Dive into the haunting short story, A Dream of Armageddon by H.G. Wells, a chilling and prescient tale of love, duty, and global conflict. First published in 1901, Wells’s visionary narrative follows a man whose vivid dreams transport him to a future on the brink of a devastating world war. He must choose between his personal happiness with the woman he loves and his public duty to prevent a catastrophic conflict.
This full-length audiobook brings to life the story of a man whose dreams become a more powerful reality than his waking life. Wells, writing before the invention of the airplane, eerily foretells the horrors of aerial warfare and the destructive potential of modern technology. The story is a profound meditation on human nature, the choices we make, and the tragic consequences of prioritizing personal desires over the collective good.
Perfect for fans of classic science fiction, speculative fiction, and cautionary tales, A Dream of Armageddon remains a powerful and relevant commentary on war and humanity's potential for self-destruction. This is more than just a story; it's a window into the mind of a prophetic genius.
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This full-length audiobook brings to life the story of a man whose dreams become a more powerful reality than his waking life. Wells, writing before the invention of the airplane, eerily foretells the horrors of aerial warfare and the destructive potential of modern technology. The story is a profound meditation on human nature, the choices we make, and the tragic consequences of prioritizing personal desires over the collective good.
Perfect for fans of classic science fiction, speculative fiction, and cautionary tales, A Dream of Armageddon remains a powerful and relevant commentary on war and humanity's potential for self-destruction. This is more than just a story; it's a window into the mind of a prophetic genius.
#ADreamOfArmageddon #ClassicLiterature #ShortStory #BookRecommendation #BookTok
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00:00:00Gates of Imagination presents
00:00:02A Dream of Armageddon by Herbert George Wells
00:00:08Read by Arthur Lane
00:00:10The man with the white face entered the carriage at rugby.
00:00:17He moved slowly in spite of the urgency of his porter,
00:00:20and even while he was still on the platform I noted how ill he seemed.
00:00:24He dropped into the corner over against me with a sigh,
00:00:27made an incomplete attempt to arrange his travelling shawl,
00:00:32and became motionless, with his eyes staring vacantly.
00:00:36Presently he was moved by a sense of my observation,
00:00:40looked up at me, and put out a spiritless hand for his newspaper.
00:00:45Then he glanced again in my direction.
00:00:48I feigned to read.
00:00:50I feared I had unwittingly embarrassed him,
00:00:52and in a moment I was surprised to find him speaking.
00:00:55I beg your pardon, said I.
00:00:58That book, he repeated, pointing a lean finger,
00:01:01is about dreams.
00:01:04Obviously, I answered, for it was Fortnum Roscoe's Dream States,
00:01:08and the title was on the cover.
00:01:10He hung silent for a space, as if he sought words.
00:01:15Yes, he said at last, but they tell you nothing.
00:01:19I did not catch his meaning for a second.
00:01:21They don't know, he added.
00:01:24I looked a little more attentively at his face.
00:01:28There are dreams, he said, and dreams.
00:01:31That sort of proposition I never dispute.
00:01:34I suppose, he hesitated.
00:01:37Do you ever dream?
00:01:39I mean vividly.
00:01:41I dream very little, I answered.
00:01:43I doubt if I have three vivid dreams in a year.
00:01:47Ah, he said, and seemed for a moment to collect his thoughts.
00:01:51Your dreams don't mix with your memories, he asked abruptly.
00:01:55You don't find yourself in doubt.
00:01:57Did this happen or did it not?
00:02:00Hardly ever, except just for a momentary hesitation now and then.
00:02:04I suppose few people do.
00:02:05Does he say, he indicated the book, says it happens at times and gives the usual explanation
00:02:12about intensity of impression and the like, to account for its not happening as a rule.
00:02:19I suppose you know something of these theories.
00:02:22Very little, except that they are wrong.
00:02:25His emaciated hand played with the strap of the window for a time.
00:02:30I prepared to resume reading, and that seemed to precipitate his next remark.
00:02:35He leant forward, almost as though he would touch me.
00:02:39Isn't there something called consecutive dreaming that goes on night after night?
00:02:44I believe there is.
00:02:46There are cases given in most books on mental trouble.
00:02:49Mental trouble?
00:02:51Yes, I dare say there are.
00:02:53It's the right place for them.
00:02:55But what I mean...
00:02:56He looked at his bony knuckles.
00:02:59Is that sort of thing always dreaming?
00:03:02Is it dreaming?
00:03:03Or is it something else?
00:03:07Mightn't it be something else?
00:03:10I should have snubbed his persistent conversation, but for the drawn anxiety of his face.
00:03:15I remember now the look of his faded eyes, and the lids red-stained.
00:03:20Perhaps you know that look.
00:03:22I'm not just arguing about a matter of opinion, he said.
00:03:25The thing's killing me.
00:03:28Dreams?
00:03:28If you call them dreams.
00:03:32Night after night.
00:03:33Vivid.
00:03:34So vivid.
00:03:36This.
00:03:36He indicated the landscape that went streaming by the window.
00:03:40Seems unreal in comparison.
00:03:42I can scarcely remember who I am.
00:03:44What business I am on.
00:03:45He paused.
00:03:47Even now.
00:03:48The dream is always the same, do you mean?
00:03:51I asked.
00:03:52It's over.
00:03:54You mean?
00:03:55I died.
00:03:57Died.
00:03:58Smashed and killed.
00:03:59And now, so much of me as that dream was, is dead.
00:04:03Dead forever.
00:04:04I dreamt I was another man, you know, living in a different part of the world and in a different time.
00:04:09I dreamt that night after night, night after night I woke into that other life, fresh scenes and fresh happenings, until I came upon the last.
00:04:20When you died.
00:04:22When I died.
00:04:24And since then.
00:04:25No, he said.
00:04:27Thank God.
00:04:28That was the end of the dream.
00:04:30It was clear I was in for this dream.
00:04:33And after all, I had an hour before me.
00:04:35The light was fading fast, and Fortnum Roscoe has a dreary way with him.
00:04:40Living in a different time, I said.
00:04:43Do you mean in some different age?
00:04:46Yes.
00:04:47Past?
00:04:48No, to come.
00:04:50To come.
00:04:52The year 3000, for example.
00:04:54I don't know what year it was.
00:04:57I did when I was asleep, when I was dreaming, that is.
00:04:59But not now.
00:05:01Not now that I am awake.
00:05:02There's a lot of things I have forgotten since I woke out of these dreams, though I knew them at the time when I was.
00:05:10I suppose it was dreaming.
00:05:12They called the year differently from our way of calling the year.
00:05:16What did they call it?
00:05:18He put his hand to his forehead.
00:05:20No, said he.
00:05:22I forget.
00:05:24He sat smiling weakly.
00:05:26For a moment I feared he did not mean to tell me his dream.
00:05:29As a rule, I hate people who tell their dreams, but this struck me differently.
00:05:34I proffered assistance, even.
00:05:37It began, I suggested.
00:05:39It was vivid from the first.
00:05:43I seemed to wake up in it suddenly.
00:05:46And it's curious that in these dreams I am speaking of, I never remembered this life I am living now.
00:05:52It seemed as if the dream life was enough while it lasted.
00:05:56Perhaps.
00:05:57But I will tell you how I find myself when I do my best to recall it all.
00:06:01I don't remember anything dearly until I found myself sitting in a sort of loggia, looking out over the sea.
00:06:08I had been dozing, and suddenly I woke up, fresh and vivid, not a bit dreamlike, because the girl had stopped fanning me.
00:06:17The girl?
00:06:18Yes, the girl.
00:06:20You must not interrupt or you will put me out.
00:06:23He stopped abruptly.
00:06:25You won't think I'm mad, he said.
00:06:28No, I answered.
00:06:30You've been dreaming.
00:06:31Tell me your dream.
00:06:33I woke up, I say, because the girl had stopped fanning me.
00:06:37I was not surprised to find myself there or anything of that sort, you understand.
00:06:42I did not feel I had fallen into it suddenly.
00:06:45I simply took it up at that point.
00:06:48Whatever memory I had of this life, this 19th century life, faded as I woke, vanished like a dream.
00:06:56I knew all about myself.
00:06:57I knew that my name was no longer Cooper, but Heedon, and all about my position in the world.
00:07:03I've forgotten a lot since I woke.
00:07:05There's a want of connection.
00:07:07But it was all quite clear and matter-of-fact then.
00:07:10He hesitated again, gripping the window strap, putting his face forward and looking up at me appealingly.
00:07:16This seems bosh to you?
00:07:19No, no, I cried.
00:07:21Go on, tell me what this loggia was like.
00:07:24It was not really a loggia.
00:07:26I don't know what to call it.
00:07:28It faced south.
00:07:29It was small.
00:07:31It was all in shadow except the semicircle above the balcony that showed the sky and sea and the corner where the girl stood.
00:07:37I was on a couch.
00:07:40It was a metal couch with light-striped cushions.
00:07:43And the girl was leaning over the balcony with her back to me.
00:07:46The light of the sunrise fell on her ear and cheek.
00:07:50Her pretty white neck and the little curls that nestled there and her white shoulder were in the sun.
00:07:55And all the grace of her body was in the cool blue shadow.
00:07:58She was dressed.
00:08:01How can I describe it?
00:08:03It was easy and flowing.
00:08:05And altogether there she stood, so that it came to me how beautiful and desirable she was, as though I had never seen her before.
00:08:13And when at last I sighed and raised myself upon my arm, she turned her face to me.
00:08:19He stopped.
00:08:21I have lived three and fifty years in this world.
00:08:24I have had mother, sisters, friends, wife and daughters, all their faces.
00:08:30The play of their faces, I know.
00:08:32But the face of this girl, it is much more real to me.
00:08:36I can bring it back into memory so that I see it again.
00:08:40I could draw it or paint it.
00:08:42And after all…
00:08:44He stopped.
00:08:45But I said nothing.
00:08:47The face of a dream.
00:08:49The face of a dream.
00:08:51She was beautiful.
00:08:52Not that beauty which is terrible, cold and worshipful, like the beauty of a saint.
00:08:58Nor that beauty that stirs fierce passions.
00:09:01But a sort of radiation.
00:09:03Sweet lips that softened into smiles.
00:09:05And grave grey eyes.
00:09:08And she moved gracefully.
00:09:10She seemed to have part with all pleasant and gracious things.
00:09:13He stopped.
00:09:15And his face was downcast and hidden.
