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00:06:07It sure is down from where they stand
00:06:11No one will notice our change of plans
00:06:18Sideswept, I've fallen for you
00:06:23Falling so hard that I can't make do
00:06:29I hope we'll love someday soon
00:06:35But right now I can't see this through
00:06:40But I can't love you
00:07:03If I can't agree
00:07:06Sideswept, I've fallen for you
00:07:14I've fallen so hard that I can't make do
00:07:19I don't get it
00:07:23But you're good at math
00:07:25You're good at like everything
00:07:26But math doesn't make any sense when you mix it with chemistry
00:07:29But you're so close
00:07:31Okay
00:07:34Alright
00:07:38Sodium plus oxygen equals sodium oxide, right?
00:07:44What it means is
00:07:47When sodium is treated with oxygen
00:07:50You get sodium oxide
00:07:52No?
00:07:54No
00:07:55Okay
00:07:56Na plus O2 equals Na2O
00:08:01Sodium oxide
00:08:02You want to put the coefficients in front of each one
00:08:05To get the same number of atoms shown on this side
00:08:08Basically
00:08:09You want to get the same number of atoms on this side
00:08:13As you have on the other side
00:08:15And then it's balanced
00:08:20That's it?
00:08:23Yeah
00:08:23But that makes sense
00:08:25Yeah
00:08:26This makes sense
00:08:27Oh
00:08:28Thank you, thank you, thank you
00:08:29It actually makes sense
00:08:31Ladies
00:08:41Is this what you call studying?
00:08:47It's chemistry
00:08:48I think it's time you go home, Rose
00:08:51Yeah
00:08:53Thanks for all your help, Vanessa
00:08:59Things are really starting to make sense
00:09:03I'll see you tomorrow
00:09:05Thank you
00:09:15Glow of the fire
00:09:19Praying to learn
00:09:21The heat leans on you
00:09:26Swear you won't burn
00:09:28Get mad when I tell you
00:09:33We'll make mistakes
00:09:36We're in no hurry
00:09:39We give what we take
00:09:42Like a well-kept secret
00:09:53Somewhere in the dark
00:09:56Until we're alone
00:09:59Under an electric arc
00:10:03You first get a feeling
00:10:07You figure out why
00:10:10Modesty don't come easy
00:10:13But I love how you try
00:10:33What?
00:10:37Are you avoiding me?
00:10:39No!
00:10:41Maybe a little
00:10:42I just don't know what to think, okay?
00:10:44I told my dad
00:10:45Wait, you told him what?
00:10:49About
00:10:49I came out to him
00:10:52You're not a lesbian
00:10:54Maybe we are
00:10:59No, I'm not
00:11:01Okay, fine, whatever
00:11:04Maybe when you're ready
00:11:07Don't
00:11:09Queer
00:11:11I'm not a lesbian
00:11:24I'm not a lesbian
00:11:25hey hi can you talk um i'm not really feeling that well listen i
00:11:44it's just
00:11:46well you were a real bitch to me rose i know shut up and listen okay
00:11:53it's just this is huge i finally figured something out something that maybe i've always known but i
00:12:04just couldn't figure it out and you've always known and maybe you're not ready or maybe your
00:12:14parents aren't ready or whatever but you can't just kiss me one day and then shrug me off the
00:12:20next this back and forth and back and forth again thing it's just too much you have to understand
00:12:25you made it sound so mean
00:12:30that hurt don't ever do that again
00:12:36you're my best friend ever
00:12:41i love you
00:12:44i worship you you're amazing you're funny you're smart
00:12:52you've never said a mean thing to me in your life
00:12:58i'm sorry
00:12:59i'm just
00:13:01i'm scared
00:13:03don't you get it
00:13:05my parents will disown me i can't let that happen
00:13:10you don't know that
00:13:11yeah i do
00:13:11look what they did to my brother
00:13:13i thought he moved away
00:13:16yeah well he had to
00:13:19he's married to ranel and it's like
00:13:22it's like he's dead to them
00:13:25what do you think they would do if they found out that i'm gay
00:13:29so you are
00:13:30no
00:13:30no
00:13:32i can't be
00:13:35i can't be
00:13:39besides i like guys and you know that
00:13:44it seems like you like me too
00:13:47you kissed me and
00:13:52it was like the best moment of my life
00:14:03oh no
00:14:09you have to go right now
00:14:12so it is true
00:14:13mom
00:14:14it's okay she's just saying hi
00:14:15sad confused little girl
00:14:19mom
00:14:20mrs lemay i just came
00:14:22i'm gonna have to ask you to stay away from my daughter
00:14:26vanessa is nothing like you
00:14:30i'll thank you for staying away from my family
00:14:35until you sort yourself out and gain some perspective
00:14:38do you understand me
00:14:50no it's
00:14:51it's nothing like that
00:14:52you know there's nothing wrong with that right
00:14:55are you gonna leave us too
00:14:58i'm not going anywhere
00:15:00you're not going anywhere great
00:15:01that's what matthew said
00:15:03i won't let that happen
00:15:05even dad sounds freaked out that you're gonna leave us
00:15:08it's okay it's
00:15:10it's nothing i don't have to
00:15:13i'll just
00:15:16i'll just ignore it
00:15:21it's not a big deal
00:15:23they're overreacting anyways
00:15:25i heard you're crying again last night
00:15:27you're too young to understand
00:15:29i'm only three years younger than you
00:15:30yeah well maybe you're lucky
00:15:31it's three years less of
00:15:38growing into the person you thought you were
00:15:40only to find out
00:15:41you can't
00:15:43it's three years less of being with the most
00:15:48incredible person in your entire life
00:15:51before she's ripped away from you
00:15:53and it's
00:15:54it's two years less of falling in love
00:15:57come in the kitchen
00:16:01at least go somewhere private
00:16:02if you can help it
00:16:06don't
00:16:10it sucks
00:16:23but i can't feel your touch
