Eva (英语 Movie)

Name: Eva (英语 Movie)
Uploaded: 2025-08-24T08:22:09+00:00
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00:00:00You

00:00:30You

00:00:56I have noticed you have a weird bone on your wrist

00:00:58Like it pops out a lot, how come?

00:01:00I haven't been following you since you left Australia

00:01:03Where have you been?

00:01:04And what happened in your life since?

00:01:06I'm 18 and I'm from Russia

00:01:08I'm depressed all the time and I hate myself

00:01:10Do you have any tips against yeast infections?

00:01:12I'm a straight girl, but I get aroused when I see sexy animes

00:01:16They are so cute and pretty, is this strange?

00:01:18Have you ever considered you have bone on?

00:01:20Do you think men are easier than you?

00:01:22Have you ever heard of a high sensitivity?

00:01:24It's a real condition

00:01:26Wait and be just as skinny as you

00:01:28I think I was abused by my father, but I'm not sure

00:01:30You really confuse me

00:01:32What are you trying to say to us?

00:01:34How much do you weigh now?

00:01:36Hey! How do you call yourself these days?

00:01:38How do you guys know?

00:01:40I think I was amazing

00:01:42But I mostly, I don't think that you have me

00:01:44All adults say in certain days

00:01:46Now my world is so.

00:01:48So I have never welcomed

00:01:50You're excited to do things

00:01:54You like to came together

00:01:56To be an magazin

00:01:57My Lost thrilled

00:02:00That way I hate to look as a Maharishi

00:02:02But as a lawyer your name

00:02:04I love how your eyes close

00:02:13Whenever you kiss me

00:02:17And when I'm away from you

00:02:21I love how you miss me

00:02:25I love the way you always treat me

00:02:31But darling, most of all

00:02:38I love how you love me

00:02:41I remember when I was five

00:02:47And my dad wouldn't allow me to swim naked

00:02:49Like all of the boys

00:02:51Because the man, Eva

00:02:53As if their gaze was my responsibility

00:02:58Or when I was ten

00:02:59And he had just opened his own rehab center

00:03:01And kept sending me back into my room to get changed

00:03:04Whenever I came out in shorts

00:03:06Because this house is full of men, Eva

00:03:09And his voice

00:03:12Joking about how women start rotting at 25

00:03:15Still resounds in my head

00:03:17I'm 24

00:03:19And I'm convinced I'm about to start rotting

00:03:22How do I reset my brain

00:03:25I love how your eyes close

00:03:28Whenever you kiss me

00:03:31And when I'm away from you

00:03:34She's looking at you

00:03:50What do you want

00:03:53She wants cuddles

00:03:56Like your girlfriend

00:03:57She never does

00:03:58Yes

00:03:59It's because she knows that you're not very cuddle-ish

00:04:02She never comes to you either

00:04:05Yes, she does

00:04:06Yes

00:04:10jigifel

00:04:10But...

00:04:10That交 Canada

00:04:12bastard

00:04:12You're not that

00:04:13You're not that

00:04:14Yeah

00:04:15Ooh

00:04:15I

00:04:16Haven't talked about you

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00:04:18Play

00:04:18No

00:04:19I

00:04:20은

00:04:21南

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00:04:24right

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00:04:36August 7th, 9am

00:04:48My period is late, but this time I know I'm not pregnant

00:04:53My period is never late

00:04:56Unless I'm once again putting myself through the boat dreadful

00:05:00And promising experience of moving houses

00:05:03I just want to nest

00:05:05But every place is scary

00:05:35I just want to nest

00:05:39I just want to nest

00:05:41I just want to nest

00:05:43Let's go.

00:06:13Let's go.

00:06:43Let's just lean over this and you head through here.

00:06:52Let's go.

00:06:53Let's go.

00:06:54Just hang it down.

00:06:56Just hang, hang down.

00:07:26Just hang, hang, hang, hang, hang, hang.

00:07:56Just hang, hang, hang, hang.

00:08:26Just hang, hang, hang.

00:08:56Just hang, hang, hang.

00:09:26Just hang, hang.

00:09:28September 17th.

00:09:30It took me seven years of sex and attempts at touching myself to figure out how to have

00:09:35an orgasm.

00:09:36And to be honest, it doesn't seem to feel as good as it does for other people.

00:09:42Most of the time I'd rather be eating bread than fucking.

00:09:45I only kind of wish I could melt into people sometimes.

00:09:49I get this feeling where I wish I could stand chest to chest with someone and blend with

00:09:54them.

00:09:54And sex has the potential to feel like that.

00:09:57Do you ever see the drunk cat?

00:10:01Drunk cat?

00:10:02Yeah.

00:10:02I made my head joke drunk once.

00:10:03Do they get drunk?

00:10:04Well, you can get them drunk.

00:10:06Huh?

00:10:06You give them alcohol.

00:10:08By giving them alcohol.

00:10:09By giving them alcohol.

00:10:10Well, you can like, I've seen a drunk cat on YouTube anyway.

00:10:14Yeah?

00:10:15Somehow they, it's a sad, sad, sad fucking sight.

00:10:19What was it doing?

00:10:20No, they're like humans.

00:10:21They can't like walk.

00:10:22They fall over and shit.

00:10:23Really?

00:10:23Yeah.

00:10:24What was it doing?

00:10:25Give me one.

00:10:26Okay.

00:10:27I don't know.

00:10:29Your cat took speed once.

00:10:32And they also normally don't take speed, you know?

00:10:34Did it not it?

00:10:35What?

00:10:36Did it not it?