00:09:18Then he looked up at me and went on,
00:09:20making no further attempt to disguise his absolute belief in the reality of his story.
00:09:26You see, I had thrown up my plans and ambitions.
00:09:30Thrown up all I had ever worked for or desired for her sake.
00:09:35I had been a master man away there in the north,
00:09:38with influence and property and a great reputation.
00:09:41But none of it had seemed worth having beside her.
00:09:43I had come to the place, this city of sunny pleasures, with her,
00:09:49and left all those things to reckon ruin,
00:09:52just to save a remnant, at least, of my life.
00:09:55While I had been in love with her before I knew that she had any care for me,
00:10:00before I had imagined that she would dare,
00:10:02that we should dare,
00:10:04all my life had seemed vain and hollow.
00:10:07Dust and ashes.
00:10:08It was dust and ashes.
00:10:11Night after night,
00:10:12and through the long days I had longed and desired,
00:10:16my soul had beaten against the thing forbidden.
00:10:19But it is impossible for one man to tell another just these things.
00:10:23It's emotion.
00:10:25It's a tint,
00:10:26a light that comes and goes.
00:10:29Only while it's there,
00:10:30everything changes, everything.
00:10:33The thing is,
00:10:34I came away and left them in their crisis to do what they could.
00:10:36Left whom?
00:10:39I asked,
00:10:40puzzled.
00:10:42The people up in the north there.
00:10:44You see,
00:10:45in this dream,
00:10:46anyhow,
00:10:47I had been a big man.
00:10:49The sort of man men come to trust in,
00:10:52to group themselves about.
00:10:54Millions of men who had never seen me
00:10:56were ready to do things and risk things
00:10:58because of their confidence in me.
00:11:00I had been playing that game for years,
00:11:02that big laborious game,
00:11:04that vague,
00:11:05monstrous political game
00:11:07amidst intrigues and betrayals,
00:11:09speech and agitation.
00:11:11It was a vast,
00:11:12weltering world,
00:11:13and at last I had a sort of leadership
00:11:15against the gang.
00:11:17You know it was called the gang,
00:11:19a sort of compromise of scoundrelly projects
00:11:21and base ambitions
00:11:22and vast public emotional stupidities
00:11:25and catchwords.
00:11:27The gang that kept the world noisy
00:11:29and blind year by year
00:11:30and all the while that it was drifting,
00:11:33drifting towards infinite disaster.
00:11:36But I can't expect you to understand
00:11:38the shades and complications of the year,
00:11:40the year something or other ahead.
00:11:43I had it all,
00:11:44down to the smallest details,
00:11:46in my dream.
00:11:48I suppose I had been dreaming of it
00:11:49before I awoke,
00:11:51and the fading outline
00:11:52of some queer new development
00:11:53I had imagined
00:11:54still hung about me
00:11:56as I rubbed my eyes.
00:11:57It was some grubby affair
00:11:59that made me thank God
00:12:01for the sunlight.
00:12:02I sat up on the couch
00:12:04and remained looking at the woman
00:12:05and rejoicing,
00:12:06rejoicing that I had come away
00:12:08out of all that tumult
00:12:09and folly and violence
00:12:10before it was too late.
00:12:12After all, I thought,
00:12:14this is life,
00:12:15love and beauty,
00:12:17desire and delight,
00:12:18are they not worth
00:12:19all those dismal struggles
00:12:20for vague, gigantic ends?
00:12:23And I blamed myself
00:12:24for having ever sought to be a leader
00:12:26when I might have given
00:12:27my days to love.
00:12:29But then, thought I,
00:12:31if I had not spent
00:12:32my early days sternly
00:12:33and austerely,
00:12:34I might have wasted myself
00:12:36upon vain and worthless women,
00:12:38and at the thought
00:12:39all my being
00:12:40went out in love
00:12:41and tenderness
00:12:41to my dear mistress,
00:12:42my dear lady,
00:12:44who had come at last
00:12:45and compelled me,
00:12:46compelled me
00:12:47by her invincible charm for me,
00:12:49to lay that life aside.
00:12:51You are worth it,
00:12:53I said,
00:12:54speaking without
00:12:54intending her to hear.
00:12:56You are worth it,
00:12:57my dearest one,
00:12:58worth pride and praise
00:13:00and all things.
00:13:01Love,
00:13:02to have you,
00:13:03is worth them altogether.
00:13:05And at the murmur
00:13:06of my voice,
00:13:07she turned about.
00:13:09Come and see,
00:13:10she cried.
00:13:11I can hear her now.
00:13:13Come and see the sunrise
00:13:14upon Monte Solaro.
00:13:17I remember how I sprang
00:13:18to my feet
00:13:18and joined her
00:13:19at the balcony.
00:13:20She put a white hand
00:13:21upon my shoulder
00:13:22and pointed towards
00:13:24great masses of limestone,
00:13:26flushing,
00:13:26as it were,
00:13:27into life.
00:13:28I looked,
00:13:29but first I noted
00:13:30the sunlight on her face,
00:13:32caressing the lines
00:13:33of her cheeks and neck.
00:13:35How can I describe to you
00:13:36the scene we had before us?
00:13:38We were at Capri.
00:13:40I have been there,
00:13:41I said.
00:13:42I have clambered up
00:13:43Monte Solaro
00:13:44and drunk Vero Capri,
00:13:46muddy stuff like cider,
00:13:47at the summit.
00:13:48Ah,
00:13:49said the man
00:13:50with the white face.
00:13:51Then perhaps
00:13:52you can tell me.
00:13:53You will know
00:13:54if this was indeed Capri.
00:13:56For in this life
00:13:57I have never been there.
00:13:59Let me describe it.
00:14:00We were in a little room,
00:14:02one of a vast multitude
00:14:04of little rooms,
00:14:05very cool and sunny,
00:14:07hollowed out of the limestone
00:14:08of a sort of cape,
00:14:10very high above the sea.
00:14:12The whole island,
00:14:13you know,
00:14:14was one enormous hotel,
00:14:16complex beyond explaining,
00:14:17and on the other side
00:14:19there were miles
00:14:20of floating hotels
00:14:21and huge floating stages
00:14:23to which the flying machines came.
00:14:25They called it a pleasure city.
00:14:28Of course,
00:14:29there was none of that
00:14:30in your time.
00:14:31Rather,
00:14:32I should say,
00:14:33is none of that now.
00:14:35Of course.
00:14:36Now,
00:14:37yes.
00:14:37Well,
00:14:40this room of ours
00:14:41was at the extremity
00:14:42of the cape,
00:14:43so that one could see
00:14:44east and west.
00:14:46Eastward was a great cliff,
00:14:48a thousand feet high perhaps,
00:14:50coldly grey
00:14:51except for one
00:14:52bright edge of gold.
00:14:54And beyond it
00:14:54the Isle of the Sirens,
00:14:56and a falling coast
00:14:57that faded
00:14:58and passed
00:14:58into the hot sunrise.
00:15:00And when one turned
00:15:01to the west,
00:15:02distinct and near,
00:15:04was a little bay,
00:15:05a little beach
00:15:06still in shadow.
00:15:07And out of that shadow
00:15:09rose Solaro,
00:15:10straight and tall,
00:15:12flushed and golden-crested,
00:15:14like a beauty throned,
00:15:15and the white moon
00:15:16was floating behind her
00:15:17in the sky.
00:15:19And before us,
00:15:20from east to west,
00:15:21stretched the many-tinted sea,
00:15:24all dotted
00:15:24with little sailing boats.
00:15:27To the eastward,
00:15:28of course,
00:15:29these little boats
00:15:29were grey
00:15:30and very minute
00:15:31and clear.
00:15:33But to the westward,
00:15:34they were little boats
00:15:35of gold,
00:15:37shining gold,
00:15:37almost like little flames.
00:15:40And just below us
00:15:41was a rock
00:15:42with an arch
00:15:43worn through it.
00:15:45The blue seawater
00:15:46broke to green
00:15:47and foam
00:15:47all round the rock,
00:15:49and a galley
00:15:50came gliding
00:15:50out of the arch.
00:15:52I know that rock,
00:15:53I said.
00:15:54I was nearly drowned there.
00:15:56It is called
00:15:57the Faraglioni.
00:15:59Faraglioni?
00:16:00Yes,
00:16:01she called it that,
00:16:02answered the man
00:16:02with the white face.
00:16:04There was some story,
00:16:05but that...
00:16:06He put his hand
00:16:08to his forehead again.
00:16:10No,
00:16:10he said.
00:16:11I forget that story.
00:16:14Well,
00:16:15that is the first thing
00:16:16I remember,
00:16:17the first dream I had,
00:16:19that little shaded room
00:16:20and the beautiful air
00:16:22and sky
00:16:23and that dear lady
00:16:24of mine
00:16:25with her shining arms
00:16:26and her graceful robe
00:16:28and how we sat
00:16:29and talked
00:16:30in half-whispers
00:16:30to one another.
00:16:32We talked in whispers
00:16:33was not because
00:16:33there was anyone to hear,
00:16:35but because there was still
00:16:37such a freshness of mind
00:16:38between us
00:16:39that our thoughts
00:16:40were a little frightened,
00:16:41I think,
00:16:42to find themselves
00:16:43at last in words.
00:16:45And so they went softly.
00:16:48Presently,
00:16:49we were hungry
00:16:49and we went from our apartment,
00:16:52going by a strange passage
00:16:53with a moving floor,
00:16:55until we came
00:16:55to the great breakfast room.
00:16:57There was a fountain
00:16:58and music,
00:16:59a pleasant and joyful place it was,
00:17:01with its sunlight
00:17:02and splashing
00:17:03and the murmur
00:17:04of plucked strings.
00:17:05And we sat and ate
00:17:07and smiled at one another.
00:17:09And I would not heed a man
00:17:10who was watching me
00:17:11from a table nearby.
00:17:13And afterwards,
00:17:14we went on
00:17:14to the dancing hall.
00:17:16But I cannot describe
00:17:17that hall.
00:17:19The place was enormous,
00:17:21larger than any building
00:17:22you have ever seen.
00:17:23And in one place,
00:17:24there was the old gate
00:17:25of Capri,
00:17:27caught into the wall
00:17:28of a gallery
00:17:28high overhead.
00:17:30Light girders,
00:17:31stems and threads of gold
00:17:33burst from the pillars
00:17:34like fountains,
00:17:36streamed like an aurora
00:17:37across the roof
00:17:38and interlaced,
00:17:40like,
00:17:40like conjuring tricks.
