain
33:20locked away from everybody
33:22that i love
33:24to try to figure that out
33:26to try to understand why
33:29and to move on with my life
33:32and what have you learned here
33:36that you tried to make me like you
33:43when you were alive
33:46because that's what evil does
33:49takes root
33:51and it tries to grow and spread like a cancer
33:56but i cut you out
34:01you didn't make me like you when you were alive
34:08and i am never going to be like you
34:14to be like you
34:17brava my girl brava
34:19way to take a stand
34:21but if there's one thing i've learned
34:24never say never
34:27tessa please don't do that
34:31you're sharing your truth
34:33i'm sharing mine
34:36does it help
34:39does it help
34:43knowing that i could love you too
34:45in another timeline
34:49in another universe
34:51is that bad
34:53this is the only timeline
34:57i have
34:59this is the only one i can focus on
35:02i don't know what's gonna happen with mariah
35:10she's in a lot of pain and she shut me out
35:14i don't know what's next for us
35:18what do you want to happen next
35:21look i don't want to leave you on
35:25i'm gonna fight for my marriage and for my family
35:28good i mean that's what you should do
35:30but that doesn't mean that
35:33you're not important to me
35:35you know that
35:36i'm gonna be fine
35:39i promise let's just
35:41forget about the kiss
35:43i think we both agree that
35:45okay if we can't forget about it
35:46let's just try and put it aside
35:48that and what i said because i had absolutely no business blurting that out
35:52i'm sorry
35:53i asked you to be honest
35:56whatever the reason is can we please just
36:01leave it in another timeline
36:05because i really hate for that to ruin our friendship
36:10i would too
36:11i would too
36:22alright
36:24what's it gonna be
36:26LA or Boston
36:27i have to stay here
36:31you know in case like
36:33something happens
36:35it won't
36:38i'm going to stay here and i'm going to continue reading him stories
36:43and i'll keep reminding you
36:46how much we love you and we need you
36:49we do bud
36:51i have faith that
36:55Mariah is in a good place
36:58she's going to get the help she needs
37:00and i feel better after talking to her doctors
37:04she is safe
37:06she's protected
37:08that's what's important
37:10i didn't need to take a life
37:14to get rid of you
37:15to get rid of you
37:19you didn't break me then
37:22and you are not going to break me now
37:30you are nothing
37:32and no one
37:35and i want you gone
37:39i want you gone
38:09i want you to take them
38:12and then i want you to ive
38:14i want you to do that
38:16and
38:20so
38:23wow
38:33all
38:35giving you
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