00:10:37Yeah, sure.

00:10:39You come home and there's like a cat cutting lines on the table like, shit, what the fuck?

00:10:43Don't come early.

00:10:44No, but she said, did you ever hear the story?

00:10:47No, I forgot.

00:10:47No, man, like this white, this white cat.

00:10:50I don't know if she, yeah, it was Pete.

00:10:52And then like she almost like got my ex-boyfriend to get his arm amputated.

00:11:17Hi.

00:11:19Hi.

00:11:23Hi.

00:11:27Hi.

00:11:31Hi.

00:11:35Hi.

00:11:39Hi.

00:11:41Hi.

00:12:11Hi.

00:12:41On the 1st August 19th.

00:13:11A board game that depicts the life of a woman in our century.

00:13:17There's a track with numbered steps, and you throw the dice and end up on stuff like

00:13:23Manipulative boyfriend, spent 2000 on therapy after breaking up, or

00:13:28Sexual assault, go five steps back.

00:13:32Pregnancy, skip two turns.

00:13:34Eating disorder, lose three life points.

00:13:37You win if you make it alive to the end.

00:13:41Can this look natural, do you think?

00:13:58Do you think like a client would believe that this is my hair?

00:14:04It's really black, but well, maybe.

00:14:08It's like too much hair.

00:14:11It is a lot of hair, yes, but some people have that much hair, so maybe.

00:14:15Maybe I could like wear something, but then what do I do?

00:14:19I fucking with a head on, like.

00:14:24Well, you know, when I wear my hair like open, it also looks like a wig, so maybe, you know.

00:14:32Hair does sometimes look like a wig.

00:14:34Hair does sometimes look like a wig.

00:14:37Oh!

00:14:46Like, I'm going up to the waist.

00:14:47Yeah, I am going up to the waist.

00:14:49In this hotel, in Kurfusten,

00:14:53that seems to be rich,

00:14:55because maybe you have money.

00:14:57Now, maybe I'll send you what the hotel is,

00:15:01but it's someone who gave me a lot of information,

00:15:04it seems to have a real name.

00:15:19There are two rooms.

00:15:23We are going to fill in the room under the room.

00:15:27Now I'm going to fill in the room.

00:15:29I'm going to fill in the room.

00:15:31Here's how I'm going to fill in or just get it.

00:15:33The room is in the room,

00:15:35and it doesn't matter how many other rooms can be.

00:15:38So I'm going to fill in the room by the room.

00:15:42Then, the room is in there.

00:15:45I'm going to fill in the room where,

00:15:46Stoß mich fest!

00:16:00Come on, stoß mich fest!

00:16:03Stoß mich fest!

00:16:05Stoß mich fest!

00:16:07Ja, ich will, dass du mich stoßt!

00:16:10Come on, say it!

00:16:12Ich will, dass du mich stoßt!

00:16:14Stoß mich ganz fest!

00:16:16Das sagt ich gar nicht weg!

00:16:18Ja, keine Mehrheit!

00:16:20Ich will, dass du mich stoßt!

00:16:22Ja, ich will, dass du mich stoßt!

00:16:24Stoß mich ganz fest!

00:16:33Stoß mich ganz fest!

00:16:40Ja, genau!

00:16:42Ehm, jetzt!

00:16:43Put it in.

00:16:45Oh my God.

00:16:47Shirt them fist any.

00:16:49Come on.

00:16:51Shirt them fist any.

00:16:53Shirt them fist any.

00:16:55Shirt them fist any.

00:16:57Yeah. Very good.

00:17:01Sorry.

00:17:13Shirt to men's Sonata.

00:17:19Shirt them fist.

00:17:21You sent time to men's integrand to men's star.

00:17:23Shirties of God withæω.

00:17:25Oh.

00:17:27I can't wait.

00:17:29I've watched the mom's yep be careful.

00:17:31Shirt them with his tongue.

00:17:33Super long.

00:17:35Well good.

00:17:37So, I love to make your friends of Jesus Christ.

00:17:41But that's beautiful.

00:19:43Eva Collin, 1992, Berlin-based, NB, Virgo, bisexual, self-diagnosed autistic, officially diagnosed

00:19:54with BPD, sex worker, writer, here you can read something I've published, musician, you

00:20:02can find me on SoundCloud at jsmn12051 and fuck me, anarchist, feminist, recovering addict,

00:20:11low-key nesting, Instagram and Twitter, 1000 dead cops, email evacolle at gmail.com, sex work

00:20:21email 303frida at gmail.com.

00:20:24You just moved in, right?

00:20:31Mm-hmm.

00:20:32Yes, yes, this morning.

00:20:38Oh.

00:20:39It's nice.

00:20:40That's your room.

00:20:41Yeah, that's my room.

00:20:42It's really big.

00:20:43Yeah, it's huge.

00:20:44I really love it.

00:20:45It's great.

00:20:46Do you have much stuff to bring up?

00:20:47Not really.

00:20:48I'm always, like, moving around with very little stuff.

00:20:49Like, it's nice.

00:20:50You just moved in, right?

00:20:51Mm-hmm.

00:20:52Yes, yes, this morning.

00:20:53Oh.

00:20:54It's nice.

00:20:55That's your room.

00:20:56Yeah, that's my room.

00:20:57It's really big.

00:20:58Yeah, it's huge.

00:20:59Nice.

00:21:00I really love it.

00:21:01It's great.

00:21:02Do you have much stuff to bring up?

00:21:07Not really.

00:21:12I'm always, like, moving around with very little stuff.