00:17:44All about the great circle
00:17:45for the dancers,
00:17:46there were beautiful figures,
00:17:48strange dragons,
00:17:49and intricate and wonderful
00:17:51grotesques bearing lights.
00:17:53The place was inundated
00:17:55with artificial light
00:17:56that shamed the newborn day.
00:17:58And as we went through
00:18:00the throng,
00:18:01the people turned about
00:18:02and looked at us.
00:18:03For all through the world
00:18:04my name and face
00:18:05were known,
00:18:06and how I had suddenly
00:18:07thrown up pride
00:18:09and struggle
00:18:09to come to this place.
00:18:11And they looked also
00:18:13at the lady beside me,
00:18:15though half the story
00:18:16of how at last
00:18:17she had come to me
00:18:17was unknown
00:18:19or mistold.
00:18:21And few of the men
00:18:22who were there I know,
00:18:23but judged me
00:18:24a happy man,
00:18:25in spite of all the shame
00:18:27and dishonor
00:18:27that had come upon my name.
00:18:30The air was full of music,
00:18:32full of harmonious sense,
00:18:34full of the rhythm
00:18:35of beautiful motions.
00:18:37Thousands of beautiful people
00:18:39swarmed about the hall,
00:18:41crowded the galleries,
00:18:42sat in a myriad recesses.
00:18:45They were dressed
00:18:45in splendid colors
00:18:46and crowned with flowers.
00:18:49Thousands danced
00:18:50about the great circle
00:18:51beneath the white images
00:18:52of the ancient gods,
00:18:54and glorious processions
00:18:55of youths and maidens
00:18:56came and went.
00:18:58We two danced,
00:19:00not the dreary monotonies
00:19:01of your days,
00:19:02of this time, I mean,
00:19:03but dances that were beautiful,
00:19:05intoxicating.
00:19:07And even now
00:19:07I can see my lady dancing,
00:19:09dancing joyously.
00:19:11She danced, you know,
00:19:12with a serious face.
00:19:14She danced
00:19:15with a serious dignity,
00:19:16and yet she was smiling
00:19:17at me and caressing me,
00:19:19smiling and caressing
00:19:20with her eyes.
00:19:21The music was different,
00:19:24he murmured.
00:19:25It went,
00:19:26I cannot describe it,
00:19:28but it was infinitely richer
00:19:30and more varied
00:19:31than any music
00:19:32that has ever come
00:19:32to me awake.
00:19:34And then,
00:19:35it was when we had done dancing,
00:19:37a man came to speak to me.
00:19:40He was a lean,
00:19:41resolute man,
00:19:42very soberly clad
00:19:43for that place,
00:19:44and already I had marked
00:19:45his face watching me
00:19:46in the breakfasting hall,
00:19:47and afterwards as we went
00:19:49along the passage
00:19:50I had avoided his eye.
00:19:52But now,
00:19:53as we sat in a little alcove,
00:19:55smiling at the pleasure
00:19:56of all the people
00:19:57who went to and fro
00:19:58across the shining floor,
00:20:01he came and touched me
00:20:02and spoke to me
00:20:04so that I was forced to listen.
00:20:07And he asked that he might
00:20:08speak to me
00:20:09for a little time apart.
00:20:12No, I said.
00:20:14I have no secrets
00:20:15from this lady.
00:20:17What do you want to tell me?
00:20:19He said it was
00:20:20a trivial matter,
00:20:21or at least a dry matter,
00:20:23for a lady to hear.
00:20:25Perhaps for me to hear,
00:20:26said I.
00:20:28He glanced at her
00:20:29as though almost
00:20:30he would appeal to her.
00:20:32Then he asked me suddenly
00:20:33if I had heard of a great
00:20:35and avenging declaration
00:20:36that Evesham had made.
00:20:38Now Evesham had always before
00:20:40been the man next to myself
00:20:41in the leadership
00:20:42of that great party
00:20:43in the North.
00:20:44He was a forcible,
00:20:46hard and tactless man,
00:20:47and only I had been able
00:20:49to control and soften him.
00:20:51It was on his account
00:20:52even more than my own,
00:20:53I think,
00:20:54that the others
00:20:54had been so dismayed
00:20:55at my retreat.
00:20:57So this question
00:20:58about what he had done
00:20:59reawakened my old interest
00:21:01in the life
00:21:01I had put aside
00:21:02just for a moment.
00:21:03I have taken no heed
00:21:05of any news for many days,
00:21:07I said.
00:21:08What has Evesham been saying?
00:21:11And with that the man began,
00:21:13nothing loath.
00:21:14And I must confess
00:21:16even I was struck
00:21:17by Evesham's reckless folly
00:21:18in the wild and threatening
00:21:20words he had used.
00:21:21And this messenger
00:21:22they had sent to me
00:21:24not only told me
00:21:25of Evesham's speech,
00:21:26but went on to ask counsel
00:21:28and to point out
00:21:29what need they had of me.
00:21:30While he talked,
00:21:32my lady sat a little forward
00:21:33and watched his face and mine.
00:21:38My old habits of scheming
00:21:39and organising
00:21:40reasserted themselves.
00:21:42I could even see myself
00:21:43suddenly returning
00:21:44to the north
00:21:45and all the dramatic effect of it.
00:21:48All that this man said
00:21:49witnessed to the disorder
00:21:50of the party indeed,
00:21:52but not to its damage.
00:21:54I should go back stronger
00:21:56than I had come.
00:21:58And then I thought of my lady.
00:22:00You see,
00:22:01how can I tell you?
00:22:03There were certain peculiarities
00:22:05of our relationship.
00:22:07As things are,
00:22:07I need not tell you about that.
00:22:09Which would render
00:22:10her presence with me impossible.
00:22:13I should have had to leave her.
00:22:15Indeed,
00:22:15I should have had to renounce
00:22:16her clearly and openly
00:22:18if I was to do all
00:22:19that I could do in the north.
00:22:21And the man knew that,
00:22:24even as he talked to her and me.
00:22:26Knew it as well as she did.
00:22:28That my steps to duty were
00:22:30first separation,
00:22:32then abandonment.
00:22:34At the touch of that thought,
00:22:36my dream of a return
00:22:37was shattered.
00:22:38I turned on the man suddenly,
00:22:40as he was imagining
00:22:41his eloquence
00:22:42was gaining ground with me.
00:22:44What have I to do
00:22:45with these things now?
00:22:47I said.
00:22:48I have done with them.
00:22:50Do you think I am coquetting
00:22:51with your people
00:22:52in coming here?
00:22:53No,
00:22:54he said.
00:22:55But,
00:22:56why cannot you leave me alone?
00:22:58I have done with these things.
00:22:59I have ceased to be anything
00:23:01but a private man.
00:23:02Yes,
00:23:03he answered.
00:23:04But have you thought,
00:23:05this talk of war,
00:23:07these reckless challenges,
00:23:08these wild aggressions,
00:23:10I stood up.
00:23:12No,
00:23:13I cried.
00:23:14I won't hear you.
00:23:15I took count of all those things.
00:23:17I weighed them.
00:23:18And I have come away.
00:23:20He seemed to consider
00:23:21the possibility of persistence.
00:23:24He looked from me
00:23:24to where the lady sat
00:23:25regarding us.
00:23:27War,
00:23:28he said,
00:23:29as if he were speaking
00:23:30to himself,
00:23:31and then turned slowly
00:23:32from me and walked away.
00:23:34I stood,
00:23:36caught in the whirl of thoughts
00:23:37his appeal had set going.
00:23:39I heard my lady's voice.
00:23:42Dear,
00:23:42she said,
00:23:43but if they have need of you.
00:23:46She did not finish her sentence.
00:23:48She let it rest there.
00:23:50I turned to her sweet face
00:23:52and the balance of my mood
00:23:54swayed and reeled.
00:23:56They want me only to do the thing
00:23:58they dare not do themselves,
00:24:00I said.
00:24:01If they distrust Evesham,
00:24:02they must settle with him themselves.
00:24:05She looked at me doubtfully.
00:24:07But war,
00:24:09she said.
00:24:10I saw a doubt on her face
00:24:12that I had seen before,
00:24:13a doubt of herself and me,
00:24:16the first shadow of the discovery
00:24:17that seen strongly and completely
00:24:19must drive us apart forever.
00:24:21Now,
00:24:22I was an older mind than hers,
00:24:24and I could sway her
00:24:25to this belief or that.
00:24:27My dear one,
00:24:28I said,
00:24:29you must not trouble
00:24:30over these things.
00:24:31There will be no war.
00:24:32Certainly there will be no war.
00:24:35The age of wars is past.
00:24:37Trust me to know
00:24:37the justice of this case.
00:24:39They have no right upon me,
00:24:41dearest,
00:24:41and no one has a right upon me.
00:24:43I have been free
00:24:44to choose my life,
00:24:45and I have chosen this.
00:24:48But war,
00:24:49she said.
00:24:51I sat down beside her.
00:24:53I put an arm behind her
00:24:54and took her hand in mine.
00:24:56I set myself
00:24:57to drive that doubt away.
00:24:59I set myself
00:25:00to fill her mind
00:25:00with pleasant things again.
00:25:02I lied to her,
00:25:04and in lying to her
00:25:05I lied also to myself.
00:25:07And she was only too ready
00:25:08to believe me,
00:25:09only too ready to forget.
00:25:11Very soon the shadow
00:25:12had gone again,
00:25:14and we were hastening
00:25:14to our bathing place
00:25:15in the Grotta del Bove Merino,
00:25:18where it was our custom
00:25:18to bathe every day.
00:25:20We swam and splashed
00:25:21one another,
00:25:23and in that buoyant water
00:25:24I seemed to become
00:25:25something lighter
00:25:25and stronger than a man.
00:25:28And at last
00:25:28we came out dripping
00:25:29and rejoicing
00:25:30and raced among the rocks.
00:25:32And then I put on
00:25:33a dry bathing dress,
00:25:34and we sat to bask in the sun.
00:25:37And presently I nodded,
00:25:39resting my head
00:25:40against her knee,
00:25:41and she put her hand
00:25:42upon my hair
00:25:43and stroked it softly,
00:25:45and I dozed.
00:25:47And behold,
00:25:49as it were
00:25:49with the snapping
00:25:50of the string of a violin,
00:25:52I was awakening,
00:25:53and I was in my own bed
00:25:54in Liverpool,
00:25:56in the life of today.