00:16:45so i'm falling out of windows
00:16:51cause i ain't feeling much
00:16:54in yourself
00:16:55if this is what you want
00:16:58this is what you get
00:17:02at all
00:17:05what's left is left
00:17:09i need to forgive me
00:17:12you don't have to be so kind
00:17:15this is all behind us
00:17:24i wonder what you're thinking
00:17:31oh
00:17:32vanessa
00:17:33hey
00:17:34how are you
00:17:36not bad
00:17:38how are you
00:17:39i'm good
00:17:40but i miss hanging out with you
00:17:43i miss you too
00:17:45it sucks
00:17:47my mom won't even acknowledge anything that happened
00:17:49or that you even exist for that matter
00:17:53i see that you're hanging out with ryan brown a lot lately
00:17:59yeah
00:18:00he's a little awkward but
00:18:04he's really sweet
00:18:06and he's like totally in love with me
00:18:09oh that's cute
00:18:10i guess so
00:18:12who are you here with
00:18:17um
00:18:18claire daniels
00:18:19do you know her
00:18:23no
00:18:24no not really
00:18:28well you better not keep her waiting
00:18:32i never thought you'd be one of them
00:18:38of all the things i'm unsure of
00:18:42i never thought
00:18:43i never thought
00:18:46everything we felt
00:18:52it was you
00:18:56with you it was you
00:19:01and everything you left
00:19:09it was you
00:19:14with you it was you
00:19:18into me
00:19:22did um
00:19:36you and vanessa ever hang out in here alone
00:19:39yeah all the time
00:19:41but we never
00:19:44never
00:19:45we were only ever just friends
00:19:49were
00:19:53friends
00:19:54past tense
00:19:58she's not my friend anymore
00:20:00that thing you talked about at pee flake
00:20:05you're in love with her right
00:20:14and she didn't love you back
00:20:17well
00:20:19couldn't
00:20:20love you back
00:20:21what
00:20:29well
00:20:30it's just like
00:20:32thinking about her clearly
00:20:33still bothers you
00:20:34so why torture yourself
00:20:35i'm
00:20:37you're right
00:20:41but i'm
00:20:42just not ready to do that
00:20:44yet
00:20:44well
00:20:51i've never really had a best friend
00:20:54so
00:20:54you're lucky
00:20:56yeah
00:21:02you
00:21:04you
00:21:05you
00:21:16you
00:21:17you
00:21:18But I can't love you.
00:21:29I can't love you.
00:21:48I can't love you.
00:22:18You sad, confused little girl.
00:22:24Stay away from my daughter.
00:22:48You sad, confused little girl.
00:22:56You sad, confused little girl.
00:22:58You sad, confused little girl.
00:23:06You sad, confused little girl.
00:23:08You sad, confused little girl.
00:23:36I've been Facebook stalking you know who.
00:23:45She and everyone posted pics from the semi-formal.
00:23:49I didn't go.
00:23:52She did go with Ryan Brown, just like I thought she would.
00:23:57It looks like she had a good time.
00:23:59It's the first time I've seen a smile on her face since, I don't even know.
00:24:06Honestly I think the last time was probably Desiree's party and that was forever ago.
00:24:16Claire went to the dance too, I insisted.
00:24:20She really wanted to go and Emilio said he'd go with her.
00:24:26I'm glad she had someone to go with.
00:24:30Kenny hasn't said anything about it, like not even a single word.
00:24:36I know he feels bad that I didn't go.
00:24:39He's such a good friend.
00:24:44We've always had this standing agreement that if the situation ever calls for it, we'd be
00:24:49each other's dates, unless we're not single.
00:24:54And now there's Alicia Van Heren, which he's so totally in love with.
00:24:58She's pretty and everything, but she's so nosy and kind of stuck up.
00:25:08And her friends are so judgmental.
00:25:12You know, it's weird, I should be relieved.
00:25:20Because ever since they became official, everyone's laid off me and Kenny being boyfriend and girlfriend.
00:25:25But we don't really see that much of each other anymore.
00:25:34We don't just hang.
00:25:39All of my best friends are moving on without me.
00:25:45But I guess I'm moving on without them too.
00:25:53Hey, sweetie.
00:25:54Hey.
00:25:55Wanna play a card game or something?
00:25:57I've got homework to do.
00:26:01You still seem so down.
00:26:03Yeah.
00:26:04Yeah.
00:26:05You know, I thought you'd be back to your old self now that school has restarted.
00:26:15No.
00:26:16What's wrong?
00:26:20You won't understand.
00:26:21Come on.
00:26:22It'll only make you mad.
00:26:27Rose.
00:26:28Told ya.
00:26:33Vanessa.
00:26:34Now, we know she's a good friend.
00:26:38We understand that.
00:26:40And I get that it hurts.
00:26:44But we have to look out for you.
00:26:46And we don't want you involved in that mess.
00:26:48Mess?
00:26:49This is very serious.
00:26:50We don't mind you having girlfriends.
00:26:52As long as they're girlfriends.
00:26:57How's Ryan, anyway?
00:27:00It must have been hard not seeing him all summer.
00:27:02He's fine.
00:27:03Good.
00:27:06Dinner will be ready soon.
00:27:20Hey.
00:27:21Hey.
00:27:22So my mom makes a great wedding party.
00:27:27What?
00:27:28Do you want to come over to my house tonight for dinner?
00:27:29Tonight?
00:27:30Yeah.
00:27:31I have to call my dad first.
00:27:32Okay.
00:27:33You sure your mom's okay with it?
00:27:34Yeah.
00:27:35Actually, it was kind of her idea.
00:27:39Oh?
00:27:40Yeah.
00:27:41I guess it's her way of being supportive.
00:27:42Oh, yeah.
00:27:43My dad's the exact same thing.
00:27:44I don't know.
00:27:45I don't know.
00:27:46I don't know.
00:27:47I don't know.
00:27:48I don't know.
00:27:49I don't know.
00:27:50I don't know.
00:27:51I don't know.
00:27:52Can I come over to my house tonight for dinner?
00:27:53Tonight?
00:27:54Yeah.
00:27:55I have to call my dad first.