00:21:15Like, it's, yeah, I'm always moving.

00:21:20So, like, I've reduced the amount of stuff that I carry around

00:21:25to, like, the minimum possible.

00:21:27How long have you lived here?

00:21:30Almost two years now.

00:21:33That's a while.

00:21:35Yeah.

00:21:36Where do you come from?

00:21:38So, from where?

00:21:40I was already here in Berlin, but I'm from Italy.

00:21:44Where are you from?

00:21:46I'm from Bielefeld.

00:21:47Oh, I've been there.

00:21:49Yeah.

00:21:50For work.

00:21:51I had a client here.

00:21:52But I was only there for, like, a couple of days.

00:21:54I didn't see anything.

00:21:55Just, like, the train station, basically.

00:21:57Yeah, it's not such a spectacular city.

00:22:00It's pretty boring.

00:22:02Yeah, my city as well, the one I come from.

00:22:05It's ugly and boring.

00:22:06And everything is, like, in the shape of a man.

00:22:09Like, Mussolini.

00:22:11It's, like, really close to where Mussolini was born.

00:22:14Oh, that's bad.

00:22:15Yeah.

00:22:16But supposedly, like, the region where I'm from is, like,

00:22:20historically communist.

00:22:22But, mmm, my city not so much, really.

00:22:26Yeah.

00:22:28So, you came from Italy?

00:22:30Yeah.

00:22:31Yeah.

00:22:32I was born in the south, but I grew up in, like, the north.

00:22:35But I'm not, I was born in the south.

00:22:36I was born in the south.

00:22:41And I was born in the south.

00:22:45I'm four.

00:23:12My name is Eva.

00:23:13I live with mom and dad.

00:23:15And my grandparents in Corso Napoleone, 93.

00:23:19Dad sleeps on the couch, works night shifts, bites his nails.

00:23:24I start biting my nails, too, because they must taste nice.

00:23:27I try to be noticed when I do it, to show him that I'm like him and not like mom.

00:23:33When mom and dad are not high on heroin, they're fighting about it.

00:23:38They boil the syringes in the kitchen to disinfect them, but it doesn't seem to work.

00:23:42In fact, that gives mom hepatitis.

00:23:46I like to play with fish, putting my hands in the aquarium.

00:23:50I pick them out and try to draw blood from them with the syringes, but I grab them too hard and they die.

00:23:57One night, mom puts me in the car and I wake up in a place very far from home.

00:24:04The first day, a 22-year-old nun takes everything I own and locks it in a room.

00:24:09It's a huge room, full of toys.

00:24:13She says they will go to the poor.

00:24:15More above or down?

00:24:17How are you doing?

00:24:18How are you doing?

00:24:25How are you doing?

00:24:29How are you doing?

00:24:32It looks like there's a lot of things.

00:24:35But...

00:24:37Aspettate.

00:24:38Aspettate.

00:24:40I can't...

00:24:42Mamma, I can see you here.

00:24:44How are you doing this?

00:24:46Eh, ma per stare dritta lì...

00:24:48Questo.

00:24:49Eh, è quello per stare dritta lì.

00:24:50Cioè, questo devi stare dritto, ma devo stare dritto...

00:24:53Vai, prova, fai la prova.

00:24:55Aspetta.

00:24:57Fuoco.

00:24:59Vuoi vedere?

00:25:01Fuoco.

00:25:03Dai.

00:25:05Alcuno sarà adesso.

00:25:08Speriamo.

00:25:16Dove, dove, dove, dove il fuoco?

00:25:20Ma...

00:25:21Dove, dove, dove il fuoco?

00:25:25Non vanno bene.

00:25:28Io non mi sono mossa, eh, ma da qua.

00:25:38Quindi...

00:25:39Da qua non mi sono mossa, ma l'hai fatto buono.

00:25:49Ma è, ma l'hai fatti buono.

00:25:56Ma l'hai fatto a non muoverti e quello sta così.

00:26:00Come è possibile se non ti sei mossa?

00:26:02Io mi sono mossa, no?

00:26:04Gesù, quindi.

00:26:06Gesù Cristo l'amore.

00:26:08Dai non ti cazzare, adesso ci provo io a modo mio, dammi qua.

00:26:11Va la.

00:26:12We've almost done that.

00:26:43A few months ago, a 14-year-old girl was raped and filmed.

00:26:48The video went viral and she was the one being shamed

00:26:51by the entire country rather than her rapists.

00:26:55And then people ask me, why don't you move back to Italy?

00:27:12No.

00:27:15The lack and the travesse were not.

00:27:29This is not going to cold.

00:27:39in frigo. Scusi, ho detto che dovevi portare le orecchiette, non l'hai preso. Le ho messe

00:27:45ora dentro, stanno là. Le ho prese, stanno là. Le ho messe dentro, là. No, là, di

00:27:53piano, a piano. Allora, metti le putte. Le ho messe in frigo. Questo è il tuo tuo.

00:28:09Scusi, ho detto che dovevo fare un appello, ecco, dire a tua sua figlia.

00:28:39Sì, io volevo dirti di ritornare a casa, che ci siamo io e Zelda che soffriamo da pazzi.

00:28:46C'è il cane che piange. Torna a casa, Sara, ti prego, ovunque tu sia, per favore, chiamami.

00:28:52Fatti sentire. Non importa dove sei, basta che ritorni a casa. Ti prego, torna a casa.

00:29:09Non importa dove sei, basta che ritorni a casa. Ti prego, torna a casa. Ti prego, torna a casa.

00:29:24E se tu so che cosa vuoi, è stata una no.