00:25:58Only for a time
00:25:59I could not believe
00:26:00that all these vivid moments
00:26:01had been no more
00:26:02than the substance
00:26:03of a dream.
00:26:03In truth,
00:26:06I could not believe
00:26:07it a dream
00:26:07for all the sobering reality
00:26:09of things about me.
00:26:11I bathed
00:26:12and dressed as it were
00:26:13by habit,
00:26:14and as I shaved,
00:26:16I argued why
00:26:17I, of all men,
00:26:18should leave
00:26:19the woman I loved
00:26:19to go back
00:26:20to fantastic politics
00:26:22in the hard
00:26:22and strenuous north.
00:26:24Even if Evesham
00:26:25did force the world
00:26:26back to war,
00:26:27what was that to me?
00:26:29I was a man
00:26:30with the heart of a man.
00:26:32And why should I feel
00:26:33the responsibility
00:26:34of a deity
00:26:35for the way
00:26:36the world might go?
00:26:38You know,
00:26:39that is not quite
00:26:40the way I think
00:26:40about affairs,
00:26:42about my real affairs.
00:26:43I'm a solicitor,
00:26:44you know,
00:26:45with a point of view.
00:26:47The vision was so real,
00:26:49you must understand,
00:26:50so utterly unlike a dream
00:26:51that I kept perpetually
00:26:52recalling little
00:26:53irrelevant details.
00:26:55Even the ornament
00:26:56of a book cover
00:26:56that lay on my wife's
00:26:57sewing machine
00:26:58in the breakfast room,
00:26:59recalled with the
00:27:00utmost vividness,
00:27:02the gilt line
00:27:03that ran about
00:27:03the seat in the alcove
00:27:05where I had talked
00:27:06with the messenger
00:27:06from my deserted party.
00:27:09Have you ever heard
00:27:09of a dream
00:27:10that had a quality
00:27:11like that?
00:27:12Like,
00:27:13so that afterwards
00:27:14you remembered
00:27:15little details
00:27:16you had forgotten?
00:27:19I thought,
00:27:20I had never noticed
00:27:21the point before,
00:27:23but he was right.
00:27:24Never,
00:27:25I said.
00:27:27That is what you
00:27:28never seem to do
00:27:28with dreams.
00:27:30No,
00:27:31he answered.
00:27:32But that is just
00:27:33what I did.
00:27:34I am a solicitor,
00:27:35you must understand,
00:27:36in Liverpool,
00:27:37and I could not help
00:27:38wondering what the
00:27:39clients and business
00:27:40people I found myself
00:27:41talking to in my office
00:27:42would think
00:27:43if I told them
00:27:44suddenly I was in love
00:27:45with a girl
00:27:45who would be born
00:27:46a couple of hundred
00:27:47years or so hence
00:27:48and worried about
00:27:49the politics of my
00:27:50great-great-great-grandchildren.
00:27:52I was chiefly busy
00:27:53that day
00:27:54negotiating a 99-year
00:27:55building lease.
00:27:56It was a private
00:27:57builder in a hurry
00:27:58and we wanted to
00:27:59tie him in every
00:28:00possible way.
00:28:02I had an interview
00:28:03with him
00:28:03and he showed
00:28:04a certain want
00:28:05of temper
00:28:06that sent me
00:28:07to bed
00:28:07still irritated.
00:28:09That night
00:28:10I had no dream
00:28:11nor did I dream
00:28:13the next night
00:28:13at least to remember.
00:28:16Something of that
00:28:16intense reality
00:28:17of conviction
00:28:18vanished.
00:28:19I began to feel
00:28:20sure it was a dream
00:28:21and then it came
00:28:23again.
00:28:23When the dream
00:28:25came again
00:28:26nearly four days
00:28:27later
00:28:27it was very different.
00:28:30I think it's certain
00:28:31that four days
00:28:32had also elapsed
00:28:33in the dream.
00:28:35Many things
00:28:35had happened
00:28:35in the north
00:28:36and the shadow
00:28:37of them
00:28:37was back again
00:28:38between us
00:28:39and this time
00:28:40it was not so
00:28:41easily dispelled.
00:28:43I began I know
00:28:44with moody musings.
00:28:46Why in spite of all
00:28:47should I go back
00:28:48go back
00:28:49for all the rest
00:28:50of my days
00:28:51to toil
00:28:51and stress
00:28:52insults
00:28:52and perpetual
00:28:53dissatisfaction
00:28:54simply to save
00:28:55hundreds of millions
00:28:56of common people
00:28:57whom I did not love
00:28:59whom too often
00:29:00I could do no other
00:29:01than despise
00:29:02from the stress
00:29:03and anguish
00:29:04of war
00:29:05and infinite misrule.
00:29:07And after all
00:29:08I might fail.
00:29:09They all sought
00:29:10their own narrow ends
00:29:12and why should not I
00:29:13why should not I
00:29:15also live
00:29:16as a man
00:29:16and out of such
00:29:18thoughts
00:29:18her voice
00:29:19summoned me
00:29:20and I lifted
00:29:21my eyes.
00:29:22I found myself
00:29:24awake and walking.
00:29:25We had come out
00:29:26above the pleasure
00:29:27city.
00:29:28We were near the
00:29:28summit of Monte
00:29:29Solaro
00:29:30and looking towards
00:29:31the bay.
00:29:32It was the late
00:29:33afternoon
00:29:34and very clear.
00:29:36Far away to the
00:29:36left
00:29:37Ischia hung
00:29:38in a golden haze
00:29:39between sea
00:29:39and sky
00:29:40and Naples
00:29:41was coldly white
00:29:42against the hills
00:29:43and before us
00:29:44was Vesuvius
00:29:45with a tall
00:29:46and slender
00:29:46streamer
00:29:47feathering at last
00:29:48towards the south
00:29:49and the ruins
00:29:50of Torre Annunziata
00:29:51and Castellamare
00:29:53glittering and near.
00:29:55I interrupted
00:29:56suddenly.
00:29:57You have been
00:29:58to Capri of course.
00:30:00Only in this dream
00:30:01he said.
00:30:03Only in this dream.
00:30:05All across the bay
00:30:06beyond Sorrento
00:30:07were the floating
00:30:08palaces of the
00:30:08pleasure city
00:30:09moored and chained
00:30:10and northward
00:30:12were the broad
00:30:13floating stages
00:30:14that received
00:30:15the aeroplanes.
00:30:17Aeroplanes fell
00:30:18out of the sky
00:30:18every afternoon
00:30:19each bringing
00:30:21its thousands
00:30:21of pleasure seekers
00:30:22from the uttermost
00:30:23parts of the earth
00:30:24to Capri
00:30:25and its delights.
00:30:27All these things
00:30:28I say
00:30:29stretched below.
00:30:32But we noticed
00:30:32them only incidentally
00:30:34because of an unusual
00:30:34sight that evening
00:30:35had to show.
00:30:37Five war aeroplanes
00:30:39that had long
00:30:40slumbered useless
00:30:41in the distant
00:30:42arsenals of the
00:30:43Rhinemouth
00:30:43were manoeuvring
00:30:44now in the
00:30:45eastward sky.
00:30:47Evesham had
00:30:47astonished the world
00:30:49by producing them
00:30:49and others
00:30:50and sending them
00:30:51to circle
00:30:52here and there.
00:30:53It was the threat
00:30:54material in the
00:30:55great game of bluff
00:30:56he was playing
00:30:56and it had taken
00:30:58even me by surprise.
00:31:00He was one of those
00:31:00incredibly stupid
00:31:01energetic people
00:31:02who seemed sent
00:31:03by heaven
00:31:04to create disasters.
00:31:06His energy
00:31:06to the first glance
00:31:07seemed so wonderfully
00:31:08like capacity.
00:31:09But he had no
00:31:11imagination
00:31:11no invention
00:31:13only a stupid
00:31:14vast driving
00:31:15force of will
00:31:16and a mad faith
00:31:17in his stupid
00:31:18idiot luck
00:31:19to pull him through.
00:31:20I remember
00:31:21how we stood out
00:31:22upon the headland
00:31:22watching the squadron
00:31:23circling far away
00:31:25and how I weighed
00:31:26the full meaning
00:31:27of the sight
00:31:27seeing clearly
00:31:28the way things
00:31:29must go.
00:31:31And then even
00:31:32it was not too late
00:31:33I might have gone
00:31:34back I think
00:31:35and saved the world.
00:31:36The people of the north
00:31:38would follow me
00:31:38I knew
00:31:39granted only that
00:31:40in one thing
00:31:41I respected
00:31:42their moral standards.
00:31:44The east and south
00:31:45would trust me
00:31:46as they would trust
00:31:47no other northern man
00:31:48and I knew
00:31:49I had only to put it
00:31:50to her
00:31:50and she would have
00:31:52let me go
00:31:52not because she
00:31:53did not love me.
00:31:56Only
00:31:56I did not want to go
00:31:58my will
00:31:59was all the other way about
00:32:00I had so newly
00:32:02thrown off
00:32:02the incubus
00:32:03of responsibility
00:32:04I was still
00:32:05so fresh
00:32:06a renegade
00:32:07from duty
00:32:07that the daylight
00:32:08clearness of what
00:32:09I ought to do
00:32:10had no power
00:32:11at all to touch
00:32:11my will.
00:32:13My will was to live
00:32:14to gather pleasures
00:32:15and make my dear lady
00:32:16happy
00:32:17but though this sense
00:32:19of vast neglected
00:32:20duties had no power
00:32:21to draw me
00:32:21it could make me
00:32:22silent and preoccupied
00:32:24it robbed the days
00:32:26I had spent
00:32:27of half their brightness
00:32:28and roused me
00:32:29into dark meditations
00:32:30in the silence
00:32:31of the night.