00:27:56Okay.
00:27:57You sure your mom's okay with it?
00:27:59Yeah.
00:28:00Actually, it was kind of her idea.
00:28:02Oh?
00:28:03Yeah.
00:28:04I guess it's her way of being supportive.
00:28:07Oh, yeah.
00:28:08My dad's the exact same way.
00:28:10Well, I wouldn't go that far.
00:28:12Anyways, you in?
00:28:14Yeah.
00:28:15Manicotti.
00:28:16I love manicotti.
00:28:17I just have to go home and get out of this first.
00:28:19Okay.
00:28:20Great.
00:28:21Six o'clock?
00:28:22Okay.
00:28:23Okay.
00:28:25Oh, my God.
00:28:26I just said ee.
00:28:28Okay.
00:28:29See you later.
00:28:31Manicotti.
00:28:32Love manicotti.
00:28:34Oh, my God.
00:28:36Is this a date?
00:28:38Yeah.
00:28:39Oh, my God.
00:28:40Is this a date?
00:28:51Oh, my God.
00:28:52Oh, my God.
00:28:53Oh, my God.
00:28:54Oh, my God.
00:28:56Oh, my God.
00:28:57Oh, my God.
00:28:58Oh, my God.
00:28:59Oh, my God.
00:29:00Oh, my God.
00:29:01Oh, my God.
00:29:02Oh, my God.
00:29:03Oh, my God.
00:29:04Oh, my God.
00:29:05Oh, my God.
00:29:06Oh, my God.
00:29:07Oh, my God.
00:29:08Oh, my God.
00:29:09Oh, my God.
00:29:10Oh, my God.
00:29:11Oh, my God.
00:29:12Oh, my God.
00:29:13Oh, my God.
00:29:14Oh, my God.
00:29:15Oh, my God.
00:29:16Oh, my God.
00:29:17Oh, my God.
00:30:48I don't know who, but somebody saw you and Claire at the movies.
00:30:52Is it true you two are making out?
00:30:53Oh, God.
00:30:56I came running as soon as I heard.
00:30:57I guess she really isn't his girlfriend.
00:30:59Hey, Kenny, does that make you the beard?
00:31:05Ron, can you come?
00:31:20Sure.
00:31:21We've got four?
00:31:23Vanessa, I haven't seen you around lately.
00:31:27I know.
00:31:28My life pretty much sucks.
00:31:33Yeah, I don't get it.
00:31:34I mean, I know you're not allowed,
00:31:35but it's not like your parents have 24-hour surveillance on you.
00:31:38You two could totally hang out without them knowing.
00:31:40I don't know.
00:31:41You could.
00:31:44No.
00:31:45It'd be easy.
00:31:46Yeah, it'd be easy keeping it from my parents,
00:31:48but being with her and not being with her,
00:31:55Claire?
00:31:59Claire?
00:32:02Yeah?
00:32:04So I take it you heard the headline news?
00:32:08They're really happy, aren't they?
00:32:19Can you please tell her something for me?
00:32:22No matter what happens, I'm going to be okay.
00:32:25Have you ever戴 the inspiration?
00:32:37Yeah.
00:32:38No matter what happens, I'm going to be okay.
00:32:39Okay.
00:32:40Have you ever wanted to kiss a girl?
00:32:56No.
00:32:57Well, maybe we should.
00:32:59Just, you know, see.
00:33:10Vanessa, stop leaving your shoes in front of the doorway.
00:33:14I'm sorry.
00:33:17Come on, honey, someone could trip.
00:33:18No, I'm sorry.
00:33:21Did you have a bad day?
00:33:22No.
00:33:26You're wearing two different socks.
00:33:28I know.
00:33:29Mom and I specifically agreed that it's okay.
00:33:31I know, I know, I know.
00:33:32I was just...
00:33:33Hi, honey.
00:33:35Hi.
00:33:38Did you just get in?
00:33:40Yep.
00:33:42Vanessa, I had a bad day.
00:33:43What's wrong?
00:33:45Nothing.
00:33:45It's fine.
00:33:53What is it?
00:33:55You can tell us.
00:33:56No, I can't.
00:33:59Is this a female thing?
00:34:01Should I leave the room?
00:34:01No, no, it's not a female thing.
00:34:04It's nothing.
00:34:06Vanessa, you're starting to get me worried.
00:34:08For crying out loud, I just had a bad day at school.
00:34:10Okay?
00:34:10And I don't want to talk about it.
00:34:12Okay, we can leave you alone with that.
00:34:15If there's something you need to talk about, you can come to us.
00:34:18You know that.
00:34:20Yeah, of course.
00:34:21It's Rose.
00:34:33It's Rose.
00:34:33It's Rose.
00:34:33She's out.
00:34:38To like the whole school.
00:34:41I thought we agreed that you'd be staying away from her.
00:34:44Yeah, well, it's kind of hard when you go to the same school and have all the same classes.
00:34:47Besides, everyone's going on about how happy they are for her and what a cute couple she and this other girl make.
00:34:53It's like headline news.
00:34:55So she's going through with it then?
00:34:58Girlfriend and everything?
00:34:59Going through with it?
00:35:00God, you're so...
00:35:01Vanessa, why don't you watch it?
00:35:02You have no idea how happy she is.
00:35:04I mean, yeah, she's freaked out, but I know her and underneath she's glad.
00:35:08She's being herself.
00:35:09She's free.
00:35:10Oh, honey.
00:35:11Vanessa, we know she was a good friend.
00:35:13But we have to look out for you and we just want to keep you happy.
00:35:17We just want what's best for you.
00:35:19She has it so much better than me.
00:35:21That's not very fair to us.
00:35:23It's not very fair for me.
00:35:24Now, you listen to me, Vanessa.
00:35:26We want you to be happy.
00:35:28We want you to be yourself.
00:35:30Then let me.
00:35:31Well, for Pete's sake, Vanessa, what are you trying to say?
00:35:33You want to be a gay, too?
00:35:34No!
00:35:35I wouldn't want to be gay.