00:29:33Voglio un amore, la sera, voi.

00:29:37Il mare, il sole, il mare, il sole, il mare, e non c'è più di mai.

00:29:43No, non il sole, non c'è più di mai, conto, non c'è più di mai.

00:29:52I'm going to go to the balcony in front of me.

00:30:22This is the balcony in front of the kitchen, and in the other side there is another balcony.

00:30:29And you put it on the balcony?

00:30:32Well, otherwise you could find another bigger house.

00:30:37No?

00:30:38Yes, but I want to stay alone.

00:30:41You take the stamp of your house.

00:30:43Now that I'm alone, I'm not sure.

00:30:45Yes, it's clear.

00:30:47I'm close, I'm close, I'm close, but I can't see you.

00:30:54We can't meet you immediately.

00:30:56It's beautiful if you're close, because you're close to me.

00:30:59I'm close to my house.

00:31:01I'm close to my house.

00:31:03I'm close to my house.

00:31:05I'm close to my house.

00:31:07You can't afford it.

00:31:09You can afford it.

00:31:12You can afford it.

00:31:13If you work alone.

00:31:15If you're close, you can't afford it.

00:31:17You do your work.

00:31:19That's not necessary.

00:31:21You have your debts.

00:31:23But the low age of it is superior with those little children.

00:31:28It could be a little owner of the house.

00:31:30I'm close to my house with little kids.

00:31:33I'm close to my house.

00:31:35But it could be a little mom with little children.

00:31:38You're full of a super hot.

00:31:40super hot super super boni papà giovani perché latina c'era i soldi se fai figli che bello

00:31:48è una città giovanissimi super boni cioè vai al parco la pava meno male meglio farli giovani figli

00:32:10i mom got pregnant she didn't tell anyone she went to the doctor got her appointment

00:32:23waited for the abortion but the family doctor called home and grandma and dad found out about

00:32:30it and ran to the hospital and pressured her to keep me years later she got brainwashed in rehab

00:32:36and got into another addiction which was God so she kept the second baby as well

00:33:06india ecco oggi finalmente abbiamo una novità riguardo al caso di Sara avreste ricevuto

00:33:12una segnalazione proveniente da milano che stiamo vedendo le cambio queste ore ecco quale tra le

00:33:17mie spalle è una foto recente di Sara, la ragazza scomparsa, se qualcun altro l'avesse vista

00:33:22vi chiediamo di nuovo di mettervi in contatto con la nostra relazione al numero di telefono o

00:33:27al e-mail che vedete qua sotto è importante mettere male a sbagliare ogni giorno che passa

00:33:32What would you have done if you had seen your son?

00:33:44What would you have done?

00:33:48I would have worked, I would have studied, I would have done other things, I would have remained here in Italy, I would have gone away from here, I would have remained here to my parents, I would have gone away a long time ago,

00:34:14and maybe I wouldn't be back here, or I would be back here, but only for...

00:34:20How did you do it?

00:34:22Yes, how did you do it, sure.

00:34:44How did you do it?

00:35:12Let's go.

00:35:42You know what, like, we're actually going towards that type of, Sean, we're actually going towards that kind of apocalypse where every girl left on the herd is a sex worker. Because every second girl I know is a sex worker and the apocalypse is coming.

00:36:08I don't know if the apocalypse is coming. I think it's, like, happened.

00:36:19Yeah, yeah, that's what I mean. I feel like we're in that kind of, like, society that is an empire of the center. Is it, like, a bit of center that last one should be?

00:36:34Sean?

00:36:35More on this side.

00:36:41Yeah, I think...

00:36:42Because I think working is good.

00:36:47Yeah, yeah.

00:36:48That last is off.

00:37:18That last is off.

00:37:19Yeah, yeah.

00:37:24That's not all right.

00:37:26My 3d慧

00:38:14September 19th.

00:38:26My dad is a workerist, and he left home when he was 13.

00:38:31When I turned 13 myself, he pretty much put a book about autonomia and one about its contemporary queer sin in my hand and was like,

00:38:39all right, you're good to go. I hated working, and I especially hated having to work in order to get what my bougie friends got for free.

00:38:49I was aware of what it meant to be part of the working class, but I refused to identify with work as much as my father did.

00:38:58I refused to identify with my pain. I didn't want to disappear in a permanent identity.

00:39:03I didn't want a career. I didn't want to work.

00:39:07This is the kitchen.

00:39:14Oh, very nice. I love this floor.

00:39:16Yeah.

00:39:17Cool.

00:39:17Me too.

00:39:18Bathroom.

00:39:20Cool.

00:39:21Nice.

00:39:23Are those pictures of yours?

00:39:25Nah.

00:39:26No, they're not. They're one of my favorite photographers.

00:39:29This would be your room.

00:39:31Cool.

00:39:32Yeah? Beautiful light.

00:39:34Yeah, it's very light.

00:39:36It's nice.

00:39:37And then I'll show you the balcony, because you can also use it if you want to.

00:39:44Nice.

00:39:47Oh, sweet.

00:39:48It's really beautiful.

00:39:50Amazing.

00:39:51Yeah.

00:39:52And the sun is out, like it's coming out now, and it stays out until fall.

00:39:59Oh, wow, that's beautiful.

00:40:01In the evening.

00:40:03That is beautiful.

00:40:06And do you spend a lot of time at home?

00:40:10I used to, but now, since I work only like eight days a month, I have a lot of, yeah, it's

00:40:19good, but I have a lot of time, and then I catch myself thinking, oh, I'll spend a day

00:40:23on the balcony, and then I start, and then I get a little bit sad after some time, for

00:40:28some reason.