00:32:32And as I stood
00:32:34and watched
00:32:34Evesham's aeroplane
00:32:36sweep to and fro
00:32:37those birds
00:32:38of infinite
00:32:39ill omen
00:32:40she stood beside me
00:32:42watching me
00:32:43perceiving the trouble
00:32:44indeed
00:32:45but not perceiving
00:32:46it clearly
00:32:46her eyes
00:32:48questioning my face
00:32:49her expression
00:32:50shaded with perplexity
00:32:51her face was grey
00:32:53because the sunset
00:32:54was fading
00:32:55out of the sky
00:32:56it was no fault
00:32:58of hers
00:32:58that she held me
00:32:59she had asked
00:33:00me to go
00:33:01from her
00:33:01and again
00:33:02in the night time
00:33:03and with tears
00:33:04she had asked
00:33:04me to go
00:33:05at last
00:33:07it was the sense
00:33:07of her
00:33:08that roused
00:33:08me from my mood
00:33:09I turned upon
00:33:11her suddenly
00:33:11and challenged
00:33:12her to race
00:33:13down the mountain
00:33:13slopes
00:33:14no
00:33:15she said
00:33:16as if I jarred
00:33:18with her gravity
00:33:19but I was resolved
00:33:20to end that gravity
00:33:21and made her run
00:33:23no one can be
00:33:24very grey
00:33:25and sad
00:33:25who is out of breath
00:33:26and when she stumbled
00:33:28I ran with my hand
00:33:30beneath her arm
00:33:31we ran down past
00:33:33a couple of men
00:33:33who turned back
00:33:35staring in astonishment
00:33:36at my behaviour
00:33:37they must have recognised
00:33:39my face
00:33:39and halfway down the slope
00:33:42came a tumult
00:33:43in the air
00:33:44clank clank
00:33:45clank clank
00:33:45and we stopped
00:33:46and presently
00:33:47over the hill crest
00:33:48those war things
00:33:50came flying
00:33:50one behind the other
00:33:51the man seemed
00:33:53hesitating
00:33:54on the verge
00:33:55of a description
00:33:55what were they like
00:33:58I asked
00:33:58they had never fought
00:34:01he said
00:34:01they were just like
00:34:02our ironclads are nowadays
00:34:04they had never fought
00:34:05no one knew
00:34:06what they might do
00:34:07with excited men
00:34:08inside them
00:34:09few even cared
00:34:10to speculate
00:34:11they were great
00:34:12driving things
00:34:13shaped like spearheads
00:34:14without a shaft
00:34:15with a propeller
00:34:16in the place
00:34:17of the shaft
00:34:18steel
00:34:19not steel
00:34:21aluminium
00:34:22no no
00:34:24nothing of that sort
00:34:24an alloy
00:34:26that was very common
00:34:27as common as brass
00:34:28for example
00:34:29it was called
00:34:30let me see
00:34:31he squeezed his forehead
00:34:33with the fingers
00:34:33of one hand
00:34:34I am forgetting everything
00:34:36he said
00:34:37and they carried guns
00:34:39little guns
00:34:40firing high explosive shells
00:34:42they fired the guns
00:34:44backwards
00:34:44out of the base
00:34:46of the leaf
00:34:46so to speak
00:34:47and rammed
00:34:48with the beak
00:34:48that was the theory
00:34:50you know
00:34:51but they had never
00:34:52been fought
00:34:52no one could tell
00:34:54exactly what was
00:34:55going to happen
00:34:56and meanwhile
00:34:57I suppose it was
00:34:58very fine to go
00:34:59whirling through the air
00:35:00like a flight
00:35:00of young swallows
00:35:01swift and easy
00:35:03I guess the captains
00:35:04tried not to think
00:35:05too clearly
00:35:06what the real thing
00:35:07would be like
00:35:08and these flying
00:35:09war machines
00:35:10you know
00:35:10were only one sort
00:35:11of the endless
00:35:12war contrivances
00:35:13that had been invented
00:35:14and had fallen
00:35:15into abeyance
00:35:16during the long peace
00:35:17there were all sorts
00:35:19of these things
00:35:20that people were
00:35:21routing out
00:35:22and furbishing up
00:35:23infernal things
00:35:24silly things
00:35:25things that had
00:35:26never been tried
00:35:27big engines
00:35:28terrible explosives
00:35:30great guns
00:35:32you know the silly way
00:35:34of these ingenious
00:35:35sort of men
00:35:35who make these things
00:35:36they turn them out
00:35:38as beavers
00:35:38build dams
00:35:39and with no more
00:35:40sense of the rivers
00:35:41they're going to divert
00:35:42and the lands
00:35:43they're going to flood
00:35:44as we went down
00:35:46the winding stepway
00:35:47to our hotel again
00:35:48in the twilight
00:35:49I foresaw it all
00:35:50I saw how clearly
00:35:52and inevitably
00:35:53things were driving
00:35:54for war
00:35:55in Evesham's
00:35:56silly violent hands
00:35:57and I had some inkling
00:35:59of what war
00:35:59was bound to be
00:36:00under these new conditions
00:36:01and even then
00:36:03though I knew
00:36:04it was drawing
00:36:05near the limit
00:36:06of my opportunity
00:36:06I could find
00:36:08no will
00:36:09to go back
00:36:09he sighed
00:36:11that was my last chance
00:36:13we didn't go
00:36:15into the city
00:36:16until the sky
00:36:17was full of stars
00:36:17so we walked out
00:36:19upon the high terrace
00:36:20to and fro
00:36:21and she counseled
00:36:23me to go back
00:36:24my dearest
00:36:26she said
00:36:26and her sweet face
00:36:27looked up to me
00:36:28this is death
00:36:30this life you lead
00:36:32is death
00:36:32go back to them
00:36:35go back to your duty
00:36:37she began to weep
00:36:39saying between her sobs
00:36:40and clinging to my arm
00:36:42as she said it
00:36:43go back
00:36:44go back
00:36:45then suddenly
00:36:47she fell mute
00:36:48and glancing down
00:36:49at her face
00:36:50I read in an instant
00:36:51the thing she had
00:36:52thought to do
00:36:53it was one of those
00:36:54moments when one sees
00:36:56no I said
00:36:58no
00:36:59she asked in surprise
00:37:01and I think a little
00:37:02fearful at the answer
00:37:03to her thought
00:37:04nothing I said
00:37:06she'll send me back
00:37:07nothing
00:37:08I have chosen
00:37:09love
00:37:10I have chosen
00:37:10and the world
00:37:11must go
00:37:12whatever happens
00:37:13I will live this life
00:37:14I will live for you
00:37:16it
00:37:16nothing shall turn me aside
00:37:18nothing my dear one
00:37:20even if you died
00:37:22even if you died
00:37:23yes
00:37:25she murmured softly
00:37:27then
00:37:28I also would die
00:37:30and before she could speak again
00:37:33I began to talk
00:37:34talking eloquently
00:37:35as I could do in that life
00:37:37talking to exalt love
00:37:39to make the life we were living
00:37:41seem heroic and glorious
00:37:42and the thing I was deserting
00:37:45was something hard
00:37:46and enormously ignoble
00:37:48that it was a fine thing
00:37:49to set aside
00:37:50I bent all my mind
00:37:53to throw that glamour upon it
00:37:54seeking not only to convert her
00:37:56but myself to that
00:37:57we talked
00:37:59and she clung to me
00:38:00torn too
00:38:01between all that she deemed noble
00:38:02and all that she knew
00:38:04was sweet
00:38:04and at last
00:38:06I did make it heroic
00:38:07made all the thickening disaster
00:38:09of the world
00:38:10only a sort of glorious setting
00:38:12to our unparalleled love
00:38:13and we two poor foolish souls
00:38:16strutted there at last
00:38:17clad in that splendid delusion
00:38:19drunken rather
00:38:20with that glorious delusion
00:38:22under the still stars
00:38:23and so my moment passed
00:38:26it was my last chance
00:38:29even as we went to and fro there
00:38:32the leaders of the south and east
00:38:34were gathering their resolve
00:38:35and the hot answer
00:38:37that shattered Evesham's bluffing
00:38:39forever took shape
00:38:40and waited
00:38:41and all over Asia
00:38:43and the ocean
00:38:45and the south
00:38:45the air and the wires
00:38:47were throbbing
00:38:48with their warnings
00:38:49to prepare
00:38:49prepare
00:38:51no one living you know
00:38:54knew what war was
00:38:55no one could imagine
00:38:56with all these new inventions
00:38:58what horror war might bring
00:39:00I believe most people
00:39:01still believed
00:39:02it would be a matter
00:39:03of bright uniforms
00:39:04and shouting charges
00:39:05and triumphs
00:39:06and flags
00:39:07and bands
00:39:07in a time
00:39:09when half the world
00:39:10drew its food supply
00:39:10from regions
00:39:11ten thousand miles away
00:39:13the man with the white face
00:39:15paused
00:39:16I glanced at him
00:39:18and his face was intent
00:39:19on the floor of the carriage
00:39:21a little railway station
00:39:23a string of loaded trucks
00:39:25a signal box
00:39:26and the back of a cottage
00:39:27shot by the carriage window
00:39:29and a bridge passed
00:39:30with a clap of noise
00:39:31echoing the tumult
00:39:33of the train
00:39:33after that
00:39:35he said
00:39:36I dreamt often
00:39:37for three weeks of nights
00:39:39that dream
00:39:40was my life
00:39:41and the worst of it was
00:39:43there were nights
00:39:44when I could not dream
00:39:45when I lay tossing
00:39:47on a bed
00:39:47in this accursed life
00:39:49and there
00:39:50somewhere lost to me
00:39:52things were happening
00:39:53momentous
00:39:54terrible things
00:39:55I lived at nights
00:39:57my days
00:39:58my waking days
00:40:00this life
00:40:01I am living now
00:40:02became a faded
00:40:03far away dream
00:40:04a drab setting
00:40:06the cover of the book
00:40:07he thought
00:40:08I could tell you all
00:40:10tell you every little thing
00:40:11in the dream
00:40:12but as to what I did
00:40:13in the daytime
00:40:14no I could not tell