00:35:38I don't know what I am.
00:35:40I'm so confused and it doesn't matter anyway because you wouldn't support me.
00:35:43You are not gay.
00:35:46Is that understood?
00:35:46And as long as you live under this roof, you are our responsibility.
00:35:51And that means no more of this gay nonsense.
00:35:53I am not gay.
00:35:54I just said that.
00:35:55Well, then what are you?
00:35:57I don't know.
00:36:00I just want to be happy.
00:36:06Clearly, I can't be living here with you.
00:36:13It's me.
00:36:14Kayla.
00:36:14That's Kyle.
00:36:21Don't worry about him, okay?
00:36:22He's jonesing and Erica was supposed to grab.
00:36:24She knows how to handle him.
00:36:26Hey.
00:36:29Change a match.
00:36:30Don't worry.
00:36:30Hey.
00:36:38Hey.
00:36:40Hey.
00:36:40Hey.
00:36:41Hey.
00:36:42I'll keep you safe, okay?
00:36:48Hey.
00:37:00Hey.
00:37:00Wait, how old are you?
00:37:21Can't we just do this?
00:37:30There's only ever been one girl.
00:37:43Including last night?
00:37:48I know what you mean.
00:37:49Someone for real?
00:37:51She was your best friend?
00:37:55Let me guess.
00:37:59Then she blew you off.
00:38:04After years of torture, you finally had the courage to come out to her.
00:38:09You kissed.
00:38:10It was magic, but then it got weird.
00:38:16You tried to pretend like it was nothing for her sake, pretending it was just water under
00:38:22the bridge where there was this fat-ass elephant in the room.
00:38:29And then one day, she flips you off.
00:38:36She said something totally inappropriate and called you a dyke.
00:38:41Like, queer, something totally derogatory.
00:38:48Crushed you, didn't it?
00:38:52Here's something like that coming from your best friend, this girl you shared everything
00:38:56with, even your soul.
00:38:57And she pushed you away.
00:39:03And the fucked up thing is, you're the one who feels guilty.
00:39:10And now every time you even come close to falling for someone new, you feel that guilt even more.
00:39:16Like you're betraying her.
00:39:19Like you're not entitled to happiness.
00:39:23Yeah.
00:39:27Who hasn't fucking been there?
00:39:33Coming out fucking sucks.
00:39:37Yeah.
00:39:38Totally.
00:39:39Do you remember Rose?
00:39:56Of course.
00:39:58You two were inseparable.
00:40:00Yeah.
00:40:01Well, I think I...
00:40:04I see.
00:40:11We just...
00:40:13We have this really strong friendship.
00:40:15Like, really strong.
00:40:17And I thought that made us special.
00:40:19And then she started...
00:40:25She kissed me.
00:40:30And...
00:40:31You realized.
00:40:35How can you be so understanding when mom and dad are so...
00:40:40Old fashioned?
00:40:42I don't know.
00:40:46You know, Fatay Man, I hate how little we see you and Jacob.
00:40:51It pains us.
00:40:52I know.
00:40:53I'm not sure if Jacob gets it, but I understand.
00:40:58You just got too...
00:41:01Toxic.
00:41:02Last Christmas was especially hard for your brother.
00:41:07Are you okay?
00:41:08Yeah.
00:41:09You just get so quiet when we talk about GSAs.
00:41:12Yes.
00:41:13I know.
00:41:14I think they're a great idea.
00:41:15I really do.
00:41:16I'm just not a fighter the way that you are.
00:41:19Yeah.
00:41:20And you will do it.
00:41:21For the both of us.
00:41:23For everyone.
00:41:25You are such an amazing person.
00:41:29And I believe you're gonna change the world one day.
00:41:32I should get that.
00:41:35Yeah.
00:41:36Yeah.
00:41:37I have to go pee.
00:41:38I've had to pee for like 20 minutes.
00:41:39I should probably just go.
00:41:40But I'm having too much fun.
00:41:41I don't want to miss anything.
00:41:42Pee, you idiot.
00:41:43Okay.
00:41:44Okay.
00:42:09Vanessa.
00:42:10I...
00:42:11Oh my god.
00:42:12It's your birthday.
00:42:13Oh, I've been so worried.
00:42:14I haven't stopped thinking about you for a second.
00:42:16Oh my god.
00:42:21I love you.
00:42:24No.
00:42:25I know.
00:42:34I know.
00:42:35I know.
00:42:36I know.
00:42:37I know.
00:42:38I know.
00:42:39I know.
00:42:40I know.
00:42:41Vanessa, I...
00:42:46Oh my god, it's your birthday.
00:42:48I've been so worried.
00:42:52I haven't stopped thinking about you for a second.
00:42:56Rose, I love you.
00:43:02No.
00:43:07I missed you so much.
00:43:11I'm so sorry.
00:43:16I'm so scared.
00:43:17So much has happened.
00:43:18I just want to be with you.
00:43:19No.
00:43:41I have to believe it.
00:43:56Even if it's just nothing.
00:43:57Claire, you know what I believe in you.
00:43:59Wait.
00:44:10What?
00:44:12Nothing.
00:44:13Okay.
00:44:20Wait.
00:44:21What?
00:44:23I know.
00:44:24Keep going.
00:44:24Yeah.
00:44:30Um.
00:44:31Yeah.
00:44:32Is this...
00:44:34I think we can both agree this is a terrible idea.
00:44:37Okay.
00:44:37I don't care either.
00:44:38Okay.
00:44:38Okay.
00:44:38Okay.
00:44:38Good morning.
00:44:56Good morning.
00:44:57You slept well?
00:44:59Mm-hmm.
00:45:00Yeah.
00:45:01I have texts from Alex.
00:45:12So you two are...
00:45:13I don't know.
00:45:15We're working things out.
00:45:17Claire!
00:45:18Don't get all guilty-feely.
00:45:19You have nothing to worry about.
00:45:20Are you kidding?
00:45:21So then, what was last night?
00:45:25It was amazing.
00:45:28Technically, it was kind of like a dream come true.
