00:02Alex considered himself a dead man who was still breathing.
00:07This wasn't a dramatic metaphor, but the most accurate description of his existence.
00:13Every morning, he woke up drowning, not in water, but in an ocean of information,
00:20a silent, constant stream that whispered the universe's secrets directly into his cortex.
00:26He saw the threads of causality stretching like a shimmering spiderweb over the city.
00:33He saw how a minor decision, made by a bureaucrat on the seventh floor of a gray building,
00:39would, in three months, cause a car accident in which a girl would lose her beloved dog.
00:45He saw the illness taking root in a friend's cells long before any doctor could detect it.
00:51He saw joys, catastrophes, loves, and betrayals, all like a movie previewed just for him.
01:00He knew everything, and he knew nothing, because the universe, in its cruel and ironic wisdom,
01:07was a great whore.
01:09It had given him the key to the infinite library, but had taken his voice.
01:15Or, more precisely, it had distorted his voice.
01:18Yesterday, he had sat down with his sister, Anna.
01:23He loved her more than anything.
01:25He had seen her in the flow, six weeks from now,
01:29sobbing in front of an empty apartment, holding a key that no longer fit.
01:34He knew that her partner, the man Anna believed to be her soulmate,
01:39had been cheating on her for months, and was planning to disappear with all their shared savings.
01:45Alex sat in front of her, his heart in his throat.
01:49He looked her in the eyes and explained everything with painful clarity, with details, with impeccable logic.
01:57He spoke calmly, articulately, presenting the evidence he saw,
02:03future bank transfers, messages that hadn't yet been sent, lies that hadn't yet been told.
02:09She listened to him with loving patience.
02:12She smiled gently, placed a hand on his arm, and said,
02:17Alex, my dear, you're tired again.
02:21I don't understand a thing.
02:23It's like you're speaking your own language.
02:25It's just babbling.
02:27But it's cute how you get all worked up.
02:29Come on, want some coffee?
02:31His lips moved.
02:33The syllables formed perfectly.
02:35But all that reached her ears was background noise, like a radio caught between frequencies.
02:41The white noise of misunderstanding.
02:44To her, he was the brilliant but eccentric brother who sometimes had episodes and spoke nonsense.
02:51That was the moment Alex understood the curse in all its glory.
02:57He wasn't alone, he knew that.
02:59The flow had shown him others.
03:01A writer in Paris, who couldn't speak of the future, but could write entire novels that, when read between the lines, were perfect prophecies.
03:11A preacher in New Mexico, who could speak clearly, but whose audience, though nodding along, never retained a thing, leaving as ignorant as they arrived.
03:22Lighthouse people, whose light was only visible to other lighthouses, while the ships around them crashed into the rocks.
03:29To know that your sister is heading towards a cliff, and the only thing you can do is watch, while your attempts to warn her are perceived as the sound of the wind.
03:40This was the torment.
03:41To see everything and be utterly powerless.
03:45To be a god with sown lips.
03:47That evening, after Anna left smiling, leaving him in the ruins of his own clairvoyance, Alex sat down at his old desk.
03:55He felt a cold fury, a defiance.
04:00If the universe had imposed rules on him, then the rules must have loopholes.
04:05If a force forbade him from expressing himself directly, perhaps he could express himself indirectly,
04:12not for the deaf, not for those who only hear babbling, but for the others, for those like him.
04:18He opened a new document, and with fingers trembling with a cold rage and a new hope, he began to write.
04:26Not a story, not an explanation, a message, a cry encoded in simple words, a whistle in the dark that only certain dogs can hear.
04:37He wrote,
04:38The man who knows everything, but knows nothing.
04:42The universe is sometimes a great whore, if I may say so.
04:47It gives you access to the universal flow of information, the kind that some would kill for a mere fragment of,
04:55yet it makes it so you cannot speak of it.
04:58For some, it's that they cannot speak it aloud, only through writing.
05:03For others, the same, but they cannot write it directly, only through all sorts of examples, cases, nothing direct.
05:10Others can speak it aloud, and explain it well, but no one listens.
05:16Others still can speak it aloud, but those around them hear noise, they see the lips move, but it seems like gibberish,
05:23even though he is speaking clearly and explaining.
05:26So it is a great torment, and perhaps a great curse, to put it in the style of creation,
05:32to have access, but be unable to do anything.
05:35You know what is, and how it is, what will be, how it will be, but you can do nothing.
05:43In other words, you know X will suffer something, and you see it clearly, it happens in reality,
05:49but you cannot say or do anything, and even if you were to say it, they wouldn't listen,
05:54and what's worse, after it happens, you tell them, if you had listened, this wouldn't have happened,
06:01and they still hear only gibberish, and say it's not true.
06:05Hey, you out there in the wide world, if you see yourself in this, know that you are not alone.
06:12It is a heavy burden, especially when it involves loved ones, but we adapt, because that's what we always do.
06:18We get up, take a deep breath, and move on, searching for a way to trick that force or forces that forbid us to express ourselves,
06:27because in the end, everything has a set of rules, and once we learn them, we will know how to manipulate them.
06:34So here I am, and here you are.
06:37It's time to gather, together we find the solution,
06:41and the most important thing is that you are not alone, even if you thought you were.
06:46And you, the other one, who is reading this, and only sees gibberish, don't worry, it's not your fault,
06:53it's just that you don't have the eyes and ability to see and understand things that are not meant for you,
07:00because this message isn't for you, it is for them.
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