00:40:16I do not remember
00:40:18my memory
00:40:19my memory has gone
00:40:20the business of life
00:40:22slips from me
00:40:23he leaned forward
00:40:25and pressed his hands
00:40:26upon his eyes
00:40:27for a long time
00:40:28he said nothing
00:40:29and then
00:40:30said I
00:40:32the war burst
00:40:33like a hurricane
00:40:34he stared before him
00:40:36at unspeakable things
00:40:37and then
00:40:39I urged again
00:40:41one touch of unreality
00:40:43he said
00:40:44in the low tone
00:40:45of a man
00:40:46who speaks to himself
00:40:47and they would have
00:40:48been nightmares
00:40:49but they were not
00:40:50nightmares
00:40:51they were not
00:40:52nightmares
00:40:53no
00:40:53he was silent
00:40:55for so long
00:40:56that it dawned upon me
00:40:57that there was a danger
00:40:58of losing the rest
00:40:59of the story
00:41:00but he went on
00:41:02talking again
00:41:03in the same tone
00:41:04of questioning
00:41:04self-communion
00:41:05what was there
00:41:07to do
00:41:07but flight
00:41:08I had not thought
00:41:10the war would
00:41:11touch Capri
00:41:11I had seemed
00:41:13to see Capri
00:41:14as being out
00:41:14of it all
00:41:15as the contrast
00:41:16to it all
00:41:17but two nights
00:41:19after the whole place
00:41:20was shouting
00:41:20and bawling
00:41:21every woman
00:41:22almost
00:41:23and every other man
00:41:24wore a badge
00:41:25Evesham's badge
00:41:27and there was
00:41:28no music
00:41:28but a jangling
00:41:29war song
00:41:30over and over
00:41:31again
00:41:32and everywhere
00:41:33men enlisting
00:41:34and in the dancing
00:41:35halls
00:41:35they were drilling
00:41:37the whole island
00:41:39was a whirl
00:41:40with rumours
00:41:40it was said
00:41:42again and again
00:41:42that fighting
00:41:43had begun
00:41:44I had not
00:41:46expected this
00:41:46I had seen
00:41:48so little
00:41:48of the life
00:41:49of pleasure
00:41:49that I had
00:41:50failed to reckon
00:41:51with this violence
00:41:52of the amateurs
00:41:52and as for me
00:41:54I was out of it
00:41:56I was like a man
00:41:57who might have
00:41:58prevented the firing
00:41:59of a magazine
00:42:00the time had gone
00:42:02I was no one
00:42:04the vainest stripling
00:42:06with a badge
00:42:06counted for more
00:42:07than I
00:42:08the crowd jostled us
00:42:10and bawled in our ears
00:42:11that accursed song
00:42:12deafened us
00:42:13a woman shrieked
00:42:15at my lady
00:42:15because no badge
00:42:16was on her
00:42:17and we too
00:42:18went back to our own
00:42:19place again
00:42:19ruffled and insulted
00:42:21my lady white
00:42:23and silent
00:42:23and I
00:42:24a quiver
00:42:25with rage
00:42:26so furious was I
00:42:28I could have quarrelled
00:42:29with her
00:42:30if I could have found
00:42:31one shade of accusation
00:42:32in her eyes
00:42:33all my magnificence
00:42:36had gone from me
00:42:36I walked up and down
00:42:38our rock cell
00:42:39and outside
00:42:41was the darkling sea
00:42:42and a light
00:42:43to the southward
00:42:44that flared
00:42:45and passed
00:42:46and came again
00:42:47we must get out
00:42:49of this place
00:42:49I said over and over
00:42:51I have made my choice
00:42:53and I will have no hand
00:42:55in these troubles
00:42:56I will have nothing
00:42:57of this war
00:42:58we have taken our lives
00:43:00out of all these things
00:43:01this is no refuge for us
00:43:03let us go
00:43:05and the next day
00:43:07we were already in flight
00:43:09from the war
00:43:09that covered the world
00:43:10and all the rest
00:43:12was flight
00:43:12all the rest
00:43:14was flight
00:43:15he mused darkly
00:43:17how much was there of it
00:43:19he made no answer
00:43:21how many days
00:43:23his face was white
00:43:25and drawn
00:43:26and his hands
00:43:26were clenched
00:43:27he took no heed
00:43:29of my curiosity
00:43:30I tried to draw him
00:43:33back to his story
00:43:34with questions
00:43:34where did you go
00:43:36I said
00:43:37when
00:43:38when you left Capri
00:43:40southwest
00:43:42he said
00:43:43and glanced at me
00:43:44for a second
00:43:44we went in a boat
00:43:46but I should have
00:43:48thought an aeroplane
00:43:49they had been seized
00:43:51I questioned him no more
00:43:53presently I thought
00:43:54he was beginning again
00:43:55he broke out
00:43:56in an argumentative monotone
00:43:58but why should it be
00:43:59if indeed this battle
00:44:01this slaughter
00:44:02and stress is life
00:44:03why have we this craving
00:44:05for pleasure and beauty
00:44:06if there is no refuge
00:44:08if there is no place of peace
00:44:10and if all our dreams
00:44:12of quiet places
00:44:13are a folly
00:44:13and a snare
00:44:14why have we such dreams
00:44:17surely it was no ignoble craving
00:44:19no base intentions
00:44:21that had brought us to this
00:44:22it was love
00:44:24that had isolated us
00:44:25love had come to me
00:44:27with her eyes
00:44:28and robed in her beauty
00:44:29more glorious
00:44:30than all else in life
00:44:31in the very shape
00:44:33and colour of life
00:44:34and summoned me away
00:44:35I had silenced
00:44:37all the voices
00:44:38I had answered
00:44:39all the questions
00:44:40I had come to her
00:44:41and suddenly
00:44:43there was nothing
00:44:43but war
00:44:44and death
00:44:45I had an inspiration
00:44:47after all
00:44:49I said
00:44:49it could have been
00:44:50only a dream
00:44:51a dream
00:44:53he cried
00:44:54flaming upon me
00:44:55a dream
00:44:56when even now
00:44:57for the first time
00:44:59he became animated
00:45:00a faint flush
00:45:01crept into his cheek
00:45:03he raised his open hand
00:45:04and clenched it
00:45:05and dropped it
00:45:06to his knee
00:45:06he spoke
00:45:08looking away from me
00:45:09and for all the rest
00:45:10of the time
00:45:11he looked away
00:45:12we are but phantoms
00:45:14he said
00:45:15and the phantoms
00:45:17of phantoms
00:45:18desires like
00:45:19cloud shadows
00:45:20and wills of straw
00:45:21that eddy in the wind
00:45:22the days pass
00:45:24use and won't
00:45:25carry us through
00:45:26as a train
00:45:27carries the shadow
00:45:28of its lights
00:45:28so be it
00:45:30but one thing
00:45:32is real and certain
00:45:33one thing
00:45:34is no dream stuff
00:45:35but eternal
00:45:36and enduring
00:45:37it is the centre
00:45:39of my life
00:45:40and all other things
00:45:41about it
00:45:41a subordinate
00:45:42or altogether vain
00:45:43I loved her
00:45:45that woman of a dream
00:45:46and she and I
00:45:48are dead together
00:45:49a dream
00:45:51how can it be a dream
00:45:54when it drenched
00:45:55a living life
00:45:55with unappeasable sorrow
00:45:57when it makes
00:45:59all that I have lived for
00:46:00and cared for
00:46:01worthless
00:46:02and unmeaning
00:46:03until that very moment
00:46:06when she was killed
00:46:07I believed
00:46:09we had still a chance
00:46:10of getting away
00:46:11he said
00:46:11all through the night
00:46:13and morning
00:46:14that we sailed
00:46:14across the sea
00:46:15from Capri to Salerno
00:46:17we talked of escape
00:46:19we were full of hope
00:46:21and it clung about us
00:46:22to the end
00:46:23hope for the life
00:46:25together
00:46:25we should lead
00:46:26out of it all
00:46:27out of the battle
00:46:29and struggle
00:46:29the wild
00:46:31and empty passions
00:46:32the empty arbitrary
00:46:33thou shalt
00:46:34and thou shalt not
00:46:35of the world
00:46:36we were uplifted
00:46:39as though our quest
00:46:40was a holy thing
00:46:41as though love
00:46:43for one another
00:46:43was a mission
00:46:44even when from our boat
00:46:47we saw the fair face
00:46:48of that great rock Capri
00:46:50already scarred
00:46:51and gashed
00:46:52by the gun emplacements
00:46:53and hiding places
00:46:54that were to make it
00:46:55a fastness
00:46:56we reckon nothing
00:46:57of the imminent slaughter
00:46:59though the fury
00:47:00of preparation
00:47:01hung about
00:47:01in puffs and clouds
00:47:03of dust
00:47:03at a hundred points
00:47:05amidst the grey
00:47:05but indeed
00:47:07I made a text
00:47:07of that and talked
00:47:08there you know
00:47:10was the rock
00:47:11still beautiful
00:47:12for all its scars
00:47:13with its countless
00:47:15windows
00:47:15and arches
00:47:16and ways
00:47:17tier upon tier
00:47:18for a thousand feet
00:47:20a vast carving
00:47:21of grey
00:47:22broken by
00:47:23vine-clad terraces
00:47:24and lemon
00:47:26and orange groves
00:47:27and masses
00:47:28of agave
00:47:29and prickly pear
00:47:30and puffs
00:47:31of almond blossom
00:47:32and out under
00:47:34the archway
00:47:35that is built
00:47:35over the marina piccola
00:47:36other boats
00:47:37were coming
00:47:38and as we came
00:47:39round the cape
00:47:40and within sight
00:47:40of the mainland
00:47:41another little string
00:47:42of boats
00:47:43came into view
00:47:44driving before the wind
00:47:45towards the south west
00:47:46in a little while
00:47:48a multitude
00:47:49had come out
00:47:49the remoter
00:47:51just little specks
00:47:52of ultramarine
00:47:52in the shadow
00:47:53of the eastward cliff
00:47:54it is love
00:47:56and reason
00:47:57I said
00:47:57fleeing from
00:47:58all this madness
00:47:59of war
00:48:00and though
00:48:02we presently
00:48:02saw a squadron
00:48:03of aeroplanes
00:48:04flying across
00:48:05the southern sky
00:48:06we did not heed it
00:48:07there it was