00:45:31Technically?
00:45:31Mm-hmm.
00:45:33I've been wanting to do that to you since the day that we met.
00:45:38Oh.
00:45:43What?
00:45:44Was that your first time?
00:45:46Did it show?
00:45:51No!
00:45:52No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
00:45:53No.
00:45:55I mean, I have, like, I have on my own, but that's not what I meant.
00:46:04No, not like that.
00:46:05Right.
00:46:06Right.
00:46:08It is better with someone.
00:46:12It was...
00:46:15It was nice.
00:46:20Um...
00:46:21You're welcome.
00:46:27What?
00:46:30Was it wrong?
00:46:32I mean, you have Alex, and I maybe have Shaved Head Girl.
00:46:37Shaved Head Girl?
00:46:38The...
00:46:40Vanessa.
00:46:40The new Vanessa.
00:46:42Maybe.
00:46:44And we only went out once.
00:46:47Seems like it's pretty non-committed.
00:46:49Still.
00:46:51Like, you have nothing to worry about.
00:46:52You're innocent.
00:46:54I was innocent until last night.
00:46:59Last night was...
00:47:01It was two girls who have a past who didn't get a chance to say goodbye to each other.
00:47:08I wanted to love you back.
00:47:10I know you did.
00:47:13Just wasn't meant to be.
00:47:18Vanessa?
00:47:20Well, I think you have to look past all those things you believe about her.
00:47:23Not that Vanessa.
00:47:25This Vanessa.
00:47:26Like, what do I do?
00:47:27What do I say?
00:47:28Man, I don't know.
00:47:30I think you just have to be honest with her.
00:47:34Ouch.
00:47:35So what is it like, the movies?
00:47:55Airport goodbyes?
00:47:56Airport goodbyes?
00:47:57No.
00:48:01It was my first time in an airport, and I barely paid any attention.
00:48:06In the movies, it's always so big and grand.
00:48:10But this...
00:48:13This was more intimate than I expected.
00:48:18So this is goodbye.
00:48:21It's different this time.
00:48:22No, there wasn't a last time.
00:48:26What's next?
00:48:28Well, I have to check my bag, and then I'll probably...
00:48:30No, no.
00:48:32I mean, what's next?
00:48:35You and me?
00:48:36Us?
00:48:38Alex?
00:48:40Vanessa?
00:48:41I'm pretty sure that ship has sailed.
00:48:43I wasn't talking about her.
00:48:47Claire...
00:48:48Look, I have to say this one more time.
00:48:52True love will find a way.
00:48:54I have to believe it.
00:48:57Even if it's just a little bit.
00:48:59Claire, you know I don't believe in fate or all that.
00:49:01And one day, she's gonna show up, and it'll be so unlikely that you'll dismiss what your eyes are telling you.
00:49:08But then you'll talk.
00:49:11And it might not be magic at first, but...
00:49:14Then you'll know.
00:49:16And I'll have proven you wrong.
00:49:20You two are meant to be.
00:49:21This is the pre-boarding announcement for flight 47J to Calgary.
00:49:26It's me.
00:49:28You gonna be okay?
00:49:30I'll be fine.
00:49:35Bye, Rose.
00:49:37Bye.
00:49:39Wait.
00:49:43You know I do love you.
00:49:45You are the greatest person that has ever happened to me.
00:49:51How do I know this place?
00:50:21One day, she's going to show up and it'll be so unlikely that you'll dismiss what your
00:50:45eyes are telling you.
00:50:51How do I know this place?
00:51:21What are you doing here?
00:51:26I'm just up here with my dad and, oh that's right, your cottage is with this familiar.
00:51:36Yeah.
00:51:37I should go.
00:51:38Vanessa wait!
00:51:39What?
00:51:40Should we talk?
00:51:44Talk?
00:51:45I think it's a little late for that.
00:51:47What?
00:51:49I loved you!
00:51:50I loved you!
00:51:51And...
00:51:52And it might not be magic at first, but...
00:51:57And you'll know.
00:51:59Nothing.
00:52:00Just go.
00:52:02Have a good life for us.
00:52:04You know, I think I figured out why this place is familiar.
00:52:09Because Vanessa's family's cottage is near here and...
00:52:12You just saw her, didn't you?
00:52:13Go.
00:52:14Go?
00:52:15Go to her.
00:52:16Go to her?
00:52:17What about you?
00:52:18Stop worrying about me.
00:52:19You have a chance.
00:52:20You don't know what you don't know.
00:52:21You have a chance.
00:52:22You have a chance.
00:52:23You have a chance.
00:52:24You have a chance.
00:52:25Okay.
00:52:26You just go.
00:52:27Okay.
00:52:28Don't worry about me.
00:52:29I'll...
00:52:30I'll wait for you right here.
00:52:31Thanks dad.
00:52:32Vanessa wait!
00:52:33I'm going to live, I'm going to live, I'm going to live, I'm going to live.
00:52:37I'm going to live, I'm going to live, I'm going to live, I'm going to live.
00:52:40I'll wait for you right here.
00:52:42Thanks, Dad.
00:52:44Vanessa, wait!
00:53:10You seem grown up.
00:53:38So do you.
00:53:42Are you up here at the cottage with your family?
00:53:46No, I came here by myself.
00:53:48Why did you leave?
00:53:52Why do you think I left?
00:53:54Come on.
00:53:56No, I'm really curious.
00:53:58You want to know why I think you left?
00:54:01Yeah.
00:54:02I think you left because...
00:54:06I don't know.
00:54:10I have no clue.
00:54:14I have literally, and I mean literally, been trying to figure it out every day.
00:54:20Every day since...
00:54:22Since...
00:54:24Since the time at your new house.
00:54:26What?
00:54:28No, before that.
00:54:30When you abandoned...
00:54:32Abandoned you?
00:54:34Oh my God.
00:54:36I'm a grown up.
00:54:37What is that supposed to mean?
00:54:38No, you're still Little Miss Perfect Daddy's Girl self-centered Rose.
