Stop feeding the demon _ how I overcame my binge eating disorder

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Stop Feeding the Demon 🧠 | How I Overcame Binge Eating Disorder (My Story)  ✍️ SEO-Friendly Description (Supportive, Real, Targeted): 🍽️ “Stop feeding the demon.” That’s what I told myself when I hit rock bottom with my binge eating disorder.  This is my real, raw story of how I overcame binge eating — mentally, emotionally, and physically.  If you're struggling with food, guilt, or body image, know that you're not alone.  🧠 Healing starts with understanding the cycle — and breaking it.  🇺🇸 For viewers in the USA and beyond, this video is here to inspire change, self-love, and recovery.  💬 Comment if you've ever felt trapped in this cycle. 💖 You can take your power back. 🔔 Follow for more mental health, eating disorder recovery, and motivation content. #BingeEatingRecovery   #StopFeedingTheDemon   #MentalHealthUSA   #EatingDisorderAwareness   #MyRecoveryStory   #EmotionalHealing   #SelfLoveJourney   #FoodFreedom   #USAContent   #RealTalk   #RecoveryMotivation   #EDRecovery   #BreakTheCycle   #YouAreNotAlone   #MentalHealthMatters

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00:00I want to start this video off by saying I am so proud of you. It takes so much courage. It takes

00:09so much accountability to see that you have an eating disorder, to recognize that your eating

00:17patterns are not normal. This takes so much accountability and I know it's very hard. When

00:26I was suffering from my eating disorder, I did not want to acknowledge that I had a

00:31problem. Everybody around me was just suffering from a lack of control. They could not control

00:39what they put into their mouth and I had a lot of willpower. That's what I thought. But

00:46somewhere deep down, I knew something was wrong. I knew that I was lying to myself. I just didn't

00:52want to admit it. So you looking at this video, you trying to change, you trying to make something

00:59better from your situation, I applaud you because that takes a lot of courage. And I'm telling

01:07you, if you're only watching this video already, you have the power to overcome this. You know

01:14how many people get hospitalized for eating disorders without their consent, without their will, because

01:24they do not want to acknowledge the problem. They do not see that they have a problem. So

01:31you already looking for a solution, baby, you're halfway there. And together, I hope we can make

01:38work. Hi guys, my name is Liz and welcome back to my channel. So today in this video, I am going to

01:45tell you how I overcame my binge eating disorder. First of all, I do want to make a disclaimer. I am

01:53not a professional. I am not a doctor. If you are suffering from an eating disorder, this is very

01:58serious. And I would suggest that you consult a doctor. As in for every video of mine, I am talking

02:05from my own experiences. The advice I give you is what helped me. Some things that I say might not

02:13resonate with you. And that is okay. You can always take what resonates and leave the rest. But please

02:20do not take my words as facts, as they are only based on personal experiences. Thank you so much.

02:28Okay, so my story. I had anorexia, binge eating disorder, and bulimia. It all started off with anorexia

02:38when I was in high school. It kind of started, I would restrict myself from eating. I would be proud

02:44of myself if I didn't eat. And yeah, it kind of started off like that. I didn't really think that I had

02:51anorexia. Anorexia was something in my mind that's like, wow, it's like a trophy. If you have anorexia, you have so

02:56much discipline. So I even saying that I had anorexia, I felt like I felt too low of myself to even be in

03:04that aspect of anorexia, you know. And then because of because I restricted myself so much, I ended up

03:13later on getting a binge eating disorder. Because all the foods I didn't allow myself to eat, I wanted to

03:19eat and I wanted to eat them in one go. And I'm telling you, I could eat. And I could eat and I did not

03:26feel when I was full at all. Like I had no, there was no more sense in me that like, oh, okay, you're

03:32full list. No, no. My stomach would be about to explode. Like literally sometimes I was like, oh my

03:39God, my stomach is going to rip. But I kept eating. I don't know. It was almost like something took over

03:45me. I kept like eating, but it was obviously the restriction. It was the stress that came and the

03:51emotions that I just wanted to suppress as well, you know. But besides that, I don't really want to get

03:57into my story. I want to get into how did I get out of it. First of all, I need you to realize your body

04:06doesn't do anything before you think it in your mind. When you wake up in the morning, you think first, okay,

04:15I'm going to wake up now. And then your body physically wakes up. So when you are about to binge

04:21eat, when you are about to restrict yourself or starve yourself or purge, you cannot physically do

04:31that until your mind thinks I'm going to do it first. So once you can control your mind, you can

04:39control what you do physically. And when I realized that my mind is what controls everything, not only

04:46did I get out of my eating disorder, I literally changed my whole life around. Because what happens

04:53up here becomes reality out here. I started to see binge eating as a demon that was trying to control me.