00:48:09a line of little dots
00:48:11in the sky
00:48:11and then more
00:48:13dotting the
00:48:14south eastern horizon
00:48:15and then still more
00:48:17until all that
00:48:18quarter of the sky
00:48:19was stippled
00:48:20with blue specks
00:48:21now they were all
00:48:23thin little strokes
00:48:24of blue
00:48:24and now one
00:48:26and now a multitude
00:48:27would heal
00:48:28and catch the sun
00:48:29and become short
00:48:30flashes of light
00:48:30they came rising
00:48:32and falling
00:48:33and growing larger
00:48:34like some huge
00:48:35flight of gulls
00:48:36or rooks
00:48:37or such like birds
00:48:38moving with a
00:48:39marvellous uniformity
00:48:40and ever as they
00:48:42drew nearer
00:48:42they spread over
00:48:44a greater width
00:48:45of sky
00:48:45the southward wing
00:48:47flung itself
00:48:48in an arrow-headed
00:48:49cloud athwart the sun
00:48:50and then suddenly
00:48:52they swept round
00:48:53to the eastward
00:48:54and streamed eastward
00:48:55growing smaller
00:48:56and smaller
00:48:57and clearer
00:48:57and clearer again
00:48:58until they vanished
00:48:59from the sky
00:49:00and after that
00:49:02we noted to the
00:49:03northward
00:49:03and very high
00:49:04evesham's
00:49:05fighting machines
00:49:06hanging high
00:49:07over naples
00:49:08like an evening
00:49:08swarm of gnats
00:49:10it seemed to have
00:49:12no more to do
00:49:13with us
00:49:13than a flight
00:49:13of birds
00:49:14even the mutter
00:49:16of guns
00:49:17far away
00:49:18in the southeast
00:49:19seemed to us
00:49:20to signify nothing
00:49:21each day
00:49:24each dream
00:49:25after that
00:49:26we were still
00:49:27exalted
00:49:27still seeking
00:49:29that refuge
00:49:29where we might
00:49:30live and love
00:49:31fatigue had come
00:49:33upon us
00:49:33pain
00:49:34and many distresses
00:49:36for though we
00:49:37were dusty
00:49:37and stained
00:49:38by our toilsome
00:49:39tramping
00:49:39and half starved
00:49:41and with the
00:49:41horror of the
00:49:42dead men
00:49:43we had seen
00:49:43and the flight
00:49:44of the peasants
00:49:45for very soon
00:49:47a gust of fighting
00:49:48swept up the
00:49:48peninsula
00:49:49with these things
00:49:50haunting our minds
00:49:51it still resulted
00:49:52only in a deepening
00:49:53resolution to escape
00:49:55oh but she was
00:49:57brave and patient
00:49:58she who had never
00:50:00faced hardship
00:50:01and exposure
00:50:01had courage
00:50:02for herself
00:50:03and me
00:50:04we went to and fro
00:50:06seeking an outlet
00:50:07over a country
00:50:09all commandeered
00:50:10and ransacked
00:50:11by the gathering
00:50:11hosts of war
00:50:12always we went
00:50:14on foot
00:50:15at first
00:50:16there were
00:50:17other fugitives
00:50:17but we did not
00:50:19mingle with them
00:50:19some escaped
00:50:21northward
00:50:21some were caught
00:50:22in the torrent
00:50:23of peasantry
00:50:24that swept
00:50:24along the main
00:50:25roads
00:50:25many gave
00:50:27themselves
00:50:27into the hands
00:50:28of the soldiery
00:50:29and were sent
00:50:30northward
00:50:30many of the men
00:50:32were impressed
00:50:33but we kept
00:50:35away from
00:50:35these things
00:50:36we had brought
00:50:37no money
00:50:37to bribe
00:50:38a passage
00:50:38north
00:50:39and I feared
00:50:40for my lady
00:50:41at the hands
00:50:41of these conscript
00:50:42crowds
00:50:42we had landed
00:50:44at Salerno
00:50:44and we had been
00:50:45turned back
00:50:46from Cava
00:50:46and we had tried
00:50:47to cross towards
00:50:48Taranto
00:50:48by a pass
00:50:49over Mount Alberno
00:50:50but we had been
00:50:51driven back
00:50:52for want of food
00:50:53and so we had
00:50:54come down
00:50:54among the marshes
00:50:55by Paestum
00:50:56where those great
00:50:57temples stand alone
00:50:58I had some vague
00:50:59idea that by Paestum
00:51:01it might be possible
00:51:01to find a boat
00:51:02or something
00:51:03and take once more
00:51:04to sea
00:51:05and there it was
00:51:06the battle overtook us
00:51:07a sort of soul
00:51:09blindness had me
00:51:10plainly I could see
00:51:12that we were being
00:51:12hemmed in
00:51:13that the great net
00:51:14of that giant warfare
00:51:15had us in its toils
00:51:17many times we had seen
00:51:19the levees that had
00:51:19come down from the north
00:51:21going to and fro
00:51:22and had come upon them
00:51:23in the distance
00:51:24amidst the mountains
00:51:24making ways for the ammunition
00:51:26and preparing the mounting
00:51:28of the guns
00:51:28once we fancied
00:51:30they had fired at us
00:51:32taking us for spies
00:51:33at any rate
00:51:34a shot had gone
00:51:35shuddering over us
00:51:37several times
00:51:38we had hidden in woods
00:51:39from hovering aeroplanes
00:51:41but all these things
00:51:43do not matter now
00:51:44these nights of flight
00:51:45and pain
00:51:46we were in an open place
00:51:48near those great temples
00:51:49at Paestum at last
00:51:51on a blank stony place
00:51:53dotted with spiky bushes
00:51:55empty and desolate
00:51:56and so flat
00:51:57that a grove of eucalyptus
00:51:59far away
00:52:00showed to the feet
00:52:01of its stems
00:52:01how I can see it
00:52:04my lady was sitting down
00:52:07under a bush
00:52:07resting a little
00:52:09for she was very weak
00:52:10and weary
00:52:11and I was standing up
00:52:12watching
00:52:13to see if I could tell
00:52:14the distance of the firing
00:52:15that came and went
00:52:16they were still
00:52:18you know
00:52:19fighting far from each other
00:52:20with those terrible
00:52:22new weapons
00:52:22that had never before
00:52:23been used
00:52:24guns that would carry
00:52:26beyond sight
00:52:26and aeroplanes
00:52:28that would do
00:52:28what they would do
00:52:30no man could foretell
00:52:32I knew that we were
00:52:33between the two armies
00:52:34and that they drew together
00:52:36I knew we were in danger
00:52:38and that we could not
00:52:39stop there and rest
00:52:40though all these things
00:52:41were in my mind
00:52:42they were in the background
00:52:43they seemed to be affairs
00:52:45beyond our concern
00:52:46chiefly
00:52:48I was thinking of my lady
00:52:49an aching distress
00:52:51filled me
00:52:52for the first time
00:52:53she had owned herself
00:52:54beaten
00:52:55and had fallen a weeping
00:52:56behind me
00:52:58I could hear her sobbing
00:52:59but I would not
00:53:00turn round to her
00:53:01because I knew
00:53:02she had need of weeping
00:53:03and had held herself
00:53:04so far
00:53:05and so long
00:53:06for me
00:53:06it was well
00:53:08I thought
00:53:09that she would weep
00:53:09and rest
00:53:10and then we would
00:53:11toil on again
00:53:12for I had no inkling
00:53:14of the thing
00:53:15that hung so near
00:53:16even now
00:53:18I can see her
00:53:18as she sat there
00:53:19her lovely hair
00:53:20upon her shoulder
00:53:21can mark again
00:53:23the deepening hollow
00:53:24of her cheek
00:53:24if we had parted
00:53:26she said
00:53:27if I had let you go
00:53:29no
00:53:30said I
00:53:31even now
00:53:32I do not repent
00:53:33I will not repent
00:53:35I made my choice
00:53:36and I will hold on
00:53:38to the end
00:53:38and then
00:53:40overhead in the sky
00:53:42something flashed
00:53:43and burst
00:53:44and all about us
00:53:45I heard the bullets
00:53:46making a noise
00:53:47like a handful of peas
00:53:48suddenly thrown
00:53:49they chipped the stones
00:53:51about us
00:53:52and whirled fragments
00:53:54from the bricks
00:53:54and passed
00:53:55he put his hand
00:53:57to his mouth
00:53:57and then moistened
00:53:59his lips
00:53:59at the flash
00:54:01I had turned about
00:54:02you know
00:54:04she stood up
00:54:05she stood up
00:54:07you know
00:54:07and moved a step
00:54:08towards me
00:54:09as though she wanted
00:54:10to reach me
00:54:11and she had been shot
00:54:13through the heart
00:54:13he stopped
00:54:15and stared at me
00:54:16I felt all that
00:54:17foolish incapacity
00:54:18an Englishman feels
00:54:19on such occasions
00:54:20I met his eyes
00:54:22for a moment
00:54:23and then stared
00:54:24out of the window
00:54:25for a long space
00:54:27we kept silence
00:54:28when at last
00:54:30I looked at him
00:54:31he was sitting back
00:54:32in his corner
00:54:33his arms folded
00:54:34and his teeth
00:54:35gnawing at his knuckles
00:54:36he bit his nail
00:54:38suddenly
00:54:38and stared at it
00:54:40I carried her
00:54:42he said
00:54:43towards the temples
00:54:44in my arms
00:54:45as though it mattered
00:54:46I don't know why
00:54:48they seemed a sort
00:54:49of sanctuary
00:54:50you know
00:54:50they had lasted
00:54:51so long
00:54:52I suppose
00:54:52she must have died
00:54:54almost instantly
00:54:55only
00:54:56I talked to her
00:54:57all the way
00:54:58silence again
00:55:00I have seen
00:55:03those temples
00:55:04I said abruptly
00:55:05and indeed
00:55:06he had brought
00:55:07those still
00:55:07sunlit arcades
00:55:08of worn sandstone
00:55:09very vividly
00:55:10before me
00:55:11it was the brown one
00:55:13the big brown one
00:55:14I sat down
00:55:16on a fallen pillar
00:55:17and held her
00:55:17in my arms
00:55:18silent after
00:55:20the first babble
00:55:21was over
00:55:22and after a little while
00:55:24the lizards came out
00:55:25and ran about again
00:55:26as though nothing
00:55:27unusual was going on