00:54:42You know what?
00:54:43I don't know why I'm surprised.
00:54:44This is so stupid.
00:54:46Nice, Vanessa.
00:54:48Run away.
00:54:49Worked for you the last time.
00:54:50Gabby, you can stop following me whenever you want.
00:54:52I'm not finished.
00:54:53Well, I am.
00:54:54You basically ruined my life the least you could do.
00:54:55Boo-hoo, Rose.
00:54:56I opened my soul to you, and you just threw it back in my face.
00:54:58You made me ashamed of who I am, and I've never gotten over that.
00:54:59Rose, you are pathetic.
00:55:00You have been afforded just about every privilege there is.
00:55:01You had everything, and you want me to feel sorry for you.
00:55:02After everything that I have gone through, I needed my best friend, and you weren't there.
00:55:05You think that I left you?
00:55:06You turned your back on me.
00:55:07What?
00:55:08Yeah, I needed you, Rose.
00:55:09I was crying out for help, and you and Claire just had to rub your hat on me.
00:55:11I was crying out for help, and you and Claire just had to rub your hat on me.
00:55:12I am.
00:55:13I am.
00:55:14You basically ruined my life the least you could do.
00:55:15Boo-hoo, Rose.
00:55:16I opened my soul to you, and you just threw it back in my face.
00:55:18I had no one.
00:55:19You called me a queer.
00:55:20You stopped talking to me.
00:55:21Me.
00:55:22Completely cut off.
00:55:23It was as if you hated me.
00:55:24No, Rose.
00:55:25I loved you, and I couldn't have you, and you knew that.
00:55:28If you wanted to be with me so bad, why didn't you feel like I was a friend?
00:55:31I was a friend, and you weren't there.
00:55:33You think that I left you?
00:55:34You turned your back on me.
00:55:35What?
00:55:36Yeah, I needed you, Rose.
00:55:37I was crying out for help, and you and Claire just had to rub your happiness in my face.
00:55:39I had no one.
00:55:40You called me a queer.
00:55:41You stopped talking to me.
00:55:42Me.
00:55:43Completely cut off.
00:55:44It was as if you hated me.
00:55:45No, Rose.
00:55:46I loved you.
00:55:47I loved you so bad.
00:55:48Why didn't you fight for me?
00:55:49You know what?
00:55:50If you didn't live such a sheltered life, maybe you could understand.
00:55:52I've had it hard too, you know.
00:55:53Oh, yeah, right.
00:55:54Yeah, right.
00:55:55I got beat up in school for being gay.
00:55:57Meanwhile, you completely stopped talking to me, amongst everyone else for that matter.
00:56:01Even your dad.
00:56:02Did you know that he was on my front doorstep crying his eyes out?
00:56:05It was the most heart-wrenching thing I ever saw.
00:56:07No, Rose.
00:56:08I was kicked out.
00:56:09I was a teenage girl who was told she had sinned, and I believed that.
00:56:14My mother kicked me out of my own house for that sin.
00:56:17If you had nowhere to go, why didn't you come to me?
00:56:20I already told you!
00:56:21You shut me out!
00:56:22You and Claire were so cute and adorable, and I was on the street.
00:56:27I was homeless.
00:56:28I was fighting on sexual predators.
00:56:30You know what?
00:56:31I don't know what delusions you've been playing with here, but you had everything, and I had
00:56:34nothing!
00:56:35I didn't have everything.
00:56:39I didn't have you.
00:56:42But what about Claire?
00:56:46I was a teenager who wanted to be wanted, and I'd lost hope.
00:56:51Claire wanted me.
00:56:53No.
00:56:54I wanted you.
00:56:58And I thought I was going to hell because of it.
00:57:03Can we sit down?
00:57:08Do you want to?
00:57:12My cottage is like five minutes from here.
00:57:14We can go back there and talk.
00:57:24So?
00:57:26We need to talk more.
00:57:28That's good.
00:57:29That's something.
00:57:31It would seem that we have conflicting memories of what happened.
00:57:34She, uh, she suggested that we should go back to her cottage and talk it out.
00:57:46So you want to go?
00:57:48Yeah, but what about you?
00:57:50I can take care of the storage locker by myself.
00:57:53Perry sounds half an hour from here.
00:57:56And I can even stay with her grandparents.
00:58:01I'll pick you up tomorrow.
00:58:03Or whenever you need me.
00:58:04Oh, I didn't think that...
00:58:08Is this a mistake?
00:58:12Sometimes, Rose, we need to make mistakes.
00:58:14Thanks, Dad.
00:58:25I love you, Dad.
00:58:44You thought I rejected you.
00:58:58But you knew.
00:59:00My parents, they're crazy.
00:59:02I know.
00:59:04So, what were you thinking?
00:59:06I guess...
00:59:08I knew it was your parents, but...
00:59:11I feel so stupid about it now.
00:59:15I had nightmares.
00:59:18About your mother.
00:59:20That day she caught us on your front porch.
00:59:23I guess...
00:59:26Was it just easier for me to believe that you hated me?
00:59:31But then how do you explain...
00:59:34What?
00:59:37That time...
00:59:39I came to your new house.
00:59:41How, after that, could you think it was me that rejected you?
00:59:44I mean...
00:59:46I kissed you.
00:59:48I...
00:59:49I told you I left you.
00:59:50I don't know.
00:59:51I can't explain it.
00:59:53My...
00:59:54My mind is so messed up.
00:59:57I...
00:59:58I think about that day all the time.
01:00:00Trying to make sense of it.
01:00:01How we never spoke after.
01:00:04It's all so different now.
01:00:07I don't know what to think anymore.
01:00:11I guess...
01:00:12I just tried to convince myself that you were this...
01:00:16That you were the villain.
01:00:19Rose, that's...
01:00:21Crazy.
01:00:22I know.
01:00:24And...
01:00:25What can I tell you?
01:00:26It must have been...
01:00:28Faith or something.
01:00:30With faith you can believe anything, no matter how stupid.
01:00:32Somehow I convinced myself that you lied about your parents.