00:40:29Yeah, same.

00:40:29And every time I try to sit outside, and I chill and do something, then I get some weirdness.

00:40:36I can't do it.

00:40:37I don't know.

00:40:37If I'm inside the house, maybe it's, I don't know, it's true.

00:40:40It's, I don't know what it is.

00:40:42It feels like I try to, if I get, if I have a stressful life, and then I sit here, it's

00:40:46nice, but if I have time, then I'm like, oh, the walls.

00:40:51Hello, Eva.

00:40:58Hi.

00:40:59Hi.

00:41:00Hi.

00:41:01Hello, Sean.

00:41:02Yeah, usually we try to keep it clean, but with three boys, sometimes it gets a bit out

00:41:09of order.

00:41:10It's big though.

00:41:11Yeah, you have everything you need, washing machine and shower, and yeah.

00:41:16So, that's Carlos, my friend from Argentina.

00:41:18Hi, Carlos.

00:41:19Hola.

00:41:20Hi.

00:41:21He's visiting and experiencing Berlin.

00:41:23That's it, your room?

00:41:24Yeah, actually, yeah.

00:41:26It's a bit messy, but that's my room.

00:41:28A lot of light.

00:41:29A hurricane came last day.

00:41:30Yeah, yeah.

00:41:31I call him a hurricane.

00:41:33Cool.

00:41:34Um, yeah, and that's the actual room that you would get.

00:41:38Cool.

00:41:39Now all the stuff is lying there, and I don't know what you can keep, or I don't know if

00:41:46you even want to keep something.

00:41:47Yeah, this bed is amazing.

00:41:49What did you work at?

00:41:51I painted people, like on a festival, you know?

00:41:54Ah, yeah?

00:41:55What festival?

00:41:56Melt, for instance, and Lollapalooza, and two others.

00:42:01I see.

00:42:02That's cool.

00:42:03Yeah, it was really nice.

00:42:04I mean, you paint people, it's not a really hard job.

00:42:07Well, yeah, it's great, and everyone's in a good mood, so.

00:42:10Yeah, and you, what do you do?

00:42:11That's cool.

00:42:12Do you study here, or?

00:42:13I work as a sex worker, and I write poems and make music.

00:42:17Oh, really?

00:42:18Mm-hmm.

00:42:19Yeah, yeah, I'm a main escort myself.

00:42:21Really?

00:42:22Oh, that's great.

00:42:23Oh, nice.

00:42:24How long have you been doing it?

00:42:26Uh, yeah, I, uh, four years, yeah, yeah.

00:42:29Oh, yeah, same.

00:42:30Yeah, yeah.

00:42:31Yeah, yeah.

00:42:32Oh, really?

00:42:33Oh, that's great.

00:42:34And then you also went to Melbourne in Australia?

00:42:36Did you do sex work there?

00:42:38I made a break myself, so I was thinking, uh, just working in construction for a while.

00:42:43Mm-hmm.

00:42:44Yeah, I was preparing that for, back for Germany.

00:42:46It's kind of good there, because it's decriminalized.

00:42:48Oh, yeah, is it?

00:42:49Yeah.

00:42:50I don't know.

00:42:51I did try.

00:42:52Yeah.

00:42:53You know, you know a lot, eh, about this whole...

00:42:56Oh, well, no, I mean, I did it for a while, and...

00:42:58Yeah.

00:42:59So, yeah, that's cool.

00:43:01Yeah, Melbourne is so pretty, like...

00:43:03It's like, yeah.

00:43:04But you're serious.

00:43:05You...

00:43:06You seriously were...

00:43:07Because I was thinking you were joking around.

00:43:09Eh?

00:43:10Yeah, I was thinking you were joking around.

00:43:12No, I was not joking.

00:43:13Were you joking?

00:43:14Yeah, yeah.

00:43:15You were joking?

00:43:16Yeah, yeah.

00:43:17No!

00:43:18But you were seriously a sex worker.

00:43:20What?

00:43:21Why would you joke about that?

00:43:51Why would you joke about that?

00:43:54Well, what's so?

00:43:55There's where you go.

00:43:56Where are you feeling?

00:43:57Where's that?

00:43:58Where's that?

00:43:58Where are you feeling?

00:43:59Oh, yuck.

00:44:00I'm feeling the same.

00:44:00Not just, it's like you weren't leaving.

00:44:01The reason why would you say I was trying to cheat if you were afflicted,

00:44:03But you did the same.

00:44:05Where were you feeling?

00:44:06There's a bunch of an estud�에 on, Romans 18.

00:44:08But you've got to put youranti Musik in.

00:44:10It's likely to be a place.

00:44:10Interesting whether it was for beginning to take a life.

00:44:12You can probably tell you.

00:44:13It was like because him was...

00:44:15I wasn't lazy.

00:44:16But you really самой how inspired to stop this.

00:44:18Like I'm funny.

00:44:19What did you see?

00:44:19I'm 16, and I live in the countryside, on a dark state road where buses stop running

00:44:27at 7 p.m., so if I want to go out, someone has to pick me up.

00:44:32I don't have any girlfriends, and boys always think giving you a ride home means you're

00:44:37gonna hook up.

00:44:38I don't know how to say no, nor would most of them listen anyway, so in order to go out,

00:44:44I let everyone fuck me.

00:44:47One day I complain about it to a 40-year-old family friend with two kids, and he offers

00:44:53to drive me to the next concert I want to go to.