00:55:29as though nothing
00:55:30had changed
00:55:31it was tremendously
00:55:33still there
00:55:34the sun high
00:55:35and the shadows still
00:55:36even the shadows
00:55:38of the weeds
00:55:39upon the entablature
00:55:40were still
00:55:41in spite of the
00:55:43thudding and banging
00:55:44that went all about
00:55:45the sky
00:55:45I seem to remember
00:55:48that the aeroplanes
00:55:49came up out of the south
00:55:50and that the battle
00:55:51went away to the west
00:55:52one aeroplane
00:55:54was struck
00:55:54and overset
00:55:55and fell
00:55:56I remember that
00:55:58though it didn't
00:55:58interest me in the least
00:55:59it didn't seem
00:56:00to signify
00:56:01it was like a wounded gull
00:56:03you know
00:56:04flapping for a time
00:56:05in the water
00:56:05I could see it
00:56:07down the aisle
00:56:07of the temple
00:56:08a black thing
00:56:09in the bright blue water
00:56:10three or four times
00:56:12shells burst
00:56:14about the beach
00:56:14and then that ceased
00:56:16each time that happened
00:56:18all the lizards
00:56:18scuttled in
00:56:19and hid for a space
00:56:20that was all the mischief
00:56:22done
00:56:22except that once
00:56:23a stray bullet
00:56:24gashed the stone
00:56:25hard by
00:56:25made just a fresh
00:56:27bright surface
00:56:28as the shadows
00:56:30grew longer
00:56:30the stillness
00:56:31seemed greater
00:56:32the curious thing
00:56:34he remarked
00:56:35with the manner
00:56:35of a man
00:56:36who makes
00:56:36a trivial conversation
00:56:38is that I didn't
00:56:39think
00:56:40I didn't think
00:56:41at all
00:56:41I sat with her
00:56:43in my arms
00:56:44amidst the stones
00:56:45in a sort of
00:56:46lethargy
00:56:47stagnant
00:56:48and I don't
00:56:49remember waking up
00:56:51I don't remember
00:56:52dressing that day
00:56:53I know I found
00:56:55myself in my office
00:56:56with my letters
00:56:58all slit open
00:56:58in front of me
00:56:59and how I was
00:57:01struck by the
00:57:01absurdity of
00:57:02being there
00:57:03seeing that in
00:57:05reality I was
00:57:05sitting
00:57:06stunned
00:57:06in that
00:57:07pestum temple
00:57:08with a dead
00:57:09woman in my arms
00:57:10I read my letters
00:57:12like a machine
00:57:13I have forgotten
00:57:15what they were
00:57:15about
00:57:16he stopped
00:57:18and there was
00:57:19a long silence
00:57:20suddenly I perceived
00:57:22that we were
00:57:22running down
00:57:23the incline
00:57:23from Chalk Farm
00:57:24to Euston
00:57:25I started
00:57:26at this
00:57:27passing of time
00:57:28I turned on him
00:57:29with a brutal
00:57:30question
00:57:30with the tone
00:57:31of now
00:57:32or never
00:57:32and did you
00:57:34dream again
00:57:35yes
00:57:36he seemed
00:57:38to force himself
00:57:39to finish
00:57:39his voice
00:57:40was very low
00:57:41once more
00:57:43and as it were
00:57:44only for a few
00:57:45instants
00:57:46I seemed
00:57:47to have
00:57:48suddenly awakened
00:57:48out of a great
00:57:49apathy
00:57:50to have risen
00:57:51into a sitting
00:57:51position
00:57:52and the body
00:57:53lay there
00:57:53on the stones
00:57:54beside me
00:57:54a gaunt body
00:57:56not her
00:57:57you know
00:57:58so soon
00:57:58it was not her
00:58:00I may have
00:58:01heard voices
00:58:02I do not know
00:58:03only I knew
00:58:04clearly that men
00:58:05were coming
00:58:05into the solitude
00:58:06and that
00:58:07that was a
00:58:08last outrage
00:58:09I stood up
00:58:10and walked
00:58:11through the temple
00:58:12and then there
00:58:13came into sight
00:58:13first one man
00:58:15with a yellow
00:58:15face
00:58:16dressed in a
00:58:17uniform of
00:58:17dirty white
00:58:18trimmed with
00:58:19blue
00:58:19and then several
00:58:21climbing to the
00:58:22crest of the
00:58:23old wall
00:58:23of the vanished
00:58:24city
00:58:25and crouching
00:58:26there
00:58:26they were
00:58:27little bright
00:58:27figures in the
00:58:28sunlight
00:58:28and there
00:58:29they hung
00:58:29weapon in
00:58:30hand
00:58:31peering
00:58:31cautiously
00:58:32before them
00:58:33and further
00:58:34away
00:58:35I saw
00:58:35others
00:58:36and then
00:58:36more
00:58:36at another
00:58:37point
00:58:37in the
00:58:38wall
00:58:38it was
00:58:39a long
00:58:40lax line
00:58:41of men
00:58:41in open
00:58:41order
00:58:42presently
00:58:44the man
00:58:44I had
00:58:44first seen
00:58:45stood up
00:58:45and shouted
00:58:46a command
00:58:47and his
00:58:48men came
00:58:48tumbling
00:58:49down the
00:58:49wall
00:58:49and into
00:58:50the high
00:58:50weeds
00:58:51towards
00:58:51the
00:58:51temple
00:58:52he scrambled
00:58:53down with
00:58:54them
00:58:54and led
00:58:54them
00:58:55he came
00:58:56facing
00:58:56towards
00:58:57me
00:58:57and when
00:58:58he saw
00:58:58me
00:58:59he stopped
00:58:59at first
00:59:01I had
00:59:01watched
00:59:01these men
00:59:02with a
00:59:02mere
00:59:02curiosity
00:59:03but when
00:59:04I had
00:59:04seen
00:59:05they meant
00:59:05to come
00:59:05to the
00:59:06temple
00:59:06I was
00:59:06moved
00:59:07to forbid
00:59:07them
00:59:07I shouted
00:59:09to the
00:59:09officer
00:59:09you must
00:59:11not come
00:59:11here
00:59:11I cried
00:59:12I am
00:59:12here
00:59:13I am
00:59:13here
00:59:13with
00:59:13my
00:59:14dead
00:59:14he
00:59:15stared
00:59:15and then
00:59:16shouted
00:59:16a question
00:59:17back to
00:59:17me
00:59:18in some
00:59:18unknown
00:59:18tongue
00:59:19I
00:59:20repeated
00:59:20what I
00:59:21had
00:59:21said
00:59:21he shouted
00:59:22again
00:59:23and I
00:59:24folded
00:59:24my arms
00:59:24and stood
00:59:25still
00:59:25presently
00:59:27he spoke
00:59:27to his
00:59:27men
00:59:28and came
00:59:28forward
00:59:29he carried
00:59:30a drawn
00:59:30sword
00:59:31I signed
00:59:32to him
00:59:33to keep
00:59:33away
00:59:33but he
00:59:34continued
00:59:35to advance
00:59:35I told
00:59:37him again
00:59:37very patiently
00:59:38and clearly
00:59:38you must
00:59:40not come
00:59:40here
00:59:40these are
00:59:42old temples
00:59:42and I am
00:59:44here with
00:59:44my dead
00:59:45presently he
00:59:47was so close
00:59:47I could see
00:59:48his face
00:59:48clearly
00:59:49it was a
00:59:50narrow face
00:59:51with dull
00:59:51grey eyes
00:59:52and a black
00:59:53moustache
00:59:53he had a
00:59:55scar on his
00:59:56upper lip
00:59:56and he was
00:59:57dirty and
00:59:58unshaven
00:59:59he kept
01:00:00shouting
01:00:01unintelligible
01:00:01things
01:00:02questions perhaps
01:00:03at me
01:00:04I know
01:00:05I know
01:00:05now
01:00:06that he
01:00:06was afraid
01:00:06of me
01:00:07but at
01:00:08the time
01:00:08that did
01:00:09not occur
01:00:09to me
01:00:09as I
01:00:10tried to
01:00:11explain to
01:00:11him he
01:00:12interrupted
01:00:12me in
01:00:12imperious
01:00:13tones
01:00:14bidding me
01:00:15I suppose
01:00:15stand
01:00:16aside
01:00:17he made
01:00:18to go
01:00:18past me
01:00:19and I
01:00:19caught hold
01:00:19of him
01:00:20I saw
01:00:21his face
01:00:21change at
01:00:22my grip
01:00:22you fool
01:00:24I cried
01:00:24don't you
01:00:26know
01:00:26she is
01:00:27dead
01:00:27he started
01:00:29back
01:00:29he looked
01:00:30at me
01:00:30with cruel
01:00:31eyes
01:00:31I saw
01:00:33a sort
01:00:33of exultant
01:00:34resolve
01:00:34leap into
01:00:35them
01:00:35delight
01:00:35then suddenly
01:00:36with a
01:00:36scowl
01:00:37he swept
01:00:37his sword
01:00:37back
01:00:38so
01:00:38and thrust
01:00:39he stopped
01:00:42abruptly
01:00:42I became
01:00:44aware of a
01:00:44change in
01:00:45the rhythm
01:00:45of the
01:00:46train
01:00:46the brakes
01:00:47lifted
01:00:47their voices
01:00:48and the
01:00:48carriage
01:00:49jarred
01:00:49and jerked
01:00:50this present
01:00:51world
01:00:51insisted
01:00:52upon
01:00:52itself
01:00:53became
01:00:54clamorous
01:00:54I saw
01:00:55through the
01:00:56steamy
01:00:56window
01:00:56huge
01:00:57electric
01:00:57lights
01:00:58glaring
01:00:58down
01:00:58from tall
01:00:59masts
01:00:59upon a
01:01:00fog
01:01:00saw
01:01:01rows
01:01:02of
01:01:02stationary
01:01:02empty
01:01:03carriages
01:01:03passing
01:01:04by
01:01:04and then
01:01:05a signal
01:01:06box
01:01:06hoisting
01:01:07its
01:01:07constellation
01:01:07of green
01:01:08and red
01:01:09into the
01:01:09murky
01:01:10London
01:01:10twilight
01:01:11marched
01:01:11after them
01:01:12I looked
01:01:13again at
01:01:14his drawn
01:01:14features
01:01:15he ran
01:01:16me through
01:01:17the heart
01:01:17it was
01:01:19with a
01:01:19sort of
01:01:19astonishment
01:01:20no fear
01:01:21no pain
01:01:21but just
01:01:22amazement
01:01:23that I felt
01:01:24it pierce
01:01:24me
01:01:25felt the
01:01:26sword drive
01:01:26home into
01:01:27my body
01:01:27it didn't
01:01:29hurt
01:01:29you know
01:01:29it didn't
01:01:30hurt
01:01:30at all
01:01:31the yellow
01:01:33platform
01:01:33lights
01:01:34came into
01:01:34the field
01:01:34of view
01:01:35passing
01:01:36first
01:01:36rapidly
01:01:37then slowly
01:01:38and at
01:01:39last
01:01:39stopping
01:01:40with a
01:01:40jerk
01:01:40dim
01:01:41shapes
01:01:42of men
01:01:42passed
01:01:43to and
01:01:43fro
01:01:43without
01:01:44Euston
01:01:45Euston
01:01:45cried
01:01:46a voice
01:01:46do
01:01:47you
01:01:47mean
01:01:48there
01:01:49was
01:01:49no
01:01:49pain
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