01:00:37That you were the homophobe.
01:00:41I...
01:00:42Guess in a way I'm not really in a position to judge.
01:00:44Cause my brain...
01:00:46Kinda did something similar.
01:00:50You weren't there for me.
01:00:52When I needed you.
01:00:54And...
01:00:56Perhaps my mind took that to blame you for...
01:00:59I don't know.
01:01:01Instead of my parents.
01:01:03And thereby protecting my mother yet again.
01:01:06Protecting your mother?
01:01:08Oh.
01:01:09I've been seeing a shrink for the past couple years.
01:01:11You probably already knew that.
01:01:15No?
01:01:21Anyways...
01:01:23One thing that I've learned is that we always try to protect our parents.
01:01:26No matter how horrible they can be.
01:01:29We...
01:01:30Want to defend them.
01:01:32Even though it was...
01:01:34My mom who kept us apart.
01:01:36And my mom who forced me out of my own house.
01:01:39And onto the street.
01:01:41Which...
01:01:42Led all that stuff to happen.
01:01:44I...
01:01:45I still can't blame her sometimes.
01:01:47I blame me.
01:01:49Or...
01:01:50I blame...
01:01:51You.
01:01:52Anyone but my precious mother.
01:01:53That's nuts.
01:01:58Yeah, tell me about it.
01:02:01How are your parents?
01:02:03My dad's good.
01:02:04He's trying.
01:02:06I heard he's going to PFLAG meetings now.
01:02:08Yeah, right.
01:02:09My dad told me.
01:02:12Bull.
01:02:14He's gone a few times.
01:02:16On Thursday nights?
01:02:18Yep.
01:02:19Oh my god.
01:02:21You know, I didn't think that he'd actually taken up bullying.
01:02:25Our relationship is still...
01:02:27Kind of weird.
01:02:29Your mother?
01:02:31They're divorced.
01:02:33Oh wow.
01:02:35I'm...
01:02:36It's not perfect, but...
01:02:38I'm glad.
01:02:39She's not really in my life anymore.
01:02:41I'm sorry?
01:02:43Don't be.
01:02:45I mean...
01:02:47Jacob misses her, but...
01:02:49I don't.
01:02:51He's super tall now.
01:02:53He's like Matthew tall.
01:02:55Do you ever get to see Matthew?
01:02:57Yeah.
01:02:58A lot.
01:03:00He actually moved back home.
01:03:01With Fatima and Ollie, so that I could be their nanny.
01:03:04Ollie?
01:03:06Yeah.
01:03:07I'm an aunt now.
01:03:08Yeah, little Ollie has practically changed my life.
01:03:12Aww.
01:03:16More wine!
01:03:17Ha ha.
01:03:18Ha ha.
01:03:20Ha ha.
01:03:22Ha ha ha.
01:03:24Ha ha.
01:03:25Ha ha!
01:03:26Ha ha ha!
01:03:28Ha ha!
01:03:29Ha ha ha!
01:03:31Ha ha!
01:03:33Wh-what did I do?
01:03:35It's so weird, it's so weird, it's so weird.
01:03:37What's wrong?
01:03:38I know I'm not wanting to be so weird, it's so weird.
01:03:40I'm like...
01:03:41What's the... what's the problem?
01:03:42It's not your fault, it's not your fault.
01:03:43It's not your fault, it's a certain thing's triggering.
01:03:45Talk to me. What can I do?
01:03:48Help me.
01:04:13I had no idea.
01:04:15Of course not. Nobody knew.
01:04:20I wanted to tell you
01:04:21I felt like you were the only person I could.
01:04:28I still think about you, too.
01:04:32The good memories.
01:04:35Like coming here and
01:04:38tutoring chemistry.
01:04:42Sleepovers.
01:04:42I'm still waiting.
01:04:49For what?
01:04:52For you.
01:04:53I'm still waiting for you.
01:04:59I say I've moved on, but I haven't.
01:05:03I haven't really.
01:05:06Not deep down.
01:05:07I haven't been able to let anybody else in.
01:05:12And
01:05:13�� év leads.
01:05:14I do not have겠습니다.
01:05:20Love you.
01:05:22I do not have any.
01:05:24You have to pray for me.
01:05:25I do not have any luke.
01:05:25I hope you have any luke.
01:05:27I love you.
01:05:29I do not have any luke.
01:05:30I find any luke.
01:05:30I'm still waiting for you.
01:05:31I have no relief to my luke.
01:11:03It didn't even matter what we talked about.
01:11:06Nope.
01:11:07Just as long as we could keep going.
01:11:11I never wanted it to end.
01:11:13Especially when we were at your house, do you remember the last time we laid like this in my old bedroom?
01:11:27I don't know.
01:11:57If you were a little bit of a little bit of a little bit of a little bit of a little bit of a little bit.
01:11:58Hey.
01:11:58Hey.
01:12:00These things that happened, these ideas we had about us and about ourselves, sometimes you gotta mourn them that put them to rest.
01:12:09You're smart.
01:12:13You're smart.
01:12:13You're smart.
01:12:13We have now.
01:12:14We have now.
01:12:23We have today.
01:12:26I don't like...
01:12:28I don't like to talk to me...
01:12:46I don't like to look back anymore.
01:12:48I don't like to look back anymore.
01:12:50I could drive you back to the city if you want.
01:13:02When did you want to leave?
01:13:06I'm in no hurry.
01:13:08Are you?
01:13:10Nope.
01:13:14And I'll have proven you wrong.
01:13:18You two are meant to be.
01:13:20You two are meant to be.
01:13:50You guys could come with us.
01:13:52I'd love to. I'll run it by her.
01:13:54Cool. My dad could use a positive role model like you.
01:14:00Do I have your consent to tell her that I saw you here?
01:14:04Yeah.
01:14:04I hope to see you tonight.
01:14:08Bye.
01:14:13Vanessa, come on in.
01:14:14Hey, Vanessa.
01:14:19Hey.
01:14:19How's your week been?
01:14:22Nothing like I could ever expect it in my life.