00:44:56I accept.

00:44:58The concert is nice, we hang out and smoke pot, and on the way back home we get the munchies.

00:45:05Not a single restaurant is open, so he suggests to eat something at his place.

00:45:10I propose some mayo and olio pasta.

00:45:13Once there we smoke a little more, then I ask him where he keeps the pans, but he acts

00:45:17surprised.

00:45:18He says, so you really want to cook?

00:45:21And I say, well, yes, otherwise why are we here now?

00:45:25After dinner, Sticks is cocking my asshole by surprise.

00:45:30I think it's my fault.

00:45:31I should have known better.

00:45:37I'm doing much better.

00:45:38I think it's my fault.

00:45:39I think it's my fault.

00:45:40I'm doing much better.

00:45:41I hope you're having fun.

00:45:41I think it's my fault.

00:45:42What a beautiful little time is that you know what you're doing?

00:45:43I think it's my fault.

00:45:44I'm doing much better.

00:45:45Wait, I had put a huge preservative and attached to it.

00:46:02Really?

00:46:04Yes.

00:46:05I had done all the stuff that came out and I had bathed all of it.

00:46:17No, it wasn't this.

00:46:20There are several times.

00:46:23The first time it was in the fields and there was not been able to do so well because it didn't fit.

00:46:31But anyway, that counts as the first time, because at least the intention was.

00:46:36It's only that we didn't fit so much there.

00:46:38But anyway, we thought that you would put you on the tipa and try to throw the pillow.

00:46:43And then you'd be amazed, but it doesn't fit.

00:46:46Let's go.

00:46:51My hometown never felt like home.

00:46:54We only moved there because my parents got a spot in a rehab founded by the church.

00:46:59It's a shithole, where there's no one and nothing.

00:47:02And the city center looks like one of those zombie towns in the video games,

00:47:06where you're waiting for something to happen and just wander around and click on shit,

00:47:10and nothing happens at all.

00:47:12Most of my friends now live somewhere else,

00:47:15while who's left is severely depressed and addicted to coke.

00:47:19Which at least is good coke.

00:47:21Whenever I'm back, we hang out at the bar and get shit-faced,

00:47:24while talking about all the different antidepressants that we tried and didn't work.

00:47:28And at the end of the night, we're either snorting Doxepin or soaking cigarettes in Klonopin

00:47:34in an attempt to calm down from the blow because there's nothing you can do after 2am.

00:47:39You kind of figured out what you bragi is.

00:47:42Whyd be the

00:47:51heavyermaids that have full momentum,

00:47:52and, again,

00:47:53I thought,

00:47:54how can the temple be installed when it's not there?

00:47:56In the beginning,

00:47:57I didn't have aStopumi administered.

00:47:59Whatever.

00:48:00Yeah.

00:48:02Why am I going to take a moment down?

00:48:03I try to be more harmonious, put your hand on it, it's soft, if you do a massage like this one, it's crazy.

00:48:17It's true, look how I'm becoming the one to make the message.

00:48:21I've learned.

00:48:23How are you doing here?

00:48:25What do you think?

00:48:31What do you think?

00:48:34What do you think?

00:48:35You're doing well.

00:48:37To me, this is for you, Carlos,

00:48:40that is worth giving me a gift to this one.

00:48:43In the name of whom?

00:48:44You're doing well.

00:48:46You're doing well.

00:48:47I'm doing well.

00:48:48You're doing well.

00:48:50You're doing well.

00:48:52I can't even call it I'm bravo a bianna met just a

00:48:57cosa che con la gente fa il nome che gli

00:49:00l'ora di genitori ti devi chiamare tutta la vita così però da qualcuno

00:49:03come ti chiamare come ti chiameresti piace tra me

00:49:09capri oggi abbiamo letto i diari non trovato un posto in cui dicevo maio

00:49:19non mi ricordo come dicevo il socialismo scientifico di marx è la cosa più

00:49:24intelligente mai pensata di 15 a 14 anni infatti mio mio fratello si chiama

00:49:29carlo per smaccar marx

00:49:36io volevo chiamare proprio con la k però un po troppo è un po troppo abbiamo

00:49:40chiamato carlo e invece te non ti volevi chiamare francesca non mi piacciono i

00:49:47nomi lunghi e poi mi piace che non è uguale al babbo

00:49:51tutti i nomi che ci sono

00:49:54beh al babbo si d'accordo

00:49:56ma anche non ho mai capito

00:49:58cosa

00:49:58ho mai capito

00:50:49I'm going to tell this story again, because I belong to that moment very much.

00:51:07My dad only hit me three times in my life.

00:51:10The last time I was 17, that's when I left home.

00:51:14He was accusing me of asking for too much,

00:51:17but what I really asked for was nothing.

00:51:20I was never at home, he wouldn't give me any money,

00:51:23and we had no relationship whatsoever.

00:51:27He was frustrated by his painful minimum wage job and was throwing it all on me.

00:51:32And in the end he went like,

00:51:34you're going to end up like your mother, a junkie.

00:51:37And I said, I will be a prostitute.

00:51:40The system fucks you anyway, but I'll make money out of it.

00:51:42Then he slapped me and I stepped on the windowsill and said I would jump.

00:51:48But my stepmom pulled me down and dragged me by my neck across the whole house.

00:51:53It's all good now.

00:51:54It's really good now.

00:51:59Okay.

00:52:06I have.

00:52:17It's really good now.

00:52:19I don't know.

00:52:49I'll take a look at the car, please.

00:53:16It's a motorcycle!

