00:00how are you I'm okay I'm coping I can say I'm much much better now than January
00:15perhaps I think when you called me and you said you know relax ka muna I was
00:20terrible then but now I'm okay you know I've been through a lot of realizations
00:25understood why not really understanding but making my own reasons why probably God
00:30took him first right but I'm better now and you know this thing is helping me a
00:36lot kasi nga sabi ko na mag work ganyan ganyan kasi parang I'm so depressed I
00:40want to get out of my depression parang I want to be busy I want to do things and
00:44I wanted instead of looking at my grief parang how can I make other people happy
00:49change the negative to positive how can I inspire people
00:52di ba instead of thinking about oh I'm so discouraged you know boy there was a time
00:58na humigya ako sa kama ko nakadipa and I was just crying and crying and crying na
01:02talagang basang basa ano yung kama ko talagang andito ka ba are you here is there a God
01:07parang why do you want me to be like this parang you want me to be single why I can
01:13do anything for you with a husband why do you want me to be alone and then parang
01:19because of all my prayers pasabi ko basang basa na yung pillow ko I sat up and then I said I'm
01:25sorry do you want to be mad at you but I'm just ranting so I was talking to God na parang
01:31ganun lang and then parang a voice was telling me have you seen why do you keep focusing on what
01:36you don't have on what you no longer have why don't you focus on what you still have
01:41to to start all over again or to to to prosper to prosper yourself to to glorify my name or to do
01:50something that has purpose in your life then I started oh my god I still have a car I still have
01:56a house I still have food on the table my kids are here I'm thinking of the show Lord I can talk I
02:03can inspire people so would you tell me if this is what you want and then yun parang every day I would
02:09pray lang parang Lord order order my steps bring me to where I need to be to be able to fulfill
02:16your purpose in my life bring the right people to me at the right time at the right place open my
02:21eyes open my ears so I can see the doors of opportunity that are open to me but I've always seen them
02:27closed because I was focusing on what was material you watched your husband's struggle that experience
02:33you had watching your husband die has made you want well for me it it has given me a lot of
02:43realizations that indeed life is short and that you know we're really in a rat race I mean here we are
02:53working hard to earn this to buy this car to buy this house to get this to own that but is that really all
03:03that matters after all that's been said and done may nadala ba sila nung namatay sila wala but what do you
03:10remember a person for when he dies the things he has accomplished so when dv died and there were loads of
03:18people going to the funeral parlor parang inisip ko dv was remembered for the way he served as a
03:27politician not not a politician he was a public servant I cannot say politician a public servant
03:31but people remembered him for that
04:01there was no such a person to have been an
04:17case of the phone that he was a native to me and he could say to my wife but I was a native
04:22man I had to know about this day to get this to my child but he was not a person that he was feeling
04:26with the feeling of pain that he was a part of me and had to handle his body and I was my son of the
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