05:03So I read this book, right, when I was in my binge eating disorder. It's called Brain Over Binge.

05:10In Brain Over Binge, this woman talks about you have the rational brain and you have the animal brain.

05:16So your rational brain knows when to stop eating, knows that like one meal, like, you know, healthy

05:22and good for you is nourishing and all these things. But your animal brain is basically moving on

05:28instincts like an animal and just wants to eat, eat, eat, and doesn't think straight, you know.

05:33So instead of thinking like, oh, this is my animal brain, I thought of it like, okay, look,

05:39this is a demon in my head, right? I created like, okay, this binge eating disorder is a demon.

05:45And if I eat right now all this food, and I would also think like, this food is too much for me,

05:50for one person, this is way too much, this is even too much for four people, you know,

05:53like I would eat like crazy, this is not a joke. So I was like, this is too much. So there must be a

06:00demon that I'm feeding, you know. So I would think, okay, if I eat this right now, this

06:05demon will get bigger and stronger over me. But if I decide to not binge and not eat all

06:12of this, then I can starve the demon, you know. So I started doing that. Also, this comes into

06:19my religion. In Islam, it's really not good to waste food. It's also, you know, bad karma.

06:28Like, it's really bad. If you want to manifest good things in your life, wasting food, binging,

06:36purging, doing that thing, that will give you really like, that will not, that will block

06:42your manifestations. Also, because you're mentally not clear, and it lowers your vibration.

06:50And also, like I said, it's bad karma, because you're wasting food, food that could go to other

06:54people, food that your family could eat, you know. It's a very, it's a mental illness, obviously,

07:01but it's also a very selfish act. But obviously, you're not thinking in that moment, because,

07:07you know, you're not thinking rationally, you're just, you just want to devour. But that's why I

07:15want you to think, okay, for your next binge, think in your head, like, okay, this is not me,

07:20this is the demon. The demon wants food. Are you going to feed the demon, or are you going to starve

07:25him? When I would feel the binge urge coming up, I would literally physically remove myself from

07:31the situation. So, when you feel this urge coming up, right, like you want to binge right now,

07:37you see all the food in front of you, I want you to get up and leave. Just leave the kitchen,

07:42leave the place, wherever you are, just leave. Go for a walk, go think about why you want to do

07:49what you're doing right now. Is it because you've starved yourself? Is it because you feel lonely?

07:54Is it because you feel stressed? Is it because all these emotions are coming up in you, and you just

07:59want to suppress them? What's going on? Other than that, what you can do is maybe call a friend,

08:06tell them how you feel, maybe talk to God, tell him what you feel, talk to the universe,

08:11whatever you believe in, write your emotions down, go journal, go drink a hot tea or a hot coffee,

08:18eat one healthy meal instead, go take a cold shower, go take a hot bath, anything that puts your mind

08:26at the attention of something else, you know, because your mind, you have to realize, like I said,

08:33you're not thinking rationally at that moment, so your mind has to just refocus their attention

08:39on something else. I'm going to be very honest, sometimes I just needed sleep, I just, I was just

08:44tired, but because I could not fall asleep, I would just binge, you know, out of like boredom or

08:50whatever, so sometimes it's also even good to go to bed. What I would also recommend is start breathing.