00:57:41I love that one.

00:57:43I love that one.

00:57:45Very good.

00:57:47Very good.

00:57:49Nice.

00:57:51I like it a lot.

00:57:53May 22nd.

00:57:55May 22nd.

00:57:5710 a.m.

00:57:59I wish I could delete information from my brain to make room for more relevant stuff.

00:58:05For example, I wish I could erase the Bible and all about Catholicism.

00:58:11Like, I know everything.

00:58:13I quote Jesus all the time.

00:58:15We're going to do the time.

00:58:17We're going to do the time second thing.

00:58:21Do you say selfie in Italian?

00:58:23Selfie.

00:58:24Selfie.

00:58:25Selfie.

00:58:27Yay.

00:58:29I'm sorry.

00:58:31I like that one.

00:58:41I like this one.

00:58:43We can do better.

00:58:45We can do better.

00:58:47No, we can't.

00:58:49I know.

00:58:53How does Maya always pose with her hands like that, right?

00:59:01I like that one.

00:59:03That's one.

00:59:21The first time you and me took a bath together, remember?

00:59:25That sexy time?

00:59:27I was also wearing a bra.

00:59:29A bra?

00:59:30Yeah.

00:59:31You don't remember that, but I was wearing a bra.

00:59:32Oh, well, yeah.

00:59:33I think we were wearing a bra.

00:59:35It was cute.

00:59:36No, it was cute.

00:59:37Yeah, it was cute.

00:59:38Because that was when I had just met you and I was still quite shy.

00:59:41No boobs yet.

00:59:42Too early for boobs.

00:59:44You don't deserve my boobs yet.

00:59:46You're going to ask me.

00:59:47Not deserve them.

00:59:48I was like, you're going to make fun of my Ingram nipple for sure.

00:59:52Dude, I have one.

00:59:54It's a condition.

00:59:55Look it up.

00:59:56It's so cute.

00:59:57I want one.

00:59:58You don't want that.

00:59:59It's so bad.

01:00:00Yes.

01:00:01Not too bad.

01:00:02Nothing bad.

01:00:03Nothing bad.

01:00:04Nothing bad.

01:00:05Nothing bad.

01:00:06What are you talking about?

01:00:08It looks so strange.

01:00:09Because the one nipple is normal and the other one is like...

01:00:12That's cool.

01:00:13It's a deformation.

01:00:14I used to be a pimp without emotion.

01:00:27I can't sing that.

01:00:28Whatever.

01:00:29And now you got me thinking.

01:00:30I'm thinking about you.

01:00:31Do you think about me?

01:00:44Nice.

01:00:45Hey friends.

01:00:46Hey.

01:00:47Hey.

01:00:48Hey.

01:00:49I'm coming with my hidden power.

01:00:51Hey.

01:00:52Hey.

01:00:53Hey.

01:00:54Hey.

01:00:55You got anotherisenquelette.

01:00:56Hey.

01:00:57Hey you got me.

01:00:58Hey.

01:00:59What is this?

01:01:00Hey?

01:01:01Hey you are mine.

01:01:02Hey.

01:01:03Hey.

01:01:04Hey.

01:01:05It's like a Dengie place.

01:01:33It's a crazy place.

01:01:35Dengie place.

01:01:36Dengie place, yeah.

01:01:37I'm also going to drink a shot to get real, real crazy.

01:01:42The bathrooms are cool, by the way.

01:01:44Yeah?

01:01:45Yeah.

01:01:46Why, why, why?

01:01:47They're big.

01:01:48It's big.

01:01:49Yeah.

01:01:50And also I was confused because I didn't know what was the women's bathroom and what was the men's bathroom.

01:01:54And I thought it was unisex.

01:01:56Yeah.

01:01:57Because there's like a picture of a...

01:01:59Is it empty?

01:02:01Should we just leave?

01:02:03No, we're going to bring it back to the shower because we're nice.

01:02:06I'm going to put it in my bag.

01:02:07We're nice.

01:02:08So there was like a... you'll see at the bathroom.

01:02:13So it's like not clear which is the men's room and what the...

01:02:17Why?

01:02:18Because Eva, I'm sure she wants to paint.

01:02:21I think, I think Eva lived here for like six years and she never told us.

01:02:27Yeah, because she like...

01:02:28She moves around like...

01:02:29And because she knows where to go.

01:02:31And I think...

01:02:32She just goes man.

01:02:33She just goes like wherever.

01:02:35Eva, can I write something too?

01:02:40Why are you writing?

01:02:41Don't do that.

01:02:42Eva was here.

01:02:43Okay.

01:02:44That's like the most typical thing that people write.

01:02:59Malise was here.

01:03:00Eva was here.

01:03:01I never felt like I was that thing people mean when they say girl.

01:03:11I refused anything that was considered feminine.

01:03:14But I liked the body I was born in, since it was sinuous and aerodynamic,

01:03:19which were characteristics I valued a lot.

01:03:22It blended better with the surroundings rather than stand out like the male body.

01:03:27I wanted air and water to slide over me as if I was made of glass.

01:03:33But feminine clothes made it very hard to be aerodynamic and fast.

01:03:38I did become incredibly dysphoric when I got my first period though.

01:03:43It was terrible.

01:03:44I cried desperately for days.

01:03:46It felt so wrong.

01:03:48There were only like four people who had seen my group.

01:03:58It's honey.

01:03:59My mother.

01:04:01And this guy, my family, and I was so wasted.

01:04:06Which one?

01:04:07I was okay.

01:04:09Don't you remember you told me you loved me, baby?