01:14:25Good unexpected or bad unexpected?
01:14:27I'm not sure.
01:14:32So where should we begin?
01:14:36Well, I, um...
01:14:39I ran into someone from my past.
01:14:44And...
01:14:44And we've been texting ever since.
01:14:49This has been the weirdest week of my life.
01:14:52I feel like I keep repeating myself.
01:14:54This is really happening.
01:14:57I think the last time I recorded a video diary, Vanessa was still in my life.
01:15:05And now she's back.
01:15:07And here I am.
01:15:08None of this has been what I expected.
01:15:16That's stupid.
01:15:19I guess I thought I'd never speak to her again.
01:15:23I guess I knew one day it would happen.
01:15:27I always imagined that if I did see her again, I'd be in charge.
01:15:32I would tell her what a bitch she was.
01:15:34How she ruined my...
01:15:36How she was a negative impact on my life.
01:15:42But...
01:15:42None of that is true.
01:15:45It wasn't her fault.
01:15:48God, I...
01:15:49Still don't know what to trust.
01:15:52What really happened.
01:15:55She says it's the same for her, too.
01:16:03It's...
01:16:04Weird.
01:16:06I kind of got used to hating her.
01:16:10Now what?
01:16:14Spending the day with her was so...
01:16:18Peaceful.
01:16:21I even started believing that we might go back to the way it was.
01:16:25Keep your fingers pressed against your lips.
01:16:34I was cleaning my room.
01:16:36Just pretend that...
01:16:38Somehow I hadn't heard that song in all these years.
01:16:41And all of a sudden, it's randomly playing.
01:16:45And I'm 15 again.
01:16:47Where they stand.
01:16:49Everything I felt for her just came flooding back.
01:16:59I've fallen for you.
01:17:03And I'd give anything for it to be that way again.
01:17:09But it can't be.
01:17:20And I guess I don't want it to be.
01:17:22I mean, I was still in the closet back then, even in myself.
01:17:25Stuff Claire was saying about us being meant to be.
01:17:32The thing is, the Vanessa that she was talking about...
01:17:38She's changed.
01:17:40She's gone.
01:17:41And so much has happened to her.
01:17:47And I've changed too.
01:17:51Neither one of those two people are even alive anymore.
01:17:55And...
01:17:56Maybe these two new people...
01:18:00Aren't meant to be.
01:18:07I don't know what will happen.
01:18:11And...
01:18:12I'm scared.
01:18:16I've spent so long holding on to the past...
01:18:19That I feel like I'll lose something of myself when I move on.
01:18:26I guess I just described growing up.
01:18:31I don't know what will become of us.
01:18:35Maybe we'll just...
01:18:36Be friends.
01:18:37Maybe I'm okay with that.
01:18:48Or maybe...
01:18:53We'll see.
01:18:57I'm going to this thing tonight with Alicia and Owen.
01:19:05Maybe I should invite her.
01:19:08Maybe I should...
01:19:09Maybe I should invite Dad too.
01:19:12Owen says he'd love to see him again and...
01:19:15I'm so worried about him.
01:19:17He's holding on to the past too.
01:19:21I can see that.
01:19:25It might be too much.
01:19:26But with everybody plus Dad...
01:19:28He'd be the literal fifth wheel.
01:19:32No, he'd be the figurative fifth wheel.
01:19:34He'd just literally be the fifth person.
01:19:36I'll see if he wants to go.
01:19:40Sometimes he's in a weird place after counseling anyways.
01:19:43He might not be up for it.
01:19:49Vanessa?
01:19:55Yeah.
01:19:58I'll text her right now.
01:19:59They have no idea.
01:20:07I still haven't told them yet.
01:20:10Oh, it will be all worth it just to see the looks on their faces when she shows up.
01:20:29Hey, Blossom.
01:20:34Hey, Dad.
01:20:43Did I interrupt you?
01:20:44No, I was just finished.
01:20:47How was counseling?
01:20:49Good.
01:20:51Really good, actually.
01:20:53It's good.
01:20:55You, uh...
01:20:56You won't believe this, but, uh...
01:20:59I...
01:21:00I ran into Vanessa.
01:21:01Vanessa LeMay.
01:21:05That's...
01:21:05You see the same counselor.
01:21:08Yeah.
01:21:09Huh.
01:21:12Um, she's heading that festival tonight with her dad.
01:21:15And invited us.
01:21:18I just invited her.
01:21:20Well, she invited you.
01:21:21Us.
01:21:23Wow.
01:21:24With her dad, eh?
01:21:26Yeah.
01:21:27I was gonna go with Alicia and Owen.
01:21:29Oh.
01:21:30Uh...
01:21:30I don't...
01:21:31It's okay.
01:21:31I don't have to come.
01:21:32This is too important.
01:21:35Okay.
01:21:36Um...
01:21:37I'll get ready then, because...
01:21:39Uh...
01:21:40Actually...
01:21:40Do you know what asexuality means?
01:21:49Loud music, eh?
01:21:51I swear Owen said it was this weekend.
01:21:56Hi.
01:21:57Hi.
01:22:00Where's your dad?
01:22:01I just thought with Alicia and Owen coming, it wasn't a bring-your-own-dad thing anymore.
01:22:09I'm sorry.
01:22:10I canceled on them when I thought you were bringing your dad.
01:22:14But it doesn't matter anyways, because I obviously have the wrong date.
01:22:17It's okay.
01:22:18Hi, Nathan.
01:22:20Hi, Vanessa.
01:22:21Again.
01:22:21Again.
01:22:21So this is really happening.
01:22:30I guess so.
01:22:33You know, I'll, um...
01:22:34I'm just gonna go.
01:22:36No, Dad, wait.
01:22:38Are you sure?
01:22:39I feel bad I invited you.
01:22:41You don't need to worry about me, Rose.
01:22:42I'm exhausted, anyway.
01:22:46This is a new beginning.
01:22:48For both of us.
01:22:51You don't need to be out with that.
01:22:53You don't need to be out with that.