08:56Really, like even now, if I just breathe, it calms me down so much. You need to realize what

09:03your trigger foods are. Like for example, for me, it was sugar. I eat one cookie, I eat, I need to eat

09:10every cookie in the house, every sugar there is, I need to eat. So for me, the thing that helped was

09:18I needed to cut out sugar completely and not like, I just needed, I just needed not to see sugar. Like

09:25for example, if I wanted something sugary, I would eat like vegetables or something salt instead. That's

09:32what your food triggers are. And then I want you to not buy the binge foods. Don't buy them. Because I

09:39know that you're going to be like, no, this is the last time, whatever. It's not the last time. And when

09:43you buy it, you are going to eat it. So just don't buy it. Make sure it's not in your house. Make sure

09:49you just don't waste your money on it. I used to say to myself, oh my god, I have bulimia. Oh my god,

09:56I have binge eating disorder. I used to think those things. But then I was like, you know what, I'm

10:01going to stop thinking that. And I'm going to stop saying it as well. Why? Because I will manifest it

10:06into my life. And I will believe that I have it. So I will start to act like a bulimic person. And I

10:12will start to act like somebody that has a binge eating disorder, you know. So I actually start to

10:18acknowledge that, you know what, I don't have bulimia. I don't have binge eating disorder. I don't

10:23have anorexia. I just have a certain type of habits that I have been repeating for so long that have

10:31just become mainstream in my life. Certain type of habits that I can break because I can change my

10:41situation if I change the way I think about it. And if I change the way I view these things, you

10:48know. So stop telling yourself that you're ill. Stop saying that. Just say like, these are certain

10:55types of habits that I have been doing before that have worked for me to like suppress my emotion,

10:59but that have also made me depressed. So I'm just human, you know. I'm not ill. I'm human.

11:09Humans make mistakes. Humans do things to themselves that hurt themselves, but humans can get out of it

11:16as well. It's fine. It does not matter how many times you're gonna fall. As long as you get up,

11:22it's fine, you know. As long as you're moving forward. As long as you move forward, you're fine.

11:28Not, do not starve yourself. Because once you starve yourself, you are going to binge afterwards.

11:36Because your food, your body just wants all the food. That's the issue here. It's gonna become a whole

11:43cycle. What I want you to do instead is, from now on, every single day, every day, do not skip a day,

11:51even if you're busy. Every single day, have one meal. One meal at least. And a lot of people are gonna say,

11:59yeah, one meal is not enough. Believe me, for somebody with an eating disorder, right now,

12:04one meal is a lot, you know. So I did that. I started with one meal. Then I started two meals.

12:11And I said that like that, you know. And then I was like, oh, okay, I can. Actually, I don't even

12:16have to count my meals. I can just eat whenever I want. And it's fine, you know. Like, I still look good.

12:22I still have the body of my dreams. And it looks even better now than it ever did before, you know.

12:29Because I'm not focused on food that much anymore. I am busy with other things. I eat when I'm hungry.

12:35And I don't make it that complicated. But when you have an eating disorder, the only thing on your mind

12:39is the food. I mean, it drives you insane. It's like, you're going to bed, you're thinking like,

12:45oh, once I accomplish my goals, I will be able to eat this. Oh my god, once I accomplish my goals,

12:50I'll be able to do this. So the biggest issue with an eating disorder is the fact that,

12:57you know, when you're fighting with somebody outside, you can block them, you can ignore them,

13:02whatever. You'll sleep at night, you don't hear from them. It's fine. But when you're fighting your

13:08own brains, that's the biggest war ever. Because at night when you're sleeping, you're stuck with

13:15yourself. There were so many times during my eating disorder, during my depression that I

13:20told my mom, mom, I just want to take out my brains. And I just want to put them out of my body,

13:25because they're making me go insane. And I think that's the biggest thing, you know, and that's why

13:34I'm so like saying to you guys, if you can control your mind, you can become so successful, and you can

13:41control your whole life. I swear to God, this thing up here, it rules everything. I also started doing,

13:50I started to not focus on my body anymore. I did not care anymore how my body looked. I just wanted

13:55my body to be healthy. I want my organs to work. I want my hair to be thick. I want my skin to be

14:01plump. I want me inside to feel happy, nourished, and give it good foods. I drink lots of waters. I am

14:09bloated during the day, obviously, but my metabolism started working again really well. And I don't hold

14:16as much water anymore, because when I was dehydrated, and I was not drinking enough water, what your body

14:22does is it holds onto the water that your body has. So you look actually more puffy. But when you drink

14:28a lot of water, your body knows that there's always water coming. So it just flushes out all the other

14:34things that you don't need in your body. So right now, when I go to the gym, I don't go to the gym to have

14:38this dream body of mine. I go to the gym for my mind. Because when I start my day off with the gym,

14:44or I end my day with the gym, I just feel so confident. And I feel so good about myself. I feel

14:50like, okay, you accomplished this, you know, this, at least you did today. And I feel good about that.