01:04:16You said you'd be coming back this way to you, baby.

01:04:21Baby, baby, baby, baby, oh, baby.

01:04:26I love you.

01:04:30I really do.

01:04:32My mother.

01:04:33My mother.

01:04:46Baby, baby, what'd you do?

01:04:48I love you.

01:04:49Baby.

01:04:51Baby.

01:04:53Baby.

01:04:56Baby.

01:04:58Baby.

01:07:05Ha ha ha

01:07:10Ha ha ha ha ha ha

01:07:18Ha ha ha

01:07:23Every time I go and turn my hand

01:07:28I'm alone again and again

01:07:33I'm so mad that you just don't play concerts for a living but I don't know

01:07:54anything about music theory it doesn't matter like the most famous people

01:07:58basically like we're not like trained in fucking school maybe I'll be famous

01:08:02after I die no baby you have to make money off music maybe I'm gonna book you

01:08:09shows and they just drag for my sex work profile I'll just like to like sing to

01:08:14them instead of fucking love but still make them pay one song 180

01:08:23when I was on acid the other oh I told you when I was tripping like the the net started turning

01:08:39rainbow and like zooming into it all the little corners and stuff it was so pretty

01:08:44what what turned rainbows when I was on acid the other day and I was laying on my bed the net um

01:08:53over my bed started turning rainbow and like the lines were like swimming into each other so how

01:08:59much acid did you take just a tab I took half of it just a time I took half of a tab at like six in the

01:09:05morning and then at ten I took another half of a tab and I tripped all day pretty much and I

01:09:11didn't sleep the night before because I was at Joyce and Venus and I drank a whole bottle of vodka so I

01:09:16was like crazy like somebody please come snuggle me I feel like I'm gonna die it was intense

01:09:23but I just dropped the needle on the floor and then like licked it then put it back up

01:09:30story of life time did you ever lay in this hammock when you were okay it's nice I would wrap it around

01:09:40my body like a cocoon and then when you come out it's like everything is new

01:09:46so

01:09:52so

01:09:56so

01:09:58so

01:10:00so

01:10:03so

01:10:07so

01:11:57No no no, go on...

01:12:01No, no, go on!

01:12:05Back up...

01:12:12This is beautiful, this cushion!

01:12:27Good times.

01:12:30What's the bar?

01:12:57sorry for the inconvenience you may have recognized in early childhood that your nose tip

01:13:09is bigger than other people's that's why this is an issue for you the desire to be like others

01:13:16slash recognition slash pretty is what makes people not like their nose i feel horrible um

01:13:23i like your nose particularly on facebook yeah this guy just sent me this message i've never

01:13:28like i've never met him before it's like in my message requests is it like sending it to

01:13:33everyone or like i don't know is it like a motivational message yeah it's like a motivational

01:13:37message about why i should love my nose which i do my nose is amazing um i like your nose particularly

01:13:43because the aller cartilages are over proportionate it's a special word i don't know what that means

01:13:50believe me your nose is very with like five es cool it's a matter of perception like always in

01:13:58beauty this is a man who has function yeah like a literally put his dick in a nose

01:14:02august 9th 4 p.m it's gonna be a documentary about a girl or something like that who used to be an

01:14:13optimist but chooses to slowly withdraw from any type of social interaction after being repeatedly

01:14:20raped by capitalism and the patriarchy until she decides to bury herself into her own grave

01:14:27coming soon

01:14:50again

01:15:01I'll get this back and bring them back to the old skin

01:15:12add the lights and take off

01:15:20butter and light

01:15:31I don't know.

01:16:01Hey Eva, three weeks ago I came back from six months of traveling, which was great. I live together with my three best girlfriends. None of us study, so we hang out in the flat or go clubbing a lot.

01:16:26I'm doing sex work sometimes and I'm searching for something that I'm up to for maybe more than a year.

01:16:32I'm used to people who make me feel strange and wrong, but you gave me more confidence somehow. On my left hand I only have two fingers, which I used to hate, but now I like it. Just want to let you know. Hope you're doing well.

01:16:54Dear Eva, I am from the south of Italy, one of these close-minded small towns just like you.

01:17:04Two years ago, I fled to the city where I'm working a day job in a startup, packing healthy pills in daily dosages, and at night I do shifts in a brewery close to my house.

01:17:16I hate working, but it's the only thing that makes me feel productive.

01:17:20I also paint people's portraits sometimes, and I would like to paint yours one day. Although I assume it would never be able to resemble your freedom. I love you.

01:17:31I live in Rotterdam and have a two-year-old child that I love. But I don't just want to be a mom. I want to accomplish something that would allow me to feel proud of myself.

01:17:47Thing is, I still don't know what I am good at. My boyfriend and I were thinking on renting our place on Airbnb and move to the countryside to start a farming business.

01:18:00Or maybe move somewhere south where it's summer all year long and I would get less depressed, though it's even harder to find a job there. Wish me luck.

01:18:10I need to tell you this now, though I have never met you. You have really helped me become myself.

01:18:22I'm a 26-year-old from Melbourne, and a week ago I kissed a girl for the first time, and it felt better than any kiss with a man before.

01:18:32Now I'm really scared, but also relieved, and reading you calms me.

01:18:37This summer you made me want to move to Berlin, and I hope this is what I will do one day.

01:18:45I started a joke

01:19:08I started the whole world crying

01:19:15But I couldn't see

01:19:24That the joke was on me

01:19:33I started a joke

01:19:40I started to cry

01:19:43I started to cry

01:19:45I started the whole world laughing