14:56So just work out just to work out. Just eat healthy, just to eat healthy, you know, do things just

15:04because not everything has to have a reason, you know, stop obsessing about Oh my god, I want I want

15:10my body to look like this. I want this. You know what, start obsessing about what do you want to

15:14accomplish in life? Like maybe put this energy into goals into businesses you want to accomplish.

15:22You will be very successful. Really. But you have to put your energy somewhere else and stop labeling

15:30foods as like bad foods. There are no bad foods, really, you know, you just have to eat everything

15:36in moderation. For example, I would label sugar as bad foods. And that's why I would binge on them so

15:40much. Because I was like, okay, I eat one cookie. It means that I'm already lost. I lost the game.

15:47So I might as well eat every cookie, you know, and that's how my binge brain would work. So I want you

15:53to realize there are no bad foods is just food. Things are just things, you know, just food. If you eat

15:59moderation, it's fine. You don't gain weight, you just be fine. You know, when I really changed,

16:04I changed when I was like, wow, I'm sick and tired of myself. I am just tired of waking up bloated,

16:14puffy from all the sugar that I've consumed the day before from all the salt I've eaten all these

16:20things because I am so just obsessed with body image. Really honestly, because I am

16:29so obsessed with that. I just felt so tired of waking up out of my bed heavy, like my body

16:37felt heavy, everything. I'm going to give you the big secret here. You want to know how you

16:41can change? You have to just do it. You have to literally be like, you want to binge? You

16:49have to be like, I'm not going to binge. You want to starve yourself? You have to be like,

16:55I'm not going to starve myself. You have to realize that this up here controls everything.

16:59There's nothing more I can say. When I changed my mindset, I changed my life. And it's cliche

17:05and everybody says it. But once you're there, you'll realize it. I want you to know that I know

17:12that this is not easy. I have been here for three years and it was hard. This is not something that

17:19you can fix in like a day or something. Some people can. Some people really can. I couldn't.

17:25I relapsed so many times. So many times. But now I'm consistently free of it because I'm so busy

17:32working on my dreams and goals. I'm not obsessed with my body image. I do not care. I go to the gym.

17:40I eat my healthy foods. I look good either way. You know, I'm not obsessed with food. I eat when

17:45I'm hungry. That's the main thing of me. And I am done feeding the demon. You know, I am trying

17:53to manifest things. And I know that an eating disorder will block my manifestations. It's very

17:59hard. So I'm just trying to be mentally healthy. And to be mentally healthy, I need to eat good

18:08nourishing foods, foods that are like vegetables. I have, you know, I have a pescatarian diet. I don't

18:16eat meat. I eat fish and yeah, vegetables, all these things. I cut out sugar as much as possible.

18:26So yeah, I just have healthy diets, lots of water, go to the gym. And I do these things consistently.

18:33Some days, some days I'm bloated. I gain some weight. Some days I don't. And I lose some weight

18:41and it's fine. I just don't care. I never weigh myself anymore either. I don't even have a scale.

18:46I don't want to see how much I weigh. I just want to see how I look in the mirror. And that's good for

18:50me. I just have other priorities. Really. I am just so proud of you. Like I said, you are trying to

18:59change. You are trying to see that, okay, I'm not doing well. I need to change. And I'm proud of you

19:06for even clicking on this video. That's a huge step towards greatness. But I want you to realize it's

19:12all in your mind. Your body cannot do anything before you decide you're going to do it in your mind.

19:19A good book I would recommend for this is Brain Over Binge.

19:23And other than that, I just wish you healing. I wish that you're always blessed with everything

19:32your heart desires and more. I love you guys so much. And I appreciate the love and support that

19:39I get so, so much. Really, honestly, thank you. And yeah, I hope to see you in my next video.

19:48And I hope you can take away something from this. Thank you so much for watching. I love you all.

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